#scarilysweet

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scarilysweet replied to your post: #food  god FUCK ME i make the best fucking salmon....

i really want to try salmon. you should come over and then make me salmon and then i will bake you a cake. OR better yet, because i can’t fucking eat now, you should let me eat approximately 2 bites of your salmon, and i will bake you a cake.

does ya boy like salmon? cuz i can give you the recipe i use and if you don’t like it/can’t eat it (ugh) you can use him as a garbage disposal

[theklingerkollection]

@scarilysweet RIGHT?! For me it wears off insanely fast, but still feels numb somehow, so I can feel pain/etc, but the frozen marshmallowy quality remains for HOURS. AND for some reason, a local meant to freeze a tooth or two can freeze my whole face, scalp, and neck on whatever side of my head it is. It's a nightmare from start to finish.

[eenymeenypia]

I honestly dont remember at what point I decided to keep you. I remember not knowing you, and then I remember being at 100 with you, and I don't remember any growing in between.

You know I feel the same.  I remember Animal Crossing being a major thing. But I also remember I only started playing because you had the game and I thought it would be fun.

It matter not now.

THE UNION IS COMPLETE

[insearchofanexit]

Multiples of 13 for the 65 questions list!

ELO YOU’RE MAKING ME MATH?! DAMMIT.

13. Your worst enemy?

I don’t think I have one? Or if I do, it’s a very one-sided affair in which they’re probably stewing and cursing my name and I’m just like *eats a rice cake* I wonder if bees have feelings.

I answered 26 already so I’m gonna do 25.

25. You just found $100! How are you going to spend it?

I need to buy Epilogue concert dvd and Ravi’s first mini album. After that I’ll have, what like 35, 40 bucks? A nice dinner somewhere.

39. What type of music do you like?

I’m not picky. I listen to anything. I mean my faves are bangtan, nine inch nails, britney spears, fall out boy, and creedence clearwater revival...

52. How long could you go without talking?

Months. That’s not an exaggeration. I don’t speak aloud very often if I’m not forced to.

65. Freebie! Ask anything interesting you can think of.

YOU DIDN’T PICK SOMETHING. I’m gonna answer a question I make up, then. Hey Cara if you could move into any AU you’ve written which would you pick? Oh man that’s tough. I’d probably live in either golden street au or sunshine boyfriends au. I’m leaning toward sunshine boyfriends. I mean...there’s vampires. If I had a werewolf au though I’d pick that one.

[justaquickquestion]

scarilysweet replied to your post “Grandmother told me today she “loves [me] more than Jesus.”

i cry

SAME she loves me so fully

when i came out to her i did it by accident bc my now-disowned uncle was egging me on about politics, and “liberals take things so personally! why are you so EMOTIONAL about it???” (...at the family reunion weekend.)

I shouted, “BECAUSE I’M TRANSGENDER!” with a few extra words about how literally this is my and my friends’ lives that are at stake.

Grandmother told me, “Now, when I wanted to marry your grandpa, my family all hated Catholics. My mother didn’t even think they were people before that! But she told me she loved me and wanted me to be happy, so even though she didn’t understand it, she would accept it. And that’s what I want to offer you, now. I don’t understand it, but I love you, and I want you to be happy.”

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Since then she’s asked me a bunch of questions and tried to understand more and more. She’s never critical of my answers and never reacts with disbelief or invalidation, even when she’s surprised by the things i tell her. Also, she keeps introducing me to people with, “This is my granddaughter, Kathleen. And she is transgender! So she goes by Connor.”

At first she told me she had told her church friends (who remember me as a child back when grandmother would take care of us twins), and she said, “I didn’t have to do that! I could’ve kept it a secret and not let them know, and not worry about what they thought. But I wanted to claim you to them! I want you to know that i’m proud of you!”

She just now moved into a care home (a v v good one) bc dementia struck real fast, and she has been telling everyone this, first thing. I follow up with “...so that’s why you’ll hear her use one name for me when my name now is Connor,” and none of her neighbors have reacted funny yet. Anyway, none of them will probably remember next time they see me, and I’m gonna be back in washington soon!

The important thing to me is that she is claiming me, openly declaring this, showing me that even though she knows her peers may not understand, I’m more important to her than their opinion.

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scarilysweet replied to your post: You should probably all know that if @scarilysweet...

this is so poetic i could cry

Well I do love making you cry...

[fourteen--steps]

Blue-tongued skink: Do you have any tattoos? Do you plan on getting any?

I don’t!! But I do!! 

The only one I’ve actually decided on is getting the words “we were never welcome here”. Both because it’s a song lyric that has some special meaning to me, and because I also read it at one point a year or three ago in the context of an article on disability and accessibility. It was a line that really jumped out and stuck with me, put into words a lot of the frustrations and misgivings I was having as a newly minted disabled young person really struggling to make my way in the world and kind of launched me into the idea and community of cpunk. It still resonates a lot with me. 

I know I want more than that too, I don’t know what yet. But I absolutely want my body to have color and beauty on it

[pommunism]

scarilysweet replied to your post: y'all the peaches i got on my last grocery trip...

teleport me there and let me make you peach pie with them. or peach cobbler. or just let me eat one and pet your 13 pets.

excuse u i have 16 pets