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“We cannot eat dead food and feel alive.” - Dresden Danielle

This quote is something that I’ve really connected with recently. Dealing with my manic episodes is sometimes difficult due to the fact that all I want during these moments is cheese. Before I continue, I am not saying it’s justifiable for me to eat dairy due to my mental illness. I am sharing this experience so others know that being vegan is challenging in other ways than figuring out what to eat. I know that I should not eat anything from an animal but when I am manic, all of the logic and knowledge I have go out the window.

Yes, I know that it is wrong. No, this doesn’t mean I have given up on being vegan. Yes, it tasted good for a split second and then I could hear the statistics and facts being whispered in my head. Yes, I felt bad about doing it. No, I can’t promise it won’t happen again, on purpose or by mistake. No, I do not think of myself as a terrible human being for saying this. 

I. Am. Human. I have made mistakes and will continue to make more. Just because I make these mis-steps doesn’t mean I do not learn from them. Every mistake we make comes with a consequence...

Eating that cheese made me feel gross, as though my own body was rotting from the inside out. It also made my mental disorder worse at that moment in time. I had painful stomach cramps, no bowel movements for about two days, and so much guilt. Feeling these things just reaffirmed my original decision to transition to a vegan lifestyle. In saying this, I am still in the beginning stages of my vegan journey so mistakes are bound to happen and most vegans I follow don’t really talk about that. I see this slip-up as a positive thing that helped me really see the affects being vegan has on my personal body. 

By being vegan, my body doesn’t go through terrible pain to digest what I’m putting in it. I don’t feel the pain of the being (not literally but more spiritually, mentally and emotionally). I feed my body the things it needs to reach its fullest potential mentally and physically. The vegan lifestyle has helped me get to a point in my life that I can honesty say that I am happy at. It’s also helped in terms of mental stability, in my opinion. 

Overall, this “fall off the wagon” really showed me that I am on the right path, for me, by being as vegan as possible. This is why I haven’t posted either. I was conflicted with the fact that I ate cheese after I went 100% vegan but to be honest, no one is 100% anything. We all fuck up and that’s okay. I will continue to do my best and I hope you, who is reading this, does the same with whatever your path in life is. Thank you for reading this and I will do better on posting every week, promise!

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What would Slipup look like all grown up?

Probably something along the lines of this (pretend I know how to draw a crossbow)

He’s an unpleasant mix of Getaway and Atomizer’s colors. Slipup wanted to replace the Getaway colors with Atomizer’s, but so far he’s had severe allergic reactions to the paints he’s tried

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Primus knows what would happen if Slipup actually befriended Grace…

*Thrash voice* it’s like you’re thinking my thoughts before me!👀

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Aww Slipup pushing baby Grace, it’s like one kitten being very bad aww

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Put Slipup in air jail /hj

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atomizer holding newborn Slipup: omg, I love him!!!

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Getaway holding newborn Slipup: Ew! My optics!!!