Just caught up on abandon my eulogy and LOVED it. Just augh im in so much pain I love these poor fucked up brothers so much.
As for the question: what do you think Ford would do if Stan just didn't come to life, if, no matter what he did, nothing worked. Would he ever give up, not seeing any other options? Or would he keep trying, doing literally anything, no matter how little hope is left. Would he ever be able to live on in a world without Stanley? Or would he give up on life itself, not seeing any other options?
Im so glad you’re enjoying Abandon my Eulogy!! I promise, next chapter soon ish. It’s gonna be a long one
As for your question, Ive had to ruminate on this for a while to really think about it, so here’s my answer
I think. Eventually. Ford would have gotten up, pulled himself to his feet, and dragged himself up those basement stairs. But he would not be the same.
Grief changes you as a person. GUILT changes you as a person. But it is survivable. I think if Ford exhausted literally every option, im talking options you wouldn’t even think we options (possible unicorn horn mixture revival? Other magical means? A deal with an interdimensional being?) he would eventually have to give up. He’d have to see reason, and go on.
Now this version of Stanford is a broken man. This is a man who has done a terrible thing, believed so readily that he could fix it, and couldn’t. This is a man who never got to say the things he wanted, needed to say. He would live. He would continue onwards in a world without Stanley, in a world where HE made it so there was no Stanley, but he would never truly enjoy living again.
(And, because Stan was never someone to leave his brother behind, his soul lingers in the world. Cold and transparent and invisible, he would live alongside his brother, a silent specter, watching and guilt ridden.)
