#sept 19th

[samtheviking]

Happy International Talk Like a Pirate Day!

International Talk Like a Pirate Day - Wikipedia

[nebulastarr]

Y’ALL!!!!!

[64-jungle-planks]

Rules n’ Info card :D

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Ask Box: Open!!!

Requests: Open!!!

Howdy! I’m frosty and this is where I’m going to be posting a lot of Hermitcraft fanart! My favorite hermit draw is Scar and/or Grian! I take requests and I can’t wait to draw!

I’ll also be participating in Demise this year on the Hermitblr Discord! If your participating too I hope to see you there!!

Rules:

I won’t do any nsfw, I am a minor and that stuff makes me uncomfortable!

I won’t take requests for CC!s, but I will draw C!characters and AUs!

Tag List:

Frosty’s art (for my art!)

Frosty’s thoughts (for my thoughts that arnt asks)

Frosty reblog (for reblogs)

Asks For Frosts (Just chattin’ with asks)

Art requests (art that you request!)

[darkravn]

Yar! Tis talk like a pirate day! Here be me kraken socks!

[xflower-childx]

Fuck. I am tired, I'm tired of being needed, I'm tired of fighting, but not being fought for, I'm tired of everyone expecting something from me and getting nothing back. I'm tired of drama and all the nonstop. I've been fighting this feeling of losing myself when I know who I am, the good I bring and how strong I am. I know that we have to take these setbacks in order to learn and grow and I have the strength to move forward, I don't doubt my abilities, I don't doubt how much I've grown and the love I have for myself and what I deserve. I'm just really fucking tired right now. I can put blame on british bitch for how cruel, cold hearted she was and the harassment and threats, but I know that I also fucked up, I didn't stoop to her level because I know myself and I know who I am, but I know ways I could have done better. I wish that things could have ended differently with her and we could still be friends but she has her lessons to learn and I know this happened as a growing experience for her... And hopefully a wake up to leave her piece of shit boyfriend. I won't hold my breath though. I hope she finds herself though. I truly do because she does have a good heart, she's just incredibly lost right now and is holding onto anything/anyone who will give her attention... Even if they're trash.

I can't help but wish for the good for anyone around me.... Including R. I want him to be happy, even if it's not with me. It's okay if not. I know I've been holding onto a maybe with him for years and now it's time to let go. He deserves happiness and I'm not going to hold him back from it. I have no fighting left in me anymore, not just from the years of never feeling like I was ever good enough for him since I always felt like the second choice, but also from all this fighting with British Bitch, it's drained all life out of me and like I told Boss lady, I'm running out of feeling positive. These past few months have hit me like a ton of bricks and I'm having a hard time getting back up. I can do it on my own of course but I just wish someone could give me a hand and a side to cuddle into and stop for a second.

So while I'm rambling I'll get the last thoughts out that are running through my head, things I wish I could say, or things that need to be said, in letter style because that's always been easier, maybe this was everything he needed to hear or maybe it was all wishful thinking that we would reconnect.

R, I do love you. More than you obviously know, I wouldn't have held on this long if I didn't. It's obvious now that you didn't have the same feelings back, and that's okay, as I've told you before, you can't help what you feel. I only ever wanted you to find happiness within yourself and I had hoped when you did that you would come back for me. Numerous times I wanted to text or call you and ask you if we could try and circle back around but I just figured you needed more time and I knew I did too. I knew we had our own lessons to learn separately and we had to find ourselves more. I'm not mad at that, I've grown into an amazing woman that I am proud to be and I can thank you for being apart of that. You've taught me more than I can even explain and I just don't have the energy to try.

I hope you know I'm not mad or angry, I don't hate you or wish harm. I wish nothing but love and happiness for you, if it's with her than I hope she treats you better than I ever did (Although... Nah we aren't going there.) I never let you go, I couldn't. I tried so many times because I just wanted to finally feel like I was someones first choice. I wanted to finally feel that stress and carefree love that I've seen everyone else experience. I wanted to know what it was like to be able to truly let all walls down with someone and stop only relying on myself and trust someone else for once. I once nearly felt all that with you, but I've come to discover walls that even I didn't know existed and had to break down myself to ever really let anyone else pass. We knew at that time we weren't perfect together, but we worked so damn well and to this day I can still say that no one has ever come close to seeing me in the ways that you have, I haven't truly loved anyone in the ways I loved you, and even though all these walls and my friends keep screaming how you never did love me and that I need to just cut it all off and end it completely... I can't, there is a part in my heart that will always love you and that believes that maybe we were soulmates in a past life but maybe not this life? I don't know, I have my theories on soulmates and past lives, but now isn't the time. I just know that I do love you and after a couple years of healing and learning a few things, you are always welcome to be in my life. I will always be there for you and support you, you will always have a place in my heart and the most beautiful parts of my young(er) adult life. I will never let our memories go, they've been covered up... A lot and I've had to learn to love them again and I still am so they aren't painful to look back on... Although that hasn't been easy being that I was already mentally beaten down with British Bitch but ya know, the universe was demanding growth and shit so ya fight through it.... And accept it with patience and understanding. You wish happiness because that's what love is. If you love something or someone, you let them go and if they don't come back, they were never really yours.

Please know I did want you to come back, I had hoped you would. I had to push you out to break those walls that I didn't know existed. I couldn't hold onto you because I just always felt second best. I wanted you to fight for me the way I fought for you with S, S2, and R2 (Mentally af but also brought a lot of Empath realization and learning), along with yourself, so fighting for you with S3 seems a little repetitive... And you finally coming to me and saying that you do love me and want to make things right was what I needed and I do remember saying that I believe if you ever came back I knew you would make me fall in love with you again. I do still stand by it. I can't promise my heart will always be available as I do want love and happiness with a partner, but if your soul mate isn't her this lifetime, I still stand by those words, but you best believe that if you come half hearted again and unsure that I will cut you right out and there is no coming back after that.

But if it is her, I can accept that, not because I don't love or want you in my life but because I believe the universe has a plan... Annnddd I'm trying to not feel the need to be a controlling brat 🤦‍♀️ I know I always needdd to be in control of everything to feel calm, which I've come to learn brings the opposite of calm and I'm working on it... So instead of trying to take charge here I'm letting go. I'm wishing you true happiness with her if she's you're soulmate here in this lifetime. I know she's gotta be pretty cool and awesome if you've found a relationship with her and you're willing to drop you're life for her (Which yeah really does fucking hurt a lot) but.. yeah. So I will step back, out of respect for not just for you and myself, but also her. I want you to be happy and I guess if it's not this lifetime, maybe the next.... But like I said, if not, you know where to find me for the next year or so and I wouldn't mind re-meeting you and seeing the wonderful man I know you have become and maybe even fall in love again. I can't say that offer will always be available though. Like I said, I want love. I also wouldn't mind company in my travels that is more than the alien and future cat... Annnddd I need help building a van or getting a trailer camper in proper travel living shape, I can do it on my own of course and I know that and nothing is holding me back... But having a partner in that experience is always more fun and helpful.

For now though, we're finally emerging from the tour, killing it at work and saving money for travels. We got goals, we're making plans, and we're happy and excited for the future again, it's just been a slow long process. Which is my own fault because I'm too stubborn to learn the easy way with things 🤦‍♀️

Alright this has gotten scattered, but it is what it is. I feel a little lighter at least and I'm not as frustrated and tense as I was earlier. I know I've been avoiding British bitch writing about and it would also help if I did but that's for safety reasons as well as time and laziness. Eventually, when court threats subside I shall, but I'm starving and really sleepy. It's also smoke time.

Also, FALLLL WEATHERRR 💓🍂🎃💕

[zopilote--machine-blog]

On this day next month I'll be 21 😎

[ral-across-the-universe]

Happy Talk Like A Pirate Day!

Avast ye, mateys, for I set me eyes on a sight like no other, the fantastical smuggler's den of Coalbeard the Pirate, a black-hearted scalleywag if ever there were! Cap'n Coalbeard be takin' his hoarded treasure an' craftin' himself a port o' call, a haven for the dastardliest dogs this side o' Farside. His cove be open to the public, for any crusty barnacles that be lookin' for some sight-seein' today!