I think this was for the headcanons post?? Well here you go bud! (I had nothing to do at work today so this turned out long)
Andrew may look like he’s confident, strong, and sure of himself. And sometimes that’s true, but often times it’s just an act to get people to leave him alone. He constantly questions everything he does, he doesn’t want to give people the impression he’s someone he’s not.
He adheres the crumudgeony demeanor he has set for himself, dresses classically, styles his hair classically, and uses his god-given features of a stoic face to keep people from getting too close.
Because it’s comfortable.
Because he doesn’t want people to think he’s someone he’s not… someone he fears he actually is:
Someone who laughs at dumb dad jokes. Who makes silly faces to himself in the bathroom mirror. Who smiles when he has a good meal. Who’s good with kids. Who would kill for any animal. Who loves the few friends he has more than he would ever ever admit.
Someone in desperate need of a goddamn hug but doesn’t want to show weakness.
So when he first has to work with Steven doing Tasty videos he’s civil, but off put by how open and often times bright and smiley he is.
When he gets assigned to work with Steven on his new show, he thought, Well this is just for a little while, I’ll play along for now.
But he underestimated how touchy Steven is and how much Steven plays up his happy personality for the camera. He just seems so damn comfortable being himself.
So whenever Steven goes in for a hug or tries to relate to him he shrugs him away, cause Steven doesn’t know him like that. And he’s definitely not going to hug him on camera for millions of people to watch whenever they want. And when Steven talks about loving one of their male servers, Andrew teases him, speaking of his crushes on the women servers instead.
Because he’s not Steven. He’s not a bright or sunshiney. He’s not open. And he’s definitely not ambiguously queer. (He’s not.)
But working on Worth it seems to have no end in sight. And he learns that Steven isn’t all happy dances and truffles. After long shoots he shuts down, barely talking to him or Adam. He reads or listens to music to unwind. He is anxious before meeting the new people they have to meet constantly, visibly steeling himself in the car before they enter a restaurant. And he constantly compares himself to Andrew or Adam.
Steven has his own demons too.
After that realization, Andrew slowly accepts Steven’s efforts to get to know him. Accepting that, yes, maybe Steven does get him. Accepting the easy touches that Steven naturally gives. And sometimes, in private, accepting the all-embracing hugs Steven offers, leaning into him and sighing.
(the WI Cities link was the inspiration for that headcanon, at the beginning there in the intro))