bless me anyway

with my fistful of tunes

[thisfeebleheart]

[literaturebf]

and the kind of wonderful beautiful thing is. no matter how bad i’m feeling i’ll never really think that i have no friends or that no one likes me or enjoys having me around. because i know exactly what that feels like and now i have the complete opposite of that and ill never forget it!!! yes i’m sad and it feels like the world is ending sometimes but i can talk to my friends about it. five or six years ago even just the thought of that was completely alien to me. isn’t that crazy. it literally always gets better and it always works out.. never kill yourself. seriously

[fuckrozanov]

i like when ilya is mean AND i like when ilya is nice #WeDoExist #StopTheErasure #MyMultitudes

[flawlessassholes]

It's Kind of a Funny Story by @flawlessassholes

His stomach takes a sharp, screeching left. His heart stalls and then shifts into gear, zero to 180, every tired tract of him seizing and squealing to go, run, leave. “Hey, I found him,” Tony says, finishing a conversation Ilya wasn’t in, easy like all conversations without Ilya are. Easy like the world isn’t ending. Like Ilya isn’t standing there, wishing every time he tried to self-destruct or kill himself had worked. Greasy black hair. Sallow freckled skin. A turned head and horror-widened eyes taking in the big bad monster who finally arrived onscreen. “Shane, Ilya; Ilya, Shane,” Tony says, totally oblivious. “You both like hockey, right? So that’s something in common. I’ve got to take lunch, but I’ll check in on you both before my shift is over.” 

Nobody knows if Ilya Rozanov tried to kill himself before the draft. Nobody sane goes first overall. And nobody knows if Shane Hollander is going to survive another mediocre season with the Boston Raiders. 

Isn’t it funny how a single nick in the ice can change the entire game?

shane/ilya, E, 31k | canon divergence based on the novel by ned vizzini | banner by me

[livelovecaliforniadreams]

[weirdgirl247]

every year small towns and indigenous communities across canada are burnt to nothing by horrific wildfires and americans go on the internet to complain about it and blame us bc the smoke has spread to their state. i’m so tired.

go yell at mark carney or your own local politicians about climate change and urge them to do more to stop it. the namaygoosisagagun first nation had their community destroyed today. you can find a link to donate to them here. donate to your local food bank. go to the beach next week when the smoke clears and you don’t have to think about it anymore while the people who’s lives have been destroyed will have to pick up the pieces and try to move forward when we are already in a huge cost of living crisis across the country.

[weirdgirl247]

rbing with other places you can donate to to support those impacted by the fires!

true north aid (an organization aimed at providing support to remote/northern indigenous people in canada)

canadian red cross wildfire fund

ontario spca and humane society (links to their donate page specifically aimed at supporting pets and animals in areas impacted by the fires)

and the anishinabek nation’s page where you can donate to support the namaygoosisagagun nation who had their land destroyed by the fires is still accepting donations

[smoqueen-deactivated20251108]

im not horny it’s something else entirely. really wish there was a word for it

[smoqueen-deactivated20251108]

i think i just want to run. Like i just want to run

[aueua]

people with siblings: how do you feel about them?

[hudsonswilliams]

Hudson partying in Mykonos

[ellisonwongparty]

actually have nothing funny or snarky to say about episode 5. this is just actually the most moving and heartwrenching television i've ever witnessed and it changed my life. it changed so many people's lives. sometimes i'm like the hr hype is lowkey a little too insane and then i watch this episode and i feel like the world writ large actually underreacted to how legendary this episode was. i too would actually soul bond with francois, hudson, and connor if i witnessed this live in the dead of winter.

[ellisonwongparty]

like i'm sorry rr/tierney ate with this....... like the idea that someone else coming out being the impetous for you yourself taking a big leap of faith too is so like. what being gay and in a community is about. like you just literally don't know you aren't the only one if someone doesn't come out and do something so ridiculously brave. sorry i'm being so earnest about this because i'm writing this mid tears. like that thing jacob said about how scott's coming out needs to be outlandish and loud to contrast the like quiet and tender coming together of shane and ilya. the problem with this show is that it's literally that good.

[pookieshane]

love is stored in the forehead touch

[banhmigoddess]

My one boring tip to anyone in their 20s is to resist the temptation to rot in your room every time you get a free moment. Dismiss any neuroses you have about going outside and "being perceived". Be a dictator about it, plan your hangouts like they are binding commitments. No excuses! Go to the bar with your friends. Be kinda hungover at work. Socializing is like exercise; even if you don't feel like you want to, you should still do it because it's good for you.

[wanderinsect]

🫩 no i don't think those characters are siblings i think they're friends. I don't think that's their mom I actually think she's their friend. I don't think they're related actually I think they're friends with each other.

[aropride]

opened my wip and didnt immediately write a thousand new beautiful and perfect words so i'm going to smash my laptop with a hammer

[ellisonwongparty]

i love shane so much :( it's peak shaney to ask questions that are kind of weird (i.e. 'sick like crazy??' and 'is it like... very upsetting??' and my favorite 'what will they do to you there???' re: ilya and russia LOL) but ultimately shane will use what he's learned from those questions to come up with a solution so simple and earnest like "well why don't you tell me everything that's on your mind, but in russian??? maybe it will help :)" like guh :'( ilya's so luckyy to have himmm shane just gets him and like pays so much attention to him and just LOVES HIM SOO MUCHHH :'( AND HE'S ALWAYS LOOKING FOR THE BEST WAY ILYA CAN TALK ABOUT HIMSELF BECAUSE HE KNOWS IT'S HARD FOR HIMM :'(

[toramona]

James Baldwin, Giovanni’s Room

[bluegiragi]

long distance selfies

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