#selfwrought

[hopedyad]

'Follow my lead'

Rey had entirely been focused on walking when suddenly she was pressed up against a wall. She managed to hiss out “Ben!?” before his lips were on hers. It was not a beat later before her fingers moved to his chest and the other hand to the back of his neck. She hummed softly into the kiss, leaning up into him, obviously enjoying this more than was probably nessesary. 

[ncvaflows-archive]

“You can’t understand me. I hope you’ll never be able to understand how much pain I am in.” ( for liesel )

@selfwrought

       “i can’t. i know i can’t.” who was she to think she could ever understand someone like him? kylo ren. people talked in hushed whispers about him when he wasn’t aboard the destroyers. it was sometimes rare to even glimpse him with how frequently he traveled, but she had been lucky enough to have been selected to serve on board his ship for her current assignment. half of the time there she lived in fear of messing up and failing, hiding in the shadows, quiet and out of sight to avoid mistakes. but one sees a lot from her place. she glimpsed more of him in corridors. tall. cold. resilient and silent when he wasn’t giving orders. but there were moments, infrequent as they were, where she glimpsed a slight droop of shoulders almost as if they were tired of being a heavy burden. a burden she assumed that belonged to his grandfather. family ties were the heaviest burden. in that she could only somewhat understand with her own legacy to bear.

     “all i know…is what it is to be alone with your thoughts.”

[ncvaflows-archive]

‘ i am in control & i listen to no one. ’ ( for aleksander )

@selfwrought

       “even if this no one is NOT the one you’re looking for. check my bioprints- i’m not the man you’re looking for.” granted he had run into his fair share of resistance fighters, but he had always made sure to stay away from them. he had also run into more than his fair share of trouble because of the uncanny resemblance to one of their fighter pilots. there were so many times he considered facial reconstruction of some sort, but lacked the finances to support such a venture. it just so happened what little luck he had left or maybe his bad luck caught up to him that he managed to get captured and brought here. jaw locked dark eyes remained focused on the younger man before him. 

   “my name is aleksander anovs. i was a former guard to an imperial family on the planet Surias. i defected once the family refused to submit to the First Order.” a half truth really. he didn’t defect, but what this man didn’t know in detail before he didn’t need to find out now. “i have no connections to then or the current resistance. mistaken identity.”

[forcesheart]

' I have survived, but I have not been spared . '

       ᴡᴀs ᴛʜɪs ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ᴡʜᴀᴛ ʜᴀᴘᴘᴇɴᴇᴅ ᴏɴ ᴛʜᴇ sᴜᴘʀᴇᴍᴀᴄʏ ? or was this something else entirely ? something in her told her that it might be the latter. her gaze is on the floor for a few long moments , searching for the words to say , before finally looking back up. ❛ the galaxy is cruel , ren … especially to those like us. ❜ those who did not abide by the jedi code , who bend the force to their own will , those who face cruelties and unleash them back unto the world. ❛ if you wish to walk this path then you will face much more of this. it will get worse. that pain will fuel you … but you must decide if all of that is worth it. ❜ it was a warning , cautioning him that the path to the dark side was a long and hard journey full of pain and sacrifice. revan had been cold towards the man before yet something in her made her want to share her knowledge that she had gained not only in life but in death as well.

MEME. // ACCEPTING. // @selfwrought

[forcesheart]

' Are we not devils? '

       ʀᴇᴠᴀɴ sʟᴏᴡʟʏ ᴛᴜʀɴs ᴛᴏ ʟᴏᴏᴋ ᴀᴛ ʜɪᴍ ᴏᴠᴇʀ ʜᴇʀ sʜᴏᴜʟᴅᴇʀ. ❛ if that’s how you want to look at it , i suppose so. ❜ it was a bit ridiculous to pretend as if her actions– both of their actions– were not evil. even if they had thought it was the right thing to do at the time , no matter what reasons they attached to it , evil was evil. but did revan truly consider herself a devil ? she wasn’t so sure. ❛ but i had my reasons. i did what needed to be done. didn’t you ? ❜ she sighs , looking out through the window into the vastness of space before turning back to face him fully. ❛ there’s no use dwelling on what’s done. we should focus on the ultimate goal , ren. ❜ she imagined that whatever that was was different for the both of them.

MEME. // ACCEPTING. // @selfwrought

[astracrowncd]

[ shove ]

violent reactions. || @selfwrought[ shove ]   your muse shoving mine forcibly.

          he’s certain he can taste blood in the back of his throat.

          his ears are ringing and cason slides down the wall from the impact of the shove, the use of the force on his more slender body easily having sent him flying. blood trickles from the corner of his mouth, and his head leans back a moment as he finally catches his breath, dragging it in and gasping as he does, his chest aching just from inhaling once.

          cason groans, and settles his hands on the floor as he leans forward, his uniform rumpled and his body aching, but he doesn’t stop. no. instead, he slowly forces himself up to his knees, and climbs up the wall, using it as leverage to actually stand. even with his head spinning, he manages to get up, and his fingers slip on the durasteel wall a moment, another trickle of blood passing his lips until he reaches up to wipe it away.

          “goodbye, ren.” he spits it, fire in his eyes despite the blooming bruises already forming on his body. straightening his spine, he turns, and makes his way down the hall, as straight backed as he can manage.

[roseguided-a]

@selfwrought​ ASKED , ❛ 𝑾𝒉𝒚 𝒅𝒐 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒓𝒖𝒏 𝒇𝒓𝒐𝒎 𝒎𝒆? ❜ ( 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒓𝒆𝒚 )

          𝐇𝐀𝐍𝐃𝐒 𝐏𝐔𝐒𝐇 𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐌𝐒𝐄𝐋𝐕𝐄𝐒 𝐅𝐑𝐎𝐌 𝐇𝐄𝐑 𝐓𝐇𝐑𝐎𝐍𝐄 ,  𝐑𝐎𝐎𝐌 𝐒𝐇𝐑𝐎𝐔𝐃𝐄𝐃 𝐈𝐍 𝐑𝐄𝐃 𝐀𝐒   previous supreme leader snoke , her grandfather in disguise , might’ve liked.     hands hang at the woman’s side , feet steeping down the stairs leading to her throne before coming to stand just a few feet from kylo ren.       ;        ❝   why do i run from you?   ❞    she asked ,  brow quirking upward as a small smirk pressed against crimson red tinted lips.   step is taken closer to him ,  heavy booted feet sounding against floor.   moment is taken for darkened eyes to peer into his own , gaze held intensely :     ❝   because it amuses me.  ❞   simple answer ,  but one filled with     𝙷𝙸𝙳𝙳𝙴𝙽   meaning.     ❝   it is a game of want && wanting ,  cat && mouse.  ❞   she’d been toying with him for some time now , but nothing outside of what had been done before.   not done to make   him suffer   , not done to   frustrate him   . .  but because she enjoys seeing him squirm , to see him want her so bad that he doesn’t know what to do with himself !    shoulders straighten ,  eyes breaking contact to glance past him toward the door.   sigh passes those crimson lips ,    ❝    anymore news on the rest of the resistance forces ?   ❞    

[vjesticka]

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OUTOFCHARA . asstrid you are a very kind and patient and roleplayer and im so happy to have met you . interacting with your rey is so much fun and i wish we can do more when we’re both not so busy ! i hope we can continue to be friends and write together ! i’m always interested in what you’re doing / up to , and so glad to have you around , you’re a lot of fun to chat with and just someone i feel comfortable to chill with uwu