#sinvin

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Reflections

Takes place between ‘Falling in Love All Over Again’ and ‘ Stillbirth ’

Sin finds herself distracted as she works in her office. Yet another nightmare, a dream where she’s so close to touching Wei, to pulling her into an embrace as she fades away. She wasn’t there when Wei died, which makes the memory all the more painful. She never got to see her beloved wife take her last breath. She gave everything to protect their dear friend. To protect someone worth protecting. To protect Vin. Maybe that’s why she got so attached to Vin. Vin flirted with her, well, with Grim, Sin’s alter ego of sorts. Sin has always put on a facade in public, pretending to be a gentleman named Grim to feel ‘normal’ in the city. If Lord Death wandered the streets, she’d have all eyes on her, but as Grim, she could be normal. With her shapeshifting, it’s possible to keep her secrets this way. As the days passed, she found herself turning into that man, turning into Grim. Grim was well respected for his mysterious background, quiet demeanor, and nice clothes. But in some ways, people were unnerved by him. He wasn’t afraid to speak his mind, he comes off as rude or blunt in his speech. Sin realized then that people wouldn’t like Lord Death very much if they knew she was Grim. Grim doesn’t let people feel safe, something has changed. So she stopped being Grim, stopped going out altogether. Now, her thoughts consume her, and Grim haunts her very being.

Back at that bar, over 20 years ago, Grim let loose for one of the few times he was able. He could just be alone here, people left him be. Everyone found him attractive, but nobody would stick around for conversation, so Grim got the peaceful, lonesome nights he thought he wanted. Until..

“Hey there, you’re really pretty.. Wanna come with me? I’m looking for something to take my mind off of a long day.. If you’ll help me out?”

“... Heart?”

“..! ..You? You’re…”

Grim clears his throat, avoiding eye contact. 

“Heart.. I-”

“Vin.”

“..What?”

“It’s Vin.”

“... Is that your alter ego? I thought I might be the only one..”

“No, it’s my name, dude. What are you doing out here? I would’ve never thought I’d run into you.”

Grim eyes Vin up and down, admiring their figure. He’s never seen Vin in a dress before. The dress was form fitting, showing off Vin’s delicate hips and small chest. They were so small, but very pretty. Grim found himself staring, admiring Vin’s perfect figure and beautifully silky hair. Their wings looked so feathery soft.. He wants to know what they feel like, but he knows he shouldn’t touch. Vin had a little bit of makeup, some eyeliner that perfectly suited their eyes, and blush that made their lovely pale skin look incredible. Vin cocked their head at Grim’s staring.

“Well.. I came here to find someone to rail me. I’m not gonna deny that now. I’m still up for it, if you are. Just don’t get any weird ideas. I think you might have something weird in mind with the way you’re looking at me right now.”

“Oh, sorry.. I just haven’t had a good look at you since.. Back then.”

“.. Do you still blame me? …Do you blame me for killing your wife?”

“...You didn’t kill her. I know it wasn’t your fault, and I’m sorry if I ever made you feel like you were at fault.”

“I’ve always blamed myself for it, so you sort of made that worse, I guess.”

“...Your eyes.. You have heterochromia like I do.”

“..So are we getting out of here or what?”

After that night together, Sin wanted to keep Vin close. This is the friend that Wei loved enough to die for. This is the person that Sin slowly fell in love with.. Or.. Maybe it’s not that kind of love. She doesn’t know anymore. Now as Sin sits in her office with Vin at her side, silently doing paperwork without glancing at Sin or talking to her at all, Sin finds herself admiring Vin just like she had back then. Beautiful silky white hair, done up in a beautiful braid over her shoulder. Soft, feathery wings that she used to help him wash. A small figure.. Though he’s not as petite as he used to be.. Is he? 

Oh.

Sin wants to reach out, to feel Vin’s stomach. See if the baby kicks. She should have noticed a long time ago. When was the last time she really looked at Vin? When was the last time she made eye contact with those beautiful heterochromic eyes? Vin hides his belly well, Sin has to admit. The hoodie he’s got on must be Luis’ as it's so large and baggy on him. But Sin can tell now that she’s observing her wife that Vin is pregnant with Luis’ baby. 

.. Why is Vin hiding a pregnancy..? Unless.. 

Is Vin.. Afraid that this baby will die? Just as so many loved ones have in that past?

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A Bloody Bath

I think it’s going to be pretty rare to have some SinVin art, but there are a few scenes involving the two of them so!

Another exhausting day. Sin was always stuck in the Tree of Death manor these days, always getting reports of demon attacks, shooting threats, riots, and other chaos ensuing around Death City. Sin felt great pain in knowing how much he’s pushed his beloved wife away. He knows he’s lucky to have such a beautiful, caring wife, but it feels like he’s always abandoning his wife due to how much he works. He won’t mess up this time. He’s going to take his wife out for dinner and hopefully make things right. Upon entering his quarters, Sin is met with a sight he never wanted to see. Blood, and lots of it, all over the bedsheets, trailing towards the bathroom. From the doorway of the bathroom, Sin heard the shuddering sobs of his wife, naked in the bathtub, sitting in a fetal position with a bloodied towel hanging over the edge of the tub. 

“Little bird, what happened? Are you alright?” 

Through shaky sobs, Vin untangled his legs, revealing a large open wound on Vin’s breast and stomach, still bleeding profusely, blood draining into the tub. Sin wordlessly stands and turns on the bathtub’s showerhead, carefully rinsing Vin’s small, bloodied body in the bathtub before grabbing antibiotics and gauze from the cabinet. As he sets the medical supplies next to the tub, Sin switches the shower head off, turning on the facet to fill the tub with warm water, much to Vin’s confusion. When the tub fills halfway, Sin proceeds to turn on the showerhead once more, positioning it towards Vin’s head as he begins to lather up Vin’s hair with shampoo. Vin relaxes at the touch, sitting wordlessly as Sin washed his hair. When he finished, Sin carefully eased Vin out of the bathtub and into a large towel, quietly urging him to dry off as he headed back into the bedroom and brought back some of Vin’s comfiest clothes to get dressed. Sin carefully treats Vin’s injuries, then helps him get dressed before carefully picking him up and carrying him to bed. 

“Please rest. You can tell me what happened later, but for now, you need to recover. I will let Carmen know that you’re injured so he can take care of your work while you recover.” 

Sin carefully replaces the bloody bedcover, throwing away Vin’s bloodied clothes and the bloody bedcover before remaking the bed with fresh sheets and tucking Vin in quietly. As Sin goes to leave, he hears a small voice come from the bed. 

“Please.. Don’t leave.. Come join me in bed, please. I don’t want to be alone.”

Without hesitation, Sin informs Melody through text that he will not be able to tend to work for the rest of the night, and he eases into bed where Vin curls up to his chest and falls asleep.

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Breaking or Already Broken? 

Just like every night before, Vin goes to bed alone. He isn’t sure why he’s surprised, Sin hasn’t slept in their marital bed since the day they got married. He’s never around, and Vin finds himself sleeping alone. At first, Vin worried that maybe Sin was cheating on him, and that’s why he would always fall asleep and wake up alone. However, Vin learned from the Angels of Death that Sin had two bedrooms, and that Sin usually slept alone in his own room, leaving the marital bedroom exclusively Vin’s space. Vin felt dejected. The only time they slept together was when Sin wanted sex. Vin didn’t want sex though, he loves intimacy in other ways. When Vin was injured in a demon battle, he expected to have to pick up the pieces alone, just as he had done every other time he got injured. Either that, or he stumbles back home to crawl into his brother’s arms, begging him to help him with his injuries like he’d done so many times before. When Sin cleaned Vin up in that bloody bathtub, massaged his aching joints and washed his hair, that was the best Vin had ever felt with the relationship since the marriage ceremony. And now, as Vin sits on the bed and prepares for another night alone, he hears a knock at his bedroom door. Confused, Vin doesn’t move, and shortly after, Sin opens the door and steps in carefully. 

“Little bird.. I feel like it’s time. I’m going to take you out for a nice dinner now that your injuries have recovered.”

“...What? So you can seduce me? I don’t think so.” 

“No, nothing like that. You deserve something nice. I made reservations, will you join me for dinner at a nice restaurant?” 

Vin feels like spitting in his face. Though.. Maybe he’s being serious. Vin sighs and walks into the bathroom to brush his hair and change. When he steps out of the bathroom, he half expects Sin to have left, giving up on the date entirely, but he’s still standing there expectantly. Vin decides to tag along. He certainly doesn’t look presentable, but who cares? Sin won’t notice either way. The two have their dinner at an admittedly beautiful restaurant where Sin prepared a vase of white lilies, Vin’s favorite flower, and box of expensive white chocolates, clearly homemade by wherever he bought them from. Vin begins to think he maybe should have dressed up a little, maybe wearing a cute dress and stockings, or at the very least applying eyeliner and blush like he usually does when he goes out. Well, at least this way, Sin won’t get handsy. Vin refuses to be seduced tonight, not a chance. 

After dinner, Sin takes Vin to a supposedly special place, up on a hill overlooking the city. The two sat under a rather old tree, looking out over the city. Vin feels somewhat nostalgic up here. This is where he used to go with Sin, Carmen, and Wei, back when Wei was still alive. Does Sin still miss Wei? Could that be why Vin feels so alone all the time? Then it clicks. Oh.

“It’s her death anniversary today, isn’t it? Is that why you wanted to take me out?”

“I wanted to get my mind off of her, but that’s not why I brought you out. I feel like I haven’t been treating you right, so I wanted to fix my mistakes. I’ve.. not been a very good spouse.” 

Vin simply looked away and sighed, laying his head on his knees while looking at the bright lights of Death City. This place really is beautiful, but nothing can top the gorgeous forests in his home in the World of Life. The World of Death always feels so lonely to Vin. The young couple sits there in silence for a long time before Sin eventually decides that it’s time to go home. When they arrive back at the Tree of Death, Sin escorts his wife back to his room, and Vin proceeds to climb into bed, once again sleeping alone as Sin leaves to his own bedroom. The World of Death truly is a lonely place for an Archangel of Life.

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