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okay so im starting to think that stress actually DOES affect physical health...

by the way is it okay to hate someone because i keep getting vivid visions that god will curse me to forever roam the earth for it :/

#slight vent #i am not doing well #my body is deteriorating as the days pass #like i could tell someone but like if i go to therapy i think they'll put me down #slight paranoia #i can rest well if someone goes through my exact situation and makes it out alive #im sorry

Today...is bad

#toy txt post #d.0n't r3b/0g pls #like if you read #aphobes everywhere..fear #slight paranoia #exhaustion from yesterday + this morning #and now!!!! an ant!!!on me! on my body!! in my bedroom!! on my bed!!!!#iam crying and shaking and feel like pbantom ants all over me and i cant fucking see bc tears fick #i need to take a fucking shower asap but!!!!!! fucku g cantaaaa brothers in the fuckjf shower #never just one ant #where are the others i dont want to know i need to k iw i dont want to loom #i feel sick #im sitting at the dingin room tabke shak8ng and half looking for any tiny movemwnts of ants ah #and half purpisefully Not Looki g #G O D #i neeedd to gwt i. n the showeerrr i need to shower i have to take off the otbes ants could be hiding in #ants dont die they dont die they just move and come back for cengeamce i feel sick i feel sick i feel sick #fuck!!!!#i want to stop feeling my fucking skin im done!!!!!!!!!!! im done woth this!!!!!#i need to take a shower and then strip my bed and wash it and then take another zhower and then not sleep at all bc i cant #trust the room for a good week even after throrough cleaning ofc bc ants are fucking bullshit #fuck!!!!!!!!!!!!!#im gonna claw my ficking arms off. peel my neck #this needs to stop!!!! why do my reactions just keep gettti g worse!!!!! why is thris such a fu li g joke!!!!!#i need to clean my room #but i cant even go in therr. now #i thought it was safe in there

Suddenly I feel myself getting dragged back in to an organization that I was never part of...I mean it became a huge part of me because that's where I get Gabriella, Jez, that one Russian Spy, and of course....Fiacre. Why are they seeking me out once more? What could I even possibly offer them? Especially this spy that I've never heard of before? Is he coming to take Edana away? I won't let him...I lost my daughter once and that isn't happening again.

#written thoughts #weary #slight paranoia

I feel like I've been taking a lot of selfies lately. I need to get better at them. This feels fairly narcissistic of me. I'm trying to convince myself it's not. I want to know myself, and I want to like myself. Maybe that will help my anxiety. Now if only I can convince myself there's nothing in the dark behind me. Either I'm right in saying that, or whatever is there won't like my attention.

#life of zed #Zed speaks #slight paranoia #self care talk