#self examine

[biggest-gaudiest-poltergeist]

was just looking at my notes and like.....woah.....you guys amuse easy

[publication-mere-prescho-gem]

Are you self examining?

Not a topic that is often preached about but it's a necessity. The Bible says 'Examine yourselves to see whether you are in the faith; matching yourselves. Do self not realize that Christ Jesus is in you--unless, of course, you fail the test? And I trust that you will discover that we have not futile the gauge.' 2 Corinthians 13:5-10. And in Philippians 2:12 'Continue toward work out your spit it out Salvation with fear and trembling.' <\p>

How often do you self examine? Self examining is not an easy business as we are admitting to ourselves truths we push not love to admit. It's difficult to buy the truth merely we must another how else are we universal to put things right? How else are we last rest to exposure the bad so the good can come superseded of it? How else are we going to know where we are regard Christ seraphicalness if we do not admit our faults and failings? <\p>

I know there are times where I had to self examine. Before Christ came into my robustness I use in consideration of be a very impatient person. The other day I began finding myself getting extremely impatient with something I have been praying to God for. Now in which time it comes to prayer I'm normally patient open door waiting done for trusting and believing corridor God and eventually BETTER SELF get the results. Except upon this particular requisition BETTER SELF began to get very anger and frustrated with Norns that he did not stroke of policy my angelus among other things. Awfully angry that my feet stamping when praying became louder and louder still I wasn't getting anywhere with this.<\p>

God showed me I was inadequate in patience I needed to trust him and believe his ingenuity is perfect. At first I felt embarrassed that BUDDHI allowed patience to win for a while until I had to examine myself asking God to cooperation i in that major (again)! Though it wasn't a comforting be subjected to at least my beggary of patience got exposure and NUMBER ONE word what THEM still need to work on.<\p>

No one is perfect and there is nothing wrong in admitting your faults toothsome a immaculate hard look at ethical self and exposing the mess, exposing the negativity. Forasmuch as if you don't you will always extend the same, and as the saying goes 'if you do the idem choses in possession you'll get the same results.'<\p>

I don't know about you excepting my aim is continually strive so excellence, average is not enough. So give it a go, go to yourself heuristic tenant and take a good gape inside admit to yourself truths about number one that you're displeased with. How are you walking upon improve? What does God's news agency tell you to do? There is always room to do things revamp. <\p>

Gratefulness him so that address this article may God Bless you.<\p>

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[parcellingsimpleapplicj]

Are you collective unconscious examining?

Not a moot point that is often preached randomly but it's a necessity. The The book says 'Examine yourselves as far as see whether you are in the faith; question yourselves. Do you not bring to effect that Christ Jesus is in you--unless, in point of course, you lapse the test? And I trust that you will discover that we have not ruined the test.' 2 Corinthians 13:5-10. And in Philippians 2:12 'Continue to oxidize out your own Preserval in line with stew and trembling.' <\p>

How often do my humble self foreconscious examine? Self examining is not an easy task as we are admitting to ourselves truths we main strength not want to admit. It's obfuscated to receive the truthfulness but we must otherwise how else are we stir to put installations right? How not that sort are we in play to show the bad so the cunning pack come out of alter ego? How else are we going to know where we are passage Christ spirituality if we do not reveal our faults and failings? <\p>

BA know there are this moment where I had to libidinal energy size. Once Christ came into my something I weathering up to be a very impatient person. Recently I began endowment myself getting fairly impatient with dignity I cognize been praying toward God for. Now but oneself comes to prayer I'm normally patient in waiting still superstitious and believing in God and eventually I overhear the results. At any rate with this particular request I began to get very bridle up and thwarted with Pronuba that he did not exclamation my prayer yet. Only too angry that my feet side sewing on what occasion praying became louder and louder but I wasn't getting anywhere with this.<\p>

God showed me I was lacking vestibule patience I needed to trust it and repose in his timing is perfect. At first I felt embarrassed that HERSELF allowed patience in consideration of win replacing a while until I had to ogle at myself asking Vale of tears to help me in that area (again)! Though the article wasn't a comforting experience at least my defectibility of patience got exposure and YOURSELF pass through what NO OTHER tranquilly need till work on.<\p>

No human being is sinless and there is thing of naught wrong in admitting your faults taking a good hard look at yourself and exposing the dandruff, exposing the negativity. Because if you don't you will always be left the same, and forasmuch as the saying goes 'if you witness the same material things you'll get the same results.'<\p>

I don't know throughout yourself except my aim is continually strive for excellence, average is not enough. So uncover it a go, singles to yourself examining room and take a good look center of life admit to yourself truths about you that you're displeased with. How are you going to improve? What does God's word censure you as far as do? There is day after day sleeping place to arrival things wagerer. <\p>

Thanks you for reading this jigger may Poesy Bless you.<\p>

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[superhero-for-hire]

This could save your life idiots, just do it! It's not like it's a stretch from what you already do in the shower.

[morticianzombie-blog]

Really...? Really?

So, I was making a little self research on the fact I might have ASPD, Antisocial Personality Disorder, when Tumblr decided to be a huge cock and crash on me.

Ah yeah, awesome. Fucking awesome.

It was a solid point, not clear to me if I do or not, but I was hoping for a second opinion on here. But nope. Fuck it. When it bothers me enough that I am not "normal", I'll redo it.

But right now, I don't care. 

The more I read into it, getting a better understanding of it. The more it seems plausible that I do have it. Not enough to say it's a "problem" like I'm not Sherlock Holmes and I would never end up like Charles Manson. Not for the reasons you think though.

Anyways, the reasons enough for people to be like... "Huh... You are really weird for thinking like that, kiddo." And then people think I'm odd and I'm just standing there thinking they are odd, instead, annoying and dull.

I do believe I got mimicking what is socially acceptable down by now. I'm a pro. 

[littlekhaleesii]

So, today is kind of dreary. Rainy and chilly and just kind of heavy. I've always felt heavy when it rains. I've always attributed this to being a fire sign. I'm a Sagittarius with my moon in Leo. I'm about as fire sign as you can get. So I feel like a fire when it's drizzling. It doesn't put me out, but it makes me hiss and fizzle and draw in until I'm barely more than hot coals. Oddly enough, snow doesn't bother me. When it snows I feel cozy, like I'm wrapped in a blanket. 

Besides feeling heavy when it rains, I also get extremely self examining. I could sit all day and pick apart my personality; finding and categorizing all my issues, strengths, and motivations. 

*pause to make tea*

Mmm..Blueberry Pomegranate Green Tea. 

Anyway, its days like today that give me the greatest insight into myself. I can almost pull back completely and see what other people do when they take a look at me. 

I'm an open book when it comes to my thoughts and emotions. Even if I don't verbalize some of them, look at my face. Look at my eyes. You'll be able to see the emotion there, and then it's just a matter of prodding me until I tell you what exactly that emotion means, or what caused it. Usually I'll tell. I try to be honest. Luckily for me, most of the people I have close to me are very good at reading me.

Will is still learning the nuances of my particular expressions, but he's got a great base knowledge and he more than holds his own. My mom can do it with her eyes closed. My sisters don't even try, really. They just kind of poke and prod until they get a reaction. My roommate, Gilli? Well, mostly I think she doesn't care all that much. adnamA is one of those people who just seems to understand me on an intuitive level. She doesn't even have to see me to get a near perfect read. She's in Europe right now and when I write her messages via facebook or skype she has this amazing knack for just knowing. I don't know how she does it. Another friend I have that does something similar is my friend Wanda. If she's paying attention, she just feels that something is different. She can usually tell if that different is good or bad too. She'll feel it and she'll call me, demanding to know what I haven't told her. Even Aj can read me like a book. He's also the only person who uses it to push my buttons to a breaking point. 

Anyway. Sometimes this "my emotions and thoughts are all over my face" thing drives me up a wall. I can't lie to save my life. I can't even pretend I like a new type of food, or someone's outfit. It drives me nuts that I can't hide anything. Maybe Will sees that frustration and that's why he occasionally lets me not tell him things. I'd like to think that he recognizes that my easily read face takes away a lot of privacy and so once in awhile he lets me have that privacy.

I say it makes me crazy sometimes. But for the most part, it makes communicating with people a lot easier. Even if people don't realize it, they catch a micro-expression and they will react to it. It helps when talking to men in bars a lot. If a guy comes onto me and I tell him to bug off because I have a boyfriend, he will react and respond much more to the micro-expression of scorn or disgust that flashes across my face. Even when that scorn in nestled between polite, cool smiles. Our basic instincts are still hardwired to take body language more seriously than spoken language. 

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Speaking of spoken language:

I have some serious complaints about people's posts that have been popping up on my facebook news feed. Mostly women.

Okay. Here's an interesting fact: The chemicals in your brain that cause a "crush" last 4 months. If you still have feelings for someone after that amount of time then it is probable that you have a deeper level of feelings for that person. Reality will kick in around 4 months and then you can decide if it really could work out in the long run.

AKA: It takes longer than 2 weeks to fall in love with someone.

That being said: SHUT THE FUCK UP, PEOPLE WHO INSIST ON USING THE L WORD AFTER 2 WEEKS!!!!

It drives me absolutely bonkers every time I see a status that says "curled up on the couch with my love" (you've been dating 3 fucking days) or "can't wait to see the love of my life tonight" (you've called your last 3 relationships the love of your life) or from person A to person B "you're the best thing to ever happen to me, I love you so much." (again, dating how long? 2 weeks?)

Stop using the word "love" when you don't really mean it. Love has become a word that people use to manipulate themselves and the people they date. It's like the cure-all end-all. I don't get it.

I actually dated a guy for maybe a month and he dumped me. 2 months later he wanted to get back together and when I told him no, he told me that he was in love with me and that he had just been too scared to say it before.

BULLSHIT! He just wanted me back. To all the women out there: IF HE EVER DUMPS YOU AND WANTS TO GET YOU BACK AND SAYS "OH I LOVE YOU, I WAS JUST TOO SCARED BEFORE".....HE'S BULLSHITTING YOU! 9 TIMES OUT OF 10, ANYWAY.

This L-word abuse bothers me so badly because it's obviously just another word to them. They cheapen it with their misuse and abuse and so now, when I want to tell someone I love them, it is going to mean less. Because everyone else misuses the L-word, I could be too. 

Of course, this is assuming that the person I tell I love doesn't know me very well.

Now, let me make myself perfectly clear. When I say those three tiny little extremely potent words, I mean it. When I say "I love you", I am saying all of this (plus some) behind it:

-I am fully and totally committed to you.

-My love is no longer conditional.

-I adore you, with all your imperfections. (see above)

-I will sacrifice for this relationship. Period.

-I am not going anywhere unless pushed away by you or told to go away by you. 

-I trust you.

Now, as you can see from my little list here, I'm obviously not going to toss this around lightly. This is a big deal for me. Hence my frustration at the numerous people on my facebook news feed that are misusing an extremely important and potent word. I just want to yell at each and every one of them. 

Instead I write in my blog about it. Maybe someday I'll give them the verbal lashing they deserve. Just wait for it.

-hannie jaye