guess who finally had time to read, this guy
oh my god the hotel scene,, it encapsulates their dynamic so well I feel like because tom can pretend and play flirty and be kind to his partners, he does it all the time, and colt is the one person he doesn’t do that with but he can’t be real or vulnerable either so he is just even more of an asshole to him than he is other people. and his crisis over them being into sadomasochism but then colt gets truly hurt?? and hooking up with another stuntman out of the hope he just has a type but even during that he doesn’t act like he did with colt? he’s what happens when a walking contradiction of insecurity with intimacy issues falls in love. I’m still going to hit him tho
also ryland not knowing who tom is (or at least pretending not to) is absolutely hilarious that in the midst of the angst I started giggling, he lives under a teaching rock and I love that for him. but it does mean colt can’t learn that tom actually visited… hmm.
thank you for writing I loved it!! many thoughts and musings I love colt seavers a normal amount (I said, y’know, like a liar)
oh my fucking god i LOVE you. my heart is literally fluttering every time i read your messages :( ❤️ thank you for reading the new chapter UGH it means the absolute world to me!!!
also SO MANY good points!!! i was really hoping the hotel scene especially would get their dynamic across and how tom was not able to be carefree and flirty with colt (because he has feelings he tries to hide from himself and colt) so he ends up being a total asshole, pushing colt away. but there are still moments of tenderness that do slip through (like warming him up, and washing his face, letting him sleep in his bed etc) even though tom never really stops to think about them himself??
WAHH i'm just genuinely so so happy the chapter landed well :)) i was really stressing over tom's pov when i was writing it, hoping i'd managed to get my thoughts across but dude, i wasn't sure at all!
hehe ryland not knowing tom is very on brand, but he's also ME because i cannot understand how aaron taylor-johnson can actually shapeshift so well, whenever i see him in a movie i'm like?? how is this the same actor as in xx?? so i wouldn't be surprised if ryland can't recognize him in person if he's only seen tom's movies (and hasn't been really paying attention to them anyway hehe)