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Dark Souls II on sale but I gotta be strong and save up my money for the Summer Salee........ 

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looks at an ac////ebigots blog for a sec and them calling the a//sari in the trailer “weird looking and unflattering” 

Me: I knew y’all were’t shit 

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You know, every day I just want to quit this site and it’s gatekeeping and acebigotry and unbridled hatred towards me and people like me. People who want me to die without access to suicide resources or safe places or community, people who tell me my being coerced into sexual acts I wanted no part of wasn’t because I was ace but misdirected insertsomeotherformofbigotryhere, or even better it didn’t happen at all. People who will use mass murders and A//IDS crisis against me, people who will erase my romantic orientation, my gender, call me a bigot, make me want to slit my wrists or cut up my genitals like.... I just want to quit?  I want to quit this site, this life, I’m sitting here bleeding for people who’ve been murdered and wounded because it hurts so bad? But I feel guilty, and unworthy and FUCK I feel responsible and it’s so fucked up I just want it to STOP but it never will. These people will never stop hating me and wanting me to die, never stop bringing up strawmen, never stop painting the whole community with a broad brush, never stop using gotchas born from people’s deaths, never stop using conversion rhetoric and screaming about ahistoricality when all I want to do is grieve. It’s getting harder and harder to believe it will get better, it really is. I could put my head in the sand but that doesn’t mean anything will have changed. I just want to belong. I want someone to hug me and help me be less afraid in this world that hates me for being who I am INCLUDING my sexual orientation but no one is here. No one cares. It’s so ugly. 

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Anyways since disgusting gatekeepers on this hell site don’t even consider me worthy enough to grieve such an attack on my community, I’m logging off for the day to be alone with my pain. Thanks for being so supportive and such, you shits. 

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today on my long list of huge ass peeves with the u/t fandom:

their constant portrayal of a//sriel being raised by a single mother or some shit lol 

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Stu is the purest Christ figure to ever grace cinema tbh. 

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when’s toby gonna give more detail on the life and personality of asgore tho 

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fuck this website so much honestly