#steffy rambles

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why do I even try or get my hopes us? dating sucks and in this modern society the only thing people know how to do is ghost each other.

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Me: I always had a crush on Spiderman since I was like six-years-old.

My friend: Still?

Me: Yeah. I mean Peter Parker...

My friend: But he's a kid?

Me, in my head: Read the comics, bitch! He's not always a freaking kid. Or even play the game!

Me: ...

My friend: You know because I'm a high school teacher and in the MCU....

Me: Stop.

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I don't know what's worse: being rejected directly or through someone else. Either way, the truth hangs over you like a storm cloud, begging, churning, an entire wave of awareness of what you are:

Not good enough.

I mean, being rejected once: that's fine, perfect even, you'll meet someone else. Being rejected constantly, though? Again and again and again until dating apps and bars and mutual friends and blind dates are the scariest thing ever because, fuck, no, not again. Please not again.

Yeah.

Rejection fucking hurts.

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that moment when your ex who you haven't seen in two years calls you just to talk... and it's one of the shortest and best conversations you've had in months.

huh?

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Every time I try to get engaged with a fandom and some toxic fan sucks the enjoyment right out of it, I wish the internet didn't exist.

If you can't take criticism about why people don't like a certain part of the fandom and you need to spread your hate on their posts, please stop. Even if they enjoy that part and you want to criticise it, put it on your own post. Don't start an argument for arguments sake and start insulting them.

Also, calling people idiots and questioning their critical reading skills because you're the only one who can be right for your theories? Screw you. Let people theorise and believe what they want. Don't spread your hate on their posts, but also don't expect silence if you are deliberately poking their buttons. Tag correctly.

We can't all like all parts of a fandom and we can't agree on everything, but that's no excuse to bully someone or to call people stupid for engaging with you and having a different opinion if you're the one who tried to either sell yourself as the only one who is correct or went out searching for a fight.

There is a reason for tags and controversial takes will be met with controversy. There is a reason tumblr's tagging system exists. Use it.

If you don't like it, scroll past it.

It's as easy as that.

[underwatergalaxies]

That moment when you're helping your brother by house-sitting his friend's house for one evening and... all the dishes are dirty so you start washing everything. Please. Please. If there is food left on your spoon, it's not clean and should not go in your drawer.

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Watching your older posts in the Tumblr-sphere and the people who are still reacting and sharing it is really a pretty magical feeling.

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Looking at YouTube videos of the games I grew up on and eeesh... the graphics? Doesn't change how fun they were. And their soundtracks are still the best.