Sadly in a situation where I cannot celebrate pride. It's like this for me every summer. Where a specific job opportunity allows me to get a way for the summer and experience nature, with certain circumstances/criteria.
And i'm very grateful for these experiences. Being able to teach about Entomology or native Flora. It's a nice time to get away from my family. To get away from the transphobia and ableism. But there's also a little bit of it in these types of environments too.
So my heart goes out to others who have to go stealth for their own safety, to be able to get work and pay rent, to be able to experience new things. It's a sad reality.
I wish I could tell people who I am. Sadly the last time I did it cost me my job. And it sucks cause this is something I'm incredibly passionate about. With an organization that isn't opposed but that believes there's a time and a place. I don't see it changing any time soon. But while I still have the connections I do, and have a place here I'll continue on.
Maybe one day I'll find a place that's better for me. A place where I can explore my creativity, passion, and build a career. Until then I just have to blend in and shut up. Which sucks.
Happy pride. Even for those who celebrate in silence.