"You're an idiot, now I'm sure." - Fives friends to lovers oneshot.
Warnings: Angst and Violence
Listening Recs: That's So True by Gracie Abrams
Word Count: 4.8K
“You’re bluffing.” You say, eyes narrowed, and you spot the bead of sweat making its way down his temple, past his tattoo. The whole place seems stilled for just a moment, the tension between you so tight it could snap, a cable sending you careening down.
It snaps.
“Kriff!” Fives exclaims as he tosses his card on the table. “It’s like you can read my mind.”
Cheers erupt around the table as you claim all the credits in the middle, a smirk tugging at the corners of your mouth.
Fives leans forward, hands palm down on the table. “What number am I thinking of? You have three seconds.”
You lean forward, until you are face to face with him across the table. You’re so close you can smell the wintergreen of his breath. You blink your eyes at him and cock an eyebrow.
“Three.” He says. He swallows, hard.
“Two.” You notice his eyes dart to your lips, so close to his.
“One.” He whispers.
“5.” You say, smirking.
His face goes slack and the table bursts into laughter, Jesse knocking over a drink in the process. You slide back into your seat beside Echo who throws an arm around your shoulder, choking on his laughter.
You love this. The camaraderie. You have such little time with your boys between missions, that nights like these, at 79’s, are only ever topped by nights at your small apartment. You secretly hoped this night would end back there, the boys having a sleepover right on your floor how they so often did.
Echo’s leg brushes yours and he pipes up, eyes levelled at his brother.
“You couldn’t think of a better number than five?”
Fives snorts and rolls his eyes. “It’s literally in the name, what other number could I have picked? Let’s go again, best two out of three.”
Hardcase nudges him with an elbow. “You know why she can read you so well?”
Fives turns to him and gives him a look. “Why, ‘Case?”
Hardcase tears up the paper napkin in front of him, very dramatically, and then tosses the pieces in the air like confetti, sprinkling the table.
“You’re in loooooooove!”
Laughter passes around the booth with groans intermixed. Fives eyes flash to you, panic on his face for just a split second.
Your stomach tightens, twisting, turning. You swallow.
Then he tilts his head back and howls in laughter. Laughing so hard tears stream down his face.
Your face heats. You laugh under your breath, trying to crack a smile.
“In love? With her?” He breathes, wiping tears from his eyes.
Your breath catches.
Echo places a strong hand on your knees and clears his throat. “Hey, now. It’s not that far-fetched. I mean, look at her.”
You know he means well, but the eyes of Torrent company are now all on you, and after that slight, you feel microscopic.
Fives jolts in his seat, suddenly seeming to notice your discomfort.
“I just mean that… you’re… you know. Our girl.”
You nod as the boys all mutter agreements and avoid the slight hurt in your gaze that you try so hard to mask.
“Excuse me.” You say, leaving the table and heading out into the dark night.
So much for a sleepover.
Kriffing Fives.
As you lean yourself up against the durasteel wall outside 79’s you do your best to keep from crying. Had it been anyone else…
Jesse, you’d have laughed along.
Echo, you’d have kissed his cheek jokingly.
Hardcase you’d have thrown something at him.
But Fives?
The hurt in your chest twists like a knife.
He knew.
You knew that deep down he knew how you felt about him. They all did. They had to.
You and Fives were closer than any of the others. You spent the most time together. Caf runs, holo marathons. You’d been there each time he had to be patched up, every time he needed someone to talk to. And he’d been your rock through so many hard things.
Then there was the moments. Hands touching, warmth spreading. Sparks.
Every time the boys were gone you dreamed of them, of their faces. All melding into one in the way clones’ do.
But it always had a tattoo at the temple.
You were best friends. But he just had to know that it was more for you.
But then he went and said that? Laughed at you like that?
“He’s an idiot, now I’m sure.” You hear beside you. Echo. He leans against the wall with you and hands you a drink. You huff out something that almost sounds like a laugh.
“You’re biased.”
“Yeah,” he says easily. “But I’m also right.”
The music from inside 79’s thumps through the walls. You stare out into the neon-lit street.
“I don’t care,” you say quietly.
Echo finally glances at you. “But you do.”
You freeze, then nod. He nudges your shoulder with his.
“He laughed because he panicked.” Echo says, lips an inch away from his glass.
You scoff. “That wasn’t panic. That was… hysteria.”
“Exactly.”
You blink.
Echo continues, voice softer now. “You ever see him when Rex catches us sneaking ration sweets onto the gunship? Same laugh. He does it when he’s scared.”
You swallow.
“That wasn’t scared, Echo. That was embarrassed.”
Echo shakes his head. “No. That was ‘oh kriff everyone can see straight through me and now I don’t know what to do with my hands’.”
You stare down at your drink.
“…you think?”
“I know.”
The hope hurts almost as much as the rejection. Before you can respond to Echo the door to 79’s slams open.
“Move, move out of the way!” Hardcase bursts out first, nearly tripping over the threshold.
“Hardcase, I swear to the Force!” Fives chases after him, flushed and wild eyed. He spots you and stops dead. Hardcase points dramatically at you like he’s delivering a bounty.
“There. Talk. I’m not dying for you two idiots’ unresolved feelings.”
“Hardcase…”
“Nope. I’ve done my duty to the Republic.”
He vanishes back inside. Echo pushes off the wall. “I’m gonna… get another drink,” he says, clearly not needing one. He squeezes your shoulder as he passes. Silent support.
Then you’re alone with him.
Fives shoves his hands in his pockets, takes them out. Crosses his arms, uncrosses them. He looks like he’d rather face a Separatist tank.
“…Hey.”
“Hi.”
Your voice is flat. Controlled. It hurts more than yelling would. He winces.
“About inside…”
“You don’t have to…”
“I do.”
The words come out sharp. You look up. His jaw’s tight.
“I kriffed that up.”
You say nothing. He exhales hard through his nose.
“I wasn’t laughing at you.” He sighs
“It kinda sounded like it.” you retort, the hurt lacing your voice.
“I was laughing at me.” He says quietly.
You frown and he rubs the back of his neck.
“When Hardcase said that… I just…” He huffs. “I didn’t know what to say. Everyone was staring. And if I didn’t laugh I probably would’ve..” He stops himself.
“…would’ve what?”
His eyes flick to yours, then your lips, then away.
“…said something stupid.”
Your heart stutters. “You did say something stupid,” you whisper.
He flinches like you slapped him. “…yeah,” he admits.
There’s a moment of quiet, and the whole city seems to fall to a hush. The universe narrows to just you. Has he always been standing so close to you? You hate this feeling. Things used to be so much easier, before you realized how you felt for him.
You use a fist to punch him in the shoulder, trying to lighten the mood. “Walk me home?” You ask.
He nods and you head into the Coruscant night together. The walk is quiet, but close. He drops you off with a gentle goodbye and you do your best to smile at him as you close the door.
* * * * * *
Days pass and things are… fine. Just fine. All the other boys seem to have forgotten the awkwardness of that night, and you are overcompensating in how you act. You pretend nothing happened. That Fives is nothing to you but a friend. You’re bubbly and open and yourself.
But then Fives pulls you to the side one day. Your heart flutters at the touch of his hand on yours as he guides you away from the group.
“Can I ask you something?” He says, voice soft, serious. You nod, mouth dry.
“Can you read this message? I don’t know whether to send it or not.”
You look down at his comm and your heart drops.
It's a text asking for… a date. Asking someone out. The number at the top of the screen isn’t familiar.
Your eyes widen. You struggle with words. “Yeah. That sounds good.” You say.
Fives is quiet for a second, staring at you. Then he says, “Thanks… I just didn't know if it was good to send or not.”
You smile at him, forced.
“Yeah, wouldn’t wanna sound like an idiot again would you?”
He blinks, confused.
“…yeah,” he says slowly.
But you’re already stepping away before your face betrays you. “I’ve got work to do,” you add and you don’t wait for an answer. You don’t look back. If you look back, you might stay. If you stay, you might cry, and you absolutely refuse to cry in front of him.
The rest of the day is a blur. Just you doing anything that keeps your hands busy. Anything that keeps you from thinking about him and that stupid text.
And her.
Kriff.
You wonder what her laugh sounds like. If she’s pretty. If she’s softer than you. Maybe she’s normal. Maybe that’s what he wants.
Not the girl they call our girl.
Later, the boys pile into the hangar loud as ever, Hardcase arguing with Jesse. Kix yelling about someone skipping med checks. Fives saunters in and suddenly you’re absorbed in your datapad. You don’t look up.
“She said yes!” He says, and you can hear the grin in his voice.
“Great.” you say flatly. There’s an awkward moment.
Fives is never awkward with you. Well he never used to be. Now it seems more and more often that awkwardness lands between you like a grenade. It makes your chest ache. “So, uh… yeah. We’re going out tonight.”
You keep typing and you focus on the numbers. Because numbers don’t hurt.
Numbers don’t fall in love with other girls.
“That’s great, Fives.” You say and finally look up. His brown eyes are big, bigger than usual. Staring into yours. There’s something there, something unsaid. Before you can muster the courage to say something you’ll regret, Echo walks up.
“Are we still meeting at 79’s tomorrow night? I need to wash my civvies if so.” It’s like he could feel the tension across the room and came over to break it. You blink, grateful for the interruption.
“Yeah,” you say quickly, latching onto the normalcy like a lifeline. “Same time. Don’t be late or I’m not saving you a booth.”
“Wouldn’t dream of it,” Echo replies. He studies you for half a second too long. Echo notices everything. The tightness in your jaw. The way you’re not looking at Fives. The way Fives isn’t looking at anything except you.
Fives shifts his weight beside your desk.
“So…,” he says again, softer this time. Like he’s waiting for you to say something.
You don’t.
You just nod once. “Have fun.”
The words taste like rust. He hesitates.
“Yeah. I will.” And he walks away.
You don’t let yourself watch him go. You don’t. You absolutely don’t.
…You do.
Just for a second. Long enough to see him laughing with Jesse, shoving Hardcase’s shoulder, easy and bright. Like he’s not about to take someone else out tonight. Like he doesn’t carry your favorite caf order in his head. Like he doesn’t knock on your door when nightmares get bad.
You look back down at the datapad so fast the screen blurs.
Numbers.
Just focus on the numbers, you tell yourself.
But only one comes to mind.
* * * * *
79’s is tense. Nothing about the familiar walls, the lights, the music can tame the thudding in your chest. You haven’t seen Fives since he told you he had secured a date with that mystery girl. But he’s going to be here, tonight, and you just know he’s going to talk all about it with his brothers.
With you, too.
You steel your heart. Focus on Echo, your other best friend. He’ll be stoic, your rock. He knows how you feel, how this will make you feel. He’ll protect you from the worst of it.
You’re dressed up. You wanted to feel alive, special, like someone that someone would want. You’d resolved that if someone wanted to pick you up tonight, you might actually let them. Normally the brothers chase off anyone who comes near to you, but you’ll brush them off tonight.
You just want to feel wanted.
The boys filter in as you finish your first drink. Echo first, sliding into the large booth beside you, a few others after him.
Then, it’s like the air is pulled from the room when you spot him by the door. In a brown leather jacket, black shirt beneath, dark jeans. Hair neatly laid back, but somehow tousled. It’s like you can smell the whiskey and wintergreen from here.
Then you see her.
His hand is on her lower back, guiding her in. She’s… beautiful. Everything you’re insecure about, everything you lack, she has. She beams in the dim light of the bar.
You can’t breathe.
He walks her up to your booth and the two of them slide in. He introduces her and the boys all smile and play nice. You smile kindly at her, pretending you aren’t falling apart at the seams. Echo places a hand on your leg and squeezes, letting you know he’s there. It’s grounding.
You study her as the boys playfully interrogate her. She’s calm, collected. Dazzling smile, charming responses.
She’s cool. The definition of popular.
You hate her so much.
The boys love her, they’re eating out of the palm of her hand. Except Echo. He looks at her skeptically.
“So how’d you two meet?” He asks.
They look at each other grinning. “Few days ago at another bar. He’s lucky he’s cute, he was so drunk when he asked for my number. Then we went out yesterday.” She says flippantly.
“Where’d you go?” You ask, the question startling even you.
“Some little cafe he likes. What was it again?”
Fives looks at you, guilt on every line of his face. “Courts Cafe.”
Your heart drops. Thats… thats your place. Yours and his. Thats where you first went when the friendship was starting, and the place you’ve gone every time you wanted caf or a moment alone since. He took her there?
You plaster a grin on your face, desperately trying to make your eyes light up, “Love that place.” You say. The girl places a hand on Fives arm. She laughs. Then she perks up.
“Oh! My friends are here finally. Let me go grab them, I’ll pop to the fresher and be right back.” She says, and she squeezes Fives’ arm as she goes. You watch her leave, joining two other equally beautiful girls and heading to the fresher across the way.
Hardcase doesn’t even wait until she’s out of earshot. The second the fresher door swings shut behind her and her friends, he leans back in the booth like he’s been physically holding it in.
“Well?” he blurts, too loud already. “You tap that yet?”
The table erupts.
Jesse chokes on his drink. Kix smacks Hardcase upside the head. Tup mutters, “Stars, have some tact,” but he’s laughing too.
Fives groans. “Shut up, you idiot.”
“What?” Hardcase shrugs, unapologetic. “It’s been, what… two whole days? That’s basically a lifetime for you.”
“That is not…” Fives rubs his temples. “That’s not how that works.”
“Oh please,” Jesse cuts in. “You brought her here. That’s serious territory.”
“Yeah,” Hardcase adds, waggling his brows. “You don’t bring just anyone to meet us. That’s practically a marriage proposal. Or at least a ‘boots under the bunk’ situation.”
“Hardcase,” Echo warns.
But it’s too late. They’re piling on now.
“So where’d you even disappear to last night?” Jesse asks.
“Barracks were real quiet,” Kix says.
“Too quiet,” Hardcase echoes dramatically. “Suspiciously quiet.”
Fives’ ears are red. Bright red.
“You’re all kriffing children.”
Hardcase leans across the table. “So that’s a yes…”
“No!”
The word comes out sharp enough that a couple heads turn. Silence hangs for half a second. Your throat is so tight you can’t swallow.
“Excuse me.” You say and slide out of the booth, heading to the fresher. You need to run your hands under some cool water to stop them from shaking.
“Way to go, vod.” Echo says as you leave.
The door swings shut behind you with a dull hiss.
Instantly it’s quieter in here. Muffled bass from the bar. Running water. Fluorescent lights that buzz faintly overhead. You grip the edge of the sink and twist the handle, cold water rushes over your fingers.
They’re shaking.
You brace both hands under the stream, letting the chill bite into your skin, trying to ground yourself. Trying to breathe. You stare at your reflection. You look… wrecked.
Pathetic.
“He’s so stupid. Like really.”
You freeze.
Water keeps running over your knuckles.
The voice comes from the corner near the floor-length mirror.
Her.
She’s standing with her two friends, lipstick out, reapplying like she’s in some holo drama. One of them is fixing her curls. The other is scrolling her datapad. They haven’t noticed you yet.
“Like dense,” she continues, laughing under her breath. “Can’t hold a conversation to save his life.”
Your stomach drops.
“I think all those clones are probably that way.”
Her friend snorts. “Seriously? They’re kinda just… grown soldiers, right? Like lab experiments.”
“Exactly,” she says. “It’s weird. He kept talking about his brothers. All of them together all the time? It’s codependent as hell.”
Your jaw tightens.
Brothers.
She says it like it’s something dirty, like it’s something to mock.
“I swear,” she goes on, popping her gum, “I had to carry the whole date. I’d ask him something and he’d just stare at me for a second like his brain had to reboot.”
They laugh.
“And the café?” her friend asks. “Was it cute at least?”
She rolls her eyes. “It was fine. Total hole-in-the-wall. He acted like it was some big sentimental thing.” She makes a gagging noise. “Men are so dramatic.”
Your chest aches.
Courts.
The little table by the window. The first time Fives bought you caf because you’d skipped lunch. The way he’d pretended not to watch you smile. The way he’d tapped his fingers when he was nervous. Sentimental because it mattered.
Because you mattered.
“And stars,” she says, lowering her voice conspiratorially, “he’s not even that hot up close.”
Your head snaps up.
Her friend shrugs. “So why’re you here with him?”
She laughs. “Free drinks. His friends are cute.Isn’t that weird? They’re all the same, but different. Anyways, figured I’d see if any of them are upgrades.”
Upgrades.
Something inside you twists hard and ugly.
“And if not,” she adds, checking her reflection, “I’ll ditch him. It’s not like he’s gonna get it anyway. Sweet, but dumb.”
Your hands are trembling so hard the water splashes onto the counter. You shut it off too fast. The pipes squeal. They finally notice you. Three sets of eyes flick your way. They look you up and down.
“Oh,” she says lightly, like you’re an inconvenience. “Didn’t see you there.” You swallow. Your throat burns.Your hands shake.
Not from nerves anymore, from rage. Rage sharp enough it feels like it’s cutting through your ribs. She’s still smirking at you like this is funny. Like he’s some dumb story to tell her friends later.
“Shut up.” You say.
Hey eyebrows raise. “You his little guard dog or something?” she says, popping her gum.
You don’t even think.
“No,” you say, voice low and steady. “I’m someone who doesn’t let people talk about good men like they’re trash.” Her friends exchange a look. She just laughs.
“Good men?” she repeats. “Honey, he’s a clone. He’s government property.”
Something inside you snaps.
“He’s a person,” you bite out.
She rolls her eyes. “Relax. It’s not that deep.”
“He treated you like you mattered,” you say. “He brought you to meet his brothers. He took you somewhere important to him. And you come in here and call him stupid?”
She shrugs. “Because he is.”
Your vision tunnels.
“He can barely string two sentences together without looking confused. All those clones are the same. Bred to shoot things, not think.”
Your hands ball into fists.
“You don’t know anything about them.”
“I know enough,” she scoffs. “He stared at me like a kicked tooka every time I teased him. It was kinda sad. I almost felt bad.”
Teased.
You picture her laughing at him across that café table. Picture him rubbing the back of his neck, embarrassed, trying anyway. Your chest aches.
“He deserves better than you,” you say quietly.
Her smile drops a fraction.
“Excuse me?”
“He’s smarter than anyone in that bar. Kinder too. And you’re in here using him for free drinks and scouting his friends like they’re upgrades?”
Her friends go quiet.
She flushes. “Wow. You’re way too invested. That’s actually pathetic.”
“Pathetic?” You step closer. “You’re mocking someone who’d take a blaster bolt for people he met five minutes ago.”
She snorts. “Yeah, yeah. That’s all he’s worth. God, you clones groupies are all the same. Acting like they’re real men. Newsflash? They’re lab-grown. Replaceable.”
Replaceable.
You don’t even feel yourself move. Your hand just…swings.
CRACK.
The sound echoes off tile and mirror. Her head snaps to the side. Everyone freezes, even you. Your palm stings. Her lip splits a little. For half a second, there’s complete silence.
Then, “You crazy bitch!” she screams, lunging. She shoves you hard. You stumble back into the sink, metal biting into your hip. She grabs your shirt, nails catching fabric, and you grab hers back on instinct. Years of breaking up trooper scuffles kick in automatically.
She swings wild. Her fist glances off your shoulder. You shove her away and she slams into the paper towel dispenser, plastic cracking. Her friend yelps and runs out the door, hollering for help. She comes at you again, shrieking now, mascara already smudging.
“You don’t get to hit me!”
“You don’t get to talk about him like that!” you shout back.
She claws for your hair. You catch her wrist and twist like you’ve seen Rex do a hundred times. She gasps and tries to knee you. You both crash into the counter, knocking over soap and water everywhere. She finally lands one across your cheek. Your head snaps sideways.
Your ears ring and somehow that just makes you angrier.
“Say it again,” you snarl. “Call him stupid again. I dare you.”
She falters, because she can see it in your eyes, you mean it.
The door swings open.
“What the kriff is going…”
Fives.
And behind him, Echo and Kix.
They freeze at the scene.
Water everywhere. Paper towels torn apart. You and her gripping each other’s shirts like animals.
Fives moves first. You think he’s going to go for her, baby her, take care of her as she sits on her ass bleeding from the nose, the lip.
He grabs your waist and hauls you back effortlessly.
Kix pulls the girl the other way while she screeches about assault charges and psychos.
You’re still breathing hard. Chest heaving.
Fives’ arms are tight around you, solid and grounding and searing your skin.
“Hey,” he murmurs in your ear. “You’re okay. I got you.”
Your cheek throbs. Your knuckles ache.
Across the room, she points at you. “She attacked me!”
You laugh once. Sharp. Humorless. “Maybe don’t call war heroes brain-dead experiments next time.”
Her friends go quiet. Real quiet. Because suddenly it doesn’t sound funny anymore.
Fives squeezes your shoulders.
“You good?” he asks softly.
You nod but your eyes burn. He leads you out of the fresher and into the night as Kix stays behind to patch up the girl and talk her out of pressing charges.
The bass from the bar thumps through the walls as the door swings shut behind you. Cold night air hits your face like a slap. Your heart is still racing. Cheek stinging.
Adrenaline hasn’t burned off yet and your whole body feels like a live wire.Fives doesn’t let go of you. His hand stays firm on your shoulders, guiding you down the narrow side alley beside 79’s, away from the door, away from prying eyes.
“Easy,” he murmurs. “Watch the step.”
You step down off the curb automatically. This feels so much like the other night, the one where he made fun of the idea of being with you. You, leaving the booth in such a rush, you standing out here in the silence, you and him here with the galaxy between you.
The alley’s dim. One flickering yellow light overhead. You’re shaking. He finally turns you to face him.
“Let me see.”
“I’m fine,” you say too fast.
“You’re not fine.”
His hands come up gentle, thumb brushing your cheek where she hit you.
You hiss an he goes still, jaw tightening.
“Stars,” he mutters. “She got you good.”
“It’s nothing.”
“It’s not.”
His voice is soft but fierce. Protective in that way that makes your chest hurt. You can’t look at him, because if you do, you might cry.
“I’m sorry,” he says suddenly.
“You didn’t have to walk me out,” you mumble. “You should… go back in. Your date’s probably…”
“She’s not my date.”
The words are immediate. You finally look up. He looks distraught. Guilt written all over his face. He runs a hand through his hair, pacing once, boots scraping concrete.
“Kriff,” he mutters under his breath. “I’m an idiot.”
You let out a weak laugh.
“No, I mean it. I’m a full-on, regulation-issue moron.” He rubs his face. “I didn’t even like her.”
You blink.
“… what?”
“I met her at a bar. She laughed at my jokes. That was it.” He shakes his head. "I never liked her."
“Then why bring her here?” you ask, before you can stop yourself. The question slips out raw. Honest. It hangs between you.
He exhales slow and won’t meet your eyes.
“… Because of you.”
Your heart stutters. “What?”
He finally looks at you.. and he looks scared, like this is worse than any battlefield confession.
“I thought…” He swallows. “I thought maybe if you saw me with someone else, you’d… I dunno… react.”
You just stare.
“I thought maybe you’d get jealous,” he says softly. “Maybe you’d finally see me.”
The world tilts. You shake your head to clear it.
“I’m tired, mesh’la,” he says, voice rough. “Tired of pretending I’m cool just being your friend. Tired of watching you smile at everyone like they get the same version of you I do.”
You can’t breathe.
“I figured… maybe if you thought I was moving on, you’d stop me.”
He laughs once, bitter at himself. “Real smart plan, huh?”
“You brought her… to our place,” you whisper.
“I know.”
“That café…”
“I know,” he says again, sharper. “Stars, I know. The second I said it out loud tonight I wanted to punch myself.”
His hands flex at his sides.
“I was being petty. Stupid. I just… I didn’t know what else to do.”
You feel like your heart’s cracking open.
“All this time,” he says quietly, “I’m thinking maybe you don’t want me like that. Maybe I’m just your vod. So I tried to prove I didn’t care. I laughed you off the other night, when all I could think about was kissing you minutes earlier.”
He laughs weakly. Your eyes burn again.
“You’re such an idiot,” you whisper.
“I know.”
“You absolute, kriffing idiot.”
“I know.”
“You brought a girl you didn’t even like just to make me jealous?” You shove his shoulder.
“Do you have any idea how much that hurt?” You ask quietly.
“Yeah,” he says softly. “I saw your face. Felt like I got shot.”
Your voice wobbles.
“She was in there calling you stupid. Saying you’re replaceable. Laughing at you.”
His brow furrows. “She…”
“You deserve someone who actually sees you,” you say.
His eyes lock on yours.
“I only ever wanted that to be you.” He says.
You gaze up into his eyes, and see stars there. You look down at his mouth. You lean forward.
Stars. Sparks. Everything you’ve ever wanted.
You kiss. Lips melding, hands reaching.
You wince as the split in your lip reopens, you laugh lightly as you pull back.
“My girl.” He says, hand brushing the blood from your lip, hand tangling in your hair.
His girl.
Always.
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"I could go and read your mind
Think about your dumb face all the time
Living in your glass house, I'm outside, uh
Looking into big blue eyes
Did it just to hurt me and make me cry
Smiling through it all, yeah, that's my life
You're an idiot, now I'm sure
Now I'm positive I should go and warn her
I'll put up a fight, taking out my earrings
Don't you know the vibe? Don't you know the feeling?
You should spend the night, catch me on your ceiling
That's your prize, that's your price, well"
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Word Count: 11k words
Chapter Warnings: War, Battles, Violence.
Chapt
Summary: Fives sits with Echo while he grieves lost brothers.
Fives wakes up in the middle of his sleep cycle to the sound of the barrack’s door sliding open and closed. He glances at his chrono. There isn’t a shift change for another two hours. He leans over the side of his bed to look down at Echo’s lower bunk. Empty.
Worried, Fives kicks off his blankets, drops to the floor, and makes his way out of the barracks as quietly as his sleep addled brain will allow.
Fives can’t help but marvel at how quickly the destruction of the battle has been cleaned up. There are still major repairs that need to be done to the outside of the city; however, the halls, which only a few hours earlier were stained in the blood of their brothers, are back to their pristine, sterile white. Like nothing even happened, like lives weren’t lost. Swept away like a bad mark on a record.
If it had been natborns killed on their home planet…
Thinking like that doesn’t help or change anything, so Fives pushes it to the back of his mind, putting his focus on finding his batch mate. Echo doesn’t usually go off on his own, and certainly not in the middle of the night when he doesn’t have a shift of some sort. So, Fives wanders on hastened steps, checking down each hall he passes.
He ends up at their old training room, the door’s lock unactivated. He goes inside.
Echo sits on one of the benches along the far wall. He is leaning forward, elbows propped on his knees, hands knotted together in tight fists, head bowed. Fives sits down next to him but doesn’t say anything. Echo doesn’t move, absolutely still. Fives sits back against the wall, eyes taking in the familiar room shrouded in darkness, the only light coming from the safety lamps dimly illuminating the floor.
After several long minutes, when Echo still hasn’t moved or acknowledged him, Fives asks, “Are you alright?”
Echo’s head turns slightly. “I should be.”
“On who’s orders?” Fives leans forward, mirroring Echo, so that they are shoulder to shoulder. He nudges him. “Is it about Ninety-Nine?”
“It’s about all of it,” Echo growls. “It’s about every sacrifice we make for the Republic. I know what I said to Rex and Cody, but…it’s not fair. And I know that life isn’t fair, and never will be — but I’m tired of watching our brothers being used as cannon fodder.”
Fives reaches over and tugs on Echo’s wrist until Echo gives him his hand. Fives grips it painfully tight. “You can’t think like that, Echo. Our brothers deserve to be remembered for the heroes they were, for the lives they saved. Ninety-Nine died exactly where he wanted to be…on the front lines serving with his brothers. And we were there for it, Echo, we got to fight alongside him.”
Echo grips back. “I know,” he whispers.
“He’d be proud of us,” Fives goes on, “becoming ARCs. Domino Squad too. After they got over the shock, that is.”
A ghost of a smile trembles on Echo’s lips. “You didn’t seem surprised today, when they told us about our promotions.”
“I’ve always known we’d make ARCs someday,” Fives says.
“You could’ve let me in on the secret.”
Fives chuckles. “And ruin the surprise? I wouldn’t deprive you of that.”
“I miss them, Fives.” Echo’s voice breaks on the syllable of Fives’ name.
Fives wraps an arm around Echo’s shoulders, holding tight. “I know. I miss them too.”
And that’s when Echo finally begins to cry.
END
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Self-indulgent fic inspired by almost having an anxiety attack at work.
TW: angst, hurt/comfort, some description of injuries, anxiety/panic attack
Words: 2.2k
Note: cursive= reader’s thoughts
If it seems chaotic, good, that was on purpose
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To say the mission wasn’t going as planned was an understatement.
To start off, your transport was shot down, landing you way too off course from the objective, too close to the enemy. The clanking of droids could be heard from where you were, of course if anything could be heard over the screaming of troopers injured and still trapped within the burning vessel, shots being fired, and commands screamed by the ARC troopers. You had to act quickly if you were to save any of the trapped men- the ship could explode any minute now, fire being way too close to the fuel tanks.
“Jesse, head count! Fives, take a couple men and help those inside once I get it open! Rest- covering fire!” You screamed the orders as you cut some of the metal parts with the lightsaber. It took all your focus to lift and hold them so that the whole structure wouldn’t collapse, making a way for the others to get inside and take out as many men as possible. They were doing it too slowly, the fire swallowing each part of the ship faster and faster, surrounding you in waves of smoke. The intensifying sounds of blasters and yelling were of no help.
“General, everyone’s out!” Fives screamed while dragging out the last now unconscious trooper. Just as they stepped out, you let the parts of the ship fall. You haven’t even realized how much smoke you inhaled, too busy Normally you would have needed a moment to stabilize yourself again after this much forced focus but now there was no time. Your men were screaming status reports through the comms, informing that the enemy battalion is approaching fast. There was not enough time for everything that needed to be done.
“Kix, get the wounded to the back, see if you can find some cover and call for extraction!” you looked towards the medic, he nodded, letting you know he heard the order. He proceeded to call some men and give orders; you could come back to the current situation.
“Okay, okay.” You whispered to yourself.” Status report!”
“Three units are closing in from North, another five are two clicks from here, east!” someone responded.
That was not good. Not good at all.
You looked around frantically, quickly thinking of a plan. Your squad was small, the mission was supposed to be focusing on infiltration, not direct combat. Now that around fourth of your men were either wounded or taking care of the wounded, there was no way you’d be able to slip through to the target location.
It was questionable if you’d even make it out alive at this point.
You were looking around frantically, trying to finally assess where you were and if there were any advantages to the terrain. Kix almost had everyone behind a huge rock formation looking like a basin, enough place to land another small ship. They were covered from the sight. To the sides were small hills, with more rocks that you’d need to climb. The path to the left was open but there was a river flowing there, from the looks of it the current was quite strong. The droid units were closing in on you at the front and you could already spot the first ones on the rocky hills to the right.
Constantly looking to the sides, you were trying to quickly come up with a plan. Your mind was working full speed.
“General, give orders!” your commlink echoed and brought you back to reality.
You had no idea. It was all too fast, too much. If you just had some more time to breathe, if only you could stop for a moment.
You started to feel a tightness in your chest, as if a weight to settling in and growing with each minute. No, no, no, not now.
“Jesse, take the best men and try to get across the river, go forward with the mission and get to the target point. Fives, you and the rest stay here with me and charge, we need to redirect the clankers away from the wounded and we need to get away from the ship!” your voice sounded surprisingly steady, but you could feel your head spinning.
A deep breath was all you could allow yourself to do before you had to move out.
In the meantime, Fives was glancing at you every now and then between blasting the nearest droids, knowing what’s going on. He’s seen it too many times with soldiers, either at the battlefield or after the battle. Your movements were to hectic, too unfocused as you led the men forward. He could see that your hand trembled lightly as you reached for the lightsaber, steadying it by grabbing the hilt with another hand. Everyone followed suit and went forward while Jesse and three other men split from the group and went to the commanded direction.
Just as everyone moved away, the ship exploded, sending some troopers to the ground. As you were able to focus only on one thing at once- in this case to go forward and take the attack head-on, you were completely unprepared for the explosion. The wave pushed your body forward and you lost your balance but before you landed on the ground, a strong hand gripped your arm and pulled you back to your feet in one swift motion. His presence, as much as you were physically unable to pay attention to any more things, was more calming than stressful.
You glanced back quickly, Fives now standing behind you and shooting the droids from behind you. His calmness gave you a bit of strength to further suppress that heaviness in your chest and try to take longer breaths instead of the shallow breathing.
Just a bit longer, I can manage that.
“General, we’re behind the enemy lines, should be proceed to the target or attack?”
“General, the evac is on the way, but we’re losing Havoc!”
“We don’t have a lot of ammo left; someone go forward!”
So many voices and commands and requests. And the droids were no helping with collecting your thoughts. You just prayed you’d still be able to deflect the shots and not get hurt because of the distraction.
“Jesse, forward. Kix, I will try to reach you, just give me a moment! I… well, then…”
Your voice was breaking at the last sentence. And it took all your willpower to fight your body to move as you slashed through the droids in the first lines.
Before you could collect yourself enough to give the command, you heard Fives over the comms.
“Thermal detonators, rotary two and seven, forward!”
The troopers stepped forward, firing at the unit, and taking down a huge part of it with the detonators. Now the decision was yours, either stay and help here or run back and save Havoc. Meanwhile, you had to constantly look around you to make sure none of the droids you were now in between could shoot you. Slowly, you made your way back to your men, automatically looking for Fives. His presence was grounding, even if it was decreasing the stress level by a little bit.
He nodded to you, at least it seemed like nodding considering he had his helmet on and tilted his head slightly to direct you to the back, where Kix and the wounded were. You didn’t question, trusting him, and just sped to reach the soldiers as soon as possible.
“Alright boys, till the general is back, we have to hold the position by ourselves. That’ll be fun.” His light comment didn’t ease you one bit, you knew exactly how the situation looked like and you were all desperate at this point.
You reached Kix fast, not even feeling the small rubble hitting you as the heavier canons split the ground and hills around you and made the rocks scatter in pieces. The men were laying on the ground, the medic kneeling beside one of them and just applying another bacta patch to his injuries.
It looked bad. Really bad. Havoc’s top of the armor as well as blacks were removed to show a horrible burn and a metal rod piercing his shoulder just between where the plastoid would be. There was a lot of blood.
You quickly kneeled next to Kix and closed your eyes, trying to focus and use the Force to sense what exactly needed to be done. But whatever you did, the constant shots, the screaming of a shot soldier, troops shouting and Kix telling you something that you couldn’t quite hear, all of that made it impossible. And the more you were realizing you may not be able to do it, the harder you tried to calm your racing nerves.
Come on, come on, you can do it.
But you couldn’t. The heaviness was now fully pulling your body down, your mind tried to split itself in so many different directions you couldn’t handle all of them. But if you didn’t, Havoc could die.
Your hands started shaking and despite knowing fully well that it was a fool’s errand, you tried to shut everything out. The Force was with you, you knew it, but you weren’t strong enough to direct it in the right way.
It was impossible. No, no, but you had to. You started to panic and your mind was now unable to stop, racing down the spiral.
You had no idea how much time has passed when someone grabbed your arm and lifted you from the ground, you opened your eyes and stumbled as the hand on your lower back guided you towards the open evac ship. When did it even arrive? Confused, you looked to the side and saw it was Fives guiding you in, almost all of the troopers were now on deck, the last of the wounded being taken inside as you stepped in. The doors closed and soon enough the clanking and all the sounds of battle were left behind.
You managed to reach the furthest corner of the ship to hide before your legs gave up on you. You dropped to your knees, trying to catch your breath, to just take control of your head but it was too late. Tears started to go down your face as you clutched the robe right over your heart, desperate for air. The adrenaline you were running on was gone so now it hit you all at once. Resting your head on the cold metal of the ship, you leaned on your arm placed above your head. Your whole body felt empty but so so heavy.
The appearance of a calming presence settling over you and helped you to deepen your breathing a bit, catching a bit more air.
“It’s alright.” Fives whispered to you softly as his arm went around your shoulder, slowly and delicately guiding you away from the wall and into his arms. His helmet was laying on the ground. You could feel his warm breath on the back of your head as you buried your head in between his neck and the plastoid armor, small sobs finally escaping you and allowing to gasp for air frantically. He was rubbing soothing circles on your back. Your body leaned forward, seeking warmth and comfort and Fives was holding you close as the sobs were shaking your body, being the support you needed.
“You did so well, cya’rika. We’re all okay.” He whispered to your ear and kissed your temple before his hand was put softly on the back of your head. He hugged you tighter, the protective gesture making your small frame disappear in his embrace.
You felt so vulnerable. Being a Jedi meant never losing your cool and be able to handle any situation put before you, no matter how hard or stressful. And yet here you were, struggling to control your sobs and not able to even heal your own solider due to stress.
Pathetic.
“Can you stand up?” Fives asked quietly after a while when the sobbing calmed down a bit. Nodding, you collected yourself and tried to lift yourself up, but your legs felt like jelly. Feeling that, the clone quickly adjusted his hold on you and put his arm around your waist, lifting you up a bit and then supporting you.
“Breathe with me, okay?”, you nodded again and focused just on what Fives was telling you to do, following his actions. He never let go of your waist as you did breathing exercises together for a moment, just until you were breathing normally again.
“I thought I was stronger than this.” Your quiet voice was barely audible in the sounds of the engine, but Fives caught that. He brushed some loose strands of hair from your face and swiftly put his hand on the back of your neck. He pressed his forehead to yours, closing his eyes, prompting you to close yours too. This felt oddly calming and reassuring, the intimacy of the moment brushing off all the worries and overthinking going in your head. Even combating the exhaustion after being completely overwhelmed by emotions and tiring yourself out. It felt right.
“You’re strong. But you’re also human and have all the rights to feel overwhelmed, okay? You’re never alone in this, let me carry some of the pressure, cya’rika.”
Reputations | Fives x Reader
Friends to lovers • taken but yearning • slow burn tension • soft regrets
You're spoken for. At least, that's what everyone thinks.
But it's hard to keep pretending when he's always there—
and the way he looks at you like you’re the only one in the galaxy.
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Clone Wars era | reader-insert | angst, banter, and emotional confusion | featuring just a little too much Fives - eventual smut but it's a slow burn so.
Chapter 1: Gorgeous
“Still nothing?”
The bluish glow of the holo-call reflects off Kylei’s face, her features drawn tight with concern. It only makes the pit in your stomach worse.
“Nothing,” you say, voice flat, trying not to let it shake. “I’m sure he’s just… busy.”
Kylei scoffs, loud and ungraceful. “It’s been a month. No comms. No holos. Nothing but radio silence. Babe, I think it’s time to call it.”
You shift on your couch, curling your feet under you and hugging a throw pillow to your chest like it might keep your insides from crumbling. “He wouldn’t just ghost me. Something must be going on.”
Rylan, your boyfriend of nearly a year, was stationed on Alderaan three months ago. At first, the distance hadn’t seemed so bad. You kept in touch—daily comms, sappy holos, little messages between his briefings. Then the calls slowed… and stopped altogether. Two weeks ago, you’d even commed his base commander in a moment of desperation.
“Currently in a meeting,” the officer had told you curtly. “But I’ll let him know you reached out.”
Still nothing.
Now Kylei’s looking at you like you’re breaking in real time. Maybe you are.
“Do you think I did something wrong?” you whisper, more to yourself than her.
“I’m coming over.”
“No!” You sit up straight, stopping her with a raised hand. “I have work in an hour. I’ll be fine. I need to get ready anyway.”
Kylei doesn’t look convinced, but she backs off. “We’re going out tonight. That’s an order.”
You salute with a sad smile. “Yes, General.”
She returns the gesture with a mock scowl and flicks off the holo. The light disappears, and so does the illusion of comfort. You stare at your comm unit one more time out of habit, even though you already know—he hasn’t reached out.
A sigh escapes your lips as you stand and get ready. Pressed uniform greys, hair up, expression neutral. You're good at that. Holding it together. Pretending. You take one last look in the mirror before stepping out the door and heading to GAR Headquarters.
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The mood inside is different—familiar and comforting in a way your apartment no longer is. It’s not cold or sterile like some parts of Coruscant. Here, the headquarters buzzes with organized chaos. Voices carry, boots echo, datapads hum with quiet life. This is where you feel useful. This is where you belong.
You cradle a stack of datapads against your chest as you make your way to the main briefing room. Another long day of mission simulations and risk assessments. As a strategist for the Grand Army of the Republic, it’s your job to think ahead—to see threats before they happen and make sure others don’t have to feel the kind of helplessness you’re feeling now.
You work with various units, but lately you've been split between the 212th and the 501st. The difference is stark. The 212th is precise, professional—quiet, even. The 501st? They’re chaos and camaraderie and charm wrapped up in scuffed armor. And in the case of one ARC trooper in particular—dangerously charming.
You settle in at the round table just as the doors hiss open.
“Morning,” Captain Rex says with a curt nod.
“Morning,” Echo adds with a warmer smile.
You return it. “Good to see you both. Aren’t we missing—”
The door whooshes open again. “Sorry, sorry! I’m here!”
Fives.
He moves like he’s got a sunbeam trapped behind his ribs—fast and bright and impossible not to look at. He grins at you, all teeth and dimples, and your stomach does that awful fluttering thing it always does when he’s around.
You give him a quick nod, hoping your face doesn’t betray you. He slides into the seat beside you like it’s his second home.
It kind of is. You’ve noticed that. No matter how early he arrives or how late he’s running, he always ends up in that chair. Next to you.
Six months ago, Fives and Echo joined these briefings after being promoted to ARC troopers. In that time, they’ve become more than colleagues. You’d like to think they’re your friends. Fives especially. You’ve shared late-night caf during long campaign planning sessions, exchanged glances that lingered just a moment too long, laughed over inside jokes that neither of you bothered explaining to the others.
But he’s never crossed a line.
He flirts—but only in the way that Fives flirts with everyone. Teasing. Playful. Safe.
Sometimes you catch him watching you when he thinks you’re not looking. And sometimes—when you're feeling especially foolish—you let yourself wish he would cross that line. If things were different… if you weren’t technically taken…
You shift in your seat and force your attention back to the mission reports. Focus. Breathe. Be professional.
But beside you, Fives leans back in his chair with that signature smirk, nudges your boot lightly under the table, and says, “Hey, Gorgeous. You ready to tear these numbers apart?”
Your heart does a little lurch.
“Born ready,” you say, and try not to sound breathless.
Because the truth is—no matter how badly things are falling apart with Rylan, no matter how long the silence stretches, you aren’t ready.
Not for what it might mean to let go.
And not for what it might mean if you don’t.
The briefing flies by in a blur of tactical reports and holomaps, the minutes slipping through your fingers faster than you realize. When you finally glance up from the datapad in front of you, the session is wrapping and the three troopers are already on their feet.
Rex thanks you with a nod, already deep in conversation with Echo about flank positioning. Echo offers you another quick smile before trailing after him, his voice disappearing down the hall.
But Fives lingers.
He doesn’t rush. He never does with you.
“Hey,” he says, stepping closer, voice low and easy. “I know I’ve asked before, but I’m not giving up on getting you out of this office at least once. Come out with me and the boys tonight.”
There it is—that grin again. The one that makes your pulse skip like a scratched holo-track. You nearly blush, caught off guard by the invitation and the casual way he leans on the edge of the table like he belongs there.
“I… actually have plans tonight,” you manage.
He groans dramatically, throwing his head back with a grin. “Yeah—with me. Or us, rather.” His hand gestures vaguely, as if the whole battalion is included in this mythical night out. “Come on, please. One night. If not tonight, then just say you’ll come out with us sometime. We’re well-behaved, I promise. Mostly.”
You chuckle despite yourself. “Okay, Fives. I promise. Just… not tonight.”
He studies you for a beat, like he’s trying to decide whether you mean it. Whether you’re really busy… or dodging him.
“Rylan in town?” he asks, and the question comes too casual to be innocent.
You hesitate just long enough for it to show.
“I still haven’t had the pleasure of meeting him,” he adds with a smirk, crossing his arms over his chest.
You look down at the datapad you’ve already shut off. “No, not tonight. Just going out with a friend—Kylei. I think you’ve met her?”
The smirk fades just a little. Fives nods, slower this time. “Yeah. Gotcha.”
Something unreadable flickers behind his eyes before he schools his expression back into something breezy. “Well… guess we’ll try again some other time.”
You offer a soft smile. “I’m holding you to that ‘well-behaved’ part.”
Fives lets out a laugh, light and low, and gives you a mock salute as he backs toward the door.
“With me? Always.”
Then he’s gone, striding out of the room with the kind of effortless confidence that makes your heart ache and your stomach twist in ways you wish it wouldn’t.
You’re left standing there, the room quieter than before, like the air shifted the moment he walked out.
And maybe it did.
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Kylei is a bombshell. Always has been, always will be. She struts through your hallway in a sparkling silver dress that barely reaches mid-thigh, catching the light with every step like a walking disco ball.
Meanwhile, you’re holding up a navy wrap dress in front of your body, already feeling overdressed—and underconfident.
Kylei takes one look and groans. “Ugh, no. Absolutely not.”
Before you can protest, she’s barging into your room and yanking open your closet doors like she owns the place.
“Kylei—”
She ignores you, flipping through hangers with ruthless efficiency. “You have good taste, you just don’t use it.” Her fingers pause on a slinky black number tucked way in the back.
She pulls it out with a victorious gasp. “This. This is the one.”
“No way,” you say instantly, shaking your head. “That’s not a bar dress, that’s a... regret dress.”
“That’s a show him what he lost dress,” Kylei says, tossing it onto the bed. “You’re wearing it.”
You hesitate. You’d never even worn it around Rylan. It had felt too bold, too loud. Too much.
But maybe that’s what tonight calls for. Something louder than the ache in your chest. Something bolder than the silence he left behind.
Lips pressed in a tight line, you slide into the dress. The fabric clings in all the right places. It’s daring. It’s sleek. It’s a version of you you’ve only ever imagined being.
Heels come next—wobbly, but they match—and Kylei gets to work on your hair. She fluffs and pins and smooths until she steps back with a proud grin.
“There she is,” she whispers like unveiling a masterpiece. “Now let’s go.”
You hesitate again. “Where are we even going?”
“Just a bar-club hybrid I heard about from a friend. You’ll like it,” she says, already halfway to the door. “Trust me.”
You arrive outside of the club a short speeder ride later. The building pulses with sound, neon lights flickering across the dark street. A glowing teal sign hums above the door:
79’s
Something about the name tugs at your memory.
You frown. “Wait… 79’s. That sounds—”
“C’mon!” Kylei grabs your wrist and yanks you toward the entrance. “I need a drink, and so do you.”
You barely have time to protest before the doors slide open and the music swallows you whole.
The inside is a sensory overload. Lights flash in rhythmic waves across the room. A DJ spins a mix of upbeat tracks over heavy bass, and the scent of spicewine and fried food clings to the air. The place is packed—and not with the usual Coruscanti nightlife crowd.
Clones. Everywhere.
Some in civvies, others half-dressed in off-duty armor pieces. Helmets on the bar, boots kicked off, drinks in hand. They’re laughing, flirting, dancing—so many of them, blending seamlessly with civilians who clearly know this is the spot to meet a trooper or two.
Your stomach twists.
Of course. 79’s. You’d heard the name in passing from GAR personnel—it’s the off-duty bar where clones unwind between missions. You’d just never connected the dots.
And now you’re here with the ghost of a relationship haunting your every move.
Kylei doesn’t notice your hesitation. She grabs your hand again and weaves you both through the crowd toward the bar. The music is too loud to talk over, but she orders you both drinks with a wink to the bartender.
You take yours without question and sip, hoping the burn will dull your nerves.
It doesn’t take long—three minutes, maybe—for Kylei to strike up a conversation with a cute Twi’lek in a leather vest. They're laughing, already halfway through their drinks, her body language open and easy. She’s in her element.
You… are not.
At least the music is good.
You let the beat pulse through your chest, sinking into it as best you can. Eyes closed, you down the rest of your drink in one long pull, willing the warmth to burn away your nerves. The buzz in your limbs makes you feel loose, maybe even confident.
Or maybe that’s just the alcohol lying to you.
You don’t hear him approach—but you feel it.
A warm presence at your side. Close. Confident. Familiar.
“Well, look what we have here.”
Your eyes fly open.
“Fives?”
He grins, and Maker, that grin should be illegal. “Looks like you decided to come out with me after all.”
You can’t help but laugh, surprised and flustered all at once. “Pure coincidence.”
“Mmhmm.” He lifts a hand and flags the bartender with practiced ease. “What are you drinking?”
You glance down at your empty glass. “No idea. I didn’t order it.”
For a second, something flickers in his eyes—surprise, maybe even something bordering on protectiveness.
“People buying you drinks already?” he says, voice low. “Then I definitely owe you one.”
You smile as he hands you something darker than your last. Stronger too, by the smell of it.
“Where’s your friend?” he asks, eyes scanning the crowd.
You turn to look, only to spot Kylei halfway into her new Twi’lek friend’s lap, laughing as she twirls the straw in her drink.
You smirk. “Occupied.”
Fives chuckles. “Then come join us—Echo’s just over here.”
His hand lands gently on the small of your back as he guides you through the crowd, and the heat that blooms in your chest has nothing to do with the drink. His touch is easy, but grounding—like he does it without thinking.
You slide into a booth tucked into a corner of the bar. Echo greets you with a bright grin and a quick side hug. Two other troopers sit beside him, deep in some rowdy story, gesturing wildly with their hands.
Fives settles in next to you, and the booth suddenly feels much smaller. He throws one arm across the back of the seat—casual, but close. The press of his thigh against yours is warm, steady.
You try not to smile.
It’s friendly. You think.
Conversation starts to swirl—jokes, war stories, teasing remarks that make you feel like you belong. The drinks keep coming, and little by little, time slips away. You're lighter now, floatier. Giggly. The edges of everything feel a little softer.
At some point, you realize you’re leaning into Fives more than you meant to. His arm is still behind you, and he hasn’t pulled away. If anything, he’s leaning closer too.
You could stay in this moment forever.
Until someone else tries to crash it.
A large Togruta man leans over the booth, crowding into your space. “Need another drink, beautiful?” he asks, eyebrows waggling as his grin stretches too wide.
Before you can react, Fives straightens beside you.
“She’s taken, bud,” he says firmly.
And then—he barks.
A sharp, playful bark, followed by a low growl like a protective Loth-wolf. It’s ridiculous. Completely absurd. And it sends the entire table into chaos.
The clones burst out laughing. Even you can’t help it—you double over with giggles, the tension gone in an instant.
“You’re such an idiot,” you manage between laughs, swatting Fives lightly on the arm.
He just grins, pleased with himself. “What can I say? Gotta keep the strays away.”
The moment is golden—bubbly and warm. Until Echo’s voice cuts through.
“Gotta protect your honor,” he says with a smile. “I’m sure Rylan would appreciate it.”
The name lands like a weight in your lap.
You go still. The smile slips from your face, and you feel the shift in Fives too—his arm drops from your shoulders, the space between you stretching.
“Yeah,” you say softly.
Neither of you looks at each other.
Before the silence can settle too thickly, Kylei stumbles up to the table, her glittering dress catching the light.
“What’s with all the barking?” she slurs, bracing herself on the edge of the booth.
The table erupts into laughter again, the tension dissolving beneath the noise. You manage a shy smile, your voice barely above the music.
“Ready to go?” you ask.
She nods dramatically, already digging for her comm.
Fives stands and slides out of the booth, offering you his hand to help you up. You’re a little too quick on your feet—and nearly tumble into him.
He catches you, hands firm on your waist, steadying you with ease.
“Let me grab you lovely ladies a speeder,” he says, glancing at Kylei with a wink.
But his eyes find yours again before he steps away.
And there’s something there.
Something unsaid.
Something you’re too afraid—and maybe too buzzed—to name.
In the hush of early morning, the streets are quieter, the music from 79’s now a distant thrum. Speeder lights glow soft against the pavement, casting fleeting shadows as one slows to a stop in front of you.
Fives hails it with a raised hand and a soft whistle, and Kylei stumbles in without hesitation, already kicking off her heels as she sinks into the seat. You move to follow her, still riding the last waves of the night—light, tipsy, a little overwhelmed.
Just as your hand brushes the doorframe, fingers wrap gently around your wrist.
You stop, breath catching.
Fives is looking at you. Not grinning. Not smirking.
Looking.
“Let me know when you get home safe, yeah?” His voice is soft—low, almost intimate.
You nod, unable to form words. He holds your gaze for one more second before he lets go, and gently closes the speeder door behind you.
As the vehicle pulls away, you sit back in your seat and realize your whole body is buzzing. Your heart’s pounding like you’ve just come off a battlefield, not a night out.
Kylei is already halfway asleep, head leaning against the window with a small, contented sigh.
You stare straight ahead, the city lights blurring past outside, and wonder: Why does he have to be like that?
Why does he have to be so gorgeous?
Why does he have to look at you like you’re something worth waiting for?
Why does he make you feel more seen in a moment than Rylan has in months?
By the time you get home, the buzz has dulled but the thoughts haven’t. You and Kylei collapse into your apartment, deciding without discussion to call it a sleepover. She tosses a blanket onto the couch and is out within minutes.
You lie in bed, staring at the ceiling.
You lift your wrist and open your comm, fingers hesitating just a second before you type.
Thanks for the fun night. See you tomorrow.
You send it before you can overthink it.
Your heart flutters as the message goes through.
And this time, you don’t check to see if Rylan bothered to check in.
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A few days have passed since that night at 79’s, and things ha
“No, Fives. Absolutely not.” You say, crossing your arms. The little cafe he’d decided to take you to this morning has it's charm… but the typical Fives charm isn’t working on you today.
You’ve only been on Coruscant for three weeks, but Fives makes sure to come and visit you in the medbay everyday, just checking in. It’s been… sweet. Thoughtful.
This idea, however? A disaster waiting to happen.
“Come on, you and Aby have practically nothing. It’ll be super small, just some 501st, maybe some 212th guys and their girls. A housewarming party! You need to meet more people here on Coruscant, and this way you get gifts at the same time!”
You roll your eyes. “You just want an excuse to throw a party.”
Fives grins, leaning back in his chair like he’s settling into a debate he knows he’ll win. “Yeah, but it’s a fun excuse. Look, you’ve been working nonstop since you got here. You need to have some fun, Coruscant-style fun.”
“I’m not sure your definition of fun and mine are the same,” you say, picking up your caf. “And I barely know anyone here.”
“Exactly!” he says, snapping his fingers and pointing at you. “Which is why this is perfect. Everyone gets to meet you properly, and you get to meet them when they’re not bleeding or yelling or in the medbay. Win-win.”
You can’t help but laugh at that. “Fives, you’re impossible.”
“Persistent,” he corrects with a grin. “And don’t think I didn’t notice you smiled. That’s a ‘yes smile’ if I’ve ever seen one.”
You shake your head, but he’s already leaning forward, that ridiculous grin softening into something more sincere. “Come on. You and Aby deserve to celebrate. You’ve both worked hard getting settled here. It’s not easy starting over, and… you’ve done it.”
The quiet warmth in his voice makes you pause. For all his teasing, Fives always knows when to drop the act and mean it.
You sigh, pretending to think it over. “Fine. But only if you help clean afterward.”
He gasps dramatically. “Me? Clean? You wound me.”
You arch a brow. “Then it’s off.”
“No, no, I’ll clean!” he blurts, throwing his hands up. “See? Already the best housewarming host ever.”
You laugh again, and he looks far too pleased with himself. The hum of the little cafe fills the quiet that follows. It’s easy, sitting here across from him, sunlight spilling in through the window, painting the brown of his eyes a honey gold. Easy to forget that you’re just friends.
Maybe that’s why you say it. Because it’s been sitting in your chest for days now, and you need to let it out before it eats you alive.
“Are you bringing Kitty?” you ask, forcing your tone into something casual, like you’re not bracing yourself for the answer. “I still haven’t met her.”
Fives blinks, caught off guard. Then his expression shutters, mouth flattening into a thin, unhappy line. “Kriff, no,” he says. “Doesn’t mean she won’t show up, though. We’re… off.”
“Off again?” you echo, stirring your drink just to have something to do with your hands.
His brows lift. “Wow. You been getting intel on my love life?”
You shrug, smirking, but your voice comes out a little too tight. “Hardcase said last night he gives it, what, three days before she’s back in your lap?” The words tumble out before you can stop them. You choke on your own laugh and hide it behind your mug. “His words, not mine.”
Fives groans, dragging a hand down his face. “Hardcase needs to stop running his mouth.”
You grin, but there’s a tiny twist in your chest. Everyone in the 501st knows about Kitty. She’s been Fives’s… “something” since he first arrived on Coruscant as a shiny. She was the one he turned to between each and every of his numerous flings. Not exactly a girlfriend, but definitely not nothing. They broke up the night you arrived on Coruscant…then got back together two days later. Now apparently, they’re “off” again.
From what you’ve gathered, she’s a bartender a few levels down, gorgeous, temperamental, and more than a match for Fives’s flirtatious streak. Maybe that’s why you can’t stop thinking about her. Or maybe it’s because Echo’s words from a few nights ago keep echoing in your head.
“Listen,” he’d said quietly after dinner, when the others had gone to grab drinks, “if you ever run into Kitty, don’t let her get in your head. She’s poison. She’ll size you up the second she sees you and do everything she can to make you feel small. Hates any woman who so much as talks to Fives.”
He’d looked at you pointedly.
“And you? You being his best friend? That’s gonna drive her crazy.”
Best friend.
That phrase hadn’t left you alone since.
When did that happen? When did you become Fives’s best friend? You’re still the girl from Appla, still figuring out how to exist in a place like Coruscant. Surely that title belonged to Echo. You’re just… you.
But the way Fives laughs with you, the way he finds you after his shifts, the way he looks at you like he’s actually glad you’re there, it makes something inside you flutter and ache at the same time.
You’re still turning that thought over when his voice cuts through your spiral.
“Hello? Are you listening to me?”
You blink, realizing he’s been talking the whole time. He’s leaning forward now, elbows on the table, a smirk tugging at his mouth. “I’m trying to plan the perfect party here, and you’re a million miles away.”
“Sorry,” you say, straightening in your chair. “I was… thinking.”
“About what?” he asks, grin widening. “Me, obviously.”
You roll your eyes and take a sip of your drink to hide your smile. “Don’t flatter yourself.”
“Too late,” he says, flashing you that grin that’s gotten him out of more trouble than it should. “Now, back to business, streamers or no streamers? This is important.”
You hum distractedly, nodding as he starts droning on about lighting and music choices, pretending to listen while your mind drifts again, to Echo’s words, to Kitty and as always, to Fives.
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“How do I look? Aby asks, spinning in the floor length mirror in the hallway of your apartment.
The apartment assigned to you by the GAR is big, much bigger than your cottage on Appla. You don’t know what to do with so much empty space, the couch they provided and your beds being the only furniture. Besides the clothes you stowed away from your planet on the trek over, the place is an empty cave of bare walls and some sad haphazard party decorations that Fives insisted on.
Speaking of, you have no idea where he is. He was supposed to be here an hour ago to help set up, but he’s nowhere to be found.
That’s when there’s a knock on the door. You open it, ready to berate him, only to see your friends, Kix, Echo and Hardcase, and a new friend, Jesse, all holding heavy boxes in the doorway. You let them inside as they chat together and drop the crates.
Kix starts up: “Food, decorations, lots of drinks, a stereo… yeah we should be good. Oh! And your gifts, obviously.”
You blink. “Gifts?”
Hardcase grins, already tearing open one of the boxes like a kid on his birthday. “Of course! It’s a housewarming party. What kind of guests would we be if we didn’t bring bribes?”
“Meaning?” you ask, crossing your arms as he pulls out a collection of mismatched mugs, each one painted with crude little blue stars.
“Meaning,” Kix cuts in dryly, “that Hardcase got into the rec-room supply closet and thought these were up for grabs.”
“They were lonely!” Hardcase protests. “Now they have a home.”
Echo shakes his head, the corners of his mouth twitching. “It’s a miracle you’ve made it this far in life without being court-martialed.”
“Not for lack of trying,” Jesse adds, grinning as he drops his box onto the counter. “I brought the important stuff, anyway.” He flips open the lid, revealing rows of neatly stacked bottles all various shades of amber.
Aby gasps dramatically. “Now that’s a housewarming gift.”
You laugh, shaking your head as you take in the chaos. “I’m starting to think this party might actually come together.”
“Wouldn’t have doubted it,” Kix says, setting up the small stereo on the counter. “Though I’m surprised Fives isn’t here yet. He was the one who couldn’t stop talking about this.”
You frown, checking your comm. “He’s over an hour late. Typical.”
Echo snorts. “He’s probably still trying to figure out what shirt makes him look less like a douche.” You all laugh.
As if summoned, there’s another knock at the door.
“That’ll be him,” Jesse mutters, smirking. “Ten credits say he’s overdressed.”
You pull open the door, ready with some sarcastic jab about his timing, but the words die on your tongue.
Fives stands there, hair slicked back, dark shirt rolled to his forearms, a bottle of wine dangling from one hand and that disarming grin in full effect. He looks good, and judging by the way his gaze drifts over you, he knows it.
“Well, well,” he says, leaning against the doorframe. “Looks like I’m just in time.”
“You’re late,” you reply, though it comes out softer than you intended.
“Fashionably,” he corrects with a wink, stepping inside and handing you the bottle. “For you.”
You take it carefully, fighting the heat crawling up your neck. “You realize I don’t even own wine glasses, right?”
“That’s okay,” he says, flashing that grin again. “I brought some.”
From behind him, Echo groans. “He would.”
“Of course he would,” Kix mutters, though there’s fondness in it.
The music kicks on, a low, upbeat rhythm filling the room. Aby’s already dragging Kix toward the makeshift dance floor, and Hardcase is halfway through unwrapping a string of lights.
Fives watches it all with a quiet smile before glancing back at you. “Not bad for a backwater-girl-turned-Coruscant-hostess.”
You roll your eyes. “Don’t push it.”
He grins wider, stepping closer, close enough that you catch the faint scent of his cologne, all smoke and spice. “Wouldn’t dream of it.”
Then, from across the room, Aby shouts, “Hey! Somebody open the door. More guests!”
You turn just in time to see the door slide open again… and your heart drops straight to your feet.
A woman stands in the doorway, a crowd of people behind her.
She’s all curves, crimson lipstick, and confidence, eyes sweeping the room before locking on Fives.
“Well,” she purrs, a smile cutting across her face, “isn’t this cozy?”
Fives’ smile falters, just slightly. “Kitty.”
Echo mutters something under his breath. Kix groans quietly.
You force yourself to breathe, to smile.
So much for a quiet housewarming.
The party ignites quickly, members of the 212th, the 501st, and even a few Coruscant Guard members all in civilian clothes carting bags and boxes of the most miscellaneous items you’ve ever seen. Plates, bowls, silverware, vases, then blankets and picture frames and pillows. At some point someone carts in a whole table and chairs set. You and Aby are overjoyed, thanking everyone endlessly, but they care less about your appreciation and more about the music and the drinks.
The apartment fills faster than you can process. The air turns warm and loud, laughter bouncing off the bare walls as soldiers and their flings crowd into the space. Someone turns the music up, someone else opens another bottle, and suddenly, your quiet Coruscant apartment feels like the heart of a celebration that’s been waiting months to happen.
You can’t stop smiling, watching the 212th and 501st mingle like they’re off-duty brothers again, no rank, no orders, just joy. Even the Coruscant Guard troopers loosen their shoulders as they join in, red armor traded for casual jackets and the same easy grins that fill the room.
Aby darts from group to group, greeting everyone, glowing with the kind of excitement only she can summon. Someone hands her a drink, and she spins back toward you, eyes shining. “We might actually pull this off,” she says.
You laugh, still clutching your glass. “I think it’s already pulled off.”
“Correction,” Fives says, slipping up beside you again, “I pulled it off.”
You shoot him a look. “You were an hour late.”
“Ah, but would it really be a party without a dramatic entrance?” he teases, taking a sip from his glass.
Before you can answer, Hardcase cheers from across the room, lifting a blanket above his head like a trophy. “You have no idea how long I’ve been wanting to steal this from the barracks lounge!”
Kix groans. “That’s not something to brag about, vod.”
“Is tonight about rules or fun?” Hardcase shouts back. “Because I vote fun!”
That gets another cheer. You can’t help it. You laugh, the sound bubbling up uncontrollably.
But as the crowd moves, you catch a flicker of red across the room. Kitty. She’s impossible to miss, a splash of color and confidence among the greys and blues of troopers. She’s standing near the refreshment table now, surrounded by a small orbit of men who can’t seem to look anywhere else.
She’s charming them easily, tossing her hair and laughing in that syrupy tone that manages to sound both effortless and practiced. But every few moments, her gaze cuts back toward you.
And Fives.
You feel it, like static in the air between you all. Fives hasn’t noticed yet; he’s busy helping Aby balance on a chair to hang the string lights, laughing when she nearly topples into Echo. But Kitty has. She watches you with the sharp, assessing look of someone taking inventory, her smile never quite reaching her eyes.
When she finally starts to move through the crowd, the sea of troopers parts for her without her having to say a word. You stiffen as she approaches, that crimson smile curving wider.
“So,” she says sweetly, voice cutting through the music as she stops beside you, “you must be her.”
You blink, caught off guard. “I’m sorry?”
“Fives’s new friend,” she clarifies, tone sugar-coated but sharp underneath. “The one everyone keeps talking about.”
Fives turns then, catching sight of her. “Kitty,” he says again, cautious this time. “Didn’t think you’d actually…”
“Oh, don’t sound so surprised,” she interrupts smoothly, her gaze flicking from him to you. “I wouldn’t miss meeting the famous girl from Appla.”
You open your mouth to reply, but she’s already smiling again, all charm and poison. “I have to say, I didn’t expect you to be so… precious.”
Echo, standing nearby, mutters under his breath, “And here we go.”
Fives steps in quickly, trying for diplomacy. “Kitty, come on.”
She ignores him, eyes still on you. “Hope you don’t mind me crashing. I just wanted to make sure the… decorations were up to standard.” She says as she turns her gaze to Fives.
You inhale slowly through your nose, meeting her gaze evenly. “Glad to have you.”
The music swells again, and someone calls Fives over to help move the table. He hesitates, looking between the two of you, tension flickering in his eyes.
You give him a small nod, forcing a smile.
He lingers a moment too long before turning away.
And the second he does, Kitty steps closer, her perfume cutting through the air. Her voice drops low enough that only you can hear.
“He’s sweet, isn’t he?” she murmurs, her tone lilting. “Just… don’t get too attached. He always circles back.”
You hold her gaze, every instinct screaming to say something sharp, something that would wipe that smirk right off her face. But instead, you smile, tight and polite.
“We’re just friends.”
Her eyes flash. For a heartbeat, neither of you move. Then she laughs softly and pats your shoulder. “Ofcourse you are.”
She glides away through the crowd before you can respond, the sound of her laughter blending with the music.
Fives catches your eye from across the room, still holding one end of the table, his brow furrowed slightly in question.
You force another smile and lift your glass in a small toast.
—
The party was a hit, and two days later you’re still taking inventory of all of the gifts, and the mess, that were left behind. You’re daydreaming about making the apartment even more cozy as you work, imagining what blanket should go on the back of the couch, when you smell the smoke.
You dash into the kitchen and there he is, panic all over his face and a flaming pot on the stove.
“I didn’t peg you to be such a pyro, Fives,” you say as he waves a towel frantically at the small fire licking up from the pan.
“I just…” he sighs, giving up. “I promise I’ve been practicing since Appla. I’ve tried to make fried tipyip twice, and now I’m banned from the mess hall kitchens because of it!”
You laugh and grab a lid, smothering the flames in one swift motion. The kitchen fills with a thin haze of smoke, and Fives stands there, cheeks red. Whether from the heat or humiliation, you’re not sure.
He’d lost a dare to Hardcase: cook a real meal for the squad, no ration bars allowed. Tonight was supposed to be his big win. The boys would be here in an hour, and at the rate he was going, everyone was leaving hungry and maybe a little asphyxiated.
He turns toward you, eyes wide. “Please… just a little help?”
“Oh, no. Absolutely not.” You cross your arms. “I swore an oath not to help you. I’m only here because you needed my kitchen, and to keep you from burning down my apartment.”
Fives groans, dragging his hands down his face.
“I’d start over if I were you,” you add, patting his shoulder. “You might even have time to salvage something edible if you really, really try.”
You slip off to your room before he can argue, grinning as you hear him muttering to himself.
You lose track of time, buried in organizing, until there’s a knock at the door.
“I’ll get it!” Fives calls.
A spike of suspicion jolts through you. You bolt out of your room just as the door swings open.
“How much do I owe you…” Fives starts, reaching for his wallet, but the words die on his tongue.
“Special delivery,” Kix says, holding up a stack of takeout containers with a knowing grin. Behind him, the delivery driver is already making a quick escape down the hall.
Aby laughs, looping her arm through Kix’s as they step inside.
You can’t help but smile. The two of them together look effortlessly happy. Something soft and warm flickers in your chest at the sight. Aby and Kix had been circling each other for weeks now. You’re just waiting for them to make it official.
“Ah, Kriff.” Fives says, head hanging low. You storm up to him and slap his arm a few times as you talk, each word punctuated with a knock. “How. Dare. You. Cheat.” You say, and he feigns injury.
“Please, I was desperate!” He wails and you shake your head at him, disappointment on your face.
The door opens again and the rest of the boys filter in, Hardcase, Jesse and Echo.
“Smells good in here!” Hardcase says, hands rubbing together.
“Don’t get your hopes up.” You say. “Fives is a dirty, dirty cheater.”
Fives pulls his hands down his face. “I had no other choice. I didn’t want anyone to face death by poison at my hands.”
Everyone laughs. You grab out all the mismatched plates you have and set the table, Kix and Aby laying the food out for everyone as you all grab a plate and seat yourselves.
The dinner is delicious, much to Fives’ credit for choosing it. You all laugh and talk over the meal and just as soon as it’s plated, it's over.
“Holo?” Aby asks, and the boys jump at the chance. You laugh and nod, and Aby and the others all head over to the two couches and few armchairs in your large living room, flicking on the holoscreen.
You pick up the plates and take everything over to the kitchen sink, starting up a soapy sponge and get to cleaning.
“Scoot over.” You hear someone say, and you slide over to the left without looking. His hands plunge into the hot, soapy water and grab a dish. Your fingers brush.
Fives starts washing dishes, right there beside you, just like back on Appla.
You glance up at him, surprised. “You don’t have to…”
“I know,” he interrupts with that familiar grin, “but I want to.”
The quiet hum of conversation and laughter filters in from the living room as the two of you fall into an easy rhythm. You wash, he rinses, and every so often your hands bump again.
It’s domestic in a way that feels dangerous. Familiar.
“Still remember how to do this?” you tease, nudging him with your elbow.
He chuckles. “You kidding? You think I’d forget Appla? Best training I ever got.”
You roll your eyes, but you can’t help the smile that tugs at your lips.
Dishes done, you and Fives make your way into the living room, where only one large armchair sits empty.
“Go ahead,” you say. “I’ll just sit on the floor.”
“Hell, no,” Fives replies, grabbing your wrist. “We can share. Come on.”
He squeezes onto one side of the plush chair, and you slide in beside him. Your thighs press together tightly, uncomfortable for both of you, but neither of you says a word.
“Here,” he murmurs, sliding an arm under your legs and turning you sideways, resting your legs across his lap. You can’t help the blush that creeps across your cheeks, but it’s far more comfortable this way. You lean back against the armrest, head resting on the soft chair back.
One of his hands settles on your shin, warm and steady. As the holo flickers to life, the other hand drifts just above your knee, lightly resting on your thigh. It sears, a fire that has nothing to do with the screen.
The holo hums softly, but you barely notice it. Every time his fingers flex slightly, heat shoots up your leg, and you shift just enough to keep your balance, heart hammering in your chest.
Fives leans back against the chair, eyes on the holo, but you catch him stealing glances at you out of the corner of his eye. He smirks faintly each time, as if daring you to look back, and you can’t help it. You do.
“Are you… distracted?” he whispers, voice low, teasing.
“Maybe a little,” you admit, cheeks burning.
His hand presses a fraction closer, brushing your skin in a way that’s deliberate but not overt, and your stomach twists in anticipation. For a moment, the holo might as well not exist. Just you, him, and the warmth between you.
Then a laugh from Aby on the other side of the room pulls both of you back, the tension breaking just enough for you to breathe, but not enough to make the searing feeling in your thigh fade. Fives catches your eye and winks, and you instinctively stick your tongue out at him.
This is friendship. This is what friends do. They banter, they share seats. They have fun.
Just friends.
—
It’s days later and the shooting range is… not your style. You’ve only held a blaster once, and that was on Appla when you were too busy saving Fives’ life to care about aiming.
The boys insisted it would be fun, but you know the truth. Kix wanted to show off in front of Aby, his now official girlfriend. It happened that night you all ate takeout and watched holos in your apartment. He whispered it to her. “Be mine?” And she squealed so loud you had to pause the holo.
You smile at them, Kix standing behind her, helping her aim. They’re cute. It’s honestly a good match, his snark and seriousness to her bubbly effervescence.
“Are you gonna shoot or what?” Hardcase asks, and you shake your head. “Just observing.”
The truth is you’re preoccupied. You can tell the rest of the boys are too. Echo and Fives and Rex are all on some secret special mission. You haven’t heard from them in days.
It’s the longest you’ve gone without talking to Fives since you landed on Coruscant.
Blaster bolts whiz down the lanes, the loud whirring grating on your nerves. At first, it almost drowns out the comms.
“Should we come too?” you ask, and Aby looks up at him with wide, hopeful eyes.
“Yeah, sure. You two can wait outside the meeting hall,” Kix says, shrugging. “It’s probably nothing crazy. Just a debrief, the others are supposed to be returning today.”
Returning? Fives is back on Coruscant? Your heart hammers in your chest.
You and Aby follow, making your way to HQ, and settle on a few storage crates just outside the door. At first, the familiar laughter of the 501st drifts through the walls. Then… silence.
They’re in there longer than you can stand.
Finally, the door opens and the troopers file out, one by one. You and Aby rise to your feet. Kix comes first, burying his face in her shoulder without a word.
“What’s going on?” she asks softly, patting his shoulder.
Silence stretches.
Rex steps out next, helmet tucked under his arm. His face is grim, rigid, unreadable.
“Rex… what’s going on?” you ask, your voice shaking. He doesn’t answer.
Grief and dread crash over you all at once, a weight in your chest you can’t shake. You know. You just know.
“No,” you whisper, and without thinking, you bolt toward the room, desperate to see the two missing troopers. Echo. Fives.
You crash headfirst into someone leaving the room.
Fives.
His eyes are stony, jaw set, shoulders squared like nothing can touch him. Relief surges…then the sharp sting of reality hits.
“Oh my stars, Echo,” you gasp. Then your heart clenches.
“Fives?” you whisper, tentative.
He doesn’t meet your gaze. He brushes past you, walking down the hall with that unshakable tension in his stride. The others glance at you, sorrow in their eyes.
Your instinct screams to chase him but a firm hand lands on your shoulder, steadying you.
“Give him some time,” Rex says quietly.
You nod, chest tight, watching Fives disappear around the corner.
–
That night Aby spends with Kix, off remembering Echo by visiting his favorite spots in the city. You sit in your dark apartment, alone, comm in hand. Just in case he calls.
The knock at your door is soft, hesitant. You know before you open it who it is.
He’s standing there, shoulders slumped, eyes dark and haunted, the weight of the day pressing down on him. He doesn’t answer. He just steps inside the moment you move aside.
Aby and Kix are out, leaving the apartment quiet except for the soft hum of Coruscant. You stay close, letting him drop onto the couch beside you. His body is rigid at first, coiled tight like he might shatter, but he doesn’t move away.
“Echo,” he whispers, voice breaking. “He… he’s gone.”
You nod, swallowing hard. “I know,” you say softly, placing a hand on his arm. “I know.”
Fives leans forward, burying his face in his hands. “I keep thinking I should’ve, should’ve done something more. I…” He can’t finish.
You shift closer, wrapping an arm around him. “You did what you could. He knew that. We all knew that. You’re not alone, Fives.”
He leans fully into you, letting the grief spill out in trembling breaths and whispered names. For a long while, you just sit together, shoulder to shoulder, holding onto one another while the loss of Echo hangs heavy in the room.
Hours pass in quiet murmurs and the occasional choked sob. He doesn’t sleep fully, but he rests his head against your shoulder, hand gripping yours as if letting go would mean losing himself entirely.
For tonight, you’re his anchor. You’re his safe place. And in the shadow of grief, in the absence of the friend you both loved, that is enough.
In the morning, there’s no sign of Aby or Kix. The apartment is quiet except for the soft hum of Coruscant outside. You wake to find Fives’ head resting in your lap on the couch, a blanket lazily draped over both of you.
You reach down and softly brush his hair away from his face. In sleep, the weight of his grief doesn’t show. The sorrow that presses on him like a stone is gone, replaced with a rare, fragile peace. You sigh, slowly pulling your hand away… only for his own hand to twitch awake and catch your wrist, guiding it back to his hair.
“More,” he murmurs, voice thick with sleep.
You oblige. Your fingers move gently, stroking his scalp, letting him drift in and out of sleep. Half an hour passes like this, the quiet broken only by his soft breaths and the faint hum of the city outside.
When his eyes finally flutter open, the traces of tears are still there, glimmering. He sits up slowly, stretches, but doesn’t look at you, doesn’t speak. And yet the tears continue to fall.
You slide closer, wrapping your arms around him. His body shudders against yours, the sobs wracking him.
You never thought you’d see him like this. The charming, ever-positive Fives, the one who jokes through everything, broken. This is raw, unguarded. You want so badly to gather him up, to piece him back together.
“Do you want me to call anyone? The boys? Maybe… Kitty?” you whisper, trying to find any way to ease the ache.
His sobs turn into quiet laughter, shaky and soft.
“I just want you, honey,” he admits, the word slipping out before he can stop it. He stills the moment it leaves his lips.
You laugh softly. “Honey, huh? You can call me honey if you want, Fives.”
He laughs with you, gentle and raw, tears still streaming.
“It suits you,” he murmurs, voice rough but warm, and you feel it. The trust, the closeness, the unspoken understanding that you’re it for him, now.
His friend. His best friend.
—
A few weeks pass, and you watch as Fives pieces himself back together. The edges of him start to soften again. The jokes come easier, the smile doesn’t look as forced. You start bringing him caf during late-night debriefs, and you comm him after every long mission just to check in.
It’s after one of those long missions that you decide to invite the boys over for a homecooked meal. You’ve heard they’ve “adopted” two new brothers, and you’re eager to meet them. Aby nearly squeals when she finds out Kix will be there too. Things between them have been… well, something special. You might even call it love, if you were bold enough to name it. Whenever Kix stays late at your shared apartment, you do your best to give them space, which usually means finding Fives and letting him distract you with whatever mischief he’s up to.
There’s no knock this time when the door swings open. The sound of boots and laughter floods the little apartment like a storm. You’re standing over the stove, the warm scent of ronto pies filling the kitchen, when Hardcase’s voice booms through the room.
“Welcome home! Well. Our second home.” He grins, slinging an arm around the shoulders of two familiar but unfamiliar faces, one serious, one shy.
You turn, wiping your hands on a towel. “So these are the new recruits I’ve heard about.”
The serious one straightens immediately. “Dogma, ma’am.”
The shy one nods, voice soft. “Tup. It’s, uh… nice to meet you.”
“Nice to meet you both,” you say, smiling. “Make yourselves at home. Dinner’s almost ready.”
Tup hovers near the kitchen doorway for a moment, watching you move between the counter and the stove. Then, hesitantly:
“Can I, um… help with anything? Maybe set the table?”
You blink, surprised, then hand him a stack of mismatched plates. “Sure. That’d be great.”
He takes them carefully, as though they might break if he moves too fast. “It smells amazing, by the way,” he says after a beat. “Did you really make all this yourself?”
“Guilty,” you say with a grin. “Cooking’s how I unwind.”
He glances up at you, a small smile tugging at his mouth. “Better than the mess hall. Way better.”
You laugh softly. “I’ll take that as the highest compliment from a soldier.”
Fives’ voice drifts in from behind you. “Careful, Tup, she’ll put you on dish duty if you aren’t careful.”
You glance over your shoulder. Fives is leaning against the counter, arms folded, smile easy but eyes sharper than usual. Tup just chuckles under his breath, unbothered.
“I don’t mind,” he says quietly, more to you than to Fives. “Wouldn’t be fair to let you do all the work.”
That earns him a flicker of warmth from you, but you see Fives straighten just a bit.
Dinner is easy and loud and full of laughter. Hardcase keeps trying to steal seconds, Jesse tells a story that makes Kix choke on his drink, and Aby glows every time Kix looks her way. Tup sits beside you, quiet but attentive, always ready to pass a dish or refill a glass before you even ask. You notice it.
Fives notices that too. The way Tup leans in when you speak, the way you smile back. The sound of your laughter catches in his throat in a way it never used to.
When the meal winds down, you stand to start clearing plates but Tup’s already halfway to his feet. “Let me help,” he offers quickly.
“I’ve got it,” you start to say, but he shakes his head.
“You cooked. Least I can do is clean up.”
You give in with a little nod, and together you start stacking dishes. He follows you into the kitchen, sleeves rolled up. The two of you move easily around each other, quiet conversation, a few laughs over Hardcase’s antics. You’re halfway through rinsing when Fives appears in the doorway, drying cloth in hand, like he’s been waiting for the chance to step in.
Fives’ grin tightens and he looks at you. “Yeah? Thought that was our thing.”
You frown at him over your shoulder. “You two have assigned chores now?”
“Tradition,” Fives says, but it comes out flat.
You hand him a plate to dry anyway. “Fine. Trade off.”
Tup chuckles. “Guess I’ll make the cut next time.”
“You wish,” Fives mutters, quiet but not quiet enough.
You shoot him a look. Not angry, just questioning, but he’s already turning to the sink, scrubbing harder than necessary.
When the last dish is done, you wipe your hands on a towel. “Holo time?” you ask, trying to break the tension.
The lights are low when you step into the living room. The holo flickers blue and gold across the walls; Aby and Kix are curled together on the couch, Hardcase sprawled half-off the other end, Jesse on the floor with a blanket. Dogma stands near the wall, arms crossed.
Tup follows behind you, uncertain, until you pat the empty cushion beside you in the armchair. “There’s room here.”
He smiles, starting toward you…
“No.”
Fives’ voice cuts in from the kitchen doorway.
He saunters forward, his usual smile there but his eyes don’t match it. “That’s my seat.”
Tup pauses mid-step, confusion flickering across his face. “Oh. Sorry, I didn’t…”
Fives claps him on the shoulder, too hard to be casual. “No harm done. Plenty of room over there with Hardcase.”
Before anyone can say otherwise, Fives drops into the chair beside you, thigh brushing yours.
You glance at him. “Your seat, huh?”
“Again, tradition,” he says easily, stretching out, arm over the back of the chair.
Jesse snorts from the floor. “You mean the one where you scare everyone else out of it?”
“Exactly,” Fives says.
You roll your eyes but settle in, legs stretched across his lap as usual. His arm stays where it is, hand brushing your shoulder now and then.
After a few quiet minutes, you murmur, “You know, Tup’s sweet. You don’t have to scare him off.”
Fives doesn’t look at you. “Didn’t scare him. Just don’t like watching him look at you like that.”
You turn to him, brows raised. “Like what?”
He exhales through his nose, shaking his head. “Doesn’t matter. You should go for it.”
The words come sharp and offhand, like he’s throwing them just to wound himself first.
You stare at him. “That’s not funny.”
“Didn’t mean it to be.”
He focuses on the holo then, jaw tight, thumb tapping once against your knee before going still. The flicker of light paints his face in shifting color.
Across the room, Tup laughs softly at something Hardcase says, but the sound only makes Fives’ hand curl tighter where it rests on your leg.
It’s late when the holo ends. The others file out in a wave of yawns and laughter, Kix tugging a sleepy Aby toward her bedroom door, Jesse and Hardcase arguing over who cheated, Dogma politely thanking you again for dinner. Tup’s the last to leave, giving you a shy smile as he lingers in the doorway.
“Thanks again,” he says. “For the food. And… for letting me help.”
You smile back. “Anytime, Tup. Glad you came.”
He nods, hesitates like he wants to say something else, but then just gives a little salute before disappearing down the hall.
When you turn around, Fives is still there, leaning against the back of the couch, arms crossed, expression unreadable in the dim light.
“You didn’t have to chase him off, you know,” you say quietly.
He huffs out something that’s half laugh, half sigh. “Didn’t chase him off. Just… didn’t feel like sharing a seat tonight.”
You tilt your head.
He looks at you then, really looks, and for a second, all the armor drops. “Guess I don’t like watching someone else take my place.”
The words hang there, raw and unguarded. You open your mouth, but he cuts you off before you can answer.
“Forget it,” he mutters, scrubbing a hand over his face. “That came out wrong. I’m…” He exhales. “I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have snapped. It wasn’t fair to him. Or you.”
You cross your arms, soft but firm. “You think?”
He winces at your tone, but there’s a flicker of a smile there too. “Yeah. I think.”
You step closer. “What’s going on, Fives?”
He shrugs, eyes fixed on the floor. “I don’t know. It’s stupid.”
“Try me.”
There’s a long pause before he answers. “You ever feel like the galaxy’s moving on without you? Like everyone’s healing, finding something new, and you’re just…” He gestures vaguely. “Stuck in the same kriffing place.”
Your chest tightens. “You’re not stuck, Fives.”
He finally looks up at you. His grin returns then, small, a little sad. “What if I’m just old news. An old friend you might forget.”
You blink. “Fives…”
“Anyway,” he mutters, forcing a crooked smile, “guess I should actually head out before Kix starts gossiping.”
You laugh softly. He backs toward the door, voice lighter now. “Thanks for dinner. And for not kicking me out after I acted like an idiot.”
“You did act like an idiot,” you say, smiling despite yourself.
“Yeah, but I apologized. That’s gotta count for something.”
He hesitates at the door, fingers brushing the frame. “Night, honey.”
And then he’s gone.
—
The hum of medbay machinery fills the room as you sort through med-packs. Your comm chirps, and you glance at the screen: Aby’s name flashing.
“Hey, Aby,” you answer, keeping your voice low.
“You will not believe this!” she squeals, practically vibrating through the comm. “The squad just got word, there’s going to be a military ball next week! Only for troopers and their guests! Dresses, music, dancing… it’s going to be amazing! Kix and I are already planning!”
You grin, leaning against the counter. “Next week? That’s… fast. And only troopers?”
“Yes! And… well…” Her voice drops a teasing note. “Tup might ask you.”
You raise an eyebrow, smiling faintly. “Oh really?”
Before you can respond further, the medbay door swings open with a rush. Fives strides in, slightly out of breath, comm in hand, eyes immediately locking on you.
“Hey,” he says, voice low and sharp, leaning against the doorframe. “Got a minute?”
“Of course,” you reply, hanging up the comm. “Everything okay?”
He steps closer, tension radiating off him. “Have you heard about the military ball?”
“Yes,” you nod, feeling your stomach twist.
“Well. Tup?” he adds, voice low, tight. “He’s going to ask you.”
You blink at him, then glance at your comm. “So I’ve heard.”
Fives exhales sharply, leaning against the counter, jaw tight. “Yeah. So… what are you going to say?”
You shrug, trying to stay casual. “I… haven’t thought about it yet.”
His grin is gone, replaced by a tense line of his mouth. “Go with me instead.”
You blink, caught off guard. “What?”
“As friends,” he says. “Don’t worry about slow dances, or… anything. Just… go with me. Don’t let him ask first.”
You hesitate. “Fives…”
He leans closer, voice dropping so only you can hear. “I don’t like watching you and Tup get close. Not one bit. So yeah. Go with me. As friends. No questions.”
You glance at Fives, who’s watching you, tense and restless. His insistence, the sharp edge in his voice leaving you confused. Then it dawns on you.
“I can’t believe you’re jealous,” you murmur.
“Not jealous,” he mutters, eyes flicking away, voice low and sharp. “Just… not good at watching other people get close to you.”
You bite back a smile, caught between amusement and frustration. “You’re impossible, you know that?”
“And you love it,” he says, smirking despite the tension. He steps back, letting you breathe, but the air between you feels charged, too small for the emotions swirling in it.
“Go with me,” he says again, quieter this time. “As friends. I’ll be the perfect gentleman. You’ll have the time of your life.”
Silence stretches, thick and charged. You can feel his warmth beside you, the tension rolling between you like static.
Finally, you nod once. “Fine.”
He exhales, a small, almost disbelieving smile tugging at his mouth. “Fine.”
The quiet settles again, heavier now. You clear your throat, trying to break it. “One condition,” you say.
“Anything.”
“Buy me flowers. I know we’re going as friends, but I still want flowers. Lilacs.”
He looks at you for a long moment, then his grin spreads, slow and boyish.
“Done.”
—
The dress feels heavy on you. Not just from the beadwork, but from everything it carries. Each opalite gem catches the light as you move, shimmering like frozen tears. It’s beautiful… but you don’t feel beautiful. You feel strange. Like the air has shifted and you can’t quite catch your breath.
Excited, maybe. Nervous, definitely. But beneath it all, there’s something softer, lonelier. A weight you can’t name pressing against your ribs.
Aby notices. Of course she does. She’s sitting on the floor, fastening the strap of her heel, when she glances up and narrows her eyes.
“Okay,” she says, standing. “What’s going on with you? You’ve been quiet this whole time. Not even dancing to my pre-game playlist. That’s a crime.”
You try to laugh, but it catches in your throat. You sit beside her on the edge of the bed, the dress bunching awkwardly around your knees. The sight of her, radiant and confident, makes something twist in your chest.
And then, the worst mistake: you look at her.
Because the moment you do, your vision blurs.
Aby’s face softens instantly. “Oh, sweetheart…”
You shake your head, voice cracking. “I don’t know what’s wrong. Maybe I’m just nervous? Maybe it’s the dress, or the ball, or…”
She takes your hands gently, grounding you. “You’re not nervous about the ball.”
You blink, confused.
“It’s Fives,” she says, simply.
Your stomach flips. “What about him?”
Her smile is small, tender. “You love him.”
You try to laugh, but it comes out watery. “Of course I love him. He’s one of my best friends.”
She tilts her head, the way she does when she’s about to call you out on something. “No. You love him.”
You inhale sharply, shaking your head. “Aby, no. We’re… we’re just friends.”
“Right,” she says softly, brushing away a tear that’s escaped down your cheek. “And that’s the problem, isn’t it? You keep saying you’re friends, but it’s tearing you apart.”
You look down, fingers twisting in your lap, the beads of your dress catching on your skin. “He doesn’t see me that way.”
Aby sighs, squeezing your hand. “Sweetheart, have you seen the way he looks at you? Like he’s trying to memorize you every time. Like he’s afraid if he blinks, you’ll disappear.”
Your breath hitches. You’d noticed it, of course. The way his eyes lingered just a little too long, the way his jokes carried a softness that wasn’t there with anyone else. You’d just never let yourself believe it meant anything.
Aby leans in closer, her voice gentle but firm. “You need to stop pretending this isn’t real. Go tonight, look him in the eye, and say something. Even if it’s scary.”
You swallow hard, blinking back more tears. “And what if he doesn’t feel the same?”
“Then at least you’ll know,” she says, brushing a curl behind your ear. “But if he does, and I’m telling you he does, you’ll never forgive yourself for staying quiet.”
“I’m scared.” You whisper to the mirror in front of you.
Aby meets your eyes in the glass, her reflection steady and warm. “That just means it matters.”
Just then there’s a knock at the door.
“Stay here, get cleaned up. I’ll go stall them.” Aby says, and leaves you to yourself.
Do you? Love him?
You know the answer.
All those touches that left your heart fluttering. His smile, his laugh.
Your heart aches. Then you take a deep breath.
No.
Tonight is just about fun. Not big reveals and secrets and…love. Aby’s wrong.
Just fun. Just friends. That’s all.
You touch up your face and then make your way into the living room where you can hear Fives and Kix whistling over Aby’s maroon dress, her no doubt spinning and absorbing the attention.
You step into view and silence falls.
Kix speaks up, “You look great.” He says with a smile. Aby elbows him, playfully.
Fives just stares.
“We’ll meet you there.” Aby says, giving you a look while dragging Kix out the door.
You walk up to Fives. He’s still staring.
“So?” You say, arms outstretched to show the dress.
“You.” He swallows. “You look…beautiful” he nearly whispers.
You laugh quietly. “You don’t look so bad yourself.”
There's a moment of quiet, with Fives clenching and unclenching his fists. Then a look of shock crosses his face.
“Kriff! I forgot your flowers! I bought them and everything, I left them in the barracks.”
You laugh. “Well thank you for the lovely bouquet anyway.”
The two of you are caught in each other's gaze for a moment more. Then he offers you his arm and the two of you are off into the night.
—
The ballroom is alive with soft light and the low hum of music, the polished floors reflecting the glow of chandeliers. Fives leads you inside, his arm steady around yours, and the rest of the squad drifts off to their own corners, leaving the two of you to your own world.
He pulls you onto the dance floor without waiting for a song to start, spinning you with surprising gentleness despite the heels digging into your feet. Laughter bubbles up from you both as you match steps, stumbling just slightly, and he steadies you effortlessly.
“You’re killing me with these moves,” he teases, his grin bright, eyes shining.
“You’re just mad I didn’t fall on my face,” you reply, spinning under his arm and letting the music carry you.
He laughs, a rich, warm sound that fills your chest. “I like watching you dance.”
You blush.
The night stretches on in a blur of music and laughter. Fives is patient, attentive, charming in a way that feels effortless, and for a while, you let yourself forget the weight of everything else. Just let yourself float in this small bubble of joy.
Eventually, you excuse yourself, needing a moment to catch your breath. You slip into the quieter hallway toward the refreshment area, smoothing your dress and brushing your hair out of your face. As you reach for a glass of water, a voice halts you.
“Well, well… look who decided to show up.”
You freeze. Kitty. Fives’ ex. She’s leaning casually against the table, arms crossed, eyes sharp.
You force a polite smile. “Kitty.”
She tilts her head, smirk in place but her eyes piercing. “You look… lovely. All glimmering and perfect. Just like him, huh?”
You stiffen. “What do you want, Kitty?”
She steps closer, lowering her voice to something dangerous. “I’m just saying… if he really wanted you, you’d know by now. He’d be clear. Simple as that.”
Your stomach twists, heat rising to your cheeks. “That’s… not true,” you say quietly, heart hammering.
Kitty laughs, low and knowing. “Oh, come on. You know how he is. Don’t get your hopes up, sweetheart. You might think he cares, but he’s Fives. He doesn’t do subtle. If he wanted you, you’d already know.”
You glance toward the dance floor, and through the crowd, you see Fives laughing with another trooper, completely unaware of the conversation. Your chest tightens, anger and frustration sparking.
You straighten your shoulders. “We’re just friends.”
Kitty tilts her head, amused. “And that's all you'll ever be.”
With that, she glides past you, leaving a cold trace of challenge in her wake. You grip your glass tightly, taking a deep breath, and turn back toward the dance floor.
The next slow song hums through the ballroom, soft and heavy with promise. You glance toward Fives and freeze. Kitty has looped her arm through his, her grin bright and teasing.
“Fives, come on. Just one dance,” she purrs, leaning close.
He stiffens, just enough for you to notice. “Kitty… really? Who are you even here with?” he mutters under his breath, clearly reluctant. His hand rests lightly on her waist, polite, restrained, but you can see it. Every movement is measured, controlled.
Your stomach twists. You know he doesn’t want this, that he’s only appeasing her, but seeing him this close to anyone else makes something ache in your chest.
Before you can spiral further, Tup steps up beside you, hand extended, eyes warm and earnest. “May I have this dance?”
You take it immediately, letting him guide you to the floor. His presence is grounding. Each step, each turn, is confident and deliberate, but your chest still feels tight and constricting.
From the corner of your eye, you can’t help but see Fives and Kitty dancing together. She’s laughing, head tilted toward him, and he offers a tight-lipped smile, one hand still over hers. It’s polite. That’s all it is.
Tup spins you across the floor, eyes holding yours, the heat of his attention making you a little uncomfortable. Every so often, your glance flicks back toward Fives, and you only feel worse.
And then… the moment your stomach drops.
Kitty leans up, pressing her lips to Fives’. He doesn’t resist. He doesn’t pull away. The world tilts, the music fading into a muffled hum in your ears. Your hands tighten on Tup’s, pulse spiking, eyes wide.
Tup notices instantly, jaw clenching, but doesn’t say a word. His hand on yours is steady, but you can’t look away. Fives, the man who occupies every corner of your thoughts, is kissing someone else, even if only out of obligation or politeness.
You force yourself to breathe, but a hot sting rises behind your eyes. You had told yourself tonight was just fun. Just friends. But seeing them like this, reality crashes in: it’s not just fun. Not for you. Not anymore.
The dance ends, and you gently step away from Tup. “I… need a moment,” you murmur, slipping out toward the balcony. Aby, mid-laugh with colleagues, catches sight of you and freezes. She can tell. She can always tell. She hustles after you and wraps an arm around your shoulders.
“Just breathe, okay?” she says, guiding you to a quiet corner. You let yourself sit, dress rustling, shaking slightly, trying to steady your racing heart. You don’t cry, though your chest aches.
You want him. You want him so badly it hurts.
And he doesn’t want you.
A soft shadow falls over the balcony. “Hey… there you are.” Fives’ voice cuts through the night.
You stay still, shoulders tight, not turning. Aby rises, blocking him instinctively. “Just a second, Fives…” she starts, frowning, but you stop her with a whisper. “It’s fine.” She gives you a quick hug and returns inside, leaving you alone with him.
“I’m sorry.” His voice is low, hesitant.
“For?” you ask, still not looking at him.
He shakes his head. “I… I don’t know. There’s nothing going on with Kitty. It didn’t mean anything.”
You shrug, voice flat. “Why do I care if there is? We’re just friends.”
He flinches at your words, and for a moment, you see it, the tightness in his jaw, the tension coiling through his shoulders. “We’re… just friends,” he repeats, his voice low.
He studies you now, really sees you, the way your hands tremble slightly, the shimmer in your eyes from unshed tears.
“Honey…” he murmurs, a soft plea, hand outstretched to yours.
“I want to go home, Fives,” you whisper, voice breaking just enough to make him flinch.
He pauses then nods, dropping his hand. “I’ll get us a speeder.”
The ride is quiet, the hum of the engine filling the spaces between your thoughts. Neither of you speak, though the tension is thick, lingering like smoke. At your apartment, he walks you to the door.
“Thank you… for tonight,” you murmur, head down, refusing to meet his gaze.
He reaches out, taking your chin gently between his fingers, tilting your face up so your eyes meet his.
A lock of hair falls across your face, and he brushes it back softly. His hand lingers a moment longer than necessary. He swallows hard. “I still owe you flowers,” he whispers.
You laugh quietly, one solitary tear sliding down your cheek.
He doesn’t hesitate. His thumb brushes the tear away, lingering against your skin. Neither of you says more.
With a quiet nod, he steps back. “Goodnight,” he murmurs, voice barely audible over the city’s hum.
You close the door slowly, leaning against it for a moment. Your pulse still races.
You’re still sitting there, back against the door, when the banging starts. Urgent. Furious.
You wipe your eyes, startled, and open the door.
Fives stands there, breathless, “No,” he says, voice rough.
You blink. “Fives…”
He steps forward, words tumbling out fast. “We’re not ending tonight like that.” His hands rake through his hair. “Kriff, honey, I don’t even know what to say. I don’t know how to fix it, or make it better. I just… I can’t stand thinking that you’re hurting. That you’re crying because of me.”
The tears you’d fought so hard to hold back return, harder this time. He stops pacing instantly, crossing the space between you.
He pulls you into his arms. You collapse against him, inhaling the familiar warmth of him. You cling to him, fingers fisting in his shirt, and cry into his shoulder.
“Tonight was supposed to be fun,” he murmurs against your hair.
“Just fun. Just friends,” you whisper back, voice breaking.
He goes still. Then, softly: “I am your friend. And you’re mine. My best friend, honey.” He pulls back just enough to cup your face in his hands, thumbs brushing away tears. “And I’d do anything to make you happy.”
Your heart twists painfully. “I just wish things were simple.”
“In this day and age? Me and you?” He lets out a small, helpless laugh. “Nothing about this is simple. That’s what makes it special.”
He leans closer, forehead nearly touching yours. “Let me end the night the way it should’ve ended,” he whispers. “Can I have this dance?”
You nod, breath shaky, and place your hand in his.
You dance there in your living room, no music, no lights but the glow from the city through the window. You move slowly, swaying in rhythm only the two of you can hear. His hand fits at your waist, yours against his chest. The world shrinks until there’s only you and him, the quiet beat of two hearts trying to find each other.
By the time the moment ends, you’re both smiling: a little broken, a little healed.
Then his comm goes off, a shrill, jarring sound that slices through the stillness. You flinch. He checks it, jaw tightening.
“We’re shipping out in the morning,” he mutters, the weight of duty settling over him like armor. “Orders just came in. I’ve got to head out.”
He slips the comm back into his pocket and looks at you, unreadable, a thousand things flickering behind his eyes that he doesn’t say. His thumb brushes your knuckles once more, slow, lingering, as if memorizing the feel of your skin. Then he lets go.
Without another word, he turns and walks out into the night.
The door closes, leaving you in silence. You stand there for a long moment, staring at the space he’d just filled, the warmth he’d left behind fading too fast.
You sink down onto the couch, still in your dress, still holding the ghost of his touch in your hands. The city hums beyond the window, indifferent to the ache twisting inside you.
You’re alone with your thoughts and your feelings, and neither of them make any sense at all.
—
You wake to the relentless chirp of your comm. Messages flood in: Aby, Tup, Fives. Your chest tightens as you scroll through them, the words jumbling in your mind. Each ping seems to echo louder than the last, but the one that makes your heart flutter sits prominently at the top of the screen.
“Thank you for the last dance. Be thinking of you, honey. Home soon.”
Your fingers tremble as you stare at the message. You swallow hard, trying to steady yourself.
The feeling washes over you all at once. Resolve.
You will tell him when he comes back. You have to.
You love him. Always have.
—
Days stretch into a haze. No word. Every holocall, every comm ping, your heart leaps, hoping.
Nothing.
Tonight though, something is different.
Aby and you are placed on lockdown. Confined and restless.
“What’s he saying?” You ask, trying desperately to see the comm in Aby’s hand. Kix had been giving her updates throughout the mission. Fives had never reached out. You know in your heart something is wrong, terribly wrong.
“He’s on planet. He’s coming by.” Aby whispers.
You exhale at last. They’re home. Fives might even get here before Kix does, you think.
Half an hour later there’s a knock at the door. You open it, ready to berate him for never responding to you, for making you worry. But it isn’t Fives.
It’s Kix.
“We need to talk.” He says. Your heart falls.
The next hour is… lost to time. A blur. Words tumbling from Kix’s mouth, echoing in your mind like the soundtrack to a horror holo.
They were on Ringo Vinda. Tup killed a Jedi. Fives, Tup on Kamino. Something happened. Something. Some… thing. He’s on Coruscant.
That should solve everything, right? He’s almost home. But Kix continues.
“Fives… he attacked the Chancellor. He’s gone rogue. I ran into him, he gave me some coordinates to pass on to Rex. I did. I’m sure Rex will sort everything out.”
Your chest constricts. Your hands shake. You can’t believe it.
You comm Fives again, and again, desperate, pleading.
Silence.
Kix stays with you and Aby in your apartment. He says it’s in case Fives shows up. You worry it’s actually to turn Fives in if he does show up. Or worse. To protect you from Fives.
Fives isn’t dangerous. This is all a misunderstanding. You know it.
You lay in the dark of your room, trying desperately to sleep but knowing its futile. You’re just about to drift off, exhaustion seeping into your bones, when your comm flashes to life.
You don’t even check to see who it is. You answer it.
“Fives? Fives! Where are you?”
“Honey,” he breathes, voice ragged, almost breaking.
It’s him. It’s really him.
You stumble to the floor, hands gripping the comm, tears spilling unbidden. “Fives! Oh stars, Fives.”
“Just listen,” he gasps. “I don’t have much time.”
Your heart aches as he speaks, each word slicing through you.
“We were never just friends,” he says, each syllable trembling. “It was never that for me. It’s you. From the moment we met, it’s been you. I should have kissed you. All those chances… I should have kissed you and I’ll regret that for all time… Honey, I still owe you those flowers.”
You nearly gasp into the comm: “Fives. Fives, it’s you for me too. Its always been you. Please, come home to me.”
There’s static. The comm cuts off abruptly. Silence crashes over you, heavier than anything you’ve felt before. You don’t know if he even heard you.
You scream, sob, clutching the device to your chest. The tears come freely now, streaking your face.
Aby rushes in and kneels beside you, hand on your shoulder. You gasp out what just happened.
“He could still come back,” she whispers, voice steady, trying to anchor you. “Let’s just wait. He’ll come back.”
Morning light filters through your blinds. Your eyes are red, defeat etched in every line of your face. But when you hear the knock at the door you’re suddenly up, running to get it.
Hands shaking, you pull the door open.
Rex stands there, armor gleaming faintly in the soft light, holding a bouquet of lilacs. He doesn’t speak at first, just holds the flowers out to you, eyes unreadable.
“At the end, he said these were for you. To get these for you. Said he owed you. I’m… sorry,” he says finally, voice low, tense, the weight of unsaid words hanging in the air.
Chapter Summary: A remote planet, a platoon of troopers, and... soup? Camaraderie and friendship blossoms into something that might one day be something more.
It’s raining on Appla the day they arrive. The rain falls in sheets, silvery splashes melting into the red clay of the earth. The storm rolls in from the canyons like a warning, thunder growling low enough to rattle the mining shafts beneath the village.
For weeks, there had been whispers of a coming Republic presence. But on a planet as remote as Appla, people had learned not to believe in rescue. Not until they saw the ships for themselves.
Now, as the first gunships descend through the clouds, the villagers gather beneath dripping awnings and patched-together umbrellas. The settlement is small, a scattering of stone and durasteel, built where the hills bleed ore into the valleys. Its people are a mosaic of the Outer Rim: Twi’leks and Pantorans, Togruta and humans alike, all drawn here by the promise of work and the rumor of safety.
Appla’s mines are rich with a rare mineral, one the Separatists have been desperate to control. There’s whispers of an attack. Other villages have fallen in recent weeks. That’s why the Republic has come.
You’ve all strung up banners between lampposts and doorframes. Bright scraps of cloth flap wildly in the wind, colors running in the rain. A simple welcome for the soldiers they’ve been told will protect the town. For the first time in months, there’s a flicker of hope that maybe, just maybe, you and your friends won’t be forgotten after all.
You’ve been placed in charge of housing the troops. Though the soldiers are rumored to bring their own tents, you and a few friends have worked tirelessly to clean up the local community hall to work as a makeshift headquarters for them here. The timelines are fuzzy, some say they'll stay mere days, others say months. All you know is that as you watch the men descend onto the red, muddy earth, the color smearing on their blue painted shins, you’re filled with a sense of hope and excitement.
A leader of the settlement, Myra, steps forth, this town being ungoverned in the usual sense, and introduces herself to the men. You watch as one of them steps forward to greet her, Myra’s head held high. The soldier has armor slightly different from the others, with fabric at his hips and broad armored shoulders.
“What do you think they’re saying? Do you think he’s cute under that helmet? If he is, that means they all are!” Aby asks, ever twittering in your ear.
Your best friend has been ecstatic ever since she heard there were men, new, real live men coming to this town. Being such a small settlement, she’d run through all the eligible bachelors years ago, and her hunger far surpasses your own when it came to relationships.
You bat her arm. She shrugs and says, “What? They’re clones right? I’m just hoping they’re all handsome.”
You roll your eyes but smile anyway. “They’re here to protect us, Aby. Not romance us. They probably won’t be here long enough for you to charm one anyway.” You giggle and she sticks her tongue out at you.
Then you hear your name called over the din of the rain. Myra, waving you over.
You jog out into the rain, Aby on your heels. Immediately the rain soaks you to your bones, and you do your best not to shiver as you step up to Myra and the mystery soldier.
“This is Captain Rex.” Myra says, beckoning you closer. You thrust out your hand and shout your name over a rumble of thunder. He takes it with a tilt of his head and gives you a firm shake.
“Will you show him and a few of his men to the community hall? Start a fire for them.” She says, and you nod waving the captain over. He turns around and nods at a few of his men, who trot out to him as the lot of you make your way to the hall.
At the hall you wipe your muddy feet on the rug at the entrance and then knock off your boots when inside, hopefully avoiding a mud-massacre in the large open space. Aby, your shadow, does the same, and the men take their cues from the two of you.
You flick on the lights. “It’s not what you’re used to I’m sure, but it’s dry and the roof mostly holds when it rains like this.” You say, strolling to the middle of the massive room.
The community hall was truly just a large open room, a stage on one end, kitchen on the other with some freshers tucked in a corner. Large windows grace the space with ample daylight, though today they just cast a grey glow over the pale walls.
“This will do nicely, thank you.” The captain, Rex, says, and you turn to face him. He and the two men behind him seem to lift their helmets in synchronicity. You practically feel Aby stiffen beside you as they reveal their faces.
All bearing golden brown skin, and deep brown eyes, that seems to be where the similarities of these clones stop. Rex, his hair cropped short and blonde is in sharp contrast to the two men behind him with dark hair.
Same face, different bodies, and entirely different energies. You’ve always been sensitive to energies, and what you feel coming from these men is borderline overwhelming.
Rex gives off an air of duty, he commands the room and your attention.
The one to the left of him, with the curve of blue on his helmet, now tucked under his arm, he seems to be careful, ever watchful.
Then there’s the third. He’s… electric. There’s a spark in his eyes that lights the small corner of the room, and his smirk when he catches you looking leaves your stomach turning. Aby clenches your arm from where she stands next to you.
“I’ll… get a fire started.” You mumble and leave them there to explore the space. You hear Aby’s voice pipe up in her quick, highpitched cadence, and you shake your head slightly as you laugh under your breath. She’s chatting them up already.
Picking up some wood from a pile beside the hearth you stack the wood and strike a long match from the cup on the mantle.
“Fire. I haven’t seen a real fire in… well ever.” A voice comes from behind you.
You turn and it's… him, the electric one. You smile up at him as you stoke the fire.
“Tradition on this planet. We have electricity, heating, so on. But a fire brings us together. Makes a place home. Hopefully this can feel like home for you while you’re here.” You say, standing.
You put out your hand, just like you had for the captain, and introduce yourself. He takes your hand with a smile, bright and dazzling.
“Fives,” he says, voice low and even, rumbling like the thunder outside. It vibrates in your chest, steady and warm. “Thanks for making this place cozy. Not often we get a literal warm welcome.”
He sinks down in front of the hearth, boots planted wide, elbows resting on his knees as he stretches his hands toward the fire. The light from the flames flickers against his armor, dancing over the white and blue plates until they glow like molten steel. That’s when you notice it, the small black 5 inked neatly at his temple. His name, carved right into his skin.
You find yourself smiling. “So that’s what they call you?” you ask, nodding toward the tattoo as you lower yourself beside him. The wood floor creaks beneath your weight. “Fives?”
“Yeah.” He smirks, tilting his head just slightly toward you. “Better than just a number. CT-5555. I’m lucky, the name came naturally.”
The word ‘lucky’ sits strangely in your chest. You poke at the fire instead of responding, nudging a log into place until sparks leap up the chimney. Around you, the rest of his platoon filters in, dripping armor leaving small puddles on the floor. A few of your neighbors move among them, showing where the cots and crates have been laid out, the quiet rhythm of people working together despite the storm.
“You’ve been all over the galaxy, right?” you ask after a moment, glancing sideways at him.
Fives hums, leaning back on his palms. “Oh, sure.” His tone is casual, but his eyes go distant for a second, like he’s seeing something far away. “My home planet, if you can call it that, was rainier than this. Rained every day.”
You wrinkle your nose. “Sounds miserable.”
He laughs, a short, warm sound that cuts through the patter of rain against the windows. “Yeah, you’d think so. But you get used to it.”
You rest your chin on your knees, studying him in the firelight. “What’s your favorite planet you’ve been to?”
He crosses his arms, eyes flicking up to the ceiling as he thinks. The gesture pulls his shoulders tight, armor plates catching the orange glow. His mouth twists slightly, like he’s tasting the question. Then he smiles.
“Coruscant,” he says finally. “It’s home, really. That’s where we go between missions. It’s a city planet. The whole thing’s covered in lights and noise and people. You can find anything there. Caf shops that never close, hangars filled with ships from every system. It never sleeps. I love that.”
The way he talks about it makes you see it, somehow. Those bright towers stretching up into forever, crowded streets buzzing with life. You can almost hear it, the hum.
“What about you?” he asks, turning his head toward you.
You blink, caught off guard by the earnestness in his tone. “Me?”
“Yeah. Your favorite planet.”
You can’t help the soft laugh that escapes you. “I’ve never left Appla.”
He stares at you, eyes widening just slightly. “Never?”
You shake your head, smiling at the disbelief on his face. “Never. Born here. Grew up here. Guess I just never had a reason to leave.”
Fives studies you for a moment longer, and the humor in his expression fades into something gentler. “Huh.” He leans forward, elbows on his knees again, gaze flicking to the fire. “Can’t imagine staying in one place that long. But that’s war for you. It’d be nice. To belong somewhere enough that you don’t have to keep moving. But you really should go out, you know, see the galaxy. There’s alot more than rain and mountains out there.”
Then, in the distance, the town’s bells begin to toll a soft, low sound rolling over the hills. You rise, brushing off your hands. “I’ve got to get going. I’ll bring some extra blankets for you and your men later. Thanks for chatting.”
He looks up at you, that easy grin returning. “See you later.”
You nod, trying not to smile too widely as you turn toward the door. The hall’s light spills behind you, warm and golden against the rain, and even as the storm swallows you whole, you can still feel the echo of his voice. You’ve never met soldiers before him, the others. They seem so… human. Kind. Not at all like you pictured them to be.
You like that.
—
The storm finally breaks by morning.
When you step outside, the air smells clean, like something made anew. Puddles glitter in the red clay streets, and children splash through them while their parents sweep water out of doorways. The sky is still a dull gray, but for the first time in days, there’s a promise of sun pushing through.
You spot them before you hear them. The clones move in pairs through the settlement, white armor dulled with mud and water streaks. They’ve been in the community hall since dawn, heads bent over datapads and holomaps as they plotted whatever mission brought them here. Now, with the afternoon stretching quiet and the villagers returning to their routines, they’ve come out to help.
Rex is talking with Myra near the mining lift, hands clasped behind his back as he listens, serious as ever. A few of the men haul sandbags toward the southern ridge where the runoff from the canyons threatens to flood the lower homes. Others patch rooftops or help unload shipments of food from the freighter that arrived that morning.
And then there’s Fives.
You find him by the well, sleeves rolled up, helping a group of teenagers haul a heavy water pump back into place. His armor plates are stripped off, left in a pile beside the wall, leaving just the black underlayer that clings to his frame. His forearms flex with the effort, muscles tensing as he braces the weight.
“Careful, that’s been half-rusted since before I was born,” you call, walking up with a crate of ration bars for the men.
He glances over his shoulder, grinning when he sees you. “Good morning to you too.”
“It’s past noon,” you tease.
“Morning for soldiers,” he counters easily, wiping sweat and rain from his brow. “We’ve been planning all day. Needed to stretch the legs before we turned into statues.”
You set the crate on the edge of the well. “Well, if you’re feeling energetic, I could use some help in the kitchen. The town’s putting together lunch for your squad.”
His eyes light up, and you know instantly he’s going to say yes. “Lead the way.”
The two of you make your way into the community hall kitchen where boxes of ingredients line the counters and the cabinets hang open. You hear a sudden rattling of metal and someone curses.
“Thank the stars you’re here. You know I hate cooking duty.” Aby says, wiping flour off her shirt as she rounds the corner, stopping abruptly when she sees you… and Fives.
“Oh. You found someone to cover my shift, great!” She says, scooping you into a hug as she skips away.
“Hey wait!” You call but she’s already gone, leaving you with a wink as she trots out the door.
You roll your eyes and sigh. “She really does hate cooking. It’s not about you, I promise.”
Fives smirks. “Could’ve fooled me.”
You gesture for him to follow as you push open the swinging door to the kitchen. The smell hits first: earthy and sharp, half raw vegetables and half burnt oil. Steam curls lazily from a pot on the stove, and Aby’s already managed to scatter flour across half the counter.
“Looks like she was starting on…” you pause, surveying the chaos. “Claybread and vegetable soup.”
He leans in beside you, resting his forearms on the counter, studying the mess like it’s a battlefield. “Claybread?”
You grin. “Local recipe. A bread made of local produce called claycorn. You fry it on a griddle and hope it doesn’t fall apart.
You look around before you see where she left off, vegetables half chopped on the counter in the corner.
“How’s your chopping skills?”
He straightens, glancing between the cutting board and you with visible hesitation. “I’ve never cooked before.”
You blink. “Ever?”
“Hey,” he says defensively, holding up his hands, “I’m a soldier, not a chef.”
You cross your arms, trying to hide a smile. “So what do you eat out there, then?”
He grabs a knife and gives it an experimental spin between his fingers, clearly more comfortable with it as a weapon than a utensil. “Rations. Stuff that comes in tubes or boxes. Tastes like glue, looks worse.”
“That’s tragic,” you say, nudging him out of the way to rescue the pot from boiling over. “Alright, soldier, lesson one: real food needs love, not just heat.”
He raises an eyebrow. “Love. Got it. Do I whisper sweet nothings to it?”
You laugh despite yourself, the sound echoing softly in the warm, messy kitchen. “Just chop those roots, smart-mouth.”
He does, though it’s slow going. His slices are uneven, some too thick, some paper thin. Still, he’s careful, tongue caught between his teeth in concentration. You can’t help but watch him for a moment, the furrow in his brow, the way his shoulders relax as he starts to find a rhythm.
“Not bad,” you admit when he finally looks up.
When he’s finished he makes a show of gesturing toward the pile of diced vegetables. “I’d call that a success.”
You grin and sweep the pieces into the pot with a wooden spoon. “Congratulations, you just made lunch happen.”
He smiles.
The two of you work side by side after that, falling into an easy rhythm: stirring, frying, bumping elbows when you both reach for the same ladle. Outside, you can hear the faint hum of voices and laughter drifting in from the square, the sound of soldiers and villagers blending together.
When the claybread hits the griddle, the smell of browning meal and butter fills the air. Fives leans over to sniff and grins. “Okay,” he admits, “that smells alot better than ration bars.
You look up at him, smiling. “Good. Because you’re on dish duty if it burns.”
He chuckles, low and warm.
The two of you continue on until the other soldiers start to filter into the hall, all varying in muddiness and stripping down to their blacks.
“I got it from here. Thank you for your help, Fives.” You say as you start to dish out the soup into bowls and hand it to the men lining up.
“No way.” He says. “I’m seeing this through. Serving the Republic, one bowl at a time.”
You laugh but don’t protest, and the two of you feed the literal army in front of you before grabbing your own bowls.
“I want to introduce you to my friends. Have lunch with us?” Fives asks, and you want to shy away, but he gives you these puppy-dog eyes and a lip pout when he notices your hesitation.
You bump his shoulder with a laugh and give in, forfeiting your usual seat with Aby to walk over to a small group of soldiers in a semi circle. You recognize Rex, and the clone that was there yesterday when you opened the hall.
The room is buzzing with chatter and the clatter of spoons against metal bowls, but the laughter from this group stands out.
Rex looks up first, his sharp gaze softening when he spots you, giving you a little nod.
You smile, ducking your head a little.
A boisterous soldier pipes up, “There’s the chef! This soup is the best I’ve ever had. Not that I’ve had many soups, but this tops them all!”
You blush and laugh. “Just doing my part to feed our heroes.”
“She’s being modest,” Fives says, setting his bowl down beside Rex’s. “You should’ve seen her, real commander in the kitchen. Had me chopping roots like my life depended on it.”
“Probably did,” the lone medic across from Rex quips, smirking. “I’m Kix. Nice to meet you. Thanks for the meal.”
You nod, offering a polite smile. “Glad to be of service.”
The loud one pipes up. “Hardcase! Pleasure to meet you!” And you smile brightly at him.
Next to him, the clone you recognize from the tour of the hall speaks up. “Echo,” he says. His tone is quieter, but there’s a warmth there. “Appreciate the soup. Better than anything we’ve had in weeks.”
“Thanks,” you reply, glancing at Fives. “Guess we make a good team.”
He grins wide.
Rex rolls his eyes, but there’s a trace of a smile tugging at his mouth. “Don’t encourage him. His head’s big enough as it is.”
Fives points his spoon at Rex. “You say that now, but when you’re asking for seconds…” He winks at his captain.
You settle onto the bench between Fives and Echo, the wood creaking beneath you. It’s strange, being surrounded by armor and identical faces, but they each carry themselves so differently that the sameness fades almost immediately. The conversation flows easily and you relax into the banter.
At one point, Fives leans in slightly, his shoulder brushing yours. “See, they’re not so bad.” he says, voice low enough for only you to hear.
You glance up at him, smiling despite yourself. “Yeah.”
Rex catches the exchange and gives a small, knowing shake of his head before turning the talk back to the next day’s patrol.
Kix speaks up then, pointing his spoon at you. “So. What’s your story.”
You look at him confused. “Story?”
He nods. “Everyone’s got one. What makes you tick, how do you spend your days out here in the middle of nowhere?”
You shrug. “I do a little of everything. We all do. Though I was training to be the town doctor, until our doctor… left. Suddenly. Now I just do what I can with what I know. We don’t have anyone with more medical knowledge than my handful, so I make do.”
Kix grins. “Now that, I like. I’m the squad medic. Let’s say tomorrow you show me what you know, and I can fill in some blanks. How’s that sound?”
Your eyes widen. “You mean it? That would be so helpful.”
He nods. “For sure. Meet you in the morning after we get our briefings done.”
You smile and then Fives pipes up. “She’s never left this planet. Can you believe that? We’ve all seen so many. What’s everyone’s favorite?”
The crowd laughs and passes stories around like candy, sweetness filling the air and leaving you laughing and smiling. Every planet they describe seems more and more magical, and an ache in your chest blossoms for places you’ve never seen.
Lunch winds down and all around you the men stand, stacking dishes and piling them on the counter near the kitchen before making their way back out to the courtyard.
“Well gentlemen, this has been nice, but duty calls.” You stand and stretch, then collect their empty bowls.
They all stand and give you words of appreciation for the meal and cleaning up.
Suddenly the bowls piled in your hands are taken from your grasp and carted off, Fives’ arms full as he tosses you a smile over his shoulder.
“What do you think you’re doing, soldier?” You call, pivoting to wiping down the table.
“Dishes! That’s part of kitchen duty, isn’t it?” He shouts across the room. You shake your head and follow him into the kitchen.
“No, you’ve done enough. Go be with the others, I got this.” You say as you take a dish from his now soapy hands. He snatches it right back. “Ah, ah. No. I’m helping.” You roll your eyes, but slide next to him at the sink and start washing too.
“Tell me more about other planets.” You say as you scrub and dry, and Fives sighs.
“Well let’s see… There’s Felucia,” Fives begins, leaning against the counter as he rinses a plate. “Jungle planet, huge mushrooms everywhere. Bright colors everywhere, kind of like someone spilled a rainbow all over the place. Very… alive. Dangerous too, if you’re not careful. Predators, poisonous plants, the whole package.”
You shake your head. “Not on my bucket list. Next.”
Fives shrugs, grabbing another dish. “Every planet’s got its charm. Even the rough ones like Umbara.” His tone softens a bit. “Dark, dangerous… but the soldiers there taught me a lot. You get attached to places when they test you.”
You nod, feeling the weight behind his words without needing him to elaborate. “You’ve all seen so much,” you say quietly.
He glances at you, a small smile tugging at his lips. “And I’m not done yet.”
The two of you fall into a comfortable rhythm, scrubbing, rinsing, and drying together. Between the steam and the soft clatter of dishes, there’s a sense of normalcy, an unexpected peace amidst everything else.
Finally, you set the last plate on the drying rack. “All done,” you say, brushing your hands together.
Fives wipes his hands too and looks at you, grin bright. “Great teamwork.”
You roll your eyes playfully, but there’s warmth in your smile.
Just then the door swings open and a clone, Echo, walks in. “Fives, we have a quick briefing if you can make it. Some things are shifting, need to be ready.” Fives’ demeanor immediately changes, the friendly, casual energy gone and replaced by seriousness.
“See you later.” he calls to you as he leaves the room, following Echo into the main hall. You take your cue and leave out of the back door so as not to disturb the meeting happening in the other room.
“There you are!” Aby nearly squeals as she sees you, and grabs you by the hand, leading you away.
“I need you to tell me everything! What’s his name… Fives. Tell me all about him. Is he nice? Is he funny? Is he single?”
You laugh at her as the two of you sit at your kitchen table, having slipped into the cottage you share and kicked off your boots.
“He’s… nice.” You say and she nearly swoons.
“I met one. Kix. He’s so, well, serious! But not in a bad way. He helped out today while I… supervised.” Aby’s smile could melt a moon.
“Well go on, tell me all about him.” You say and she launches into stories of his conversations with her. While she talks you think back to your day, and Fives. He really is nice, so nice. And funny. You could see yourself becoming fast friends with him, and you secretly hope that he’s around long enough for that to happen.
The rest of the day passes in a blur with the men in meetings and briefings that you arent privy to. You curl into your bed that night a little exhausted and sleep soundly, dreaming of soups and soldiers.
—
Days pass with these small, little changes that warm your heart. The soldiers, while waiting for new orders or to protect the valley from some forewarned attack, have made a habit of helping out around the village, which now is in better shape than it has been in years.
Fives has helped you with cooking duty every day for the week they’ve been here, and the closer you’ve gotten, the more you are sad to know that soon he will leave, and you’ll be left here on this rock for the rest of your life. His life in the GAR isn’t fun, its war and fighting and loss, but it is glorious. It’s seeing the galaxy, and the more he talks about it, the more you crave it.
You’ve been meeting with Kix every morning to go over some simple medic training, tools and tricks that will aid the village for years to come. This morning however, he didn’t show in your usual meeting place. You notice the whole of the village is too quiet for what is normally a busy morning. So you go looking.
By the time you reach the edge of the settlement, you can hear it, shouting, laughter, the unmistakable sounds of competition. You follow the noise down toward the open field behind the village, where a mess of white armor, mud, and chaos collides in disarray.
“Is that…” you start, but Aby’s suddenly running up to you, by your side, and cuts you off.
“They’re playing!” she exclaims, eyes wide and delighted.
And they are. The clones have carved out makeshift goalposts from two fallen fence beams, and a mud-slick sphere that looks suspiciously like a repurposed supply container hurtles through the air. Every soldier on the field is drenched, streaked with red clay and rainwater. It’s less a game and more a battlefield with rules that no one seems to follow.
“It’s some strange game, I’ve never seen anything like it!” Aby says, smile cracking her face in half, nearly.
You watch as Fives comes barreling through a wall of mud-smeared bodies, yelling something that sounds like a war cry. He’s covered head to toe, unrecognizable except for the flash of his grin and the faint black 5 gleaming through the mess. Your heart does a leap at the sight of him, determination on his face. Your face heats.
“Come on, Fives!” you shout before you can stop yourself, cupping your hands around your mouth.
He glances up mid-sprint, just long enough to flash you a dazzling grin before a streak of black, Echo, slams into him from the side. Both of them hit the mud with a satisfying splat. The entire field erupts in laughter.
“Oh, that’s going to bruise,” Aby says through giggles, and you join in.
Rex stands on the sidelines, arms crossed, pretending not to enjoy himself. But even from here, you can see the faint smirk tugging at his mouth as he calls, “That’s a foul, Fives!”
“Was not!” Fives shouts back, scrambling to his feet and slipping halfway through it. “Echo tackled me!”
“That’s called defense!” Echo retorts, wiping mud from his face.
“Looked more like a hug to me,” Kix adds, and Hardcase bursts out laughing so hard he nearly drops the ball.
You and Aby cheer as Fives takes off again, this time diving through the muck to grab the ball just as it hits the goal line. He raises it above his head triumphantly, a champion crowned in mud and chaos.
He turns toward you immediately, smirking as he cups his hands around his mouth. “Did you see that?”
You clap and whistle, laughing. “I saw you fall… twice.”
“Style points!” he yells back, and Hardcase slaps him on the shoulder, nearly knocking him over again.
“Alright, troops,” Rex calls, raising his voice over the laughter. “One more round! Then you’re all cleaning the hall before dinner!”
A chorus of groans rises up, but no one leaves the field. You settle yourself on a dry patch of fence and watch them, elbows resting on your knees. They move like brothers, all pushes and shoves. Every shout, every slide, every burst of laughter feels alive.
In the short time they’ve been here you’ve learned one thing about these soldiers, these clones. They’re just as human as you. They love, they feel, they play.
They live.
Aby elbows you gently. “You’re smiling.”
You don’t even try to hide it. “They’re ridiculous.”
She grins. “You mean he’s ridiculous.”
You nudge her back. “Shut up.”
You do look at him though. Fives. Your quick friendship makes your heart flutter when you see him. You’ve told Aby, multiple times, that it’s not like that. You’re just friends. But something inside you wishes you could be even closer… friends.
The game ends with a spectacular finish: Hardcase flings the ball wildly toward the goal, it ricochets off Kix’s helmet, and somehow Fives dives through the air, full stretch, to catch it before it hits the ground. The clones explode in cheers and jeers alike, and Fives sits up, utterly caked in red clay, grinning like a fool.
“That’s my boy!” Hardcase shouts, hauling him up by the arm.
Fives immediately scans the sideline, eyes landing on you. “Told you when I first met you, we make a good team!” he shouts, pointing your way.
You raise your hands in mock surrender. “I didn’t do anything!”
“Didn’t need to,” he says, still grinning. “You’re good luck.”
That shouldn’t make your stomach flip the way it does, but it does anyway.
The game dissolves into laughter and roughhousing, soldiers chasing each other across the mud, splattering anyone within range, including Aby, who yelps and ducks behind you. When Fives jogs over, dripping and streaked in clay, you’re already shaking your head.
“Don’t you dare,” you warn, backing up.
He stops a few feet away, feigning innocence. “What? I was just coming to say hello.”
“You’re filthy.”
He takes a deliberate step forward, the grin on his face full of mischief.
“Fives…”
He lunges.
You shriek and take off running, boots slipping in the mud, laughter tearing through your chest as he gives chase. The clones cheer him on like it’s a mission. “Get her, Fives!” someone calls.
He catches you easily, of course he does, and you squeal as he spins you once, leaving a perfect handprint of mud across your shoulder before setting you down.
“There,” he says, grinning ear to ear. “Now you match.”
You glare at him through your laughter, swiping a smear of clay from your sleeve and flicking it at his face.
He laughs, wiping it away with his wrist. “Alright, truce. For now.”
Aby’s still howling with laughter behind you as Rex calls the end of the game, ordering everyone to rinse off before tracking more mud into the hall. Fives lingers a second longer, his eyes catching yours, bright and alive even beneath all the grime.
“Come cheer for us again sometime,” he says, softer now.
“Only if you promise not to tackle me again,” you tease.
He chuckles, backing away toward the others. “No promises.”
As he disappears into the crowd of laughing soldiers, you find yourself still smiling, muddy and breathless.
Rex walks over to you, seemingly the only clone not bathed in red clay, and keeps a short distance away from the mess that is you.
“Hey. I have a favor to ask. Myra says you know these mountains really well. We’re gathering a team of four to go do a recon mission in the morning in the hills. Would you lead a soldier on a hike? I have three other volunteers and just need one more.”
You smile and nod. “Lead a hike? Sure. I love hiking.”
He nods at you and turns, immediately pulling out his datapad. You notice his face shift, the fun from moments ago slipping as he looks at the numbers on the screen. Something darker, more serious shadows him. You try not to let yourself worry.
Hours later at dinner you cant help but notice that Fives does’t show up for cooking duty. You busy yourself with the work, more now that it’s just you alone, and work to make fried tipyip for the men, no doubt hungry from the game earlier and helping out around the village after.
You’re just finishing up and getting ready to start plating for the men lining up when he skids into the kitchen, sliding directly into the cabinets, rattling them.
“I’m here! I’m here.” He gasps, breathless, as if he ran the whole way. You notice he isn’t in his blacks, but rather a full kit sans helmet. You screw your face up at him. “Why are you so dressed up?”
He looks down and away, his eyes turning slightly stony. “We got some reports of movement in the mountains. Rex wants us ready for an attack at any moment.”
You drop the ladle in your hand, heart stuttering.
Suddenly his hand is on your arm, the other on your shoulder.
“I shouldn’t have said anything. It’s nothing, I promise. There could be attack away from the village, Rex is just cautious. You’re safe, I swear it.”
The warmth of his hands seeps into you and warms your heart frozen in fear. You swallow hard. “Sorry. I just… I guess I forgot why you guys were actually here.”
He smiles gently at you. “Here. Let me help plate up.” He takes the ladle from the floor and tosses it in the sink, then grabs a fresh one to help dish out the meal.
You move robotically, mind racing. An attack. A real attack on the village. You’ve never even seen a battle droid. Surely if they were that close to attacking, you’d know. Then again, you are leading that recon mission hike tomorrow. Maybe they need to map the terrain for an imminent threat.
“Hey.” Fives says softly. You startle again and look up at him.
“I got you a plate. Let’s go eat, yeah?”
You follow him out and sit amongst his brothers. You’re silent as you eat, the cacophony of the hall bleeding into a dull hum. You look at all these men, the men who over the course of a little over a week have become friends with you, with the whole village. If an attack happens, some of them might not walk away. Some of the villagers might not.
You might not.
There’s a heaviness on your knee then, and you turn to see Fives, looking at you as he smiles at his brothers. His hand rests on your leg, warm and weighty and it calms you.
Fives wouldn’t let anything happen to you, to Aby, to your friends and the families living here.
Rex wouldn’t, his steadiness a comfort as he sits across the table.
Even Echo and Kix and Hardcase, their presence reminds you that this is what they trained for. They know what they’re doing. You’ll be safe. This will be fine.
You take a deep breath, trying to calm the restless energy buzzing in your chest, and work to focus on the conversation at the table. Immediately, you’re intrigued.
“…and I kissed her anyway!” Hardcase crows, finishing his story with a triumphant slap of his palm against the table. The other clones groan in unison.
Jesse groans the loudest. “Hardcase, you’ve kissed every bartender in Coruscant. We get it.”
Fives chuckles. “Yeah, leave a few standing for the rest of us, huh?”
The table bursts into laughter again, and Fives shoots you a grin like you’re in on the joke. You shake your head, amused, until Hardcase fires back with a grin that says he’s not letting it go.
“Please, Fives. You’ve broken more hearts than I’ve broken rules.”
The laughter doubles, but you blink in surprise, glancing at Fives. He just rubs the back of his neck, smiling sheepishly, and doesn’t deny it.
Something about it catches you off guard, you hadn’t pictured him like that. But then again, you’ve only known him a week. A few days of jokes, late-night mess hall conversations, don’t exactly give you the full picture of a man.
Still, the idea of him charming his way across entire sectors makes you laugh softly to yourself. It fits him, somehow.
“Wow,” you say, light and teasing. “I had no idea I was sitting next to a galactic celebrity.”
Fives chuckles, tilting his head toward you. “Celebrity, huh? I don’t know about that.”
“Oh, come on,” you tease back, nudging him with your elbow. “Sounds like I should be asking for an autograph before the fans show up.”
That earns another round of laughter from the table. Even Fives laughs, shaking his head.
Hardcase grins. “If Fives ever settles down, the whole galaxy’ll throw a parade. Even the droids won’t believe it.”
“Now that’s probably true,” you say, smirking. “He doesn’t exactly seem like the type.”
Fives raises an eyebrow, mock-offended. “The type?”
You shrug. “You know. You’re… Charming. Talks fast. Probably forgets half the things he promises. Settling down is the opposite of that.”
“Harsh,” he says, but he’s laughing. “And here I thought we were friends.”
“We are,” you say easily, smiling over the rim of your drink. “That’s why I can say it.”
He laughs, genuine this time, and the tension, if there ever was any, melts right back into warmth.
You tell yourself it’s silly to think too much about it. You’ve only known Fives a week, but it already feels like longer. You click with him in a way that surprises you: the kind of person who’s easy to talk to, easy to trust. Someone who makes long days feel a little shorter.
The group starts another round of stories, laughter rising again. Fives leans closer to make a joke, and you bump your shoulder against his, grinning.
Whatever he used to be or whoever he’s been with before doesn’t matter.
You’re just friends.
And honestly, you’re glad for that. You have the feeling it’s going to be a good friendship.
One worth keeping.
—
You lace up your boots at the base of the mountain trail, the soles already muddied and slightly slick from the trek up to this point. The morning mist shrouds you and the three other villagers as you wait for Captain Rex and his small troop of men to join you for the hike.
You spot them coming over the ridgeline, fully dressed in armor and helmeted.
They also carry blasters, which is new to you. Worry presses in on you like a landslide. What intel had they gotten that they felt the need to arm themselves now?
“Good morning, all.” Rex says as the troop stops. You recognize all three of the other soldiers: Kix, Echo and Fives. You’d learned over the past few days that Echo and Fives are something called an “ARC trooper” meaning they have a higher ranking than others, and are selected for more specialized missions often.
“Everyone find a partner. Each trooper has a set route to take, but those who live here, please be sure to take whichever route gets us to the destinations quickest. You know this planet far better than we do.”
Fives starts to make his way over to you when Rex stops him and redirects him to be with Myra. You can’t see his face from his helmet, but he gestures at Rex, seemingly frustrated.
Kix walks over and bumps your shoulder with his own.The morning air is cool and sharp, carrying the faint scent of wet earth after last night’s storm. Around you, the squad is checking gear and finalizing coordinates before splitting into teams.
“Ready for a little uphill torture?” Kix asks.
You grin. “I’m assuming that’s medic-speak for ‘light cardio.’”
He chuckles. “Something like that.”
You’ve grown comfortable with him over the past few weeks. Kix had taken the time to teach you a few basic medical skills, nothing major, just enough to be useful in the field. His patient, steady nature makes him one of the easier clones to talk to. If you had to hike a few klicks through thick forest and mud, you were glad it was with him.
Still, as you tighten the straps on your pack, a small part of you can’t help but glance toward where Fives is standing with Myra, gesturing animatedly as he talks. You don’t even realize you’re smiling until Kix catches it.
“Don’t worry,” he says dryly, following your gaze. “He’s gonna talk her ear off the whole way up there.”
You laugh, shaking your head. “Yeah at this point I’m used to him filling the silence, I guess. He makes even the dull jobs entertaining.”
“That’s one word for it,” Kix says, smirking. “Entertaining. Loud. Occasionally insubordinate.”
“Charming,” you add with a mock sigh.
He snorts. “That too.”
The two of you start up the narrow trail that winds into the hills, your boots crunching over damp leaves. It’s not exactly a stroll, branches litter the ground, and a few fallen trees force you to climb or detour. The air is heavy, thick with humidity, and your pack digs into your shoulders, but it’s a steady rhythm you can keep.
You find yourself talking easily with Kix as you hike, the conversation meandering the way it does when there’s no rush.
“So…” you say, stepping over a slick root. “Hardcase mentioned the other night that Fives has… a bit of a reputation.”
Kix groans softly, rubbing a gloved hand over his face. “Oh, that story.”
“I mean, I wasn’t shocked,” you admit quickly. “He’s got that… thing about him. But he’s been nothing but decent with me.”
“He is,” Kix says, glancing over at you. “Don’t let the stories fool you. Fives talks big, flirts big, and yeah, he’s had his share of bad decisions. But when it counts? He’s solid. Loyal to the core. He’d give you the shirt off his back if you needed it.”
You nod, thinking of how he always seems to check in on everyone. “Yeah,” you murmur. “I’ve noticed that.”
Kix smiles faintly. “He’s a good guy. One of the best. Just… doesn’t always make it easy to see.”
You grin. “So what you’re saying is he’s a good soldier with terrible PR.”
Kix chuckles. “Exactly. Don’t tell him I said that, though. His ego would double in size. He’s just unlucky with women I guess.”
The path steepens, and conversation slows for a while. The forest grows denser, sunlight filtering through thick branches overhead. The air hums faintly with insects and the distant rumble of thunder, though the storm seems to be moving away.
After a few minutes, Kix checks his comm and frowns. “Lost signal,” he mutters. “Figures.”
You shrug. “Not surprised. Appla’s basically allergic to technology. I’ve never even owned a comm.”
“Really?”
“Not much use for one where I’m from,” you say, stepping carefully over a fallen log. “If you can’t yell loud enough for someone to hear you, they probably don’t want to talk to you anyway.”
Kix laughs at that, and the sound echoes lightly through the trees.
You glance back down the trail, where the rest of the squad has already disappeared behind the ridge. “So… what about you? You’ve known Fives the longest, right?”
Kix nods. “Since Kamino. We’ve been through a lot together.” He pauses, choosing his words carefully. “He’s a pain in my ass sometimes, but he means well. Always has. And if you’re friends with him?” He glances at you with that calm, steady look of his. “You’re in good company.”
You smile, genuinely this time. “Good. I think I’ll keep him around, then.”
Kix smirks. “Good luck getting rid of him now.”
You both laugh, and the forest swallows the sound, the trail stretching out ahead. The air is thick, the climb steady, but the company makes it bearable.
You finally make your way to the Point and from here you can see the whole valley. You admire the view as Kix takes in information on his datapad. You stay there for a few moments until Kix snaps the datapad off and tucks it away.
“Alright, let’s head bac…” Kix starts, but the words are swallowed by a low, guttural groan from the earth beneath your boots.
The ground trembles. First a shiver, then a full-body lurch that nearly knocks you off your feet. Pebbles tumble down the ridge, and the trees around you creak and sway.
Kix throws an arm out instinctively, steadying you. “Do you have earthquakes here?” he shouts over the deep rumble.
You blink, your pulse spiking. “No.”
The sound fades as suddenly as it began. For a moment, the world goes still. Too still. Then, carried on the mountain wind, a distant roar, not thunder, not shifting stone. Smoke curls upward beyond the ridge, thick and black, and your stomach drops.
“It’s the village!” you breathe, voice breaking. “Maybe a mine collapsed!” You’re already taking off down the trail when Kix’s hand closes around your arm, stopping you.
“The mines,” he says, eyes darting toward the horizon. “We didn’t think about it. Are the mines connected to any other villages? Maybe ones that were attacked?”
Your heart lurches. “Yes, most of them. The caves run all over Appla. The miners say you could walk from one side of the planet to the other underground.”
Kix curses under his breath. “That’s how they’re getting around. The droids. Come on, we have to move.”
You nod once, forcing your legs to keep up with him as you both sprint down the twisting trail. The descent feels endless, the air thick with smoke, the sound of distant blasterfire carrying faintly through the trees.
When you finally break through the last of the brush and the village comes into view, your breath catches in your throat.
Fire. Everywhere. Roofs collapsed inward, market stalls ablaze, the sky painted orange and gray. Bodies lie scattered among the wreckage: some civilian, some clone.
Kix skids to a halt beside you, his expression hardening. “Stay with me,” he orders, tossing a medpack your way. “Here, take this. Do what you can, help who you can.”
Your hands tremble as you catch it, the weight of the moment crashing over you. For a heartbeat, you’re frozen, staring at the devastation, at the flicker of firelight against the familiar shapes of your home. Then you grit your teeth and move.
Smoke fills your lungs as you follow Kix into the wreckage. You drop to your knees beside the first wounded villager you see and tear open the medpack. You don’t think. You just act.
From person to person you move, patching up who you can, and closing the eyes of those lost.
You stand from behind a crate, only to come face to face with a massive droid, raising its blaster arm to aim directly at your heart. You close your eyes. The droid falls with a loud clang to your feet and you fall back on your heels, shocked.
“Told you I wouldn’t let anything happen to you.”
It’s Fives, and he helps you up. You can’t help it, for just a moment, heart pounding you cling to him.
“Aby and the others are in the community hall. It’s a makeshift medbay, well guarded. Try to get there if you ca…”
A sudden explosion knocks you both off your feet. The crates that had blocked you from most of the battle are nothing but splinters now. As you clear your head you call for him. “Fives?” No response.
You crawl towards his prone form and that’s when you see it. A large piece of jagged wood pierces his side, blood seeping into the ground.
“Fives, hold on!” You shout, as you pull him with all your strength to cover. “Medic!” You shout, but no one can hear you over the fighting.
You pull out the medpack Kix gave you and get to work. You remove the wood, possibly not the best idea but you’re panicking, and you sanitize and pack the wound. You find a bacta syringe and inject it into him, hoping it will wake him from unconsciousness.
Nothing.
Suddenly, in front of you lands one of those large droids, and it spots you immediately. It begins to charge towards you, and you have no choice, no moment to think. You grab Fives’ blaster and fire blindly, eyes closed as you await death.
The droid falls. The blaster smokes. You cry.
“Good… shot.” You hear and the tears come more readily now. “Fives!” you exclaim and you pull him into your lap, tears falling onto his face.
He groans slightly in pain and you search the pack for anything pain relieving. The pack is nearly empty.
“Just hold on, Fives.” You say.
You cradle him there in your lap for what feels like hours, but in reality only minutes pass. The battle dies down and an eerie quiet falls over the village. You have no idea who won, if you’re going to be rounded up and killed by droids, or if Rex and his men will come find you.
You hear footsteps and brace yourself, holding the blaster up and curling yourself over Fives to protect him.
“Easy there.” You hear a familiar voice, and you relax, tears coming back anew. It’s Kix, who comes and kneels by Fives and you, taking the blaster from your hand.
“You did good. Here help me get him to the hall.”
Fives mutters something, “Shoulda seen her… a true soldier.” and then loses consciousness again.
You and Kix half carry, half drag Fives to the community hall, and get him settled on a cot. You brief Kix on the injury, and on what you’d done for him so far.
“Well done. There’s some more medpacks along the wall. Can you help me tend to the rest of them? You focus on villagers, I focus on the men.”
You nod and get to work. Hours pass in a blur of smoke, blood, and bandages.
You move from one patient to the next, hands steady even as your mind spins. Aby is among the lucky ones; she’s sitting up now, her leg wrapped where the fire grazed her, eyes red from tears rather than pain.
The two of you collapse into each other for a few moments, clinging to something familiar amid the wreckage. You cry quietly together, grieving the smoke-filled homes, the people you couldn’t save, the peace that won’t come back. But there isn’t time to fall apart. You swallow it down and force yourself to stand again, to help the next person calling your name.
Then you hear another, someone shouting your name.
You spin toward the sound and see Kix struggling to hold Fives down on a cot. He’s thrashing wildly, still half out of it, eyes glassy but full of panic.
“Where is she?” he gasps, fighting against Kix’s grip.
You sprint across the room and drop to your knees beside him, grabbing his hand. “I’m here. I’m right here.”
His eyes flicker toward you, focus clearing for just a second. “You… you saved me,” he breathes, the tension draining from his body. “You’re okay. We’re okay.”
Kix quickly administers a sedative, and Fives’s words start to slur, his eyes fluttering shut as he sinks into sleep.
“He needs rest,” Kix says quietly, checking his pulse. “Agitation like that isn’t uncommon after a serious injury. The transports will be here in the morning, he’ll be safer once we get him back to the cruiser.”
You freeze. “The morning?” you echo, looking up sharply. “You’re leaving?”
Kix nods, wiping his hands on a towel. “We neutralized the threat. Command wants us redeployed immediately. Another system’s already in crisis.” He doesn’t sound happy about it… just tired. He gives you a small, sympathetic look before moving on to the next wounded trooper.
You stay where you are, sitting beside Fives’s cot. The room hums with quiet conversation and the occasional groan of a patient in pain. Outside, the fires have died down, but the air still smells like burnt soil and ash. You pull the blanket a little higher over Fives’s chest, watching the steady rise and fall of his breathing.
It’s strange how quickly they became part of your world. The clones. Him. It’s been such a short time, but they’ve brought something back to this place you thought was lost: hope and life. You don’t want to imagine the village after they’re gone.
Time blurs again, and before you know it, the sky outside the window has lightened from black to gray. You’re dozing in a chair beside his bed when you feel movement.
You jolt awake and turn to find him looking at you, eyes heavy-lidded, a faint smile ghosting his lips.
“Hey, you,” he murmurs, the warmth in his tone disarming you instantly.
Tears prick your eyes before you can stop them. “Hey,” you whisper back, smiling even as your throat tightens.
He reaches up and wipes your tears with the sleeve of his blacks. “None of that,” he says softly. “You’ll make me think I’m dying or something.”
You let out a shaky laugh, catching his hand in yours. “You scared me. I thought…” You can’t finish the sentence.
He squeezes your fingers weakly. “Sorry for the scare. Guess I’m harder to kill than I look.”
“You’re leaving in a few hours,” you say after a moment, voice quiet. “Is there anything I can do? Something to make it easier?”
He shakes his head, that same lopsided smile tugging at his mouth. “Nah. You’ve done more than enough.” His eyes linger on you: soft, unguarded. “Hate to leave so soon, though. Just when I made a great friend.”
Your heart stutters at the word friend. You smile. “A great friend, huh?”
“Yeah,” he says, his voice barely above a murmur, “the kind you don’t forget.”
He shifts, wincing, and you instinctively reach out to steady him as he struggles to sit up. His hand catches yours and he holds it tight.
“Promise me something,” he says, eyes finding yours with surprising clarity despite the haze of painkillers.
You nod, heart thudding. “Anything.”
He takes a shallow breath, like the words cost him effort. “Get off this rock. Go see the galaxy.” His thumb traces absentminded circles against your palm. “Girl like you, you’ve gotta get out of here. There’s so much more than clay and cooking. You’ve proved it, saving all these people… saving me.”
You can’t help but smile through the ache in your chest. His conviction feels too big for the small, broken room you’re sitting in. The way he says it like he truly believes in you makes something inside you shift.
“You can do so much more,” he finishes softly, his head starting to dip as fatigue pulls at him again.
You brush the damp curls from his forehead, and for a moment he looks peaceful, a faint smile tugging at his lips as his breathing evens out.
“Sure, Fives,” you whisper, your voice trembling with affection. “Whatever you say.”
But even as you say it, you know it isn’t just a promise to him.
Something inside you stirs. The seed of an idea, of change, takes root.
He’s still asleep in the morning as the men cart him and the other injured soldiers onto the transport.
You don’t get to say goodbye.
—
“I can’t believe it,” Aby breathes, stars glittering in her eyes as you both step off the transport and onto Coruscant’s duracrete platform.
The city hits you all at once, all light and blurred motion. Towering spires stretch endlessly into the smog-streaked sky, their mirrored faces catching the glare of speeders that streak by in colored blurs. Holo-ads flicker and pulse from every corner, and the steady hum of engines fills the air like a heartbeat. It’s overwhelming. Dazzling.
Your stomach twists, not just from the long hyperspace flight but from the sheer enormity of it all. This place feels alive, vast in a way Appla never could be.
Coruscant.
It’s brighter, louder, and more beautiful than you’d ever imagined from the stories Fives told you.
Fives.
The thought of him lands like a jolt.
What if he doesn’t remember you?
Or worse, what if he’s not even alive anymore?
He’s a soldier. The odds aren’t kind to men like him.
You swallow down the unease, clutching the strap of your bag tighter as you and Aby make your way through the crowded street toward the looming structure ahead. GAR Headquarters towers above the district, its polished surface gleaming under the city’s perpetual daylight.
“This is it,” Aby says, awestruck.
Your first day on the job starts in just a few hours. You try to steady your breathing as you step through the massive entry doors, carrying everything you own in one small pack and a head full of nerves.
You tell yourself you’re here to work. To start over.
But beneath that steady voice, one thought hums quietly, stubbornly.
What if you never see him again?
“Welcome. How can I help you?” A clone trooper adorned in red asks as you step through the automatic doors. The two of you introduce yourself and show him the datapad with your orders. You’d enlisted as a hospitalist for the headquarters, putting your medic skills post battle of Appla to the test.
Aby had chosen… cafeteria worker. Cooking duty, for all time. You tried to convince her to pick something else, or moreso that she didn’t have to follow you.
“I go where you go. Always.” She’d said. You made sure that the small sanctioned apartment the GAR had allotted for you was shared with her.
“Right this way,” the clone says with crisp efficiency, his voice echoing against the marble walls.
He gestures for Aby to follow another officer, a tall Togruta draped in a blue administrative gown who leads her toward the mess hall. You catch her eye one last time as she disappears down the corridor, both of you smiling nervously. The two of you leave your bags piled neatly behind the front desk, to be delivered once your housing is sorted.
The clone leading you sets a steady pace through the GAR’s winding halls. The air hums faintly with the sound of passing speeders outside and distant orders being called. Everything smells faintly of antiseptic and metal polish.
You’re not sure what you expected when you signed up but walking these halls feels heavier, more real.
He stops at a sliding door labeled “Medbay”, and hands you a neatly folded set of navy scrubs.
“Get changed, ma’am. Commander wants you ready to assist in triage once you’re cleared.”
You nod, slipping into the fresher. The lights are bright, sterile. You pull on the scrubs, pin your hair back, and stare at your reflection for a heartbeat.
You look… official.
Like someone with purpose.
You let yourself breathe it in as you step into the open room of the medbay.
Then you hear your name.
You turn, startled.
A familiar voice.
Kix is jogging toward you from across the medbay, his white armor unfastened at the collar, medpack still slung over one shoulder. His expression breaks into something you’ve never seen on him before, pure surprise, quickly followed by a grin.
“What are you doing here?” he says, before pulling you into a quick, rough hug. It’s brief, but it knocks the breath from your chest. He’s not the hugging type.
He steps back, shaking his head with a disbelieving smile.
“I enlisted,” you explain, words tumbling out in a rush. “I wanted to do something that mattered. See more than Appla. Try to help where I can.”
Kix chuckles, warmth softening his usually sharp tone. “Maker, Fives is going to lose it when he hears this.”
The name hits you like sunlight through cloud.
Fives.
That means he’s alive.
Kix pulls out his comm and starts typing, thumbs moving quickly. “Here, what’s your comm number? I’ll save it. We’ll probably work together a lot when I’m stationed here.”
“I uh… don’t have a comm. I just got here a few minutes ago.”
Kix rolls his eyes. “I forgot how behind the times you were on Appla. Ill get a comm sent to your new residence. Anyways, want to shadow me?” You nod and get to work.
The day passes in what feels like a blink. You clean and bandage several men, sanitize tools and by the time the sunsets you’re famished.
“You should come out to eat with us tonight, to celebrate. My treat.” Kix asks as you pack up the last of a medkit.
“Can Aby come? She’s on planet now too.” You say, and you see his face redden.
“She’s here? Yeah, I’d love to see her. I mean I’d love for her to come, too.” He chokes out. You laugh.
“Meet you back here in an hour? I’ll get lost if you try to give me directions, best to just follow you.” You say and he nods. You set out into the night to meet Aby back at your new place.
—
Coruscant feels different at night.
You and Aby wait outside GAR headquarters, still in borrowed coats and half-lost in the swirl of movement around you, when Kix waves from the footpath.
“You two ready?” he calls, helmet clipped to his belt, hair still damp from a quick rinse after his shift.
“Starving,” Aby says. “Lead the way.”
He grins. “A couple of the boys are already there. Figured it’d be good to catch up.”
You trade a look with Aby. There’s only one “couple of boys” he could mean.
The diner sits tucked beneath one of the lower towers, a civilian spot glowing in warm amber light. Inside, the air smells of spice and caf, the chatter easy and loud.
And then you see them.
Hardcase, gesturing wildly with a grin that could light the whole booth, and Echo, sitting across from him with quiet amusement, a hand wrapped around his mug. The sight hits like déjà vu, familiar but distant, like a dream half-remembered from another lifetime. Those lunches back on Appla, soup and bread.
“Look who Kix dragged in!” Hardcase booms when he spots you, standing just enough to wave. “Didn’t think we’d ever see you two again!”
“Guess you’re stuck with us,” Aby says with a laugh as you slide into the booth beside her.
Echo nods politely, that small, knowing smile tugging at his lips. “This is a pleasant surprise.”
You smile, “Had to make it out to Coruscant. You all told us so much about it, and you all left before we ever got to say goodbye.”
“Didn’t have much choice,” Hardcase says, half-sheepish, half-grinning. “Orders came down fast. One day we’re patching up miners, next day we’re knee-deep in mud on Ryloth.”
Kix rolls his eyes as he slides into the seat beside you. “Don’t let him fool you. He was mostly knee-deep in his own mess.”
Aby laughs, and just like that, the tension softens.
The food comes and the conversation flows easier with each bite. They tell stories from the front lines, though the darker parts are carefully left out; you and Aby talk about your travels, the first time flying amongst the stars.
Echo listens more than he speaks, but when he does, you hang on every word, his tone steady, thoughtful, a quiet counter to Hardcase’s constant energy. Kix acts as the anchor between them all, occasionally teasing but never cruel, his laughter softer than you remember.
It feels good. Comfortable. Like picking up threads from an old, unfinished story.
But even with the warmth around you, there’s a hollow note at the edge of it, an absence you can’t quite ignore.
Fives.
His name lingers unspoken between sentences, in the empty chair beside Echo. You can almost hear his voice, see his grin, feel the way the whole room used to bend toward his energy.
That’s when Aby notices you staring.
“So… where’s Fives?”
You give her a look, and she smirks.
Hardcase laughs. “He’s tied up. Mess he got himself into.”
“What kind of mess?” you ask, curious.
Echo snorts, a grin tugging at his lips. “He was breaking up with a girl. Let’s just say… he needed a minute before facing the world.”
Your cheeks heat slightly.
Kix shakes his head, chuckling. “Typical Fives. He can’t pin down a woman to save his life. And I think he likes it that way.”
Hardcase laughs again. “Yep. Classic Fives. Priorities in order, I guess.”
You grin, shaking your head. The casual way they talk about it makes your heart flutter, but it’s easy to laugh too. He’s still… Fives.
Dinner winds down, conversation flowing easily. When you all step out into the city night, the hum of Coruscant surrounding you, the empty chair still tugs at your attention.
And then,
“Hey!”
A familiar voice cuts through the noise.
You look up just in time to see Fives sprinting toward you, grin wide, arms already reaching out. Before you can react, he scoops you into a hug, lifting you slightly off the ground.
“You’re here!” he says, laughing breathlessly.
“I’m here,” you reply, laughing too. He sets you down gently, still holding your hands.
“I didn’t think I’d ever see you again,” he says, eyes wide and sparkling.
“I know. I didn’t think I’d be here. Doing this. Seeing you,” you say, letting the words tumble out.
“Well,” he says, grinning and sticking his tongue out at his brothers behind him, “it’s gonna be great having you on planet. I could use a good friend around here.”
You laugh, the sound light and easy.
“But seriously.” He says. “I couldn’t stop thinking about you, out there on that muddy planet. I wondered if you’d ever get off it. I worried about it, to be honest. To know you’re here now… it’s… wow.”
“Fives, you thought about me? That’s… actually romantic.” You joke and bump him with an elbow. You swear his face reddens and he bumps you back.
“Don’t friends always think about each other?” He jokes and you smile.
“I thought about you too.” You say, and the two of you hug once again.
It feels so real. Borderline magical.
Friends.
Reunited.
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Tomorrow comes and goes with little fanfare. You see Fives at the morning briefing, confident, relaxed, like nothing ever happened.
“I didn’t mean to complicate things,” he’d said.
But he did.
Stars, he so did.
You can’t stop thinking about him. His laugh. The way his hand settled on your lower back at 79’s. Last night’s kiss. It loops in your mind like some cruel holo-recording. Meanwhile, you’d texted Rylan again this morning: Hello? Anyone there? Still no reply.
You’re not sad anymore. Just… pissed. And confused. And maybe a little heartsick.
You need to talk to someone. Not Fives, definitely not Fives, so you call the only person who knows you like this.
Kylei stares at you over her half-eaten meal, jaw dropping. “Are you kriffing kidding me?”
“Keep your voice down!” you hiss, scanning the diner. “It wasn’t like…it was just an accident. Total accident.”
“He kissed you?” she squeaks. “You kissed him? There was a kiss?!”
You shrug helplessly, stabbing at your food.
“And still nothing from Rylan? What are you going to do?”
You give another shrug, this one heavier. The anger is cooling into something duller now—an exhausted indifference. “I messaged him again. I just… want to clear the air.”
Kylei rolls her eyes and takes a long sip of her drink. “Clear the air with someone who won’t even talk to you? Babe, come on. Just say it’s over and be done. Honestly, you already have.”
You hate how much she’s right. You finish your food, then check your comm on instinct. Maybe, maybe, Rylan finally answered.
He hasn’t.
But a message from CT-5555 lights up your screen:
Sudden deployment. Should be quick and painless. Sorry I won’t have caf for you at tomorrow’s briefing. Be back soon.
It’s short. Casual. Simple.
And it still punches a little knot of worry into your chest.
It always does, when one of your men deploys.
But especially Fives.
The days stretch longer without Fives around.
You tell yourself it’s just the usual worry. You always get like this when any of the boys are deployed—tight chest, jumpy at comms, ears tuned to every whisper of news. But this feels different. Sharper. Constant.
Fives keeps filling your thoughts.
You try to distract yourself, throw yourself into routine, into reports, into drills but it’s like he’s in the room with you anyway. You hear a joke and think of his laugh. Catch a glimpse of a trooper from behind and your heart leaps for a second before you realize it’s not him. Even the quiet moments feel louder now, echoing with the memory of his hand at your back… his mouth on yours.
You shouldn’t miss him like this.
You shouldn’t want to.
Because Rylan still hasn’t responded.
And no matter how much silence he leaves you with, you’re still technically his. Right? Maybe?
The guilt churns in your gut. A bitter, sticky kind that clings to everything.
You told Kylei it was an accident. You even tried to believe it yourself. But deep down, you know it wasn’t just a moment. Not for you. Not really.
You check your comm more than you care to admit, not for Rylan, not anymore, but for Fives. Just hoping for a ping. An update. Something.
Nothing yet.
Nights are the worst. You lay in bed, staring at the ceiling, letting memories blur into fantasies. What if he had stayed? What if the kiss had turned into something more? What if he meant it?
Then you remember Rylan. The unanswered messages. The unanswered you.
You squeeze your eyes shut, as if that’ll shut off your brain. But the thought remains, curling around you like smoke:
You’re not even sure what you want anymore.
You just know who you keep wanting.
And he’s out there right now blaster in hand, armor on, risking his life while you lie here tangled in sheets and thoughts you shouldn't be having.
Stars, you hope he comes back soon.
Because you need to see him.
You need to know if he’s feeling it too.
— — —
Your comm chimes mid-afternoon, a quiet buzz that makes your heart skip before you even glance at the screen.
CT-5555
You open the message.
Just landed back on Coruscant.
Your breath catches. Relief blooms in your chest; warm and sudden. He’s okay. He’s home.
A second message follows, this one voice-recorded. You tap play, and Fives' voice filters through; low, a little rough with fatigue, and laced with something uncertain.
“Hey. Uh… I need to unwind. Hate to ask, but there’s this holo I’ve been wanting to see. Last night it’s showing, apparently. Thought maybe... I don’t know. We could go. Talk after. About… you know.”
He trails off, then clears his throat.
“Anyway. Go with me?”
You’re still staring at your comm when the recording ends, heart pounding like he actually said it to your face. You can practically feel his hesitation, how he tried to sound casual, like it’s no big deal. Like it’s just a holo. But the pause before “talk” tells you otherwise.
He wants to talk. Wants time with you. Alone.
You blink at the screen, thumbs frozen, then finally type back:
Yeah. Meet you at HQ?
You stare at the message before hitting send. Part of you wants to write something else. Ask what he means. Ask what this is. Ask why just hearing his voice makes your stomach twist in anticipation and guilt all at once.
But you don’t.
You send the message and exhale, nerves humming under your skin.
It’s just a holo.
You take longer getting ready than you'd ever admit out loud.
You change clothes twice. Then again. You try on that top you like, the one that hugs just enough without trying too hard and stare at yourself in the mirror. Your hands shake a little as you adjust your jacket. You tell yourself it's not a date. It’s just a friend. A maybe-sorta-kissed-you friend who’s been stuck in your head since the moment he left.
You head to HQ early, hoping to beat the nerves. But when you arrive, he’s already there.
Fives is waiting outside near the steps, leaning back casually against a railing. He’s in civvie clothes: soft grey pants, a fitted black shirt, sleeves pushed to his elbows, and a worn utility jacket slung open over it. No armor. Just him.
It’s… jarring. In a good way.
He looks up and sees you, and that slow grin you know way too well spreads across his face.
“You clean up alright.” he teases, pushing off the railing.
You laugh, but it comes out softer than you intended. “Look who’s talking. Didn’t know you owned clothes that weren’t standard issue.”
He glances down at himself, mock-offended. “What, this? You’re looking at the height of Coruscanti fashion handpicked from a surplus shop and probably illegal in three sectors.”
“Stylish and humble,” you say with a smile, falling into step beside him.
You walk together toward the theater. The city’s alive around you, sky traffic humming overhead, neon lights bleeding down the duracrete walls, and pedestrians bustling with weekend energy. For a while, neither of you talks. But the silence feels full, not awkward. Like something waiting.
When you round the corner to the holoplex, you stop short.
The line outside the theater is massive, curling around the block. The marquee overhead flashes:
FINAL NIGHT – SOLD OUT
Fives jogs ahead to double-check, but you already know. You watch the way his shoulders slump just a little when he turns back toward you, disappointment written plain across his face.
“Kriff,” he mutters as he reaches you again. “Totally sold out. I thought I’d be ahead of it…should’ve known better.”
You offer a small smile, even though something in your chest deflates a little too. “Guess the rest of the city had the same idea.”
He laughs, but it’s hollow. “Sorry. I didn’t mean for this to be... a bust.”
You hesitate, watching him fidget, thumb tapping absently against the seam of his pants, eyes darting to the crowd, like he’s calculating a Plan B.
It’s kind of adorable.
And very Fives.
“It doesn’t have to be,” you say quietly.
His gaze snaps to yours. “What do you mean?”
You glance toward the nearest holoterminal across the plaza, then back at him. “I can rent the holo. At my place. If you’re still up for it.”
There’s a pause, just a beat too long, and then that familiar smirk pulls at the edge of his mouth, gentler this time.
“You sure?” he asks, voice low. “I don’t want to make things more… complicated.”
You shrug, a little too casual. “It’s just a holo, right?”
He huffs a quiet laugh, eyes warm now. “Right.”
“Come on then,” you say, nudging him with your elbow. “I’ve got a couch, a holoprojector, and if you’re lucky, leftover caf and cheap snacks.”
Fives falls into step beside you again, a little closer this time. And neither of you says what you’re both thinking.
It’s not just a holo.
Not anymore.
By the time you reach your apartment, the sky is streaked with soft hues of orange and violet, the kind of Coruscant sunset that makes even the duracrete glow. You swipe your code at the door, and the lock clicks open with a quiet chime.
Your hand trembles slightly on the panel. Not enough to be noticeable, unless you’re you. You brush it off and push the door open.
“Home sweet home,” you say, half-joking as you step inside.
Fives follows right behind, taking in the familiar space with a small smile. “Still cozy,” he says, slipping off his jacket and draping it over the back of your armchair like it’s the most natural thing in the world.
He’s been here before, once, right after you moved in, when Kylei had insisted on a tiny welcome party. He and Echo showed up with cheap takeout and fizzy drinks, lounged on your barely-put-together furniture, and made themselves at home like good soldiers do anywhere. But it’s quieter now. Warmer.
“Didn’t figure you for someone who keeps throw pillows,” Fives teases as he settles in front of your holoscreen, crouching to slide the holochip into the player.
“I like comfort,” you reply from the kitchen, pulling open a cabinet for snacks. “And I definitely like pillows.”
The holoscreen glows to life, the title card flickering gently in the background. Fives stands up and glances your way. “You want caf? Or something fizzy?”
You grin. “Both. Obviously.”
He laughs and helps himself to your drink stash without needing directions. There’s something oddly soothing about watching him move in your space like he belongs here like this is something you’ve done a hundred times.
By the time you both sit on the couch, bowls of snacks between you and warm drinks in hand, it almost feels easy. Familiar. Just two friends watching a holo. Just another quiet night.
The holo starts, a quiet hum filling the room as the opening scene fades in. You grab the remote resting beside you on the couch and dim the lights, the soft glow of the screen casting a gentle shimmer across the room.
You settle back into the cushions, blanket draped over your legs. Fives lounges beside you, one ankle hooked casually over his knee, his attention on the screen, though you catch him glancing your way more than once.
It’s a thriller, fast-paced and clever, full of sudden reveals and narrow escapes. You’re just starting to relax into it when something jumps out on-screen with a loud screech and you flinch hard.
You practically launch sideways, nearly ending up in Fives’ lap.
“Whoa, easy,” he laughs, catching your elbow before you tumble fully into him. His breath is warm near your cheek, and he grins down at you, eyes sparkling with amusement. “Didn’t think you’d scare that easy.”
“It was loud,” you grumble, your face hot as you right yourself.
He chuckles again and casually drapes his arm around your shoulders. Friendly. Familiar. Like it’s no big deal. But his fingers rest lightly at the edge of your arm, warm even through your sleeve.
The holo keeps playing, the plot thickening until it shifts. The main character begins to fall for her counterpart. The tension bubbles into something softer. Slower. They lean in, and then they’re kissing deeply, passionately, like they’ve been holding back for far too long.
Your breath catches.
All at once, the other night flashes into your mind The heat of his mouth on yours, that kiss that still lingers in your thoughts like a secret.
You risk a glance at Fives, heart thudding.
He’s already looking at you.
The air around you stills. The holo plays on, but it might as well be on mute. His gaze is locked on yours, and for a long moment, you forget how to breathe.
You glance down at his lips.
His eyes flick down to yours, mirroring the motion like a silent question.
His hand, still resting on your shoulder, starts to trace slow, gentle circles, thoughtless, steady. Your whole body leans toward him like he’s a gravitational force and you’re helpless against the pull.
You place a hand against his chest, and he stiffens slightly under your touch then relaxes. His heart beats fast beneath your palm, a quiet rhythm that mirrors your own.
You’re close. So close.
The holo forgotten.
The rest of the world on pause.
You don’t know who leans in first.
Maybe it’s you. Maybe it’s him. Maybe it doesn’t matter.
Because suddenly, there’s a crash of lips, no hesitation, no slow build. Just heat and hunger and intention. His mouth finds yours with purpose, and you gasp softly into it, the sound swallowed by the force of it all.
Fives’ hands move up, cupping your face like he’s afraid you’ll vanish if he lets go. His touch is firm, steady, grounding and all-consuming. You grip the front of his shirt for balance, but it’s not enough. You’re kissing him back with a desperation that surprises even you, nearly climbing into his lap just to close the impossible space between you.
He shifts, tugging you closer until you’re nearly straddling his thigh, your knees brushing his sides. One of your hands slides around the back of his neck, fingers threading into the soft hairs at the nape. You tug him in, anchoring yourself there. You can’t get enough.
You tilt your head and part your lips just slightly, an invitation, unspoken but clear. Fives doesn’t hesitate. He deepens the kiss, and stars, you feel it everywhere. It’s slow but hungry, like he’s trying to memorize the shape of your mouth, the way you taste, the way you breathe into him.
His tongue brushes yours, and a soft, involuntary sound escapes from deep in your throat. He swallows that too.
It’s not just want; it’s weeks of tension, days of silence, and one night that never really left either of you. And now it’s unraveling fast.
The holo keeps playing in the background, completely forgotten.
Because the only thing you can feel is him.
But then something shifts.
His hands trail down from your face to your shoulders, gripping firmly as if to steady both of you against the sudden rush. You catch the gleam in his eyes: dark, fierce, almost wild.
Your breath catches.
Before you can think twice, his lips leave yours in a fiery trail down your jaw, over your neck. Heat blooms beneath his touch, and you shiver, tilting your head to give him more access.
Your hands move with growing urgency, pulling at his shirt, tangling in his hair, desperate for more of him.
Fives growls low, a rough, pleased sound vibrating through him. His hands roam lower, sliding under your shirt, fingertips pressing against bare skin. You arch into him instinctively, the air thick with tension and want.
Your heart hammers in your chest as your bodies press closer, breath mingling, skin burning where you touch.
His mouth crashes back to yours; harder, deeper. Tongues dueling, teeth grazing. The kiss becomes a wild dance, frantic and messy.
You wrap your arms around his neck tighter, fingers clawing lightly as the heat between you spirals out of control.
The quiet room feels suddenly too small, too confining. Your breaths come faster, hotter, as the kiss threatens to consume you both whole.
Neither of you wants to stop.
Then, a sudden new sound cuts through the haze. Sharp and electronic, out of place in the low-lit room. Your comm.
You both flinch like you’ve been caught doing something you shouldn’t.
The screen lights up with a soft glow, and a holocall notification scrolls across the bottom corner of the holo display, overlaying the half-forgotten film.
You barely breathe as your eyes lock on the name floating midair above the screen.
Rylan.
Everything stills.
Fives pulls back slightly, his chest still rising and falling with the effort of catching his breath. His hands remain on your waist, but the warmth in them cools, tension creeping into his grip.
You stare at the name like it might vanish if you look hard enough.
But it doesn’t.
Your lungs are burning, and you suddenly realize you’re panting, your lips kiss-swollen, your body still pressed to Fives’. You meet his eyes, wide and startled, unsure what to do.
His brows furrow just slightly, like he’s waiting for you to say something, to answer, to move. But he doesn’t let go.
Your mouth opens like you're going to speak, but nothing comes out. Just the soft, scared sound of your breathing and the echo of your heartbeat in your ears.
You look back at the screen, the holo frozen in the background, your whole body caught between want and guilt.
Rylan is calling.
And you have no idea what you’re about to do.
The call drops. Just like that, the name vanishes from the air, snuffed out like a flame.
Silence follows, thick and choking.
You let your hands fall from Fives’ chest, your fingers trembling as they drop to your lap. Then slowly, as the reality crashes over you, you bury your face in them, trying to quiet the storm rising in your chest.
You don’t know what you feel more, shame or disappointment. You’re not even sure who it’s for.
“Hey,” Fives says, voice low. Gentle. Not pushing.
Just… there.
You can feel him watching you. Still close. Still warm. But he’s pulled back enough to give you space, his hands now resting lightly at your hips, like he’s waiting to see if you’ll tell him to let go.
He doesn’t say anything else right away. He’s never been the kind to fill silence just to make it feel smaller.
You drag in a shaky breath behind your fingers, trying to piece your thoughts together. You’re a mess of adrenaline and regret, of craving and confusion, and the sudden drop from that high into something like dread leaves your chest hollow.
“I’m sorry,” you whisper, not even sure if it’s for kissing him, for stopping, or for letting it go so far before reality clawed its way back in.
Fives stays quiet a moment longer, and then, softly.
“Don’t be.”
You look up slowly, eyes burning, and his face is open, unreadable but kind.
He’s not mad. He’s not pulling away.
But he’s waiting, for whatever you need to say next.
Your lips part, but at first nothing comes out. You’re still too full; of guilt, of want, of confusion. Of him.
You swallow hard, eyes locked on Fives, who hasn’t moved, hasn’t stopped looking at you like he’s steady even if you’re not.
“I didn’t mean for this to happen,” you say finally, voice barely above a whisper.
He nods slowly. “I know.”
You glance away, heat prickling behind your eyes. “I didn’t want to hurt anyone. I just… I don’t know where I stand with Rylan. I don’t even know what he wants anymore. And then you…” You pause, breath catching, “…you make me feel like I don’t have to keep waiting around to find out.”
Fives is quiet for a moment, jaw working like he’s biting back something heavier.
“You don’t,” he says at last. “You never did.”
You blink, surprised by the certainty in his voice.
“I wasn’t trying to confuse you,” he continues, softer now. “But I’m not sorry I kissed you. And I’m not gonna pretend I don’t want you. I just…” he runs a hand through his curls, exhaling, “…I don’t want to be something you regret.”
That hits you hard. Because you don’t. Not really.
You shake your head slowly. “I don’t regret you,” you say, meeting his gaze again. “I just… don’t know what happens now.”
Fives leans in just enough that you feel the warmth of his breath, but he doesn’t close the distance this time. His eyes are searching yours, steady.
“Then let’s figure it out. One step at a time.”
And somehow, despite everything still tangled and unresolved, it’s a relief to not have to know all the answers yet. Not tonight.
The holo winds down with a quiet fade to black, the credits rolling in soft, pale light across your holoscreen. Neither of you moves for a long moment.
The room is dark, hushed except for the faint hum of city traffic outside your window. Your body still hums from earlier, your lips tingling, heart unsure of its rhythm.
Fives shifts beside you, then slowly stands. He stretches, arms high over his head, shirt riding up just slightly. The moment feels strangely intimate again, but softer now. Quieter.
“Well,” he says, voice low as he exhales and drops his arms, “guess I should let you get some rest.”
You nod, sitting still on the couch, fingers fiddling with the hem of your shirt. “Yeah… right.”
He takes a step toward the door, then hesitates. “Thanks for the holo. Even if we, uh… didn’t really watch all of it.”
You manage a smile, tired but real. “We got the gist.”
He chuckles at that; an easy, warm sound, but there’s a weight beneath it, something a little uncertain. Something waiting.
You both linger there, suspended in the space between too much and not enough.
Fives steps closer, just for a second, and his hand brushes lightly along your arm.
You look up at him, and your throat tightens.
His gaze holds yours for one breath, then another. Then, with a small nod, he turns and heads for the door.
You stay seated, heart thudding, watching as he pauses just before leaving.
“I’ll see you tomorrow?” he asks, not turning around.
You manage a quiet, “Yeah. You will.”
And then he’s gone, the door sliding shut behind him with a gentle click.
The room feels different without him. Emptier, but also quieter. Like everything that just happened is still echoing in the walls, in your skin, in your heart.
You sit frozen on the couch long after the door clicks shut behind Fives.
The room is dim, shadows stretching along the walls, the holo screen still casting a faint glow before it finally powers down. The quiet feels heavier now. Not peaceful, charged. Like the static left behind after a storm.
Your heart thuds painfully in your chest, still caught between everything that just happened and everything you don’t know how to feel about.
You draw your knees up to your chest and wrap your arms around them, forehead resting against your kneecaps. Your skin is still warm from Fives’ touch. Your lips still tingle. Your head is a mess.
You’re a mess.
The guilt creeps in like a slow fog, thick and suffocating. Not because you regret Fives. You don’t. But because you know you’ve been living in the in-between for too long. Waiting for something, someone,to change. And maybe, until tonight, you hadn’t realized how much you’d stopped hoping he would.
You sit there, trying to breathe, trying to settle the chaos swirling in your chest.
Then-
Ping.
The soft chime cuts through the silence like a blade. Your head jerks up, and your stomach drops.
The glow of your holoscreen flickers back to life.
Just one message. Short. Simple. Cruel in its timing.
“Hey.” —Rylan.
You stare at it, unmoving.
The word floats in the air, projected in soft light. Innocuous. Deceiving. Like it didn’t come days too late. Like it didn’t interrupt the one thing that finally made you feel something real again.
Your jaw tightens. Your fingers twitch.
But you don’t move.
You don’t answer.
You just sit there in the dark, heart pounding in your ears, with that single word hanging in the air between you and everything you’re no longer sure you want.
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