I didn't expect him to come and talk to me as often as he does. Kind of surprised that he's even getting permission to see me so often. I think it may be that since he grew up "on the outside", he's having trouble adjusting. I mean, I would too. I had a hard time adjusting to the environment just as a worker... I can't imagine needing to adjust to being treated like you are just a number, undeserving of a name, just a thing and not human...
Ah, this is getting a bit soul search-y...
I must say that I'm incredibly surprised about his social nature. He's extremely talkative when he's comfortable around you. He's somehow made friends with some of the security and research staff because of his friendliness. Of they need to keep it low profile, lest they get transferred away to a different place. That one researcher, though... I don't know... I just don't trust her. I get bad feeling around her.
Well... nonetheless, "the scp" explained that he has some of his first experiments coming up. Just general ones; testing controlled time on sleeping, the difference in sleepwalking control (natural sleep v his touch sleep), and some sort of sleeping test that he tried to explain to me but I still have no idea what he was talking about. I mean, he did go to college to be... a sleep physician? A sleep doctor of some sort of profession... well 2 since he double majored.
I let him talk about it the rest of the session, only asking one question occasionally, just to let him know I was listening. He looked happy talking about it. Explaining all the intricacies of the brain while falling asleep, asleep, and waking up. Yeah, still had no idea what exactly he was saying... but... I didn't want to interrupt his happiness and his info dumping on his special interest....
I remember this... I wish I caught that happiness in a bottle or a picture of him smiling like he did.
It hurts... my heart to think back and only vaguely recall memories, everything is cloudy and skips around, only catching certain moments. I feel like I could have done something. Especially after that experiment..... detail later.
I cant wallow in self pity, it's not about me. It's about him. I need to find out something. Anything to find out what I can do to bring him back to safety.
I have a meeting set up again with 343. Apparently he made it in advance because he knew ahead of time what time and day I would call for. Smug bastard. Don't get me wrong, he's nice and all but I just don't like his attitude sometimes.
Fuck, he probably knows everything already and he won't tell me what to do. I need to prepare some questions.
