Okay now I’m thinking about how I imagine Herokel lol like, a series of events/emotional developments that I think would be neat for a timeline of their relationship
Hero is of course very affectionate when they’re younger, he really loves Kel a lot but doesn’t realize his feelings for Kel aren’t normal older brother feelings/doesn’t notice when they transition from normal brother feelings into incestuous ones. He teases Kel with kisses a lot because he figures it’s just fairly normal to like annoying your brother that way, and there is definitely no other reason he wants to kiss Kel so bad, no siree lol and he’s dating Mari because he does really like her a lot too, his feelings for her are also genuine.
Then, after Mari dies, during his depression, Hero finally realizes the nature of his feelings for Kel, and it only feeds his self-loathing and misery. He thinks that on top of being a disappointment and a horrible friend and boyfriend, he must also be a threat to Kel, an absolutely filthy, worthless person. I think he pushes Kel away a lot during and for some time after this period, to punish himself and to keep Kel safely away from him. This does not help their strained relationship.
I tend to have a harder time imagining Kel’s side of things, I find Hero and the incest guilt I like to inflict on him way more interesting tbh. Idk whether I prefer Kel reciprocating/developing his own feelings later on, once their relationship starts to be mended, or if I prefer him also harbouring long-standing incestuous feelings and being more wounded than he feels he should be by Hero’s constant rejection and distancing.
As I mentioned in my reblog of @herossandwich’s post, I tend to imagine Hero trying to be the responsible sibling, so even on the off chance they both figure out all their feelings before Kel graduates high school, I tend to imagine Hero being very hands-off with Kel. Any indulgences he snatches for himself, like teasing joke kisses, are done with a guilty conscience, and anything genuinely serious is probably initiated by Kel, and probably only once they’re both adults. (Hero knows this doesn’t make it any more legal, but it makes him feel a little less bad, so he doesn’t really care.)
I. Don’t know how to end this lol I’m tired and I just think they should kiss and Hero should be wracked with guilt about it and I should’ve probably gone to bed half an hour ago lmao goodnight to the two other Herokel enjoyers on this webbed site, have a good one hfksjdfhs