#so whiny

[llumdecuca]

Unpopular opinion: Dawson is probably the most obnoxious character on Dawson’s creek. I’m rewatching the show and I can’t stand him.

[manicpussydreamboi]

honestly it's embarassing how much i vibe to i like boys by todrick hall and kiss me thru the phone by that kid and just generally my les garcons me rendent fou playlist like make it make sense akdjgakljd;klgas

[king-layney]

saifah is a 6 ft tall baby and it’s the fucking cutest

[selenuhs]

i hate the internet deadass

[cutthroat-coquette]

I'm bored and sleepy at work. If I curl up under my desk and sleep will anyone notice? 🤔😴

[beauty-grace-outer-space]

Blah blah blah more whining. 

Ya’ll I’m just really fuckin’ lonely. 

I don’t know why it hit me so hard this week, but boy did it ever. I haven’t gone more than a few hours at a time without crying for several days, and I’m just... exhausted. 

I saw my therapist yesterday and just... had a complete meltdown in her office. 

This last week or two should have been so celebratory and it just... wasn’t. Because everyone is at such different places in their lives that it just... doesn’t work like that. 

My birthday was last week. I spent the majority of it crying. My parents offered to take me out to dinner but I was just so tired and sad I just wanted to stay home in bed. So we were going to go out over the weekend instead... but my mom got sick and my dad got busy and we just... didn’t. So we were going to go out this weekend... but it hasn’t come up again. 

I graduated from college last week. I spent weeks thinking of how fun it would be to have a barbeque or something to just... celebrate that after ten years and a lot of heartache and struggle, I have a degree. And instead, I’m too embarrassed to bring it up beyond the couple of people I’ve told.  It’s just an AA. It’s not like it’s a big deal. Most people didn’t even know I was taking classes. I mentioned wanting to just... jokingly celebrate it with my mom and she started laughing. “You really want to make that big of a deal out of a two-year degree? It’s just an AA.” 

My college roommate lives out of state. My good friend from a job I had a few years back moved to New Zealand. My best friend from high school moved to France. Of the few friends I have who live locally, two straight up told me they cannot/will not hang out with me at all for a minimum of three months, probably longer, one has decided they are no longer speaking to me for reasons I don’t quite understand, one works crazy hours and is never free, and one just had her second baby and is understandably in a very different place in life that doesn’t allow for a ton of spontaneous meet-ups right now. 

My dad was trying to be helpful and talk about friendships they’ve had that have kind of come and gone and I just broke down sobbing, “But in your twenties, there was always someone for you to go to.” 

And he just got very quiet and said, “Oh.” 

I know the seasons are changing and depression brain has been activated, and I’m sure there are other contributing factors to all of this as well. 

But today I sat in my car for an hour crying and just wondering is anything I do ever going to be worth celebrating? For anyone? 

I’m so fucking lonely. 

[asktheboywholived]

(( OOC: I’ve been editing together footage/bloopers from those three-ish months that Meg was out here living with me... and I have come to several conclusions...

One... the amount of PDA is astounding... even for us. 

Two... we both clingy af. 

Three... I’ve only managed to cut this video from 50 minutes to 30... this is fucking ridiculous. )) 

[quercussp]

Somebody help I’m falling in love with the cat I’m taking care of and I might not want to give him back at the end of the week.