it genuinely sucks that i am most likely not cut out to play the more active and thought-required activities of d2 despite desperately wanting to. like yeah having a group can be fun but i always feel like i'm weighing everyone down, and like, solo always feels impossible because if i try to do puzzles by myself and don't get it right away or even in a decent amount of time i'll legit start to spiral because my brain is VERY convinced of some real mean ass shit about myself that i don't work enough to bat off because unfortunately a lot of the time i feel as though i personally deserve that flack.
and i'll get told "well at least you know and don't pretend to act like you're good" and yeah maybe that's a little reassuring but it's also like. awesoooome so i do suck really bad and shouldn't be here. thanks man.
