Jul 28, 2023
Something hard about going through life with a name you dislike but not knowing what to call yourself either. I feel disconnected, a lost identity.
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Something hard about going through life with a name you dislike but not knowing what to call yourself either. I feel disconnected, a lost identity.
On 22nd April 2023 my 15 year dog Jess died
My dog died yesterday
Her name was Jess, she was 15 years old
I'm hurt
With Emily
Watched the DnD film today, we both loved it,
Went to spoons for a burger and a drink, then headed off to play some pool.
It was a really nice day.
One day last week, I had a message from my brother apologising for the way he has treated me. He apologised for everything, he said none of it was my fault, only him to blame.
I've been happy since.
I've told a few people, but I don't think they realise how much this means to me and how it's settled a part of me inside. I feel whole.
I've booked my maths exam today, I also learned that the apprenticeship I want to go for, well, there is only one spot. So that means I'll be up against my friend for the spot.
Sad times.
I've also become readiccted to Riverdale.
Sunday... this week at work, there was an op where 235 cm of small bowel was removed from the patient. It's pretty interesting how much the body can live without.
I've just been quiet today. I'm trying to find a reason to sort my life out and tidy the house. Other than Jess, there isn't one. I do wonder what will happen to me when she dies.
It's Saturday, and I have a rare whole weekend off. Today is a wipeout. I put a fentanyl patch on for the first time yesterday, spent the day spaced, trying to do maths revision.. safe to say it's not going well. I've taken the patch off, haha.
There is this guy at work who I try to be normal around but end up just being a bit of a loud dick because we were friends but then people started saying we should be a couple and asking if I fancied him all the time, apprently no one asked him this. So, anyway, I became super awkward and turned into a bit of an arsehole. I'm different at work anyway, but he sets it to a new level. I know it's me and not him.