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No. 70

I am aware of the flames

that engulf my body

Aware of how to stop them

But I don't

Self-destruction

is a talent of mine

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No. 65

It's as though

I am watching myself burn

fully aware of the water

beside me

and continuing

to ignore it

anyway

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No. 67

And I burn

So much brighter than the stars

and the moon

and the sun

I burn

Leaving those around me

starstruck

and in awe

I burn

because you tried to stifle my fire

but the darkness made my light

shine even more

I burn

and now I share my flames with another

and we are incandescent

and oh,

how I am grateful

that I did not settle

for your weak

and unfaithful

flickering

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No. 81 : peaceful

I walk

into the black oblivion

Mind at peace

and free

at last

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How can you miss what you've never known?

How can you crave touch when you've never felt it?

-smolsiamese -(no. 55)

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No. 69

Whispers in the dark,

hot breath on my ear

A longing that can never be satisfied

Finding comfort in bodies,

but not in faces

because the one person I crave

will never be mine

So I hide in the darkness

and imagine that

the hands

touching me

are his

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No. 74

I am the girl

who writes poetry

late at night,

the girl who dances at 3am

for no

apparent reason

I am the girl who sings

in the shower

and cries

in the silence

I am the girl who

cares too much,

compares too much

And I am the girl who is learning

to live with it

I am not yet the person

who I wish to be

But slowly and surely

I am becoming the person

who I need to be

I am the girl who is becoming herself,

Growing into myself

as one would

oversized clothes

I am the girl who is finally

- finally-

learning self-love

I am the girl who writes my story,

and I promise myself

that I will make it

worthy of a legend

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No. 73

As the stars come out,

I have never been

more grateful

to be

alive

-smolsiamese