whenever someone i love gets hurt i always blame myself even if it isint i could be like "i should have been there for them,," and stuff
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whenever someone i love gets hurt i always blame myself even if it isint i could be like "i should have been there for them,," and stuff
If I were in a story where my enemy did the worst things to me and I didn't even have support and shit and saw on the Internet talking about enemies to LOVERS?!!! Omg I would be pissed because what the fuck are you talking about??? This person RUINED my life. We aren't lovers, and I see this a lot in different communities, but some of them don't deserve Enemies to Lovers, especially if the enemy has done very horrible things to the MC.
I really really miss being in the PEDS section at my clinic for my appointments,, I miss my nurses over there. They were all the sweetest and the kindest and were always so nice to me. They'd hold my hand while I got my IV in and let me yap my head off about my interests and other stuff, and every week when I came in they'd ask me about said interests or my classes, or what not. And they'd tell me when things reminded them of me. The nurses in the adult wing are nice too, I just really really miss my old nurses in the PEDS wing.
Another big thing, I miss the beds. I miss not having to sit in a chair my entire appointment. It makes me want to cry a little tbh, I miss the beds so much. I don't understand why the adult wing doesn't also have beds for the patients as well. I used to be able to lay down and take a nap and cuddle with my plushies. Or be able to lay down in a dark room. It was much more comforting and I felt so much better being able to get my IVs in a bed.
I also miss the teen room, and the snack area. They had popcicles in the fridge and I'd make my way there almost everytime to sit down there for a little bit. And the teen room has a Wii, and I made SO many Miis on there of characters I liked. I miss that. I used to make one almost every appointment.
Y'all know how there are people who are like 'my mum wants me to start dating and get married but I'm dedicated to stray kids.' Unfortunately I've got the opposite going on. I would happily find someone of any gender and background to fall in love with and start a life with, but my mum wants me to marry Stray Kids. Beforehand she didn't have a preference but now her bias is Hyunjin so she's started pushing me towards him I think but ultimately she doesn't care which one, just one of them. And I have told her many times they are across the world from me and there is no way we could ever meet let alone fall in love and she just says stuff like 'You'll get famous and move to Korea to meet them.' like girl that is not how any of that works.
I have thankfully moved her away from this ever so slightly, but now it's just Korean men in general. She wants me to marry a Korean man so, and I fucking quote, I can give her a 'chubby Korean baby'. Yeah. This is all because she has baby fever and thinks Koreans are attractive but she is married with adult children and thinks her crush on Hyunjin is wrong so now she is pushing it onto me.
I've told my friends about this looking for some support but there on her side bro. They too want me to have this imaginary Korean child. I'm 18, I'm not thinking about kids but everyone else is doing it for me.
She's not even ashamed about this. We were at brunch with a mutual friend the other day and out of nowhere just started telling her about her obsession with Koreans and how she wants me to have a Korean Baby and about how the obsession all started because of Stray Kids and our friend not only agreed with her but also said to me 'If you marry a woman you can always look for a Korean donor.'
AM I THE ONLY SANE ONE HERE WHAT IS HAPPENING??? WHY AM I THE ONLY PERSON WHO DOESN'T WANT MYSELF TO MARRY A MEMBER OF STRAY KIDS AND/OR HAVE A KOREAN CHILD??? IS EVERYONE JUST DELULU FOR ME???
Trying to make my worries disappear by drawing him more often. It seems to be working… for now.
earlier i found my groomer's tiktok (where he has almost 20k followers for some reason)? and in that tiktok bio i found a discord server. and then i introduced myself in said server by outing his past antics and then leaving. i think im handling the cycle very well actually.
I have made the mistake of getting attached to a character from a popular, mainstream, quite newly released show as someone who’s used to picking up old or more niche or new and “cringe” media and it’s making me have a moment
I don’t want to POV date him! He wouldn’t be a good boyfriend! I don’t want to make him better! He wouldn’t like that music! He wouldn’t comfort you if you cried! He’s not a soft boy!
I want to analyse him! I want to microwave him! I want to dissect him! I want to study him for science! I want to make him gay! I want to make him trans! I want to diagnose his autism! I want to see him cry! I want him to be traumatised! I want him to go through it! I want to hit him with lightning!
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I feel like it's obvious when I'm uncomfortable and disgusted.
So, politely.
Back up,
DON'T flicker your eyes to my mouth, it's weird and icky and gross to do,
and don't touch me. Seriously.
Stop acting so friendly. You know what you did, and there's a reason I don't really like you.