“ and the saddest part of all? you’ll cling to the good memories, as if there were any. ” ( guillo )
Kurisu remains silent for a long time. Good memories? How old had she been when she made the last one of those? She remembers sitting on the floor of her father’s office with a heavy textbook open in front of her, poring over every word. The memories of the pages are blank, she no longer recalls what the book contained. She had been so enamored with the thought of being able to talk to him about his work, and he had been nothing but encouraging. That was a good memory, wasn’t it? Had it been the last one she’d made at her home?
Kurisu closes her eyes, sighs, and draws her knees tighter to her chest. It had been raining the day she’d proven one of her father’s theories wrong. They had only spoken once since then. Guillo’s words sting, hitting all too close to home for her to ignore, but she knows they mean well. “Thank you,” she can manage little else. Her chest feels as though it’s being crushed in a vice, the muscles holding her jaw shut as tight as steel cord. She knows she’ll feel better later, the chance to talk to a friend was rare, but the moment is anything else but pleasant. She has no idea how quickly time is passing. It feels as though she had sat down only seconds ago, but the ache in her back and legs tells her that she’s been here for an hour, at the least. “Time is relative,” she mutters, voice barely more than a wavering exhale.
After what feels like an infinitesimal moment stretched into infinity Kurisu lifts her head and rubs her eyes. Her hand comes away wet, had she been crying? When? The fatigue hits immediately after, and she very quickly looses any confidence she might’ve had that she could get home without help. Not that she wanted to go anyway. The rest of her family might be away but the dark and dusty corners of the house could go nowhere. It's the last place she wants to be. She uses what strength remains in her arms to shift and look at Guillo. “… Can you help me up?”