Summary: Rhysand comes home to his mate after 50 years UTM, but he's worried she might not love him anymore after everything he's done.
Warnings: angst, sad boi Rhys, mentions of Amarantha
Word count: 2.2k
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Velaris was quiet, with only a few faelights shining in the night to rival the stars above. A gentle breeze blew your hair away from your face, carrying with it the scent of salt and spring.
You sat on one of the iron chairs on the rooftop, your head tilted back to look up at the twinkling stars. You'd lost count of how many times you'd wished upon them over the last forty-nine years, and though you'd long since stopped wishing they would return your mate, you had never lost hope that he would one day come back home to you.
But now your wishes were smaller, because maybe then they would be answered. Maybe asking for something too big was too ambitious to be granted.
So you stuck with the little things.
For your mate to be safe, and healthy too. That even if couldn't return, he would know you'd wait for him and love him from afar. That wherever he was, he could look up at the same stars and think of you, and maybe even feel you close to him.
You shivered slightly when the breeze picked up. Goosebumps rose on your arms as if the wind itself was telling you to stop thinking and go to sleep instead.
With a sigh, you finally stood. It was late, and the bed was calling to you with the promise of a sleep filled with dreams of Rhys.
After one last glance at the quiet stars, you headed down the stairs toward your bedroom. You frowned at the light filtering out from beneath the door. You were sure you hadn't left it on before climbing up to the rooftop. But when you pushed it open, your heart stopped.
You recognized his scent before you even saw him.
Citrus and sea salt filled your lungs, and then the door swung fully open.
And there he was.
Rhys was sitting on the edge of the bed, but he shot to his feet the moment you turned the doorknob. He just stood there, posture rigid, as you stared at each other.
His skin was pale—so much paler than the last time you'd seen him. His hair was slightly longer, and his eyes no longer sparkled with life and joy as they once had. He was thinner. And he looked tired—so tired that you wondered when the last time he had gotten some sleep was.
“Rhys?” you whispered. You were still standing in the doorway, too stunned to move. “Is that you? Are you… are you really here?”
Maybe you had fallen asleep on that chair and this was just another dream.
How many times had you imagined this moment, both while asleep and awake? Or was this real and the stars—or the Mother, the Cauldron, all the forgotten gods you'd silently begged—had finally answered your prayers?
Rhys didn't smile. Didn't nod. He just swallowed.
“I'm here, but…”
Your heart dropped.
“But I'm not…” He struggled to find the words. “I'm not the same person you knew.”
Finally stepping into the room, you frowned. “What do you mean?”
“I’ve changed,” he answered. His voice was trembling. “I've… done things, Y/N. I'm not the man I was fifty years ago.”
You weren't surprised—not really. You had changed too. Fifty years was a long time, even for an immortal, and whatever Rhys had been through had visibly taken a toll on him. You had almost expected it.
But you had never once seen him so nervous, so… scared. As if he was afraid you were going to reject him, to tell him you didn't want him anymore. It made you wonder what kinds of things he was talking about.
“What did you do?” you asked quietly.
Rhys hesitated. For a moment, you thought he might not answer. But then he spoke.
“Everything she asked me,” he whispered. He didn't look at you. “I hurt people for her. Innocents. And I… I served her.”
He paused again, and you braced yourself for what he might say next.
“In the bedroom.”
The air left your lungs.
Rhys finally looked at you again. His eyes—usually so full of stars and love—were now anguished and scared.
“I promise you, Y/N, it never meant anything.” He took a step toward you, then stopped, as if unsure you would allow him to come closer. “Everything I've done, the people I've hurt… it was all to keep Velaris safe. So that I could come back home… to you.”
“Rhys—”
“And it's selfish, but I need to know if… if there's a chance you could still love me.” He swallowed. “If you only knew what I've done… I'm not the man you fell in love with. Not anymore. And I don't know if you could love me like you used to.”
“Rhys,” you said, and this time your voice was firmer.
He stopped just as he was about to say something else and looked at you, waiting.
You studied him for a long moment. His hands trembled slightly—something that had never happened before. His cheeks were a little hollow, his waist just a bit thinner. You took in every detail, every little change in his body, noticing all of them as if you'd last seen him only the day before.
You didn't doubt his words. He was different, and he was hurting, haunted by whatever Amarantha had made him do. In and out of the bedroom, apparently.
But you had waited half a century for your mate to come home. You wouldn't let anything come in between you and him anymore, even if it was his own fear and guilt.
“Do you remember when we first said ‘I love you’?”
He seemed confused, but you went on.
“We went to that concert at the Rainbow Theatre and then you walked me home, and we kissed in front of my door.”
Rhys frowned. “That was when the bond snapped, not the first time we said ‘I love you’.”
You tilted your head to the side as you thought about it. “Right,” you muttered. “So was it that time we just went to the coffeehouse across from where I used to work because I didn't have time?”
You had always loved your job at the bakery. Cakes and cookies, loaves of bread and rolls, pastries and tarts—they were your element. You thrived surrounded by flour and yeast and chocolate chips. But that first job became more like a prison and burden, where you had to work impossible shifts and run on little sleep.
You had met Rhys when he came in one day to order a cake for his cousin's birthday. Something immediately clicked between the two of you, and shortly after you were going on dates in between your shifts. You sacrificed so many hours of sleep so you could see him in your free time, until Rhys had convinced you to quit and find something better.
Hurt flashed in Rhys' eyes, but there was a hint of frustration in his voice. “That was our first date.”
Though it killed you, you just nodded thoughtfully. “Then when was it? Do you remember it?”
Rhys took a deep breath. You couldn't tell it if he was trying to stay calm or if he was truly that hurt by your apparent memory lapse.
“It was the day before you opened your own bakery,” he said. He spoke slowly, as if it would help you remember. “You were trying new recipes and making me taste all of them until I felt sick. And when you asked why I didn't tell you I'd eaten too much cake, I said it was because I loved you and wanted to see you happy.”
He hesitated before meeting your gaze. “Do you really not remember?”
You shook your head and stepped forward. Finally standing in front of him, the urge to throw yourself into his arms—or to hold him in yours—was stronger than ever. But you held back for now and just looked up at him instead.
“I remember,” you said. “Of course I remember. Our first date, the first kiss, the first ‘I love you’... I remember it all.”
He opened his mouth, but you already knew what he was going to say.
You lifted a hand to his face, fingers shaking almost imperceptibly, and then you were cupping his cheek.
After almost fifty years, you were touching your mate again.
Rhys tensed under your touch, his eyes searching your face, and you had to fight against the lump rising in your throat to speak again.
“I asked because I wanted you to remember,” you murmured. “To remind yourself that you remember all those moments and a thousand more. That you've changed, but you're still you.”
Your other hand came to rest on his chest, right where his heart was. You could feel it, beating wildly beneath your palm.
“In here, you're still Rhysand. You're still my mate. And you always will be.”
His violet eyes shone, silver lining them.
“I don't need another chance to love you, Rhys,” you said, your voice a soft caress, like your thumb now brushing his cheekbone. “Because I never stopped loving you. And I never will. You're my mate, my love, and I'd wait another fifty years for you.”
His throat bobbed, and then tears rolled down his cheeks. You cupped his face with both hands, wiping them away with a soft smile.
It broke your heart to see him like this. To know that whatever he had done, whatever he'd been forced to endure, had been horrible enough to make him think your love for him could ever die.
“Open the bond,” you encouraged gently. “Let the wall come down, my love.”
It had killed you not feeling him for all those decades. When he'd reached out with his magic to warn you, he told you it was for your safety. That if someone had suspected he had a mate, Amarantha would come for you.
And you had understood. You had accepted it—you hadn't had another choice. But it had still killed you.
Sometimes, you would pull on the bond, like you had done hundreds of times before, but you could never feel his presence on the other side. As if he had never been there. As if he were gone.
It had terrified you. You had no way of knowing if he was alright or hurt. Would you know it if he had died? With the mating bond shut, would you be able to feel it, to sense it? Would your heart stop beating without warning? The doubts and nightmares had haunted you for fifty years.
But now he was here. You were together again.
Rhys released a shuddering breath. He searched your eyes again, but all he found there was love and understanding.
A few seconds passed in silence.
And then you felt it—that feeling deep within your chest, like a string tied to your heart, pulling you gently toward him.
The warm, glowing mating bond.
A ghost presence in your chest for almost fifty years, but no more. And never again.
You both gasped at the intensity of it. You could sense that Rhys was still holding back, still trying to shield you from the full weight of his anguish and guilt. So you flooded the bond with your love, your relief, your joy at finally being with him again.
Slowly, Rhys leaned forward until his forehead rested against yours. “I've missed you, my darling. Every minute of every day.”
A sob tore from you, and then you were crying too. Your arms looped around his neck to pull him closer, fingers tangling in his hair as he buried his face in the crook of your neck. His hands slid to your back, holding you even tighter.
“I missed you too,” you choked out. “And I love you, Rhys. Please, never doubt that.”
His tears seeped through your shirt, dampening the fabric and your skin beneath it, but you couldn't have cared less.
You were holding him. And he was holding you. Everything was going to be fine.
“I love you,” he whispered. “I love you so much.”
You didn't know how long you stood there in the center of the room, just holding each other. Minutes or hours—it didn't matter. You had no intention of letting him go ever again, and you knew he felt the same. You could spend the rest of your life like this and it would be enough.
It didn't matter what he had done, what Amarantha had forced him to do. Maybe one day he would tell you. Maybe he wouldn't. But even then, nothing he said could ever make you stop loving him.
If you had to spend the next few years proving to him that he wasn't the villain he thought he'd become, then so be it. You would show him that, however changed he might be, he was still your mate.
warnings: dark!Rhys, kidnapping, 18+, smut, p in v, oral fem receiving
tags: no use of y/n, pet name, fem reader
a/n: my first Rhysand fic! he was the first person to come to mind when i saw the prompt. written for day 4 of @sjmxreaderweek
You had been foolish to think you could run from the High Lord of Night. To think you could slip through the cracks of Velaris, sneak across the border, and get as far away from him as possible.
But Rhysand had been following you. Waiting for you. And he had not been amused by your escape plan.
“My little dove,” he murmured now, dark amusement lacing every word, “Did you really think you could escape me?”
You yanked at the handcuff chained to the bedpost, your wrist already chafed and red from your struggles. It rattled uselessly, the sound cutting through the heavy, fear-scented air of the massive, dimly lit bedroom.
Rhysand stood at the foot of the bed, arms crossed, his head tilted in that predatory way that made your stomach lurch.
Beautiful. Terrifying. Everything the stories had whispered about, and somehow, so much worse than you could have ever imagined.
“I…” you croaked, voice dry, heart thundering.
He moved closer, slow and deliberate. “Speak, dove,” he said, voice a low purr. “I’d love to hear about this grand plan of yours.”
You clenched your jaw, refusing.
A dangerous smile curved his mouth. “You’ll learn,” he said simply. “One way or another.”
He crouched beside the bed, bringing himself to eye level with you.
You shrank back as far as you could, your neck hurting at the awkward angle.
Rhysand’s gaze softened, and it was that softness that scared you most. He reached for you, and you flinched. Something unreadable passed over his face.
His fingers brushed your cheek, the touch feather-light, reverent. “You don’t understand yet,” he murmured. “You think you’re my prisoner.”
His thumb traced the bruise on your temple, the one you received when you had stumbled out of fear and face-planted on an overgrown root in the forest between Day and Night.
“But you’re not,” he said. “You’re my mate.”
The word wrapped around you like a noose. Mate.
You had heard the stories, of course. Everyone had. Fairytales about finding your equal in every way, a love that knew no bounds. And the horror stories. The ones where instead of the prince saving the princess from the tower, he locks her up in one. Uses her to further his lineage. Abuses her.
You had not been lucky enough to find the fairytale. This was a nightmare dressed in the skin of a god.
“I won’t hurt you,” he said, voice so soft you almost believed him. “Never.”
You turned your face away, tears burning the backs of your eyes.
Rhysand released a sigh of disappointment “You poor thing,” he said. “You must be starving.”
You hadn’t eaten since before he snatched you from the woods. Your best guess was at least a day ago, depending on how long you had remained unconscious. He had left food on a tray next to the bed twice but you had refused it, too afraid of what he might have snuck inside of it.
Rhysand stood, and you watched warily as he crossed to the table by the fireplace. He returned with a plate of bread, cheese, and sliced fruit and sat on the edge of the bed.
“Open,” he said, holding a piece of fruit to your lips.
You pressed your mouth shut, stubborn.
Rhys’s eyes glittered. Without a word, he caught your jaw in one strong hand and forced your mouth open.
“Don’t be difficult, dove,” he said, sliding the fruit between your teeth. His fingers brushed your tongue deliberately, and a shudder wracked you.
“Good girl,” he murmured as you chewed, cheeks burning with humiliation.
He fed you slowly, patiently, never rushing, never raising his voice. It was worse than if he’d screamed. It was kindness sharpened into a weapon. To make you trust him. Rely on him. To make you let your guard down just enough to let him slither in through the cracks like the snake he was and bite when you were at your most vulnerable.
When you had eaten enough, he wiped your mouth gently with a handkerchief kept in his suit pocket.
You sagged back against the pillows, exhausted.
Rhys traced a finger down your arm, smiling as you shivered. “You’re so soft,” he said, voice thick with possession. “So breakable. If you could just behave, things could be so different for us.” His hand moved to your thigh, gripping it possessively. “Once you learn how to be a good girl I’ll reward you with privileges, like removing those chains for example.”
His hand was high up on your leg, his grip slightly painful. You clenched your hands into fists, willing yourself not to react. But your body… your traitorous body was already reacting. Heat curled low in your belly, a slow, shameful thing.
Rhysand’s nostrils flared. He smelled it. “Ah,” he breathed. “There you are.”
You turned your face into the pillow, mortified.
He laughed low and delighted. “You want me,” he said. “Even if your pretty little mouth says no.”
His hand slid higher up your thigh, just inches away from your core, a promise and a threat.
Your pulse thundered.
“But don’t worry,” he whispered, his breath hot against your ear. “I won’t take you until you beg me to.”
You whimpered, a broken sound, and Rhysand’s eyes darkened to the color of a midnight storm.
“I’ll wait,” he said, standing and adjusting the cuffs so you could lie more comfortably.
“Sleep, dove,” he ordered, pulling the blankets over you.
You didn’t think you could sleep in a predator’s domain, every biological instinct in you screamed to stay awake. But exhaustion won out eventually, dragging you under.
The next few days blurred together. Rhysand was never far. He bathed you, stripping you down with clinical efficiency, his hands maddeningly gentle as he cleaned every inch of you. He told you that once he could trust you not to try anything foolish he’d let you bathe yourself.
He fed you, sometimes coaxing, sometimes forcing. Though his touch could be demanding, he never hurt you. You expected him to pull your hair. To slap you. But he would just squeeze your jaw with one hand and press food into your mouth with the other. Even when you spit it out, he would just sigh and try again, keeping a hand over your mouth until you swallowed.
He talked to you, telling you about his court, his city, and his people as if you were already his wife.
And slowly, terrifyingly, your hatred began to erode. It was not love. Perhaps it was merely acceptance. That this was your life now, tied to the most powerful High Lord. Things could be much worse. He could be controlling your mind, keeping you like a pretty puppet on a string. But he hadn’t. Hadn’t even threatened it.
Rhysand was a monster, but he was becoming your monster.
And some deep, broken part of you, battered by a lifetime of cruelty and abandonment by your parents, whispered that maybe belonging to a monster would be better than belonging to no one at all.
It was a rainy afternoon when you finally cracked.
You sat curled in the corner of the massive bed, a book forgotten in your lap, staring blankly at the fireplace.
Rhys entered, dripping from the rain, his hair wet and messy, his tunic clinging to his powerful body. He looked unfairly good. You hated him for it.
He crossed the room in a few strides and knelt before you, tilting your chin up.
“What’s wrong, dove?” he asked, voice soft as a lullaby.
You should have said you’d been kidnapped by a psychopath. Should have spat in his face. But something inside you broke, your defenses crumbling.
Tears spilled down your cheeks. “I’m so tired,” you whispered. “Of being alone.”
Rhys’s face changed. Something fierce and terrible bloomed there, a rage so pure it stole your breath. “Never again,” he vowed. “You’ll never be alone again.”
You trembled, unable to look away.
“You’ll never have to run, or hide, or hurt,” he promised. “Not while you’re mine.”
You hiccupped a laugh, half-sob, half-hysterical. “Yours,” you echoed bitterly.
Rhys smiled, slow and dark. “Mine,” he confirmed. “In every way.” He wiped your tears away with infuriating tenderness. “You don’t have to be afraid anymore,” he said. “Not of anyone. Not even me.”
You searched his face for the lie. Found none. “You’ll protect me,” you said, disbelieving.
“With my life,” he swore.
Your body leaned toward him without permission, desperate for the comfort he offered. And when he wrapped his strong arms around you, you didn’t pull away.
You buried your face into his neck, inhaling deeply. He smelt like citrus, the sea, and jasmine. Your muscles relaxed instantaneously, melting further in his embrace.
Maybe it was madness. Maybe it was the bond. Maybe it was just that after everything, having a sadistic, obsessive, beautiful male willing to burn the world for you sounded a little… nice.
Rhys pulled back just enough to brush your nose with his. “My dove,” he whispered, voice reverent.
You closed your eyes. And for the first time since he had chained you to his bed, you considered what it could be like to be his.
The next morning, you sat on the edge of the bed, your handcuffed wrist draped in your lap, staring into the golden flames flickering in the hearth across the room.
The cuff wasn’t even necessary anymore.
Rhysand knew you wouldn’t run. Not because you couldn’t, but because you didn’t want to. Not anymore.
You heard the door open softly behind you.
A glass clinked. A moment later, Rhysand stood before you, shirtless, his toned chest gleaming faintly in the firelight.
He knelt in front of you wordlessly, offering you a glass of water. When you took it with a shaking hand, his mouth curved in a smile that made your stomach twist.
“Good girl,” he praised.
Heat flushed through you, mortifying and shameful. You drank, and when you finished, Rhysand took the glass and set it aside.
And then he simply… watched you.
You squirmed under the intensity of it.
“What are you thinking about, little dove?” he asked softly.
You shook your head, but he wasn’t letting you get away with that.
“Tell me,” he coaxed, his deep, smooth voice causing goosebumps to skitter across your body.
You clamped your thighs together instinctively—a small, traitorous movement you prayed he hadn’t noticed.
He noticed.
Rhysand’s smile turned wicked. He rose to his feet in a single, graceful motion.
Towering over you. “You’re thinking about me,” he said.
A statement. Not a question.
He stepped closer. “So shy,” he murmured. “But your body tells the truth, even when you try to deny it.”
You opened your mouth to tell him he was wrong, that you were just cold. To lie. To him and yourself.
But then he was there, standing between your knees, tilting your chin up with one knuckle. “Say it,” he whispered. “Say you want me.”
You swallowed thickly.
His thumb brushed your lower lip. His eyes were dark pools of hunger and heat. “You’re mine to ruin,” he said. “Mine to worship.”
You let out a shuddering breath.
“I…” you whispered, voice cracking.
He leaned down, his lips brushing your ear “Beg,” he said. “Just a little, dove. Let me hear you.”
Your hands fisted in the sheets. Pride clawed at you. Fear too. But desire… oh, gods, it was bigger. Stronger.
“Please,” you whispered.
Rhysand purred, a sound that vibrated through your bones. “Good girl,” he said again, voice thick and ragged.
He reached for the chain attached to your cuff, and with a flick of his fingers, it dissolved into nothing.
You gasped, your arm falling free. You should have run. You should have fought. But you stayed.
Rhysand scooped you into his arms, cradling you as if you were the most precious thing in the world. He laid you back against the pillows, slow and careful, as if he had all the time in the world to savor you.
“You don’t know,” he said, tracing your cheek with the backs of his fingers, “how hard it’s been to hold myself back. To wait for you to be ready. All I’ve been able to think about is what you will sound like beneath me as I fuck you with my tongue and cock.”
You trembled under his touch, breath stuttering.
Rhysand’s eyes burned into yours, devouring you. “You’d like that, wouldn’t you? For me to take care of you and this little predicament you’re in?”
He leaned down, capturing your mouth in a kiss that was surprisingly gentle—at first. But when you whimpered against him, when your lips parted in surrender, he groaned deep in his chest and deepened the kiss. His hands roamed—over your arms, your waist, your thighs—learning the map of your body by touch alone.
Every brush of his fingers left you aching.
Needing. And Mother help you, you arched into him, silently begging for more.
Rhysand pulled back just enough to look at you. “You want this,” he said, voice rough and shaking with restraint.
“Yes,” you breathed, hating yourself for how much you meant it.
He grinned, wolfish and triumphant, and then he was everywhere. His mouth found your throat, your collarbone, the hollow between your breasts. He worshiped you with lips and teeth and tongue, leaving marks.
Your hands found his shoulders, digging in, desperate to anchor yourself.
Rhysand growled low in his throat, a sound of approval, and pushed the flimsy nightdress you wore up over your hips.
His hands slid along your thighs, spreading you open.
You whimpered, heat flooding your core.
“So wet for me,” he murmured, almost reverent. He pressed his forehead against your belly for a moment, just breathing you in.
You could feel the shaking in his arms. The effort it took for him to not ravage you completely.
He kissed the inside of your thigh, just above your knee. Then a little higher. And higher. Until his mouth was a breath away from where you ached for him most.
“You’re perfect,” he rasped against the cloth separating him from your core.
You squirmed, helpless against the need clawing through you.
“Please,” you whispered again.
Rhysand groaned. “Anything for you,” he promised, before magicking away your underwear and lowering his mouth to you.
You cried out, your back arching, as he licked a slow, devastating stripe over your core.
Rhysand growled against you, gripping your thighs to hold you open as he feasted on you.
The way he licked, sucked, and savored every inch of you was obscene. It was madness. Possession.
You fisted your hands in his hair, riding the waves of pleasure he dragged from you without mercy.
“That’s it,” he murmured against you. “Give it to me, dove. Let go.”
You shattered in his arms, crying out his name.
Rhysand kissed you through it, coaxing every last shudder and gasp from your trembling body.
When you sagged back against the pillows, boneless and wrecked, he rose above you.
His eyes were nearly black with hunger.
“Mine,” he said, kissing your temple, your jaw, your lips.
“Mine,” he said again, threading his fingers through yours.
You were barely aware of him stripping away the last of his own clothes, but when he pressed the blunt head of his cock against you, you moaned, hips lifting instinctively.
He hissed, gripping your hips to steady you.
“Easy,” he said, voice breaking. “Let me take care of you.”
And gods, you wanted him to. You needed it.
He slid into you with agonizing slowness, stretching you, filling you, claiming you in a way that no chain ever could.
You sobbed his name, your nails dragging down his shoulders.
Rhysand buried his face in your throat, trembling with the effort to stay slow, gentle.
“Please, Rhys,” you whined, and the leash holding him back finally snapped.
He drove into you harder, deeper, dragging cries from your lips with every thrust.
You met him stroke for stroke, your body moving with his as if you had been made for each other.
Rhys kissed you fiercely, desperately, as if trying to fuse your souls together.
And when you tumbled over the edge again, crying out his name, he followed with a roar, emptying himself inside you.
You clung to each other in the aftermath, sweaty and shaking and utterly undone.
Rhys pressed kisses to every inch of your skin he could reach, murmuring promises against your body.
“I’ll keep you safe,” he whispered.
“You’re mine.”
“Nothing will ever hurt you again.”
You believed him. Maybe it was the bond. Maybe it was some sort of side effect from your trauma.
Some girls got fairytales with a happily ever after. A prince in shining armor, a hero who came to save her.
You got the villain who kidnapped you against your will. Who believed you belonged to him. Who fucked you until your legs shook and your insides were sore.
The fairytales didn’t sound so sweet anymore, but the possessive High Lord sure did.
“Now, you’re sure you’re alright doing this?” your sister, Feyre, asked you by the door. She and Rhys were going out into Velaris tonight for a much needed date night just the two of them.
Nesta, Cassian and the Valkyries were in Illyria with the non envied task of dealing the camp leaders. Elain had agreed to a little trip around Prythian with Lucien, who had offered to show her all the various court gardens - among other things - and so the two of them could get to know each other a bit better. A chance to get themselves on better footing, as it were. Mor had a date of her own tonight and Amren was visiting Varian in Summer.
That left you at home to watch the Inner Circle’s beloved child, your precious nephew, Nyx.
“Feyre, if you try to talk yourself out of going through me one more time, I’m going to lose it.” You offered her an easy, loving smile. “I know it’s hard to leave him, but you have more than earned this. Go, spend a night with your husband. The little guy and I will be fine. If it makes you feel any better, Azriel said he should be home soon. The two of us won’t be alone for long.”
Feyre shook her head, the pins in her hair glittering like stars in the light as she did so, “I never meant to imply that you couldn’t handle it-“
“-And,” you interrupted her, “I never said you did. Feyre, I promise everything will be fine. Let me do this.” Your face took on a softer, guilty expression. “It’s the least I can do.” You didn’t need to specify what you meant.
Feyre frowned, but nodded, “okay.”
Rhys swept around you to hold her from behind, pressing a kiss to her cheek. “Ready to go, darling?”
Feyre looked at you and finally nodded, more sure this time, “yes, I am.”
“There you go!” you said, “go out, have fun, we’ll be here when you get back!”
Rhys sent his feline smile your way over your sister’s shoulder. “He’s quite the handful on his own, you know. I’m sure I can call Azriel before we leave.”
You swatted playfully at your brother in law, “I’ll be fine! Besides-“ you put a hand over where your young bond with Azriel glowed in your chest- “if I need him, he’ll know.”
Rhys smiled.
“Nyx is smarter than his own good,” Feyre warned, “don’t let him trick you-“
“-Stop worrying! Both of you! Shoo! Out! Go! Out! Out!”
The couple laughed, sending a few more words of advice and thanks over their shoulders before leaning into each other on the lamp lit sidewalks of their beloved city. You watched them go with a soft smile before pushing off the door and walking back inside.
You rounded the corner to Nyx’s room shortly after. “Alright, Nyx what are you and your favorite auntie gonna get up to?” you teased.
You’d expected to find Nyx playing with his toys where his father had left him. In hindsight, you should have known better.
“Nyx, sweetie?”
Nothing. The room was empty aside from the entire toy box being strewn about. You carefully picked the toys up as you called out to the room, expecting Nyx to be hiding somewhere inside, maybe in the closet, where the toy box was… Hmm…
Okay, you could play this game.
“Nyx? Nyx where are you? Huh. I guess he’s not here. Welp, I guess I could at least responsibly put these toys away.” You were laying it on thick, you knew, but that was half of the fun.
You opened the closet slowly, finding the toy box tucked into the darkest corner with its lid slightly propped up. Little giggles sounded from the box, which was all you needed to know.
You crept closer and then all at once, yanked the box lid off. “There you are!”
Nyx, with his little wings tucked close to him, giggled up at you, amusement shinning in his eyes that looked so much like your sister’s.
“Gotcha!” You said, reaching for your nephew. That was, you did, until the world folded around him and you grasped nothing but thin air.
You blinked.
Had Nyx ever winnowed before? You felt like you’d have remembered something like that.
Dread spiked in your stomach for a moment until you took a deep breath, setting off into the house. This was alright, all you had to do was find him. All he had done was extend - and mildly increase the danger of - his hide and seek game.
You heard rustling in the kitchen and raced there.
Nyx, to your growing horror was spreading his little wings on top of the cabinets, perched like an adorable, little mischievous gargoyle.
“Nyx, honey, this isn’t funny anymore. You could get seriously hurt up there. Let me reach up there and pull you down.”
Nyx shook his head, “nuh-uh, auntie. I’ve got wings!”
“No! No, no, no. Nyx, sweetheart, please just stay there, I’m gonna get you down. Stay there.”
“Better idea!” He shouted in a way that reminded you so much of Cassian. He leaned forward a few times, preparing to launch from the cabinets. “Catch me!”
He launched himself from the cabinets, gliding down towards the counter. You scrambled to catch him, but there was no way you were going to make it in time.
Before Nyx could collide with anything, his descent was stopped by a hand clutching the back of his shirt. Azriel was home, and had Nyx grabbed by the scruff.
“So it looks like someone hasn’t been behaving for his auntie like he’d promised,” Azriel said, wryly.
Nyx flailed a bit but quickly realized that he wasn’t going to be escaping the strength of his uncle’s grip and quit.
“I’m sorry, Uncle Azzie” Nyx said in a sad, deflated voice.
“Don’t say sorry to me, say sorry to your auntie.”
Nyx sent sad, remorseful eyes your way, bringing tears to your eyes as well.
“Sorry…” he warbled.
“Aww,” you cooed getting closer to him. “It’s alright little buddy. You just scared me, that’s all. We all care an awful lot about you, you know that?”
He nodded.
“We want you to be safe,” you said, “and sometimes being safe means not doing every little thing you want to do. Sometimes, a fun idea can be dangerous. That doesn’t mean never do anything fun again, just think about what could happen to figure out if it’s safe. Make sense buddy?”
“Uh huh!”
“Good,” you smiled, “now, promise you won’t winnow away from us and Uncle Azzie will let you down so we can play. Sound fair?”
Nyx nodded vigorously.
“Okay.”
The rest of the evening went by far smoother. You tired Nyx out playing and then set him to bed. You and Azriel sat leaned against each other on the couch not too far away from the little one’s room.
“Thank you,” you sighed, “for coming.”
“I felt your terror through the bond,” Azriel said, sounding about as tired as you felt, “there was nowhere in the world I wouldn’t have left to come to you.”
Your heart swelled, “Az.”
“I don’t know what is wrong with human males for you to think that isn’t the treatment you deserve,” Azriel growled.
“Thank you, Az,” you said, kissing his cheek.
“Don’t ever thank me for that again. I don’t deserve praise for what I would do naturally.”
Not having the energy for even this back and forth, you simply sighed and leaned your head on Azriel’s shoulder. His wing moved in to drape over you like a blanket as the two of you rested there.
Rhysand and Feyre came home to find you and Azriel snoring on each other. Quietly snickering, they checked on their sleeping son. Happy to see all their loved ones were safe and accounted for, they draped a blanket over the two of you and left you to sleep.
I've Got the Gift of One-Liners (And You've Got the Curse of Curves)
Day 7: Free Day @sjmxreaderweek
summary: Backstage. One night. No regrets. The track says too much—but that night said it louder. (A bonus fic for my Wings of Illyria AU)
The Curse of Curves — Cute Is What We Aim For
word count: 7.2k
content: [ explicit sexual content, oral sex (male receiving), praise, dirty talk, fingering, pet names (sweetheart, baby, i think thats it), condom (i know, shocker for me), mentions of sacrilege, cigarettes, smoking, explicit language ]
author's note: HERE SHE IS, im really excited to hear what yall think of this one :) i really loved working to tie in the lyrics i already established in previous parts to this one :)
✦ . AU Masterlist . ✦
Security had pulled you from the pit like it was routine — like girls were ushered out of the crowd for private encores every night. One of them checked your ID with the flat disinterest of someone who’d done it a hundred times before, just long enough to confirm you were over eighteen before waving you through. You kept waiting to wake up, to be told it was a mistake, some kind of cruel joke. But the moment stretched on, and reality was still here, pressing against you with an undeniable heat.
Azriel was leaning against the wall with a crumpled bottle of water, shirt clinging to his chest, damp with sweat from the stage lights that still seemed to kiss his skin, glowing like he was something otherworldly. His eyes flicked up the moment you walked in, and for a split second, it felt like the world around you stilled.
You stopped a few feet away, suddenly aware of everything—the way your hair clung to your neck, the heat in your face, the way your heart was hammering. His gaze never left you, heavy with something that had you second-guessing the ground beneath your feet.
But then, that smirk. The one he wore on stage, in press releases, in interviews. You knew it was just part of the act—the same cocky, rehearsed charm he gave everyone—but directed at you it was different. He unscrewed the bottle of water, lifted it to his lips, and drank, the sound of it strangely intimate. Azriel’s eyes didn’t leave yours the whole time.
“Hey, beautiful. What’s your name?”
You told him, voice caught somewhere between awe and nerves, your eyes locked on his—but your focus kept drifting, low and traitorous, to where his tattooed fingers twisted the cap back onto his bottle. It shouldn’t have been as distracting as it was. It was like he was already imagining what he’d do with his hands when he got them on you.
And when he repeated it, slow and low, like he was already tasting it—fuck. Your legs nearly gave out.
“I—” you swallowed, your throat suddenly dry, nerves flickering like static beneath your skin. “You were really great out there. I mean, I’m sure you hear that all the time. But I—” You winced, cringing at the way the words tumbled out too fast, already regretting trying to sound cool. “Sorry. That was stupid.”
But he just smirked, slow and sure, like he was amused at your attempt to stay composed. “No, it wasn’t.” His gaze never wavered, an almost predatory gleam in those hazel eyes as they flicked down to your lips, a deliberate pause in the air. And then, without missing a beat, he said, “C’mon.”
He reached for your hand. You hesitated for all of half a second, then took it.
Azriel’s fingers laced through yours like it was second nature. Like he’d done it a thousand times before. Like it wasn’t the kind of thing that would reroute the entire rest of your life.
You followed him through the back hallway—dim, humming with bass still trapped in the walls, cords snaking across the floor, scattered flyers and crumpled setlists littering the ground. The air smelled like beer, sweat, and the heavy, lingering scent of smoke, the kind of grit that hung in the air after a show, when the stage lights had dimmed but the energy was still burning. His hand was warm, rough, calloused. You couldn't stop looking at it—or at him, broad shoulders, the sharp line of his jaw, the glint of a silver chain nestled against his skin.
“You always pick someone out of the crowd?” you asked, trying to sound casual. Normal. Like you hadn’t screamed every word of his songs twenty feet from the stage ten minutes ago.
He glanced over, a smirk tugging at the corner of his mouth. “Only when she looks like she wants it bad.”
You huffed a laugh. “Pretty sure that was half the front row.”
“Yeah, but only one of them kept mouthing the guitar riffs.”
Your cheeks burned. “Okay, that’s embarrassing.”
“No,” he said, his voice low, “that’s hot.”
You couldn’t tell if your stomach flipped or bottomed out.
He kept walking like he hadn’t just short-circuited your brain. “So, you come to a lot of shows?”
“First time seeing you live,” you lied. “Been a fan for a while, though.”
Azriel shot you a quick look, brow lifting. “Just a fan?”
You bit your lip, trying not to think too hard about the cardboard cutout you and your roommate had in your freshman dorm. Or the playlist in your phone titled ‘Azriel’s Soundtrack for When He’s Fucking Me Into Oblivion’. Or the handful of other Wings of Illyria concerts you’d gone to. You’d even bought tickets to a show they were only opening for—left after their set without even seeing the headliner.
“A big fan.”
He grinned—full teeth, devastating—and looked ahead again. But your gaze wandered, flicking toward every open door, every voice in the distance. Somewhere in your head, the whisper returned: what are you doing, this is insane—
Azriel slowed, his eyes still ahead. “You good?”
“Yeah,” you said, too quickly.
He stopped, turned to face you fully. The hallway was dim and quiet, the distant sounds of teardown echoing faintly behind you. You could feel the heat radiating off of him, the sharpness in his gaze as he studied you.
“You keep looking around,” he said, voice low. “Don’t want to be seen with me or something? Any little boyfriends I should know about?”
You opened your mouth, intending to deflect, to joke—but his hand slid up, fingers brushing the bare skin beneath the hem of your shirt, and your breath caught.
“Jealous already? We haven’t even kissed yet.”
But he was still touching you, palm spreading against your waist like he meant to leave a print there.
“Besides,” you let your eyes drag over him, slow and deliberate—the damp shirt clinging to every line of his chest, the lazy grip he still had on that half-crushed water bottle, his messy hair, the smudged eyeliner, the mouth that looked like it’d been made just to get you in trouble. “They don’t have a greenroom or a god complex, so… it’s not exactly a competition.”
He laughed—a short, rough thing, punched out of him like you’d caught him off guard. “You’re funny, (y/n).” And the way he said your name, so effortless, completely undid you in a way you wouldn’t admit to anyone.
“I am,” you managed, your voice tight, strained. “Actually hilarious, once I stop feeling like I might throw up.” And you meant it—you were two seconds away from either cracking a joke or passing out.
Another smile, slower this time. “Relax.” His mouth brushed your temple, his hand now fully beneath your shirt, fingers trailing up your ribs. “No one’ll see, just let me feel you.”
You shivered, not from the cold.
“I just…” you started, glancing past him again—down the hallway, toward a door that had just clicked shut. “I don’t wanna look like one of those girls.”
“What girls?”
“The ones naïve enough to think this means something.”
He didn’t flinch. Just leaned in, his voice like smoke and promise: “Doesn’t have to mean anything.”
A pause, his lips brushing the shell of your ear as his hand slid lower—out from beneath your shirt, fingers trailing along your skin like he couldn’t quite stand to let go..
“Just means right now, it’s you and me.”
Then he opened the door to his dressing room, leading you inside with a gentle pull.
The door clicked shut softly behind you, and for a moment, the room was just a quiet, dimly lit space. A couch sat against the far wall, the remnants of a few discarded bottles and empty cups scattered around. The air felt heavier in here, but it was still comfortable, like you could actually breathe for a second after the chaos of the show.
Azriel stepped further into the room and tossed his water bottle onto the couch, letting it roll off with a dull thud. He turned to face you, arms casually crossed over his chest. The easy confidence was still there, but now, in the quiet of the space, it felt a little more grounded, less like the persona he wore on stage.
You couldn’t help but feel the tension—too much of it hanging between you, and yet neither of you seemed in any rush to break it. You shifted your weight, unsure what to do with your hands, your thoughts spinning.
“So…” Azriel started, his voice low, but with no real edge to it. “What’s the deal? You’re in here with me, but you’re not acting like you’ve got a thousand questions or a million things to say.”
You blinked, a little taken aback. “What do you mean?”
He shrugged. “Most people—fans, I guess—they want to talk about the band, the music, all that. They’ve got their script. But you just seem… quiet. A little offbeat, actually.”
You bit back a joke about a musician calling you offbeat—low-hanging fruit, and besides, his voice had gone too genuine for teasing.
Instead you gave a small shrug, chewing on the inside of your cheek as you looked at him—really looked at him, like you weren’t afraid to see the man behind the persona. “I mean, what’s left to ask? You already put it all out there on stage.”
Azriel tilted his head, like he wasn’t sure if that was a compliment or a challenge. “You think that’s all there is?”
“No, no. I think you’re really good at making people feel like they know you,” you said. “Even if it’s just a story you’re selling.” You paused, then added, “But it’s a good one! Makes people believe.”
That seemed to catch him off guard—just for a second. The smirk flickered, not gone, but softened at the edges. “And you? Do you believe it?”
“I think you want everyone to,” you said, stepping a little closer, feeling bold despite the nervous tremor in your fingers. “But I don’t think you care that much if I do.”
He laughed under his breath, low and rough. “You come with a warning label, or do people just figure it out too late?”
“Nope.” You popped the ‘p’ on purpose. “Not going to cry about you writing a song about someone else, either.”
Azriel’s brow quirked. “What if I said I was writing one about you right now?”
You rolled your eyes, grinning despite yourself. “Then I’d assume it’s a slow night for inspiration.”
That really made him laugh. A full-bodied, caught-off-guard kind of laugh that cracked the air open between you. He crossed the room slowly, like he didn’t want to scare you off, but couldn’t help himself either.
When he stopped in front of you—still standing just inside the doorway, your back barely brushing the closed door—there was less than a foot between your bodies. The heat off him was immediate, dizzying. His voice was lower now, rougher around the edges. “You always this blunt?”
“Only when I’m nervous,” you admitted, eyes flicking up to meet his. “Which, if we’re being honest, is kind of your fault.”
Something shifted in his expression—something that wasn’t the stage persona or the flirty smirk. Just Azriel, the guy beneath all that noise. “Don’t be nervous.”
You let out a shaky breath. “Easy for you to say.”
His gaze dropped to your mouth again, slower this time. He didn’t say anything for a beat, just stared at you like he was memorizing your face, the slope of your jaw, the way your lip caught between your teeth.
“I thought you’d be easy,” he said finally, voice almost more thought than words.
Your brows rose.
“Not like that,” he rushed out, hands half-lifting like he meant to ward off the offense. “I just meant—fuck—I thought I had a read on you. But I don’t.”
You felt your breath hitch.
Azriel leaned in—not touching you, but so close you could feel his words against your skin. “It’s kinda messing with me.”
You swallowed, pulse a wildfire. “Good.”
And that was all it took.
He didn’t lunge or rush—just closed the space between you in a smooth, devastating slide. One hand skimmed your hip, the other cradling your jaw like you were something he’d been craving all night. His lips brushed yours, light and deliberate, a question more than a claim.
You answered without thinking—hands fisting in his shirt, mouth parting just enough to meet him halfway.
The kiss was slow at first—measured, like he was still trying to figure you out. But the second you sighed against him, something in him cracked. His hand tightened on your waist, and he deepened the kiss with a hunger that sent heat straight to your core.
He tasted like sweat and water and something darker, something heady. You barely had time to register how good it was before he was walking you backward, not breaking the kiss, just guiding you until your back met the door.
Azriel kissed like he performed—confident, intense, a little overwhelming. Every press of his mouth stole more air from your lungs, every shift of his body pushing you harder against the door like he wanted to pin you there and never let you leave. His hands found your waist, your hips, your jaw—possessive but not rough, like he wanted to touch everywhere at once and didn’t know where to start.
You let him. For a while.
Because, god, it was good—the kind of kiss that melted your spine and rewired your thoughts. That made it very clear how he got away with every scandal, every rumor, every headline that should’ve been a red flag but somehow wasn’t.
But then something clicked. A flicker of boldness, of clarity, of fuck-it heat right behind your teeth.
You broke the kiss first—he chased your mouth for a second, frustrated, but you steadied a hand on his chest.
“What—” he started, just slightly breathless.
You didn’t answer. Just grabbed the hem of his shirt like it belonged to you now, like he already belonged to you. And then, with one sharp turn of your bodies, you had his back against the door.
Azriel blinked. His chest rose in a slow, surprised breath. “Oh?”
You didn’t smile. Not really. Just met his eyes as you sank slowly to your knees, one hand dragging down the front of his chest, watching the way his muscles jumped under your touch.
His pupils blew wide. “Fuck.”
“Still think I’m quiet?” you asked, voice low, teasing, as your fingers found the waistband of his jeans.
Azriel’s hand slapped flat against the door behind him, like he needed to ground himself.
“I take it back,” he muttered, already sounding wrecked.
“Good,” you said, undoing the button with infuriating slowness.
That earned a groan—deep, appreciative, the kind of sound you’d file away forever. His eyes stayed on you, stunned, like he’d just realized you weren’t playing by any of the rules he thought you were.
When you dragged his jeans down just far enough, he hissed through his teeth, head tipping back against the door with a quiet thud. You pressed a kiss just below his hipbone, slow and deliberate, then another.
A soft hum vibrated in your throat as you mouthed against the fabric of his underwear, teasing, your lips tracing the ache there. You could feel the size of him even through the thin material, and god, he only seemed to get bigger the more he hardened beneath your touch.
You wondered how it looked from his angle. A starry-eyed fan kneeling on the dirty carpet of his dressing room, the last place you ever thought you’d be—pressing your mouth to the bulge in his underwear like you were starved, desperate for a taste of him.
Azriel’s breath hitched, and his hand found your hair, tugging lightly to guide you away from him. “Enough with the teasing,” he muttered, voice rough but the edge of amusement still there. “You’re killing me here.”
Finally you pulled the fabric down, taking him into your mouth inch by inch, and fuck, the sound he made when your mouth wrapped around him was downright obscene.
“Shit—” he choked, breath catching.
You didn’t rush. You savored. Licked and sucked and stroked with practiced ease, drawing long, lazy moans from him like you were playing an instrument you knew intimately. Your hand worked in tandem with your mouth, gliding over wet heat, and his thighs tensed beneath your grip.
“God, (y/n),” he murmured, voice strained.
That did something to you—hearing him say your name like that.
A second later, one of his hands finally threaded into your hair, not guiding, just there. His fingers dragged through the strands gently, like he needed to anchor himself. You looked up at him as you took him deeper, watched his chest rise in a sharp inhale, watched his mouth fall open just a little.
His hips twitched. His jaw clenched.
“Fuck, you’re—” His voice cracked off. “You’re really fucking good at that.”
You pulled off slightly, just enough to smirk against his skin, your tongue flicking out again with infuriating confidence.
“I know,” you said, breath warm. Then you took him again, slow, deep, letting your throat tighten around him. Your jaw ached, muscles sore from the effort, and distantly, you wondered how the hell this was going to fit inside you. The thought of it made you flush, but you kept going.
Azriel swore, hand tightening briefly in your hair before smoothing it down, like he was torn between urging you on or just losing himself in it. His eyes were dark, almost dazed, mouth slack, and every muscle in his body was drawn tight like he was barely holding on.
You were about to do it again—just a little deeper, just a little sloppier—when he suddenly grunted and tugged at your shoulders, not rough, but firm.
“Okay—okay,” he said, breath ragged, jaw working as he blinked down at you. “That’s... you need to stop. Now.”
You blinked, lips swollen, mouth still wet, the taste of him warm on your tongue. The fear crept in, sudden and sharp. “Why?” you asked, voice quieter than you meant, uncertain.
His laugh was short and sharp, like he couldn’t believe you had the audacity to ask. “Because if you don’t, I’m gonna embarrass myself.”
You smiled, slow and wicked. “So you can do the whole ‘humble rockstar' thing.”
He gave a breathless laugh, then cupped your jaw in one hand and tilted your face up toward him. “Get off the floor, sweetheart. That mouth should come with a warning.”
You rose, still smug, and he kissed you before you were fully upright—fast, needy, like he couldn’t help it.
Like he needed more.
The kiss turned rough fast—his mouth hard on yours, all tongue and teeth and the kind of heat that made your knees threaten to give. You barely had time to register that he was moving again before he pressed you chest-first to the wall. The cool surface kissed your flushed skin through your top, shocking a little breath from your lips.
Azriel’s front was flush to your back, his breath ragged at your ear, hands already moving with greedy intent. One gripped your hip, steadying you; the other snaked around you and skimmed up the inside of your thigh, dragging the hem of your skirt higher and higher.
And then he paused. You felt it—the stutter in his breath, the twitch of his fingers.
“No fucking way,” he murmured, grinning into the shell of your ear. “You wore this tiny thing and didn’t even bother with shorts?”
You didn’t answer. Your smirk spoke for itself, even if he couldn’t see it.
Azriel groaned—like the sound had been ripped from his chest—and shoved your skirt up around your waist, rough with want. His hand cupped you through your underwear, palm broad and warm and already pressing just right.
You gasped, back arching slightly, and he groaned again, low and hungry.
“That’s evil,” he said, dragging two fingers over the thin fabric. “Fucking evil.”
You whimpered as he circled your clit through your panties, slow and deliberate. His body caged yours, every inch of him crowding you against the wall, hips pressing firm into your ass, his cock thick and hard against you through the fabric.
And then—swift and smooth—he hooked two fingers in the side of your underwear and pulled them aside.
“Fuck,” he muttered into your neck, fingers sliding through slick like he owns it. “You this wet the whole time?”
You nodded, barely able to breathe, your forehead pressing against the wall, hips twitching back into him.
His fingers moved again, lazy and unhurried, fingers skilled from years of strings and rhythm, stroking like he wanted to memorize every reaction. “You were singing my lyrics like that,” he whispered, “with this pretty little cunt already begging for me?”
A tiny, broken sound escaped you.
He laughed—rough and low, his free hand splaying over your stomach, holding you steady. “Should’ve pulled you up on stage right then,” he said, dragging his fingers higher, circling, teasing. “Let the whole crowd see how much you wanted it.”
Azriel didn’t wait for you to respond. His fingers slid back down, stroking through the mess he’d already made of you, gathering it up like he owned every drop. And then he pressed one inside—slow, thick, knuckle-deep in a heartbeat.
You gasped, eyes fluttering closed as your forehead met the wall with a dull thud.
“Fuck, baby,” he breathed, voice all gravel and sin, “you’re so tight.”
You barely had time to whimper before he added a second, pushing in with more pressure, no resistance. His palm pressed flat against you now, keeping your underwear pulled taut to the side, while his fingers curled just so—finding that spot that made your thighs tremble.
“That it?” he asked, like he already knew the answer. “Right there?”
Your nod was jerky, breath ragged, hands splayed uselessly against the wall. You turned your head, blindly searching for him, and his mouth was there—hot, open, devouring yours like he couldn’t stand not to be kissing you. Your lips parted, tongues brushing—messy and desperate. He was all heat behind you, chest rising fast as his hips rolled forward, like he couldn’t help grinding against your ass, letting you feel every inch of how hard he was.
But your gaze dropped, and your head trailed after it, tracing the lines of ink winding down his forearm—down, down—until they vanished beneath your skirt, where his fingers were still working you open.
He set a rhythm—slow but deep, purposeful, fingers curling again and again, dragging against that spot like he was trying to ruin you. Your underwear still stretched taut to the side, the fabric bit into the crease of your thigh, an added pressure you could feel with every shift of his hand.
“You’re fuckin’ clenching,” he groaned. “God damn.”
One hand still braced at your stomach, Azriel dipped his head to your neck, teeth grazing skin that was already damp with sweat.
You blinked, your eyes a little hazy, before you spoke up. “Didn’t that one used to be unfinished?” you asked, voice low. “The wing—on your tricep.”
He slowed, just barely, the rhythm stuttering. “You’ve seen it before.”
You nodded. “The Tiny Desk session. And that festival set—when your shirt came off halfway through.”
A low, incredulous laugh ghosted over your throat. “You really pay attention, huh? Kinda sexy.”
You tried to stifle a laugh. “I mean, it’s hard not to. You’re kind of… hard to miss.”
“Mm,” he hummed, his fingers picking up pace as he pressed deeper. “What else have you seen, sweetheart?”
You blinked, mouth parting—his fingers kept moving, stealing the words before you could speak. “I—I’ve seen a lot of your shows. Recordings, I mean.” You laughed softly, trying to push through the aching heat building in you. “I know you guys’ setlists by heart.”
“Oh yeah?” he murmured against your neck, the smirk in his voice unmistakable. “Go on then—what was the opener for the Late Hours tour?”
“‘Out of Body,’” you breathed, hips twitching against his hand. “Except for that show in Brisbane where it was—fuck—‘Violet Hour.’”
His fingers slowed just enough to make you whine, but it was deliberate—he was listening now. “Jesus. You’re a little encyclopedia, huh?”
You gave a shaky laugh. “Kinda my thing.”
“Mhm,” he said, curling his fingers just right. “So when’s my birthday?”
You blinked, struggling to think. “March… twenty-second?”
He gave a quiet, disbelieving laugh. “What the fuck.”
“And you told GQ you don’t like cake,” you gasped. “Said your mom used to burn—oh god—burn the edges.”
That made him laugh, teeth grazing your jaw. “Fuckin’ hell. You know shit about me you shouldn’t.”
“You’re the one who keeps putting it out there,” you panted.
His fingers didn’t stop, dragging more ragged sounds from your throat. “Feels unfair, though. You’ve got all this shit on me, and I don’t even know what you do.”
You made a noise that was half-moan, half-laugh. “Like… in general?”
“Yes, in general,” he drawled, clearly enjoying himself. “Do you work? Study? Or just professionally stalk musicians?”
“Depends who’s asking,” you managed, voice catching as his thumb traced slow, maddening circles, so precise you knew you’d never manage it again without him.
“I’m asking,” he murmured, picking up the pace again. “C’mon. You told me my fuckin’ birthdate. Least you can do is tell me yours.”
Your mouth opened—nothing came out at first. The next slow thrust of his fingers had you gasping, voice faltering before the answer finally slipped past your lips.
He hummed, satisfied. “See? Was that so hard?”
“You’re making it hard.”
“That’s kinda the point.” The cockiness in his voice alone could have pushed you over—but then came that quiet chuckle, right against your ear, low and smug and fucking lethal.
But just as the wave crested, as your body tensed and your breath caught, he stopped.
Pulled his fingers out, dragged them slow down the inside of your thigh like he knew what he was doing, like he meant to leave you there—trembling, soaked, and aching.
You whimpered in protest, hips shifting back, desperate for any kind of contact, but he just chuckled, breath still hot against your ear.
Then—his hands were on your waist, spinning you. Your back hit the wall with a soft thump, and Azriel was already there, crowding into your space, his fingers dragging up your bare thighs before settling on your hips.
He looked wrecked—hair a mess, pupils blown wide, lips parted like he couldn’t quite catch his breath. And he was watching you like he was deciding whether to devour you slowly or ruin you in one go.
He bent, hands curling around your ankles, lifting one foot at a time to unbuckle your heels and slide them off, setting them aside with surprising care. Then his hands were under your skirt, pushing it up, up, until he had it bunched around your waist. A quick, rough tug at the waistband and your underwear was gone—torn clean off, like it was never meant to survive this.
Your top came next. He peeled it up over your head, fingers skimming your skin, and your bra was unclasped and discarded with barely a breath between.
Then his hands were back on your body—hot and greedy, like he couldn’t decide where he wanted to touch first.
You reached between your bodies, brushing over the exposed length of him—still hard and glistening. He hissed between his teeth. “Not helping,” he growled.
You smiled up at him. “Then hurry up.”
Azriel shoved his shoes off, then kicked his jeans and boxers the rest of the way down, stepping out of them completely. He turned, muttering something under his breath as he dug between the couch cushions. A second later, her came up with his wallet, flipping it open with practiced ease.
You watched, dazed, as he pulled out a condom. Wallet condom. Of course.
At least if this somehow knocked you up, your baby daddy was hot and rich. The kid would be set.
Before you could fully imagine a life and kids with him (as if you hadn’t before), he was on you again—all of him. Bare chest pressed to yours, the heat of him bleeding into your skin. He didn’t wait. One hand slid behind your knee, hitching your leg up and over his forearm, opening you to him as he stepped in close—so close. His other hand braced the wall beside your head, steadying both of you.
“Loud,” he murmured, lining up. “Bet you’ll be loud for me.”
Your mind went static. Any reply you would have come up with died in your throat as he pushed in, thick and slow, dragging a shattered moan from your lips as he filled you inch by inch. The stretch burned in the best way, a pressure that made your spine arch, your fingers scrambling for purchase on his shoulders, his arms, anything.
“Fuck,” he breathed, eyes locked on your face like he couldn’t decide what to focus on—your parted lips, your fluttering lashes, the way your body clenched around him. “You feel—shit—perfect.”
You could barely answer, your mind dissolving as he drew back and thrust in again, the rhythm sharp. The wall thudded softly behind you with every motion. One foot barely held steady on the ground, the other still hooked tight in his grip like he dared you to move.
He leaned in close, lips grazing your jaw as he murmured, “Look at you. Taking it so fucking well.”
Your head tipped back, the words like gasoline, and he took the opportunity—mouth on your throat, teeth grazing skin, hips snapping forward again, harder this time. The slick drag of him, the sound of skin meeting skin, the low growl in his chest—it all worked in tandem, pushing you further, higher.
“Bet you’ve touched yourself to my music before,” he whispered, pumping deeper, rougher now.
You let out a sound—half protest, half moan—and he grinned against your throat, wicked.
“What was it?” he pressed. “One of the slow ones? Something filthy?”
His hand slid up to your chest, fingers teasing over your nipple in lazy circles before giving a firmer roll, then settling there to hold you steady. “Which one, baby?” he murmured. “Which song made you spread your legs and think about my cock?”
“‘Glass Chapel,’” you gasped, a broken sound, and he groaned—a guttural, desperate sound like you’d cracked something open in him.
“No fucking wonder you were only singing my parts out there.” His eyes dragged over your face, catching the way your cheeks flushed, lips parting like you’d been caught. His smirk deepened. “Yeah. I noticed. Was it the bridge? Yeah? Yeah, baby, knew that bridge would ruin you.”
“It did,” you breathed, your fingers digging into the muscle of his arm as he angled his hips to hit exactly where you needed. “I came so hard I—” He sped up—the wet, obscene sound of his efforts echoing in the dressing room, shameless and slick. “God, I had to pause it.”
Azriel snapped. One arm locked tight around your waist, the other already hooked under your thigh as he lifted you—effortless, like you weighed nothing. He pressed you into the wall, firm but careful, his body pinning you there. Your legs locked tight around his waist, arms flying up around his neck. You buried your fingers in his hair as he thrust into you hard enough to make your breath stutter, raking your nails down his scalp when the angle hit just right. He groaned against your chest, then dipped his head to suck your nipple into his mouth, tongue hot and insistent.
“Song’s old,” he growled, voice muffled against your skin. “Let me give you something new to touch yourself to.”
You whimpered something that wasn’t a word, hips tilting to meet every thrust like your body was chasing him on instinct. The stretch of him was dizzying, unbearable in the way only perfect things could be, and when his teeth grazed your nipple, a shock of pleasure bolted down your spine.
“Feel that?” he muttered against your skin. “Every time you play that song now, you’re gonna feel this.”
He slammed into you again—deep and brutal, but never careless—and your moans turned strangled. Your head tipped back against the wall, nails dragging harder through his hair until he hissed.
His breathing was ragged as he pulled back just enough to speak, eyes dark and intense. “When I saw you out there… The way the lights hit you, how you looked at me—like you were waiting for me to see you.” His voice dropped lower. “I wondered what you’d sound like if I ever got you alone. If your voice would shake when you said my name.”
Your body seized around him at that, the raw confession cutting through the fog in your mind like lightning.
“Oh, you like that,” he growled, almost laughing as your hips rolled down against him, helpless. “Knew you were filthy, baby. Knew it when you looked me up and down the second you got backstage. When you told me you got yourself off to goddamn ‘Glass Chapel,’ Jesus Christ.”
You huffed a breath, teeth sinking into your lip. “It was the Hail Marys that did me in.”
He stilled suddenly, eyes flashing, like he wasn’t sure if he’d heard you right. Then he breathed out a low, stunned laugh—more breath than sound. “You’re kidding.”
You didn’t say a word, just shook your head—lips parted and red, hair a wreck, sweat catching the dim light on your skin. You were sure you looked completely fucked out, and God help you, you loved what it did to him.
“Fuck,” he muttered, jaw tight as he thrust into you again, slower this time. “That shit’s not even subtle.”
A bitter smile curved his mouth. “Didn’t think you’d be into the whole martyr complex. You got a confessional kink, too? Or is it just the guilt that gets you off?”
You tried to glare at him, but it collapsed into a moan as he found that merciless rhythm again, your head falling back against the wall. “You’re cocky as hell,” you managed, breathless, “but I thought about this every night and still didn’t think you’d be this good.”
Azriel let out a rough laugh, hips slamming into you like your praise lit something in him. “Yeah?” he panted, mouth dragging over your throat. “Say that again.”
You dug your nails into his shoulders, lips brushing his ear. “You’re better than I imagined, Azriel.”
He groaned, low and rough, and buried his face in your neck like he needed a second to pull himself together. “Fuck, baby.” His voice was ragged. “Keep talking like that and I’m not gonna last.”
A smug smile curled on your lips, despite how wrecked you felt. “What, you want me to lie instead?”
Azriel laughed, breath hot against your skin. “No, keep talking.” His hands tightened around your thighs as he pulled back just enough to meet your eyes, pupils blown wide. “Tell me what you want, (y/n).”
When his hips slammed into you again, deeper than before, the words spilled from your lips without a second thought. “I want you to fuck me like you can’t get enough. Make me scream so hard I forget where I am, who I am—I don’t care, I just want to feel you all over me, Azriel, until I can’t walk, can’t think, just you. Fucking me. Over and over.”
The sound of your pleasure bounced off the walls, loud and unrestrained, but you didn’t care. Nothing mattered except the way he made you feel. You couldn’t stop it, couldn’t stop him as he drove you toward something reckless and burning.
Azriel’s breath came in short, ragged bursts, and his eyes darkened with a wicked, almost feral gleam. “Fuck, (y/n),” he growled, voice rough and shaking. “Fuckin’ perfect goddamn pussy. Made for me to fuck it, huh? Yeah, baby, and that filthy fuckin’ mouth—I could fuck you like this forever, you know that?”
You whimpered, one hand sliding between your bodies, fingers working your clit in tight, desperate circles. “So close,” you gasped, eyes fluttering shut. “Don’t stop, Azriel—fuck, don’t stop.”
His hips stuttered at the sight, like he couldn’t believe what he was seeing. “Shit—look at you,” he rasped, eyes locked on where your bodies met. “Rubbing yourself while I fuck you. You feel too fuckin’ good to be real.”
His voice broke on the last word. And then he lost it—thrusts erratic, bruising, as a groan tore from his throat and he came hard, spilling into the condom with a raw, guttural sound like it was dragged from the pit of him.
But he didn’t stop.
He kept moving, fucking through it, pace rough and messy with the aftershocks, and the overstimulation only pushed him harder. The rhythmic slap of his skin against yours grew louder, the pressure building in your core, until you were coming with a cry, back arching as heat tore through you like wildfire.
Your whole body shook. Your legs trembled. And finally, finally, he slowed.
Azriel leaned into you for a second, breath ragged against your skin, before finally easing out with a low, involuntary hiss, your bodies slick and trembling where they met.
Without a word, he adjusted his grip on you, one arm locked beneath your thighs, the other bracing your ass as he carried you from the wall like he hadn’t just demolished you. Like you weren’t still gasping in his arms.
“Hold on,” he muttered, voice rough, and you instinctively clung tighter, arms looped around his neck. He shifted one hand, reaching for the blanket slung over the back of the couch, and shook it out with an easy flick before laying it across the cushions.
Then he knelt, lowering you onto it with a care that shouldn’t have felt so reverent after what he’d just done.
While you melted into the soft spread—mind blank, body humming—Azriel rose and padded over to a trash bin tucked near the corner. He peeled the condom off with one hand as he walked, tied it off, and tossed it without pause.
You couldn’t take your eyes off of him.
There was something unshakably magnetic about the way he moved—casual and unhurried, like he wasn’t Azriel, the bassist every dive bar daydreamed about and the reason half the crowd screamed louder during the breakdowns, but just some guy cleaning up after the best sex of your life. His shoulders rolled as he walked, loose and satisfied, and there was a certain quiet confidence in the slope of his spine, like he didn’t need to say a word to know you were still reeling.
He made his way to the mirrored dressing table—small, utilitarian, built into the wall—and grabbed a towel and a battered pack of American Spirits off the cluttered surface. Your eyes trailed after him, helpless not to admire the ripple of lean muscle across his back, the taper of his waist, the tight curve of his ass. Even his legs—long, strong, littered with faint bruises and a thin, silvery scar running vertical over one knee—had you clenching around nothing. Azriel looked like he was carved for sin and didn’t even know it. Or worse—did know, and just didn’t care.
The cardboard crinkled in his palm as he tapped one loose and caught it between his lips, already moving back toward you. With the lighter tucked inside the carton, he slid it free one-handed, thumb dragging the wheel with practiced ease.
Back on the couch, he dropped down beside you, one arm thrown over the backrest to hook around your shoulders. The flame lit with a soft chk as he sparked the cigarette to life, the glow briefly catching on the sharp cut of his jaw, the relaxed slant of his mouth.
Then, without so much as a look, he held the towel out to you, a fluffy rolled up green thing—just a quiet offer, casual and thoughtless, like it was muscle memory. You took it with a still-shaky hand and an even shakier thank you.
Azriel leaned his head back and took a long drag, exhaling like he didn’t have a care in the fucking world.
And you? You stared.
You couldn’t believe it. You couldn’t fucking believe it.
Azriel—the Azriel—was sitting beside you like you hadn’t just been pressed against a wall, stuffed full and screaming his name like a prayer. Like he hadn’t just wrung you out with his hands on your thighs and your voice in his ear. He was right there, cigarette in hand, the taste of him still on your tongue.
A shaky breath left you.
You needed a cigarette—
So you reached out and plucked his from between his lips, slow and deliberate, your index and middle fingers brushing the corner of his mouth.
He turned to look at you, one brow arched in lazy disbelief, but there was unmistakable amusement in his eyes.
You didn’t say a word. Just brought it to your mouth and took a long, deep drag—slow enough to make a point, greedy enough that you knew he’d taste it when he got it back. Smoke curled from your nose, then your mouth, a slow exhale through parted lips.
Only once the breath had fully left you did you glance at him—then carefully, precisely, placed the cig back where it belonged, tucking it against his mouth like you were returning something borrowed.
Azriel let you do it, didn’t flinch, didn’t blink. Just took another drag like nothing about this was abnormal.
You busied yourself with the towel—more for something to do than out of any real modesty, dabbing between your thighs like it might distract from the buzz still lingering in your limbs.
What were you supposed to do now?
Just get dressed and leave? That felt weird.
Say thank you? Even weirder.
Make conversation? Try to pretend like this wasn’t the craziest thing that had ever happened to you?
You avoided looking at him, trying not to think too hard, trying not to come across like you were thinking too hard. But your thoughts were looping, loud and nervous, until—
Out of the corner of your eye, you saw his expression shift. A sharp inhale, eyes widening mid-drag, followed by a low, almost startled curse.
Then:
“You wouldn’t mind signing an NDA, would you?”
You blinked, turning to look at him. “Isn’t that supposed to be before?”
Azriel exhaled smoke through a crooked grin, one brow raised, all lazy charm and unapologetic sin. “I forgot,” he said, voice rough with amusement.
He tilted his head toward you, like he could already see you agreeing, like he knew exactly what you’d say next.
Pairing: Azriel/Eris/Reader | Rating: T| Word count: 3341
Master List | Read on A03 | For @sjmxreaderweek day 5 Heir.
Summary: Eris and Azriel are acting strange after a meeting with the Governors that you were not able to attend. You venture to find out what happened. You are not prepared for the truth.
Warnings: Discussion of having children, some slut shaming, off screen murder, some bigotry
A/N: I wasn’t planning on writing this but… it happens. Note the POV shift and the flashback when Eris is telling his story.
You knew their tells by now for when something was bothering them. Eris had tense shoulders and a clenched jaw even if it was subtle. Azriel’s shadows flurried more no matter how much he shooed them away. You’d been in the village all day and returned shortly before sundown, so you had no idea what transpired. You waited for them to talk about it at dinner.
Nothing.
They only asked how your visit was and told you how the governors meeting started off rocky but ended well. At least by bed they’d relaxed, but still something was off. You’d made it your mission to find out what happened. You outright asked Azriel if he was alright the next day.
“Why wouldn’t I be?” A lie if you ever heard it.
“Your shadows seemed more active is all,” you shrugged. His wings bristled but he didn’t respond.
When you went to Eris, you had to ask less direct questions. You asked about any hangups in plans for the month. Issues with the budget. When nothing worked, you asked for the written record of the meeting you missed. That seemed to get a reaction.
“I would have to find it.” Eris sighed. “It went three hours over and in a tired haze I can’t remember where I put it.”
Eris never forgot where he put things.
“When you find it, let me know.” You smiled sweetly.
You then went through the House looking for one person who could give you information. Charlotte, wife of Elden, was the biggest gossip in Autumn. She heard everything and forgot nothing. You invited her to tea under the disguise of catching up.
She was an older fae- her brown hair streaked with graying strands. It suited her, with how she pinned it up. She always had a flower in her hair to match her dress. Today it was a marigold and her dress was a velvet yellow. She greeted you with a kiss on the cheek and instantly went to chatting. It only took you a few sips of tea for her to bring up what you’d been waiting on.
“And poor Lord Hurbert, may The Mother keep him. I plan to visit his wife later today. Though I doubt she will be mourning heavily.”
“Lord Hurbert passed away?” You tilted your head. He was an elderly fae but not so old he was frail.
Charlotte’s well maintained brows arched.
“You didn’t know?” You shook your head. She made a hmph noise. “Elden said that the High Lord who, well” she let her voice trail.
“I’m sorry?” You put your cup down before your grip could break it.
“That’s what Elden told me. He wouldn’t speak of what happened. Came back from his meeting all shook up. Whatever it was, he did say Hurbert deserved it. The Mother knows the old fool had a temper.”
You sat there in silence. Eris had murdered someone? You felt a coolness against your wrist. You looked down and the shadow that followed you had curled around your wrist.
“Oh dear, don’t look so distraught,” Charlotte’s voice made you snap out of your haze. “Forty years and this is the first time the High Lord has done away with someone? Lord Beron used to make it a point to torture at least every full moon. Cauldron knows Lord Eris is better than his father. If I may speak plainly, Hubert was a dreadful male. I never knew why Lord Eris let him live when he came to power in the first place.”
That brought you no comfort.
“I need to speak with my husband,” you muttered, still in a daze.
You went to stand and Lady Charlotte stood with you. She grasped your sleeve, her dainty hand holding a tight grip on the fabric. You met her gaze and saw the panic in her eyes.
“Do not tell the High Lord I told you.” Gone was the humor and haughty tone, replaced with a harsh whisper. “I’d rather not be on the receiving end of his temper should he still have it.”
“Of course, I- I will not tell him,” you said firmly. “I am bound to learn of it soon enough regardless.”
She eased her grip and relaxed her shoulders. “Thank you, Lady.”
“Of course, Charlotte.”
You left the south parlor, your boots clicking almost too loudly on the tiles of the hall. The shadow continued to pulse on your wrist. An attempt to get you to keep your breath even. It helped but-
You went into an empty room. You could see some dust as the evening light poured in from the window. There were covers over furniture, bookcases bare along the wall. A fireplace almost pristine in appearance from being unused. Thirty years in this house and you still found secrets. You leaned back against the door after you shut it.
Eris had killed someone.
During a meeting no less.
He didn’t tell you.
Azriel knew and he didn’t tell you.
You tugged the bonds. You felt them both tug back twice. You looked down at the shadow.
“Tell them where I am please,” you whispered.
The shadow uncurled and disappeared. You waited and didn’t bother to move from the door. They would winnow in. You also didn’t care if sadness poured through the bond to them either. You didn’t have to wait long- a blaze of fire lit up the room and swirls of shadows followed next to it.
You crossed your arms when they came into view. Eris was in his deep brown riding pants and tight white shirt. You’d forgotten he was going to take his horse out. Azriel smelled like the wind, and he too wore tight clothes, leathers he used for flying. You ignored the concern on their faces and spoke before they could.
“What happened at that meeting yesterday?” You were curt and to the point. “Do not lie to me.”
Eris’s face hardened, his hands flexed at his side. He reached up and brushed back his hair from his face. It was back long enough that it fell over his shoulders again. A flame appeared in the fireplace. Without a flick of his hand, magic fell heavy over the room- a ward. He wasn’t your mate at that moment. He was Autumn’s High Lord.
“Lord Hurbert Graham crossed a line and I handled it.”
“By murdering him?” You asked loudly.
You didn’t like that Lord. He constantly made digs at Azriel. Covert ones that you could only mitigate with a stern tone. But it felt wrong. It felt wrong for Eris to have just killed him. It felt too much like the stories you heard of Beron.
“Eris did him a favor,” Azriel said darkly. His shadows flurried around him. “I wouldn’t have made it as quick.”
You looked between them both. “What did he do?” It came out as a whisper.
A flicker of emotion on both of their faces and a painful pulse in the bonds meant it had to be terrible. The fire died down but still burned in the fireplace. Thankfully Eris tampered the heat down from it. Neither of them spoke, so you asked again.
“I am your mate. I am Lady of this court- a High Lady if you had your way, Eris. I deserve to know exactly what transpired.”
A moment passed and Eris finally relaxed his shoulders.
“I am going to need a drink.”
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Eris convinced you to go to his study and not your chambers. He would not repeat those words within the walls of his refuge. Az was tense. What transpired got to him more than he was letting on. Eris poured himself a shot first and threw it back to try and drown out the look of disappointment on your face from moments ago. He prepped your drink and Azriel’s, which he added a second shot to. It did not go unnoticed by Eris that you sat yours down to the side and looked at him expectantly.
“Tell me what happened,” you repeated firmly. “And do not coat it in sugar.”
“If that is what you wish,” He replied.
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“Lord Eris, may I speak freely?”
The meeting had just started and Eris was already annoyed. The annual governor’s meeting was never enjoyable, But without you- he forgot this was what it was like. Lord Hurbert had waited for a lull in the conversation to poise his question. The eldest of the Governors- save for Elden and Rafael. Hurbert was his least favorite but his loyalty to Eris while his father lived was something he respected. But that was about all Eris cared about. Even looking at him now two seats down, Eris had little care for the male. Even more so due to this interruption.
“You’ve never been one to hold your tongue before,” Eris replied smartly. Az sent a wave of humor down the bond.
“Thank you, High Lord.” Hurbert’s smile grated Eris’s nerves. “While I do not doubt we will continue to see times of peace for more decades to come, may the Mother bless us all, there is never a guarantee.”
Eris felt Azriel tense beside him. “Is there something you know that we don’t?”
He ignored Azriel. An offense Eris took note of to deal with later. Hurbert’s voice grew louder, as if he was trying to captivate everyone’s attention despite already having it.
“You’ve been High Lord for nearly four decades, Lord Eris. But you’ve taken the mantle much later in life than your- much later than the previous High Lord.“
A knot twisted into Eris’s stomach. “Do you have a point?”
Eris did not hide his frustration this time. Hurbert knew it too, with the way his beady eyes blinked and he shifted in his seat.
“You have a wife now.”
Eris felt unease in the bond to Az. He tried to send back something soothing but knew he failed.
”She is my mate and Lady of Autumn.“ Eris replied, staring down the male in a way that had him squirming again. “You will address her as such even when she isn’t here.”
“Of course, Lord Eris. We’ve had a new Lady of Autumn now for almost three decades. She is very kind and capable. Arguably she does more work than she has to; I find that admirable.”
”I’ll pass on the compliment.” Eris ensured his tone conveyed the discussion was over. “Shall we continue?”
Hurbert held up his fingers. ”Actually, Lord Eris-“
”You are testing my patience, Hurbert.” Eris could feel the flames growing in him. “If you want to flatter my mate you may do so on your own time.”
Despite the older male shrinking back in his chair, he continued.
“My point is, we simply have some concerns.“
Azriel spoke before Eris could. ”And what might these concerns be?”
There was a moment of silence. Then Kelvin three seats to the left spoke up. He looked at Eris with a knowing smile and a glint in his eye. Eris trusted him- but the male was as messy as some of the females of the court when it came to gossip and knowing secrets.”
”I want it on record that I, myself, have no concerns High Lord.”
Kelvin brushed back his short red hair. A signal to Eris that this topic had been discussed before without his presence. He felt his blood start to boil.
“Nor do I.“ Dresden added.
Elden, the second oldest male at the table, looked to be sweating nervously. He liked Elden, trusted him since he treated the tenants of his land and the lesser fae well even when his father was alive. He was staring at Hubert.
“Hurbert, maybe this topic is best suited for a different time.’ He said softly.
Hurbert turned red in the face. “We have been putting off this topic for thirty seven years.” He turned his round red face to Eris. “High Lord, you’ve been blessed with two bonds. Which is a sure sign that the Mother herself favors you. And yet-“
“Yet what?” Eris said each word slowly and with venom that had the governors closest to him pushing their chairs back.
“You don’t have an heir.”
The fireplace, which had been empty, came to life behind him.
“And what consequence is it to you?” Eris leaned back in his chair like a snake waiting to strike. “Carefully consider what words leave your mouth next, Lord Hurbert.”
”It is a valid concern.” He replied weakly.
“I didn’t realize how I am fucking my mates were anyone's concern but my own.”
That only seemed to fuel Hurbert’s frustrations. He spoke louder this time.
“The Cauldron has blessed you with a female. A beautiful, court trained high fae mate.” The glass of water started to steam from the heat Eris began to radiate at his words. “Your mother had three children in the same time frame, and she was simply a wife. The concern is that The Lady’s endeavors may be too ambitious, that she has lost sight of her courtly duties.“
Azriel was on his feet, shadow whirling. His knife was already in his hand. “Watch your mouth.”
Hurbert rose to his own feet. Gone was the semblance of weakness he had with Eris. His face skewed into pure disgust as he looked at Azriel.
“What would a low born Illryian understand about the importance of an heir?”
Eris stood as well. “You’re out of line Graham.” His High Lord voice boomed throughout the room. “This is the last warning I will give you. Silence yourself before I make you.”
Hurbert, somehow redder, looked at Eris with sneer. “Am I out of line? The truth is that so called Lady of Autumn slinks around the house fucking that animal where ever they please like a whore.
He pointed to Azriel. Then he pointed to Eris.
“Maybe it is you who has lost sight of the duties to this court, High Lord. If she spent half the time on your cock as she does his, you’d have an heir by now. Or do you plan to follow your father’s lead by letting another breed your wife instead.”
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“And then,” Eris paused for a moment. “I set him ablaze.”
Az watched you carefully the whole time Eris spoke. He was attuned to every subtle shift in your expression. He sent extra shadows to help keep you calm. But you were surprisingly a statue, still and enraptured with every word Eris spoke.
“I do not remember much of it. I was too enraged to think.’ Eris continued, his tone turning cold. “He was a pile of ash in an instant. I then commanded everyone else to answer if they had so called concerns or comments about my mates. None of them did.”
“If they had, they would have been mine to deal with,” Az muttered, more to himself than for you to hear.
Eris sighed. “I did not want to tell you, love. But you are correct. You deserved to know.”
You finally blinked, your face still expressionless as you tilted your head slightly.
“Do you want a child?”
Az knew Eris paled without even looking at him. Children were not something they had discussed with you. Even worse, Az remembered when he and Eris talked about it. Eris had said he was actually thrilled his mate was a male. He didn’t want younglings- he didn’t want to risk becoming like his own father. Nothing Az said deterred him of that opinion.
Then they found you.
But Azriel also knew what you weren’t saying. You left the bond open. All your emotions bubbling under the surface were pushed to him. He could feel you question your own worth. That this is what the court really thought of you. He could envision your embarrassment at the comment that fae had made about you and himself. How people must whisper behind your back for how brazen you were. Az tried to push back his love for you even if it felt like it wasn’t working.
“It isn’t about what I want,” Eris finally answered.
“If the court wants an heir, should we not try to give them one?” you ask slowly.
Az felt his blood boiling. “It doesn’t matter what the court wants.”
“I am not a fool, Azriel.” You looked at him with so much sadness in your eyes. “If it is important to the citizens of Autumn, then as their Lady it is important to me.”
“It was one male,” Eris snapped. “A foolish one who clung to the rules of my father. This court doesn’t need an heir. Nor will anyone force you to carry one.”
“But what if I wanted to?” You whispered.
Az finally looked over to Eris. He was as pale as he expected. His gaze dropped to the hand around his drink- Az was shocked Eris hadn’t broken it yet. Eris didn’t reply and he felt you turn your gaze to him.
“And you Az?”
“Out of the question.” He winced at himself for how harsh his tone was. And how you recoiled. “It’s too risky. There is half of a chance the babe would-“
His voice cracked and he swallowed back tears. Images of Feyre slowly dying flashed in his mind. He could hear Rhys’s screaming and a flash of Nyx, so tiny and unresponsive in Mor’s arms.
He took a deep breath.
“The baby could have wings. I won’t risk your life like that. I can’t do that to you.”
A pause. Then you asked, “so neither of you want children?”
“Do you?” Eris asked.
A mix of emotions flickered in the bond from you.
“I don’t know,” you looked down at your hands. “Not right now. But if neither of you want a baby then does it truly matter?”
“It isn’t,” Eris paused again and took a long swing of his drink. He sighed. “I would need time. I am open to children but I would need time. I do not want my past to haunt my children.”
“But if,” another flood of emotions came through from you. Feelings of worry about Azriel.
“I would treat any child we have as my own,” Az said firmly. He pushed it through both bonds as well. “You are both my mates. A baby doesn’t have to be of my actual blood for me to love them. I mean that.”
“Okay.”
You stared down at your hands. Moments passed and the emotions from earlier resurfaced in the bond.
“Does everyone really think I’m a whore?” You whispered and your face crumpled.
“If they did, they would not be alive long enough for it to matter.” Eris’s words were sharp and venomous. “I commanded the governors in that room for a reason. That male said what he did because he thought he could get a rise out of me. But he forgot I am still a Vanserra and he suffered the consequences of that.”
“He should have suffered more,” Az hissed.
He was still just a little put out Eris didn’t allow him to end that male’s life. That male had undermined Azriel since the beginning. It was an honest surprise that it took him this long to say something that crossed the line for all of them. Az understood that Eris lost control, but it didn’t make it easier.
“The people of this court adore you,” Eris said softly and drew Azriel out of his thoughts. “There is not a person in his House who thinks ill of you.”
“I know but,” you wiped your eyes and a laugh escaped you. “I probably have fucked you both in every room of this house.”
“Not every room,” Eris said.
His statement broke the tension, you bursting into a laughing fit over it. When things settled he and Eris promised to not withhold information this severe again. You were right; you could handle it. Even if Eris and Az both felt you shouldn’t have to.
Summary: You decided to ignore Azriel and went on that mission alone, knowing that there was a chance it could go wrong. A furious Azriel takes you to the Forest House where Eris heals your wounds. There is a moment when things seem to look very bad, but fate has other plans for the three of you.
Words: 1,081
Warnings: A little bit of angst? mentions of blood.
Day 3 of @sjmxreaderweek Fate
N/A: This is my first time writing this style of fic (characters x reader), so have mercy.
Div by @olenvasynyt ❤️
As Azriel carefully deposited you on an unfamiliar bed, it didn't take you long to realise that you weren't in the Night Court, especially when Autumn's High Lord appeared at your side with the same desperate look on his face as the Shadowsinger.
"She's lost a lot of blood, she has a deep cut on her thigh and several serious bruises on the rest of her body."
Eris wasted no time in answering him, instead approaching your almost motionless form on the now crimson stained sheets. His hands were quick and methodical as he moved over the points Azriel had indicated, healing and using magic to mend skin, muscle and internal wounds. The look of concentration did little to hide the panic and worry that could be seen in his amber eyes.
Being so close, a little dizzy and with the adrenaline starting to drain from your system, you couldn't help but think back to what you had buried a few years ago. As Azriel's right hand, one of his most trusted spies, personally trained by him, you had been in direct contact with Eris on more than one occasion, especially when the Koschei problem had arisen.
At first, each meeting had been tense and left you in a terrible mood, but over time you had begun to look forward to seeing him again. Sometimes you had wondered if he felt it too, the lingering tension between the two of you, but when the mate bond had snapped for him and Azriel, you automatically dismissed any possibility. Azriel was your friend .... and so much more, a person you loved and trusted blindly, the thought of betraying him in any way was unfathomable.
"Hey, you need to stay awake." Eris's deep, rich voice was like a caress. But it wasn't your fault that sleep made your eyelids flutter.
Azriel hadn't said a word since he'd put you there and told Eris where to find your wounds so he could heal you. It didn't take a genius to know that his anger was about to erupt. Swallowing hard, you used what little breath you had left to blurt out to him in an almost inaudible tone.
"I'm sorry."
That seemed to break something in him, for his stoic expression was wiped away, replaced by one of fear. In a second, his scarred hands were on your face. "Do you have any idea how terrified I was when I found out you disobeyed a direct order and went there anyway?"
You barely smiled. It was dangerous, but someone had to do it. And you were less important. You could sacrifice yourself to buy them time.
You wanted to tell him again that you were sorry, even if it was a lie, to try and wipe the despair and pain from his eyes. But you couldn't.
Eris had said something out loud, sounding worried, practically screaming.
Your eyes closed for a second, just long enough to rest. Azriel was still holding your face, and you were almost sure he was repeating your name.
The place you were in was dark, too dark even for a creature of the night like you. You were used to starry skies and snow covered peaks, to the fire that softened the freezing nights when you were out on a mission and far away. This thick blackness was just that, an emptiness that made you feel so lonely you wanted to cry. You wanted to wake up again to see Eris, to thank him for healing you. You wanted to tell Azriel that you had valuable information, that it had been worth the pain, just to take the weight off his shoulders.
But the darkness whispered, pushing you further and further away.
For an instant, you were completely filled with regret. You could not believe that you would never again be able to see the smile on Eris's face as his smokehounds greeted you. You couldn't understand the injustice of knowing that you would never wake up again to enjoy the feeling of flying, safe in Azriel's arms.
It was then, as you began to drown in the darkness, that two bright golden stars appeared in the middle of the threatening night. They were so beautiful, dancing as if to show you the way back. You decided to follow them because you wanted to return to the light. You wished to open your eyes and desperately tried to hold on to the warmth they made you feel, a sensation that enveloped your soul.
"Our mate," the two males holding your body whispered, their faces showing the surprise of this revelation.
It took you a moment to understand, to come to your senses. But then you realised what they meant. You could feel it, the golden thread that wrapped around your heart, bonding you not only to Azriel, but to Eris as well. And you could also sense the connection between them. You were so confused that you were not sure if you were breathing.
It was the lips of the High Lord that anchored you to reality, as ardent as the fire that ran through his veins. And then, while Eris embraced you, trembling slightly as if still too moved by the news, Azriel kissed you with all the love and anger of what had just happened. You felt his apprehension, his relief, the deep love that was there, which now gave rise to no guilt or doubt.
That evening, the two of them took it upon themselves to stay awake and take care of you. They wouldn't let you fall asleep for a few hours just to be sure, as if fear wouldn't allow them to be away from you for even a second until they were sure you were totally okay. There were so many questions to answer, so much to say, but that could wait until the next day.
Right now, as exhaustion finally took its toll, all you could do was smile, incredibly happy and blessed, for while Azriel embraced you from behind, wrapping his wings around you and Eris, Eris had settled his head on your chest, listening to the sound of your heartbeat to lull him to sleep.
These two males, your mates... you could only thank the Mother and Fate for allowing you to return to them. You had no intention of letting them go, just as they had shown you with every word and gesture that they would not let you go either.
Summary: Your mate killed you abusers, perhaps it would be easier to not feel guilty if your abusers weren't your parents and you mate the High Lord they deemed evil.
Cw: mentions of reader's trauma
"Am I a horrible person?" The words left your lips before you had even fully thought them, they came out of nowhere, while you were sitting on your shared bed with Rhysand as he came out of a bath, water droplets clinging to him.
His eyes snapped to yours in surprise, taken aback by your question. he rubbed the towel through his hair, drying the dampness as his usually hard gaze softened, "You are the furthest thing from a horrible person. You're too good for me in so many ways." He paused, sitting beside you, tilting your chin up, "Why do you ask, my love?"
"The male I love killed my parents..." You said, barely a whisper, they had been your abusers for as long as you could recall, yet still, a guilt gnawed at you now that Rhysand had killed them for it. "I did nothing to stop you."
Rhysand's expression turned solemn as he listened to your confession, his thumb gently stroking your jawline. "y/n, you have no reason to feel guilty. Your parents... They weren't people who deserved love or mercy. They used their power to abuse and terrorize others, including you."
He took a deep breath, his voice low and measured. "I acted to protect you, not just from their cruelty, but from the fate that awaited you if you remained under their control. You didn't need to lift a finger. All you needed was to be free."
Rhysand's hand slid down to cradle your cheek, his violet eyes searching yours. "Remember how you used to tremble with fear whenever they raised their voices? How you would curl into yourself, trying to make yourself smaller, hoping they wouldn't notice you? That wasn't living, darling."
"I know they were horrible..." You still sometimes flinched from the memory, "But they birthed me-"
Rhysand's grip on your face tightened slightly, his expression fierce with anger, not at you but at your parents. "Birthed you into hell, my love. They stole your childhood, your innocence, your right to happiness. They made you suffer, and for what? Their own twisted desires?"
He leaned in closer, his breath warm against your skin. "You don't owe them anything. You certainly don't owe them love or forgiveness. What they did to you is unforgivable, and they paid the price for it."
You nodded at his words, you knew he was right, "I know... It's just... Stupid. I'm dumb."
Rhysand's fingers curled around yours, squeezing gently. "Never say that, y/n. You are one of the strongest, most resilient people I've ever known. Surviving what you did, let alone thriving after, takes an incredible amount of courage and determination."
He tilted your hand, pressing a soft kiss to your knuckles. "Your mind is sharp as a blade, quick to grasp new ideas and clever enough to navigate the treacherous politics of the Hewn City. And your heart… It's full of compassion, empathy, and a capacity for love that I admire deeply."
Leaning back, Rhysand studied you intently, his gaze roaming over your face as if committing every detail to memory. "Don't belittle yourself, my love."
"I guess it just feels weird that they're just... Gone." You rest your head on his bicep, sighing, "So many years of... Living under their rule. Of fearing even breathing wrong. And now they're just gone."
"I'm sorry I took that choice from you. I should have let you make the decision yourself. I was just so upset when I found out." Rhysand wrapped an arm around your shoulders, pulling you closer against his side as you rested your head on his bicep. His other hand absently played with a strand of your hair, the gentle touch a soothing balm for your frayed nerves. "But I am upset you kept what they did from me... More mad that you protected them, they didn't deserve your protection."
"I know they didn't... but... I guess I had myself convinced they were different than what they actually were... They begged me to stop you. I didn't want to. I'm... I'm horrible." You whispered, shaking your head and the memory of them, how they had fallen to your feet seeing the dark look Rhysand gave them, held your legs begging to be saved when Rhysand pulled you free of them. "I... Like that they're gone."
Rhysand's body tensed beneath you at your admission, his fingers ceasing their gentle play with your hair. For a moment, he was silent, processing your words. Then, slowly, he exhaled, the tension leaving him.
"You're not horrible, y/n," he said finally, his voice firm but gentle. "You did what you thought was best at the time, even if it was misguided. Protecting them, even in your own mind, shows there was still some part of you that clung to hope, to the idea that maybe, just maybe, they could change."
He stroked your hair again, more firmly this time, as if trying to anchor you to the present. "They didn't deserve your protection, but they did deserve justice."
"How do you do it?" You asked as he pulled you into his lap, holding you tight, wings creating a warm cocoon, "Hurt the horrible folk."
"The same way I did what I did tonight, because people like that...?" His eyes darkened, the memory of your parents' dead bodies flashing through his mind. "People like that deserve it. And the fact that you feel guilt and I don't is a very present reason on why between us, I'm the horrible one."
As Rhysand held you close, his words echoed in your mind, each syllable a heavy stone weighing upon your conscience. You knew he spoke the truth - the cruel men who had tormented you for so long had met a fitting end at his hands. Yet, the knowledge that he felt no remorse only served to deepen your sense of unease.
In his embrace, you felt the heat of his body, the steady thrum of his heartbeat, and the comforting solidity of his arms around you. But beneath the warmth, a chill crept through your veins, born of the darkness lurking within Rhysand's soul. A darkness that allowed him to kill without hesitation, to extinguish lives with the same ease he might snuff out a candle flame. And yet, you didn't feel fear, all you knew was he saved you from the very people that hurt you and called him the devil incarnate.
Despite Rhysand's brutal methods, despite the evil he embodied, you never once feared him. In fact, you loved him with a ferocity unlike any other. Because, unlike those monsters who had abused and degraded you, Rhysand had saved you. He had freed you from their clutches and given you a life worth living.
As you sat in his lap, surrounded by the warmth of his body and the comfort of his embrace, you understood that your feelings for him were complicated, tangled up in gratitude, desire, and a strange sort of acceptance. You knew that Rhysand was capable of terrible things, but you also knew that he was capable of great love and loyalty. And in the end, that was all that mattered to you.
"Thank you for being here with me, Rhysie..." You sighed in his hold. "For freeing me from them. Thank you for saving me."
Rhysand's arms tightened around you, his lips brushing against the top of your head as he whispered, "Always, my love. I'd move the stars themselves to keep you safe." His words were a vow, a promise etched in the fabric of the universe.
As you nestled deeper into his embrace, feeling the powerful beat of his heart, you knew that you were exactly where you belonged. With Rhysand, the High Lord of the Night Court, the male who had shattered the chains of your past and given you a future filled with possibility.
In his arms, you felt a sense of peace wash over you, a calm that settled like a blanket of silk over your troubled thoughts. Here, with Rhysand, you were home. You were free. And that was all that mattered.
Rhysand held you close, savoring the feeling of your curves pressed against his body. He breathed in the sweet scent of your hair, letting it soothe his savage heart. Your words, laced with gratitude and affection, warmed him to his core, chasing away the shadows that often haunted him.
With a gentle tilt of your chin, he captured your lips in a tender kiss, pouring all his devotion and adoration into the soft press of his mouth against yours. When he finally broke the contact, his eyes shone with a depth of emotion that rarely surfaced - vulnerability mixed with unyielding love.
"My beautiful, brave y/n," he murmured, his voice thick with feeling. "You are the light that illuminates my darkness, the melody that soothes my soul. Without you, I am lost, adrift in a sea of chaos and despair."
Rhysand smiled softly, sensing your desire to shift the atmosphere. "Come, let's take our minds off the weight of the night," he suggested, standing fluidly with you in his arms. He carried you effortlessly across the room.
In the corner, now stood a small, ornate table stood laden with an assortment of delicacies - shimmering sweets, delicate pastries, and goblets of chilled wine. Rhysand set you down gently, his hands lingering on your hips before releasing you. "Some sweets might do the trick, don't you think?"
You couldn't help but smile at Rhysand's suggestion, his attempt to lighten the mood succeeding beautifully. The sight of the delectable spread before you only added to your growing excitement. Your stomach rumbled in anticipation as you approached the table, running your fingertips over the glistening confections.
"Oh, these look divine!" you exclaimed, selecting a sugar-glazed fruit tart and taking a bite. The explosion of flavors on your tongue was heavenly, the sweetness tempered perfectly by a hint of tanginess. You closed your eyes in bliss, savoring the taste.
"Mmm, Rhysie, this is exquisite," You praised, reaching for another pastry. As you indulged in the feast, the weight of the night began to fade, replaced by a sense of contentment and joy. Under the spell of the wine, the delectable treats, and Rhysand's charming company, you felt your worries and cares melting away, leaving behind a tranquil serenity.
As the evening wore on, the intoxicating blend of wine, sweets, and Rhysand's captivating presence enveloped you in a state of euphoric tranquility. Laughter flowed freely, mingling with the soft clinking of glasses and the occasional musical trill of a bird outside the window. Time seemed to slow, stretching out into an endless expanse of pure bliss.
Rhysand watched you with a fond smile, his eyes sparkling with delight at your carefree demeanor. He reached across the table, his fingers brushing lightly against yours as he refilled your glass with the ruby liquid. The touch sent a pleasant shiver down your spine, igniting a warmth that pooled low in your belly. You were free.
Free to revel in the simple pleasures of the moment, to lose yourself in the enchanting atmosphere Rhysand had created. The world beyond the walls of his chambers receded, becoming irrelevant as you focused solely on the man before you, the love that bound you together, and the joy that filled your heart.
As the night deepened, the wine's effects intensified, casting a rosy glow over everything. Conversations grew more intimate, laughter more frequent, and glances more meaningful. The air hummed with an electric energy, charged with the promise of passion and desire. You couldn't remember the last time you'd laugh like this, had so much fun.
Rhysand may have been called evil at every corner of your old house, but he was anything but. He was your love, your saviour, your protector.
Summary: Rhys and his mate have both had exhausting days. Luckily, they're both home to get some rest together.
Word Count: 1,075
Category: Fluff
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I sighed as I shoved open the door to the townhouse, my whole body heavy. I'd walked miles across Velaris today, running basic errands, meeting with people who needed to talk to me as High Lady, crossing off administrative tasks I had not wanted to deal with, and checking in on a handful of people and projects. My planned day had started out with much less to do, but things just kept coming up in the past few days, until I didn't have a choice but to do one thing after another from sun up to sun down today.
My muscles ached and my head felt dulled and tired. All I wanted to do was flop into my bed and shut down for the rest of the night. I strode though the front door of the Velaris townhouse, intending to do just that. No one else was supposed to be here tonight, which meant I'd have the place to myself to go down like a sack of bricks.
I glanced into the living room on my way to the stairs, only to stop dead at the sight of a very familiar figure already laying on the couch, one arm across his eyes.
"Rhys?"
My mate groaned, and despite my exhaustion, a happy little laugh bubbled out of me as I moved around the couch to give him a hug.
"I thought you weren't going to be home from the Court of Nightmares until tomorrow?"
Rhys sighed, holding me to him a moment longer and leaving one hand tangled in my hair, even as we pulled back enough to speak.
"For the first time in hundreds of years, I managed to finish business with Keir earlier than expected. I knew you were busy in the city today, so I was hoping to surprise you here when you got home. I... may have caved in to my own tiredness while I waited."
I just smiled and put a hand to my mouth, trying and failing to hide my grin.
"Well, it's honestly an amazing surprise. Although I'm so tired I almost walked straight past you to go collapse in bed."
Rhys gave me a tired smile, shifting on the couch so he could put his arms around me. I leaned back against his chest and the two of us sank down into the cushions together. Instantly, the last few lingering stressors of the day melted from my mind as I sunk into the comfort of the person I loved, my best friend in the world.
"I think we've just made a critical mistake," I said after a moment. I had to fight to keep my eyes open, comfortable and content as I was against Rhys's chest, and the only response he could muster was a soft hum against the shell of my ear. "...I don't think I could get up from this position if my life depended on it."
Rhys huffed another laugh, shifting and tightening his arms around me but making no moves to get up.
"Well, then we may just have to give in to our fate and sleep here, just like this."
I smiled, turning on my side to curl into Rhys. I could hear his heart beating as I laid my head on his chest, and my own heartrate slowed in response. The streets of Velaris were nice and quiet outside, and so was the house around us. Slipping into a peaceful sleep with him here would be the easiest thing in the world.
"...I just feel like we're going to regret the decision in the morning, when we wake up as sore as if we'd been training with Cass and Az. Or worse, when one of us kicks the other off the couch in our sleep in the middle of the night."
Rhys let out the heaviest, most drawn-out sigh I'd ever heard in my life. He practically went liquid beneath me, apparently trying to merge his form with the couch completely. But then, on the inhale, he suddenly stood, scooping me up into his arms in the process.
We just stood there for a moment in the living room, Rhys holding me as I looked at him in surprise.
"I can't believe you actually managed to leave our couch. That's my High Lord, right there. Ultimate resolve and power."
Rhys snorted and rolled his eyes, but I caught him smiling all the same.
"If it had just been me, I couldn't have done it. But to make sure my High Lady doesn't wake in the morning with a neck that feels broken from her chosen sleeping position? I found the strength."
I laughed again as Rhys squeezed me tighter, then started heading for the stairs. I'd been a zombie when I'd first walked through the door of the townhouse, but just being around Rhys was enough to bring me back from the brink. I still needed to sleep, now, but the utter exhaustion mind, body, and soul and the buzzing in my brain had been alleviated.
We tumbled into bed together, both of us taking a moment to ditch the street clothes before wiggling under the blankets in a way incredibly undignified for the High Lord and Lady of the Night Court. Of course, neither of us particularly cared.
I curled up against Rhys's chest again, laying my head over his heart so I could hear its soft, steady beat as I drifted off to sleep. His arm wrapped around my waist and pulled me tight into his side, and he placed a gentle, sleepy kiss on my forehead once we'd settled in. We'd never even bothered to turn on the lights.
"I'm glad I made it home to you tonight," he mumbled, clearly already halfway to sleep. "I don't think I could've gone another night in the Court of Nightmares without seeing you."
"I'm glad you made it home tonight, too," I said, my voice just as weak and sleep-affected. "It was a long day. But it's easy to forget about it all with you."
I felt Rhys smile against my forehead, and he gave me one last little squeeze before his body relaxed. I could tell from his breathing he'd fallen almost immediately into a deep sleep, and I wasn't far behind him. I was home safe, in the loving arms of my mate, snuggled up together in our bed. There was nothing else in the world that mattered to me more than what I had here.
