#sensenyear

[alicemitch09]

Fragility

You know what sucks? Crying. Know what sucks even more? Crying in class. And the most probable worst? Crying over the fact that your longforgottentrauma can still wear you down. I mean REALLY! I thought I was over this! I've completely gotten over that fact and yet, it completely brought on my fragile me :x As in, while I was paying attention to my moderator about bullying, I felt a quiver. But it wasn't an earthquake, it was me. When I ohso dramatically took my hands, I was freaking shaking like a leaf. SHAKING DAMN IT. And it scared me. I turned to my seatmate behind me and told him about it, but said I was probably too stressed up - I wasn't. I had been playing my sissy's DS all day while studying. But the real shocker was when I started tearing up to the different kinds of Bullying. I was so scared. I shaked uncontrollably. My tears spilled from my eyes. I attratcted a lot of attention. I felt so weak. Their voices haunted me. I saw unwanted memories pop from my head. It was freaking scary. I wanted to take a half day so I can stay home and await for death. Thankfully, my kind and awesome seatmatea were there to comfort me. So did my unsuspecting classmates who made me laugh. And my moderator, for showing us inspiring videos and touched me too much that I fought a sob. I kinda miss my textmate, he'll cheer me up with his cheesy poetry or attempted calls. But No. Thanks again guys :* And Happy Birthday to the most awesome, friendly, frank and wise friend and 2 semester seatmate and my dear dear friend Jaymee Hana Padilla! <3

[alicemitch09]

Long story cut shory

I have come to a conclusion that I am utterly stupid, paranoid, ugly and useless. I pity my family and friends for coping up with my existence. I should really jump off a cliff. The End.

[alicemitch09]

I have SERIOUS problem.

URGH.

I had a HORRIBLE start as a Senior for this school year, and I am yet to make amends or try to forget that my start was completely out of whack and disturbing. Especially when I was SO hung-over over my awesome summer spent by reading and writing. EH GAD. ;w; I REGRET SO MUCH. I REGRET EVERYTHING. HOW I WISH THERE WAS A FUCKING REWIND BUTTON TO EVERYTHING. 

So here I am now, being a bitch of society. Needlessly seeking for something to do when I should be really studying for my upcoming exam and be interviewing people. But NO, life just had to be a bitch and my forgetfulness just had to get me REAL GOOD. So now I'm gonna procrastinate and forever hate myself in a box called 'ME'.

ARGH. I am so tempted to write yet ANOTHER fanfic. -___________- SERIOUSLY?! WHEN I'M BUSY WITH 3 MORE FANFICS? AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAACK! Dayum, this writing thing really gets me. CURSE YOU NICHOLAS SPARKS FOR FEEDING ME WITH IDEAS FOR MY FICS AND YOU BRAIN FOR FINDING INSPIRATION IN THE MOST RANDOM AND WEIRD TIMES! HUWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAI DAMN IT? HUWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAI!

PLEASE LANG, PAHUWAI SAD KO! GANAHAN NA KO MAG.KALAG NUON TUNGUD SA STRESS AND ANGER MANAGEMENT DWELLING IN ME! >< AWFUL SHIT IS SO UNDENIABLY AND FUCKING AWFUL!

And lastly, that one guy? I feel so sorry for his ass. Of all the pretty girls out there, he chose me -_- Poor guy, he is SO gonna regret this. I pray for him.

THE END.

[alicemitch09]

FUCKERY.

ERGH, DAMN YOU CONSTITUTION OF THE PHILIPPINES, I AM SRSLY BLAMING YOU FOR MY WRITER'S BLOCK! JUST WHEN I WAS ALL GIDDY AND HYPER EXCITED TO WRITE, PCEER SHIZNIT POPS ALONG. GEE, THANK YOU! WHY ARE WE THE ONLY COUNTRY WITH 2 MONTHS OF SUMMER?! DAAAAAAAAAAAAAMN IIIIIIIIIIIT! BIIIIIIIIIIIITCHEEEEEEEEEEZ!

Erhm, anywho...it's still weird that someone admitted he likes me. And I ain't telling~ :p nahahahaha. BUT, because I was stupid and kinda obvious, the beans spilt and my classmates just had to mistake him for my BOYFRIEND. YECH. One word, Visayan, no actual meaning because I made it - BULOL. And don't ask, because I'm awesome just like that \m/ aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaw yeaaaaaaaaaaah.

And what's worse though, is that I never seem to pay a SPECK of attention during discussions. Just off in La La land jumbling and conjugating words outta my system for my fics. But WRITER'S BLOCK just had to come along. 

Y'know what? FUCK YOU BRAIN AND FUCK YOU WB! I AM SRSLY GETTING PITCHFORKS OR FORKS OR ANY ANGRY MOB LOOKING OBJECT AND SHOVE THEM UP YOUR ARSES!

RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!

-End.

[alicemitch09]

First Days of being a Sensen

Ugh, gawd. 

If ever your reading this now and you are an upcoming freshmen this September or whenever, do me a favor and get some shit own until the day before your class starts. I have no fucking idea why or how, but miraculously I did NAWT get enough sleep the day before that ill-fated day, I WASN'T EVEN LOOKING FORWARD TO SCHOOL! I only looked forward to the days where I'd still be sitting in front of me papa's computer and write away until I get completely worn out and can't move my arms due to excessive use.

But anyways, a funny tale I shall share to you folks regarding my Sensen days:

One, I PROCRASTINATED. No really, I did. Because I almost lost my admit to class slip.

Second, I PROCRASTINATED yet again. Duh, SENIOR year? Stress? Nerve-wrecking days? all that shiz and booze written all over it threatening to pull and yank you to DEATH if ever you fail and DO NOT get to college? Yeah. Procrastination got me good.

Third, during my first day in school, I was drunk with tiredness and hatredtowardstheday. Luckily, NO ONE and I mean NO ONE noticed how sober I was....until they read this NAO. OHOHOHOHOHOHOHO~ Also, I have a very good feeling that my classmates are finding me really on crack or an 'adik' HAHAHAHA.

And LASTLY, I have BAWLING from the inside because now that school has begun, I have LESS time writing and updating my fics. T________T gawd do I need a planner D':

So, that's all the shiz fo' nao. gotta upload some fics :D