‘ sometimes, i realize one day i could die, i could just disappear and the world would be none the wiser. ’
the soft finality of her voice draws an ocean gaze. comprehension gains a tilted awareness, and maddie sighs. the book in her lap is long forgotten in favor of reaching a hand out; something she normally doesn’t do. she isn’t the affectionate one, here. there’s no point in interrupting, until there is.
‘ there’d be no one to miss me. ’ and still, maddie waits. ‘ -and that terrifies me more than death itself. ’
she moves, taking clarice’s cheeks in her hands. when she speaks, it’s soft and firm. “ is that what you think, petit canard? that you mean so little to this world that no one would miss you? that your life is so meaningless that disappearing would be so simple? ”
“ there’s nothing in this world that would make the loss of you anything less than a tragedy. the loss of you, little duck, would remove every ounce of color from the sky. angels i don’t believe in would weep, and the earth herself would tremor. ” and, oh. she’s not going to let this go. there’s no way she’s letting clarice believe that she’s so-
“ we’re different people, aren’t we? we’re no more similar in the things we’ve seen, or done. ” and those hands move, still within reach of her, but somewhere much more comfortable for where the conversation is going. “ where you’re beautiful sunrises, i’m nothing more than a quickly passing dusk, but at the end of day, there’s nothing, no one, who would miss you more than i would. there’s only very little that gives me joy, clarice starling, but even i can admit that you? you are most of them. i can’t offer you more than i have, but never tell yourself that someone won’t mourn the loss of you. i will. for every moment i’m still here, i’ll mourn in the colorless world left in your wake. ”
@silencedlamb you dropped this:: “ sometimes i realize one day i could die, i could just disappear and the world would be none the wiser. there’d be no one to miss me and that terrifies me more than death itself. ”