#slightly religious

[absolvtetrash]

You took everything from me

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Woouuhh another P1 Dude drawing… my husbanddddd…. mhmmdmmfdmfm…..

[n0xturnal]

Communion Jell-O shots

The little wafer is in the jello

[unik0rnu]

“Alright boys...let’s raid some shit”

[yourdoomedlilyofthevalley]

Should I truly bless thy? I walk to you, grovel to you, yet I receive only emptiness from the gaze above me, yet I'm expected, always expected, to kneel, to obey.

If I were to refuse what would they say? How would I be treated for disgracing you? Our God in human skin..

I must purge such thoughts, such agonising ideas of a freedom away from this all. Perhaps I shall purge myself? No, it is not asked of me so I shan't.

Another time, another time and another life would I be a traitor to my own blood. In this life, my ties hold too strong, wrapping and twisting in my arteries, burrowing into the bone marrow were soon only rot will lay.

When I decay will I be called a sinner? A saint? I heed not such knowledge of my own future failings.

[jikanoftime]

Benjamin’s life advice

It’s ya boi benjiscrammbledeggsandwichtoasterovendude here, with a new update on how to live yo best fucking life. 

1: Never give up, if your goal is master psychology do it. If your goal is to flirt with a girl, just remember that life is limited and time is fleeting so take the risk. 2: Don’t be scared to try things. Tesla wasn’t scared, and neither was Edison when he stole Tesla’s patents and became famous. Just saying. (Please don’t steal, it was a joke, don’t use me in court for “Well Benjamin said Edison got famous for it” please don’t use me) But, yes, don’t be scared, you can do anything, be anything, eat anything.  3: Don’t let people tell you your religious beliefs are wrong. (Literally, it’s arguing over a giant floating being who controls weather and shit, there’s no logical way for that argument to go.) 4: Equal rights, doesn’t always mean equality. (For example, if everyone gets the equal rights of a 2 foot box, I’m six foot four, the box makes me eight foot four. but to a four foot four person, they only become six foot four.) 5: This is all to be listened to if you want and ignored if you want. Because I have no control on your opinion and this is all my opinion. So, also don’t be afraid to share your opinion. 6: Don’t be afraid to say birds are government drones. There’s no proof they aren’t ;) 7: Question everything, you may ask me “but why” and I’ll just reply “Good, you’re listening to me”  8: Don’t do the illegal things, they’re normally illegal for a reason.  9: Don’t get mad if people misgender you, simply tell them your preference and hope they listen. Life is much too short to get offended by everything.  10: Don’t get offended by everything, it’s 2019 for Satan’s Sake. Learn to move on and ignore stuff cause like, life is too short to expend energy where it isn’t needed and won’t be listened to. 11: Laugh, live, possibly cry yourself to sleep a few times from the impending doom of existence and the inevitability of taxes and at least 1 illness, then move on and love things in life.  12: Make friends with people who don’t think exactly like you, it may open your eyes. And this has been, Benjamin’s Life Advice Another pro tip, This pro tip is to tumblr. Understand that maybe tumblr’s encouraging dangers thoughts like genocide, murder, and suicide should be banned before porn? (Just a thought, but, I’m just voicing my opinion as I said before you don’t gotta listen.) 

[liadanswhisper]

Because it needs to be said over and over and over until you understand how beautiful each one of you is. How precious. How much we need you.  Before you ever took a breath Long before the world began Of all the wonders He possessed There was one more precious Of all the earth and skies above You're the one He madly loves Enough to die Doesn’t matter who you are. Doesn’t matter what you’ve done. Doesn’t matter what others have told you. This is the truth - that you are loved, that you are valuable, that you are precious in the sight of God. That you can never lose that love, no matter where you go, or what you do. You are loved, always, no matter what.

[audioper]

Discussions on a Truthful Tuesday

Maybe you should just fade away...

That is ridiculous and selfish and dumb.

But sometimes when I feel dejected or alone or forgotten or outside or unaccomplished (all of which are often times true), I can't help but wonder what I should do.

Where would you go? 

The devil, whispering in my ears again. And I can't tune him out. Perhaps this is the curse of having exceptional hearing.

To whom would you turn?

I guess I'm just a sucker for love of any kind. I'm a bit of an attention whore. How annoying of me.

Have you accomplished anything today? Or is it nothing again?

Maybe I need a day off. Maybe I'm just a lazy ass. Maybe it was raining today and I couldn't go for a walk comfortably. Maybe I did actually do stuff this weekend, like make and mail pies, or play a basketball game I am so obviously not built for.

You are nothing but full of excuses.

Yeah. But once in a while they are legitimate.

Why don't you get control of yourself then?

Well that I just can't answer. I don't know why I can't seem to change myself. There are so many opportunities to do so these days. I guess it's nice to be so self-aware.

Especially when all you seem to see are your numerous failings.

I am nothing close to perfect of course. But I am a better man than most. I just don't think so because I have you talking down at me, and my obsessive need to be selfless has me not thinking too highly of myself. I don't like having an inflated ego, but one area that I can improve is in my attitude towards me.

Why, you are worth less than nothing to everyone around you, why should you have any self worth?

That may be true, but the surest way to be something to someone else is to be something to yourself first. If I can't value my own self, how can I possibly help others realize their own value? Besides, it's usually pretty obvious that I mean something more than nothing to a few folks. I hope.

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Perhaps you shouldn't dwell on all the downsides of right now. Consider the grass of the field.

Now there's a voice I would rather hear.

[lynforthewin]

Face the music when it's dire

So we were left with three options:     (1) wait there and keep looking,     (2) get in line for the shuttle bus for hours,     (3) walk to the station - in case she'd already got there We went with option (3) and briskly walked our way to the main street. The whole way there, my dad was picturing the worst case scenarios of my mom being left behind and looking for us still or waiting alone at the station. I was praying all the prayers I knew the words to that God would help us find her and keep her safe. Then one of the shuttle buses headed for the station we needed to go to stopped near the gas station on the corner to drop someone off. Me and my dad sprinted as fast as we could (my legs were dying at that point, but I ran for my life). Just as we reached the front door of the bus, the bus driver closed the doors - preparing to drive off. "Knock and the door shall be opened unto you." My dad knocked at the door and the bus driver opened it, telling us we were on the wrong place to board. We told her we really needed to go to the station the bus was going (and there was enough room). One of the other male passengers started making off-handed remarks, but she let us (and a few other stranglers) squeeze on. And that's when I cried and couldn't stop. I usually hate crying in front of others, but at that point I didn't care. I was selfish and greedy - wanting to stay and watch Marianas Trench until the end of their set, even though I knew the last bus was supposedly at 10pm. I figured my mom and dad and I would stick together and if anything we could walk to the station together at the end of the show. I didn't think that we would get separated. I didn't think that I could be potentially putting my mom in danger. I was way too focused on seeing Marianas Trench and well, I didn't think. I couldn't help but feel that everything was my fault. I was helpless - there was nothing I could do to make things better. At that point, all I could do was pray and hope for the best. We waited at the station and my mom was on the bus that came right after ours.