i don't wanna lose this with you a spiderman gojo fic
pairing ⸺ spiderman!gojo x reader
summary ⸺ an amalgation of misunderstandings and stress lead to a very big fight between you and satoru, but you certainly don't expect the way he wins you back.
warnings ⸺ college au, spiderman!au, angst, hurt/comfort, i warn you reader might infurate you, but she's just a woman in stem :(, tooth rotting fluff bc he's a loser for his gf, not edited sue me
playlist ⸺ quantum rizzics
a/n you'll probably need to read the first installation (nsfw, so mdni) to understand this one :3
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you've blocked gojo on all platforms.
you don't really remember what caused the "break up" (you didn't really break up). maybe it's the fact that you've been stressed about grad school admissions, your dorm's floor was covered in his boxers, and he's never been able to visit you pre-3am these days. somehow, the city's criminals are determined to keep your boyfriend away from you, and maybe it was your pms, or maybe it was truly just because satoru is annoying. regardless, it's when you guys have plans that's not an impromptu healing-gojo's-wounds-in-your-dorm-at-3am sesh and you're waiting at the coffee shop that you explode.
because he was supposed to arrive ten minutes ago, and when you move to go to the bathroom, you see him. through the window, his white hair is never not noticeable, and who you see next to him makes you falter.
he's standing next to a girl with blue tinted silver hair that you recognize as mei mei, and she's gripping his upper arm as she smiles while looking at his face, his lips with such fuck me eyes that you could tell they were having some sort of intimate conversation.
and if it were an ideal day, you would know that it's all a misunderstanding, you would know your boyfriend is someone you trust. but, again, the cards were stacked against you, and the only things that go through your mind all make your eyes all glossy. he's late to the one date that you planned because you and him were finally free at the same time and you've been busy because you've been desperately applying for internships because unlike your boyfriend you don't have a plethora of papers and coding experience and you've been getting four hours of sleep on average this week and ugh you've heard a rumor that satoru used to hook up with her and fuck now your tampon is poking at you in the wrong way—
great. now tears are fully streaming down your cheeks. in public.
as you rush to the table where your stuff is your vision is so blurry that you also almost fall flat on your face as you stumble over the legs of chairs and tables. blurting out a ensemble of choked up sorry's and excuse me's you hurriedly gather your laptop and notebooks in your backpack and book it for the exit.
the biting cold stings at your face, but you nevertheless determinedly move in the opposite direction of where satoru and mei mei are situated, praying your boyfriend doesn't recognize you. however, it seems that the heavens are working against you because you hear a yelled "baby?"
you don't look back because you know a new set of tears will leave your eyes, and with it being finals season, you're not very hydrated to being with. but you hear footsteps running towards you and fuck your boyfriend's long ass legs because he quickly catches up to you. then, he grabs your hands, attempting to stop you from running away and face him.
"baby," he breathes, baby blue eyes looking into yours as he moves to kiss your forehead. you stay silent, pinning your gaze to the ground while shivering. "where are you going? aren't we supposed to hang out right now?"
look, you and gojo have a good relationship. but recently, things have gotten...strenuous lately. you guys haven't been communicating, and it might not help that half of your calorie intake was from energy drinks. or perhaps what lead you to say what you said next was driven entirely by the brain eating mold on your unwashed dishes, but dumb excuses aside, you sneer. "shouldn't you be busy doing that with mei mei, instead?"
a small part of you--the part that knows you shouldn't be like this--feels relief that hurt doesn't immediately flash across his eyes, only confusion. but lack of sleep has not only stripped away at your sanity but also your people pleasing and overthinking tendencies, leaving you only as a girl frustrated, even irrationally angry, with her boyfriend. so you only avert your gaze when he dumbfoundedly asks, "what?"
"what do you mean, "what?"" you scoff, wrenching your hand from his grasp. "you were ten minutes late to our meet-up, gojo." it is at your use of his last name, instead of your sweet my love, that the hurt you've been looking for flashes across his eyes. he moves to speak but you cut him off, no longer wishing to be here with him. "if you're so busy talking to bitches you hooked up with before, why did you even bother saying yes to hanging out with me?"
he looks at you in confusion, eyes quickly flitting back and forth across you. then, slowly, as if he's still processing the weight of your accusations, he says, "i don't exactly know what you're referring to, but let's calm down---"
and you see red.
"calm down?" you snap, voice sharp and icy, just like the wind stinging your cheeks. "did you seriously just tell me to calm down? you were late again, gojo, and i find you chatting it up with her?" you practically spit the word, arms crossing as a flimsy defense against both the cold and the ache building in your chest.
satoru blinks, his confusion genuine, but you’re too far gone to care. "wait—mei mei? is this about mei mei? she's not—"
"don’t you dare finish that sentence," you cut him off, your voice rising as your blood boils hotter. "i don't want to hear how she's just a friend, or how it's not what it looks like. i’m so tired of hearing the same bullshit excuses."
"baby, you're jumping to conclusions—"
"and you’re jumping at the chance to look like an idiot in public," you snap, your hands trembling now, either from the cold or your rising fury. "god, what do you even say to her? let me guess, you go around telling girls you're spider-man to get into their pants, huh? bet that works like a charm."
the accusation hits like a slap, and for the first time, satoru looks genuinely stunned, his mouth falling open slightly. "what the hell are you even saying right now?"
"am i wrong?" you let out a bitter laugh, one that echoes in the frosty air. "you’re late to the one date i actually planned, and i see you with her, all cozy, like i’m not even waiting for you. like i don’t even matter."
his eyebrows knit together, frustration mixing with something softer. "you seriously think i’d—"
"i don’t know what to think anymore, satoru!" the words burst out of you, your voice cracking as hot tears well in your eyes. "all i know is that i can’t keep feeling like this. like i’m some afterthought while you’re out doing—whatever it is you do. swinging through the city or flirting with your exes or—" you choke on the words, wiping at your cheeks furiously as the tears spill over. "just forget it. i’m done."
"wait." his voice is quieter now, more desperate as he steps toward you, his hand reaching out. "baby, come on, we can talk about this—"
"no," you say firmly, jerking your hand away before he can grab it. "i’m blocking you. on everything." then, mockingly, "you can figure out how to save the world without me."
his eyes widen, his mouth opening like he’s about to plead or argue, but you don’t wait for him to speak. you turn on your heel and storm away, the cold wind biting at your skin as the lump in your throat grows heavier.
you don’t look back. not when he calls your name, not when you hear his footsteps falter. you just keep walking.
it’s 3 a.m., and you don’t know if you exist.
well, you do, but after how light you feel after you’ve cried a disgusting amount, you just lie down on your floor staring at the ceiling and contemplating the meaning of life. or more specifically, the meaning of your life, which right now feels like it’s revolving around nothing but stress and a breakup you don’t even fully understand.
you wouldn’t be having these problems if you were a childless cat lady.
but alas, you’re just a college student. in the few days where you haven’t seen satoru, you’ve finished all your finals—miraculously, considering the fragile state of your emotional wellbeing—and now you’re finally on break in your dorm. you’re supposed to go back home in two days, but the thought of packing feels like trying to climb a mountain barefoot. you can’t summon the energy to do anything except wallow in your self-pity and selfishness, letting it wrap around you like a weighted blanket that’s somehow comforting and suffocating all at once.
you’d like to say this is rock bottom, but truthfully, it’s worse than that. because rock bottom implies a kind of finality—a place to push off from. this? this feels more like you’re sinking in quicksand, the weight of everything dragging you further down.
in your stress and impulsiveness, you’ve managed to kill your entire grind for internships. deadlines have slipped past while you spent hours doom-scrolling job boards and second-guessing every application. the ambitious, career-focused version of yourself feels like a stranger now, buried under the weight of your own doubts and insecurities. and on top of that, you may have potentially lost the love of your life.
it’s laughable, really, how thoroughly you’ve managed to self-destruct in such a short time. the worst part? you can’t even bring yourself to check your socials. if you unblock him and see there aren’t any messages, you think your heart might shatter completely. which, if you’re being honest, isn’t exactly fair to him. you’re the one who had the meltdown. you’re the one who blocked him on everything. he probably doesn’t even know what he did wrong because you didn’t even communicate anything.
your stomach twists at the thought, guilt mingling with the ever-present ache of missing him. he was supposed to be the one person who made everything feel a little less impossible, and now you’ve pushed him away.
there has got to be a taylor swift song for this.
so you make your way to your spotify account to listen to afterglow, putting in your airpods while somberly looking at the ceiling once again as the lyrics fill your ears. tears well up as soon as the lyrics start
i blew things out of proportion, now you're blue⸻
tears well up before you can stop them, hot and heavy as they trail down your cheeks. god, you’re a mess. and yet, as much as you hate it, you can’t seem to stop the flood of thoughts that follow.
you miss him. you miss the way he made you laugh even when you were on the verge of tears, the way his ridiculous confidence somehow made you feel like everything would work out. you miss how he’d stay up late just to facetime you when you were overwhelmed with schoolwork, how he always seemed to know exactly when you needed him most.
and now? now you’ve gone and ruined it. maybe he’s angry, maybe he’s hurt, or worse—maybe he’s just done with you entirely.
the thought makes your chest ache, your breaths coming in shallow and uneven as the lyrics hit their crescendo.
i need to say, hey, it’s all me, in my head—
then, suddenly the song changes. you frown as you hear early 2010's pop blast through your ears.
i threw a wish in the well, don't ask me i'll never tell⸻
why the fuck is call me maybe playing?
annoyed and rubbing at your eyes, you move the change it back to, now, the sad girl hours playlist spotify curated for your and assume your dead fish position on the floor once again.
however, it seems as if your spotify is genuinely tweaking, like it's realized it’s gotten your attention. when call me maybe starts playing again, you groan out loud and move your phone. but before you have a chance to switch the song again, it seems to switch.
baby by justin bieber.
call me, blondie.
i love you, i'm sorry, gracie abrams.
letstalkaboutit, aminé.
i don't understand but i luv you, seventeen.
please please please, sabrina carpenter.
and then, once more, as if to really drive the point home: call me maybe, carly rae jepsen.
again, it's 3am, and you're stuck in a surreal mix of grief and confusion, staring at your phone as your spotify queue seems to have gained sentience. each song feels like a pleading nudge, an unmistakable pattern forming, and your blood runs cold when you remember one very important fact.
you share a spotify account with satoru.
"carly rae jepsen," you mutter under your breath, a mix of exasperation and fondness bubbling up despite yourself. he's hijacking your queue. right in the middle of your emo songs.
you sit up abruptly, tossing your airpods onto the bed, and hover over the call button on your phone. there’s a split second of hesitation—your pride battling with your longing—before you give in and press it.
the line rings twice before his voice comes through, breathless, like he’s been pacing. "baby?"
the sound of his voice sends a fresh wave of emotion crashing over you, sharp and raw like an open wound. the sound of his voice makes your stomach twist uncomfortably, equal parts relief and guilt. "satoru," you say, barely above a whisper. "why are you messing with our spotify?"
"why am i messing with our spotify?" he echoes, his tone incredulous. "why did you block me on literally everything? what was i supposed to do—send you a letter by carrier pigeon?"
you wince at the edge in his voice, your earlier anger wilting under the weight of his hurt. "i… i don’t know," you admit, the words tumbling out before you can catch them. "i was upset, and i wasn’t thinking straight. i shouldn’t have done that."
"yeah, you shouldn’t have," he says, still sounding a little indignant, though there’s something softer beneath it now. "do you know how many songs i had to go through to make my point? do you know how hard it was to resist the urge to rickroll you instead?" then, there’s a pause on his end, the line suddenly feeling too quiet. then he sighs, his voice softening into something that feels too much like an apology. "i didn’t know what else to do. i hate not talking to you. i hate knowing i made you upset, even if i don’t entirely understand why."
you close your eyes, the lump in your throat returning with a vengeance. the silence stretches between you, thick and unbearable, until you finally break it. "i’m sorry," you whisper, the words slipping out before you can stop them. "i shouldn’t have blown up at you like that.” and now that the dam has been broken, it all comes rushing out as you start choking up. “i’ve just been so stressed, and i’ve been missing you and then i saw you with her and then got irrationally angry when i really should’ve trusted you and oh my god i’m like a possessive tradwife husband that doesn’t let you leave the farm i’m sorry and i didn’t even communicate before i blew up at you like that—”
"hey. hey, hey, it’s okay," he says immediately, his tone filled with an earnestness that makes your chest tighten. "i know things have been hard for you. i should’ve been better, too. more present. i hate that you’ve been feeling like this while i’ve been...doing spider-man things." then, he lets out a dramatic sigh, the kind that’s equal parts exasperation and playfulness. "but wasn’t fair,” and you can hear a whine in his voice, “you blocked me and then ghosted me like i’m some kind of random tinder match. do you have any idea how insane i felt when i couldn’t even check to see if you were okay? i thought you hated me."
your breath catches at his words, guilt twisting like a knife in your chest. "i don’t hate you," you say quickly, the words spilling out in a rush. "i could never hate you. i was just… stupid, and emotional, and i didn’t know how to handle everything piling up. i’m so, so sorry, satoru."
there’s a pause, and when he speaks again, his voice is quieter, a little more vulnerable. "then why did you say those things? about mei mei, and… and me using the spider-man thing to get into girls’ pants."
you bite your lip, the memory of your harsh words making your throat tighten. "i didn’t mean any of it," you whisper. "i was just lashing out, and i know it wasn’t fair to you. i know you’d never do something like that, and i trust you, satoru. i just… i let my insecurities get the better of me."
"wait," he interrupts, his voice laced with amusement that shouldn’t make your heart ache the way it does. "you actually think i’d use the spider-man thing as a pickup line? that’s...wow. that’s genius. i should write that down."
"satoru!" you exclaim, half-laughing, half-crying, your emotions unraveling all over again. "i’m being serious!"
"i know, i know," he says, but you can hear the smile in his voice, warm and teasing. "and i’m being serious, too. i’d never do that to you. mei mei’s just...she tripped in front of me, i was just helping her up. i didn’t even realize how it must’ve looked, but i’ve never done anything with her. you’re it for me, okay? always."
you sniffle, wiping at your cheeks as your heart swells and aches all at once. "you mean that?"
"of course i do," he says, his voice soft and sincere in a way that makes your breath hitch. "i love you, even when you block me on everything and make me resort to spotify warfare." he sighs again, but this time it’s softer, the warmth in his voice breaking through his remaining irritation. "i’m not mad. i mean, i was mad, but mostly i was just upset. you really hurt my feelings, you know?"
the lump in your throat grows, your guilt threatening to choke you. "i know," you say, your voice cracking. "i’m so sorry, satoru. i’ll make it up to you, i promise."
"oh, you will make it up to me," he says, the teasing edge returning to his tone. "i want a week of boyfriend privileges—no complaining when i steal your fries, no making fun of my movie picks, and you’re buying me snacks for at least three of those days."
a small smile tugs at your lips despite the tears still clinging to your lashes. "deal," you say softly.
there’s a pause on his end, and then his voice comes through the line, quieter but no less sincere. "you really mean it? you’re not still mad at me?"
"i’m not mad," you say, your voice thick with emotion. "i was never really mad at you, satoru. i was mad at everything else, and i took it out on you. but i’m not mad anymore. i just… i miss you."
"i miss you too," he says, and the raw honesty in his voice---the subtle way it chokes up, as if he had been crying and missing you too---makes your chest ache. "so, can i come over? or are you going to make me keep hijacking your playlists to get your attention?"
you laugh softly, the sound tinged with relief. "just come over already, you dummy. and bring snacks. good ones."
"done," he says, his grin audible through the phone. "i’ll be there in twenty. and for the record, you owe me at least a whole playlist dedicated to how amazing i am and you sucking the absolute soul out of my dick---."
"don’t push your luck," you reply, but there’s no heat in your words, only warmth (and you’re absolutely going to suck his soul out of his cock). regardless, for the first time in days, the tightness in your chest starts to ease, replaced by something lighter, something whole.
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your husband, satoru gojo, turning out to be…spiderman? ── ✦⋆🕸.˚
🕷️ ⸝⸝ hurt no comfort (yet), husband!gojo x reader, spiderman!gojo, description of injuries/mentions of blood | wc 1.5k
things had always been simple between you and your husband. it had always just been easy, providing a sort of security in your life that you hadn’t felt in years. sure, satoru gojo could be a little unpredictable at times, teasing you or acting annoyingly foolish just to draw a giggle out of you — but asides from all the dorky jokes and pranks, it was clear that the man behind them was genuine.
you could easily look through those piercing blue eyes and see his sweet nature peeking right back at you from past them. even the hazy blue of his irises couldn’t seem to fog up and block out his personality. instead, every time your eyes met you saw directly into him, the satoru gojo you loved finally reduced into something softer, rawer, more vulnerable. only you could see the version of satoru where he was able to be unconditionally himself around you, free of the bells and whistles.
or at least, that’s what you had thought before you found out that your husband was secretly spiderman.
it’s a memory you’d both gladly leave behind. sometimes distorted snippets of the awful day occasionally blur their way through your mind, your thoughts loud with the memories of your tears, of the sight of satoru so weak in front of you, worn down and eroded in a way you’d never seen. or rather, in a way he’d never allowed you to see.
he'd been completely gone all night, all of your calls going to voicemail. when you'd first heard the front door click open, your first instinct had been to shout, to interrogate him on where he'd been, anything — until you saw the blood. he'd been hunched over himself, his breathing strained and wincing slightly, not making eye contact.
and suddenly, with the sight of satoru gojo stood in his tattered suit, deep gashes all over his body and half on the verge of death, the entire life you’d built for yourself collapsed under your feet. years of marriage shattered into fragments until all you could feel was the sting of the lies you’d been fed, each one burning hot and sour tasting against your tongue. each one of his lies, each harmless excuse, seemed to sting like tiny glass shards lodged into your heart: each dinner he’d shown up late to, each night when his work at the lab had “overran”, each last-minute errand he had insisted on going on.
you’d shouted at him. they'd been tearful, harsh words, whispered words of regret and betrayal. and then, you’d cried. you settled by his side, kneeling on the bathroom floor next to his weak body as he tried to sit upright for you, wincing in pain. but what was scarier, much scarier than each wound, each bit of damaged flesh or each deep cut, was how uncharacteristically small he had looked in that moment.
he had been weak in a way that was much deeper than just cuts or injuries, something regretful lingering beneath his actions: evident in the way his hand trembled just slightly as he tried to prop himself up further, evident in the way those soft blue eyes you loved were blown wide, darting towards your face as you continued patching him up.
something about those eyes that you loved so much staring right back into yours, this time weakened into something that was much more panicked, more lost, broke something in you. they were the same eyes that you had been convinced told you every truth about satoru, the same eyes that you’d noticed everything in, the ones that you were convinced told you every truth about satoru, like some sky-blue doorway to his heart.
and yet here you were, met by those very same eyes looking so unfamiliar, so roughend by time that it made your stomach twist until you felt sick. and even worse, he looked so used to that feeling of hurt, almost as though he was unfazed by the lingering exhaustion that had taken over his features. a look of subtle defeat seemed to be plastered onto his handsome features, eyes dull and pale skin littered with cuts.
you’d failed to see it. failed to see satoru.
it had made your heart twist with a sickening wave of guilt as you finished patching him up, still not yet able to meet his gaze. instead, you’d fumbled with the bandages, hands shaking as you tried to put away the first aid kit. with a horrible pang in your chest, you realized that the bandage supply had been slowly dwindling for a long while now. by now, the bag was almost entirely empty. the few bandages that did still remain had clearly been haphazardly shoved in by your husband, uneven and half poking out from their rightful spots, as though they'd been put away in a rush.
just how long had he been hiding these things from you? how well did you really know satoru?
“…satoru,” the name came out broken on your tongue, half-whispered as though you secretly hoped he wouldn’t hear you. like maybe if your words never reached his ears, you’d never get a response. like you could pretend it never happened. “…why didn't you tell me?”
he hadn’t replied, opting to simply stare at his own lap, fiddling with the ends of the gauze wrapped around his hand. you’d chanced a glance at him, just one, hoping it would all turn out to be some sort of sick dream and that you’d be met once more with that silly grin he’d always put on just for you. but instead you were met by the sight of his gaze lowered, his features dull. his exhausted body had been slumped against the bathroom floor still, one of his arms resting over his torso and his head low as though it was bearing the weight of each past choice and action he’d made to get here.
you swallowed hard before slowly sinking to the floor in front of him, crawling over and gently taking his face in your hands. you let your thumb glide over his pale skin, ghosting over the wounds tentatively, before slowly lifting his chin to face you.
and beyond the torn suit, and the blood-stained hair, and his furrowed brows, you saw him. weak, vulnerable, features almost fearful, as though ashamed to be seen in such a state.
with trembling hands, you wrapped your arms around him and pressed your head into his chest, carefully not to touch the freshly bandaged gash. you kept your face buried against his chest for what felt like hours, sobbing weakly.
“…toru…just…why?”
he had simply sighed before tentatively letting his hand come to rest on the back of your head, his touch so weak you could barely tell it was there.
satoru knew you were mad — and you had every right to be. but what was worse for him than any anger you could possibly aim at him, much worse than your shouting or any harsh words thrown carelessly his way, was the fact that you didn't punish him at all. all you could do was sob into his chest. he could feel each stutter of your breath, each tiny weak hiccup as your hand fumbled with the fabric of the suit, as though searching for something, anything, to cling onto. searching for a remnant of him to cling onto.
it was like you were looking for something to ground you, to make you feel like the marriage you’d experienced had been real. that the satoru gojo you’d known was really who he said he was all along.
but through it all, all you could focus on was the cold fabric of the suit under your touch, a thin barrier between you both, the distance barely there and yet seeming to span endlessly between you both.
somehow, with him here, under your touch, he felt even more distant to you. here he was, was no longer rushing off randomly, no longer insisting he couldn’t make it to dinner reservations after work, no longer hiding wounds and pressing his body weight against the bathroom door to keep you from finding out. and yet, with him finally here, finally held in place, finally not running away, you couldn’t help but notice how impossibly far away he felt. further than before. broken around the edges in a way you’d never seen, beyond physical injuries or loud expressive words.
just tired. scared.
and sickeningly, amongst the hazy blur of the scent of antiseptic and the sound of his labored breathing and the sight of his soft ivory-white hair stained crimson with blood — the hair that you had loved to run your fingers through — you felt a question gnaw at your mind. a tiny, numbing question selfishly eating away at your thoughts.
who even was satoru really? how much longer could you bear to keep aimlessly chasing a shadow of the man you thought you had known?
author's notes: i had originally wanted to write fluff but instead i ended up writing this oops
but yeah i do plan on writing a part 2 with comfort/fluff hopefully!!
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ཐི Pairings: Spider-Man!Gojo x f!Reader
ཐི Content warnings + tags: 18+ MDNI: blood/injury, mild language, brief suggestive tension, emotional vulnerability, mentions of past trauma/injury, friends-to-lovers tension, slow burn maybe, shirtless Gojo in distress (you're welcome)
ཐི Synopsis: You always knew something was off. The bruises, the excuses, the way Satoru smiled like nothing was ever wrong. But you never expected to catch your best friend climbing through his dorm window in a torn Spider-Man suit—bleeding, limping, and very, very confused to find you already in his bed. Turns out, the mask was the easy part. Explaining why he kept it from you? That’s going to hurt more.
Look, in Satoru Gojo’s defense, he didn’t mean to get bitten by a radioactive spider.
It wasn’t like he woke up one morning and thought, “You know what would really spice things up? Permanent genetic mutation.” No—he was just eighteen, bored, and dared by his best friends to sneak off during a field trip.
It had been Suguru’s idea, naturally. Haibara backed it up with that reckless grin of his and a, “Come on, Gojo! Don’t be a coward.”. And Gojo—never one to turn down a challenge, especially with you watching from the corner of the lab, arms crossed and suspicious—took the bait.
Next thing he knew, he was sneaking behind the barrier in one of the restricted research wings, alone, because of course his friends had ditched him to go flirt with the grad students.
But then he took one wrong turn, finding himself in a closed-off lab, staring at a glowing containment case he definitely shouldn’t have opened. And then—snap. Right on the web between his thumb and index finger. Like the thing had been waiting.
Yeah. He got bit. Sue him.
It was small, and honestly, the bite had barely hurt. You’d scolded him for wandering off, of course. Dragged him out by the sleeve of his lab coat and threatened to tell Yaga about the whole thing. But he never got the chance to explain the bite. Not before the symptoms started.
First came the dizziness. Then the freaky super strength. The creeping sense of pressure in the back of his head every time something bad was about to happen. And then the wall-crawling incident. That one was hard to ignore, especially when it ended with him stuck to the ceiling of the boys’ dorm for two hours before Suguru had found him. He was the only one who knew.
And the weird powers? They never went away.
The getting-stuck-to-the-walls thing just got worse. Along with his super strength that he hadn’t learned to control, resulting in him accidentally flicking an entire cafeteria tray into Nanami’s face (which he still hadn’t been forgiven for).
The rest, well...it escalated.
He got a mask. A suit. A name.
And for the past few years, he’d been juggling college classes, part-time tutoring, and the occasional city-wide disaster. It wasn’t glamorous. He wasn’t rich or famous. He still showed up to class ten minutes late with iced coffee and fresh bruises he refused to explain. But someone had to look out for this city—and it might as well be him.
Most nights were spent slinging webs across the skyline, fighting weirdos in mech suits or mind-control cults or whatever flavor of chaos happened to be trending. It wasn’t exactly what he had imagined his early twenties would look like, but hey—at least the cardio was good.
Tonight had been one of the rougher ones.
The villain had some sort of magnetic field tech—don’t ask, he’s still figuring it out—that completely messed with his web cartridges, which was honestly just rude. His ribs were sore, his suit was torn along the left thigh and shoulder, and he was pretty sure there was dried blood on his chin.
All he wanted to do after was crawl into bed and maybe sleep for the next week.
He didn’t bother swinging all the way across the city. Not tonight. He cut through a few back alleys, scaled a fire escape, and ducked into the familiar creak of the window that led to his dorm bedroom.
He dropped down inside with a grunt, one leg over the sill and already halfway to peeling off the top half of his suit when he heard it:
A soft rustle. The distinct turn of a page.
His head snapped up.
You were there.
Not a hallucination. Not a dream.
Just you, curled up on his bed like you belonged there—hoodie sleeves pushed up, a paperback balanced on your knees.
You blinked.
He blinked.
Both frozen.
And for once, Satoru Gojo had absolutely no idea what to say.
It was almost midnight when your phone buzzed again.
Another text from Gojo.
still working late :( don’t wait up
You stared at the message for a second too long, thumb hovering over the screen like you were tempted to cuss him out one more time. But then you rolled your eyes, locked it with a sigh, and tossed the phone onto his nightstand with a quiet thud.
Liar.
“Working late,” your ass.
He always said that. Or some variation of it—meetings ran long, had to help Yaga with something, emergency tutoring session. All suspicious. All delivered with that same infuriating grin, like he knew you wouldn’t push.
Sometimes you did. Sometimes you tried.
But he always wriggled his way out of it, brushing you off with a joke or a wink, or a “God, you worry too much.” Like caring about him was some kind of thing you should’ve been embarrassed about.
It was infuriating how vague he could really be—always making it seem like he was out actually doing something normal. But the bruises told you otherwise. The busted knuckles, the limping gait some mornings, the way he winced when he thought you weren’t looking—it all added up to something much bigger than “late-night tutoring sessions”.
So you stopped asking. Mostly.
Suguru was even worse. You’d begged him once, cornered him in the campus café after class when Satoru had come home with his ribs wrapped and his knuckles bloodied. “What is he doing at night?” you’d asked, giving him a look that said I’m serious this time.
Suguru had just looked at you for a long moment before quietly saying, “It’s not my place to tell. Satoru’s just…a complicated guy.”
Like you didn’t already know that.
Then he paid for your coffee and changed the subject.
You’d never felt so helpless in your life.
Satoru Gojo was your best friend. Had been since high school. Loud, ridiculous, impossibly smart—annoying, in that way that got on your nerves like it was his full-time job (though, he made it incredibly hard to actually stay mad at him). He was also the one who carried you home on his back when your feet hurt. Who sent you memes when he knew you were upset. He made you laugh. Made you feel safe, even when the rest of the world didn’t.
Somewhere along the way, the closeness stopped feeling purely platonic.
You never admitted it. Not even to yourself—not really. But it was there, humming under your skin like static.
And lately…he’d been pulling away. Or maybe hiding something. You weren’t sure which felt worse.
He was so secretive. Always brushing things off, changing the subject, vanishing in the middle of plans. You’d started pretending not to notice. That maybe it was just work, or stress, or something he’d eventually tell you when he was ready.
But that excuse had been wearing thin.
So tonight, instead of going back to your own dorm, you waited.
You’re not even sure why. Stubbornness, maybe. Or something softer you don’t want to name.
You were already curled up on his bed, one leg tucked beneath you, a paperback open in your lap as you reread the same sentence three times now. The hoodie you were wearing was one of his—oversized, soft, with a faded Digimon print on the front and sleeves that fell over your hands. It still smelled like his detergent—that faint peppermint-and-cotton scent that always made you feel like you were here, with him, even when he wasn’t.
His dorm was quiet, except for the occasional shuffle of someone in the hallway and the low hum of traffic outside the cracked window. The room was small and messy, barely big enough for one person, let alone two (he shared with Suguru). His desk was cluttered with open notebooks and loose pens. A pair of round sunglasses rested crooked on top of a physics textbook. The desk chair was pushed back at an angle like he had left in a rush.
You turned a page.
And another.
The clock ticked past midnight.
You didn’t know why you were still here. Maybe out of spite. Maybe hope. Maybe because you wanted to be there to make sure he was okay. That if he came back again limping or bleeding or cracked open, you’d be the one to catch him.
But deep down, you were hoping—just a little—that tonight would be different. That he’d walk through the door and sit beside you and finally tell you the truth.
You glanced at the window. It was cracked slightly, as always. He insisted that it was for ventilation, but you always suspected it was just another one of his stupid quirks.
You sighed, stretched your legs a little, and settled deeper into the pillows.
If Satoru wanted to keep secrets, fine. He could have his mysteries and his midnight escapades.
But he could at least have the decency to come home before you fell asleep in his bed.
You were just about to give up and call it a night when the window creaked.
Not loud. Just enough to make your head lift.
You blinked once, slowly, glancing up, expecting him to walk through the door like a normal person.
But no.
Of course not.
There was movement—a shadow pulling itself over the sill, graceless and muttering.
And then he dropped into the room.
You froze.
So did he.
One leg still hanging out the window, one glove halfway peeled off. His other hand tugged at the edge of a white mask, lifting it high enough to expose his jaw—his bruised, bloody jaw—and a familiar mop of white hair.
And your stomach dropped.
He hadn’t noticed you yet, not fully. He was grumbling under his breath, tugging at the top half of his suit as he peeled it down to his waist with a wince. His hair was a mess, clinging to his forehead with sweat, and there was a cut on his temple that looked like it hadn’t stopped bleeding.
But that wasn’t what made your heart stop.
It was the suit.
Mostly black and white. Torn at the sleeve. Streaked with dirt and ash. And right at the center of his chest, printed in bright, unmistakable blue—
A spider emblem.
Your breath caught.
He looked up. Finally saw you.
And everything in the room just—stopped. He was like a deer caught in headlights.
You felt your heart kind of stutter, because it’s him. It’s Satoru. Except—it’s not.
You stared at him.
Then at the suit.
Then back at him.
Your mouth dropped open. There is no way. No fucking way…
You’ve seen Spider-Man before—but who hasn’t? He was on the news, in blurry tabloid photos, grainy clips online. The masked vigilante who swung in to stop a building collapse downtown. The guy who took on four robbers at once outside the Midtown bank. The same one who—
—saved you once.
But that had been months ago.
And he hadn’t said a word.
Just lifted you out of danger, bridal style, and disappeared before you could even thank him. You’d told yourself it could’ve been anyone.
But now, with him standing in front of you—torn suit, wild hair, and a look of complete panic settling across his features?
There was no denying it.
The book you were barely reading slipped from your lap, hitting the mattress with a dull thump.
“Y–You’re Spiderm—” you start, the words tumbling out before your brain can catch up.
His eyes went wide.
“NOPE—NOPE NOPE NOPE—” he yelped, practically throwing himself across the room.
You shot to your feet, voice rising. “You’re Spider-M—!”
“SHHHHH—” His palm slammed over your mouth mid-sentence.
Your hands flew up in protest, eyes wide, muffled complaints coming fast and still loud. He looked equally horrified and apologetic, the panic written all over his face.
“Stop talking. Stop—please—shhh. You’re gonna give me a heart attack.” He glanced wildly at the window, as if worried someone might’ve heard you from four stories below. “Why are you here?! Why are you—why are you awake?!”
You glared up at him.
He winced, looking like he was two seconds away from passing out. “Right. Yeah. Okay. That’s a dumb question. But this is fine. Totally fine. Normal, even.” he muttered mostly to himself.
You raised a disbelieving eyebrow.
“Okay, not normal,” he amends quickly, eyes darting around like the room might start recording him. “But manageable. Kind of. If you just—stop screaming and don’t say the name again—"
You swatted at his hand until he finally took the hint. He slowly peeled it away from your mouth, like you might bite him. You didn’t—but only barely. You gaped at him for another beat. Your eyes flicked back to his suit, to the emblem, to the blood on his temple. “You’re Spider-Man?!”
“That’s…um.” He scratched the back of his head, grinning weakly. “A surprisingly complicated question, actually.”
Your hands flew up again. “Are you insane?!”
“Okay see, that’s more fair—”
“You’ve been lying to me this entire time—”
“Not lying,” he said, holding up both hands like he could Jedi-mind-trick you into chilling out. “Just, you know. Withholding certain city-saving, occasionally life-threatening details…”
You were still too stunned to speak. Your pulse was thundering in your ears.
Satoru Gojo—your idiot best friend—was the Spider-Man.
“What the fuck, Satoru?!”
“I can explain!”
“Can you?!”
“...Well, no. But I will! Eventually!”
There was another beat of tense silence. Then you both spoke at the same time.
“You’re a superhero—”
“You were not supposed to be here—”
Another pause.
You looked at him again. This tall, ridiculous man in front of you, standing in his half-peeled suit, covered in bruises, and desperately trying to hold it together with pure denial.
And you couldn’t help it.
You bursted out laughing.
“You’re Spider-Man?” you ask again, still breathless. “You trip over your own feet walking across campus.”
He pouted, deeply offended. “I don’t trip—okay, that was one time, and the floor was weird.”
You shook your head, a hundred questions forming at once. None of them left your mouth.
Because suddenly, everything—every late-night excuse, every wince, every disappearing act—made a terrifying kind of sense.
And it hit you, like gravity finally catching up, that he’d been doing this alone.
So, the laughter faded. Slowly. The corners of your mouth still twitched, but your chest felt tight again. It didn’t just disappear completely—but it quieted. Simmering beneath the weight of everything you’d come to realize.
Satoru looked at you, and you looked at him—this idiot, this liar, this half-dressed, scraped-up mess of a best friend— was still standing there, scuffed and bloody and too tired to keep the smile on his face. His shoulders were tense. His eyes—usually so loud, so annoyingly bright—were just…quiet. You felt everything all at once. Relief. Anger. Confusion. That familiar knot of worry that always settled in your stomach whenever he came home bloodied.
But mostly? You were hurt.
You crossed your arms over your chest, with a pout matching his own, “Why didn’t you tell me?” It hadn’t meant to come out so quietly, a little too raw.
He flinched as if you slapped him. “I—I wasn’t trying to keep it from you, I just—”
You stepped back before he could get any closer. “No, seriously. Don’t start with that. You lied. You disappeared. You let me sit here for months, wondering where you were. You let me think you were just being a dumbass, going out and getting into fights for fun, when you were out there risking your life every single night.”
He flinched again. You hated that he looked so small sitting there with his arms half out of his suit. Like he knew he’d messed up and didn’t know how to fix it.
“Suguru knew,” you snapped. “And not me. Do you have any idea how shitty that feels?”
His mouth opened—then closed. He scrubbed a hand through his hair, like he didn’t know where to start.
“Okay, that wasn’t—on purpose,” he said eventually. “He walked in on me stuck to the ceiling of our dorm one night. I was still figuring everything out, and he… just found out. I didn’t tell him. He saw. And I couldn’t really explain that away, could I?”
You didn’t say anything. You just stared. Because you believed that part—but it didn’t fix the ache.
He looked up at you then, eyes wide and a little too honest.
“Look, you’re right. I should’ve told you. I just…I didn’t want you to know,” he admitted.
That made your eyes narrow. “What?”
He exhaled, long and rough-sounding. “Not because I don’t trust you. It’s the opposite.”
“Satoru—”
“I’m serious,” he said, cutting you off. “I’ve seen what happens. Bad guys figure out who matters. They look for leverage, and people get caught in the middle. People I care about. I didn’t want to put a target on your back. If anything ever happened to you because of me—”
His voice broke off shakily, swallowing hard. “I wouldn’t survive it,” he said, quieter. “I’d never forgive myself…”
You blinked, feeling your throat tighten. “But I’ve always been there,” you said, voice barely above a whisper. “Whether I knew or not. I was already close. That didn’t change anything. You just…kept me in the dark.”
He just looked at you like you were breaking his heart. “I know…I’m sorry, okay? I didn’t want to lie to you. I just—wanted to keep you safe.”
There was a long, slow silence. Your shoulders sagged. The tension in your chest didn’t disappear, but it softened.
“…You’re such an idiot,” you muttered, stepping forward and tugging at his wrist. “Sit down before you fall over.”
He obeyed without argument, slowly sinking onto the edge of the bed with a quiet wince. You didn’t wait for permission—you turned on your heel and disappeared into his tiny bathroom, hands trembling as you opened the cabinet under the sink.
You needed a minute to breathe. To focus on something real, like disinfectant and gauze pads. Something you could control.
When you returned with the first aid kit, he hadn’t moved. He looked up at you with those stupidly blue eyes like he expected you to throw it at his head (which he definitely deserved).
Instead, you knelt down in front of him, pulling the kit open with practiced fingers. “You look like shit.”
“Thanks,” he mumbled, smiling just a little.
“You don’t have to do this alone, you know,” you said, your voice fell quiet again. It wasn’t meant to sound so soft, but it was the truth.
He didn’t say anything, but he held your gaze.
You gestured toward his shoulder. “Suit.”
His eyebrows shot up.
“For the wound, asshole.”
“Oh. Right.” He winced, hesitating for a moment before he peeled the rest of the top down, the fabric sticking to a bloody scrape along his ribs. His chest was broad and flushed in patches of bruised skin and dried blood. Strong. Vulnerable.
Your fingers trembled slightly as you reached for the gauze. You tried not to look too long, but your gaze lingered. On the muscles shifting beneath his skin. On the curve of his neck, the dip of his collarbones, the pale trail of a healing scar across his ribs that you’d never seen before. His chest rose and fell, shallow and slow.
Your pulse fluttered, and it made you angry—because he was reckless and stupid and hadn’t told you anything. And it made you terrified, because you didn’t want to think about what could’ve happened if he hadn’t made it home tonight.
He winced when you dabbed the cut a little too firmly. “Baby,” you teased, gently. “You jumped off a building tonight. I think you can handle a little antiseptic.”
He snorted in response, smiling just a little, but it was smaller than usual. More tired. “That’s rich, coming from the person who cries during animal rescue commercials.”
The silence stretched. Your fingers moved more slowly, feeling the tension between you suddenly shift. It softened, changed shape.
You realized you were still kneeling between his knees, still tending to the bruise blooming down the side of his chest, and his eyes hadn’t left you once. When your hand brushed along the exposed skin, his jaw ticked.
The air felt warmer now. Thicker. His eyes flicked from your eyes to your lips. Yours flicked to his.
And he leaned in. Just barely.
And you let him.
Your heart stuttered against your ribs once more, this time for a very different reason. Your lips parted slightly—
—and then the door swung open.
“Hey, Satoru, have you seen my—” Suguru’s voice cut off midway.
Both you and Satoru whipped your heads around, flustered, wide-eyed, practically jumping apart.
Suguru stood in the doorway, eyes landing on you. Then Satoru. Then the awkward tangle of limbs and exposed skin between you.
There was a beat of silence as he blinked. But then he smirked. “Oops,” he said, backing up with his hands raised into the air. “My bad.”
The door clicked shut behind him.
Then, slowly, you sat back, pressing the gauze firmly to his chest like it was his fault. “Tell him if he walks in like that again, I will kill him.”
Satoru coughed, trying and failing to look innocent. “Technically, he does live here.”
You glared. “Whatever.”
And this time, he laughed.
You cleaned the last of the cuts in silence, fingers steadier now. The sharp edge of anger had dulled into something quieter. Something that felt like grief, maybe. Or relief. A kind of tenderness you weren’t sure what to do with.
And it wasn’t awkward between you anymore. Just heavy. Full of things unsaid.
You taped down the last bit of gauze and let your hand rest—briefly—against the uninjured part of his chest. The warmth of his skin. The steady beat of his heart beneath your palm.
He didn’t move.
You knew he was still watching you. He always watched you like this—like he was memorizing the shape of you. Like he was afraid you’d disappear if he blinked.
And maybe you would’ve. If things were different.
When you finally sat back on your heels, you expected him to deflect. To joke. To shove it all down again, the way he always did when things got too real.
But he didn’t.
Instead, his voice came low. Careful. Afraid he didn’t deserve to ask.
“…Can you stay?”
You looked up at him. Really looked—at the bruises, the bandages, the blood still drying in his hair. But more than that…you saw all of it. The fear. The loneliness. The guilt he’d never once said out loud.
You wanted to yell at him again. Or maybe hold him forever.
But instead, you just nodded. Quietly. Without hesitation.
Because he didn’t need to ask.
Because you were already here.
Because you’d always stay.
And that was enough.
Author's Note: I've had this oneshot in my drafts forever now, but I was feeling inspired by Only One's Who Know by @indiewritesxoxo, because this superhero au of Gojo and Geto is chef's kiss. And I HIGHLY recommend you guy's go give it a read (I'm addicted)!
As always my lovelies, if you enjoyed, a repost is always appreciated! <3
divider: @strangergraphics! | Art by: @aliyartss on instagram
summary: as a devoted student of science, you put all your time just to that. Misfortune falls upon you when you are faced with being in the same class as satoru gojo, your longtime academic rival and essentially the bane of your existence. It goes one step further when his strange behavior seems to get even stranger as the web slinging hero of New York suddenly swings into your life. . . not that there's any correlation.
pairing: spiderman!gojo x fem!reader
warnings: college au, excessive banter, guns, violence, death/bloodshed mentioned, sexual content, smut, porn with plot, p in v, oral sex, missionary, doggy style, riding, little sprinkle of dirty talk
wc: 26k
a/n: this is based off the spiderman gojo art by @ aliyartss on instagram!
First weeks of any semester are always brutal.
The sound of traffic clogging and polluting the streets, brutal. The beginning of ringing headaches from the lack of sleep, brutal. The start of all-nighters to complete homework and study, brutal.
That’s just a small piece of the brutality that follows college students.
At least that’s what most students can relate to.
You glance over at Shoko, next to you as you settle into class. Being miles ahead of schedule was always way better than being even a second behind. So walking into the small lecture room ten minutes before class plays in your favor even if it was Professor Yaga’s class, the same professor you’ve had for two past semesters already.
“You look a little annoyed,” Shoko comments while flipping through her notebook.
“Sorry—I had a bit of a fight last night with my Dad,” you sigh out, shaking your head. Your finger slides along the edge of your own notes. “And I guess I’m just a little stressed about everything. The JJ Tech guys are having me spend extra hours and I can hardly get an hour to myself in the day.”
“Well chin up, we’ve got a long lab ahead of us today,” Shoko tapped playfully against your chin, her eyes down on her papers.
“Hm, right,” you mumble, eyes drooping at the chalkboard. “Wonder how you’re getting through this lab by yourself.”
“Hey, Satoru is my lab partner. You shouldn’t worry too much about that,” she chides. Shoko has a habit of not looking at you when she’s in the middle of doing something while conversating. “You seem like you have something else on your mind. You wanna talk about your dad?”
You eyeball the warmup problem he has on the board, jotting it down in your notebook. Your mind races with that conversation you had with your father just last night. How he wanted to have an assigned detail with you on campus, safely getting you to and from class. You have enough to worry about with finally shifting to yours and Utahime’s new apartment in a few short weeks without having to think about your dad.
Your impending argument was scheduled to continue once you saw him again since you didn’t even have a fighting chance when he got a call about a high-profile criminal striking again. You wonder just what could have transpired last night, apparently there were witnesses that sighted him.
“Not really.”
His fingers trail down the side of his torso, eyes screwing shut when he grazes that sensitive expanse of skin. Throbbing mercilessly, he hisses through clenched teeth, opening his eyes and glancing at the banged-up mirror on his wall.
That skintight suit was still clinging to his body like glue. He tears his mask off his head, tousling his white locks in the process. His head tips back when his gloved fingers brush over that tender place on his side.
A series of slow, deliberate breaths travel past his lips. Mindlessly, he reaches for a vial of painkillers. He doesn’t even count how many he tips into his waiting palm before popping them into his mouth and chasing them down bitterly with a bottle of water.
The boy grunts out as he falls back onto his bed, hoping he could sleep the soreness off before class tomorrow.
RING! RING!
Those eyes of his that had just shut after eons of forcing himself to stay alert and prepared for any attack were cruelly wrenched open once more.
RING! RING!
Another blasted alarm sounded from across his room, an alarm clock he simply can’t punch to snooze as he’d already bought a new one after abusing his previous two.
Satoru sat up, wincing at the sting on his side.
He groaned, gruffly peeling that suit off his body. Thoughts of the day ahead warped his mind. He had spent all night traipsing rooftops, swinging through the streets in pursuit of a gang of sloppy bank robbers.
He usually had fun trailing and taking down thuggish rogues, picking them off and bringing them to justice ever so casually. He got to feel the rush of the midnight air as he swung from building to building, between the streets. Arms and legs easily stretching and freely moving without a care in the world.
He loves it.
Last night, he had run that stolen van off the road without much effort. Everything went swimmingly until he had foolishly been launched into a brick wall mid-chase.
That had caused him to lose a bit of coordination during the fight that ensued shortly after. After stringing them up with his webs, he had swung back home only to stop yet another mugger on the way.
Once he had finally returned the woman’s stolen purse and made sure she got home safely, he gave himself the same protocol.
He tries to rush out of the apartment as soon as possible. He had enough on his plate to worry about with school, he could hardly keep up with his nighttime activities.
No, not that. His work as a vigilante made it difficult to have even a moment to himself. Let alone the fact his internship at JJ Technologies started earlier this month as well. So yes, he has enough on his plate with no room to spare for the breakfast his conscience had suggested.
“Yo! Suguru!” Satoru calls. He is jolted out of his thoughts when he approaches his best friend right by the theology building.
“Oh, what’s up?” Suguru turned around. “You watch the game last night?”
“Wha—no,” Satoru shakes his head, pushing his glasses up. He sheepishly sighs, “You know I’ve been busy with the internship and with homework.”
“Oh right,” Suguru mumbles teasingly. “The internship? Speaking of, did you see the news? They’re saying the man who banged those guys up pretty good last night was the mysterious Spiderman.”
“Will you shut up?” Satoru gasps, almost slapping him.
Of course, Suguru knew. He found out in a freak accident only a week after Satoru had been bitten. The freak accident being Satoru forgot to lock his bedroom door while changing out of his costume and his best friend walking in.
“Relax. No one knows,” Suguru reassures, he takes a sip of his coffee. “Only a small population of the public are still choosing to be delusional.”
“Yeah, delusional enough to believe Spiderman doesn’t exist,” Satoru scoffs.
“No, delusional enough to believe he does,” Suguru corrects harshly. “If I didn’t walk in on you half naked with that suit on and saw how you shot out a web before you realized I was in the room, I would never have believed those photos I saw in the news either.”
“Spiderman is a household name now whether you like it or not,” Satoru self-righteously points at himself with his thumb. “You wouldn’t believe how big of a fan the ladies are.”
Suguru shakes his head as he eyes his student portal on his phone. “Fuck, I have a history quiz today.”
“Shit, me too,” Satoru grunts, shaking his head as he walks past yet another sorority bake sale on his way down the main streets of campus. “Wait—we’re in the same class.”
“Oh—yeah,” Suguru fumbles with his phone as he points at Satoru. “I think I might ask Nanami to let me cheat off him—Haiba won’t mind but let’s face it, he’s not the brightest—Wait, you never mentioned what exactly happened last night.”
“Toji Fushiguro’s on the run. There was a sighting of him last night and I went to track him down but no luck. Then there was a bank heist on West 7th, I wish I got to fucking sleep after. Being flung against a brick wall is not as fun as it sounds. Fuck—wait I have class!” Satoru interjects, darting off in the middle of the conversation, leaving Suguru with a look of disappointment on his face.
“I have the same class,” Suguru frowns.
Yaga has always been quite the authoritarian, he knows what to expect from one of his star pupils as he strolls into class with a lazy smile on his face, ten minutes late.
“How nice of you to join us, Satoru,” Yaga’s tone isn’t as sweet as his words. “I should count myself lucky you showed up at all today, no less right before we worked on our lab assignment.”
That hand you have your cheek resting on slides up to palm at your forehead, hoping to soothe the forthcoming headache once that boy settles into his seat.
“We’re switching lab partners today,” Yaga declares, pen in hand as he scribbles and crosses out names on his seating chart. “I know you must’ve been comfortable with your partners from last semester, but I’d like you to find your name on the board and sit accordingly. This partner is who you’ll be working with for the final project.”
Satoru was perfectly fine working with Shoko. Their scientific caliber was on par with one another and despite the fact they butted heads quite often, they somehow managed to do quite well on their labs.
His mind traps him in praying he doesn’t end up with Yuki that he almost doesn’t realize the fact you were his new partner. He whips his head to the right, seeing your brows raise as you glance back at him.
Seriously? Him?
No one can relate to how brutal it is having Satoru Gojo of all people as your classmate in your organic chemistry class.
Yeah sure, give you an assignment of reporting the development and properties of organic photovoltaic cells for renewable energy applications or even deciphering the molar mass of your father’s whiskey collection, you could make sense of it.
You could never make sense of this kid, however.
Satoru Gojo.
The irritating kid you’ve been battling to beat out for the highest exam score since middle school. The kid that ran into class late and hardly seemed all that present but still landed a score almost as high as yours every time. The kid that sat at the back of class, dozing off during lab. The kid that spent a decent chunk of senior year playing Digimon on his phone and still antagonized you before every science test you had.
That kid you thought you wouldn’t have to worry about after high school but were proved severely wrong when you saw him on your campus your first semester. That kid you hoped you wouldn’t have to run into anywhere else but still did somehow where you had been interning.
If there was a chemical formula to understand why you couldn’t stand him, your list of grievances would have to be simplified to fit on one page.
You’re seriously contemplating on marching up to Yaga and demanding a switch in partners. Someone else. Anyone else.
Trying to change Yaga’s mind on anything though, was a feat greater than what any scientist could accomplish.
Heaving a sigh, you plop your books down on the table. There was this severity in your movements that wove seamlessly into propriety. He peeks over at your color-coordinated notes all lined out in neat handwriting.
Yeah, he’s been competing with you in school for years. It’s not like he meant to, he was just great at just about everything he did. It’s not his fault!
He knew you couldn’t stand him, and he enjoyed that for some reason. Getting under your skin with quick quips were designed to be much more fun because of that. Since he is on the clock every hour of the day, he needs to let out his stress somehow. Punching bad guys is not enough anymore.
“Look at your notes,” Satoru cheeses, flipping through your book. “All shiny and pretty. You know, if you put more effort in, you could look the same.”
You shove his arm, snatching your book back from him, “Shut up. Don’t make me mad. Words can’t explain how pissed I am already.”
“Aw, you know I’m kidding,” he grins mischievously. “You’re not that bad to look at.”
You press your lips together as you inhale heavily. Your eyes raise to look dead straight at the front of the class before you turn your head to face him.
He catches that fire in your gaze that he’s not even seen in the most vicious of criminals and mutants he’s gone up against.
“I don’t get why Yaga didn’t call Suguru out for being late either,” Satoru frowns, facing forward.
“Because Suguru isn’t late every day,” you point. “You are. And half the time, you leave early. It baffles me how you still pass all your classes.”
“Is someone jealous?” Satoru smiles.
As you shake your head, you look down at your notes. You’ve known Satoru for many years, but he was always just a classmate. He was also always the classmate you would barely beat out to get the highest marks in science or any other class. The classmate that would get under your skin way too often.
There was something about him that made you pay close attention to him.
“Oh shit!” one of the students in class shouts out, eyes glued to his phone. Needless to say, he’s garnered the attention of the entire class. “There’s a robbery going on right now at the bank downtown! Six-gun men have all the customers and staff held hostage!”
This earns a series of nervous gasps and prayers from the students. The hair on the back of Satoru’s neck stands up and he’s still in his seat as his peers flock toward the lab table of the student watching the news live stream.
“Wonder when Spiderman’s going to show up,” one of his classmates ponder aloud.
“Nah, he can’t do shit. You think a clown in tights is going to take down a fucking group of men with guns?” another kid snarks, causing Satoru to all but roll his eyes as he stands up.
Ah, the everlasting and everchanging debate as to whether the wall crawling vigilante was a menace or a savior of society.
If he wasted his time worrying so much about what people thought about him, he’d never get a single thing done. He drowns out their discussion as he strides to the door with his mission clear in his mind: Save those hostages.
“Alright boys! Glad we wrapped this up!” Satoru, or should one say, Spiderman dusts off his hands ever so casually.
He crouches down, leveling with the leader of the gang who happened to be tied up thanks to Satoru’s expertise webbing. He breathes freely with the knowledge that the hostages have rushed out of the bank, straight into the arms of their worried loved ones outside and the police.
When a vial of green in the pocket of one of the tattooed thug’s glints in the light, Satoru reaches to pull it out. He squints through his mask at the bottle of green, “What do we have here?”
As expected, the thug spits out, “None of your fucking business, you bug.”
“Quiet, will you?” Satoru harshly smacks the man’s forehead.
“Robbing a bank on a busy day like this for me?” Satoru tuts, a menacing lilt in his joke. “You should feel lucky I haven’t strung you upside down in your underwear out on the street lamps. But I’ve got somewhere to be unfortunately, so have fun in jail!”
With that, Satoru extends his arms out and a thick web sprouts out in the direction of the tall buildings lining the streets. If it was any other day, any other time of day, he would’ve stuck around. Spewed out some more quippy remarks, had a bit more fun with the goons.
But alas, he must get back in time before class ends. He knew the twenty minutes he had vanished for were going to raise questions.
He was absolutely correct.
“Satoru, where the hell were you?” Yaga all but yells at the boy stumbling back in. “Class is over.”
The entire class has their attention steering over to the late boy. He knew what he had to say, the lie didn’t need to be ridiculous but he knew regardless, he would still sound utterly stupid. He did not particularly give a fuck though.
“Little boy’s room,” Satoru casually responds, not a speck of shame in his rather comical answer.
This has the entire class locked in a deadly silence. That is before they split into a fit of boisterous laughter. Satoru revels in the fact he’s defused the tension he suspected he may experience.
You narrow your eyes, eyeing Satoru as he trudges over to his seat, tugging his collar into place. You let your eyes fall to the tabletop, looking over your work.
Typical. He leaves for God knows what and you’re stuck doing his work. If this isn’t precedent enough to request a new partner, you don’t know what is.
He’s not said a single word to you yet . . . How odd. You expect him to do no less than tease the living hell out of you or ask if you missed him.
All that swarms his mind however is what the hell is in this vial?
“What the hell is in this vial?” Suguru murmurs quietly as he inspects the glass tube.
“Beats me,” Satoru replies, swiping the bottle off him. “I need to figure that out.”
“Don’t you think that maybe you should’ve handed it over to the police?” Suguru asks, the sound of fellow classmates typing away on their laptops and chattering away in the campus library buzzes in the background.
“Police won’t do shit,” Satoru bites back, rolling his eyes. “If law enforcement was capable of anything, don’t you think that there wouldn’t be a need for Spiderman?”
“What about Spiderman?” Haiba butts in unannounced.
Satoru nearly jumps five feet in the air at the sudden intrusion. His six eyes that worked in his favor as a sixth sense to alert him of danger have helped him tremendously in combat time and time again, but not so much with nosy classmates.
Quickly pocketing the substance, he looks at Haiba, “None of your business.”
“Are you kidding? I spent all afternoon looking for footage from today’s robbery—I got nothing,” Haiba whines, flailing his arms in the air.
“I heard it was pretty cool,” Satoru boasts pridefully, earning a well-deserved elbow to the gut from Suguru.
Haiba trots off to go bother Nanami before Suguru faces his best friend again. “Oh fuck. Y/n is coming this way. Good luck.”
The vigilante’s eyes widen when he recognizes your stern, no-nonsense face and stride. Everyone is well aware of what that means, your kind and lighthearted behavior is put on hold in favor of your stern approach to your academics.
He half expects you to create a scene in the library but he knows you better than that. You never openly got angry, the worst he’s seen you do is roll your eyes. It’s one of the reasons he pokes fun at you as much as possible, hoping to see how he can make you crack.
Yet, you never do. You hold notebooks and files close to your chest as you march to a halt three feet away from him. Indifferently, you pull out a packet and hold it out for him.
“Since your bladder has never-ending issues, I did your part of the lab today,” you chide like you have a myriad of other things on your mind.
“Shit—you did not have to do any of this,” Satoru knows he should be frowning, but he’s not. A little leer spreads on his face, eyes wide and glimmering through the lens of those glasses he absolutely had no more use for since the day he was bit by that spider.
“Don’t bail on me again. Then I won’t have to do it,” you purse your lips at him before you turn around.
He is left there with nothing else to do but embarrassingly watch you walk away, clutching his lab report in his hand.
“Hold on,” Satoru mumbles to Suguru as he watches you sift between the aisles of shelves.
Before either of them know it, he’s making his way to the aisle you are in. He’s eyeing you up and down almost skeptically, eyes lingering far longer than they should.
“Can I help you?” you quiz quite impertinently, your right hand pulling out a heavy book from the biochemistry section.
“Why did you do my part?” Satoru tips his chin down, a crease forming between his silver brows.
“Because you . . . didn’t do it,” you slowly iterate, grasping the book with both your hands as you flip through the pages.
“Well, duh, but why?” Satoru repeats. “You didn’t have to do it. I ran out of class and left it all on you—you shouldn’t have done it.”
You take a deep breath, slamming the book shut, “If you really think I did it for you, you really don’t deserve to be in the same class as me at all. I did it so I don’t have to rely on you to get the work done. I’d rather have the work done right than have it half-assed. And here I thought you were much more clever than that.”
“I’m not stupid,” he smirks. “Just confused about a lot of the things you do sometimes.”
“Yeah, because you don’t know me,” you say, sliding that book back into the open slot on the shelf. You look up, reaching for another book that is placed well above your head.
“I know you. I know you’re your father’s daughter,” Satoru’s statement is playfully delivered yet it strikes you like a bus. His fingers stroke the spine of the book you were reaching for, relishing the fact you couldn’t reach it. He looks down at you, tugging the book out and holding it in his big hands. “You might just be stricter than the captain himself.”
“Why are you talking like you know my father?” you glare, folding your arms.
“Seen his interviews on the news. He’s one tough cookie—but it only makes sense when you’re a cop, huh?” he has a lilt in his head.
“Why are you saying stupid things?” you question, narrowing your eyes at him. “I already have enough on my mind, I don’t need you badgering me with nonsense.”
“It’s not nonsense, it’s my professional opinion as your partner,” Satoru holds the book out with a ridiculously charming smile.
“Lab partner,” you fix his statement, reaching for the book but he pulls it back out of your reach, stupid grin still on his face. “Don’t play games with me, I have to get to work now, and you have to get there too.”
You pry the book from his hands and stride off before he can annoy you further. Satoru’s head turns, following you march off. He’s not sure why he’s trapped in staring at you for so long.
“I’m guessing you plan on finding out on your own as to what’s in that bottle,” Suguru interjects in the middle of Satoru’s wandering mind, popping up in the aisle.
“Yeah, pretty much,” Satoru fishes in his pocket, hoping that the touch of his cool fingers on the glass will telepathically reveal its identity to him. “If I had the equipment to do it on my own . . . it would be so much fucking easier.”
Suguru gapes at him like he’s stupid, “Hello? You intern at the biggest scientific research facility in the city.”
Satoru’s brows raise and the corners of his mouth turn down, weighing the possible next route to his answer.
“Okay, you have to log the results in the system like this,” you instruct your team. “Then you move on to the next step. Trust me you don’t want to forget logging that data, it could entirely throw off the process.”
You’ve been interning at JJ Technologies since last summer which has done nothing short of drain you of any free time whatsoever. It’s only been several weeks since you were moved up to lead a fresh batch of young interns. Luckily, you haven’t had to deal with teaching them in the laboratory with the equipment, just basic information and note-taking thus far.
That unfortunately was only the first of four hours at the facility. The next three hours, you would be holed up in the lab, inspecting and experimenting with nanotechnology. As tiring as it is, it is just as rewarding.
Knowing the amount of good that can be done with this research and work was a brilliant means of motivation. Society has advanced already as it is—the world of medicine has benefited greatly—billions of lives have the chance to improve. How could anyone give up on that?
Thoughts of what homework assignments you have yet to submit reign your brain. Hours and hours of straining your mind to intake as much information and apply it all in the lab was making you want nothing more than to crawl under your covers and call it a week.
With a hefty breath, you take a well-deserved recess to the vending machine. Hoping that this little trip for a snack can hold a candle to the sleep you oh so desire.
Satoru knows his assigned place of work is four levels down. He also is aware that his group had been dismissed ten minutes ago and he should be swinging his merry way through the streets to scout for trouble.
He is also entirely aware that he should not be on the twenty-something floor that had a chance of having an empty lab right about now.
Swiping his boss’s ID card is far too easy, shooting an inconspicuous web at any cameras of interest is just as simple.
The hard part is deciphering what is in this damn vial. The lights are dim inside the particular lab he steps into. A breath of relief pushes out of his lungs as he pulls the small bottle from his pocket, circling the stations to get to the specific equipment he needs.
There’s a limited amount of liquid in the vial, so he knows he must handle this process with care and precision. The story would be different if he had another vial or two.
You watch almost lifelessly as a bar of candy and a canned coffee drop down, landing with a dull thud. Mindlessly, you reach through the bottom flap, hearing the faint hinge as you pull out your restitution for break-free work.
Closing and harshly forcing your eyes back open, you try to keep your mind alert as you march on back to the lab to clean up. When you open the door, you’re not expecting this boy to whip his head up at you like a deer in headlights.
“Gojo?” you furrow your brows, one hand still on the door and the other clutching your food.
Gojo is stunned into silence, a laughable silence. When he says nothing, you tip your head down, “What are you doing here?”
“I just had some work,” Satoru quickly lies. “My manager needed me to look at something. I know you’re pretty happy to see me—your face says it all.”
“Oh, does it? Aren’t you supposed to be on the 20th floor?” you quiz, left eye twitching.
In most situations, when Satoru’s backed into a corner, he can somehow flip his way out of there or even sweettalk whoever he needed to. But he can’t explain why he actually feels bad lying to you, it makes his head whirl. “Uh—yeah, but I had to use some of the equipment up here.”
Squinting skeptically, you near him slowly. As you do, Satoru can’t help but gulp. He’s not sure what it is he should focus on. The fact he needs to come up with a way to convince you to not report him? Or the fact you are only a couple inches to his left, looking over his shoulder? The fact you look so adorable in a lab coat?
“What is that?” you peer down at the vial, noticing he has already placed a drop of that substance down on a microscope slide.
“Not sure,” Satoru shrugs. “I haven’t got the faintest clue.”
You continue staring at the chemical concoction, you flick your gaze at him, “Mind if I take a look?”
“Go for it,” Satoru shuffles a couple inches over, giving you enough room to peer into the eyepiece of the microscope.
He can’t help but tautly swallow, hardly able to pay attention because of how sweet you smell. He has to stop himself from telling you just that but he can’t let it get to your head. As effortlessly as he spins webs, he only hopes he’s half as graceful when feeding you some half-assed answer as to just what this chemical was and that his manager most definitely would give him such a compound.
“Hmm,” you hum, slowly turning the dial on the side of the instrument to lift and then focus what was in the slide. “Figuring out what is it shouldn’t be too tricky. I just need to measure the resonance frequency by breaking the substance down a bit more. Then determining the chemical properties shouldn’t be too tricky.”
Satoru’s brows lift and the edge of his lips turn down, amused clearly. “Wow.”
“What?” you blink.
“I always forget how smart you are,” he says airily. When you shoot him a look that seems to be a hybrid of threatening and offense, his nose crinkles and his glasses shift accordingly on his face, “That came out very wrong. I just meant—”
“So this is why you broke into my lab?” you cut him off, still squinting down at the substance.
“I didn’t break in,” Satoru defends himself. “I just figured no one would notice.”
“Why don’t you check over the logic in that again,” you suggest, eyes glancing up at him. “It’s hard to believe you’re the guy who almost beat me out for valedictorian.”
“And why’s that?” Gojo tilts his head, leaning his elbows on the table. It leaves you eyeing him from head to toe as inconspicuously as possible. Sometimes you forget how tall he is. The fact he towers over you serves as a friendly reminder he’s not just any old geeky kid from school.
Before you can give him an answer, his phone buzzes. He shoots a glance down at it, his pretty features sinking. The program he had compiled with Suguru to tune into the police’s radio communications to pick up on any crime alerts had pinged with notifications on his phone. There was a robbery currently taking place at a jewelry store three streets away.
“Shit—my aunt needs me to pick her up from her cooking class,” Satoru quickly lies, blinking unsteadily as he faces you. “It’s kind of far and not safe for her to ride the train by herself. I have to go. Sorry for bothering you—”
“Wait—” you hold a hand up, earning a wide-eyed look from him. It’s kind of endearing how earnest he sounds. “How about you go, and I’ll keep looking at this for you? Once I figure it out, I’ll let you know.”
“You don’t have to,” Satoru frowns, sliding his backpack on, his Spiderman suit nestled neatly inside.
“It’s no problem. You go—don’t keep your aunt waiting,” you beckon him to get a move on. “I’ll see you at school.”
There you go again, being so incontestably kind yet being so severe while doing so. It’s when you crack a hint of a smile to ease him that he actually does as you say. That must be the first he’s seen you sincerely look at him.
Satoru rushes out the door and you glance down at the vial again, trying to understand what exactly the contents of it were.
Satoru has no time to think about how badly he feels leaving you with such a task. He’s too busy webbing his backpack up high on an alleyway wall after he’s changed into his suit.
Before he knows it, he’s already in the air, swinging loosely through the streets of New York. He feels the wind rush at him like it wishes to capture him, keep him in the sky with the moon. But with how quick he’s moving, he feels invincible—like nothing can touch him.
Satoru’s fallen into the same routine every night. Despite the fact he never gets the recognition in his personal life, he would not give up being Spiderman for the world.
Citizens walking the streets all gasp and point when they see the great Spiderman shoot past them like a comet. His white and blue suit makes him look like he was meant to be a part of a winter night sky, the sapphire blue spider emblem in the center of his chest casting a beautiful contrast in the ensemble.
He pays no mind as the silver meshy strings of his webs cling to buildings, aiding him in passing through the streets with ease. He also doesn’t stop himself from enjoying the occasional flips to impress the children out with their families and friends. Satoru insists it’s entirely necessary.
Once he spots the store mentioned on the police comms, he zips around the corner. Landing right above the entrance to the small jewelry shop, he pushes it open rather discreetly. It’s almost comical the way the goons inside haven’t the slightest clue that the Spiderman was crawling into the shop right above their very heads.
Thanks to Satoru’s wall crawling abilities, he’s able to cling to walls and ceilings with ease and without so much as breaking a sweat. So when he casually gawks down at the masked thieves, he tilts his head in amusement at how panicked the men look shouting orders to one another.
“Quick! Before Spiderman gets here!” one spits, stripping a diamond chain straight from the display case. When his friend breaks the glass case all together, he screams, “What the fuck are you doing?!”
“The Spider’s not gonna come. He’s too chicken,” the other responds. “I’d like to see him try.”
“Cute,” Satoru chuckles above them.
This causes all four to whip their heads up at the masked vigilante. Satoru is only able to see their eyes through the cutouts but he can tell by the way their pupils dilate that they are downright terrified.
In the papers and in the news, Satoru is privy to the fact the general public is split on whether they see a need in all the flips and tricks that come along with Spiderman.
Satoru couldn’t care less though, he is wholeheartedly prepared to stand trial to attest to the fact that the flair is entirely necessary. He displays the testimony by the very way he does a backflip and lands with both feet and a palm planted to the ground.
“Y’know I left a really pretty girl all alone just so I could stop you?” Satoru teases lightly, straightening up and flexing his arms by crossing one over the other. “But hey, if that’s what you think, we can make this a lot more fun.”
One of the men reached for his gun, pulling it out and pointing it at Satoru. All he huffs out is a displeased and underwhelmed breath as he shoots out a web, yanking the gun back.
“Come on. Show a bit more effort. You’re killing me,” Satoru drawls like a six-year-old. His six-eyes alert him of an impending punch hurtling his way from his left, making him duck and grab the very goon’s fist in the process. “Missed me!”
The goon let out a threatening growl as he swung again, only to miss Satoru. . . over and over again. Satoru laughs childishly as he doges and parries off swings one after the other. Two of the others manage to finally point their guns at the arachnid hero, clicking the safeties with a string of snaps that causes the shop owner to gasp and cower further into the corner he was in.
Satoru rolls his eyes, delivering an unruly kick to one of the men that dominos into him clashing into his friend, knocking them both to the ground.
The hero giggles at the pathetic exhibition before him. He hardly bats an eye when one of the men throws something that resembles a marble to the ground. A cloud of smoke emits from the impact of the small pellet on the shiny limestone floor.
Satoru’s eyes widen behind his white and black mask. He moves to leap back but inadvertently breathes in far more than he intends to.
His head spins, or maybe it’s the room that is spinning, he can’t tell. All he knows is that his head is suddenly throbbing in pain, every nerve ending feels like it’s thrumming to burst within his very skull. Like they are conspiring against him and hoping to flee the purgatory of his mind.
His ears tune in and out like his head has been dunked underwater. Vision beginning to blur, he tries his best to plant his feet firm on the ground but to no avail. He’s hit with a great wave of despondency when he envisions his uncle’s dead body before him.
That and flashes of him in a beautiful house overlooking a balmy little coastal town, the sound of his laughter blends in with a girl’s and he cannot distinguish whose.
He hardly gets the chance to decipher the strange blend of images when he is suddenly hit in the back of the head with a crowbar.
Once again, the poor boy’s head rings and his head snaps down from the impact of the weapon to his skull. He lets out a pained groan, doing his best to gather himself and seize control of his sense again.
His vision begins to clear and all of a sudden, his six eyes begin to tingle and flash in his mind. INCOMING.
He listens to his instincts and ducks straight away, successfully dodging another deadly swing of that damned crowbar.
“Alright, party’s over,” Satoru scowls under his mask and flips back, snaking a well-aimed and well-timed web sticking to the man and tugging him back.
He punches him quite harshly in the face that it all but knocks him out. Satoru quickly lunges for the two goons in the midst of aiming their guns at him. The thieves don’t even process how quickly they are disarmed because Spiderman has already smashed their heads together.
They drop to the ground, leaving one more thug, quivering in terror. He points his gun at Satoru with a shaky hand, only to find that weapon of his leaving his very hands when Satoru tugs it at towards himself with the help of his webs.
“Last one, huh?” Satoru smugly says. “Okay, let’s get this over with.”
The thug fumes as he charges at the vigilante, “I’ll fucking kill you. If not me, then the others!”
He throws a fist at Satoru, but he whips his head to the side, “Others?”
He then lands a punch of his own at the criminal before successfully dodging yet another hit. As Satoru’s third punch causes the thief to lose balance, he’s already in the middle of stringing the man upside down from the ceiling.
“Who are your friends—” Satoru stares at the tangled man, readying his fist to intimidate the thug. “And I advise you talk.”
“I’m not saying shit!” The thug spits, trying to wriggle free.
“You’ll be here for god knows how long. All that blood rushing to your brain, oof, must hurt a little.” Satoru threatens playfully. “And it’ll hurt like hell when I actually beat you to a pulp!”
“Shit! Okay! Okay!” the thief cries, panic-stricken sweat dripping down his forehead into his hairline. “I—I work for a guy named Jogo! He’s this freaky looking guy that wears this mask on his face—I’ve never seen him but he’s big in the group, works with some other guy—I don’t know his name.”
“Jogo,” Satoru mumbles wracking his brain to see if he has had a run in with him. “What is he up to?”
“I’ve got no clue! I swear!” the man attests frightenedly. “All I know is that they needed us to look for a specific relic—You see my partner you knocked out right there? He’s got a picture in his back pocket. Jogo sent a bunch of us on heists in banks and jewelry stores to see if we can find it but there’s no sign of it anywhere.”
Satoru steps back and grabs the photo from the pocket of the man the other thief had indicated. He pulls back the photo, glossing over it briefly.
It was a photograph of a box. Made of some sort of coppery-silver metal with engraved eyes on the sides of it. The irises though, were made of jewels—rubies.
“Going through a whole lot for this freaky looking thing,” Satoru waves the photo with a dexterous flip of his fingers. “Why are they going through all that trouble for this? And what’s in it for you?”
“Wish I knew why those guys want that thing,” the man shakes his head, eyes still wide. “They told us they’d give each of us a cut in all that we returned from the heists—Jogo is not someone to be messed with—he’d track us down and kill us if we went back on our deal.”
“Tch. You’re scared of the wrong people,” Satoru tuts, stowing away the photo for safekeeping. “Tell me what that thing was that your friend threw on the ground. That little ball.”
“That? I have no idea. The boss just gave my partner a few—I think that was the last one. He didn’t tell us what it was or what it did,” the felon explains.
Satoru feels his own fingers twitching in irritation, “Think again. Remember what it was and I’ll go easy on you.”
The criminal’s eyes widen, “I don’t know anything! I swear! Please don’t hurt me!”
“Goodnight,” Satoru grunts out, ramming his elbow into the man’s nose, putting him to sleep.
It’s a matter of seconds before Satoru is watching from a few rooftops over as the cops arrive on scene. The flashing blue and red lights flashing into the back of his very skull. He’s running through what the thug he interrogated said, trying to make sense of it.
Speaking of making sense, you’re lugging yourself out of the lab after finally making sense of just what that vial Satoru had given you contains.
The worry on your face embeds itself into your features as you stash the chemical in your bag. Why would his manager hand this to him?
You glance over your phone, seeing your father calling you as you’re walking towards the train platform. Taking a beat to answer, you speak into the receiver, “Hey, Dad.”
“Hi, sweetheart, are you on your way back? It’s getting late,” your dad says, chatter in the back cause your ears to perk. Radios and police codes being tossed around in dialogue.
“Yeah, I’m waiting for the train,” you reply, looking up and down the tracks. “Are you still working?”
“Yeah, captain duties, dear,” your father responds calmly, yet you can hear the annoyed strain in his voice. “That spider’s strung up a few men in a jewelry store downtown. Taking care of what’s left of this place.”
“Oh—you saw Spiderman?” you ask, watching the train stop in front of you, bracing yourself as the lashes of wind whipped at you full speed.
“No, he’s left his webs all over the place,” your dad grunts dishearteningly. “Damage control is going to have lots of fun with that . . . Mom’s going to be pretty mad at us tonight for missing dinner, huh?”
“Oh, yeah, for sure,” you nod like it’s obvious, sitting down and making eye contact with a gruff pair of men before quickly averting your gaze. “Maybe you should bring her flowers. She always likes that.”
“Yeah, maybe I will,” your father says. “Alright, honey, get home safe. I’ll see you in a bit.”
You think over what he says. Your father always mentions the elusive Spiderman. How none of his men have gotten even close to cracking the case on who the wallcrawler is. How Spiderman is somehow everywhere and takes care of crimes of all scales.
How could a man find the time to even do all that?
The desire to study a man like him plagues your mind far much more than you would like to admit. Who would pass up such an opportunity?
But more of what’s spinning in your mind like a deadly train is why Gojo has a vial like this?
Speaking of trains, when yours comes to a stop, you stand up to get off. It’s unfortunate that the subway stop couldn’t be closer to the next one you are supposed to take.
As you drag on down the street, you mull over what you plan to say to your dad when you try convincing him to simply leave you be once you move out because your safety is put more at risk from the distant and late commutes after classes and your internship.
There’s something in your gut telling you to rush, like you’re being chased or watched at the very least.
You toss a look over your shoulder, seeing those two rugged men about fifteen feet behind you. It’s well past dark and your heart hammers louder against your ribcage, a prisoner demanding release.
Facing forward again, you try to hurry as fast as you can but you feel helpless when you enter a scarcely populated street.
Fuck.
That’s when you break into a full speed run. You hear the footsteps behind you pick up. Your hand slips into your bag’s pocket to grab your mace or taser, but when your fingers only skim the glass of that substance Satoru gave you, you know you’re doomed.
You glance back again, thundering heartbeat blaring just as loud as your footsteps against rough pavement.
“Hey, pretty!” one of the leering men shout. They are far too close to you now. “We just want to have some fun!”
You reach for your phone to send an SOS message to your dad—but that’s exactly the moment the man grabs your arm. You scream in horror, trying to keep going but the other one grabs you too.
Against your will, they drag you into the deserted alleyway nearby. You’re still wriggling in their hold, hoping to free yourself. Thrashing, kicking, screaming, you try it all.
“Let go of me!” you scream. “My dad’s a cop and he’s on his way right now!”
“Shut up,” his friend spits. “You’re full of shit.”
“I’m not,” you grit your teeth. “Captain L/n—badge number 103—”
“Yeah, yeah, sure,” the first man says. “You look better when you’re not talking. We gotta do something about that.”
Your eyes widen, and you try pushing, screaming as loud as your lungs can take. The elbow you throw against the jaw of one of the men seem to have done some damage. His head whips to the side but surprisingly his body shoots back about five feet, striking against the brick wall.
Your big eyes follow the man, seeing that wasn’t your doing at all. Of course, it wasn’t. How could a girl like you simply cause a man to fly across an alley and slam against a wall?
That’s when he appears like a fallen angel. In black and white, a glowing blue in the core of his chest, a symbol of hope.
Spiderman.
He’s against the wall the man had flown into, but you have to crane your neck a fair amount to look up at where he’s clinging to. You can hardly blink at the fact he’s against the brick wall with no reinforcements whatsoever, just his fingers and soles of his feet keeping him afloat, defying physics, logic, and gravity.
“You gotta be at least a little attractive to hit on a girl like that,” Spiderman tilts his head, voice light yet husky, young.
“Fuck,” the man closest to you now was backing away. “I didn’t do nothing! I’m—I’m sorry—”
“Ugh, shut up,” the vigilante drawls, dragging out his syllables childishly.
He drops down with the most impressive of flips you haven’t even seen gold medalist gymnasts do. After he effortlessly sticks his landing, he wastes absolutely no time in lunging at your assailant.
He punches him square in the side of the jaw, the pop loud enough that you gasp, stepping back.
The man lets out a frightened cry, and right when you almost feel bad, you’re reminded of how you screamed a few moments prior. Yeah, this terror is well deserved.
Spiderman delivers a seamless kick to the side of his opponent’s abdomen. The entrancement you’re trapped in doesn’t let you avert your eyes at all. His movements are like water, like a choreographed dance even Broadway level performers can never imitate.
A scientific miracle. Something inhuman. Someone untouchable.
The man falls to the ground after taking a quite deadly strike to the face. Your eyes go from the attacker on the ground to his attacker.
The superhero stands there, his back to you, silhouetted by the dingy light from the end of the alley. He turns his head to the right, and you’re guessing he sees you from his peripheral because he’s still not looking directly at you.
You want to watch him for much longer, the superhuman that saved you. The superhuman in a well fitted suit, defining every inch of his body—his muscles, his perfect height.
“You okay, miss?” Spiderman asks, turning to you.
“Y-yeah,” you rasp. “Is—he . . .”
“Dead?” he finishes, snickering. “No. Just sleeping peacefully till the cops get here. Which should be in about five minutes.”
You nod, humming in the little frozen state of yourself. Behind the mask, Satoru wants to do a million things. Ask you a million things. But he knows he needs to keep up the persona of the wall-crawler he his.
“You don’t want to get caught in the lengthy questioning the police are going to do, right?” Spiderman (Satoru) crosses his arms, leaning against the wall.
“Not really, no,” you hardly move at all as you speak.
“See? That’s why I like my way of business. Less paperwork,” the web slinger jokes. “I can get you where you need to be in a matter of minutes. Tell me where you were headed.”
You gulp, “Home. But what do you mean? I don’t think you have a car—wait a second.” That’s when the reality of the situation hits you. “You’re real?”
Satoru chuckles, “We’ve been talking for almost a minute now, lady.”
“I know, but,” you’re looking him up and down. “I thought those news reports were based on just pranks. Seriously—no one has seen much of you—I thought these criminals were just leaving webs everywhere as a sign of loyalty to their gangs.”
This gets the man to laugh again, his head is facing down, and he shakes his head. You’re staring again, it’s hard not to.
“Alright, miss,” Satoru looks at you, making sure he doesn’t accidently slip up and call you by your name. “Where were you headed? Home?”
“Yeah,” you say, watching him push himself off the wall and hold a hand out to you. You glance down at his hand, then up at his face. His mask is covered in synthetic fibers stitched to imitate webs.
“I know you’re shaken up by those guys and what just happened but please trust me,” he sounds inexplicably genuine, unaccountably sincere. “I won’t let anything bad happen to you.”
Your eyes soften, so does the rest of you as you place your hand in his. There’s a level of trust you don’t understand the strength of when you do so. It’s borderline undermined when he tugs you toward him quickly, eliciting a gasp from you.
“You might want to hold on tight,” Spiderman suggests, snugly sliding his arm around your waist, pressing you against him.
“What are you—,” you don’t have the opportunity to finish your question when you find that your feet have left the ground.
You grasp on tighter to him, heeding his suggestion without so much as a second thought. You look down, feeling the wind whipping in your hair. The sight below you is enough to draw a yelp. Well, anyone that is being swung through the streets of New York would. It’s only natural.
“Oh my god!” you scream when you feel yourself hurtling towards the ground.
He shoots another web in the nick of time before you hit the concrete, and you’re in the air again. You bury your face in his neck, clamping your eyes shut. Satoru holds you close, tightening his grip on you. This feels nice.
A part of him doesn’t want this little swinging spree to end. Maybe it doesn’t have to.
“Sorry. No seatbelts,” Satoru laughs. “Should’ve mentioned that!”
“You think?” you quiz, half gasping with the rush of the wind. “Wait! Where are you even taking me? I didn’t tell you where I live!”
“Just trust me!” he yells back.
You open your eyes, looking over his shoulder at the city. The lights don’t blur like you expect them to. You feel like you’re flying, like the moon was waiting for you to join with the stars.
Cars seem smaller suddenly. People look smaller. New York, though, looks just as vast as it always has been.
Once the initial fear shakes out of you, you stare at the city, “Woah.”
You turn to look at him—at Spiderman. He’s still focused on swinging you through the city with one arm. Studying his mask, you can see the fibers of fabric, polyester or something similar. There can’t be many people that can say they’ve seen Spiderman, let alone been this close to him.
You’re amazed, in awe of the impossible. Peace consumes you as you continue to gaze at the wonderous city you love.
Another swoop over rooftops and you feel him lowering towards one. You hold on again, hoping the landing isn’t so rough. Luckily, it isn’t.
You look around, realizing you aren’t on just any rooftop. You’re one of the rooftops of the building you live in.
“How’d you know I live here?” you quiz, brows furrowed and jaw slack.
Satoru has a bit of an oh fuck moment. Words almost fail him but he’s easy to recuperate.
“Well, your dad lives here, doesn’t he?” he points at the ground. “The captain?”
Your mouth that was agape slowly closes and your eyes drift to the edge of the building, “Oh. You know who I am.”
“I know who your dad is,” the man replies. “Seen him a bunch of times. So I’ve seen your face around the main precinct a lot and on the news.”
“You have?” you cock a brow.
“Yeah—hey, don’t worry about those guys. Just try not to be alone at night,” he advises, gesturing with his hands. “Guys see a pretty girl and don’t know how to act a lot of the time.”
You can’t help the slight brow raise when you realize he called you pretty. Satoru pays it no mind however as he scratches the back of his neck.
“Where were you coming from anyway?” he asks, pretending not to know.
“JJ Tech headquarters,” you answer, licking your lips discreetly to tame yourself from gawking at his lean yet muscular figure. Eyes lingering far too long on how the skintight suit fit him, accentuating everything.
Satoru catches this, smirking to himself, “JJ Tech, huh? You must be pretty smart.”
“Pretty smart would be an understatement,” you say. “I wasn’t even supposed to be there this late anyway. I should’ve been home two hours ago.”
Satoru’s ears perk up, he takes this as his opportunity to pry, “How come you stayed longer?”
“Just this guy—he ran in and asked me to help him with an assignment,” you grumble, rolling your eyes.
“Just a guy? He your friend or something?” he asks, leaning his back against the wall to the stairs.
“Or something,” you mumble.
“Oh?” Satoru pipes. This is the perfect moment to see what you think about him. To even flirt with you without any repercussions. “Does that mean he’s your boyfriend?”
“What?” you squeak, voice all high pitched. “God, no. No. He’s just a classmate. He pisses me off most the time—I can hardly stand him at all.”
Satoru scowls beneath his mask, not what I was hoping for.
“I still can’t wrap my head around the fact you exist,” disbelief clings to your tone. “You know you’re a scientific marvel, right? Scientists would kill to study you.”
He laughs, it’s a pretty laugh, one that feels hauntingly familiar, “You want to cut me open or something?”
“Oh, I’m not qualified enough to do something like that,” you wave your hands. “Who’s to say I can’t study your body in other ways?”
Satoru can’t help but smile, he sees that glimmer in your eye and you sound so innocent despite how inviting you phrased that. You don’t even realize it, but he smiles wider.
“You’re funny,” he laughs, shaking his head.
There’s a bunch of things on your bucket list, a lot of things you aren’t sure you’ll get to even accomplish. One of them being making thee Spiderman laugh was definitely not one of them.
“Thank you for saving me,” you say, pulling him from his little fit of amusement. “I thought I was . . . I thought they were going to get away with what they wanted to do.”
Satoru raises his head again, straightening up. It dawns on him that he’s responsible for you being out on that street this late. That if he had hurried up, he could’ve gotten back in time like he planned. He just feels lucky that he made it in time.
He made it just in time, and he’s thankful for that. But he truly hates the fact you almost got seriously hurt because of him. He’s at fault and he knows this will haunt you for a long time.
“Don’t thank me. It’s nothing any normal human being wouldn’t do,” Spiderman tells you, walking over to the edge of the building. “Just stay safe. And know you can depend on your friendly neighborhood Spiderman anytime.”
And with that, he dives off the side of the building. You suck in a harsh breath, rushing and leaning over the elevated stone along the perimeter. Looking down, you find that you have to follow the black and white blur swing up again.
You smile breathlessly, watching the amazing Spiderman soaring off.
“Suguru, it was all my fault,” Satoru paces his apartment . . . ceiling?
He’s walking in circles upside down, feet sticking to the ceiling like it isn’t scientifically impossible. His mask off but his suit remains on.
“If I hadn’t left her there for so long working on that freaking solution, she wouldn’t have left so late. If I was even a second off, I don’t even know what could’ve happened,” Satoru’s white locks are swaying as he walks. Although he defies gravity, his hair doesn’t.
“You saved her though, that’s all that matters,” Suguru assured, stuffing the chopsticks with a mouthful of noodles in his mouth. “But how did she not recognize you? There’s no way you talked to her.”
“I did,” Satoru drops to the ground. He makes his way over to where Suguru sits on the couch, picking up a box of takeout. “Maybe she’s not as smart as she thinks she is.”
“Please,” Suguru eyes Satoru, handing him a pair of chopsticks. “Don’t underestimate that girl, she’s smarter than half the tri-state.”
“Sure, she’s cute and happens to be smart,” Satoru shrugs. “She’s just a girl though, not a threat.”
“Why did you bring up her being cute?” Suguru narrows his eyes, lowering his food. “That had nothing to do with the conversation.”
“What?” Satoru mutters, chewing on his noodles. “She’s beautiful—there’s no denying that.”
“Beautiful?” Suguru laughs.
“What?”
“You just took it one step further,” Suguru teases, laughing again. “You have a crush on her!”
“What? No, I don’t!” Satoru snaps.
“Now it all makes sense,” Suguru has a wide grin. “Teasing her nonstop, annoying her to get her to yell at you. Wow, you can just ask her out, y’know.”
“Okay, you’re on drugs,” Satoru squints at his best friend.
“Yeah, yeah,” Suguru dismissively says. “So did you get that vial back from her?”
“Obviously not, I’m not supposed to know about that as Spiderman. Only Satoru Gojo knows that,” Satoru states, pointedly gesturing with his utensils. “I’ll ask her tomorrow.”
“Hm, what are you going to do now though?” Suguru asks. “I mean about this Jogo guy that thug told you about.”
“I’m not sure,” Satoru mumbles. “I’ll have to look into that.”
“Shoko, you know I wouldn’t make up something like that.”
“I know! That’s not what I said, it just sounds insane. Like, Spiderman? The Spiderman?”
You stare at her flatly and Utahime rubs your shoulders, “That sounds terrifying. Did you tell your dad?”
“What? Are you kidding? No,” you quickly spit. “If I tell my dad that he’s going to station two cops to follow me twenty-four seven. I can’t have that.”
“Y/n, that could’ve ended very badly,” Shoko frowns dejectedly. “What if Spiderman didn’t show up?”
“But he did,” you say. “If he didn’t, I’d be dead, and all my stupid little worries would be gone. But you don’t understand—that man . . . wow.”
Shoko and Utahime pause to look at one another, the former quizzing, “You—you don’t have a crush on Spiderman, do you?”
“Not a crush, no,” you chuckle, sipping your coffee before you look down at Shoko from where you’re sitting on the picnic table. “Fascination, yes, I have that. But to be honest, he was incredible to look at—his body was . . . ugh, I don’t have anything appropriate to say.”
“Now, this is how I know you need to get laid,” Shoko chuckles. “Having a crush on a spandex wearing spider is insanity.”
“Is it?” you look at where she sits on the bench. “You experience what I did, and I’d love to hear your opinion.”
Shoko frowns at you, then at Utahime. That’s when the latter says to you, “Wait, didn’t you need to talk to Gojo?”
“Yeah,” you murmur, sparing a cautious glance to your bag containing that mix. “Got to go over that stupid project before class. Would it kill him to be on time? He’s always late.”
There’s no need to tell your friends what the fuck Satoru had given you to configure on your own. Not until you at least talk to him and get the full story. You have enough on your mind as it is, having Shoko and Utahime’s thoughts thrown into the mix would only rattle and confuse you further. It doesn’t help that one of them grew up with Satoru and knows his aunt and the other loathes him almost more than you do.
“I’m going to grab a croissant before class,” Shoko rubs her stomach. “I’ll catch up with you later.”
You hop off the bench and head on down towards where your Orgo class is. There’s still about twenty minutes left till class and Shoko falls behind to grab her baked good.
Those memories of last night carry you where you need to be. You strut along the path with a purpose, your hair is effortlessly styled, makeup barely there, yet it somehow masks just how disheveled you truly feel.
“Gojo!” you call as you spot him by the bottom of the steps in one of the University’s vast courtyards, he just so happens to be in the midst of discussing something Digimon related with Haiba.
Haiba and Suguru’s eyes widen as they realize it’s you storming towards Gojo and not just any other girl.
Satoru flicks his gaze over as you walk over, stopping in front of him. He’s not sure what to say, he knows he should probably address the task he stupidly left for you to do but he hardly strings a solid greeting together without sounding stupid, “Hey.”
“Can I talk to you—in private?” you ask, your face gave away an austere look, like you were about to scold a child.
How can he say no?
He nods, standing up and following you down the side of the building. The two of you are supposed to be heading down to class that happens to be the other way but he doesn’t even question you when he’s whisked onto the school grounds.
His mind fumbles through the events of last night. He had two conversations with you. One as your savior and one as the guy you got stuck with for science class. He’s racking his brain enough to decide how to behave although the answer should be obvious.
The boy follows you behind the bleachers, looking around with an incredulous quirk in his brow when you step into the dark underside of them.
“Is everything okay?” Satoru blinks as you stop.
“Gojo.” You sternly face him, not saying anything else.
“That’s my name, yeah,” he sassily retorts. “Doesn’t answer my question though.”
“Don’t test me,” you hold up your index finger threateningly.
Cute, he thinks.
“Where did you get this?” you hold up the small vial. “And the truth this time.”
Satoru’s eyes lock onto the green liquid, unsure what lie he should curate this time. He could simply insist on the same lie as before, convince you that you were overthinking. Or he could tell you the truth, ultimately putting your life and his secret in danger, but hey, it’ll save him from looking entirely idiotic.
“I told you, my manager,” he states, reaching out to take it.
You pull it back, further from his reach and he wants to laugh at how easy it would be to take it from your hands in the blink of an eye.
“How stupid do you think I am?” you quiz.
“I don’t think you’re stupid at all,” he says, a smile goes with that shake of his head, his hair falling over his bespectacled blue eyes. “Just a little scary.”
“Listen, I know your manager didn’t give you this because he wouldn’t give you this.” You pointedly flash the vial in his face. “Do you realize what’s in here?”
“Wait,” Satoru’s smile fades. “You’re telling me you actually found out what’s in it?”
You nod haphazardly, more confused than skeptical, “You don’t know?”
“No—I don’t, what is it?” he asks, nearing you too closely without meaning to.
You lower your hand, “It’s a highly concentrated blend of hallucinogens and anesthetics. One sip could send a man into cardiac arrest—or worse, kill him.”
Your eyes are on his, but his eyes aren’t on yours. His are on the bottle of chartreuse in between your fingers.
“Satoru,” you murmur quietly, lowering the bottle into his indecisive palm, his fingers edging closer to yours but pulling back ever so gently before they attempt to muster the courage once more. You glance down at his long pale fingers, his skin glows sweeter than the moon itself.
Your gaze dips to your skin grazing his as you place the bottle into his hand. You let your hand linger against his, not sure why you don’t think of retracting.
Why are you just realizing how pretty he is?
The rims of his glasses glint as he looks at your face, studying your features like he’ll never get the chance to ever again. You blink yourself into snapping out of it, pulling your arm back and swallowing dryly.
“Sorry about the trouble,” Satoru quietly says, stowing away the vial.
“It’s okay,” you reply, voice rasping. While his eyes are focused on tucking the bottle safely, you say, “I don’t know what it is you’re hiding—I won’t ask, but please be careful.”
Satoru can’t help the grin he cracks, “I’m tougher than I look.”
And when he walks away, there’s a strange feeling that stirs in your gut. A feeling that tells you he may be right.
You aren’t sure why you’re still thinking about why he had that chemical in the first place. Did he make it himself? Did he buy it off someone? What was it intended for?
The rest of your organic chemistry class, you’re left there wondering what that boy is up to. You’re left wondering why he is missing class again today after you just saw him. And you’re left wondering whether Satoru thanks Yaga for never marking him late or absent at all. Call it favoritism, you suppose.
He thanks any deity that he can think of when he arrives on time to JJ Technologies before his manager questions him.
He finds some time to slip away, sneak up to your floor while you’re instructing your latest interns. He smiles, watching you scribble something down on your clipboard while you walk.
“Okay, this right here is just a sketch of one of our current studies,” you point at a holographic, digitized image that appears above a table. “This is a paradigm for a new discovery of nanoparticles. They’re commonly used to reduce the number of catalytic materials within chemical reactions. There are two fields within certain industries that they are applied to. Can anyone tell me what they are?”
The students all flip restlessly through their notepads, struggling to look for the answer to your question.
Satoru can’t hide the snicker he lets out. Half the student look back at him and you peer through the batch of preppy kids to see him.
“Petroleum refining and automotive catalytic converters,” Satoru replies, still smirking complacently.
You have a bit of a curl to your lips, eyes locked on his as you say, “Yes. That’s correct.”
Seeing him appear within your mix of pupils almost throws you off, but you know you have a certain image before the students so you keep yourself composed. You quickly instruct the students to write the answer down and head to their stations with their teams.
When the interns disperse, you cross your arms, face to face with Gojo.
“What do you want?” you ask, a sickly-sweet smile on your face.
“Oof, would it kill you to talk nice to me?” Satoru acts like a wounded soldier, palm across his abdomen.
“I feel like it might, so I’d rather not take the risk,” you say pointedly.
“Hm, right,” Satoru scoffs, he looks down. “You’re going to be alone now in the lab, right?”
“No, I’ll be in the lab but not alone,” you say. “My colleagues are going to be in there with me. You need something?”
“No, I wanted to ask you something,” his brows tense.
An odd sensation stirs in your stomach, “Ask me what?”
It’s been a while since either of you actually began interacting with one another somewhat civilly. You don’t know what it is that will come out of his mouth but you’re suddenly hopeful.
He grabs your hand, leading you off to the side, causing you to jerk your head around in case anyone’s looking.
Once you are beneath the mosaic mural of DNA helixes on one wall, Satoru stops, letting go of you. You try not to let the idea of his hand staying in yours distract you from what’s to come.
He tries not to focus on how soft your hand is, and once again how the fragrance of your perfume feels like candy on a summer day.
“You didn’t tell anyone about that bottle, did you?” he whispers, eyes darting between yours and the rest of the busy facility.
“No,” you shake your head. “Of course, not. I had a feeling you wanted to keep it private.”
Satoru looks at you, his smile reaching his ears, “Aw, how sweet. You care about me.”
You smack the back of his hand, causing him to hold it close to him possessively and rub it gently from the very slight sting of your slap.
“Shut up,” you snap, catching the way his blue eyes gleam behind his glasses. “Is that all?”
“No,” he states, straightening up and switching his tone from light and playful to serious. “You said it was deadly to take a single sip. That the properties within it were so overly saturated it could do serious damage. But let’s say . . . you needed to use it in combat . . . could you?”
The nature of his question startles you, “Combat? Like if soldiers were fighting?”
“Yeah, sure, like that.”
You’re blinking heavily, looking towards the place where the wall meets the floor, “Well, I suppose it could be used in a vaporous form. Like gas or something. That could do enough damage too.”
“Ugh,” Satoru closes his eyes and pinches his nose. “I was afraid of that.”
“What is it?” you peer up at him through your lashes. “You’re hiding something.”
“No—I’m not,” Satoru groans. He notices the suspicion on your face, “You got time for a snack in the cafeteria?”
Flaring your eyes over his, you glance discreetly at the time, “Fine.”
You begin to walk away.
“That was a yes or no question! Not a secret third response,” he trails behind.
“You got your answer, didn’t you?” you gesture to yourself.
“Yeah, but you seem entirely unenthusiastic about it,” Satoru grumbles. “A little energy may do you good.”
You hit the elevator button, crossing your arms, “I’m not here to appease you.”
“Appease me? Oh, god,” he lets out a baffled scoff.
“What?” you furrow your brows. “Poor choice of words?”
“Not exactly,” Satoru replies, loosely shifting to get into the elevator. “It might be nicer, I guess, to know if you actually wanted to get a snack with me and not as if I’m holding you at gunpoint.”
You roll your eyes, “You brought up a snack and I happen to be hungry. Where does gunpoint come in the mix? You really want me to do cheer like you came to my rescue?”
He almost laughs from the irony but he knows not to. He knows just as well that things could have gone extremely wrong the other night if he had not gone about everything carefully. There’s another sort of irony to him, a different form of saving.
“Mhm, but you like coming to my rescue pretty often,” he responds, a lopsided smile on his lips as he leans against the wall with folded arms.
You squint at him, the word rescue coming out of his mouth reminding you strangely of the danger you were in right in that alleyway.
“What does that mean?” you say with tightening eyes.
“You did my part of the lab report to save my ass, you helped me with that liquid, you kept that secret for me,” Satoru breaks eye contact, looking at the ground. “And that time in freshman year of high school.”
His final reminder steers your heart to a slow pace, your shoulders untense. You remember that event all too well.
“I’m a decent human being,” you explain as if it’s a scientifically proven, immutable fact. “It’s less about enjoying something but more of the fact I would be miserable and angry with myself if I didn’t help someone that needed it.”
Satoru lifts his head to level with you, his eyes are wide in a blank stare. That is right before he suddenly blurts a short chuckle. “Spoken like a true hero.”
Your eyes flit upwards as the doors to the elevator open. He leads you out into the hall, his strides are much longer than yours.
“Wait up! I can’t walk that fast!” you snap breathlessly.
His gaze flicks over to you, his eyes close behind his lens, laughing again. Bustling closely to him, you quiz, “Okay, well you still have a lot of explaining to do. Like where you got that green thing from.”
Satoru stops by the line of sandwiches. His head turns to face you, “Don’t you trust me?”
“Absolutely not,” you’re quick to counter. He throws his head back as you grab a saran wrapped sandwich from the stall and face it at him strictly, “You’re not normal. That’s what I’m realizing.”
Satoru grabs a sandwich and a sugary soda too and he’s about to follow you as you walk off to a table but is interrupted when the employee behind the register curtly clears his throat. A nonverbal cue to pay for you both.
Satoru lets out a throaty groan, fishing deep in his pockets for a crisp ten dollar note. He rounds the table to the other side, sitting down with you.
“You’re having all these revelations pretty late into our lives, aren’t you?” Satoru picks up the conversation as if there was no gap in between. “I’m a little surprised you just came to the conclusion I’m not normal.”
“Hm, I’ve known for a while,” you hum, turning focus to your sandwich.
Memories are thrust upon you from high school. When you first met him, he hardly spoke. He was short with his interactions and would hardly have the grace to offer more than five words. He clearly didn’t enjoy being around people.
Suguru seemed to help him out of this at some point because in your sophomore year of high school, he came to school as a completely brand-new person. His personality shown more, and he only then began pissing you off.
In a way, it was better than seeing him so down like he was before. Because of that, you have been more inclined to tolerate his shit a lot of the time.
“Listen, Satoru,” you sigh, not even noticing the way his body electrocutes at the fact you called him by his first name and not his last. “I’m very serious about my future. It means everything to me and to my parents. There’s only a certain amount of shit I can tolerate. And I can’t tolerate you slacking off at my expense.”
Towards the end of your warning, you look at him. He lowers his drink from his mouth, eyes straight ahead.
“Fair enough,” Satoru says. His head falls loosely between his shoulders, his hair glistening in the fluorescent lights. “It’s important for your parents too, that’s something I respect.”
Your brows uncinch.
“It’s important I get home on time for my parents too,” you sigh, looking at the time.
“You have an hour,” Satoru asks. “Why are you worried?”
Now he knows why you are worried. He still has to act oblivious, that’s all.
He sees the faltering blinks, eyes dancing here and there, mouth parted without a word ready to fly out.
Satoru takes another bite from his sandwich, talking with a full mouth, “Is your dad strict or something?”
Those anxious eyes morph into a revolted side eye, “You know who my dad is. You know what my dad is.”
“Yeah, he’s just the captain. Not some flesh-eating monster,” Satoru makes himself giggle.
You set your forearm on the surface of the table, rotating your body to turn to him, “My dad is a great man. He’s all law and order and then there’s my mom, also law and order. If I didn’t have enough on my mind, now my dad wants to assign a detail to me.”
“Assign . . .” Satoru shifts in his seat, lowering his meal. “You mean have a pair of cops following you around all the time?”
“Yeah,” you breathe.
Satoru’s eyes travel over your face while you’re not looking at him. If the captain does sign cops to tail you, that means that there’d be cops around him. Background checks, tailing him to get a sense of who he is . . . that could lead them to him being Spiderman . . .
“That—he can’t do that,” Satoru pipes, jolting you out of your little trance of eating. “That isn’t fair to you. You wouldn’t be able to hang around me—hell, they’d be standing right behind us listening to every word you say.”
Your lips turn down and brows raise, “I had no idea you cared so much.”
“Sure, why not?” Satoru dials down his emotion.
He supposes he’d have to stay away from you if your father went through with that after all. And he finds his heart twisting and turning from the very idea of doing that.
“He’s pretty stressed because of those string of bank robberies,” you exhale, Satoru’s eyes refuse to move from your face. “So my safety has gotten to his head too.”
Satoru’s blinks were slow, something that could be confused with lethargy, “Does he have any leads?”
“Not really. He just knows they’re all linked. He thinks Spiderman’s involvement is fucking everything up,” you say, remembering your encounter from last night.
“Hm,” and he can’t help but ask. “What do you think about him?”
“Spiderman?”
“Yes,” Satoru’s heart teetering on the edge.
“I think,” you begin, “he’s what our city needs. As a medical miracle, you decide to help others—that shows what kind of man you are.”
He has nothing to say for once. No quick quip, no fast remark. His mouth falls open, unsure how to respond. You were talking about his alter ego, but it felt like you were telling him.
“He’s pretty cool,” you nod, thinking about the vigilante.
He watches as you get up, saying, “I’ve got to get going, I’ve got to get work done before my dad picks me up.”
He feels like he has much left unsaid, but he still watches as you make your way out on your own.
Satoru is rooftop hopping, rushing back after he hit a dead end on a potential jewelry store he believed a heist may occur. That has been his routine that past week on top of annoying you in class and sitting with Haiba and Suguru in the library.
“Hm, okay. I just need to get a minimum of a C on this next exam to maintain my A,” Suguru mumbles aloud. “Satoru, you should maybe focus on your philosophy paper, you don’t want to get called out by the professor again—"
Suguru continues talking but Satoru is on a completely different planet. His gaze had flicked over to you walking through the maze of tables, and it was like an angel had stepped onto Earth.
The dim library of the university had mysteriously brightened tenfold. The incessant chatter of students around you crashes to a muffled halt as the faces begin to lose definition. All he can focus on is your pretty face. Your graceful smile. Your beautiful existence.
He feels his heart caper at the very sight of you laughing, the honeyed sound of it. His heart twists a bit more at the fact that it’s because of another guy.
“Hello!? Earth to Satoru,” Suguru breaks into Satoru’s eyeline. He looks back at whatever could have grasped his attention so unapologetically. He groans in frustration, “When are you going to tell her you want her?”
“I—what? I don’t want her,” Satoru snaps his head over at Suguru.
“It’s pretty obvious you want her, bud,” Haiba says with wide eyes and all Satoru can do is roll his own.
The sleep deprivation is catching up to him and he’s not sure how to remedy it. Those brief hours he does get to sleep he can hardly do so, he’s too busy trying to figure everything out. Where is Jogo hiding? Where is the next hit going to be? Why does he need that relic?
What could you be wearing tonight?
He has to shake his head like a wet dog, screw his eyes shut and bury his ears with his pillow. What is going on with him?
The next lab you have together, you spend most of it trying to figure out how to get through it working together and not competing against one another.
Afterwards, he wants to trail behind you, talk more to you but you’re tugged away by Shoko without fail.
Every time.
Every time you sit on some staircase out on campus, step through the winding aisles of bookcases in the library, sit at some table in one of the cafes, Shoko or Utahime are always there.
He figures he’ll get the chance at JJ Tech but he’s barely seen you with how busy both of your schedules have been. His last resort is waiting for a perfect moment to get you alone.
Satoru manages to catch up to you somehow once again in the library, studying for midterms.
“Here,” he places a bottle of chilled coffee in front of you on the table, it sat before your notebooks and thick textbooks like an almighty divinity.
Your eyes pierce through the coffee, then up at him, “How’d you know this is the flavor I like?”
You look tired, usually you can put yourself together enough to not seem so, but tonight it’s apparent. Your pens and highlighters are spread across the desk in a crazed frenzy.
“That’s the one you usually get at work, I don’t know. Thought you might need it,” he shrugs nonchalantly, sitting down.
You straighten up, wanting to smile but holding that feeling back, tying it down, “Oh, thanks.”
“I see you’re studying for . . .” Satoru tries guessing but squints at the papers you have strewn across the table, “what class?”
“Neuroscience,” you sigh, chewing on the end cap of your highlighter.
“Stop doing that,” he lowers you hand, essentially pulling the highlighter away from your mouth. He then opens the bottle of chilled coffee, handing it to you, “Here.”
You take it from him, eyes on his as you pull it towards your mouth, taking a sip. He leans back in his seat, his eyes roaming the papers you have laid out.
“Looks fun,” he drawls, looking through everything. “Have you had something to eat yet?”
“No, not yet. I’ll eat when I’m home,” you answer. “Have you?”
“No, me neither,” he says.
“Oh,” you ponder over what the situation is. “If you aren’t doing anything, we can go get something to eat right now.”
Satoru nearly stops breathing, he has every reason to frantically say yes. One: he happens to be starving. Two: he knows he’s going to be busy all night with studying and with his Spiderman duties. Three: he can sit and relax with you. Four: It’s you.
But he needs to get going, a potential lead came up in relation to Jogo he needs to check out right now.
“I can’t,” he wants to punch himself. “I have to help my aunt with something.”
Disappointment prickles through your body, a feeling you weren’t expecting in the least in a situation like this.
“Oh, that’s okay,” you gather your belongings.
“Wait—where are you going?” his eyes go wide, watching you pack your bag.
“Uh, home,” you say as if it were obvious. “Did you forget what we talked about that one time? Dad—security detail—never letting me breathe?”
“You can’t actually be worried about that,” Satoru says as you sling on your bag. “I highly doubt the captain will go through with that.”
“Just make sure you’re on time tomorrow for class, we have to work on that lab,” you tell him, flipping your hair as you adjust your bag on your shoulder. “Thanks for the coffee.”
“I have an issue with losing track of time,” Satoru frowns. “It’s not my fault.”
“Maybe use your glasses to keep an eye on the time. Are four eyes not enough? Do you seriously need six of them?” you challenge with a look over your shoulder before turning back to the exit.
He wants to laugh at the sheer irony of your question.
Satoru’s on a rooftop again. Another sleepless night is sure to pass him by. He follows lead after lead, suspect after suspect, but nothing.
That tip he got led him to nothing. Led him to nothing but missing class the next morning.
He’s thinking only about how guilty he feels, how he should apologize for bailing on you again during lab. Especially when you told him not to.
You count your lucky stars that you are sitting at home today worrying about your midterm exams approaching and not worrying in the lab.
Your father shows up at your door with a cup of hot cocoa, settling it down beside you. He has a cup of his own, a rare to see smile on his face as he sits down next to you.
“Thanks, Dad,” you beam, taking the cup.
“How’s studying going?” he asks.
“It’s okay,” you sigh. “How’s that heist case coming along?”
“It’s stressful,” he huffs out as well. “Got a bunch of different stories coming from the witnesses and that Spiderman jackass isn’t helping with my peace right now.”
“He’s not so bad,” you chuckle, taking a sip.
Your dad cocks a disgruntled brow, “That guy’s a menace. Just like that one news guy keeps saying.”
“That guy is crazy, Dad, and you know it,” this time you scoff.
“You calling me crazy, too?” your dad quizzes.
“No,” you set down your cup, “That’s not what I meant. I just meant that Spiderman has saved a lot of people. A lot of his good deeds go unnoticed because there are so many little things he does that don’t get broadcasted. Whatever—anyway, what are the witnesses saying?”
Your dad slowly lowers his offended brow and explains, “Witnesses from each location are saying they were knocked unconscious. Then there are witnesses who are also saying that the suspects dropped some sort of spray on them, then there are others saying it may have been a gas they inhaled.”
“Gas?” your nose scrunches.
“Hm,” your dad nods. “After they either inhaled or felt it on them, they started hallucinating. Some saw flashes of things they feared in their life, or of traumatic moments, or they were close to being driven to sleep by pictures of nice dreams. It all is difficult to figure out what it is. Our forensics team is having a shit time with narrowing it down since it may flush out of their system quick.”
You gawk at him, lost for words. It’s a highly concentrated blend of hallucinogens and anesthetics. One sip could send a man into cardiac arrest—or worse, kill him.
Your own voice rings in your head but his face is what appears before you. Those sparkling blue eyes and that silvery white hair. A flash of that green vial struck in an instant too.
“It’s all pretty confusing,” your dad exhales, taking a sip from his foamy drink. There’s a ring at the bell, steering his attention to it. He looks over at you, ruffling your hair, “You get back to it kiddo, I’ll see who it is.”
He walks out, closing your door and you look over that video about the fundamentals of chemistry, your notes splayed open with highlighters and sticky notes littering your desk.
But you can hardly focus—now that you’re thinking about Gojo all over again. This all has to be a coincidence, right? There’s no way Satoru Gojo of all people is affiliated with a high crime gang and drugging people to rob banks. There’s just no way.
But his voice rings in your mind once more—a memory of your conversation when he asked about that liquid being able to be used as a gas in combat. . . ‘I was afraid of that.’
The little three tapped choreographed knock on your door tells you that your father is on the other side.
“Sweetheart, there’s a . . . boy from your class here to see you,” your dad awkwardly says.
You blink the tiredness away, getting up and heading to the foyer of your penthouse apartment. Your hand rests on the railing as you descend down the stairs, only to stop halfway when your eyes land on snowy hair and silver framed glasses.
His sky-blue eyes lock onto yours, his blinks are restless, and his pretty lips are parted. You see him visibly gulp, like he was nervous to face you.
“What’re you doing here?” you finally say, remembering the fact he abandoned you once more today.
“I wanted to talk to you,” Satoru waits a beat till his heart tries to settle down. “Is that okay?”
You should yell at him, and you truly want to but for some reason you can’t. You huff out a sigh, beckoning him to follow you. As you turn around to lead him up the stairs, he’s once again scattering his field of vision everywhere.
He’s paying attention to the extravagance of your home. The chandelier in the foyer, the numerous potted bonsais and lilies, the expensive stonework polished floors, the ornamental china vases and molded ceiling. He shouldn’t expect any less from the daughter of the veteran police captain of the city and the successful assistant district attorney. Your parents were clear overachievers, mother and father both, it is no less than obvious you would be on a similar path of greatness yourself.
He eyes you rather shamelessly, it’s not like you have eyes on the back of your head. You glance over your shoulder at him.
Or maybe you do.
Satoru already felt scrutinized at the door when your father opened it. He should care a little more but finds that he doesn’t care one bit about the police captain’s protective gaze on him following his daughter up to her room.
You open your door, unveiling your bedroom to the boy. Suguru and Haiba would go nuts if he were to tell them he was standing in your room with you right now. Nanami would hardly believe him at all.
Your room is neat, that’s the first thing he notices. And it’s exactly how he pictured it. Furniture white, minimalistic and clean. The bed had four posts, sheer curtains draping down the top. You had white boards, bulletin boards, filled with excessive diagrams and notes. You had bookshelves in a corner of the room, lined with chemistry and medical textbooks where your desk was.
There was a wall of windows that overlooked the city, a balcony that had a set of Parisian doors to it. He wonders how much time you spent out there with your thoughts and what they could possibly be.
While he’s observing every element of your room, you face him. He has this wondrous look in those frosted eyes of his, a look that makes them look even wider. His lips part and when you look at him in the dim lighting from your study lamp, you notice the way his top lip prods out slightly over his bottom. That they have a pouted yet subtle curve to them that came to life when he smiled. That there was a soft pinkish sheen to them.
You wonder why you’re suddenly paying such close attention to him these days.
“Here,” you speak, ringing yourself out of wherever your mind was going.
He cocks a brow, gawking at you rifling through your school bag. His puzzled expression deepens when you press a packet of paper against his chest. “What’s this?”
“Your part of the lab report,” you grumble, eyes cold yet thwarted. “Just memorize the material by next Friday before our presentation. I’ll make sure the rest of what’s left throughout the week gets done.”
Satoru’s entirely taken aback. You have every right to be mad but he wasn’t expecting you to still want to help him. His arm shoots out to grab yours before you can walk away. Your halted against your will, shocked as you gape at him trapped in the lamplight as it clings to his skin.
“Wait—that’s not why I came here,” he sighs begrudgingly. “I came to apologize. I’m sorry I missed class and bailed on you.”
“Twice,” you correct with furrowed brows.
“Twice,” he revises. “It was a shitty thing to do. And it won’t happen again.”
He swallows dryly as he stares at that cynical look on your face. He looks like a lost pet, waiting to be scolded by its owner.
“Promise?” you tip your head to the side.
“Promise,” he answers, he feels his heart tearing through his chest at how you’ve suddenly acquired a childlike disposition, one he’s never had the chance to witness before. And all because of him.
“Okay,” you smally smile, flashing your pearly teeth at him. “But if you bail on me again, I’m telling Yaga to give you a zero.”
“Got it—but how come you’re so sure he’ll give your word priority over mine?” Satoru challenges.
“Because you were the second smartest kid in high school, and I was the first,” you pointedly say. “I have a higher GPA than you, I have won three more academic awards than you have—and let’s face it, my attendance record outranks yours in an embarrassing way.”
Satoru presses his lips firmly and raises his brows in hilarity, trying to contain that laughter wanting to blurt out of him. He fails though, laughing anyway.
Your lips part as you stare at him, suddenly you’re so aware of how tall he is again, how he’s not as lanky as he used to be in high school.
“At least I’m not stupid,” Satoru tells you knowingly. “You could’ve ended up with a lot worse than me.”
“Really? Like who?” you cross our arms.
“Yuki—Haiba—Need I go on?” he speaks with a teasing tone.
“God, no. I got your point,” you hold your hands up in defense. Your nose twitches as you let your hands slowly fall to your sides. “You didn’t have to come all this way to apologize, you know. You could’ve just apologized tomorrow or over text, you have my number.”
“You wouldn’t have thought twice about forgiving me,” he puts his hands in his pockets. “Or murdering me.”
This evokes a laugh from you, cheeky and bright, this cold light of the moon suddenly feels like beams of sunlight embracing him, warm and comforting.
Then you point a finger at him, “But you have to tell me why you have that green liquid.”
Satoru can’t flip his way out of this corner. Another lie must suffice, “One of my friends from my neighborhood gave it to me—said he swiped it off some kid in his school. He wanted me to find out what was in it.”
“Oh,” you frown, all doe-eyed and innocent. “You should get rid of that thing. It’s dangerous.”
“Will do,” Satoru salutes with his middle and index fingers. He catches that little sideways twitch of your mouth, as you stare at him from the bottom up but stop halfway. “What is it?”
“I’m just a little shocked you’re not really how I thought you’d be,” you say. “Is that bad?”
“Depends,” Satoru eyes the room shamelessly, glancing at you before he sits down uninvited on your bed. “What do you mean?”
“I don’t know. We’ve known each other for like over half a decade—and we hardly ever really talked. I always thought you were some nerdy guy that had a bad attitude. I guess I thought you never really liked me.” You circle around the bed post to get closer to him.
Satoru’s brows are raised so far up high that they are practically skimming his hairline. He was talkative, just not with you at first. He feels like he might’ve been a bit blunt overall—but that changed for him when he became Spiderman years ago.
“I’m sorry I made you feel that way,” Satoru says the unexpected. “I guess I just found you intimidating.”
“Me?” you point at yourself, sitting down. “Why? You’re, like, one of the most talented kids I know.”
“Because you’re crazy smart,” he blurts out, smiling as he can’t even maintain eye contact with you. He feels your body heat, just a few measly inches to his left. You’re in reach and he’s scared he’ll do something to cause you to slip away.
Your eyes widen at his words, and he seems to not be done yet with the way he sucks in a breath, hands resting either side of him on the comforter.
“You’re insanely clever and nice and it doesn’t help much that you’re pretty,” Satoru is shaking his head, meeting your gaze once again. Once again, gorgeous eyes stare back at him.
You furrow your brows, not remembering an instance in your life where you had seen him look so vulnerable for even a moment. Your eyes flick down to his pouted lips then back up to his eyes.
“You think I’m pretty?” you whisper.
“Is that even a question?” Satoru breathes.
You lean close, his icy blue eyes contrast his half lidded warm look behind his glasses. He inches closer, your noses brushing against each other.
Your lips are half a centimeter away from his. He can smell the scent of your lotion, the sweet scent of your lip balm. He’s so close to tasting it that he feels like he’s the closest he’ll ever be.
That tingling sensation shot up his spine and straight to his ears, not because of this tension.
It’s his six eyes telling him there’s an incoming threat. Footsteps. They’re faint, but he feels them coming this way.
He suddenly jumps up, grabbing the lab report and rifling through it, “Your dad.”
“What?” you’re taken aback, your face crinkling.
“He’s coming,” he says.
You blink at him, wondering if he’s just scared or if he didn’t want to kiss you in the first place.
“Listen, Satoru, if you don’t want to—”
Your door swings open, revealing your father. One hand rests on the knob and one on the door frame. The way he opened it indicated a sense of urgency, or a sense of wanting to catch Satoru in the act. The act being the boy making a move on you.
“Hey, sweetie, everything alright in here?” he eyes you quickly at the term of endearment but then keeps his razor-sharp cop stare on Satoru. He’s not doing anything to ring alarm bells, simply just thumbing through report papers like he gave the impression of initially.
“Yes, Dad!” You glare at your father. “I thought we talked about knocking.”
“Oh, sorry—I was just—” he attempts defending himself but your eyes widen as you tilt your head at him and he ushers himself out of your room.
“Jeez. You’d hardly believe I’m nineteen years old with a dad like that. What is he going to do after I move out,” you grumble. Your eyes slowly dance over to the boy who was standing up, “How’d you know he was coming?”
“I could hear his footsteps,” he says.
“Yeah, you told me like a whole minute before he actually was at the door,” you stand up, nearing him. “I know your eyes suck, but no one has that good a sense of hearing.”
“I told you that’s what I heard,” he defends himself.
You tighten your lips, watching him set the papers down with his eyes fixed on the door. His eyes are still but his mind runs a mile a minute. He’s ruminating on the fact he almost kissed you and that your father could have walked in. What’s worse right now though is the fact he is still standing in the wake of your missed moment.
“Satoru, something is up with you,” you stand up, taking a daring step forward. Your shoulders square in assertion, “I’m not sure what it is. But I promise you can trust me.”
He slowly turns his head to you, thinking about what to say but his breath stops short when you place your palms over his chest, gazing up at him.
He gulps, and he hopes you don’t see how his nerves are clearly rattling, shaking his very bones. His phone buzzes with the soft four chimed ring he’s all too familiar with and he curses himself and every other wrong doer in the whole city of New York.
“I . . . I’m sorry,” he grabs yours wrists. “I have to go.”
He goes around you, passing you without so much as another glance. You watch him leave your room and in the simplest of terms, you felt like shit.
You begin walking to your door to slam it shut when your father runs past you, frantically pushing his limbs through his police jacket, his other hand on his phone.
“Dad—what is it?” you question breathlessly.
“Sorry, honey, have to go in. There’s another theft in progress in the upper east,” your father explains in two quick breaths.
Your eyes follow him as you hear the front door shutting after he leaves, only a minute or so after Satoru did.
You can’t help that scowl you toss at your microscope on your desk, or how you sprint towards it to inspect the elements once again.
Satoru is thinking only about you. Only you, only you.
His cognizance on the fact he should focus on this heist is hardly doing him favors from how much he regrets not kissing you. If being caught by your father was a repercussion anyway, how bad could that have possibly been? Yeah, so what. Mild embarrassment, maybe a few threats here and there.
His hand wraps around the web he shoots at the side of the building, swinging straight through the shattered window. He has no time for histrionics, he just wants to get to the bottom of this case.
When the thugs turn to face the man that flew in through the window, they all drop what they are doing, scowling menacingly at the boy.
“Okay,” Satoru cracks his knuckles, tweaking his neck to the side. “Let’s wrap this up.”
That’s what prompts four burly men to lurch at the boy. Gojo makes quick effort to shoot at one’s face, gluing a sticky web to his eyes and hindering his senses completely.
He knocks over another one with a horse powered kick, pushing him into a glass display. He’s nearly amazed with himself by how rushed this fight is.
Another man comes at him with a closed fist, brass knuckles adorning them as they hurtle straight for Satoru’s face. With lightening reflexes, he swats the man’s arm, aiming the base of his palm straight up the man’s jaw. Except it isn’t his jaw he’s aiming for.
An anguished scream of agony leaves the man as he cradles his bleeding, broken nose. Spiderman towers over him again, kicking him in the gut while he’s down.
The fourth man fires several shots at Satoru, unfortunately for the goon, he hasn’t experienced just how the Six Eyes senses really benefit the Spiderman.
His gun is in Satoru’s hand before he knows it, a stringy web stuck to the end of it. The thief’s jaw drops, eyes reddened and wide when he witnesses the way the gun crushes in the vigilante’s hand, the pieces of it crumbling to the ground.
“This is getting boring,” Satoru whines immaturely. “I can’t believe I had to give up being with a pretty girl for this.”
Forcibly tugging the man towards him with a web, Satoru delivers a lethal blow to the back of the man’s head, instantly knocking him out.
The sound of a glass rustling behind him draws his attention, the man he had knocked into the display was on his feet again. He has something in his hand that catches the vigilante’s attention, three small balls.
“Fuck no,” Satoru grabs the pellets by shooting webs again. “Not falling for this again.”
He lunges to the wall behind the man, psyching him out when he kicks off the wall and practically tackles the man to the ground.
“Not in the mood to get to know you,” Satoru frowns, his boot on the side of the man’s neck. “Where’s Jogo? And who gave you this?”
He hold up the pellets of gas, the stare of whitened eyes through his mask are enough to terrify the man.
“Please! I don’t know where Jogo is! I was just instructed to make this hit!” the man chokes out. “I got these through the—the lady we got that makes these—her name is Hanami—she works in a lab somewhere—we don’t know where. She has someone drop them off and she tells us where after the drop’s been made but—”
“You’re not telling me what I need,” Satoru steps down on the man’s throat harder.
“I—I can tell you where she gets her stuff from! In fact, I heard from somewhere that she’s got a guy on the inside getting her the goods. It’s at Myrtec Chemicals—one of her guys told me there’s a drop happening later tonight!”
“Thanks,” Satoru lifelessly smiles, kicking the man unconscious.
Shivering behind a wall of crates is not how you expect to be spending your Friday night. What you envisioned after a long night of studying was curling up with some popcorn and other snacks to watch a nice movie.
Most certainly not a group of men talking about people they are planning to kill.
“Man, I fucking hate the captain,” one spews. “I’d love to rip his heart out of his chest if I ever got the chance.”
You cover your mouth, trying to contain your gasp. The suspicion that Satoru may be involved with these men is tearing you apart. You haven’t seen or heard him in the last twenty minutes you’ve been here.
Standing outside the wired fence of Myrtec Chemicals is not how you want to go out. So slipping out now makes sense. You needed to make sure Satoru wasn’t linked to these guys and there’s been no sign of his loudmouth anywhere.
As you shift to run off as fast as you can so you can get to the bus stop at the edge of the next street, you accidentally bump your elbow into one of the big crates. A dull yet prominent thud reverberates through the air.
Fuck.
“What the fuck!”
“Someone’s here?”
“Who’s there?”
You know once again you’re cornered. Why must you test your luck so often? How on earth will you get out of this one?
“Hey! You!” a man is looking around the pile of crates, eyes landing on you.
You make a run for it but he grabs you—as expected. You cinch your eyes shut and a loud whoosh over your heads shoots through the air.
No way.
“Hey! Hands off her!”
The voice is hauntingly familiar. So is that black and white suit and that emblem of blue across his chest. That glowing spider—hope.
Spiderman leaps at the man that had grabbed you, striking him across the face. The other men shout out, rushing to grab their weapons, all the while the great Spiderman is making haste to scoop you into his arms.
“You okay?” he asks.
“Yeah,” you breathe. “Sorry about this.”
“That’s okay, been wondering about you for a while,” he says with ease, then he leaps and you scream out, not realizing you’re on top of a small security tower. “Stay put here, okay?”
“Okay,” you nod seeing the thumbs up he gives you as he falls backwards to the ground, flipping straight back into action.
You watch as he takes down the remaining men, but the fascination to him isn’t all that you think about. You’re trying to pinpoint that voice—that cadence and rhythm in it. It sounds an awful lot like—
“How’d you end up here?” the vigilante is hanging upside down by a web in front of you, attached to the top of the watch tower’s antenna structure.
You blink, retracting in place, “I thought my friend might be here, but I might’ve been wrong. I was just worried.”
“You get into trouble pretty often, don’t you?” he chuckles, still upside down.
That thought invades your mind again—his voice sounds too much like his. There’s no way. There’s just no way.
“Sorry about that,” you shake your head.
“Why’d you think he’d be here?” the man tilts his head.
“They’re using a chemical, aren’t they? Those thugs?” you quiz. “They’re using it on people when they ransack places like banks and jewelry stores. I analyzed the particles and managed to isolate where certain specialized compounds can be mixed and it traced back here. Thought I’d check it out.”
Satoru’s suspended in the air, his state of mind matches his physical state. Speechless, he does nothing but stare.
“Ugh, God, why are you so stupid for someone so smart?” he groans.
“Excuse me?” you quickly pipe, taking a step back as he lowers onto the tower’s rail with you.
His arm slips around you, and he murmurs, “You could’ve gotten really hurt. This was a very dumb thing to do.”
“I know that but . . .”
“Why’d you have to come, huh? You care about that guy or something?” he asks, shooting out a web to another building.
“Yeah, or something,” you quietly say, eyes on him. Your suspicion as to who is behind the mask is starting to piece together and you aren’t sure whether you should comment on it or not. “Wanted to make sure he was okay.”
He can’t even face you. Do you even know what you’re saying? He wants to chalk it up to delusion but a mind as sharp as yours can’t be subject to something so petty as delusion.
When your arms slip around his neck, you stare at him and you can practically see through him.
“Hold on as—” Satoru begins.
“As tight as I can, I know,” you finish, not even being as terrified as you were the first time he web slung you through the streets of New York.
He stops at the top of a building, one far too high above the ground. That is when you realize you aren’t on top of any old building at all. You gawk from this point, the highest point of New York’s famous Vessel.
You look down, overlooking the Hudson Yard and seeing that the structure is closed to the public due to how late in the evening it is.
“I’ve never actually been here before,” you marvel at the sight. “It’s beautiful.”
“Hm, it is,” Satoru mumbles, staring at your wonder-stricken eyes.
At the sound of his voice you turn slowly, facing him, “Thank you for saving me. Again.”
“Nothing to it,” he replies, his tone hinting at a smile you can’t see. “Think I might’ve chipped a nail back there.”
Your eyes flit over him, head to toe. While your eyes stay by his feet, you say, “I want to take off your mask.”
“That defeats the whole purpose of it,” Satoru states. “Then you’d see my face. It defeats the sense of mystery too when you find out who I am.”
“I think I already know,” your eyes settle back on the white blank eyes of the mask, wanting to see the blue you’d been thinking far too much about.
Satoru’s stunned silence screams over how you move toward him. Your searing palms set on his chest, he feels like he’s being scorched to ash with how close you are.
He makes no effort to move away or tell you to stop. He swallows his inhibitions when your hands hesitantly slide up his chest to the base of his neck. The tips of your fingers caress his collarbone and neck till they tug at the edge of his mask.
Satoru knows he should tell you that he can’t let you see but he wants it so bad at the same time.
That’s why he watches with withheld breaths when you inch your way as your pull up the mask, slowly.
The pale of his moonlit skin exposes itself to you while you gently tear the mask further up. His chin peeks out, the sharp cut of his jaw, then you see his soft lips, the ones you want to just lean in and kiss so damn bad.
So you do and he knows he’d be stupid to stop you this time around. Your mouth feathers over his before you finally press onto him. Your lips meet his, buttery soft, warming your cold ones by a single touch.
He kisses you back softly but you back away, his head following your back before you part lips. He gazes at you as you cradle the lower half of his face, easing him into letting you take the mask off further.
You pull it back more, seeing that pointed nose of his you were accustomed to watching crinkle as he smiled. Then you finally pull them away from his eyes and his hair. You aren’t so surprised anymore, not as much as you should be at least.
That snowy white hair, like a fresh fleet of ice had poured onto his head ever so lovingly. Then those eyes, God those eyes. The shimmering blue that twinkled so brilliantly in the amber light, the eyes you feel like you’re seeing for the first time without any pair of glasses or masks in the way.
For once, you are the one smiling and he’s left with a somnolescent look on his face, like he could fall over at any moment. His eyes are half-lidded, fixed on your eyes and fleeting down to your lips without any sign of subtly.
He bends his neck down, capturing your lips in his again before slipping his arm around you and his free hand to your face. Now even if you wanted to move away, you couldn’t. Key word ‘if’.
You feel the way he softly inhales from his nose, breathing in like he’s breathing you in. He’s gentle and yearning, like he’s wanted this for a long time.
He presses his lips a little harder, and you can’t help the little sigh you let out. If you were in this situation two weeks ago, you’d be running around flipping your lid at the revelation that Satoru Gojo was the Spiderman. Except now, that mattered slightly less to you.
You both pull away by a hair, noses grazing one another’s as you gaze into each other’s eyes. You pull back a little more to see his face in its entirety. A fallen angel.
The little fidget of your smile as you decide whether to smile or not is enough to have him take the lead and smile anyway.
“So you did want to kiss me,” you say cheekily, eyes glistening from the city lights, the winter air pinching your nose and cheeks.
“Yes, dummy,” Satoru responds with a quiet nuance of hilarity. His gloved hand remains on your face, his thumb pressing down on your chin.
Tipping your chin down, your mouth opens. The cool air of the night blends in with Satoru’s warm breath, swirling in a strangely comforting breath, one that bore escape.
He pushes his tongue into your mouth, doing his best to taste every bit of you because he missed the chance for far too many years. Here, there is no police captain father to rush in, no thug or criminal to interrupt, no man that could touch you. Other than him of course.
You taste like peppermint, like what he would envision a warm and loving Christmas with family to be like. He wants more—he needs more.
Your tongues twirl in tandem, pace still slow but you each feel a growing desire crushing on your souls. It’s heavy and bone rattling, enough that he pulls back to shake himself out of it.
“I should take you back home—your parents—”
“Dad’s going to be out all night with that heist and Mom drank too much wine at dinner and my brothers and sister aren’t going to say anything about me not being home,” you’re quick to arbitrate. “I’m a little cold though.”
“I can see that,” he laughs as you shiver, the frosty air intermingling with his warm breath to create a translucent fog. “I—I don’t wanna sound like I’m rushing but you can come home with me to my place. I can explain everything there.”
You press your tongue in between your teeth in thought before you grin, “Let’s go.”
You help put on his mask when he cranes his neck down to you. He grabs you and you know the drill, hold on tight and do not, under any circumstances, let go.
He’s swung you through the entire city again and you take the time to enjoy, this time trusting him without a shadow of a doubt. The city looks pretty from his view, you count yourself grateful to get a glimpse of that, and that he has shared this special thing with you.
He stops outside a half open window on the side of an apartment building, he helps you through the ledge, safely getting you inside. You take a few steps back and watch him crawl inside, dropping to the floor with the agility of a cat.
“I can’t believe I’m seeing this,” you say softly. “I can’t believe I kissed Spiderman. I can’t believe I kissed you actually. That’s crazier to me.”
Satoru tears the mask from his head, his hair all disheveled fell into his eyes, “That’s crazier to you? That you made out with me not that I saved your ass again?”
“Shut up,” you narrow your eyes, looking around. “This is where you live, huh?”
“Mhm,” Satoru answers, watching you. “So you looked into that liquid again. Why did you come all the way to that place? That was very dangerous. And very very stupid. You really came all that way because of me?”
You face him, the air still coolly frosting at the shell of your ears, “I thought you might’ve been involved with those guys at first but based on our conversations, I assumed that maybe you were trying to play hero.”
“And you showed up and realized I was,” Satoru peers down at you. “Idiot.”
“Hey, if I was an idiot, I never would’ve been there in the first place,” you jab your pointer finger straight into his chest. He lets out an exaggerated and overdramatic cough, clutching his heart as if you did serious damage. “Seriously, Satoru, I get why you couldn’t tell me but . . . were you planning on not being near me to protect that secret?”
He stills, the smile vanishing from his face. His icy hair falls over his equally icy irises, bottom lip pushing ever so lightly into his top one in a small frown.
“I didn’t mean to push you away. I tried to stop myself from being close to you—that day you were late was my fault,” he shakes his head, eyes wide.
“But you still saved me,” you justify.
“But you wouldn’t be there in the first place if it weren’t for me,” he counters quickly.
You lower your eyes, “I have a mind, you know? I can say ‘no’, and I can make my own choices. Staying to help you was my choice. And I don’t regret it.”
Your eyes lift to meet his, lights darkened in his apartment. The only thing illuminating the space is the moon, its incandescent glow spilling into the room as if it were sneaking in secrets.
Shining down on your clandestine meeting, you each are inching closer, lips feathering over one another’s before he can’t take it anymore and kisses you.
His hands thread through your hair, his fingers interlinking at the nape of your neck, pushing you against him. He’s kissing you like he wants to breathe you in, like you’re the air that needs to be in his lungs.
You let your tongue slide across his bottom lip, easing it into his mouth. You lap inside his mouth, exploring every bit that your muscle can physically reach, intertwining with his.
Feverishly, you keep kissing each other, and it simply isn’t enough. Panting like starved dogs, you want to whisper to him to take you to his room but it feels too far—and your mind is running in circles right now.
Between kisses, you reach back, shedding your coat and kicking your boots off. Fuck, why is it always so cold in New York? Couldn’t it be summer, so you had less layers to shed?
He’s reeling you back in every time your lips leave his for even a moment. Taking yourself away from him for even a split second is cruel to him, worse than battling a group of mutants as Spiderman.
Satoru appreciates your enthusiasm and your forwardness, considering he’s not as experienced as he’d like to be for you. Hey, it’s hard to date as a superhero. He just prays it’s not too obvious
Your hands are busy unbuttoning your pants as he backs you into the backrest of the couch, not as coordinated as he hopes. He is not all that concerned clearly because you find yourself on your back on his couch, him hovering over you, lips not leaving yours for even a slight moment.
“You’re so fucking gorgeous,” he breathes, his hips in between your parted legs. “I can’t believe my luck right now.”
“You’re such a dork—” you begin to joke before he rolls his hips against you, that tent in his pants prods at the heat between your thighs and you gasp out in pure shock and thirst.
Your eyes widen when they shoot down between your bodies, seeing that prominent bulge at the front of his pants, so obviously emphasized in that tight suit of his. How had you missed that before?
“What was that?” Satoru teases, eyelids bonneting over his irises seductively, a coy smirk pulling at the edge of his mouth.
He tries to hide just how painfully hard he is but now he understands there’s no use. After all, he can still play with your head a bit—just a bit.
“Oh fuck,” you gasp, wrapping your legs around his waist.
And his lips are on yours again, swallowing in your gasps and vice versa. All the while, he ruts his hips against you, grinding and dry humping like two pathetic teenagers.
Each time he rolls his hips into you, you moan, humming into his mouth shakily. He’s taking each sound in with pride, he can hardly believe he’s drawing out noises like that from you, miss put together. His lips trek down your jaw, peppering kisses as he makes his way down your neck, a smile curling at his lips.
With hazy eyes, you let your hands skirt at his abdomen, trying to tug at the fabric at his waist, “How the fuck do you get this thing off?”
“You’re supposed to buy me dinner before you see me undressed, you know?” he chuckles against your jaw.
“Ha ha, very funny. Now take your suit off—I don’t want to play any more games,” you plead, your tone dwindles towards something most would call pathetic, but he knows better than to make that mistake. “Please, I just want you.”
Okay, maybe he’s wrong.
He doesn’t have the heart to wait any longer either. The command is clear in his mind, tear the suit off, but his fumbling hands make the effort stretch beyond eternity.
While he is busy with the strenuous task of undressing, you decide to get yours over with. With the desire to stop, go slow, take it all in, each of you are still keeping your eyes on each other—listening to the other’s breaths, taking in the sight of the other’s skin unveiling itself bit by bit.
As ceremoniously as one could in a moment like this, you discard your top and kick off your pants. You regret the split second you look away because when you look back at him, his shirt is gone.
The spider suit has a variant of features, all that aid in the never-ending trade of fighting crime. That suit also serves justice to whoever it may be underneath it, but fuck it underscored just how beautiful Satoru’s body is.
In the dim light, you make out his chiseled abs, how his shoulder blades are sculpted like an artist spent every drop of sweat, blood, and tears into defining them. How those broad shoulders seamlessly crown the defined muscles of his biceps. Your eyes trail down his arms to his forearms, veiny and working to take off his pants.
That’s when your focus shifts to his chest once more. The plains of his torso display his corded abs.
And you’re counting. Five—six—seven—eight—For someone so rambunctious, he sure fails to flaunt his perfect eight-packed figure.
Your eyes lock in on his lower abdomen, how his waist his much narrower in comparison to the width of his shoulders. His hips hollow out as they carve out a defined line, trailing down between his legs.
Temptation is close to getting the best of you when you realize he’s been frozen in place for half a minute now. Shooting your attention back up to his lustful gaze, you’re suddenly hyperaware of the circumstance of you only in your bra and underwear.
“You’re staring,” you warn with a sharp look.
“Mm—and you weren’t?” he returns the same expression, smugly lowering to kiss you once more.
Any argument you wish to spew are revoked the second his lips are on yours again. Satoru’s hands roam your body. Despite the freezing cold of the winter, his fingertips are piping hot, searing your skin wherever they touch. Your hips, your waists, your face, your breasts, your thighs.
Those lithe fingers slide down your side, around your back and where the clasp of your bra is. And you want to giggle at how he’s struggling to get it unhooked.
“Need help?” you grin, leaning on your elbows.
“Shut up—I got it,” he grunts out. He doesn’t have it in him to admit that he’s suddenly registering the fact that it’s you. You’re the one underneath him right now. It’s your body he can’t believe looks this perfect.
His breaths stops when he manages to tear off that stupid bra from you, your fingers toying with the waistband of his underwear.
“Holy shit,” he mumbles under his breath.
“Hm?” you hum interrogatively, being cut off when he dives down. “Satoru—ah—”
He buries his face in the valley of your chest, kissing you harshly while making his way to your exposed nipples. He latches his mouth over one and your chest nearly caves in. A moan slips from your mouth, hands at the back of his head, curling in his hair while he sucks your tits so lasciviously.
“Fuck—Satoru—ah,” you try to keep your eyes on him but find yourself cinching them shut anyway.
“You sound so cute saying my name like that,” he gasps out, tongue flicking over your pert nipple, and hand massaging at the mound he’s left alone.
Chills dissipate over your arms and legs, causing you to let out shivers. Shivers that could be a mixed response of the cold air and at the sensation of his mouth sucking you.
Satoru begins to lower himself, trailing kisses down your stomach as he goes. He doesn’t stop when he reaches the waistline of your panties. His lips press on top of the cloth, over your pussy, his fingers curl into the waistband at your hips.
His eyes flick up to yours, a smile on his pretty lips as he takes in your expression, pure desire stitched in every crevice of your face.
He pulls down your panties, eyes fixed between your legs like he was seeing the holy grail itself. His mouth is watering at the sight before him. He can’t believe that after years and years of knowing you, this is the outcome. All the competition, the annoyed glances, quick remarks, all boiled down to this very moment. With you spread out underneath him like a slut.
“Fuck me,” he groans out, tossing your underwear to the side. He lifts your left leg, kissing your ankle and trekking his way up your leg. When he reaches your thigh, his tongue begins to playfully drag across your skin. “Mmm.”
With shaky breaths, you watch him get close and closer but then he stops. He mulls over every form of research he’s ever done. He knows if he puts his mind to it he can please you, he just needs a second to reel himself in. Quite unlike him.
You watch him carefully, seeing how his smile faded and how he’s swallowing down dry lumps. There’s a flush in his face that isn’t something you’ve seen before. Is he . . . nervous?
Your hands shift down, cupping his face. At the endearing action, his heart quivers, as do his eyes. That’s when his jaw slacks, tongue lolling out and licking up your pussy.
You suck in a fragmented breath, fingers trembling when he smiles again and does it again. The saliva on his tongue drips down from the tip of his muscle, dribbling straight down to your slit.
“Do you always get this wet around me?” he has a smile painted on his face that is reaching his ears.
“Can you for once put your mouth to good use?” you whisper back sharply, earning a deep chuckle from his as he lowers his face between your legs again.
Eagerly, he swipes a long languid lick from the bottom of your pussy to the top, milking out his spit as well as your arousal. His arms easily slip around your thighs as he now buries his face, lapping at your cunt like a starved animal.
A loud moan rips straight from your throat, you toss your head back from the sheer intensity. And you can’t help but cry out like that again, feeling his tongue circling over your clit over and over.
When he hears a rather high-pitched cry leave you, his chest swells with pride. He isn’t sure what he was so nervous about. He just can’t believe he’s the one making you feel this good—or you’re the one he’s ever had a moment of weakness like that for.
Tilting his head to the side, he angles his tongue. Licking, sucking slurping your cunt, he’s producing the lewdest of noises, getting absolutely high off your taste.
“Oh my god!” you whine, now rolling your hips on his face, fingers tugging his hair and digging at his scalp. “Do that again.”
“What? This?” Satoru feigns innocence, flicking his tongue repeatedly and quickly over your clit, teasing you.
You almost let a scream burst from you, slapping your palm over your mouth as he teases you. It dawns on you then that those blue eyes looking up at you, are the same very ones you took so long to truly see. He’s not in his glasses but that sight between your legs would’ve been just as gorgeous too.
His hands grip your thighs, pushing them closer to your chest. His jaw unhinges like he’s eating a meal, nose rubbing against your puffy clit as he feels himself become impossibly and painfully harder that he could cum right then and there.
Goosebumps ripple over your body, every cell in your body short circuiting. His fingers dig into your flesh in a bruising grip. With another wanton tug at his hair, he slips out a nasty moan, eyes deliriously rolling to the back of his head.
There’s a sense of greed in the way he’s eating you out. Hunger and lust intertwine together in his movements, he can’t get enough.
His hand comes down between your thighs, fingers swiping over your clit.
Your back is arching off the couch, loud and shameless cries escape you one after the other with no end in sight. With your vision beginning to blur like a flock of clouds rolling in before a storm, you feel a white-hot heat between your legs.
Your eyes flicker towards his face below you. His eyes were shut and his brows your furrowed adorably in concentration. His hair fell in soft tufts and his jaw and tongue are moving in ways you would never have fathomed to see before. Needless to say, he is so fucking sexy.
Feverishly rocking your hips as best you can to meet his insatiable mouth, you know your orgasm is closing in. Every piece of your being is only focused on this immense pleasure and straining to get to the peak point it so desperately needs.
He sees you becoming more and more restless, your legs shake more and your fingers tug harsher at his scalp. The way you’re practically screaming tells him all he needs to know, you are right there.
You scream when it hits you like a freight train. You’re cumming right on his tongue and gushing down his mouth. By no means does that indicate he is stopping though. He continues his motions through your orgasm, not daring to stop till you were done.
Free falling from a great height, you’re whining, clawing at his hair, his shoulders, anything. Pushing him away because of how criminally intense the feeling is. He stays right there, undeterred by your efforts to get him away from you.
Your eyes stay shut but your mouth hangs open, long and drained breaths filling the air. Satoru raises his head, “So fucking messy—I find it hard to believe you haven’t always had the hots for me.”
Meanwhile, you still are reeling in your post-orgasm state, chest rising and falling. Your eyes shift to Satoru straightening up, expanding his posture.
“You okay?” he says, devious tones underlying in his voice. Sincerity had flown out the window.
You respond halfheartedly anyway, “Mhm.”
You slowly move to sit up, biting your lip to ground yourself. Despite your head feeling as weighty as a boulder, you hold yourself up. Your hands reach for his briefs, fingers hooking into the waistband and tugging at them.
“Woah—someone’s impatient,” he chuckles.
“We both know you’d prefer this over anything else,” you say with a daunting lilt of your head.
“That might be true but—” he sucks in a sharp breath when your hand grazes over the precum soaked bulge in his briefs. “Holy fuck.”
Hearing his exasperated breaths draw a smile from you, urging your hands to tug his underwear down and freeing—no way.
No Fucking Way.
Judging by your reaction, Gojo understands through and through that you were expecting much less from him.
It isn’t like you expecting so much less, but you weren’t expecting so fucking much. A dire mistake on your end.
It’s monstrous, big enough that if you wrapped both palms around it, there’d still be uncovered length left. You tilt your head in awe, eyeing the slight curve in it. How his pale skin underneath doesn’t overmine the flush in his tip, the white precum seeding at the opening of it.
“Something the matter?” Gojo flatly whispers, fully aware of how long you’re staring. But by no means is he feeling the heat of it.
“No,” you quickly glance up at him, unblinking.
“Uh huh,” he accepts disbelievingly, a cocky smirk on his face.
You lean forward, wrapping your palm around it. You give it a few precautionary pumps, almost as if you’re petting a wild beast, hoping to tame it. When you hear the reaction it elicits from Satoru, you can’t help but fixate on his face.
His brows knit together and his mouth drops, heavy breaths escaping him. Not only that, but you feel it. You feel the way his dick practically jumps in your hand, sensitive to your touch yet wanting more.
Your chest swells with pleasure, letting your hand feel just what he has to offer. You can feel the ridges in it, the way his veins ran thick, pulsating in your hand.
“If I knew this was the most effective way to get you to shut up, I would’ve done it a long time ago,” you murmur, half-lidded eyes on his twitching face.
“Ngghh—Ahh—Shut up,” he shudders, one hand gripping the backrest of the couch, and the other reaching across his stomach, a feeble hope to ground himself.
“Why should I?” you tease, tugging at his dick as you begin sinking further down on your knees, eye leveled with his waist. “I like hearing you like this a lot more, Satoru.”
And just as you’re about to drag your tongue along the tip of his dick, something within him snaps. He shivers, grabbing you by the back of the head and pulling you to his lips. A soft moan slips from his mouth into yours.
“I don’t think I can wait any longer,” he breathes between kisses. “—I gotta be inside ya.”
Just then, you practically feel a second heartbeat between your thighs. There is no argument in the world that you could use to refute him. All you do is nod dumbly, giving yourself up to him.
He pushes you down, your back falling against the couch cushions beneath you. Satoru hovers over you, staring down at your face, truly studying it. His gaze flicks down when yours does too, to where your fist covers his shaft.
He shudders pathetically when your hand moves along his dick, pumping it impatiently. He notes the clear enthusiasm it elicits from you, how your body curves into him from how horny you were.
Satoru’s own hand reaches for his cock, jerking it slowly before he drags the tip up and down between your folds, gliding over your quivering hole enough to tease it but not give it what it craves so desperately.
You whine, feverishly bucking your hips up into his dick, hoping he takes pity and gives you what you want.
He chuckles darkly, “So needy.”
He slaps his tip against your clit and you gasp, legs jolting at the feeling. It is more than clear he enjoyed pulling a response like that from you, so he does it again. And when you jerk in place like that once more, he sadistically laughs in a way that you wouldn’t believe he’s a hero at all.
“Look at it when I put it in,” he quickly pecks your jaw.
You hesitantly look down, seeing how he coats his cock with all your arousal mixed with your cum. A little huff drips from your lips, watching how his thumb swipes over his tip, a little wet sound stringing as he fists his heavy dick.
While he aligns his cock with the opening of your pussy, your right hand flies to his left forearm and your left hand curls around one of the couch cushions.
He begins pushing it in, grunting as the softness of your walls cling to his tip, threatening to suck him in. Your jaw drops, choppy breaths falling one after the other at how it feels like he’s splitting you open.
“Shit,” he chokes, his hair tickling your face with how close he is. “You feel so fucking good.”
Your fingers tremble the further he pushes in. Your pussy wraps around him so deliciously that he has to remind himself to practice restraint—for your sake. Ever the hero, Satoru Gojo.
Your breath stops, realizing he has way more left to go when you spare a painful glance down. He isn’t even halfway in yet.
“Fuck—Satoru, you’re too big—it won’t fit,” you push at his abdomen, teary eyed.
“Then we’ll make it fit, baby,” he coos, swatting your hand away. “Nothing to worry about.”
When someone tells you not to worry, you learn, it is entirely appropriate to in fact, worry.
He angles himself to sink into you, glancing down between each of your bodies and up at your face, seeing your face contort into a pained yet pleasured expression. The more you become acquainted with his shape, the more it begins to feel good.
When he ruts himself against you, you let out a sharp squeal, clinging onto him. Your eyes feel like they are about to burst from their very sockets, in an almost cartoonish sense.
He watches you, a smirk on his restless face. He draws his hips back and jams them back into you.
“Oh fuck!” you cry, a crease forming between your brows.
“Aw, you look so cute,” he smiles, taking a breath to wince at just how snugly set he is inside you. “All the other guys at school would want to fucking kill me to get to have a sight like this.”
“You talk too much,” you shake your head, reaching up to grab his jaw.
“And you love it,” he pulls himself out till only his tip rests inside you, then he drives his cock back in you, stringing a shriek from you. He begins doing it repeatedly, thrusting in and out of you.
At first his pace is slow yet precise, the tip of his cock prodding so far inside you, you feel it kissing your cervix. Then he decides it’s better to make you work for it before he gives you his all.
His quickens his pace, his thrusts rough and catching you off guard with each one. Your legs wrap around his waist, ankles hooking behind him and toes pointing tautly.
“I’m beginning to think you go looking for trouble just to get the Spiderman to ruin you like this,” he accentuates his point with a well-meaning thrust.
The sounds filling the air are beyond your wildest dirtiest dreams. The sound of his heavy breathing is like music to your ears, just the way your moans are to his. The lewd noises of pap pap pap ofhis balls hitting your ass mix with the squelch of his cock drilling into your wet cunt.
The feeling of him on top of you—inside you, is something you can’t even comprehend the perfection in. Every inch of your body just feels so fucking good that you feel yourself teetering on the edge of delusion.
Your hands make their way up to the base of his neck, your fingers loosely intertwine behind his head. You moan again, letting your fingertips scratch at the back of his head.
Satoru pumps himself in and out of you. He can’t even help it—it’s like his body has a mind of its own. And now, he’s trying to have at least some form of restraint, trying his utmost best to not cum. It isn’t like you’re making anything easier on him.
He nearly falls apart when you pull his mouth to yours, gasping adorably as you let your tongue meet his. You’re sharing the same air at this point, and he fucking loves it.
You feel like you could cum at any given moment. You fixate on that feeling, realizing that you haven’t had time to yourself at all in the last few months. Certainly not enough time for a man to make you cum, let alone give yourself the time to do so.
Now though, you come to the understanding you were deprived. Satoru is giving you just what you needed after so long.
He knows that if his mouth stays on yours, he doesn’t have a fighting chance. So he parts from you, holding himself up by his arms and fucking you even harder.
Your hands jump to his biceps, whining as you do so. All the while, he soaks in your appearance. Your fucked out face, the way your tits are bouncing with every one of his strokes, and the way his cock is slipping so easily in and out of you.
When he suddenly pulls out of you completely, you hardly have beyond a second to realize he’s flipping you over. Your arms rest on the arm rest of the couch, while he adjusts your hips, getting you on your knees.
You turn your head over your shoulder, seeing his big strong hands spreading your ass, spitting down between your legs. You shudder, nose crinkling at the feeling of his spit dripping down to your pussy.
He then slides his dick between your folds again, coating it before he, without warning slips back into you.
He doesn’t ease into it like he did before at all. He has a quick, relentless pace from the get-go. His dick moves inside you like it wants to blend into your body, or perhaps go so far inside you that you feel him in your throat.
With this new position, you feel him prodding deeper than before. Your walls suck him in, helping the tip of his length brushing your cervix, this time at a higher intensity.
He angles his strokes better when his hands grip into your hips. With every lust driven thrust, you feel his fingers dig into your flesh even more. You’re more than certain it will leave a mark that you’ll be seeing for days.
“Fuck me,” Satoru breathlessly laughs. “You’re being such a good girl for me. You feel good?”
“So—so fucking good,” your eyes are closed, nails digging into the plush of his couch. “Don’t stop.”
“Wasn’t planning on it,” he darkly mutters.
He ruts himself into your pussy again, feeling the warmth that he never wants to ever part from. He clenches his jaw, trying to ground himself in the smallest way possible at the very least.
His pelvis slams against your ass with great fervor, over and over again. Your heads drops pathetically, forehead against the armrest as you jolt forward . . . forward . . . forward. Your shoulders blades contract, back arching and creating a beautiful crease down your spine.
While he’s fucking you, a part of him wants to bend down and lick up that expanse of skin. Right where the spokes of your spine take shape. Then his eyes fix on the way your ass meets his skin and he does not dare tear his gaze away.
“Mmm shit, baby,” Satoru throws his head back deliriously. “Sucking my cock in so fucking nice.”
Then he rocks his hips against you so zealously that the angle he’s at elicits a loud scream from you. Your body falls forward, knees shaking.
“Oh?” Satoru comes to a grinding halt. “Did I find something?”
He draws himself back and drives himself straight into your pussy again, realigning himself to hit that same spot again.
When you choke out a sob, he grins, “Looks like I have.”
You spare another glance behind you, meeting eyes with that complacent expression on his face. His strokes are quick, deep, and precise, skimming at your g spot just right.
“Oh my god,” you cry, arms and legs shaking. A familiar heat stirs in your core, an iron searing heat. One that feels much more intense than anything you’ve ever experienced before.
You look back again, seeing how Satoru’s washboard abs are glistening with a beautiful moonlit sheen. He throws his head back and you spy the way his jaw hangs when he moans.
Your trembling legs are on the verge of giving out and he feels your pussy clenching. He knows you’re on the edge. He hovers over you, his chest pressing against your back as his hand swirls your sensitive clit in circles.
His senses are clouding, vision blurring just as yours is. Every muscle in your body tightens without any direction, moving at their own accord. A million little tingles flurry over your body like blizzards.
Your throat is drying out from the sheer amount of stamina stringing out of you. And you weren’t even doing any of the work.
Your cunt tightens around him, clamping down on him. His ministrations on your clit get you right where he wants you, cumming like a whore on his dick.
You cry out, body spasming like you no longer have any control over it. You’re writhing beneath him, spilling the sweetest of moans that are going straight to his head.
“Yeah, baby, come on. You got this,” he’s whispering encouragingly in your ear, lips brushing against your helix. “Ah—ah—yeah, just like that.”
Stars stipple across the night sky of your vision. All flickering on and off as if children are playing with light switches in an empty house. Any rational thought flies out of your mind, all you can focus on is this feeling, ardent as a flame.
Satoru’s pace comes to a stop, hands slowing on your nub as he backs away. He chuckles as you slump into the couch, watching you catch your breath.
Once you do, you get back on your knees, turning to face him. He looks as if he’s about to spew some condescending rhetoric but you push him so he’s now seated.
“Your turn,” you say hoarsely, taking your place on his lap.
He surprisingly has nothing to say. Or perhaps he does but his tongue fails him quite severely in that moment.
You straddle his hips with your thighs, sitting up straight in his lap. Your arms are slung around his neck and he finds it so sexy the way one of your hands reach down to put his dick back in you.
As you sink down on his cock, both your mouths fall open, eyes on each other’s. Your arms are slung across his shoulders as you look him dead in the eye and bottom out. You softly whimper but fuck, the whimper that escapes him is worth more than any currency.
His brows pinch and nose scrunches, his pretty lips fall into a pout. One that you want to kiss off his lips so bad. His hands are on your ass, pathetically trying to guide you to go faster and move at the very least. And you do, but the speed you move at is far from fast.
You lift your hips up, and then slam yourself down, earning a strangled gasp from him. You do it again, eliciting the same reaction. Your arms slide down till your hands are at the nape of his neck, feeling the scruff of his undercut.
He moans again, this time wrapping his strong arms around your back and letting you take the reigns completely. He watches the way your cunt sheathes down on his cock repeatedly, your hair in your dazed eyes and all.
As you ride him, he can’t steer his eyes away from any part of you at all, especially your tits bouncing in front of his face. He can’t even help leaning forward ever so slightly, wrapping his mouth around your nipple, hoping it stifles his moans.
You let out a raspy cry, feeling the way his tongue flicks over your bud. His prior hope of suppressing moans is all but futile for you can hear how his heavy breaths spiral into pitchy whines.
Your hips gyrate, rolling against him and he’s already been edging himself to prolong his orgasm but now he knows he’s done for. His dick twitches, and he lets go of your nipple with a pop.
His hands come to rest on your thighs and he looks up at you darkly, “You on birth control?”
Your nails scratch tenderly over his nape again, you bite down on your lip and nod.
“Good,” he simply mutters.
He lets out a choppy moan again, eyes hooded and breaths heavy. His cock twitches inside you again, and with one final plunge in you he’s fallen completely apart. “Fuck—"
His cum spurts inside your pussy, ropes of white liquid shoot in you. The warmth of it invaded your space, hurtling deep in you before it begins leaking out of where the two of you are connected.
Shakily, you breathe as you look down, feeling his seed dripping down your thigh. You take a moment to breath, watching him come down from his high as well.
You both heave heavily, catching elusive breaths. Each of you slowly trail your eyes up at each other, staring for a moment before you both break into laughter.
He rubs his hands over your thighs, “You okay?”
“Yeah,” you smile, tilting your head unconsciously. You flick your gaze over his face, seeing the damp mess his hair is now, sweaty and clinging to his skin. His eyes still have that wintered glimmer. A smile rests on his lips too.
“Can I ask you something?” you quiz.
“Shoot.” Ironic pun.
“Is the reason you’ve been getting under my skin a lot because you had a crush on me?” you ask.
“What? No,” he scoffs, hands on your hips. You cock a suspicious brow, your hands loosely skimming his neck. “You’re crazy.”
“Uh huh,” you nod sarcastically.
“You hungry?” he asks, raising his brows.
“Oh, like crazy,” you breath.
He grins, “Let me order something and I’ll get you cleaned up. Now where’s my phone?”
He stands up, carrying you easily with one arm as he reaches for his phone on the floor. You squeal, tightening your grip on him. “Satoru!”
He pays no mind as he’s already halfway through punching in his pizza order, “Hmm, how do you feel about stuffed cheesy bread?”
“I could go for it, yeah,” you say.
“Great. Done,” he clicks, a satisfied bliss on his face.
“You know have a lot of explaining to do, right?” you remind him.
“You don’t think I know that?” he scoffs airily. “I’d be pretty dumb to forget that with you badgering me around all the time.”
You open your mouth to argue and he laughs, “Kidding! I’ll tell you everything—I swear. Let’s get you cleaned up first. Food should be here by then so I’ll explain while we eat.”
“Okay, but I like hot showers—if you put me under cold water I’m feeding you to that mutant lizard thing on the news,” you warn as he carries you off into the bathroom.
“Oh—I wouldn’t dream of it,” Satoru says. “Besides, can’t take that risk. The city needs me.”
Rolling your eyes at him, you choose to keep your sarcastic remark to yourself. Instead, you lean your head against his shoulder, letting him whisk you away.
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imagine spiderman!gojo pinning you against the wall, you can tell his smirk is sharp behind that mask. you're already breathless, but he takes his time, teasingly twirling a strand of his webbing between his fingers before snapping it into place.
"gotcha," he murmurs, voice smooth and dripping with amusement as he binds your wrists above your head with one hand while the other lifts up his mask to hang on his nose, the silk clings, snug but soft, leaving you just enough room to squirm.
"you're awfully quiet for someone who begged me to come save them," he taunts, leaning in close, his breath hot against your ear. the sticky threads trail lower, securing your thighs in place, keeping you perfectly still for him.
his gloved fingers ghost over the bare skin of your neck, trailing down your chest, testing just how much he can make you squirm while you're completely at his mercy. “don’t worry, sweetheart. i’ll make sure you’re taken care of. heroes always do, right?”
without a trace | gojo satoru x reader [one shot] 18+
❀ pairing - spiderman!gojo x black cat!reader
❀ summary - gojo has always prided himself on being a hero- the kind who upholds the standard for justice. only one person has ever made him question that moral line: you. and when you disappeared, he thought that part of him disappeared with you, burying himself in this new title of your friendly neighborhood spiderman. but when you return, he realizes there's almost nothing he wouldn't risk if it meant keeping you this time.
❀ warnings/tags - 18+, ex situationship, spiderman canon violence, very bad flirting, banter, mutual pining, angst, hurt/no comfort, toxic (ish) situationship, self aware gojo, reader is a cat burglar, cheating (kinda sorta depending how you look at it), reader is the other woman, geto being the voice of reason as always, pistol whipping, author uses y/n, selfish gojo, gojo is hard on himself, edging, dirty talk, unprotected sex, p in v, possessive gojo
❀ wc - 13.8k
a/n - hi guys! this has been sitting in my drafts for a loooong time but i finally hunkered down and finished writing (instead of studying for my boards oopsies) funny how much u can accomplish when ur procrastinating sth else. anyways this is loosely based on some spiderman blackcat edits i saw on tiktok from the marvel video game. fanart creds here[x] also i didnt rlly proof read bc i was rushing to get it out so if you see typos, no u didnt. as always, hope u guys enjoy this absolute BEAST. see u at the end! <3
Gojo slips in through the skylight of the Tokyo National Museum, leaving it cracked open juuust enough for him to slide out later–in case he needs a quick escape. He makes an effort to creep through the shadows, though the flicker of moonlight that spills in from the windows catches the white of his hair occasionally.
There was a tip sent in that there’s supposed to be a break-in at the museum tonight. Something about some crown jewels–an irreplaceable artifact so he hears–that’s already being auctioned off on the dark web.
Every tiny sound echoes in the silence of the building–aside from the hum of electricity emitting from the silent alarm system he was careful not to trigger–including the sound of his footsteps. He moves along the polished marble flooring, conscious of the tapping of his boots on tile.
He stands out against the darkness of the building, blue light glowing faintly where the web pattern traces his muscles. The spider emblem across his chest pulses soft light–the spider-tech having been synced to his heartbeat.
Then, the faint static of a voice in his ear–Mei.
“You’re awfully quiet tonight. Don’t tell me you’re actually focused for once?”
The corner of his lip quirks under his mask as he side-steps around a display pedestal. “I’m always focused.”
“Mhm, sure. What’re you looking at?”
“Whole lotta nothing. Starting to think your tip was off.”
“It wasn’t my tip–”
He half-listens to her speech as his eyes scan the room. Nothing seems off, no spidey-senses tingling yet–he doesn’t exactly know how to feel about that. Either absolutely nothing is wrong or everything is about to go horribly terribly wrong. Like baby shower fireworks setting off a forest fire wrong. He continues his pace through the museum, moving methodically towards the next exhibit. His eyes flicker towards different display cases every now and then to ensure nothing is out of place.
But Gojo is by no means a history buff nor had he ever really cared about artworks created by a bunch of dead people or historical artifacts stolen from other countries so he can’t exactly say if something’s been replaced by a fake or a decoy. He’s just relying on that spider-induced sixth sense of his.
Then, something breaks his rhythmic stride. The hum of the silent alarm system he was so careful not to set off cuts out–silence–and then sound that doesn’t belong. A soft metallic clink of a vent or pipes or something from somewhere above him.
His entire body stills instantly, senses sharpening as his eyes track the sound, following the ceiling panels. Mei’s voice through the comms device in his ear continues but it’s mostly tuned out as he focuses his hearing.
The air shifts, the faintest whisper of movement behind him.
Gojo turns toward the sound instantaneously, catching a blur of black and silver in his peripheral vision.
A dark figure drops through an opening where the ceiling vent was, twisting midair in a controlled flip before landing in a crouch on top of a glass display case. Moonlight slides over the sleek black fabric of a skintight suit–leather he assumes. A pair of mask-covered eyes lift from the glass to lock on his cerulean ones from across the room.
You.
“...You’ve gotta be kidding me,” Gojo breathes out a sharp exhale. He’s not sure what the feeling curling through his chest is, something between bewilderment and curiosity.
The last time he saw you…
The memory is simultaneously fuzzy in his brain yet crystal clear.
“–What’s going on? Are you okay?” Mei’s voice cuts through the slight static in his earpiece, pulling his attention.
He’s staring up at you with rounded eyes, a little dumbfounded as you look down at him from your position.
“Uhh… I’m gonna have to call you back.”
“Wait–Gojo, what’s–”
He hangs up before she can finish.
The echo of the disconnected line fades into silence. The smile on your lips is dangerously sweet and he starts to feel that spidey tingling sensation in his fingertips screaming at him that something’s wrong.
You tilt your head, tone light and teasing. “Miss me, Spider?”
His jaw tightens at the sound of his alias on your tongue
“Black Cat.” His voice comes out low, rough–firm like your name is an announcement as opposed to an acknowledgement.
You hum in response, grinning as you propel yourself into a forward flip, dropping down from the display case. You land lightly only a few feet from him. Always showing off, if he recalls correctly. The sound of your boots hitting the floor is barely audible as you take another slow step toward him.
Your movements are cat-like, prowling toward him and invading his space. You’re close enough now that he can smell you, catching the sweet and sharp traces of your perfume. Like poison disguised as sugary syrup.
“You look good,” you murmur, gaze dragging down the lines of his chest, voice dripping with amusement. “You been workin’ out?”
He blinks. He wonders if you can sense his hesitation or the slight falter in his breathing before he’s chuckling awkwardly, “Oh, um, yeah… heh.”
His hand reflexively moves to rub the back of his neck.
“Mmm,” you hum as you circle him slowly, “And, uh… you got a girlfriend nowadays?”
The words come out like a purr, lazy and relaxed. He wonders if the question is a setup.
He hasn’t seen you in years.
Would you know if he has a girlfriend?
Do you keep up with his personal life?
Are you jealous?
The thought settles warm in his chest, scratching something deep and territorial (and possibly toxic masculine) inside his gut. Not exactly something he’d be proud to admit out loud to anyone.
You reach out to him, slow and deliberate with a gloved claw. The sharp nails of your suit drag against the thin material of his suit. The fabric catches as you trace the hard lines of his shoulder, then down the slope of his chest. You stop abruptly just under his sternum.
He inhales sharply, a quiet sound that betrays him more than he’d like. A chill runs down his spine.
“Uh… that’s a lot of questions,” he manages to get out finally, voice a touch higher than usual.
“What?” You feign genuine curiosity as smile at him, lips curling up mischievously. “I’m just curious…”
You look up at him through your lashes, batting your eyes with faux innocence. You continue drawing a path past his sternum, sharp claw moving along the defined muscles of his abdomen. You’re close enough now that he can see the reflection of the spider symbol glowing blue in your eyes.
Your eyes. Wow.
He forces a swallow, throat bobbing. His large hand closes gently around your wrist, stopping your gloved claw and pulls it away from his torso. He doesn’t drop your hand.
“Heard that’s bad for cats.” The amusement is audible in his tone, even through the mask.
Your grin fades for a split second when somewhere outside, the sound of sirens begins to rise. Still faint but approaching rapidly. His eyes drop to your lips and when they make their way back to your eyes, the cat-like smile is back on your lips. You take a step back from him and he releases his grip on your wrist easily.
“Still funny, I see.”
“Still stealing things that don’t belong to you, I see.”
The statement feels like it’s about more than just the multiple burglaries he’s caught you in.
“Are we still talking about these?” You reach into the small compartment of your suit, pulling the jewels into the slant of the moonlight. The gems catch the traces of lowlight, scattering color across your face. “Hmm,” you drag your gaze from the gems to meet his, “guess I’ve got a type.”
You say it like you’re going to shoot him a wink but it never comes.
He instinctively reaches for them and then you’re gone, sending yourself into a backwards flip with feline adjacent grace. The distance opens between you and him in an instant. You tuck the jewels back into your suit, smoothing the fabric over them, sealing them seamlessly. You launch yourself again, higher this time, to the top of a display case positioned directly beneath the skylight.
Gojo thinks you look beautiful with the moonlight framing your figure. Like something out of his dreams. He shamelessly lets his eyes trail over the curve of your ass in the catsuit.
“Thanks for keeping an escape route open for me,” you call down, teasing laced in your words.
He just stands there dumbly, staring up at you as his pulse thrums against his throat.
It’s been years but you’re still you, you talk the same, smell the same, move the same.
And then he’s struck by the sudden realization he doesn’t know where you’ve been. You just vanished one day without a trace. He told himself that you’d finally stopped stealing and that it’d be better if he stopped caring.
Maybe you found a better life for yourself.
Or maybe you stole the wrong thing from the wrong person and died.
Though there was never a body.
And Geto convinced him that he eventually had to stop calling the morgue to ask if any unidentified bodies showed up.
And now you’re here again.
He remembers how it used to be.
When he first became Spider-Man, before you had made the name Black Cat for yourself and you were just you. Just a girl who was trying to fill some void by being a Robin Hood of sorts.
When the two of you would play this game of cat and mouse. Sometimes he’d catch you, corner you mid heist and web you so he could take back whatever it was that you had stolen.
Sometimes, he’d catch you. Sometimes, you let him. Sometimes, he’d let you go. It became like a game to the both of you.
It happened once or twice when the two of you had to team up, unlikely allies with two different goals in mind. Something mutually beneficial. He sought justice and you sought whatever you could steal. Whether it was from a corrupt political figure or some yakuza affiliate. If it helped both of you, he’d sometimes turn a blind eye.
And somewhere in between all of that–the blurred lines and adrenaline rushes, the way you both stopped keeping track of who won last time—it got messy and addictive. And then turned unresolved.
You eventually disappeared and when he couldn’t track you down, he figured it was only right to move on. Kind of.
Sure, you were always in the back of his mind but whatever he had with you wasn’t right. It was morally incorrect, all things considered. But he had met Mei. And even though they aren’t really together, she was right. Someone good, safe, someone who doesn’t make him question which side he’s really on. Someone who keeps him on the right side of history. And it wasn’t like you and him were ever really together.
Maybe he really just has some strange non-commital thing going on deep in his psyche. He should really see a therapist about that.
And then, he looks up at you now, standing there in the glow of the moon, body silhouetted against the open skylight, light rain dripping through the opening.
His voice drops, quiet and almost hesitant. “Let’s… let’s talk.”
You glance down at him, eyes low and humor in your voice. “Little late for that, hmm, Spider-Man?”
You shoot him a wink then rise to your feet. Your arm reaches up, catching the edge of the skylight. In one smooth, quick motion, you pull yourself through and then you’re gone.
Gojo stands there for a moment, staring up at the space where you once were. He exhales, long and slow, debating his decision. He should move. He should have shot a web, closed that gap, and stopped you. But he couldn’t. He feels that same ache in his chest that he had years ago.
Does this begin the game of cat and mouse again?
Or will you disappear again like last time?
Outside, the sirens grow increasingly louder.
A beat.
He decides not to think and just moves. He shoots a web from his wrist, firing toward the ceiling. The thread sticks just beside the open skylight. The line draws tight as he launches upward, muscles tightening as he slips through the glass frame and into the Tokyo night.
The night air hits him cold and sharp as rain falls gently. The neon lights of the city paint colors across the wet skyline, reflecting the slick rooftops in flashes of blue and pink. The sound of the city folds into the wind rushing past his ears as he swings, trying to get to a higher position.
There you are, sprinting across the roofline. Your movements are smooth, each leap landing calculated like you’re floating across the rooftops despite the rain wetting the tiles.
With a newfound surge of energy, he slings himself through the city, desperate to catch up to you. He moves in short bursts, opting to propel himself rather than taking the leisurely swings he normally does. He watches as you glance over your shoulder, surprised at the pace he’s moving.
You vault over a railing, pushing yourself off of it to clear a gap between buildings, back arched and legs extending in perfect rhythm. He fires his web from both arms, shooting himself forward like a slingshot as he increasingly closes the gap.
He’s close behind you now and he can tell you’re panicked. Your movements are becoming more erratic as you try to lose him, cutting between buildings and making unpredictable turns.
He swings low, web stretching wide before he releases and fires another. The web lands right behind you as you backflip to dodge the web. You cut left, disappearing behind a building. It takes him a second to redirect his shot, pulling from his shoulder as he forces his body in the new direction. As he rounds the corner, he watches as you flip down another level, slipping through scaffolding.
In a juvenile way, the chase almost feels fun again.
He fires another web from both hands, pulling himself up and over instead of down to where you’ve just landed. You give him a glance over your shoulder, gauging where he is and he hopes his idea works.
He swings above the building, landing on the rooftop. He doesn’t give himself time to breathe before he’s sprinting to the other side, praying you’re not as unpredictable as you seem. He dives off the edge of the roof headfirst.
As he’s falling, he sees your form sprinting in his direction, though it doesn’t seem like you’ve realized he’s free-falling right in front of you. He fires another web from directly above you, the line whips through the air and catches your ankle mid-stride.
You stumble, momentum yanking your leg back to where it’s attached to the rooftop by his web. Your reflexes, fast and instinctual at this point, force your body to tuck and roll, twisting midair to break your fall. Your palms slide against the concrete and land on your feet in a crouch position.
He barely has time to launch a web to catch himself, catching onto a metal beam jutting from a half-finished construction site. He nearly pulls his shoulders from their sockets from the pure force of momentum.
When you finally get to your feet, Gojo is there, hanging upside down. The beam is a part of a rooftop renovation with scaffolding scattered around it. Orange safety lights blink weakly in the rain, illuminating your face as he’s suspended in front of you, the line holding him steady.
“Black Cat.” His mask glows blue, a stark contrast to the dark. “Now, can we talk… like normal people?” His tone is teasing and nonchalant, despite being upside down.
You tilt your head, eyes glinting in the rain, a smirk playing on your lips. “What’s not normal about this?”
Before he can muster a response, you take a step forward and tug his mask just past his mouth. He freezes. You lean in, lips brushing his in a quick, soft kiss.
It’s over before he can fully register it.
His heart catches in his chest, every thought blanking for half a second. He’s not exactly sure if you only kissed him to throw him off or because you actually wanted to.
Probably both.
“Soo…” you pull back with that same sly smile, voice sweet and taunting, “No girlfriend, huh?”
“Always worried about the wrong thing.” He exhales, half a sigh and half a laugh, as he drops down from the web and lands in front of you. “She’s just a friend.”
“Right.”
“She’s not my girlfriend.”
“Neither was I.”
So you have been keeping up with him.
He steps closer, hand brushing your waist as he starts feeling along the seams of your suit, searching. His hands travel from your hips, up past your waist and then wrap around your ribcage. You watch him, amused as his fingertips finally trace the outline of the jewels hidden beneath the thin material.
“Someone’s forward,” you purr, tone dripping with mischief. Your breath ghosts against his neck as your words seep under his skin. “Better watch out, I bet that girl has trust issues.”
His fingers find the clasp on your suit to open the compartment where you stashed the jewels. Before he can work it open, you place a hand on his chest. Your touch light at first then firmer, feeling the solid muscle beneath his suit. You push lightly, forcing him back half a step. Your touch lingers, even with the newfound distance between you, thumb tracing the seam across his collarbone.
He swallows hard, caught under the feeling of your hand on his body. His hands drop to his sides immediately, unconsciously following the silent direction of your touch.
Your eyes find his, low-lidded and seductive. “Don’t be a stranger, Spider.”
You take three quick steps backward toward the edge of the rooftop, giving him one last look before flipping backward off the ledge. Your body twists midair before catching a lower rooftop beam. In seconds, you’re gone.
Gojo stands there, rain beading down his mask, staring at the empty space where you’d just been. The night feels quieter without you in it.
Cat and mouse.
He lets out a strangled noise, the sound like a resigned huff.
“Mei’s gonna kill me…”
-
The sun is low, honey-gold rays spilling past the blinds in Gojo’s high-rise as he wanders into the living room from the kitchen, barefoot. The wrapper of his mochi crinkles obnoxiously as he tears it open with his teeth, stuffing the scraps in his pajama pants pocket. The TV is set to the news, something Mei had insisted would be beneficial to his alter ego.
Then, the voice of the newscaster–
“First Suspect to Escape Spider-Man in Years – Hero Losing His Edge?”
Geto snorts in response from his spot on the couch, one ankle over the other as his feet rest on the coffee table. The footage looks like something taken from a helicopter– no sound and horrible quality. A short clip of your flip over the ledge of that rooftop and him watching you leave. Not a good look.
Though, he has to admit he’s enjoying seeing how you look in your skin-tight suit from all angles.
Gojo takes a bite of his snack, tearing away at the chewy dessert.
Mei doesn’t look up from the tech setup as she scrolls through the TMPD liaison comm feed. “Losing your spark, Satoru?” Her tone is light, teasing, even a little flirty.
Gojo watches as Geto drags his eyes from the TV over to him, shooting him a knowing look after seeing the clip that they keep replaying. Mei finally twists in her chair to look and Gojo nearly winces as she squints, leaning in slightly to make out the dark figure in the blurry footage. Her spine straightens immediately, recognition evident in her face. She presses her lips together and turns back to the monitors.
It’s quiet for a moment, only the sound of the reporter moving onto the next segment fills the room.
Shoko breaks the heavy silence by clearing her throat, shuffling into the living room from the balcony. The faint smell of cigarette smoke follows her in. She slides the doors shut behind her. “Anyywaays…” She sings, “we have bigger things to be worried about.”
“Right. Okay,” Mei prepares to dive into her debrief as the four gather around the computer screen. “So there’s this arms broker. Arai Kenji. Geto’s been keeping up with him for months now and we think that we finally got a perfect window. Tonight.”
Arai Kenji has plans to meet with a transporter crew in the warehouse district. The crew is supposed to be handing off some new drug shipment that they’ve just cooked up in a lab. During the handoff, they’re also giving him a flash drive which is the most important part. The drive is supposed to have some highly classified, extremely valuable information.
Doesn’t seem like anyone knows exactly what it is.
It’s probably just regular bad guy stuff like buyer routes, illegal weapons blueprints, black-market contacts, stuff like that.
Gojo’s part of the plan is to trail Kenji from one of his hideouts to the meeting point. Lay low, stay out of sight until the trade happens. Swoop in, get the drive, get out. Tokyo Police is on standby until they get the go-ahead from him to move in.
Apparently, the drive is also supposed to be a secret from the police as well. Something about potential bad seeds in the force.
He agrees it’s probably for the better that he checks something like that out first anyway.
He’s also admittedly a little distracted from the mission breakdown with the thought of you. He wonders if he’ll see you again anytime soon. And if it’s ridiculous that he’s thinking about that at a time like this.
It’s just that–
He’s known you for years and sometimes it felt like he knew you more than he knew himself. But also like he didn’t know you at all.
You had become such an inconsistent constant in his life.
But somewhere in the ebb and flow of your relationship over the years, you became intertwined with him. Like there was no Spiderman, no Gojo Satoru without you.
Outside, the sky has turned into a deep shade of indigo.
Gojo stands at the center of the room, the lower half of his Spider suit resting on his hips. He’s shirtless still, messing with the mask of his suit to double-check the earpiece. He tucks the mask between his teeth as he continues to work on getting suited up. He pulls the upper half of the suit over his head, the nanofiber material molding to his chest and shoulders once its in place.
Across the room, Geto leans backwards lazily in his desk chair. He tosses a basketball between his palms then spins it on his pointer finger.
“Soooo…” Geto drags his voice, “What’re you gonna do bro?”
He starts tossing the ball up and then catching it with one hand.
“Right now,” Gojo starts tugging the thin fabric up over his torso, then his shoulder. The material molds to his biceps. “I’m gonna get this damn flash drive.”
“Can’t avoid the topic forever.”
“Yeah well,” Gojo sighs, slipping on the gloves one after another. He flexes his fingers once they’re on. “I can when I don’t know if she’ll be back forever.”
“Do you want her to be?”
He avoids eye contact as he tugs the mask down over his face, ignoring the question. He rubs his face exhaustingly over the mask then clears his throat. He brushes past Geto towards the open window, one leg after the other over the sill.
Then, he dives out the window, launching himself across the skyline.
He moves fast, wind biting at his sides through the suit. He shoots a web from his right wrist, pulling himself forward. His momentum arcs before he fires another line. The movements become a secondary thought as he makes his way through the city. The spider emblem across his chest glows light blue against the dark of night.
He angles down, landing on the neon-lit rim of a billboard. He crouches low, eyes focused on the warehouse compound a short distance away– Kenji’s reported hideout.
He’s almost surprised at his perfect timing.
A matte black SUV rolls out of a wide garage door. The tinted windows of the vehicle reflect the city lights. He watches as the car turns into the road, tires rough against the street.
He waits for some distance then drops from the billboard, firing a new line as he tails the van from above. He manuevers from rooftop to rooftop, creeping through the back streets at a safe distance from the SUV.
The car moves toward an older distract, neon lights fading out to dim street lights until it turns into a dead-end alley, tucked between two shuttered up shops and an old apartment complex.
Gojo slips onto a rooftop and tucks himself just behind the ledge. He’s high enough where he can blend into the darkness but close enough to be able to pick up on the interaction.
The comms device in his ear crackles with a flash of static.
“Yoo.”
Geto’s voice.
“Soo no Mei tonight, huh?”
“Mm, she’s not exactly feelin’ it tonight. Looks like you’re stuck with me.”
Gojo’s pretty sure that’s code for she’s mad at you. He really shouldn’t be thinking about you this much. He’s not exactly sure what he has going on with Mei but he knows she probably wouldn’t be very happy with him right now. He’s got this strange feeling in his stomach, one he can’t quite put his finger on. And he doesn’t think it’s guilt.
He forces out a huff of a laugh through his nostrils. “Just like old times.”
He’s been having a lot of thoughts about old times lately. He shakes his head as if he can physically shake the thoughts from his brain.
“Alright, quick rundown.” Geto tells him, “Two-part exchange, first the product, then the flash drive. Once they hand over the money and Kenji’s got the drugs, we’ll have police come in but you have to get the drive first. And don’t make any moves until the other group heads out.”
Gojo nods, forgetting that he can’t see him.
“Got it.”
He watches the alley as the van sits idly. He steadies his breath as he surveys the layout of the alley, peering to hopefully count the amount of people seated in the car but he’s too high up and it’s too dark. No luck.
“Y’know, we’d understaaand, right?” Geto’s voice is casual through the earpiece, like he’s shrugging as the words come out.
Gojo’s eyes narrow in confusion, “... Understand what… exactly?”
“If you… and Black Cat…” Geto’s voice trails off suggestively.
His brain stutters for a second, scrambling for a believable denial as heat slides up the back of his neck.
But before he can find one, a second car rolls into the alley. The wheels of a sleek silver sedan crunch quietly on the uneven pavement.
Flashy.
‘Wait– wait– shh…” Gojo’s voice comes out in a hushed whisper.
The SUV doors swing open, Arai Kenji climbs out and he’s followed by four men in some sort of tactical gear. They stand behind him in a pyramid-adjacent formation.
From the smaller car, two figures step out. They keep a safe distance from Kenji and his men, opting to only stand a few feet in front of their own car. Some words are exchanged but they’re speaking at a hushed volume. Gojo can’t pick up any specifics of the conversation so he relies on reading their body language.
They’re stiff, clearly tense. One person from each side cautiously moves toward their own vehicle, each pulling out a duffel bag. The drug transporters hand a bag over to one of Kenji’s henchmen, then a second– and a third bag follows. The bags seem heavy, sagging under the weight of the contents.
“Okay…” Gojo whispers into the comm, “They just handed off the duffels.”
He watches as one of Kenji’s men haphazardly throws one of their own duffels in front of the transporters’ feet. One of them slowly bends over, gradually tugging the zipper undone, revealing the wads of cash stuffed in the bag.
Gojo’s eyes widen at the sight.
That’s a lot of money.
His mind flashes to you.
How you’re the type to swoop in, steal the bag, leave it at the doorstep of an orphanage or homeless shelter or something.
The “wrong thing” feels like the right thing, sometimes, with you.
“And the flash drive?” Geto’s voice is also low, as if they’d somehow be able to hear him through Gojo’s earpiece.
The transporter zips the duffel bag back up. He takes the few small steps to the backseat of the vehicle, switching the duffel bag for a silver briefcase. Simultaneously, Kenji’s team is loading up the SUV with the new bags they’ve just received.
A briefcase.
Gojo’s voice dips impossibly lower, barely above a breath. “There’s a briefcase. Is that it?”
“Has to be.”
His eyes flicker around the alley, mapping it out. His eyes narrow behind the mask, focused. He counts the one– two– three– four men, paying close attention to their positioning. He’s trying to be tactful about it, picturing the approach. The big one to the right of Kenji might be the biggest immediate threat but he might move slower so Gojo’s got him there. Though the one right behind him looks a lot faster so he might beat him to it.
How can he get in and out quickly with the least amount of damage?
If he comes in at the right angle, he might get fast enough access to the case and he can hopefully swing out without having to fight anyone.
He’s visualizing his attack route– hopefully a quick drop in, web the briefcase, he should be able to use that fire escape rail for swing trajectory and if he comes in from the right angle, he may only need to knock out the guy standing in the back.
The drug transporters start to slide into their vehicle, preparing to leave.
His eyes dart around, imaginary diagrams of angles and lines fill his vision as he continues to map the battleground. The sequence of movements he comes up with feels familiar.
Familiar in that way that sinks into his bones, that sounds like your voice in his ear, that feels like your limbs clashing with his when you’ve fought, this had you written all over it.
He used to go into any situation, guns blazing, ready to fight his way through it. It was you who would always tell him to slow down, sneak around, find a way.
Quiet as a cat, sneaky as a spider.
The headlights from the smaller car flicker to life, washing over Kenji and his men as they stand with the briefcase in their possession.
Gojo flexes his fingers out of habit and slowly rises to his feet, ready to swing down. He forces the thought of you back into that deep part of his mind, where it’s been residing for the past two or three years.
The sedan starts reversing, slowly gliding out of the alley. He watches as it turns the corner and disappears.
Fuck it.
The whole sneaky thing looked better on you anyways.
He jumps from the ledge, webbing at a rusted pipe. He arcs through the alley as quietly as he can manage, the only sound being the wind that slides against his suit. He lands in a crouch a few feet from the front of the van, hiding in the shadows of the alley. The driver rounds from behind the van, keys in hand as he approaches the driver’s seat.
He shoots a web from his left wrist, the sound of the netting flying through the air cuts through the quiet night. The web wraps around the man’s torso and Gojo yanks the guy straight into the darkness. His right fist meets him halfway. The punch sinks deep into the man’s gut. He lets out a thick, choking wheeze as he folds over, heaving.
Without missing a beat, Gojo anchors a web to the ground, sliding low under his nearly collapsing body. He lets out a grunt as he pivotes, using the momentum to shove upward at the guy’s chest as he pops up from underneath him, sending the guy sailing backwards like a ragdoll. The man crashes spine-first onto the concrete, crumpling upon impact.
Geto’s voice crackles through the comms in his ear. “Doin’ okay still, Satoru?”
“Oh yeah, doin’ fantastic,” tone dry, borderline sarcastic as he catches his breath.
Footsteps thunder from either side of the vehicle. Gojo’s head snaps up toward the sound. On the passenger side, a man approaches with a gun and on the other side, a metal bat.
Even though logic tells him his priority should be the gun, the guy white-knuckling the bat is much closer– sprinting towards him while yelling something incoherent.
Gojo fires a tight shot, the web zips through the air and attaches itself to the metal bat. He uses his web to whip the bat backward. It ricochets off the graffiti-tagged wall, clanking as it rolls away. The man doesn’t even flinch, continuing his charge towards Gojo. He dives towards him, ready to tackle but Gojo plants his foot, webbing the ground again and slides under him to dodge the attack. In the same breath, he fires another web at his torso and jerks him sideways mid-air. His redirected body slams into the goon holding the gun with full force.
The gun fires off wildly, a shot sparking off the concrete wall behind Gojo, missing him.
The two men smash into the wall together, disoriented, limbs tangled.
He turns on his heel, surging towards Kenji to get the briefcase. From his peripheral, he sees one of the men back on their feet, swinging at him full speed. Gojo uses the opening to sink a sharp right hook to his jaw, snapping his head to the side. He slides under him between his open legs, the reinforced material lining his suit helping him grind against the asphalt and then pops up behind him, delivering a reverse hook kick to the back of his skull.
That had to be concussive, he thinks.
The man’s head whips forward as a result and he goes flying forward, eventually landing some distance away.
The second guy lunges towards him. Gojo webs at his ankle, sending him stumbling. He catches him by shooting another web into his chest and yanks him into a kick–boot to sternum. He can almost hear the breathless wheeze the man lets out but the sound is drowned out by the sound of the stretch of his web-line. Web still attached to the man’s chest, Gojo pivots and slingshots the man over his shoulder into a stack of crates. The wooden boxes splinter, sending debris crashing down.
He uses a web to assist in a jump that has him right above the man then fires a final web downward, the material sticking to the pavement on either side of the man. The line goes taut and he uses it to slam himself feet-first onto the man below who was scrambling to get up from the debris. The man’s body goes limp under his feet.
Gojo barely has time to straighten himself, steady his breath before the sound of a machine gun spraying echoes within the narrow alley. The bullets carve sparks against the brick walls and the sound is nearly deafening.
Damn. So much for keeping a low profile.
Kenji’s voice is coming from somewhere behind the SUV, screaming something incomprehensible. Gojo’s body moves instinctively toward his voice until the sound of a boot scraping metal makes him freeze. His attention is pulled toward the sound, head snapping up just in time to catch the last one of Kenji’s men launching himself from the roof of the vehicle, diving straight for him.
Oh, come fucking on. Can he catch a break?
He fires a web at the wall, jerking his body upward hurriedly then, mid-swing, something flickers in his peripheral vision. A streak of black and silver. Just the slightest flash of familiarity but it’s enough to make his head turn.
You.
The slight head turn costs him. In his moment of unfocused, the man clamps onto Gojo’s calves mid-swing and they both go crashing down toward the concrete. The landing knocks the air out of his lungs and he’s gasping as they roll from the impact. The concrete scrapes against his suit and the guy manages to get on top of Gojo first, throwing punches wildly. He raises his arm in time to block the first one, the second clips his jaw and the third grazes his forehead.
He grits his teeth, using the millisecond he had while the man drew his fist back to plant his forearm across the guy’s throat, pushing up and over, using the momentum to flip them. Gojo throws one solid punch with his left fist and then brings his elbow down to his temple, knocking him out. The man’s eyes roll backwards until they close, his head hanging limply.
Gojo barely has a moment to push himself off the ground before a sharp, heavy crack explodes at the back of his skull. Metal on bone, the sound of metal and steel parts clanking against itself.
Searing white hot pain detonates behind his eyes as his knees buckle. He hits the ground with a grunt, palms scraping against the pavement as he tries to catch himself.
No fucking way he got pistol whipped with a semi-automatic gun. SMG-whipped? Is that even a thing? These new gen bad guys are coming up with all sorts of new things. This has to fall under the category of cruel and unusual. He’d probably be a lot more pissed if he wasn’t actively trying to get a hold of his senses.
Kenji’s voice booms from behind him. “Spider-Man,” he acknowledges, “Never thought I’d see the day–honestly, thought you were a myth.” His voice is taunting, like he had one up on him.
Gojo crawls, his hands shaky as he tries to scramble away from the direction of his voice but his body won’t–can’t coordinate. The alley spins harder with each breath he takes. His vision rebounds between flashes of bright white and complete darkness, the strobing makes it worse and then nausea, either from the sickening taste of iron in his mouth or his ears ringing. He tries to blink it away like it would help but everything is still blurry around the edges.
Fuck.
“Shit…” He manages to grit his teeth and mutter into the comm, “I take that back… not doin’ so hot.”
Geto’s voice comes through, crackled, alarmed, “Satoru–?”
The sound of boots scraping closer on pavement sends Gojo into a panic. He forces his body to move, dragging himself away from the sound. Fuck, he thinks he’s concussed. Is this what he usually does to the guys he fights? Damn, he’s starting to feel a little bad.
His stomach is churning and then he hears the sound of the SMG clicking, an empty mag being discarded on the ground and a new one being reloaded.
Gojo’s breathing hitches. His eyes would probably be blown wide right now if he could see out of them.
This is how I die, he’s thinking. He’s gonna get shot with this machine gun and die all because something in his fucked up brain hallucinated you and he got distracted. He can’t even be sure it was you in his hallucination but his brain cells must be completely fried at this point in his life. Probably from all the blunt force trauma that comes with the job.
He thinks he’s gonna throw up.
Then a sound–sharp and and heavy–draws his attention. Like a body smashing into metal. He can make out the sound of a crash, some heavy grunting, boots scraping against the pavement. It sounds like fist connecting to skin and bone.
Is this also a part of his hallucination or is the fight happening right next to him? Is he even hallucinating or is he just freaking himself out? His vision is still somewhat dark around the edges, everything comes through like skewed shapes and static-y lines.
He’s trying to focus himself and then the sound of who he can only presume is Kenji shouting and then a heavy thud follows. Then silence.
The only sound is Gojo’s ragged breathing as he’s on all fours, trying to push himself to his feet. He’s wobbly and can’t get himself fully upright, stumbling a bit but his vision begins to sharpen. Blurry figures becoming more solid forms, stabilizing a bit.
And then a pair of smaller hands sliding under his arm, tugging his body upright from his crouched position with surprising strength. His fight or flight kicks in, his body flinching violently as he fights against the hold. He shouts in protest and then–
“Easy, Spidey.” The voice of his dreams. Or his nightmares depending on how you look at it. “Just making sure you didn’t die on me.”
His pulse spikes. This has to be some sort of concussion-induced hallucination. Like a fever dream but from when you get hit in your head a little too hard. Is that a thing? He makes a note to look into that later. He’s also not sure he’s even able to get a concussion–what, with his spidey powers and everything.
He feels–who he’s pretty sure is–you haul his weight up. He’s heavy, nearly deadweight against your frame. He feels bad that he can’t offer you much help from his end but the little soft grunt you let out as you hook one arm around his waist has his mind reeling. The sound shoots straight down below the waist.
You shift against him and he feels you raise one arm and tighten the other around him. He hears the familiar little hissing noise from the miniature grappling hooks hidden in the fur at the wrists of your suit. Your shoulder stiffens as the hook latches onto something and the line tightens under your grip. There’s a jolt as both of your bodies lift.
Gojo’s stomach lurches as you both ascend the side of a building, head swimming. The second your feet hit the rooftop, your bodies jerk again as you hook onto the next building and you both go swinging at an angle.
He blinks hard, trying to focus his eyes. He can just barely make out the shape of your face, the features slowly coming into vision. His vision is starting to clear just enough to make out your silhouette, kneeling in front of him. The city lights behind you blur beneath his half-blind sight, his mechanical lenses in his mask doing absolutely nothing to help him.
There’s two—maybe three of you—dancing in front of him as his eyes slowly focus until the multiples of you merge into one.
And then like an absolute idiot with zero self-preservation instincts, he hears himself say:
“...have I ever told you that you’re gorgeous?”
Your snicker is soft, so soft he hardly catches it but he knows he missed the sound and he’d do anything to hear it on repeat.
Like those ASMR videos that Mei watches sometimes.
Fuck.
Mei.
Gojo knows he is absolutely fucked.
“Mmm,” you purr, leaning into him slightly, “so I’ve heard.”
The wind hits his face as you swing the two of you onto a rooftop a few blocks away from the alley. You land as gentle as you can with the added weight of his body and he hears the shhhk of the hook retracting back into your suit.
You set him down softly until his back meets the brick wall behind him and he slumps against it, legs splayed, breath uneven. His vision, now much clearer, can just make out your silhouette, kneeling in front of him.
You give his cheek a light pat, something almost affectionate. “You alright there, pretty boy?”
He pretends the pet name doesn’t fry every single neuron he has left.
Before he can find a response, the comm in his ear sputters with violent static and then Geto’s voice cuts through. It’s warped and barely audible.
“Sato–? Is th– Cat? Wha–” And then it cuts out entirely, the tiny speaker fried from his earlier beating.
He huffs out a breathless laugh, half-delirious and half-resigned, opting to completely ignore his best friend’s message. His voice comes out thick with exhaustion.
“Never better,” he fights through a groan as he tries to push himself upright.
You hum out a suspicious little mhmm, like you don’t believe a word coming out of his mouth. And rightfully so because he hardly manages to stand, hand braced on the wall for balance. You shuffle back a few steps, enough to give him room to collect himself. He’s wobbling but his balance is back enough. Though he kinda wishes he’d stumble just a tiny bit so you’d catch him.
Oh shit.
The hard drive.
“Fuuuckk,” he groans under his breath, dragging a hand down his face. His skull throbs with the movement. “You’ve got to be fucking kidding me…”
A soft hum answers him from a few feet ahead.
“Looking for this?”
His head snaps toward your voice so fast, he gets a fresh spike of dizziness.
You’re standing there, one hand on your hip and the flash drive dangling from the claws of your other gloved hand.
He feels his stomach drop.
He pushes off the wall, crossing the short distance between you. He reaches out once he’s standing directly in front of you.
“Not happening.” You pull your hand back, just out of reach. Your voice comes out sharp, “I need this.”
“For what?” Gojo’s eyes narrow behind his mask.
“Wouldn’t you like to know,” Your head tilts like you’re messing with him, holding back a teasing laugh.
“Yes,” he deadpans. “That’s why I asked.”
You pause for the slightest moment and then turn to walk away, moving towards the edge of the rooftop.
This time, he doesn’t hesitate. He shoots a web, the sound of the synthetic material slices through the air. He follows it as soon as it leaves his wrist, sprinting toward you.
You twist your body out of pure instinct, narrowly dodging the web. It snaps right past your shoulder instead of your wrist where he had aimed. His eyes track your movement as you tuck the drive back into your suit in one smooth motion.
Then you launch a kick at him. He brings his forearm up and your boot collides with the guard on his suit. You swipe at him, once, then twice, steel claws glinting under the moonlight as they cut through the air. He leans back, weaving the first swipe then he pivots his shoulder, dodging the second swipe under your arm.
You’re pulling your punches. He can tell you’re not attacking him with the intent to cause him any real harm. Whether that’s because you don’t actually want to fight him or you’re just being mindful of his near concussion, he’s not sure. He also gets the idea you might just be trying to create enough of a gap to run.
But he’s not letting you go again.
You go for a punch this time, claws retracted, closed fist. He catches your wrist mid-punch and uses the momentum to pull you toward him. He steps in, meeting your body in the middle and slides an arm around your waist as a second anchor to pull you in. Your bodies collide and he can feel your chest rising rapidly as you catch your breath.
He says your name.
Your real name.
He can feel it when it hits you. See the shock crossing your face, eyebrows knitting together.
You go still in his arms, every inch of you goes taut. Your fingers curl in reflex against his suit, like every muscle in your body stiffened from the sound of a name you fought heaven and earth to forget.
He takes advantage of the moment. Dirty trick, he has to admit, it’s not his proudest moment but his hands move, patting along the lines of your torso. His fingers find the small, hidden compartment he remembers from the museum. He had replayed that moment in his head over and over and over again (for more reasons than one) trying to memorize the map of your suit. Though it may have done him more bad than good.
Your breath stutters when his fingers brush over the outline of the drive through the thin fabric. You jerk in his grip, half-heartedly pulling back. Like your body had to force itself out of something so comforting, something so deeply ingrained into your very being. His grip on your waist doesn’t falter.
“I-it’s my way out,” you manage to blurt out. The words sound like they’ve been ripped out of you.
He pauses. Your voice sounds so… desperate? The sound is so unfamiliar to him.
“Are you lying to me?” he asks, flat. His eyes narrow at you again through the mask lenses.
He watches your eyes flicker between his, eyebrows pinched together. You force down the lump in your throat before you speak, chin tilting to the side to avoid eye contact.
“No, I’m not.” You’re almost pleading. “I-I’m supposed to be done after this.”
Supposed to be.
He doesn’t necessarily trust it fully. He’s known you a long time which means that’s a long time of giving you the benefit of the doubt. While you’ve never exactly flat out lied to him, you’ve definitely skirted the truth.
Though you usually don’t sound this defeated.
“Yeah, I don’t believe you,” he answers after a pause, feeling a little guarded.
His fingers slide along the seam of your suit, finding the hidden lining. He slips past the hidden lining, pulling the flash drive free. He’s barely able to retract his hand when you grab his wrist, holding tightly.
“Satoru, I’m serious,” your voice steadies, “I need it.”
He turns it over between his fingers, cool metal pressing into his skin. Even though your bodies are still pressed together, you don’t move to snatch it from him.
“Why?” He asks, tentative, “What’s on it?”
He wants to know what you’re not saying, what’s got you this desperate–what kind of corner you’ve been backed into, and what he can do to get you out of it.
He’s asked you before–to leave with him to somewhere, anywhere. That he’d be so ready to forget everything that’s ever happened, everything you’ve ever done. That you didn’t have to live this life–cracking safes and running heists.
But you were always a girl with a vendetta, with something to prove. And you’d always tell him that you can’t.
But you can always do anything–breaking into vaults, stealing artwork, cat-burgling–anything but be his.
When you don’t answer, he takes his mask off, letting it hand limply from his fingers. His hair is ruffled from friction. A few loose strands stick to his damp forehead.
A second ago, you couldn’t seem to look at him but now, your eyes refuse to leave his.
“y/n, look me in the eyes,” he says, voice quiet but unwavering. “and tell me what’s on this drive.”
You hesitate.
His expression softens when he sees your face. The moonlight reflects in your eyes, painting them in pale silver. You hold his eye contact now, rounded eyes looking up at him.
For a second, he can’t seem to get a read on you. Like usual. You’ve always been so impossible to pin down, always ducking and dodging him.
But then, your shoulders drop a fraction and your lips part. Your voice comes out a little hoarse like you’re fighting yourself. “Everything,” you breathe, your words come out in a whisper, “It has identities, accounts, blackmail, leverage on… on everyone. Politicians, crimelords, weapons dealers.” You swallow, then drag in a shaky breath. “Me.”
He searches your eyes, aching to find the truth. He doesn’t speak, urging you to continue.
“I-it was supposed to go to some guy who was gonna use it against some politician, to control them to be able to pull strings from behind the scene,” you explain carefully, “All I know is that I needed it first, okay?” You break eye contact for a second, looking away, “I get rid of everything tied to me, my name, my identity, everything I’ve ever been involved in and then I’m finally out.”
“How do I know you’re not lying?” The question comes out firm but his voice is still gentle. He almost feels… bad for you.
You’re looking up at him now and you look tired. The most beautiful yet exhausted person he’s ever seen in his life. Your eyes are glassy and he doesn’t think he’s ever seen you cry before but here you stand in front of him, eyes welling up.
“I swear,” your voice trembles like it’s your first time making a real promise, like you’ve never sworn anything out loud before in your life, “I heard this stupid drive existed and it’s the only reason I came back.”
He can’t pretend that it doesn’t hurt knowing the only reason you came back was for the drive and not for him. Even though he knows it’s selfish because he’s (somewhat) moved on with his life so it’s only fair that you get to.
You tear your eyes from him again and sniffle.
The city lights glow behind you and around you, illuminating your face. The wind toys with loose strands of your hair, ruffling the fur at the collar of your suit. You’re standing here, in front of him, looking so guilty and defeated and so painfully, achingly beautiful that it physically hurts him to look at you.
And Gojo knows he’s supposed to be thinking about the mission, about Geto and Mei and Shoko, the good thing, the right thing.
But instead, all he can think is that you came back. And now he’s realizing you’re just someone who made a life altering decision too young, felt the weight of the world on your shoulders before you could even understand it, and suddenly he sees you. Really sees you.
Your eyes lock onto his, pleading in a way that makes his chest feel tight with too many emotions and too many memories. And before he can think about what’s right or morals or common sense, he steps in. His free hand slides up, fingers curling around the edges of your face, thumb grazing your cheek.
He leans in, until your noses are brushing. “We can go anywhere you want. Y’know that right? We can leave together. I’d do it for you.”
“I could never ask you to do that, Satoru,” your eyes flutter shut when his warm breath fans across your face, “you’re too good.”
He hates that. He’s good, you’re “not.” He doesn’t even know if that’s something he should care about anymore. Like that’s all subjective to him when you’re standing here, looking so small and fragile for the first time ever.
And he can’t even help himself when he closes the last inch between you, mouth crashing onto yours.
For a second it’s clumsy and awkward, both of your bodies tense but then something clicks. Like your bodies remember each other before your minds do. Your lips move together, seamlessly like muscle memory, coming together as naturally as breathing.
Gojo doesn’t even realize when he clumsily fumbles the drive into the pocket at his hip, using his now free hand to slide down your frame, splaying his large hand against the small of your back so he can push you flush against him. His grip is firm like he’s afraid you’ll disappear if he loosens his grip even the slightest.
Your fingers bury into his pale, silvery hair and it tears a deep sound from his chest before he can stop it.
“Satoru…” you breathe against his lips and he thinks he would spend every single last dime he had if it meant hearing the sound again.
He answers by kissing you harder, licking at your lower lip. Your lips part in response and he takes it as permission, slipping his tongue into your mouth. Your tongues dance against each other’s and his chest is burning from the lack of oxygen but he would much rather suffocate than be detached from you for a single second.
He uses his body to usher you against a brick wall, hand on the back of your head to protect you from the impact. The stone is rough against the smooth fabric of your suit, a stark contrast to how warm and steady his body is against yours. You’re both half-hidden, tucked behind a rooftop enclosure and hidden from sight from surrounding buildings by half-finished construction beams.
The hand on your lower back slips down, gripping at your thighs before he lifts you, muscles straining and stretching at the fabric around his biceps. Your legs lock around his waist, the movement rocking you against him. The sound that escapes your lips only sends more blood rushing to below his waist and he knows you can feel him pressing against you, solid through the thin material of his spider suit.
With his grip on the back of your head, he tugs at your hair gently, tilting your neck back enough to give him access. He swears under his breath against your lips before dragging his mouth down your jaw, leaving open wet kisses along the smooth skin. The kisses turn soft, his desperation melting away into begging, pleading for you to stay. Hoping his lips against your skin says more than he’s ever been able to say out loud. That this won’t be the last time he’ll see you.
He selfishly wants to keep you from getting the drive weighing heavy in his pocket. If it meant keeping you around. If you wouldn’t disappear from his life again, forever, without a trace.
There’s that little voice in the back of his head telling him that he shouldn’t be doing this with you. That it’s not fair to you–if you really did need the drive and if you really wanted to disappear from the face of the earth–not fair to his friends and to the city. He’s supposed to be a hero and he’s not doing anyone any good right now. But he also knows he can’t stop. That corny saying if it’s wrong, why does it feel so right?
“Fuck,” he mutters against your skin, goosebumps raising as his breath fans over your collarbones, “tell me to stop and I’ll stop.”
He knows he can’t stop himself, it’s beyond him at this point and maybe it’s selfish to fully burden you with the weight of that decision but he’s also beyond caring at this point. The feeling of you in his arms is just too right. He presses his forehead to yours, noses brushing, breath hot and uneven. His eyes search your face and for the first time ever, it’s like he’s really seeing all of you. Unsure and torn, scared and uncertain.
When he doesn’t get a response, his chest heaves. No answer.
A nervous laugh huffs out of him, unsure of what to do, “Heh… cat got your tongue?”
You exhale his name, again. He’s sure you meant to sound exasperated–maybe even a little annoyed as you usually are with him–but it comes out softer, needier.
He really wishes you’d stop because the sound of his name on your tongue is only pulling him out deeper and deeper like he’s lost at sea. His jaw is clenched and the pressure threatens to bring on his semi-automatic gun-induced headache again but instead he waits for you to tell him to stop, to say anything. He’s too far gone, too lost in you so he waits for the only command he’d ever obey–yours.
He kisses you again, slower this time, more cautious and when he feels your body go lax against his, he deepens the kiss as your body melts into his. Your fingers tighten in his hair like you’re trying to anchor yourself to him. Heat builds as your mouths part and find each other again and again, messy and desperate like he’s trying to pour every unspoken word, every almost confession into it.
His mind is absolutely reeling.
He thinks maybe he should’ve waited for you, should’ve looked harder when you disappeared and not given up. Instead of eventually telling himself maybe it was better this way. That maybe if he had been more patient, more understanding, more attentive, pushed himself harder to fix the corrupted city that you wouldn’t need some top secret, highly dangerous to obtain flash drive as your ticket out.
Maybe he could have gotten you out.
He thinks of every time he told himself that he could change you, that maybe you were bad for him, that he couldn’t be with you and be Spiderman. Even the him from three years ago didn’t believe that. He knew then and he knew now that he would always let you in, let you escape, put his superhero pride to the side if it meant he could see you, be with you even if it was only for a night.
And here he is again, years later, still thinking that–despite it all–you’re the one who was made for him.
It hits him all at once, a rush of regret and want and something so stupidly hopeful that it makes his chest tight. He pours all of it into his lips against yours because he doesn’t have the words to say to you.
His hand slides up your spine, settling between your shoulder blades as he presses your body impossibly closer to his, chest to chest, hip to hip. Your suit is thin enough that he can feel the lines of your body under his palms, the way your ribs expand with every sharp inhale against his lips. You arch into him without thinking and a quiet, broken sound slips out of you, lost against his mouth.
His mouth moves down again, dragging along your skin, along the line of your jaw, down the side of your neck. Each kiss lands hot and lingering, nearly reverent against your searing skin. He feels the small shiver that runs through you when his breath grazes the sensitive skin.
One of your hands slide down from his hair, fingers skating over the seams of his Spider suit then along his sculpted shoulders and the defined ridges of his back, like you’re memorizing him back.
He sucks in a sharp breath, pulling back just enough to see you again and something almost animalistic rips through him. His heart is slamming against his rib, breath hitching. Your lips are swollen from the kissing and biting, chest rising and falling rapidly. His eyes travel down from your collarbones to the exposed skin of your chest, hardly hidden from your low-cut suit. He has to bite his tongue to keep in the guttural groan that nearly escapes at the sight. There’s just no way your suit can be fully secure in a fight. The urge to touch, to pull at the fabric, to see more flares hot in his stomach.
He slowly lowers you until you’re steady on both feet then one hand is creeping down, thumb toying with your clit through the fabric of your suit. Your jaw falls slack, head tipped back against the brick wall from the contact. You let out a whine and the sound shoots straight downwards, cock already straining against the tight material of his suit. His forehead falls against your shoulder, pressing kisses into your collarbone as he continues to rub gentle circles against the cloth.
“M-more,” you stammer, breathlessly. If he knows you well enough–and he does–he’d bet that your eyes are already rolling back and it brings back his air of confidence.
“Beg.”
“Do I look like I beg, Spidey?” you shoot back, trying to snap but your voice betrays you.
He smiles against your skin, shamelessly basking in how easily he can get you worked up, clearly pleased with himself. “That’s okay,” he shrugs casually, “I’m good here too.”
His thumb continues to work at your clit, painfully slow, feather-light touches. He feels your body shuddering against his, head still tipped against the wall. He noses closer, inhaling your achingly familiar scent. Gojo drinks in every single moment he has pressed against your skin, savoring your warmth like he’s trying to etch the feel of you into his memory.
You clamp your thighs around his hand, breaths coming sharp and fast. Your hand flies down, clutching at his wrist as you grind your hips against his thumb–almost frantically–searching for any friction.
“Pl-please–” you whine out, “fuck– Satoru–”
He figures that’s probably the closest he’s going to get knowing you and he doesn’t want to push you too far. He also doesn’t know how much longer he, himself, can hold out. While he normally is a lot more composed, something about you makes him lose all sense of self-control so he’s slipping past the waistband of your very tight (much to his dismay… or pleasure depending how you look at it) suit bottoms.
Your body all but jolts against his fingers working at your sensitive nub, no fabric separating you from the pad of his thumb. You’ve got one leg lifted up, wrapped around his hip to give him more access while the other is hardly stabilizing you, wobbling under your form.
He gathers your slick with one finger, bringing it up to work as lube against your swollen clit and he’s almost sure you’re about to cry from overstimulation already. He tears his lips from your nearly exposed chest, leaving a trail of kisses along the side of your neck before his lips are hovering right above yours.
Your bottom lip tucked between your teeth, eyes dark with desire as you stare into his. Gojo is almost certain he could cum just from the look in your eyes. He slips his middle finger past your slippery folds, curling it inside you until he feels that far too familiar gummy spot that has you instantly arching into him, moaning wantonly into the night air.
“Fuck, baby–” he groans against your lips, “so fucking wet,” emphasizing each word with a thrust of his finger. You roll your hips in tandem with his movements. It’s all so animalistic, so feral, it has him absolutely reeling. “You get this wet for anyone else, hmm?”
He feels you clench around his fingers at the sound of his words and he’s easily sliding a second finger in, scissoring you open. You shake your head dumbly, words unable to leave your mouth as you’re gasping for air, not breaking eye contact. You start bucking your hips against his fingers, hand sliding down from his hair to his toned shoulder to steady yourself.
“This pussy’s so tight–fuckkk,” he catches your lips in a kiss, “Bet you’d feel so good on my dick.”
He nibbles on your bottom lip, tongue swiping over the sensitive area. He can tell you’re close, between the way you hungrily lick behind his teeth, tongue against his, moaning into his mouth while your hips grinding in rhythm with his fingers working you. And as if he can read your mind:
“Sa–oh my god– Satoru, I-I’m close,” your chest bows into his, pressing against his front as your entire body presses against his.
“Gonna let me fuck you, baby?” His voice is barely above a whisper and he’s not sure if you can hear him over the sound of your impending orgasm but then you nod, quick and eager, face flushed. “Want me to fuck you right here, huh?” You’re still nodding eagerly, no thoughts in your brain other than him. He’s so hard and heavy that his free hand flies down to palm himself through his pants, hardly offering him any relief.
The heel of his palm presses against your clit as you fuck yourself on his fingers and then he feels your body tense, nails gripping into his shoulders hard enough to leave crescent-marks along his skin. You throw your head back, exposing your neck to him and he’s quick to nose along your jaw right under your ear, nipping along the supple skin. Your back arches even more, pressing impossibly closer to him, eyes squeezing shut as you come undone, pulsing around his fingers.
“Oh my god, oh my god, oh my god,” you whine aloud, climax leaking all over his large hand, “Satoruu–-oh my–Satoru.” You cry out his name, repeating it until your voice is a hoarse whisper as you ride out your high on his calloused digits.
He slowly pulls out his fingers, lifting from your jaw to see them glistening with your release in the dim city lights. The look in your eye is almost bashful when they lock onto his fingers, almost self-conscious.
“Open.”
Eyes lidded, clearly fucked out and pliant, you part your lips on his command. Your easy willingness sends heat shooting through his body, as if his cock wasn’t already straining against his suit. He’s sure the tight fabric is going to rip when you take his fingers in his mouth without restraint, tongue swirling around his knuckles. He finds a little pride in his chest knowing he can take you from your sharp mouth, all sass and bite to something unguarded and slack with want. His digits release from your mouth with a pop and now he’s far too eager to feel you pulsing around him.
And like you can read his mind–
“Satoru, fuck me please,” you plead, baby hairs along your forehead sticking to your skin despite the cool air of the night. He’s sure he’s not faring any better.
Gojo is quick to start tugging at the waistband of his suit pants, tugging them down just enough to pull his cock out. When he glances back up at you, your eyes are locked on his length, the tip red and flushed. Your eyes travel back up, locking onto his and then he’s got both hands planted low on your hips, spinning you around until you’re facing the brick wall. He presses one hand flush to your back, pressing you against the wall while the other hand hurriedly works at your painfully (for him) tight bottoms. Once he’s got your suitpants low enough, he’s sliding his cock along your slit, collecting your slick and using the remnants of your spit combined with your juices to pump himself.
“Holy shit,” he breathes out, mostly to himself. “Were you always this wet?” He did not mean to say that out loud and he half-hopes you ignore the comment.
You do not.
“Forgot already?” you suck your teeth, pushing your hips back and swaying your hips gently, clearly as impatient as him.
The words die on your tongue when he pushes into you, burying himself to the hilt. A moan escapes from both of you. He’s got one hand braced on the wall next to your head, the other gripping your hip, fingers digging into your flesh. He stays there for a second, forehead resting on your shoulder while you both adjust but then you’re clenching around him and he’s certain that he’s already on the verge of cumming.
He starts to move, pace slow as he unsheathes himself, save for the tip, and grinds into you, savoring the sensation of you tight and pulsing around his length. His hand moves from the wall, coming up to grip your left tit, thumb catching on the nub, hardened through the thin fabric. You let out a moan at the feeling, arching your back further.
“Fuuuckk,” he curses, voice low and ragged against your skin. You shiver in response, goosebumps erupting along the surface of your skin, “How are you this tight–fuckk, baby.”
“Satoru,” you keen, breath hitching as he starts to pick up his pace, “Oh my g– right there, right there.”
His right hand on your hip pulls you back into him until you start moving yourself, meeting his thrusts in the middle as he begins to drive his cock into you. He wishes he could see more of you, more of your skin, more of your face, he’s so painfully insatiable for you but he’s happy to take you however he can.
He presses around your pebbled nub with his forefinger and thumb, rolling it between his fingers, pinching and pulling and you respond with a moan, throwing your head back. He drags you backward until your back is pressed to his front. You’re limp against him, knees weak and fully reliant on him to keep you upright.
Gojo’s lips travel from nibbling at your neck, breath warm at your ear and you turn your head, colliding into his mouth. He shifts lower behind you, adjusting his stance to fuck up into you. The new position has your hand flying up to grip the back of his head, fingers buried in his white strands, tousled from your tugging. He grunts against your lips at the feeling, licking behind your teeth.
You let out a whine, pushing back to meet his muscular thighs, skin flushed from his hips snapping into yours. Your tongue slides against his, messy and clumsy. He can only hope that the sounds of your lips smacking and hips meeting aren’t carrying, hidden to the world. The feeling of you pulsating around him makes him weak in the knees and he has to push through the sensation, rutting into you at a new speed, just hoping and praying this moment you’re having with him is enough to make a difference.
The sound of his hips slapping into your ass and the squelch of your cunt is so pornographic, he’s hardly holding on and he can feel you’re right there with him. You’re moaning and gasping openly into the air, shuddering against his body as your walls flutter around his cock.
“Oh shiiittt, this pussy is mine right?” he pants, breath ghosting over your kiss-bitten lips, not convinced he wants to know the answer but the question slips out anyway. “You like that, baby?”
“Mmmmff–mhm mhm,” you mindlessly nod, bottom lip tucked between your teeth. His fingers move down to your clit, rubbing star patterns as he’s chasing his own climax. You suck in a sharp breath at the feeling, leaning back onto his broad chest for support. The muscles around his thighs tighten as he keeps up his unrelenting tempo, erratic and hungry to feel more of you.
“Fuuckk, feels like you were made for me, baby,” he groans, words stumbling out.
“Sa–oh fuck–” you clamp around him, walls spasming around him as you’re reaching your climax, “Satoru, I’m about to cum.”
The words come out broken and he’s seeing stars, pushing himself through it until you gush around him, driving him to his own climax, hips stuttering. With one last thrust, he’s spilling himself into you, warm release spurting into your cunt, fucking you through your orgasm as you milk him for everything he has.
You both go still for a moment, limp as he rests his forehead on the back of your shoulder, chest heaving. You lean forward into the wall, his hand wrapped around your ribcage holding you up. He feels your back rising and falling with each deep breath you take, aching to catch your breath. His other hand slides up from where it was gripping at your hips, sure to leave bruises there tomorrow and wraps an arm around your waist, holding you close to him.
He slowly pulls himself out of you, feeling you twitch at the loss of the fullness of him. Once he’s sure you’re able to stand on your own, he takes a half step back, tugging up his bottoms from where they haphazardly rested around his thighs. Your eyes are locked onto the ground as you work up your suit bottoms, fingers trembling.
The air between you is suddenly thin.
He didn’t exactly plan for after, didn’t really think of much beyond the heat of your mouth and the arch of your back. You won’t look at him. Your lashes stay fixed downward, eyes darting around, focused on anything but him.
He swallows.
Fuck, it’s awkward.
He can feel the shift in the air, in you. Like you’re withdrawing from him. He’s not sure if he can handle you disappearing from his life again, without a trace. He rubs his palm over the back of is neck, brain scrambling for something to say to ease the tension.
“Hey,” he says quietly.
You freeze but you still can’t quite look at him. He steps closer, cautious like you’re a wounded animal and then he reaches out slowly, fingers brushing under your chin. You let him guide your face up, eyes lifting reluctantly until you’re looking straight at him. And the look in your eyes nearly knocks the wind right out of his chest.
You look so lost. And guilty.
And small.
“Let me make things right,” he murmurs, thumb rubbing into your chin lightly.
Your lips part, breath catching, “Satoru…”
He searches your face, memorizing each part of it in case he’ll never see it again. You look up at him, eyes rounded and it’s like he’s seeing every version of you–who you were, who you are, who you could’ve been if the world hadn’t fucked you over before you even had a chance, who you could be.
“I can’t let you go like this,” he tells you, voice soft and broken, “Let me help you, let me do something, anything. I’ll do anything you ask.”
He wonders if he got on his hands and knees if that would make it better. If that would make you stay. If that would change your mind.
“Let me go,” you whisper. Your hand lifts, fingers curling around his wrist where he holds your chin. You hand feels cool against his warmth. “I can’t stay here… and you can’t leave. They need you.”
He shakes his head, jaw tight. “What about you?”
Do you need him?
The question goes unspoken.
“It’s not about me,” you say, voice thinning.
“It is,” Gojo insists, “Everything’s always gonna be about you.” His voice comes out broken, gravelly as his throat feels tight, like he’s swallowing stones.
His heart beats a painful, reckless rhythm like it’s trying to fight its way out of his chest and to you, who his heart belongs to. If he didn’t know it before, he knows it now.
“I love you.”
Your breath stutters, catching in your throat and your eyes widen at his (poorly-timed) confession. Your grip on his wrist tightens, just for a second, like you’re flinching as a reaction. Like he spat daggers at you instead of sweet saccharine words.
Fuck.
Maybe he shouldn’t have said that.
He searches your face, eyes darting between yours looking for any sign that you’ll say it back. He watches the fear and longing crash across your face like you’re at a crossroads.
But he knows it. Even though he tells himself not to assume, not to reach for something he’s not sure if he’s earned. And even though he knows there’s no logical explanation for it, there is no universe where this could be one-sided. There’s no way you could look at him like that, like he hung the moon and the stars, speak his name like it belongs to solely you, care the way you do in that strange way that wouldn’t make sense to anyone else–no one else would hear it, see it, understand it. But Gojo does.
He knows you. And because he knows you, he knows what you’ll say and it’s too late for him to take it back so he commits.
“Can you honestly say you don’t love me too?” His hand trails up to cup your jaw, thumb stroking your cheek, so unbearably tender. He thinks he can see the tears begin to form along your lower lash line but for your sake, writes it off as a glare from the city lights. “If you can… then I’ll let you go.”
Your breath is uneven, lashes fluttering as your eyes close, resigned, like the weight of the truth is too heavy on your shoulders to look at him while carrying it. Your fingers tighten painfully around his wrist, nails digging into his skin.
“I…” your voice splinters before you swallow, throat working hard, “I don’t love you.”
The words spill from your kiss-bitten lips like they physically hurt you to say, hurt you far worse than they hurt him.
“I’m sorry,” you whisper, voice barely audible.
He watches as the tears well even more along your waterline, threatening to spill as you refuse to look at him. Every part of him, every muscle and fiber in his being fights to scream liar.
You’re lying. You’re lying and he knows it. You know it. Every person in the world could look at the two of you right now, standing here with your smaller hand wrapped around his and would know that you’re lying. You’ve been a damn good liar your entire life but you’re not that good of a liar.
He wants to bargain with you. He wants to tell you that he could love you enough for the both of you. That you could spend the rest of your lives together not loving him back in the slightest bit and he would be happy. He would pour all of his love into you and the sheer amount of that alone would be enough, could spill and overflow from your cup.
But you said it.
There’s nothing else he can do.
He claws into his pocket, fishing out the flashdrive and slots it into your hand at his wrist. He clasps both of his hands around your trembling ones, manually wrapping your fingers around it and it feels like a heavy brick, weighing heavily in between both of your hands.
He holds you there, taking in a deep breath and savoring every second he has left of feeling your touch against his. So warm, so gentle. He’s almost certain that you could claw at him, punch him, scratch him for the rest of his life and your touch would still never be anything other than warm and gentle to him.
Then, he drops your hands and takes a step back once, slowly, like something inside him has gone numb and he just nods, something weak and dejected.
“Goodbye, y/n.”
a/n - ok srry for the angst, i rlly didnt think it was gonna go in this direction but it felt right )': (and i just love a man who yearns and pines srry) & srry if it was bad, im rlly trying to get into writing angst so we're working on it but in other news, im rlly starting to think srsly ab a long fic in the near future. hope ur all doing well & tysm for reading, pls lemme know what u think ! <3
dating tokyo's beloved webhead came with a life full of fun & chaos. danger licked at your heels, as the hero's only weakness. but you never cared, you always knew he'd catch you.
broadcast ᝰ.ᐟ✧ spider-man au, fear of death, reader death, heavy angst 𓂃 wc ⌇ 1.0k
sweetheart host ᝰ.ᐟ✧ i've always wanted to write spidey satoru but at what cost. art cred ⌇ email2140 (twt)
Despite a new villain every week, Tokyo City was the height of beauty. With its bustling life, its great neon lights and grand skyscrapers kissing the sky. Those skyscrapers?
Especially beautiful when you're flung hundreds of feet from the Tokyo Skytree.
Screams died in your throat. Heart pounding in your ears. Your tears flew with the rushing air. Rushing. Faster. Faster. Colours merged, sounds— fear flooded your entire being and clutched your soul.
If the ground didn't kill you first your shrivelling lungs might. Plummeting through the sky, still no air. Rushing.
Falling.
Faster. Faster.
Faster—
The ground approached. Your heart fell to it first. At last a scream tore from your burning lungs and tears surged through the endless air. Your eyes flew shut. Squeezed. You braced for impact.
Almost.
Almost—
"Sweet things like you can't be falling for me like this."
Warmth replaced the cold shatter of the ground. Encased around your shaking form. The wind stopped. The rushing. The surge. For a terrifying moment— you thought you died. Hallucinating. Hovered over your crumbled body splattered across pavement.
But as you slowly willed your eyes open, instead of blood and gore, you're met with white. That infuriating web pattern with blue accents and big, animated eyes. An expressionless mask, and yet you saw his wide grin clear as day.
Spider-Man. Your Spider-Man, also known as Gojo Satoru: your boyfriend.
Hanging from a web with one strong arm while the other looped tight round your waist. You're flushed to him. Where's the ground?
Despite yourself, you glanced down— the endless expanse continued for hundreds more feet.
"SATO-!" Your scream died in your hand as you slapped it over your mouth. Tears gushing from your eyes as you gaped at the bastard just, dangling there!
"Hey hey hey now sshhh, this is not where you should be screaming my name."
"Are you crazy!?"
"—in love with you? Always sweets."
"PUT ME DOWN!"
Satoru flinched but cocked his head with a bit of a chuckle. His eyes swept below then to the singular web thread he gripped. He squinted at an approaching buzz, then crooned. "Weelll, what my sweetheart wants they get."
He let go.
He let—
You screamed bloody murder as you both hurled through the air. Your heart might've stopped again. Eyes wide, then squeezed, all while his infuriating laughter filled the air. Arms looped tight around your trembled form.
The rest was a blur. Your lungs gave out the scream and you limped into a shaking mess of clinging limbs and face buried into his shoulder.
You didn't dare look. No. What if you really did fall? What if none of this was true? What if Satoru wasn't there to catch you this time?
"I've got you baby," the low hum in your ear eased your muscles from memory. At last your eyes pried open.
Thwack!
"Hey!" He rubbed his chest with another pout you could see through the mask before his hand returned to cradling your head. "Is that how you thank me?"
"I thought—" you croaked, squirming your hands around and gripping onto his back. "Thought I. . . Th-Thought I was gonna—"
"Sshhh," tender fingers stroked down your spine and you hiccuped into his shoulder with a sob. "Told ya you could count on me huh? Not gonna let anything happen to my sweetheart."
"Jerk." You huffed through tears.
He laughed, glanced up then set you back down. Large hands kissed either side of your face as he cradled you, leaned over your teary form with a smooch to your cheek.
Another huff, you shoved the lower half of his mask up. "Kiss me properly."
At last you saw that signature, frustratingly handsome grin.
"You realise I gotta go give the buzzard hell for throwing my sweetie off the Skytree, yeah?"
"And that same sweetie will make sure you regret saving me in the first place if I don't get my kiss."
He scoffed, grinned wider and pulled you in for a smooch. Lips soft and loving, paired with your feral, adrenaline-induced passion from a near-death experience.
"I'll always catch you, sweetheart." He promised, two more kisses snatched from your eager mouth.
It's your turn to grin. Slapping a hand over his chest you shoved him back a bit. "Uhuh, go do your job spider-boy." The looming Vulture up ahead gave you no anxiety. Not with your winking boyfriend swinging swift into action.
Because he'd always catch you.
Always save you.
There wasn't a doubt in the world. A thought that you'd ever meet a cruel fate. He'd always catch you.
Until he didn't.
Until your fate was met at the hands of his closest friend turned maniac.
Until you fell through the air like an angel. Broken wings. Shattered halo. Eyes full of mercy he didn't deserve.
Because even in your last moments. You still trusted that he'd catch you.
But he couldn't.
Not this time.
It wasn't the fall that killed you. But his web. Shot from panic as you approached the gateway he wouldn't be able to follow. No screams came from you— but they did from him.
Raw, and shattered, and broken,
As your neck snapped from the backlash,
and his heart ripped from the inside out.
When Satoru eventually lowered to your fated end. His arms encased you the same way they did that day. That day he did everything right. But now here you lay, a product of all of his mistakes.
"Sweetheart," he croaked.
His hand held yours. Gently, desperately. Won't you hit him again? Won't you scream at him? Call him an idiot and demand a kiss?
"No, no no no— no please," he cradled you closer. To that damned suit. The same one that killed you. White turned scarlet. The world went grey.
Still, he trembled a kiss to your lips. Just as you would have asked of him.
PS: What happens when your mortal enemy shows up at your doorstep battered and bruised?
Pairing: spiderman!gojo x black!reader
WC: 1.4k
A/N: Something that was just in my head and I wanted to get it out. Not sure if I like it but I had writer's block and I needed to post something.
Tonight had been a success.
You were just about to pull the skin tight black suit from your tired frame, the leather feeling like a second skin as you gently remove it from your body. As the warm materiel comes off your skin, the cool night air hitting you causing goosebumps to erupt. It's been a long night but your latest heist went off without a hitch. The robbery was perfect, a clean getaway with your new favorite possession. A clear cut diamond necklace. You slipped in and out of the shadows like you always do, leaving only chaos in your wake.
The adrenaline still buzzes through your veins, but now, there’s nothing left to do but let the rush wear off. A nice glass of wine, a warm bubble bath and your faux fur blanket is calling your name. Curling up in your bed and forgetting about the outside world was all you wanted to do for the rest of the night. After your shower, you slip into a black lace two piece set and make your way towards your bedroom. Wine glass in hand, hair tied back and skin moisturized, you walk back towards your bedroom. But just as you begin to hang the suit up, the soft sound of knocking interrupts my stride. Three taps against your front door.
You freeze.
Who the hell knows where I am? You think to yourself. You are for sure that you slipped out without a trace from the heist. Your heart beats a little faster, a slow pulsing warning trickling down your spine.
There was only one person that could’ve potentially knew you location but… “That's not possible..” He wasn’t even around. Three. Little Knocks and a deep vibrato calls through from the other side of the door as you press your ear to it. “Kitty.” it speaks breathlessly. You gasp.
Gojo Satoru.
Spider-man.
You’ve faced him more times than you would ever care to admit, crossing paths in alleys and on rooftops. His mask hiding that arrogant smirk while you throw all your skill and wit at him. And he always beats you. Always. It’s absolutely infuriating—because you know what’s beneath that mask, you know the real Gojo. The real Satoru. He’s never just the hero, the do-gooder Spider-Man.
He’s the man who’s spent more time in your thoughts than you care to admit. But tonight? Something’s off. You’re not sure what it is, but the knock—three solid raps on the door—feels too urgent. Too desperate.
You try to ignore it. Pretend like you didn't hear it. But your instincts won't let you. His heavy presence sitting on the other side, waiting patiently. The air was heavy with uncertainty and pain. Do not open this fucking door. You reprimand yourself. You don’t owe him anything. He’s your enemy. Your rival. You don’t have to deal with him.
But again, the knock comes. Three more taps, more frantic this time. Something inside of you shifts. Maybe it’s the way it feels like he’s not just knocking for the hell of it—maybe it’s the way it sounds like he’s reaching out for something, or someone, in a way that makes your gut twist.
You move before you can think it through, your hand already turning the doorknob before you even realize what you’re doing. You swing the door open, and there he is. Your Spider-Man. But not the confident, invincible hero you’re used to seeing.
His normally spiky white hair is matted down with blood, a trail of crimson streaking down his face, mixing with the dirt and grime from the streets. His iconic suit—the one that’s almost always perfect—is torn, shredded in places, as if he’s been through hell. His mask is gone, revealing a face twisted in pain, lips parted with shallow breaths.
He stumbles forward as the door swings open, barely managing to keep himself upright, and you catch a glimpse of the raw vulnerability in his eyes before he speaks.
"I didn’t know where else to go."
You should be angry. You should slam the door in his face, tell him to go crawl back to whatever hero group he’s part of and leave you out of it. You should remind yourself that you’ve spent years as Black Cat, battling against him, using your every ounce of skill to outsmart him, outmaneuver him, to get ahead.
But instead, you’re frozen.
You stare at him for a moment, processing the sight of Spider-Man broken, desperate for help, standing on your doorstep. The man who’s always made you feel inferior, who’s always been one step ahead, now crumbling in front of you as though you’re his last hope.
Your thoughts clash. You can’t help him. You shouldn’t help him. He’s your enemy. You know his secret identity, and he knows yours. Every time you’ve crossed paths, it’s been a battle of wits, a dangerous dance, one that always ends in defeat for you. You’re Black Cat. He’s Spider-Man. The line is drawn in blood.
But there’s something in his eyes that makes the usual anger and frustration dissolve into something... softer. Maybe it’s the way his shoulders are slumped, or the weakness in his voice. The vulnerability that you’d never thought he had. He takes a hesitant step forward, and you can’t help but instinctively step aside, making way for him to enter. You hate yourself for it. You shouldn’t do this.
He stumbles past you, falling to one knee as soon as he’s inside, his breath ragged and shallow. You watch him, heart racing for reasons you can’t understand.
“Shit, Gojo,” you mutter, your voice catching in your throat as you kneel beside him, almost against your will. “What happened to you?”
“I—” He hisses through gritted teeth, clearly struggling to stay conscious. “I didn’t... I didn’t think I’d make it. Thought it was the end this time. They got to me... some of the others—" He winces, his hand instinctively clutching at his side where a deep gash bleeds through his suit.
You feel a sharp pang in your chest, but you push it down.
“Stop talking, Gojo.” You grab his arm, helping him upright, guiding him toward the couch. “You’re bleeding all over my floor.”
He laughs weakly, eyes glazed with pain. “You’re not exactly a hero, pretty kitty. You’re not supposed to care.”
The words cut deeper than you expect, because they’re right. You shouldn’t care. You shouldn’t be helping him. You should be pushing him out the door and leaving him to fend for himself. And yet, here you are. Tending to him like he’s not the person who’s ruined your plans for years.
You pull his torn suit away from his wound, your hands brushing his skin with surprising tenderness as you assess the injury. “Who did this to you?” you ask, your voice low, cold. “Tell me, so I can make them pay.”
He lets out a ragged breath, eyes flickering with confusion. “Awe kitty. Sounds like you’re really starting to like me.”
You don’t look up, focusing on the wound as you start applying pressure to stop the bleeding. “I don’t. I’m going to kill them for making sure you come here and bleed out on my couch.”
His chuckle is weak, but there’s something behind it, a thread of something you can’t name. It feels too intimate. Too... real.
For a long moment, the two of you sit in silence, the only sounds the faint rustling of fabric, the steady drip of blood onto your carpet, and the quiet, rhythmic breaths coming from his chest. You work in silence, knowing that every second you spend here is a second you’re walking a thin line—between enemy and ally, between Black Cat and Spider-Man. The distance between you, the walls you’ve built over the years, feels like it’s dissolving as you stare at him, seeing the man behind the mask in a way you never have before. It’s complicated. Dangerous. And yet, you can’t seem to make yourself walk away.
You should hate him. But... you don’t.
Instead, you just finish what you’re doing, your fingers trembling ever so slightly as you secure the bandages around his torso, your breath catching when your skin touches his. “Thanks,” he says, his voice strained but grateful. You don’t respond right away. You just... breathe. “You’re welcome,” you finally murmur, and the weight of that phrase settles between you, leaving the question hanging in the air: What happens now?
But for now, it’s enough to simply exist in this strange space between hero and villain.