[Anonymous request: Jax Teller / You Don’t Know What Love Is. & I Just Hate To Be The Bad Guy.]
WARNINGS: None.
A/N: Fluff, I suppose. Reader is a little bit afraid of commitment.
Standing in the doorway to the garage you watched as Jax and Opie joked and simultaneously worked on the motorbike in front of them. Looking to the pair you almost felt jealous of how close a relationship they had – one you had never experienced.
“Look what the cat dragged in,” Jax announced, finally noticing you. A smile appeared on your face as you wandered over, collected into his arms as he clasped his hands around your waist, taking a long look at you.
“You busy?” You asked, brushing your pelvis against his crotch in a way that no one else would’ve noticed. Jax chuckled and pulled back slightly, planting a kiss on your lops as he did so.
“I am, unfortunately, darlin’,” he replied, eyeing the bike and Opie for a second before his gaze returned to you. “You’re coming tonight though, right?”
“Tonight?” You repeated and Jax sighed.
“Gemma’s doing dinner. Remember? Whole gang will be there?”
“Oh! I, uh,” you stumbled, attempting to think up an excuse to get out of having to go.
Most of the girls that surrounded the club would jump at the chance of being anything more than an ‘outlet’ to Jax Teller, and it’s not that you weren’t appreciative of how ‘in demand’ he was to the crow eater that hung around, but you were happy being a free woman and wanted to keep it that way. However, you weren’t in denial of your feelings for Jax either, if anything they were what kept you coming back to him rather than seeking out anyone else. But you just weren’t at that ‘meet and become one of the family’ stage – oh no, at least not when previous experience and knowledge had taught you otherwise.
“Forget it,” Jax surmised, obviously picking up on your reluctance to attend.
“Jax-“
“Look, I’ve done this before, and yeah the chase if usually great, but we’ve been doing this for months now – and if a meal with a bunch of people you already know is enough to make you go running, then maybe it’s time I stopped chasing,” he sighed, looking both fed up and slightly irritated.
“Please don’t make me be the bad guy here,” you begged, already feeling guilty as well as feeling slightly afraid that this would be the last time you would see him.
“I’m not, darlin’. I just can’t understand why you don’t want to take things to the next level. We’ve done the hard bit, the rest should be easy, but you seem to want to make it more difficult than it needs to be – JUST A SEC, OPE!” He called, and Opie nodded.
“I’m…not used to guys wanting to take things to another level, so I usually finish things before they let me down.”
“So why am I different?” Jax asked, placing his hands on your arms.
“What do you mean?” You replied, already knowing what he meant but trying to buy time for an answer.
“Why have you stuck around with me for so long?” He asked, and you thought for a second. It didn’t take long to find the answer, it was there but you had brushed it aside for so long because you had a stronger voice that always reassured you that ‘alone was better.’ “I gotta go help Ope,” he interjected, snapping you out of your inner turmoil for a second. “Come to dinner, see all of us as a family and you will realise why it was worth sticking around with me for so long.” Jax planted a kiss on your forehead before he wandered back off to join Opie.
You left the garage in a daze and while at home, your mind constantly ran over the pros and cons of going against what you had been practicing for so long. Jax definitely had a point, and it had thrown you slightly. All of the other guys had been involved with you for only a little over 2 weeks, or so, but Jax and you had been going on months now – but it had been suiting you both to continue like that for so long, so why change it now?
As confused as you were, you turned up at Gemma’s on time for dinner and hastily rang the doorbell. Tig answered the door and smiled.
“Hiya, Sweetheart,” he said, holding the door open as you entered. “JAX! I OWE YA $20!”
Jax appeared seconds later with a smile on his face, before he stepped up to you, grabbed your face in his hands and kissed you softly for a second, while you relaxed a little into him.
“Don’t worry,” he began, talking low as he stared into your eyes. “I’m not gonna pull out an engagement ring, or anything. It’s just dinner.”
“I mean, if the rock was big enough I could be convinced,” you joked and both of you instantly relaxed before walking to the dining table to join the others.
Gemma greeted you with a kiss and instantly had you helping out to sort out the drinks – a distraction which you gladly accepted.
Standing away from everyone, you looked around the room and saw something familiar from what you had witnessed earlier in the day. The relationship that Jax and Opie had, was one that was shared across all of the people in the room. Everyone genuinely loved each other and cared for each other – something, again, you had been missing your whole life. But that was about to change.
One look at Jax across the room told him that you were ready to take you and him to the next level. You were finally ready to go all in.
