#sober mode

[adrunkemindrecovering]

Yesterday marked two years. Which is insane to me! It seems like so long ago and at the same time just yesterday that I started down my road to recovery. It’s been a roller coaster to say the least, some days felt like it was the end of everything and others I felt like I could move mountains. No day has been the same in the last 2 years. I’ve learned more about myself and how to set boundaries and stand beside them. I refuse to allow anyone or anything to disturb the peace I’ve worked so hard to achieve.

If you’re having any doubts about sobriety, I promise you can do it! You just have to want it. You’re not alone and it is okay to ask for help! We do recover, together!

[adrunkemindrecovering]

I made it through my first super emotional day since I quit drinking. It was a genuine test and the urge was incredible. I just wanted to drink away the feelings. But I didn't. I'm trying so hard and some days hard isn't even the word for it. More like excruciating. But I'm still sober and that's what counts. I hope that I'm making him proud. I hope that I'm the kind of man he'd want around, that he'd be proud to call his grandson. I keep telling myself his pride starts with my success in sobriety and maybe that's to much pressure on myself but I think that's what I need.