“The Amazing Digital Circus is a fun show. It’s weird having a show that isn’t a hyperfixation. It’s like I do a bunch of other things and then go “oh yeah, that show I’m watching with Eleanor is amazing. Time for the next episode.”
“But after it’s over, I just sorta think about it for 2 days and then move on. I guess it’s for the best. It’s an indy show and the episodes sometimes take a long LONG time to come out. 5 and 6 were pretty fast, but who knows when 7 is coming?”
“Besides, all my hyperfixation slots are filled with reading yet ANOTHER physics book, thinking about AJR’s new music coming SO SOON, and diving into reddit rabbit holes and thinking about what sort of reddit posts to make.”
“I made this me as an alien dude on Reddit! Isn’t he AWESOME!? I hope my friends and family can make theirs too! Someday.”
“Back to TADC, episode 6 has me once again contemplating the complicated emotions that arise from being a self aware cartoon character. I don’t FEEL like a cartoon character. I’m not just some archetype. I’ve got LAYERS! But, cartoon characters often have layers too, depending on the cartoon.”
“Eh, maybe I’m overthinking it all.”
“I hope you enjoyed another brain dump. I know Dave probably enjoyed not having to listen to me babble all this at light speed.”
“Goodnight, everybody! It’s 1am, I should be sleeping, but I’m probably not gonna wind down ‘til 2:30 or 3.”
“This reminds me of the AJR song 3 O’clock Things. 🎶It’s 3am. I should be sleeping.”🎶
“I’ve detoxed from my candy and I’m taking my meds less frequently too. Can you tell?”
“I also had this really cool videogame idea that I wanna program with Simon’s help, but I’ll tell ya that some other time.”
👨 - What is your muse’s relationship like with their father? Is it good, bad, or complicated?
👩 - What is your muse’s relationship like with their mother? Is it good, bad, or complicated?
Jiwoon lit up at the thought of someone asking about his parents.
"우리아빠 엄마? I gave them a good and comfortable life! I encouraged them to retire, but they said it wouldn't feel right to stop working; that the family restaurant made them happy and I brought them plenty of business already. Either way, they're very proud of me as their son and that I'm successfully doing something that I love too. They know how hard I worked and were always worried about me... but they said we were very strong and resilient people. No matter where we were, they were supporting me and happy that I carried part of our home with me while still performing knife tricks, for the world now with my own passion for music, instead of only in a restaurant to tourists. I owe my most unique instruments and performances to them."
Left to ponder, he thought of where he was now and how little he actually got to see them. Everything had a price and becoming legendary held a steep one; claiming time from friends, family, and normality. Still, he wouldn't change anything if given the chance; he grew out of needing those commodities of life so long ago, and now? Well, he was legendary.
"If you want to know individually though... My dad was a warm-hearted and talentedly creative man. With music, he met my mom, but he gave up his dreams of pursuing a musical path to become a hard-working man and support his family. Some people say we got lucky when the IMF crisis happened, but really my parents were just smart enough to make it work, both of them running a business and planning well. His military experience let him know what foreigners were like and in turn, I learned a lot from him and how to entertain people who already see a lot of action. When I went to a concert with him, I understood what people felt when they saw me; something new and amazing; I wanted to do that too, and he was happy to share a love of music and supported me. He's a wise man with kind eyes and the best 군만두 (pan-fried dumplings)."
"My mom taught me how to be strong, clever, and unique since she was a smart career woman who got laid off when she was pregnant. Unable to find a job in the workforce, she and my dad decided to run the restaurant together. My dad supported the family and she focused on our business' reputation. It was thanks to her that we figured out how to include my skills in the restaurant to set us apart. When I had an interest, she would make sure I practiced safely and even bought me my first beginner knives. She told me that no matter what other people think, never let them stop me from being special; also to think before I speak, understand people by listening to them, and to not let other people tell me my worth. She's loving, protective, and spirited. I think the special things she made were the best... 미역국 (Seaweed soup) for birthdays and 시루떡 (Red-bean rice cake) for offerings."
Yeah. He made it however he could; reclaiming what made him unique. Trickster will certainly never be forgotten again. He hopes they're still proud and can manage to retire peacefully.
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🌺 - Does your muse have a favorite flower? Why do they like it?
"I don't really pay attention to flowers much- but maybe roses. They're very versatile, come in all sorts of colors, and are usually passionate and classy; the first flower everyone thinks of."
He gives a chuckle and holds up a familiar potted plant.
"Though it only has flowers sometimes, I really like Joji's. It looks like a star."
the more i think about seagender, the more i feel like it can explain exactly how i feel about my gender
because thinking about it, the sea can kind of represent my gender. Sometimes it’s really calm and i’m like ‘okay, today i feel like a girl, im very sure of it’ and other days i’m like ‘wtf is happening how do i feel’ and everything is unclear and there’s just a lot
mmmm also i think that the reason why i question my gender so much is because i feel like there’s so much about gender that i just dont know yet or i havent discovered yet. There’s so many views on gender and how it feels, there might be solid facts i’ll find out soon, and there might even be parts of the concept of gender that i havent even thought about yet. I could even make a diagram to show it
I probably sound weird but that’s just on my mind. Maybe i’m just thinking too much into it pls help [embarrassed]
