( @sainterror / simone. ) cait had called simone from the bar, where she'd considered taking her first drink after rehab. things weren't going too well, she'd gotten in a huge fight with her sister and almost quit her band entirely, it was rough. the glass of vodka sat in front of her, condensation dripping down onto the napkin underneath. her fingers reached out, drew patterns in the droplets, felt the cool glass beneath her fingertips.
it would be so easy to knock it back, knock back a few more. she could do it in the span of a few minutes. would anyone be the wiser? would anyone come to her rescue should she need it? twirling a piece of hair around her finger, the brunette uses her opposite hand to tap her fingers now against the top of the bar, hitting hardwood in a random dance to a song that plays only in her head.
"time will either heal you or kill you." cait can't help but snort out loud, looking over her shoulder to find simone who saddles up to the bar and takes a seat next to her. "that somethin' you learn in rehab or group or whatever?" she asks, a kinked brow as she shifts to face the brunette sitting opposite her.
"time, art thou a fickle bitch,"
she says, a huff of breath to escape her lips. reaching for a handful of pretzels that were currently situated in front of her, she pops some into her mouth and starts chewing. the salt helps, occupies her lips and tongue for a moment, but a drink would be much more satisfying. her hand begins to tremble as she brushes forward against the glass once more.
"do you think it's worth it?" she asks, not sure whether or not to expect a long winded response or a few short syllables. simone is capable of either, depending on her mood, and she hasn't been with her in enough time to place her frame of mind as of right now. "staying sober and all that? i mean, what's the harm in a little drink now an' then, y'know."
the blonde bites down on the inside of her cheek. a rush of pain. the tinge of crimson on her tongue, taste of iron in her mouth.
she breathes, an inhale and a long exhale.
"would you do it? do you do it?"
she asks, tilt of the head in simone's direction. "what's it worth being sober if your life is still shit for the most part? i thought this meant that there was gon' be enlightenment or somethin'. that things would get better. but they're not. they're still loose embers in an ever raging inferno. i just want....something different."