#shattered self

[makingsenseofwhathappened]

There will come a moment when you stop rearranging yourself to excuse others

- someone way smarter than me

[amesthesize]

Shadow

I saw my shadow-

It smiled from.my window.

When I glanced in the mirror,

My face was stuck in horror.

I glanced at my shadow;

It's not on my window.

Looking back at the mirror,

There is no "I", only a smiling horror.

"Don't recognise me?

I am your darkest depth

Your hidden side

Deemed too ugly to show the world.

"I am your raging grave,

Your sobbing weakness,

The immature child

And the broken teen.

"I was your other half

The unforgiving one

I matched cruelty to cruelty

And sweetly took my due reward.

"You hid me well

Forever, you wished"

"Nothing lasts forever," we chorused

And my shadow grinned as my eyes shed terrified tears.

(And the "me" I wanted to be)

-Ame, Shadow

[borderlinebunbun]

I THINK I MIGHT ACTUALLY BE FULLY GAY??? LIKE LOVE GIRLS AND ONLY GIRLS??? MY IDENTITY IS RIPPING ITSELF APART BECAUSE I DONT KNOW?? IM NOT SURE??? I SWOON OVER GIRLS BUT I DONT MIND SLEEPING WITH GUYS? BUT I LIKE EVERYTHING ABOUT GIRLS?? AND I WANT EVERYTHING WITH A GIRL?? AM I GAY?? IDK??? IM FREAKING OUT??