you asked for soft thoughts *cracks neck* thinking of you comforting sejun during rehearsal dinner because earlier at the venue for rehearsals he (being the clumsy loser he is) got startled by the pastor rounding the corner he pushed him into the water fountain… so now he’s just thinking that he will mess up during tomorrows ceremony, you reassure him that even if he messes up it won’t matter cause you’re marrying the love of your life. all in all, the reception goes without a hitch! it’s at the reception he topples over the cake while trying to cut it 🥹
noooooo this is so cute STOP IT VESPER :((((((((
warnings: they get married (obv). implied christian wedding (church, pastor, etc). sejun cries a million and 1 times. not proofread and written on tumblr so definitely a mess but it's soft thoughts so it doesn't matter hehe.
wc: ~860.
he literally WOULD need comforting he's so nervous. during rehearsal everything is going okay (he's literally just standing there he can't mess up) and his best man is by his side just noticing how fucking down bad he is and how his hand is shaking. he tries to hide it by clasping his hands tightly but he fails. suddenly his suit feels itchy and like it fits him wrong. he's questioning whether he even looks half decent because how the hell did he end up with someone as gorgeous as you, he can't even compare :(
and on the way to the church hall where the rehearsal dinner will be after you had run through all the actual service stuff, he gets so scared when the pastor tries to friendly wrap his arm around his shoulder to congratulate him 😭😭😭 he apologizes profusely because his survival instincts kicked in or something cause why did he push the poor guy into the fountain in the front 😭😭 sejun is just way too nervous :(
his brain is racing a mile a minute and he needs to get back by your side immediately because you're the only thing that keeps him calm </3. when you're finally eating dinner, he was supposed to be seated across from you, but he forces one of your bridesmaids to switch with him because he needs to be next to you 😭😭😭😭 he'll hold your hand under the table to try to calm himself down :( you think he's so endearing, you can feel his hand shaking and how warm it is <//3 you just know his brain is just thinking through everything. he knows he's gonna cry tomorrow but more than that he's worried he'll trip or stutter over his words or something will go wrong. he probably has to have a pep talk with his mom after rehearsal dinner cause even she can see that he's stressing from across the dining hall
then comes the actual day of the wedding and the only thing keeping sejun sane is his groomsmen making sure he's calm. they're hyping him up and making sure he looks sharp and not a single hair is out of place. he feels confident as he walks up to the chapel but he loses it IMMEDIATELY once he sees all the flowers and decorations because everything becomes so real. he cries even before the service starts. when the music starts playing and its his time to walk down the aisle and wait for you, he's using his 4-7-8 breathing to keep calm and panicking even more cause his heart rate is NOT FUCKING SLOWING DOWN LMAOKSJDKS
but he gets to the alter and all he has to do is stand. he can do that, right? wrong. he cries so much as soon as you start walking down the aisle. seeing you in your dress for the first time is so surreal. he loves you so much you're the most beautiful person he's ever met both inside and out and he thinks the love he holds for you is gonna swallow him whole at any point. during the entire service he's a wreck of nerves and love and everything just feels so REAL and he's so so happy and emotional. his best man has to keep holding a box of tissues the entire time because sejun cries again and again and again throughout the pastor's talking about marriage and love and being forever united. seeing him so emotional gets you emotional too :(
during vows he's the worst. he's crying, laughing, stuttering. all the words get caught in his throat but he manages. his vows are super sweet and heartfelt, so so endearing just like him :( all the guests find it so funny how he's the more emotional one on the day since the bride is usually the one to feel overwhelmed for her big day, but sejun just can't help it. he's yours for the rest of his life and the thought makes his brain short-circuit cause he's so in love.
sliding the ring on your finger and finally getting to kiss you is the best moment of his life. his tears are long gone and he's all giggles and smiles by now. he kisses you so nicely with a dramatic dip and everything. when he pulls apart you're both laughing and the guests are all clapping and cheering. his dimples will not leave his face because he can't stop smiling for the rest of the day.
he's no longer in any danger of crying during the reception but he cannot top smiling and he can't be separated from you at all. if you want to greet guests, you'll have to drag him along with you because his hand is permanently stuck to your waist now. he's so dashingly handsome with his bright eyes and smile, finally able to call himself your husband.
(although yes he fumbles a bit during the cake cutting only because he's so excited!! it's both your favourite flavor and he loves food so much so the cake was always the second biggest thing he was looking forward to after finally tying the knot with you).
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Hello! Could you do making out with Victon please?
With pleasure! ♡
So since you didn't request a specific format like headcanons, I decided to do a little drabble for each member, but then I got carried away so those "drabbles" turned into about 600 words per member sjfxlmxsjnlsmhgsxslkjkm - I'm so sorry if that's not what you wanted -
Also it became a bit smuttier than I initially intended, oops- Like it's not full-on smut, but I guess "suggestive" would be an understatement...
Sorry this is so chaotic, I just get really hyped about victon 💗
Note: I don't write about Chan, so he is not included in this post.
18+ content ahead!
± 600 words per member
Seungsik
The late-afternoon sun cast its light on your skin as you sat on the edge of the pool and dreamily dangled your legs into the water. "I got the towels!" Seungsik called from behind you. When you turned around, you were greeted by his wide, happy smile as he came up to you, carrying two large beach towels.
He tossed the towels into a chair and jumped into the water without hesitation. "Come join me, the water is lovely!" he said, full of excitement, while reaching out his hand. You allowed him to help you into the water and once you were in the pool, Seungsik immediately pulled you against him.
His wet hair stuck to his forehead and your faces were so close to each other that some of the drops from his hair landed on the tip of your nose. You pressed a soft kiss on his lips and then pulled away to look into his gorgeous eyes, only to be met with a mischievous grin on his face. "Is it hot in here, or is it just you?" he said while snaking his arms around your waist.
You scoffed at him, in disbelief that he could be so greasy, and you pushed yourself away from him. "If you're so hot, then maybe you should cool down a little," you replied while mirroring the look of mischief from his face. Then you pushed him completely underwater, but Seungsik immediately got his revenge as he pulled you right down with him.
Both of you gasped for air when you came up again. He coughed while you were still trying to wipe the water out of your eyes, but you both laughed happily. "That's what you get for trying to drown me," Seungsik said while he swam back to you. You gave him an offended look and splashed some water at him. "No, that's what YOU get for being so cheesy all of a sudden!" He turned his head to dodge the water from hitting his face and laughed.
Suddenly you felt his arms around your waist again as he pulled you back against him and he pressed a kiss on your lips. Before you could properly kiss him back, he pulled away just enough to look you in the eyes and grinned. "Don't pretend you don't like it..." Your felt your cheeks getting hot from his comment. You wanted to say something witty in return, but for once you were speechless.
He gently took both of your hands in his own and gave each of them a kiss, after which he guided them to his neck. Following his gentle guidance, you wrapped your arms around his neck and dug your fingers into his hair. When he kissed you again, you could feel his smile against your lips. This time you wouldn't let him pull away and you held on tightly to his neck as you kissed him back. His lips were still wet from the pool water, which just made it all the more hot to you.
His hands moved from your waist down to your hips at a pace that was almost provokingly slow. Then down to your butt and even further down to the back of your thighs, suddenly lifting you up so you could wrap your legs around his waist. "You're so hot..." you whimpered against his lips, while he carried you through the water, towards the edge of the pool. Even when he sat you down on the edge, you kept your legs wrapped tightly around him, making him chuckle a little bit. In an ideal world, you would never have to let go of his warm embrace.
Seungwoo
Seungwoo sat on the couch, reading a book when you entered the room. Aside from one of his t-shirts, you had absolutely no clothes on. He noticed you right away and raised his eyebrows in that unique way he always does. "Well hello," he said with a little laugh and he shut his book. "Couldn't you find your underwear this morning?"
You looked down at yourself as if you had no idea what he was talking about and shrugged in feigned ignorance. "Nope," you replied while you walked into the kitchen, "do you want some coffee?"
Seungwoo got up from the couch without replying and he stood closely behind you while you made the coffee. He laid one of his hands on your hip and he used the other to play around with the edge of your shirt - or rather his shirt, which you were wearing. He brought his face to your neck, letting out a little sigh while he brushed the tip of his nose against your skin. "You really know how to get my attention..." he mumbled, sending a slight shiver down your spine.
Still you decided to act completely ignorant as you turned to him. You looked into his tapioca pearl eyes and smiled innocently. "Have you had breakfast yet?" you asked.
This was enough to set him off. He took your wrists in his hands and pushed you with your back against the wall, pinning your hands above your head. He pressed himself against your body and began to kiss you passionately on your lips. A little squeal escaped you as you felt how he pushed one of his legs in between yours and pressed it against your sensitive area.
He grinned against your lips, now letting go of your wrists in order to wrap his arms around your waist and pull you even more tightly against him. Then he removed his lips from yours and brought them to your neck instead, hungrily kissing you right next to your jaw.
The intensity of his kisses and his hold on you made you weak in the knees. At this point you were glad he held you so tightly, because you might have lost your balance otherwise. Not that you minded at all. You loved to surrender yourself to him. Having him all over you was one of the best feelings in the world - as if you had a warm, loving shield around you, that also happened to be a great kisser, among other things.
He continued to kiss your neck while his slender fingers hooked themselves under your shirt and he began to tug on it. You instinctively raised your arms and before you knew it, Seungwoo had already pulled the shirt over your head and tossed it somewhere into the room. You wrapped your arms around his neck for support while his lips returned to yours again and you pushed your tongue into his mouth, making him moan happily.
"I've already had breakfast..." he mumbled against your lips. His hands moved down from your waist to your hips and you could feel how his grip tightened around your butt. "...but I'm starting to get hungry for lunch," he continued and suddenly you felt how he lifted you up and sat you down on the counter. You squealed as he pushed your legs apart and placed himself in between them. He gave you one final, intense kiss on the lips and then began to trail his kisses down from your neck to your chest, all the way down until his mouth was right between your legs.
Sejun
It was late and night. Neither you or Sejun were able to sleep, so you had decided to watch a movie together. You sat in your favorite spot; in the corner of the couch, and Sejun sat next to you, resting his head on your shoulder.
"I'm thirsty," he whined all of a sudden. You laughed a little, until you saw how he looked at you with those puppy eyes, letting you realize who was gonna have to solve this problem for him. "What, you want me to get it for you?" you asked in disbelief and he nodded sweetly.
With a groan, you got up from the couch and went into the kitchen to grab a glass of water for him and you took one for yourself while you were at it. But when you returned with the water, you saw that Sejun had taken your favorite spot on the couch. Even though he was smiling innocently, he knew very well that was YOUR spot.
"Lim Sejun," you said sternly, "you better get out of that spot right now." He grinned at you, distracting you with the exposure of his beautiful dimples and he shook his head stubbornly. "I don't want to! It's comfy..." You attempted to pull him away from your spot, but Sejun still refused to go anywhere.
Eventually you gave up and decided to get back at him by sitting down on his lap, facing the TV. He looked a little surprised, but satisfied with the outcome. His arms wrapped around your waist and he rested his chin on your shoulder again, but you weren't so keen on letting him have his way. In order to distract him from the movie, you began to grind yourself back and forth on his thigh.
Almost immediately, you felt how he slowly began to get hard and he nervously attempted to shift into a different position. By now Sejun wasn't the only one who began to get needy and you turned around on his lap so you were facing him. You cupped his face with your hands and began to press gentle kisses on his lips. He returned your kisses with the same gentleness and placed one of his hands on the back of your head, softly stroking his fingers through your hair.
You could feel a smile growing on his lips as your kisses became more passionate and you stroked his lovely dimples with your thumbs. "Why do you have to be so cute," you mumbled in between kisses, causing him to grin happily. He moved both of his hands down to your hips and held them tightly as he slowly began to move them for you, making you grind on his thigh again.
You let out a surprised moan and pulled your lips away from his to look into his eyes, which had a little sparkle in them. He was so beautiful when he smiled at you like this. "Don't stop," he said with a husky voice while urging you to keep grinding on his thigh. With flustered cheeks, you obeyed and began to move your hips with more intensity.
A satisfied smirk showed on Sejun's lips and he placed his index finger under your chin to guide your lips back to his. When you felt his tongue brush against your lips, you greedily parted them for him. Both of you let out content little moans as your kisses grew more passionate and hungry and the way you were grinding on his thigh got more desperate.
Let's just say you both missed the entire plot of the movie you were watching...
Hanse
Hanse had been rapping loudly in your ear for several minutes now. Of course he was a great rapper and usually you loved to hear him show off his talents. But not at 2 am when you were trying to sleep. You'd had a long day and wanted nothing more than to close your eyes and drift off, but Hanse still had a lot of energy and didn't feel like shutting up just yet.
He brought his lips so close to your ear that you could feel his breath on your skin as he rapped a part from Take Over and you groaned loudly in annoyance. Finally you had enough and turned to him. You roughly grabbed his chin and pulled him closer to you so you could press your lips on his to shut him up. When your lips detached, you looked him in the eyes and said "I love you very much but please shut the fuck up."
He looked flustered from your sudden kiss. There was a dark blush on his cheeks and a little giggle escaped him. But just when you thought he would finally be quiet, he began to rap his second verse from What I Said: "When I spit bars on this beat, they call it fire, go tell 'em I killed this, man I gotta go harder-"
You pressed your lips on his again and this time also pushed him down into the mattress. Without breaking the kiss, you crawled on top of him. You knew damn well that he just did that so you would kiss him more, but you didn't care. At least he shut up this way.
He grinned so much that you could feel the corners of his mouth curl up as you kissed him. He gently brushed his tongue against your lips, nearly begging for you to let him in. Though you didn't think he deserved to be kissed like that, you enjoyed it too much to refuse, so you reluctantly parted your lips for him.
He put his hand on the back of your neck to pull you even closer to him and he let out little moans as he greedily accepted your kisses. But when he got too excited, you put him in his place by pushing his shoulders back into the mattress, forcing him to stay down. A soft whimper escaped him and he squirmed beneath you in enjoyment.
After a while, you pulled your tongue back from his mouth, but didn't stop kissing him just yet. Rather than pulling away completely, you sucked on his lower lip a little and nibbled on his piercing, fully aware of how horny that made him. He squealed and bucked his hips up at you, brushing his bulge against your inner thigh.
Satisfied, you pulled away and grinned down at him. "Alright, let's go to sleep." He immediately pouted at you and took your hand in his. "Nooooo you can't do that to me! Please!" he whined and he began to press kisses on your hand. You looked down at him without saying a word, but couldn't help but smile a little. He smiled back at you and continued to press tons of kisses on your hand, moving up to your wrist. "Please," he begged, "please let me fuck you first."
You scoffed at him and let out a defeated sigh. "Fine," you groaned, "as long as you know that you don't actually deserve it after being so annoying." He nodded enthusiastically and swiftly pushed you down into the mattress so he could get on top of you. He immediately brought his mouth to your neck and began to place kisses al over it, whispering "I don't deserve you" against your skin.
Byungchan
You sat at your desk with your study materials in front of you. In only two days, you would have a major exam for a course you really struggled with. You had been studying for days already and even though it was going somewhat decently, it took a lot of effort to even understand the littlest things.
You looked up when you heard a knock on the door and Byungchan entered the room. "Hey y/n, are you coming to bed soon? It's 11 pm.." A smile appeared on your face, because having Byungchan around felt like a wave of relaxation after attempting to study for hours. But that smile soon disappeared when you remembered how much work you had left to do.
"I'm sorry honey, but I still have too much to do. I can't just stop yet. If you're really tired you can go to bed without me." Byungchan shook his head and sat down on top of the desk, right next to your study materials. "No, it's not that I'm tired..." he said while picking up your book to have a look at what you were studying. After reading a small paragraph, he quickly put it back down with a mildly disgusted look on his face. "...I just miss your company."
You took his hand and played around with his fingers. His hand was warm and soft and it became so tempting to join Byungchan into the bedroom, but you stayed strong and shook your head. "Not yet. I have to finish this first." Byungchan got up from the desk and stood behind you, laying both of his hands on your shoulders. "How long do you think you need?" he asked, while he gently began to massage your neck and shoulders for you.
You slowly felt yourself getting hotter, but you still picked up your book and returned to the right page. "I don't know honey. Another hour at least..." you sighed.
"Hmmm," was all he replied. He continued to massage your shoulders while he brought his face to your neck and pressed a kiss on your skin. You ignored him and continued to read from your book, but goosebumps began to cover your skin as he pressed more and more kisses onto your neck, while his hair tickled against your cheek.
You froze when you suddenly felt his tongue on your skin and a little shiver went down your spine when you realized he was giving you a hickey. "Hey, I'm trying to study!" You meant to say it sternly, but it came out as a pathetic whimper. He chuckled and the way his breath brushed against your skin made another shiver go down your spine.
You put the book back on the desk and stood up from the chair, turning to him. "Okay how about this: I give you 10 minutes, but after that you have to leave me alone so I can study. Do we have a deal?" He nodded and immediately locked his lips with yours, making you let out a little gasp. His arms snaked around your waist in order to pull you tightly against him and he hummed happily against your lips as he kissed you.
You were a little taken aback by his enthusiasm, but it also turned you on and you wrapped your arms around his neck in return. You slowly shuffled backwards to the desk and sat down on it, pulling him closer to you. He cupped your face with his hands while he kissed you, stroking both of your cheeks before suddenly pulling away from you with a big smirk and sparkly eyes. "10 minutes right?" he asked and you nodded. "That should be enough," he said and then he locked his lips with yours again, while guiding your hand down to his crotch.
Subin
It was a beautiful spring day and since the weather was so good, you and Subin decided to get ice cream together. The birds were happily singing their songs as the two of you entered the park with your ice cream. He got chocolate flavor, while you got vanilla. "Maybe we could sit over there," you said, pointing to an empty spot in the grass. And thus you sat down in the field together, bathing in the sunlight while being surrounded by tons of little flowers.
After finishing the last bite of his ice cream, Subin lay down in the grass and closed his eyes in satisfaction. "Are you photosynthesizing?" you asked him with a little giggle. He pouted at your mockery and opened one eye to look at you. All of a sudden, he sat back up and pointed at your lower lip. "You have something on your face."
"Oh-..." Your cheeks flushed in embarrassment and you brought your hand up to your lip to wipe off the little drop of vanilla ice cream, but Subin firmly grabbed your wrist to stop you. "I'll handle that," he smirked and before you knew it, he was licking the spilled ice cream right from your lip. "SUBIN!" you squealed and you quickly pushed him away, completely flustered.
He just laughed and even had the audacity to lick his lips. "Hmm, you taste nice. I should have gotten vanilla too," he said with a huge smirk, while you were still trying to come to your senses. "Subin, we're in public," you mumbled and you subtly tried to look around to see if anyone had noticed. "So what? People kiss in public all the time," he replied, still with a smirk on his face. "Yeah and that's gross," you murmured in response.
He chuckled and inched a little bit closer to you again. "How can love be gross?" You felt how his index finger hooked underneath your chin and directed your face towards him while he brought his lips back to yours. "I want another taste," he whispered under his breath and then your lips connected again.
Since you weren't caught off guard this time, you could clearly taste the chocolate from his own ice cream on his lips. The combination of lingering chocolate flavor from Subin's lips and the vanilla flavor from your own created a kiss that was almost oreo flavored. The sensation was almost overwhelming, but after a little while you relaxed and gave in completely.
Without breaking the kiss, Subin brought his hand to your shoulder and gently pushed you down onto your back while he lay next to you on his side, supporting himself on his elbow. He moved his free hand from your shoulder to your face and softly stroked your cheek with his thumb.
The grass beneath you tickled the back of your neck, giving you little goosebumps on your neck and butterflies in your stomach. You brought your hands to Subin's neck, stroking your fingers through his hair and soon you noticed that this gave him goosebumps as well.
After some time, Subin slowly pulled his lips away from yours and continued to stroke your cheek while he looked into your eyes. You both had the same loving smile on your face as you looked at each other like this. Then he lay down on his back as well and you rolled onto your side to look at him. "Maybe I'll have the chocolate flavor next time," you grinned.
Nine times out of ten, Sejun will be paying attention to you. He can’t help but do it, feeling as if he needs to protect you quite a lot of the time, especially when you’re not stood right by his side somewhere.
B ⇴ BICKER
The two of you only ever bicker when you’re messing around with each other, it’s never serious, and definitely never is mean towards one another either. You both know that there are limits and that there are things not to be mentioned, but at times you’re guilty of pushing those limits as far as you can.
C ⇴ COMFORT
More than anything else, you can always count on Sejun to be there for you whenever you need comforting. He doesn’t care about what else he’s doing, if you text and say that you’re struggling or that you could do with a bit of a chat then he’ll be there for you, and for as long as you need him to be as well.
D ⇴ DISAGREEMENTS
Quite often you disagree with Sejun when you want for him to decide, as usually he just suggests going along with what you want to do. He’s very much the person that will nod to anything that you propose, but sometimes all you want is for Sejun to just tell you what he wants to do instead. When he can tell that you’re keen for him to decide, eventually Sejun will cave and tell you what he’d like to do.
E ⇴ EARLY YEARS
Just about from the start of your friendship, Sejun knew that he had a good friend in you, which was why getting to know you was such an easy job for him. You were someone that he didn’t want to let go of and so even though he could tell at times you were shy or struggling to keep the conversation going, Sejun worked hard to bring you out of your shell and keep things going as he wanted for you to stick around.
F ⇴ FAMILY
Sejun’s family loved watching the two of you together and seeing how well you got along together more than anything else. Knowing that Sejun had a friend like you was a huge comfort to them, knowing too that he would struggle to find someone better suited for him than you. Whenever they were around you both they found themselves laughing at the dynamic that you had and how much you annoyed each other.
G ⇴ GETTING TOGETHER
If the two of you head out, the one thing that it has to involve for Sejun at some point is food. He doesn’t care what else you do or how much time you spend out with each other, all he wants is to make sure that you can eat somewhere, whether it’s a meal or a snack, he wants his tummy to be filled.
H ⇴ HABITS
The two of you have a habit of drifting into your own conversation and forgetting where you are. One of you will bring up something that only the other person knows about so that no one else can get involved in the conversation and just leave the two of you in your own little world together instead.
I ⇴ INSIDE JOKES
With Sejun around and messing around so much too, inside jokes for you both are usually pretty inevitable. Whilst most of your inside jokes are funny moments that happen together, if Sejun ever messed up around you then you make absolutely sure to remember that one so you can use it against him.
J ⇴ JEALOUSY
It’s pretty rare for Sejun to get jealous, he knows that he’s your best friend, and so he focuses instead on involving all of your other friends and getting to know them. If anything, your friends don’t even bother trying to be a closer friend to you as they know too that they can’t knock Sejun from that spot. They’re in awe of Sejun and how dedicated he is to getting to know them to be a better friend to you.
K ⇴ KICKS
Sejun got a kick out of pranking you, he always loves to get up to mischief, especially when you’re his victim. Once one prank is over, he’s quickly thinking about the next prank that he can pull on you, because if there’s anyone in his life that he knows that he’ll be able to pull it off on, it’s definitely you.
L ⇴ LOVE
He loved being there for you, even when you didn’t need Sejun’s help, he wanted to make sure that you knew that you could count on him. Anything that he could do to make your life just a little bit easier, he absolutely would do, even if you didn’t actually need something doing, Sejun would often use it as an excuse to spend time with you, deciding to be there as a just in case more than anything else.
M ⇴ MEETING
The two of you first met when you were at a restaurant, and with the place so busy, you asked Sejun if he minded if you joined him so that you could sit and eat. You were like strangers for most of your meal, that was until Sejun decided to ask you what it was that you’d ordered and whether it was nice or not.
N ⇴ NONSENSE
Being around you always brought out Sejun’s nonsense side, not only because he knew that he wouldn’t be judged, but mostly because he knew that if anyone was gullible for his pranks, it was definitely you.
O ⇴ OBSESSION
Sejun was obsessed with how well the two of you got along and how easy being your best friend was for him. He loved how simple just being around you was, nothing ever felt forced or as if it was hard work either.
P ⇴ PRECIOUS MOMENTS
The moments that meant the most to Sejun were when you were there at a show or watching him film something. He loved showing off his work to you, but most of all Sejun loved having you around because it meant that his biggest fan was watching him and reassuring him that he was doing a good job too.
Q ⇴ QUESTIONS
He takes care of you a lot, and so Sejun always asks you how you are. If you’ve skipped a meal or not been taking care of your body very well than he’ll make sure to correct that and make you healthy again.
R ⇴ RANDOM FACTS
Most of the content that Sejun uploads online is taken by you, mainly because you’re the better one out of the two of you, by far, at taking photos. Any time that Sejun updates his social media, you’re inundated with messages from his fans thanking you for taking a much better picture of Sejun than he could.
S ⇴ SUPPORT
Having you there to support him means a great deal to Sejun, especially when you’re there to let him know how good of a job he’s done. Nothing means more to him than knowing that he’s made you proud and knowing that what he did up on the stage looked great to those watching on in the crowd.
T ⇴ TRIPS
If there’s a chance that you can travel with Sejun and the boys, he’ll always make sure that it happens. When a tour comes around, Sejun always likes to know when you’re free, just in case you can tag along too.
U ⇴ ULTIMATE
The one thing that Sejun always made sure to do was never take you for granted, he felt very lucky as your best friend.
V ⇴ VISITS
If he was around by your apartment, Sejun would always stop by and see you. Even if you were busy, he’d invite himself in to spend a bit of time with you, throwing himself on the sofa as if he was at home himself.
W ⇴ WISDOM
He tried to give you all the advice that he could when you were struggling, anything that would be able to help you a little bit.
X ⇴ XXXX
Although the two of you aren’t overly affectionate with one another, when you are, it never feels strange for either of you. You don’t mind being hugged by Sejun, but you hate always being tickled by him though.
Y ⇴ YOU
You were his rock; Sejun knew that he could count on you for anything.
Z ⇴ ZZZ
Most of the time Sejun invites you back when you hang out, he likes sleeping in his own bed and being around his home comforts, making space for you to be able to sleep in his room where he’s comfortable too.
You adjusted the handles on the bags of takeout you were carrying, wrists rolling from the slight discomfort. All thoughts of pain immediately left your mind as you walked into the waiting room and saw your boyfriend’s members though.
“NOONA!” Subin yelled, rushing to you.
“Hey, Y/N,” Seungsik said, taking the bags of food from you.
You smiled partly in relief from having been relieved of the weight but mostly from joy at seeing the group of men who had become your close friends. You rubbed your wrists which were an angry red now. No matter though, they would fade soon enough and you had managed to bring Victon food during a long day of promotions. “Hi, everyone!”
Slight chaos erupted as Hanse and Byungchan attacked the food after greeting you. You took the chance to find your boyfriend. Your eyes jumped from face to face, looking for Sejun. As Chan let out a particularly loud shriek trying to grab a spoon, Seungwoo noticed your gaze. “He’s not feeling well. He’s resting in the other waiting room.”
Your expression immediately flooded with worry. “His back again?”
Seungwoo nodded. “You can go to him. I’m sure he’ll feel better just seeing you.”
You smiled at him halfheartedly and rushed from the room but not before throwing a thank you over your shoulder. That idiot. You were going to thrash him after he felt better. He was supposed to tell you things like these!
It took you a few minutes to find the room Sejun was in, but when you saw the last closed door at the end of the hallway, you were relieved to have finally found him.
You knocked lightly. If he was asleep, you would just go back and hang out with the members and let him relax, you thought to yourself. This train of thought turned out to be useless though as a soft Come in sounded out to the hallway.
You peeked your head in and saw Sejun lying down on the sole couch in the cramped room.
“Y/N!” His pained expression immediately changed to a beaming smile.
“Hey baby,” you whispered back.
He tried to sit up before you rushed in and slightly pushed on his shoulder to keep him down. You sat down next to him and lightly pushed his hair back from his forehead.
“How bad is it?”
“It’s better now that you’re here.” His dimple appeared and you fought to maintain a stern look and not fall for its charm.
You scoffed at his cheesy line and pulled your hand back. “Sejun, we’ve talked about this! You promised you’d tell me when you were in pain again!” His doctor had warned you both to manage his overexertion, and of the two of you, only you seemed to be taking it seriously.
He grabbed your hand again and held it to his chest. “I know, I’m sorry, my love. It was only a slight twinge throughout the day and only really started hurting half an hour ago after rehearsal. I would have texted you in another 10 minutes, I swear.”
You furrowed your eyebrows at him but seeing him wince in pain weakened your resolve. You sighed. “Next time, you tell me immediately.”
He nodded and smiled brightly, sensing his victory. “Okay, okay. Now, will you cuddle with me?”
You smiled at his hopeful expression and then laughed when he wiggled his eyebrows at you. “Are you sure? I don’t want to hurt you.”
You saw Sejun roll his eyes before he pulled you down and encircled you within his arms. “Nonsense, you could never hurt me. And, you know cuddling always helps.”
You hummed in agreement and settled into his embrace.
“By the way, don’t think I didn’t notice your wrists.”
Surprised, you craned your neck to look him in the eyes. “What?”
He held one of your hands up for you to see. The angry red slashes from where the plastic of the bags had dug into your skin were still there. You glanced at him sheepishly. “And what have we said about this?”
“To make one of the members, specifically Byungchan, come hold stuff for me if it’s heavy.”
He raised his eyebrow at you, but you didn’t appreciate the roles being reversed. “This is not the same thing as your slipped disc and you know it!”
He just shrugged and pulled you back towards his chest. You could still hear his answer even though he muttered it under his breath. “It’s the same to me.”
You smiled privately to yourself. Having someone take care of you as you took care of them was still novel to you. You let the comment slide.
“How is rehearsal going?”
He nuzzled his chain against the top of your head. “Great. Everything about this comeback is just so fun and amazing. We’re all having a blast.”
You smiled against his throat. “I’m glad to hear that.”
“What about you? How’s your day? Your week? Your life?”
You chuckled. “Day’s going ONLY alright because I got to see my boyfriend and his friends, even though someone should have communicated something to me a lot sooner.” He pulled back from you to give you an innocent expression and you just rolled your eyes in jest before continuing.
“Week is hectic because my boss is on leave and everyone keeps pushing her responsibilities onto me.”
“Aw, I’m sorry you had to deal with that, baby.” Sejun rubbed your shoulders in comfort. You smiled at him in thanks before answering his last question.
“Life is.. better than I even imagined, now with you in it.” A blush warmed your cheeks at the sudden intensity of the answer you gave.
He looked at your warmly before leaning in and pressing a kiss against your lips. “I love you.”
Your heart soared, as it did every time he said those three words to you, which was often. “I love you, too.”
Until it was time for the stage itself, you two remained wrapped up in each other arms and even dozed off. The members eventually had to come find Sejun since neither of you were replying to your phones, and they took advantage of the opportunity and took several pictures of the two of you before waking you up. It was embarrassing to be caught in such an intimate position, but seeing Sejun blush for once in front of his members made it worth it.
warnings: none so far, but please let me know if i should add something after reading >.<
seungwoo
One, two, three packages of cheese piled up on his hands as Seungwoo sauntered down the aisle of the supermarket. It was tuesday and it meant it was Seungsik's turn of making dinner for the seven of them, but still someone had to do the grocery shopping and that someone was him. Not that he complained because he was in his way back to the dorm untill he saw you.
You were in the middle of the hallway, struggling to reach a long packet of something that looked like cookies, but he wasn't sure.
Seungwoo giggled and approached you slowly, not wanting to scare you but scaring you anyway when he handed you that package.
"Geez, i'm sorry. I didn't mean to scare you"
You smiled at him with a hand in the place where your heart is.
"Don't worry and thank you. I've been trying to get that down for five minutes now"
"Really?," he was having fun and it showed, "Did you jump for it?"
You stuck out your tongue before answering, "I'm not telling you! It's embarrassing"
"So you did it?"
"... maybe"
Seungwoo huffed with a laugh in the back of his throat. He was always so cautious about speaking to strangers but here he was, mocking someone for their height like if you two were lifelong friends. He was feeling way too comfortable for his own good, but he liked it, and after a few minutes of nonchalant conversation he decided to take the next step.
"It'd be weird if I ask you to meet me any other day?"
seungsik
"Just 5 more minutes, please," you whined and buried your face in the soft fabric of a sweater when you felt a hand softly shaking your shoulder, your eyes were closed and the strands of your hair were spread over your left cheek.
You heard a light chuckle and a deep voice speaking from above.
"As much as I would like to, this is my stop"
You didn't recognize the voice and you noticed that your body was moving involuntarily along with the movement of the wagon. What were you doing in a wagon? You opened your eyes momentarily dumbfounded and straightened up your back, realizing that you had fallen asleep. In the subway. On the shoulder of a stranger.
Your face started to heat up when you looked around and noticed that the poor guy who had to deal with your sleepy ass was a beautiful man seated next to you. The man in question was staring at you with a teasing smile playing on his lips. He was curious, but he waited for you to speak first.
"Oh my god, i'm so sorry, it's just..."
You have had a really rough day at work. Your boss had scolded you and your work team twice because of someone else's mistake, you have been busy since first hour in the morning, you haven't eaten anything yet and you were so tired that not even caffeine could keep you awake. It was too much to explain so you just sighed.
"... i'm so tired. I'm sorry again..."
You left your phrase in the air for him to complete with his name, and he stretched his hand to you.
"Seungsik, my name is Seungsik," He left his gaze roam your face, delighted by the way your skin glowed in gold with the sunlight coming from the window.
"Well Seungsik, thank you for holding me in my dreams but this is my stop too"
You were embarrassed but he laughed and by the time you two stood up you were amazed by how tall he was. Once you were out of the train you held his elbow and he looked at you, blinking twice.
"Thank you again, i'm sorry if I made your way home uncomfortable. There's anything I can do to repay you?"
"Well, actually there's a way to compensate for drooling my sweater"
You immediately looked for any wet spot on the fabric and when you couldn't find any, you pouted.
"I didn't drool!"
"I know, i'm just kidding. What do you think about going out anytime soon?"
"... like, you and me?"
"Ah, you are adorable. Yes, you and me"
chan
Almost an hour have passed since you arrived and yet there were no signs of your friend who was supposed to be there by now. You were lowkey upset because she hadn't even text you but at the same time you were worried. You were planning to wait ten more minutes before panicking and calling her so you walked to a bench close to the place where you decided to meet up to go to the movies together. It was a lovely october mid-afternoon and you entertained yourself by looking at the way the trees danced with the wind, a beautiful ocher, green and navy blue color palette filling your eyes and making you loose track of time.
When you looked down again you weren't alone in the bench anymore. A man in his twenties was sitting on the other end and he greeted you with a friendly dimpled smile and a wave of his hand that you returned. Five, ten minutes passed and he didn't left but he seemed in deep thought so you didn't wanted to bother him by starting a conversation.
After what felt like hours your phone rang on your thigh with a message.
⠀⠀⠀⠀something came up, I won't be able to be there but i'll make it up to you later. pls don't be mad xx
You sighed, not even capable of smash your keyboard to scold her. When you were about to stand up a soft voice stopped you.
"You okay?" You nodded, brushing your hand in the air, "Yeah, I just got my plans cancelled"
He pouted and a voice in the back of your head shouted because he was cute.
"What about you?"
He got nervous all of a sudden, playing with the sleeves of his long coat.
"Well, actually...," He looked away before blushing, "I was about to go home but I saw you here and you were alone, I thought maybe you'd like some company. Please don't think it's weird, it's just-"
"I don't think it's weird"
He looked back at you with his pretty smile again in display.
"I'm sorry if i'm overstepping but since your plans were cancelled, would you...," he gulped before signaling to the little coffee shop on the other sidewalk, "Maybe you would like to...?"
He didn't finish his sentence, too nervous about being rejected.
Still, his eyes were sparkling with the promise of wonderful adventures and seemed way more interesting than a couple of movies so you couldn't refuse. You stuttered before nodding and finally standing up.
"Let's go"
sejun
"I'm telling you, this order isn't mine," the man in front of the casher seemed to be in deep pain, looking at the cup of green tea in his hand with caution, "There was a mistake, I ordered-"
"Iced Americano, perhaps?" he turned around when a soft voice talked right behind his shoulder and looked down to meet your apologetic smile. His gaze focused alternately between the plastic cup in your hands that had a name (Lim Sejun, you read it before returning) written in the front and your face, opening his mouth to talk but was interrupted by you again, "I'm sorry, I was in a rush and I didn't noticed I took the wrong drink until a took a sip. I'll pay for it"
He shook his head frantically, slowly starting to smile. "No need to do so, you can take it. I actually like green tea a lot" you couldn't help but raise your eyebrow at the way his mouth twisted because he was obviously lying and he wasn't even good at it.
"Oh, do you?" He nodded thrice, and was until that moment that his eyes sparkled with innocence and amusement when you realized how good looking he was. "Okay then, there's anything else I can do to make up for it?"
"Coffee"
"Yes, i'll buy you a new one-"
"That's not what I meant"
You looked at him, confused by the way his smile seemed to grow bigger.
"I meant you and me. Together"
"Like in a date?"
"Like in a date"
hanse
He was blushing. He was blushing and he couldn't do anything about it other than silently curse and pray for you not to notice.
He didn't know what it was, if it was the soft light that made your features stand in the darkness of the room, the comfortable silence established between you two while you worked in mixing buttons here and there, or maybe it was the fact that you were the most absolutely gorgeous person he had ever met, but he was blushing.
It was the first time you two met, you were a young new producer who contacted him to work together in a song for your next EP and he was definitely not expecting you to be this beautiful. You have only talked through Instagram DM's and by the time you arrived to his studio and showed him your progress he slowly started to freak out. How was he supposed to spend four to five hours with you without making something impulsive like, you know, kissing you?
Your voice brought him back to reality, the tip of his ears were impossibly red.
"Hanse?"
"Excuse me, what did you said?"
"It's nothing, I just wanted to show you what i've made"
"Oh, sorry. I was distracted"
"By what?"
"You"
"Uh? Do I have something in my face or...?"
"You could say so"
He leaned on to wipe your cheek with his thumb. It was your turn to blush.
"It's just... you are so pretty"
byungchan
He hated dust. For real. In his list of hated-and-unbearable stuff dust was the second place only to noisy people. A grimace made its way into Byungchan face, barely holding back the urge to sneeze because he knew he already did too many times in the span of ten minutes and he didn't want to bother people around him with his noises. However, it was really difficult not to do so since he couldn't really control his allergies.
He apologized softly to an old lady standing apart from him and reprimanded himself in silence. He just had to wait until the bus arrived to finally get away from the dust in the street.
Or that's what he thought.
Unfortunately his sneezing didn't stop and he tried to cover his face with the sleeve of his hoodie, but a voice called him from his side.
"Hi, are you okay?"
You were there, blinking worriedly at him. His mind went blank, suddenly forgetting how to speak. The interrogative flew between the two of you for long enough to be awkward and he realized he didn't answered when you coughed nervously.
"Oh, sorry. Yes, i'm okay. I have allergies but that's all"
You nodded once because you knew how he felt.
"Yeah, I know how it is. Do you need anything?"
He shook his head rapidly, not wanting to bother you especially when you were kind enough to ask.
"It's fine but thank you for asking"
The conversation died there, and when you were about to go you handed him a tissue.
"Here. Just in case"
He smiled at you and looked down at his hands, then letting out a surprised gasp. By the time he tried to gaze up you weren't there anymore. The tissue had a number written in it and he was sure it was yours. He chuckled and took out his phone to type a quick text.
hi, beauty ;)
subin
It's friday night and Subin is happy. He's happy not just because he is able to go home early after work, he is happy because it's friday night and he'll be able to see you.
You weren't friends, nor even acquaintances but you were the reason he frequented that cafeteria at that specific shift.
You started working there after deciding you needed a part-time job and you were so nice to everyone, all the time, that he couldn't help but paying attention to you. It was your job, yes, but you seemed to be the type of gentle person Subin liked the most. Subin doesn't know how it started but soon after your first appearance he was looking forward to fridays just to see you and maybe talk to you for a little. He was pretty much stunned by you, and everyone knew it. His friends, him, even your coworkers noticed how he always seated at that table because it was your area.
He didn't want to be disrespectful or bother you so he never approached you or tried to go further than your weekly polite chatting. This time, however, after he finished his coffee and stood up to go home, he got closer to you when you weren't busy with a different resolution glistening in his eyes.
"Hi"
You blinked twice after realizing that he was really there, talking to you.
"Hi!"
"Uhm... Maybe you have noticed, maybe not, but I think you are beautiful"
You smiled big trying to hide your red cheeks. "Well thank you, I think you are really handsome too"
Subin nodded before licking his lips nervously.
"Would be a very bad idea if I ask you for your number?"
You shook your head before handing him your little notepad with your number written down.
You sat peacefully at a window seat in your favourite cafe. You originally wanted to meet up with a friend, but they cancelled last minute. You were in the mood to treat yourself and decided to visit the cafe anyways. As you took in your surroundings, you spotted a handsome man and an older lady who were arguing about the last chicken sandwich. They both stared at each other with determined faces. The barista who offered them a tuna sandwich as an alternative had a helpless expression on his face because neither wanted it. After a minute-long staring contest, the man sighed and said he just wanted an Iced Americano. The older lady grabbed the sandwich before he could change his mind. She sat down on the other side of the cafe and munched happily on her sandwich. The defeated man sat down at the table next to you. Awkward eye contact was made, which led to both of you blushing and looking away. You found him quite attractive, so you felt an urge to look at him again. A short glance will not hurt, you told yourself. You looked over to him, only to find him already looking at you as well. Again, the two of you quickly looked away. You felt your cheeks heating up. You were sure you must be as red as a tomato by now. Why are you so awkward? How do other people start talking to people they find attractive? Your eyes fell to your untouched chicken sandwich. You thought about offering him one half of the sandwich to start a conversation. When you looked up, you see him eyeing your sandwich. He really must crave that chicken sandwich, you thought. Wordlessly, you moved the plate in his direction. He looked up at you with wide eyes. "You can take half of it if you want." "Really?" You just nodded. And then he gave you the prettiest smile you have ever seen. You immediately noticed his cute dimple. You smiled back at him. "Thank you!" he said and didn't hesitate to grab half your sandwich and took a massive bite. "I'm Sejun, by the way", he said in between bites. You stayed silent and just watched him finishing the sandwich in under a minute. "Wow, that was fast.", you said. He laughed at that and moved his seat to your table. "What's your name?" he asked. "Y/N.", you answered. "Can I have the other half of the sandwich as well?", Sejun asked after a moment of silence. You stared at him in disbelief. "I can buy you a tuna sandwich.", he offered with a cheeky smile. "No, the chicken sandwich is my favourite." "How about I buy you next time a chicken sandwich?" "Next time?" "Yeah, we could exchange numbers and meet up here again. Then I buy you as many chicken sandwiches as you want." You were flustered by him wanting to see you again. "You want to go out with me?" you blurted out. "Yeah, or just spoil you with sandwiches as friends, whatever you prefer." You smiled at that. "Okay, a date then." He flashed you his cute dimple and went to grab the second half of the sandwich.
NOTE : Please enjoy the last chapter of my favourite fic i have personally ever written. Thank you for all the love and support for C’est La Vie, Please keep supporting Victon~
*3 years later*
"Mom how do I look?" Jiah asked and Jinae turned around to look at her.
"The prettiest baby." Jinae said and Jiah made a sad face.
"I gotta go change quickly." She mumbled and turned around but Seungyoun stopped her.
"What do you mean change? Why?" He asked.
Jiah turned around to look at an equally confused Jinae.
"I can't look prettier than Mom today. It's her day. It's her wedding day." Jiah said and Seungyoun and Jinae burst out laughing.
"Wedding day.." Jinae mumbled happily.
That day when Sejun entered the diner and saw the lady startled and heard a hiccup and saw Jinae, he rushed to her, to comfort her since she was crying. Instead of telling him what was wrong, she kissed him which he pulled back from. Looking at her from that close, teary eyed but red face and trembling lips, he couldn't pull back again when she kissed him. When they pulled back for air, with their foreheads still touching, she couldn't stop saying how much she missed him, how much she hated seeing him with someone else and how sorry she was to turn him down when he asked her. They talked like that, pecking in between conversations and giggling until a loud thud made them look at the table where the diner lady had put their usual order - both pancakes and waffles and they laughed, slightly embarrassed acting like teenagers in love.
After that, they talked and talked almost as if compensating for the 10 years that they missed. Until Seungyoun called her to ask where she got stuck. He sounded really mad and then they looked at the time and she cursed because it was 4am and time really passed away too quickly and they stood up to leave and apologised profusely to the lady because she kept her diner open for them when she closed around 2am. They insisted on helping her close up but she shooed them away and when they left, she shouted,"Get married already!" And they only giggled looking at each other.
The door opened and Seungsik peeked in, "Can I come in?"
She waved him happily inside and he looked at her giving her the biggest smile,"You look absolutely gorgeous! Sejun is going to cry at the altar." And she laughed.
"So he should. If he doesn't, I'm not giving her away to him." Seungyoun said, coming behind Jinae and squeezing her shoulder.
"Like you did?" Jinae asked and Seungsik and she laughed at Seungyoun's pout.
"I still can't believe you said Yes to him when he asked you like that." Seungsik mumbled and they all laughed.
3 months ago, It was a regular night when they all- the boys and Jimin and Seungyoun decided to crash at her house and it was a 'huge sleepover' as Jiah called it.
The reality behind the plan was that Sejun wanted to propose to her and Subin and Seungsik had planned it all out for him. They were all to wake up and have breakfast together. Then Sejun would ask Jinae to go out for a movie and when they'll leave, the rest of them would decorate the house and set up a candlelight dinner for them. They would come to that, enjoy the dinner and then Sejun would ask her to marry him.
But did it go that way?
They all woke up and Jinae and Jimin came out from the room they slept in. All the boys crashed in the living room and they were all in different stages of waking up. She walked out in her cute pyjamas and slept in hair and bare face and he felt something tug at his heart. He looked at her walking to the open kitchen but she came back from half way and gave him a kiss and asked him what he wanted for breakfast.
Instead of answering what he wanted he asked her to marry him.
Everyone froze and turned to stare at him and she said huh.
He said loudly, "Marry me!"
Before she could respond, Subin and Seungsik were shouting at him for ruining their preparations, Jimin was congratulating her and Jiah was asking him if she can call him dad now.
But he had her eyes locked with her's and slowly she smiled and nodded and mouthed 'Yes' to him and he felt like the happiest man on earth.
"How could I have said no to him?" She said and Seungyoun gagged.
"How is he?" She asked Seungsik and he shrugged.
"He's excited and nervous. And dying to see you ofcourse." Seungsik said and she chuckled.
Soon Subin peeked in to tell her that everything was ready and they'll start any moment now. She nodded and Seungsik left after giving her a hug, Jiah with him who was supposed to be the flower girl and the ring bearer.
When seungyoun and Jinae were alone, he hugged her tightly.
"I'm so happy for you Jinae. You deserve this and so much more." He whispered and she heard a sniffle.
"Don't you cry on me now youn or I'll cry too and I don't think the makeup is waterproof." She said and they both shared a laugh, slightly teared up.
They heard a knock on the door and the music for the bride started and he gave her his hand which she took, smiling widely. She had her best man with him and was going to marry the love of her life and nothing could top that feeling.
They exited the small cottage rented and walked down to the beach. They had booked a private beach house for the wedding and only the closest people were to be there - the boys and their Significant others, Seungyoun and his wife, Aerin, and Jimin. Jinae and Sejun had personally invited the dining lady to the wedding but she had some private business to attend to and couldn't make it.
They reached the small way between the seats and everyone was standing and looking at her but her eyes were only for Sejun, her Sejun who was smiling at her with so much love in his eyes and his dimples on display, who was also slightly teary eyed.
"Glad he's crying or else I would have just turned around and dragged you with me." Seungyoun Whispered beside her and she couldn't help but chuckle.
Then there was her excited baby, Jiah, happily waving at her from beside Sejun. She had declared that before the ceremony she'll be from her mother's side but during the ceremony she'll be with Sejun. Jinae was slightly offended but seeing how happy Sejun was and how he almost cried after hearing the news, she might have accepted it. Jiah had been dying to call Sejun dad since the day he proposed to her and she would always get this giddy smile whenever she'd talk about it to Jinae and she couldn't have been happier.
Before reaching Sejun, she thanked her late husband in her heart, he was the reason she had Jiah and she hoped he would be as happy for her as she was feeling in the moment.
And then they had reached the Altar and Seungyoun was passing her hand to an ecstatic but close to crying Sejun who would not stop smiling at her.
The ceremony went too quickly and she felt like it didn't even register to her and then they were saying "I do" and then the priest said, "You may now kiss the bride." And Sejun Lifted the veil and then his hands were on her waist and he bent her down and kissed her and she could feel him smiling in the kiss, couldn't help herself from doing the same and they heard Whooping from among their friends and then he was pulling back, smiling and red faced and whispered to her, "Ready for the future Mrs. Lim?"
All she could do was nod before she felt tiny hands hugging her waist and she looked down to see Jiah and heard her say, "Congratulations Mom and finally, Dad!" And the smile Sejun had when he bent down to hug Jiah made Jinae think that she made the best decision ever.
She looked around at her small group of friends, and how much she adored them all and how happy she was at that exact moment, looking at the love of her life hugging her child with so much love, looking at her best friend standing hand in hand with his wife and all the other friends who have always been there for her whenever she needed.
And she had never thought she could feel so much love and happiness at one moment but here she was, looking forward to more of them with all these people in her life.
