#slightly venty

[minedgames]

living in my small circle with my handful of moots is fun and games until I see someone on my fyp from the same fandom with an oc similar to mine and I start worrying they think I copied them and now they hate me

[artifexvigen]

The ever-reliable Kasane Teto

Happy April Fools' Day! And happy birthday, Teto!

[queerbutaliltotheleft]

Professional help feels like a fantasy at this point..

[church-on-a-lakeside]

Thinking about when I said "Soooo turns out that I never felt connected to Aphrodite (something that had made me feel alienated) because I did/do not need female sexuality, I've actually really embraced male sexuality since Freyr came around" and my friend group's reaction was "well Aphrodite is a shapeshifting deity so technically...."

When someone confides something like that in you, you do not "um ackshally" them. Aphrodite is still ascribed as a goddess. A woman. That is her most common appearance and understanding. In modern paganism, many honor her in regards to feminine/female self-love and sexuality. Aphrodite is not, in any regards, what I need.

Yes I have grown more distant from this group. I still love them, still talk to them. Something like this is very rare. But I still feel alienated and uncomfortable. One can love a person (or people) and still outgrow them. (Mayhaps I should share the little zine I made concerning this group....)

[arelenforyadarlin]

I bring a ‘gets tired of acting like the perfect child bc it’s at the cost of my sanity and I don’t want people to use me anymore’ to the conversation that my parents really don’t like

[wolfdog-disciples333]

short vent about a "friend" i have

lowkirkenuinely one of my friends is kinda transphobic. she's friends with an absolute piece of shit who fucking hates me and multiple other trans people for no reason at all, and is just generally an asshole. this is rubbing off on this friend, too, and I'm scared that she's gonna start acting like that person.

she's also convinced that mpreg is a morally wrong fetish or whatever and that men can't get pregnant, which rubs me off the wrong way and lowkirkenuinely feels like she doesn't see trans men - who have the right body parts to get pregnant in most cases - as real men. I'm scared this friend is gonna turn into a transphobic, transmasc-hating radfem, which sucks because this is ALSO my queerplatonic partner and one of the biggest people in the only community i feel safe in! hooray...

I'm debating just cutting off contact with her all together - she's close friends with someone who I'm 95% sure is transphobic in some way (and is just - not a good person), is starting to become more like this person, and lowkirkenuinely thinks that MPREG of all things is evil and immoral and makes you a bad person. and just any NSFW in general.

she probably thinks I'm a bad person, and she definitely would if she saw how i talk to the people i actually trust or what i draw in my sketchbook, and i don't really wanna be friends with someone who'd think i was some evil demon from hell for having freaky ass thoughts most teenagers my age have. though she is one of my only friends and a big part of the only community i feel safe in, so idk what to do. should i leave and find some place that'll actually accept me being a freak, or should i stay around someone who i don't trust that lowkirkenuinely might be transphobic?? i don't fucking know! that's why I'm venting about it on tumblr dot com!!

not gonna namedrop since she doesn't have tumblr and that's just shitty, and she doesn't really done anything to deserve it yet.

[linkspussy]

I have a crying kink but in a specifically hurt/comfort kinda way

[xxl1ghtxx]

Am i the only one that thinks the omori community hates me because of what im into at the moment or nah