#some help here

[melodypictures]

  Okay, caught up on the Kagerou manga. Do I hunt down the novels or watch the anime next?

[tanchapulina]

December 6th

I've gotten two lectures this week about what should I do to figure out my future, two about what I'm supposed to do in my future and one about how I need to start working on whatever I want for my future... All of them from different people and guess what? The only thing they accomplished was to make me sad. After my mental/emotional break down from last month, I've been great. Happy. Confident. But then again life got me into this mess... I can't say I'm feeling depressed again because that's not exactly the case. I mean all I do now is think about my future and how lost I am when it comes to my goals. First, I don't think I have a goal or an exact dream in life (besides marrying Nick Jonas). I know things I want to do and those that I don't want to do in my life. And I know that if I don't do everything I won't exactly feel like I've failed (if that makes any sense). I know: *I want to work at Disney at some point. I don't actually care if I work as a screenwriter for the ABC or as a hostess in the Mexico's Pavilion at Epcot. *I want to get at least 4 tattoos. *I want to live in New York. (Manhattan or Bronx... I don't care) *I want to be a Vogue's Magazine photographer. *I want to get a Master's degree from NYFA or USC. *I want to write and be read. *I want to work in music industry too. Again, I don't care if I'm a producer, a radio speaker or just part of some venue staff. *I want to be someone. To inspire people and mark their lives in a good way. *I don't want to get stuck in my hometown. *I don't want to have someone with me all the time for the rest of my life. It's not like I'm thinking about getting divorced and jump right into someone else asap; it's more like I'm not willing to get married and be attached to someone because I have to, because that's what society says. *At least for now, I don't think I'll ever be wanting a family to settle down in a place. (for ME that's a synonym of getting stuck). *I don't want stability... I want balance. But all of these things I know I want I also know I have to work for them the thing is I don't know how... I mean. I've been feeling a little left out because almost everyone I know is either getting a job or getting away for a while at least. I know I'd like to go on a exchange experience and be totally independent and meet new people and new places and stuff... But I do know I don't want to go any place I want to get that while being in NYFA or USC (and those places for now are unable for me because I don't have the money to pay for them or the grades to get a scholarship) or Disney. Anyhow, everything kind of depends on Disney work which depends if I get accepted or not for a Cultural Exchange Program after I'm graduated... But I can't exactly graduate if I don't get a job soon because my parents want me out of here as soon as I'm finished, which means I have to save money for whatever I want to go so we are back at the job and then I think why do I want to have a good job and get a good check if I'm going to quit as soon as I can go to the U.S. And do whatever I already said before. Plus if I get a job now I won't exactly be around the area I want to work in because I'm not freaking sure about that either... I know what I like and what I'm good at but I'm not sure that's what will make me happy. Life is so confusing and I hate people asking me about my future. I'm 21 and I don't fucking know what I'll do, which concerns me because everyone else seem sure about what they want in 5 or 10 years and I don't even know if I want coffee or tea for my afternoon snack. I hate this and I hate the fact that I can't help thinking everything is up to fate while my parents are saying fate won't get me a job if I don't send my resumé...

[mirallegrosnico]

so, guise, I just fixed my photoshop and I desperately want to gif something and idk what so what about a make me choose game???

[kforshort]

Does being East Asian and South-East Asian make me biracial or bi...ethnic??????

[vvitchering]

I'm just left feeling really betrayed and angry and upset. This is supposed to be my favorite show. I'm not supposed to feel like this about my favorite show. Anyone got any nice fics they feel like sharing? Because I could definitely use a distraction. 

[youtuberly]

omg how do I customize my side blogs? OMG WHAT I'M GONNA DO NOW?

[deathusa]

wtf is a "grunge? blog....