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Gals, I feel myself being pulled into JJK. Don’t get me wrong, I’ve read it as it came out, reread it, I follow Modulo, all of that. 

But I’m watching season 2 for the first time and I need a heart wrenching fic. 

Strangers to friends to lovers to enemies. Like, canon divergence. What would've been if we lived in a different, kinder world.

About Gojo and Geto (I mean, who else)

Any recs?

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Yelling this into the void: I will riot if they don't let Marie and Jordan end up together. And they better be happy!

Dont you dare show me a scene where somebody is dying in someone's arms, or I will find you.

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Released to Wander / Stains of the Pure - chapter 21

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19, 20 & 38 for the ask game~

Thanks for the ask!!!

19. favourite thing about the day - when the sun hits my bed just right and I can lie in it like a cat (when I'm home at the right time)

20. favourite thing about the night - the stillness of it, those couple of hours when absolutely everything is quiet

38. favorite song at the moment - Sufjan Stevens currently has a grip on me, for the pure angst he brings out in my writing... I'm going with The hidden river of my life

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i don't need your apologies. i need to know what's buried here

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proof of life: okay after doing the calendar I moved onto writing out the bleach timeline and pinpointing exactly where and when the story is taking place - under the cut is a nonsensical ramble that may include spoilers, so…

And I low key hate Kubo. Because he is a great writer!!!! And I can’t hate him. And I knew that before I started writing, but I didn’t concern myself to this degree with this. I did go over the timeline - okay wait before that, my thought process while I was figuring out everything. I wanted them to be like shippuden aged, late teens, so that they would be like more mature when they get to Gotei, like keep it YA. Which is something I didn’t have to concern myself with bc this man (https://bleach.fandom.com/wiki/%C5%8Cetsu_Nimaiya) is 2000 years old. The ages don’t necessarily influence how they look, and how a character matures in Bleach wasn’t explained. It didn’t have to be, it’s not important. But I had to do this to myself and complicate everything (not really, just in my head) and I had the idea to make them like in their twenties through the later part, but also the problem is I don’t know where to stop, or when I’ll finish the story because I do think it would be fun to at least have snippets of Konoha interacting with main Bleach plot somehow. But, I did maybe save myself by writing in this guy (https://bleach.fandom.com/wiki/Hidetomo_Kaj%C5%8Dmaru) as someone older than them (like a couple of years). So I do think I can bullshit my way through keeping them looking like they’re 20. Imagine something between the last movie and Boruto. Age doesn’t matter that much in Bleach universe - how someone looks - but it’s a crossover and I used their ages as an easier way to portray that they’re developing. And starting with characters that look 20 and having the plot that I have in my fic wouldn’t work. I want them to be kids.  

Okay, so the next part when I knew they’ll be like late teens and I needed to put them somewhere, that would have some action, but not main Bleach action because it would probably involve replacing Bleach characters I like/love. I want all of them. Together. I’m being greedy. And it would be too much to develop Konoha characters while the shitshow is going down. 

And then I slapped myself because I remembered the fricking Visoreds. They’re *perfect* and the whole plot is perfect. Also, I was like, yeah, it would be cool if they witnessed Rukia’s death and to use it as a trauma bound between team 7 [this sounds so dark omg I swear I’m normal]. Problem: Rukia dies approximately 150 years before the main Bleach plot. Visored happened, canonically, 101. years before. 112. years before Rose became captain, who I already wrote in as a Captain. 110. years before Urahara becomes Captain, which I have to write in. And a bunch of important bleach characters need to go to the academy as well.

Do you see the problem? math isn’t mathing. But math is not important when you’re writing. I gripped that approximately and used it as a jumping rope, because we can’t and shouldn’t trust approximately blindly. Rose fucked me up a little, but that’s one year. It’s fanfiction.

But. If I write that they’re (Konoha kids, keep up, you’re doing great sweety) in the Academy during the 110. year when Urahara becomes captain, which I was planning to do. I have a whole ten years between that and Visoreds. A decade. I can’t write a whole decade. It took me 50k words to cover two months. Not even full two months. Like, yeah, I want to develop some relationships, but not over a decade. And I don’t want to time skip that much. Bc it would be like okay they’re holding hands. Blank. five whole ass years passed. New chapter. The characters have not developed at all. We’ll now cover a week where everything important happens and they idk kiss. Blank. two years. Yeah, they’ve been at the kissing stage for the last two years. 

You get it. I want slow burn, not torture. [This can be written well, don’t get me wrong. But not by me.] And I do want to explore the Bleach universe to this degree. Because it deserves it so much, it’s such a good place.

Also. I’m not done. We have another time skip. This time 50 years. So like halfway between Visored/what I’m currently writing and the main Bleach plot. And here we have Byakuya, Hisana, Rukia, Renji, Kira, Hisagi, Momo. Which is also important. (like I planned this part in interactions between Hisagi and Sakura, or/and Byakuya and Sasuke, not covering them in detail, more how that influences SasuSaku).

Again. I can't write about 50 years. Five whole decades. Which is half a century. I can’t. 

You thought we were done? Oh, honey. We have another time skip - 30 years. when the trails for the main Bleach plot are scattered. Isshin, Masaki, Kaien, Rukia, Aizen, Gin, Tosen. And Quincies. Incredibly important. Should they have a kid here? But I don’t want them yet. But it would make sense. And I do want Sarada. And the rest of the kids. Some. Not all necessarily. Don’t know about that part. Because I would rather write SasuSaku as parents having a job and juggling kid(s) and having support (because uchihas are alive) then sending Sarada as a character into the main Bleach plot. The weird way souls mature would actually be helpful here. 

And yeah. In the end. We would end up with another time skip. To the main Bleach plot. Where I would like to squeeze in Konoha kids somehow. I have some ideas. 

Now. This was the part that covers how Bleach plot intervenes into my plot. I have some plot of my own. I swear I do. And I do have some solutions: write a tragic dark love story where everyone dies and nobody is happy and that’s why we don’t see them in bleach canon, and Aizen wins, establishing how powerful and smart he is. This would go so hardddddd. But I love myself and my mental health. The first thing that comes to me are morbid solutions, think light dd:dne, and I have to tone myself down. And force myself to think happy thoughts. And write something fluffy. Balance is everything. I can’t kill them all off [but i may write a short story, snippets if/when i’m done with this because i do have some cool ideas and not everything needs to be this long but i also have another couple, not from any on this i would like to write about “darkly”]. So no, I don't want that. Another is butchering the Bleach timeline and compressing it further. Which is great for my characters. But not for everyone else in the Bleach universe. Their age does matter, at least to a degree. To me?The more I wrote about this, the more I don’t care about the numbers. Maybe. I hope. More like I’m concerning myself with something that isn’t actually a problem. People are dying, Kim. And I accounted for some time skips. But not this much. Btw this is something that goes in my head and writing it out helps to get it out of my head so I can focus on other things. I’m posting because I can? And if you read this (it's over 1k words btw) you do know I’m not this crazy? And I have other things to talk about. You can reach out and ramble on with me. That’s all.

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Personal, you can skip

Okay, so, I'm writing this out as a way for you to get to know me better, if you want, and also to get it out of my head. And to procrastinate on my personal work and the fanfic...

The manga/anime I enjoy, in no particular order: Bleach, Naruto, One Piece, Full Metal Alchemist (Brotherhood), Death note... Also, out of the newer ones I've read My Hero Academia and Jujutsu Kaisen... and they just don't hit right, but I understand I'm not the intended audience for it. But I would like to read JJK one more time, from start to finish because I've read it weekly and you forget some stuff that way.

Books: current obsession (that's been going on for years) is definitely Brandon Sanderson and the whole of Cosmere (seriously, look it up if this is the first time you hear of it), ACOTAR because it what got me back into reading (like real books, not literature for college). As a kid Eragon is what started me down the road of fantasy, which then continued into HP (I don't mess with it anymore, you know why), mangas and everything else like Hunger Games... On the other side of the spectrum, I also love Victor Hugo, George Orwell, sir Arthur Conan Doyle. Because of school I've read most of the "masterpieces" of the 18th/19th/20th century and continued onto other classics. Video games! I do consider myself a gamer, when I've time my go to are: on PC: a fixation on The Sims 4 that lasts about two weeks at least once a year, Palia at one point, which I really need to get back into because they added animals, Stardew Valley (can you guess who I always marry?), Horizon Zero Dawn and Horizon Forbidden West (I really should finish HFW) on Switch: First, a little backstory that nobody asked for. As a kid, my family couldn't afford to buy me a Gameboy (we had PS1&2, nintendo wasn't widely available). So, the first time I saw the Nintendo Switch it was like, this is something that I need for my inner child. Saved up and brought it for my 24th(?) birthday I think. The main reason was so I can play Pokemon, because that's all I knew about. Brought BOTW because the new pokemon game still hasn't come out, and let me tell you, I absolutely fell in love with LoZ! I seriously didn't know much about it before, and then I discovered earlier games and played almost each one that I could. So, on switch I've BOTW, TOTK, the new zelda game, the remaster of link's awakening (that i still haven't played), pokemon, witcher, some mario games... The basic stuff I guess

TV/movies/series: currently watching (passively listening) to House. I like lowkey stuff that can be played in the background, for example Parks&Rec, Brooklyn Nine-Nine, The Rookie, various true crime podcasts and stuff like that. I honestly can't remember the last time I sat and watched something with my full attention, but I've always been like that. Something maybe too personal, but as a kid I had a few more pounds because I had to do something with my hands while watching TV and I usually ate something. I wouldn't say I was/am overweight but I think I finally kicked that habit and have been slowly losing weight.

Music/songs: Something that I listen to while writing this work is this playlist (also, I only use youtube with an adblock for music, I don't like all the other alternatives like spotify or whatever else, you cant put an adblock on it + I really recommend this user, they have great playlists), the broad genre I listen to is rock(?). I don't know anymore honestly. I grew up on FOB, a little emo child on the inside. The artists that are in my music currently are: Andrew Montana, Hozier, Gang of Youth, Bastille, Cosmo Sheldrake, Stromae, Maneskin, Sufjan Stevens and surprisingly bbno$ (the song like meant to be, help herself etc). There is also a sprinkle of local artists. Hobbies(?): walking my dog (cranky little old man that I would kill for), hanging out with friends, gaming, writing. What I'm trying to focus on is stuff that doesn't involve my looking into a screen. Which led to some embroidery which I really do love and plan to get back into. I would also really like to learn how to draw. I think this is pretty much it, maybe I'll add more at some point. My plans for the future are to work on myself more, like my appearance. My only exercise currently is walking and stretching, which I would like to expand. And if you've read this far, feel free to reach out and start a conversation, I would like to have new friends!