I got to experiment and relieve some stress and frustration with the new Deco Color Pen Markers I got from the standard Sketchbox for this month. I actually love the feel of these and ended up causing chaos in my multi-media sketchbook. I wouldn't have put this up because I don't think this has any good qualities to it except the wonderful colors and how well the markers worked. Like I am planning on so many different uses for these things. I might need to get more colors since they don't blend easily. I also got Wink of Luna brush pen and I like the metallic ink, but I can't seem to be getting it to work too well. I managed to get it all over me and my desk already so I feel like once I figure it out, I will enjoy it. I am planning on posting a drawing a day for as long as I can manage. I have my own art room at home now (roomies moved out woo!) so I have a creative space that still needs to be set up. Also I used to be able to spend 12 hours doing nothing but painting and eating quick snacks. I want to be able to do that again. I don't want my artist abilities to go away. I want to make this my hobby but something in me is keeping me back from doing so, and I hate it. I hate most of what I draw, paint or sculpt. So to tell me to shut up and art it up, I am going to spend at least an hour a day to do some art. I will whatever I want to do, however I want to do it. I will post everything I create or the progress of it everyday so I can overcome this feeling of my work not being good enough. I put work into, it doesn't matter if it doesn't match some kind of standard of good (which is always questionable of what is or isn't). It is my work, it is a part of me, and it will not be ashamed of itself. It will show its ugly face to the world and scream, "I AM UGLY AND I AM PROUD!" So yeah that is what I am going to do. I need to work on building confidence in myself, and since art is one of my touchy parts of me, I will work on it.