#self-destruction

[dreaminginthedeepsouth]

Flint Dibble  :: @FlintDibble

We are witnessing the modern equivalent of the burning of the Library of Alexandria The reckless destruction of knowledge, heritage, hard work, and brilliance just to watch it all burn

[the-healing-mindset]

Things are different now. Your first reaction is not to overthink. You now move consciously. You pause and assess what it is that is happening and you don't make a move that is going to end up being detrimental to you as you would have done in the past. Welcome to a healed state of mind. You worked to get here.

[trycheese]

Devastation is a state when everything goes as usual and calmly, but in the soul there remains only a slight sadness, and nothing more 😣

опустошение — это состояние, когда всё идёт как обычно и спокойно, но в душе остаётся лишь лёгкая печаль, и ничего больше😣

[morphine-king]

Sid and Nancy (1986) – Alex Cox

[dolphelecat]

One of the things that's so delicious about Mark Scout's love for Gemma (not necessarily healthy, but fun to watch as a viewer) is that he will do anything self-destructive because of it. It motivated his initial severing and his alcoholic, depressive lifestyle before he found out she was alive. After he knew she was alive, he was not only willing, but eager to undergo experimental brain surgery that has a 100% mortality rate, deal with the sickness, the disorientation, the hallucinations, the seizures, the nosebleeds. He lied to Devon. He faced the significant risk of Lumon coming after him. He ultimately goes along with Cobel even though he hates it for Gemma.

But this ultimately will not serve him because what he needs is the understanding, cooperation, and maybe even unification of Mark S., aka himself. Self-destruction is the polar opposite of what will help him going forward, and I can't wait to see how he handles that situation!

[thepersonalwords]

Idealistic notions that guide a younger person frequently prove unsustainable. Concluding any stage of life demands that a person rebuilds oneself after living destroys our ideological beliefs.

Kilroy J. Oldster, Dead Toad Scrolls

[wornbriefly]

What if keeping those parts of me alive is worth letting go of the part that wants to be loved?

sometimes I think maybe I don’t need love the way people say I should. maybe what I need is to keep the parts of me that wake up when someone calls me good girl, when I shake, when I’m raw and seen and trembling. maybe that’s my kind of aliveness.

I used to think love would make me whole. now I wonder if love just makes me quieter, smaller, softer in a way that feels like forgetting who I am. because when I’m touched the way I crave—when I’m pushed past the edge of language—I remember everything: my hunger, my want, my body.

and maybe that’s the trade. maybe keeping those parts alive means I stop asking anyone to stay. maybe it means I let go of the part of me that waits for good morning texts, that wants to be chosen, that still believes in being loved.

maybe I don’t need love to feel real. maybe I just need to keep burning.

[hexcurors]

Scorpius has Albus's notifications on, and right below, there's a reply from him Scorpius: Are you okay???? Albus: Fucking no. Scorpius: On my way.

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