First of all my I say that I feel SO honored that people are taking my silly headcanons and adding them to their own/ using them for inspiration 🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹 (thank you 🕯️ anon you’re the GOAT)
And second, omg, Kreexp, ur headcanons are so cool 😭😭😭 I especially like the whole “connected universes” one also the one about Clown’s mask polluting the air around him :D (pretty sure you might’ve mentioned it before?)(I’m STEALING ALL OF THEM 😈)
With that being said… I shall now get into the headcanon I’ve been teasing for the last two asks I think…
For both Spoke and Ash, being in power PHYSICALLY hurts them. Well, it’s actually more about how they react to being in power and the way that they obtained it.
I’m going to start with Ash.
He, in my headcanons, is a glitch, which is a very unstable being (cough cough just like voidlings cough cough) which, if certain factors act upon it, will just glitch out of the world. Those “certain factors” being mostly strong emotions.
For Ash, being in power felt exhilarating (the mafia was pretty much the first time he was really in control of his life and not just going along with people’s plans because he had to). Whenever something would go really badly in his plans, he’d react with explosive anger on the inside. Both of these factors, meant that his glitching would act up more than usual, spread to other parts of his body such as his arms and legs and taking over more of his face. This, at some point, started to genuinely hurt him as the server by itself started rejecting him and trying to purge his glitches (which didn’t work at all, cause they’re literally a part of him and the server can’t forcibly remove him without admin permission). Anyways so this also affected him mentally, made him more stressed (as being in pain constantly would do to one) and more prone to having mood swings, which would only WORSEN his condition.
Voidlings are practically the opposite of glitches in almost every way. While glitches need a generally stress-free and VERY emotionally regulated environment, Voidlings require strong emotions to keep them anchored to the server. If they “stop feeling”/enter a dissociative state/fall victim to melancholy and apathy (which is also in their nature) for too long, the void will pull them down and absorb them fully.
Now Spike clearly isn’t doing all that great as the leader of Null. Power is something he’s sought out his entire life, but, unlike Ash, he doesn’t feel any happier because he has it (also because he’s already held power before this point). Spoke, post the “death” of Mapicc has entered a state in which he doesn’t even want to think about the concept of processing his emotions. As such, he is very cut off from them in this moment, prone to apathy and dissociative states (again, mostly because of Mapicc’s “death” and him absolutely NOT being over it). As the void pulls back on him because his of this, he always feels an almost crushing weight atop his body, which yes, does hurt.
By now in the canon, I believe (as I mentioned before) that Ashswag has mostly mellowed out and mostly healed from the trauma he’s suffered in the past (backstory stuff I’m not gonna get into, but being practically forced to kill your own older brother tends to mess up people (so does having to kill completely innocent people (Rose) (I’m sorry (no I’m not)))), which really makes him contrast with Spoke when they inevitably meet once again (Ash did say he’d be there when Spoke made his own mafia after all…).
Spoke is suffering through the worst part of his life and Ash has to be faced with the fact that that he (at least somewhat) is the cause of this current state of being, as his words most definitely impacted Spoke a lot.
I think Spoke would be quite shocked by what Ashswag has turned into, maybe even slightly disappointed. Maybe he believed that Ashswag was the only other person evil enough to forgive him for his crimes (a concept I saw in a fanfic that I unfortunately forgot the name of). Maybe he convinced himself that Ashswag was the only person he had left, and now, even HE is gone.
When Spoke was infiltrating the mafia, Ash calling him a “friend” of his and singling him out from his friends was a manipulation tactic… somewhat. At this point, Ash was very lonely, only a few months after one of his friends turned into the worst version of himself and the ADMIN had to step in (more backstory stuff I made up) to and only a few more months after the murder of Ket (his older brother). I like to think that this was set before Squiddo really got incorporated into the mafia and could serve as an actual friend for Ash. At that point, all his relationships were purely transactional. That does not mean that anything that he said towards Spoke or any of his actions were justified, I just like to think that there was some shred of actual emotion when he told Spoke, Mapicc and Leowook they were his only real friends. Maybe there’s a universe in which Ash and Spoke are friends… (this is most likely a very ooc characterization of him but I simply do not care)
Oh wait I have another headcanon about these two :D
Ash, during the mafia, mentioned that “this thing (the rise and fall of villains on unstable) works in cycles”. I headcanon that that’s a narrative he convinced himself of (well, actually, it was pushed onto him, but that involves a lot of backstory stuff i completely made up for him) the inevitability of his downfall into becoming a villain. Now this is pretty similar to how Spoke was made to believe “it was always going to end like this”, and I headcanon, that he will now use to justify him becoming a villain. Because it was all inevitable. He’s just another piece of the cycle. They both are.
It's always such a good feeling when people take inspiration off of your headcanons or stuff like that
Why thank you, I was honestly planning on writing a fanfic about that but.. I actually have no clue what to write lol. Yes, I think I mentioned the Clown mask one before but I really liked it so I said it again c: Oh no👀👀👀 stealing my headcanons 👀👀👀 whatever will I do
Also that's the first time anyone has referred to me by name on this blog, I count that as an achievement
Physically 🤔 hurts them that's really intriguing even before I've read the explanation why
Glitches and voidlings are what? Say that again?
Holy shit that does not sound good
Well yeah power and control always feels good, I mean usually.
I do imagine Ash as a massive fucking crashout even if physically he remains calm, so that checks out
Well, that can't be good.🤔 Y'know that's really funny considering how in my ash design, his entire head is glitchy, not just the usual one glitched eye
Oh god, it's always something with these bug/glitch characters getting purged by the server💔 ou shii
Ash bro😭😭😭 you gotta calm tf down!!!
Wow, so very interesting... "Stress free and emotionally regulated" isn't how I'd describe the unstable smp but okay
That's super cool, I've never made any emotion related headcanons before and this might be my incentive to write some
Ou shii. That's bad (you think?), so they have to actively avoid the nature of their being , got it (i was thinking of Minute but I realise he's not really apathetic because he's still like protecting the end for a good cause)
Well it doesn't really take a genius to see that......
Oh man, that's kinda bad I think. Spoke has always held power.
No spoke, that's bad... This is bad, can Mapicc return already, we need the happy back dude.
Yes that's amazing so he's like happy n shi I think
I think killing innocent people should also include the mafia members.
When you're genuinely at your lowest and the guy who practically did this to you is all calm and jolly 💔💔
I forgot about that, I'm sorry, yeah manipulation tactic n shi
Lonely guy bro, I wonder when he met uhhh squiddo
What in the world could've possibly happened yo💔💔 do I want to know
Oh so that answers my question, I see I see
I really hate transactional relationships.... Noouuu you guys can be friends... Guys...
I like to think Ash really thought they could sort of be friends in a way, even if neither really state it, but he hated having friends, connections, vulnerabilities, an Achilles heel.
("ooc" can suck my ass I'm a writer)
Oh really. Well yes I do actually think most if not all villains of unstable had this narrative forced on them one way or another and whenever anything went wrong, they remembered it and just kept falling further and further
I see, so so many people followed this false narrative and used it until it became true
