#so stuck

[lambsprout]

so stuck.

[moongirlrhea]

that writers block comes right back whenever i so much as open the chapter 6 word document ….. send help

maybe i’ll do another drabble before getting this one out we’ll see

[ghostbeam]

Oikawa is my boyfriend and spike is like. We got married on a whim during a bounty once so he is is my husband but Dabi….dabi is like….he’s my soul…he’s he’s my heart we’d find each other in any universe we’re gonna die on the same day

[sweetwhispersofchaos]

Trying to work on my last fic for @roosterforme Rocktober event and I’m soooo stuck. I love the song and characters I chose but the story just isn’t coming to me.

Uggghhhh frustration level 1000 unlocked.

[peachesmodernlife]

I think…. I need to restart Disco Elysium.

I am very stuck 😩

le sigh

[shubbsthewriter]

tumblr i need help

i want to find fics with the iron dad/spider kid relationship on ao3

is that tagged as peter parker/tony stark????

[69shadesofgray]

i gotta get some really negative thoughts off my chest so here goes

i’m suuuper paranoid and depressed since a few weeks ago and still because my brain can’t stop circling a drain of thoughts on my current existence. i’m freaking the fuck out waay way deep down and barely keeping it together. i moved across the country in september and i still don’t have friends!!!! sure it’s warm here. back home it would be cold, i would be more seasonally depressed, and my best friend also moved away too anyway. things wouldn’t be better, they would be equally lame, but my brain is fixating. and with that i’m so paranoid i want to cry because am i leaning on the guy i’m dating for everything because he’s the only connection i’ve made outside of work? and that includes my roommate. i avoid her at all costs. and the guy i’m dating - we barely see each other and i should be okay with that because i’m shy of deep commitment, but we never talk unless we’re together and i feel so distant from him. i can’t get a text conversation going that makes me feel good and whole in between the days and days where i don’t see him. do i even like him or do i just like the attention? i’m paranoid. i’ve got a new job and it’s been a month. it’s stupid, it’s redundant, and all the small things are so fucking hard. it’s not clicking yet. i keep getting coached and my trainer talks to me like i’m fucking 12 and not answering my questions in the way i need her to and my coworkers i don’t know ask me questions and i wonder if i’m actually supposed to have an answer when i reply that i don’t know or didn’t do the thing or can’t remember. i enter applications at a desk and my eyes glaze over and i can’t stop myself from judging people based on their names, their ages, and why the fuck they think they need 35,000 for their funeral. it’s not so much judgement as it is hyper-fixation on random details to keep myself from going completely numb to the process. also like, how the whole thing is a bullshit salesman pitch for our agents to sell low income people things they don’t even need? but what do i really actually know. it pays the bills. what i really want to do doesn’t, and i don’t know how to turn my passions sustainable. 

i wish i was dumb, i wish i didn’t care, i wish my brain didn’t think so much, i wish i was easily satisfied, i wish i was more outgoing, i wish i was naive, i wish i was more trusting, i wish i didn’t worry, i wish i was more understanding,  i wish i was more motivated, i wish i had drive, i wish i was better, i wish i was more. 

[wontonsupremacy]

Recently I can’t get out of bed I barely have energy to retain the bit of energy I recuperated. The rest of the energy I have goes to maintaining positivity, maintaining schoolwork submissions and trying so hard but even being barely able to socialize