i do not feel like myself

7:16 pm. I'm in Baltimore, Maryland. My name is Will Graham.

[consiliummeum]

𝐦𝐲 𝐢𝐧𝐧𝐞𝐫 𝐯𝐨𝐢𝐜𝐞 𝐬𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐝𝐬 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮. 𝒊 𝒄𝒂𝒏’𝒕 𝒈𝒆𝒕 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒐𝒖𝒕 𝒐𝒇 𝒎𝒚 𝒉𝒆𝒂𝒅.

indie , sel , 18+ . headcanon - heavy , crossover - friendly . cw && spoilers ahead . profiled by dust .

[idconsilium-a]

now found at @consiliummeum

[christyl-meth]

[idconsilium-a]

emptying my inbox, might even be around a little more often. who knows

[thearmyofgrunge]

[idconsilium-a]

Flick. Flick. Flick. “Goddamn lighter, c’mon…”

A cheap cigarette stuck between his teeth, one hand cupped to keep the wind from blowing out the lighter his other thumb had been flicking at. One more little flick, and the tiny little flame lit the end of his cigarette. He took a deep inhale, sticking the lighter back in his pocket before gently plucking the stick from his mouth and blowing out smoke with a sigh.

Free hand dragging down his face, Will’s attention had been far too divided to notice the footsteps approaching from out of his view.

[rpresourcehelp]

Send anons on relationships you’ve seen my muse in.

[idconsilium-a]

Flick. Flick. Flick. “Goddamn lighter, c’mon…”

A cheap cigarette stuck between his teeth, one hand cupped to keep the wind from blowing out the lighter his other thumb had been flicking at. One more little flick, and the tiny little flame lit the end of his cigarette. He took a deep inhale, sticking the lighter back in his pocket before gently plucking the stick from his mouth and blowing out smoke with a sigh.

Free hand dragging down his face, Will’s attention had been far too divided to notice the footsteps approaching from out of his view.

[idconsilium-a]

Flick. Flick. Flick. “Goddamn lighter, c’mon...”

A cheap cigarette stuck between his teeth, one hand cupped to keep the wind from blowing out the lighter his other thumb had been flicking at. One more little flick, and the tiny little flame lit the end of his cigarette. He took a deep inhale, sticking the lighter back in his pocket before gently plucking the stick from his mouth and blowing out smoke with a sigh.

Free hand dragging down his face, Will’s attention had been far too divided to notice the footsteps approaching from out of his view.

[idconsilium-a]

...open starter of someone catching will lighting a cigarette bc stressy

[idconsilium-a]

i can’t find it anywhere on my blog so it must’ve never left discord. but @ilxmostro suggested forever ago that will’s middle name is adam and adam (2009) is just...post-priv college verse will

[rpclefairy]

𝐇𝐎𝐔𝐒𝐄 𝐌𝐃 𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐌𝐏𝐓𝐒.

“ everybody lies. ”

“ weird works for me. ”

“ truth begins in lies. ”

“ humanity is overrated. ”

“ pain happens when you care. ”

“ reality is almost always wrong. ”

“ i don’t care much for apologies. ”

“ i’m too handsome to do paperwork. ”

“ i’m gonna pretend to go to work now. ”

“ do you listen to what you’re saying? ”

“ you’re a disgrace to your stereotype. ”

“ never is just reven spelled backwards. ”

“ perseverance does not equal worthiness. ”

“ i know what’s bugging your subconscious. ”

“ new is good. because old ended in death. ”

“ if i was kidding i’d be dressed like you. ”

“ there’s nothing any of us can do about it. ”

“ do i get bonus points if i act like i care? ”

“ we all make mistakes, and we all pay a price. ”

“ i have almost no knowledge of alien physiology. ”

“ i cared for eight seconds, then i got distracted. ”

“ that is not the last feeling i want to experience. ”

“ if nobody hates you, you’re doing something wrong. ”

“ i’m deflecting because i’m avoiding something shallow. ”

“ almost dying changes nothing, dying changes everything. ”

“ i’m not deflecting because i’m avoiding something deep. ”

“ i don’t want to be in pain, i don’t want to be miserable. ”

“ i’m branching out from self-loathing and self-destruction. ”

“ i think when you do change, it’s not so simple to go back. ”

“ people don’t get what they deserve. they just get what they get.

“ if you can fake sincerity, you can fake pretty much anything. ”

“ we formulate our questions based on the answers we want to hear. ”

“ death is the opposite of a cool puzzle, it’s eternal nothingness. ”

“ livers are important. you can’t live without them, hence the name.”

“ did you come for my feelings? because i left ‘em in my other pants. ”

“ what’s the opposite of 'thank you’? i’m pretty sure it ends in 'you.'“

“ it’s one of the great tragedies of life — something always changes. ”

“  there’s no i in 'team’. there is a 'me’, though, if you jumble it up. ”

“ a unicorn isn’t a unicorn, it’s a donkey with a plunger stuck to its face. ”

“ hostility makes me shrink up like a… i can’t think of a non-sexual metaphor. ”

“ pain makes us make bad decisions. fear or pain is almost as big of a motivator. ”

“ it’s normal to be screwed up, but it’s really screwed up to romanticize it. ”

“ well, as the philosopher jagger once said, 'you can’t always get what you want.’ ”

“ everybody does stupid things, it shouldn’t cost them everything they want in life. ”

“ if you wanted fair, you chose the wrong job, the wrong profession, the wrong species. ”

“ if you’re not willing to look stupid, nothing great is ever going to happen to you. ”

“ it’s easy to be nice to people you like. but being nice to people you hate, that’s a skill. ”

[idconsilium-a]

stop putting gaspard on my dash yall gonna make young will feel things /j

[soulprompts]

𝐒𝐄𝐓𝐓𝐋𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐃𝐔𝐒𝐓 𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐌𝐏𝐓𝐒.

basically i was looking over the protective prompts and the hero prompts and it hit me that like. the unbridled angst and vibes of the whole “post-battle” scene, or a scene set after an attack or a disaster or smth, needs to be ADDRESSED!!! and so y’all get the full weight of my angst today, sprinkled with a lot of teamwork and selfless and sacrificing vibes. i hope you enjoy! do NOT add further contributions to this list!!! i will curse your potato crops!!!

DIALOGUE PROMPTS.

“ can you hear me? hey… [NAME], can you hear my voice? “

“ come on… wake up. please… please wake up… “

“ oh! oh, thank god! i thought we lost you… “

“ hey, hey… look at me, okay? you gotta get up now. you think you might be able to walk? ‘cause they sent for back-up, and if they find us… we cannot let them find us. understand? “

“ go, go! save yourself! i’ll buy you some time! “

“ we both know i’m not walking out of this one. it’s okay, alright? it’s okay… just… do me a favor, will you? will you make them pay for this? i don’t care how. but… don’t let them get away with it. “

“ hey, how badly are you hurt? can you move? you think you can walk? “

“ if you can’t walk, i’m gonna have to carry you, alright? we can’t stay here. “

“ hey, look at me. i’m slowing you down, we both know it. it’s okay. i’ll hide and wait for back-up; you get yourself out of here. “

“ you’re gonna need to climb up on my back, you’re slowing us down with that injury. “

“ will you quit talking like that?! i’m not leaving you behind! “

“ what the hell are you doing here?! i told you to get out of here! “

“ you’re shivering… hey. hey, listen to me, okay? everything’s gonna be alright, i promise. here… take my jacket. don’t worry, i’m warm-blooded. “

“ i’ll get blood on your shirt… “

“ hey, don’t you dare close your eyes, you hear me? you die in my arms, and i’m gonna stick the dry-cleaning bill for this shirt in your coffin, that’s a promise! “

“ i know we almost died just now, but… am i the only one who’s hungry? “

“ we need to get you to a hospital… “

“ hey, come on now… you’re okay. you’re good, right? “

“ i must be hurt pretty bad if you’re being this nice to me. “

“ quit playing the martyr. we’re not leaving you behind. “

“ you know, i hate to be the negative voice, but… did… did we just lose? “

“ look at me… i’m not gonna make it. it’s okay, i’m fine with that. but… you can’t stay here. you’ve got a good long life ahead of you. and you’re smart, too; too smart to wait around here and waste that long life. so you get out of here, and you go live that life. live it for both of us. will you promise me you’ll do that? “

“ back-up isn’t coming. is it? we’re on our own, right? “

“ can’t sleep, huh? it’s okay. it’s probably all that adrenaline and shock; i can’t sleep, either. wanna keep each other company? “

“ i don’t give two shits about the back-up; i’m just happy you’re alive. “

ACTION PROMPTS.

as always, add a “+ REVERSE” to switch the roles!

[ CARRY ]:     having found the receiver in an injured/weak/unconscious state, the sender carries them in their arms to safety.

[ TILT ]:     the sender gently tilts the receiver’s chin up so that they can check to see if they’re okay.

[ PULL ]:     sender takes the fallen receiver’s hands and carefully pulls them up so that they’re standing once more.

[ WAIST ]:     sender, while physically supporting and steadying the receiver, loops an arm around their waist for extra support.

[ BACK ]:     sender crouches down slightly to let the wounded receiver climb on their back, giving them a piggy-back ride to safety afterwards.

[ HAIR ]:     while in the process of checking the receiver for injuries or other signs of harm, the sender gently brushes several strands of hair from their eyes.

[ TEND ]:     sender begins to care for the receiver’s injuries.

[ LEAN ]:     the wounded sender leans against the receiver for physical support.

[ SUPPORT ]:     the sender encourages the wounded receiver to lean against them for physical support.

[ PUSH ]:     the sender gently pushes the receiver back to lie down so they can check them properly for injuries.

[ COAT ]:     sender removes their jacket and drapes it around the shoulders of the trembling receiver.

[ BLANKET ]:     just as they’re all about to go to sleep, the sender covers the receiver with their own blanket.

[ AWAKE ]:     the sender, unable to sleep, gets up to go for a walk, and finds that the receiver is also unable to sleep.

[ TOGETHER ]:     when the receiver awakens, they discover that the sender has been sleeping next to them, arms wrapped around one another for warmth, comfort, protection ( or something more… )

[ BANDAGE ]:     the sender sits down across from the receiver and begins to bandage their wounds.

[ DRAG ]:     unable to leave them behind, the sender drags the wounded receiver out of danger and into a safe hiding place for both of them to wait until help arrives.

[ TOUCH ]:     the sender nudges or touches the receiver to check and see if they’re alright after the attack.

[ CLEAN ]:     the sender gently and carefully begins to bathe the blood/soot/ash/dirt from the receiver’s skin during a moment of calm.

[ PRIORITY ]:     when they arrive at a designated safe place, the sender refuses to be examined or cared for until the receiver is taken care of first.

[ PROMISE ]:     before leaving to get help/food/water/a rescue mission etc, the sender assures and promises the receiver that they’ll return safely, refusing to bring them along or to stay behind.

[ BROKEN ]:     after having promised the receiver that they’d return, it’s learned that the sender died during their mission. how does the receiver respond?

[ TRAPPED ]:     after having promised the receiver that they’d return from a mission, the receiver learns that the sender has been kidnapped or otherwise trapped, requiring a rescue mission to bring them home.

[ RESCUE ]:     the sender and receiver reunite after the sender embarked upon an infamously perilous rescue mission to save the receiver.

[ FOUND ]:     after a massive rescue mission to try and find the missing receiver, the sender is the first to find them just as the efforts are about to be abandoned.

[ HOPE ]:     just as the receiver is about to lose hope in ever finding the sender again, a message or clue of some kind is discovered that essentially guarantees that the sender is still alive, restoring the receiver’s hope once more.

[ CLING ]:     having finally been reunited, the sender pulls the receiver into a tight, overwhelmingly relieved embrace, clinging to them and burying their face in their shoulder. the whole deal. make it EMOTIONAL–

[ TEARS ]:     having finally found the receiver, or having finally been found by the receiver, the sender breaks down in tears of relief, fear, and many other emotions as they officially reunite.

[ SACRIFICE ]:     knowing that the circumstances only allow one of them to survive, the sender sacrifices their life in order to guarantee the receiver’s survival and safety.

[muselixer]

yes, to err is human, so don’t be one, will wood

[muselixer]

venetian blind man, will wood

[muselixer]

venetian blind man, will wood