#steffy rambles

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The Enola Holmes movies are really feeding my romance and Sherlock obsession and that's really the best thing about them.

also, side note, because this man is perfect: HENRY CAVILL!

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Every single time I think I'm over him and there are other actors out there to simp over, I watch a drama with Lee Dong Wook in and think that, yeah, this man is probably the only one who is going to steal my heart like this with just his screen presence.

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Okay, so I started reading the Moriarty The Patriot manga and... I've never really shipped Sherlock Holmes with any character before (sorry Watson, Moriarty and Irene in so many pieces of media), but this rendition of Sherlock and William James Moriarty? Yeah. They're in love and even if we never see them confess in so many words, they are perfect for each other.

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I started watching the Persuasion movie on Netflix (which is based on my favourite Jane Austen novel because, in my teen years, Anne reminded me so much of myself) and promptly put the movie off within five minutes.

No Netflix. This is not what we needed. Anne might not be the most interesting of characters and Austen's prose might be outdated, but she still resonated with me and with other people too. There is a reason some people liked Anne and felt for her and taking that character and turning her into this snarky, modernised woman who speaks up when Anne was too timid to say a word, or too busy trying to please everyone around her, too steepled in regret over her own actions, makes me want to throw you with something.

There are girls like Anne in this world and erasing them to make this sassy woman who fits the likes of Lizzy from Pride and Prejudice or even Emma from Emma, is not what I wanted from a Persuasion adaption.

Also the modernised slang? The words used? The erasure of some of Jane Austen's most beautiful lines for some jumble that stands out within our time and takes away from the simple feeling that Jane so beautifully articulated?

I'm sorry. But this is a big no from me.

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why do I even try or get my hopes us? dating sucks and in this modern society the only thing people know how to do is ghost each other.

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Me: I always had a crush on Spiderman since I was like six-years-old.

My friend: Still?

Me: Yeah. I mean Peter Parker...

My friend: But he's a kid?

Me, in my head: Read the comics, bitch! He's not always a freaking kid. Or even play the game!

Me: ...

My friend: You know because I'm a high school teacher and in the MCU....

Me: Stop.

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I don't know what's worse: being rejected directly or through someone else. Either way, the truth hangs over you like a storm cloud, begging, churning, an entire wave of awareness of what you are:

Not good enough.

I mean, being rejected once: that's fine, perfect even, you'll meet someone else. Being rejected constantly, though? Again and again and again until dating apps and bars and mutual friends and blind dates are the scariest thing ever because, fuck, no, not again. Please not again.

Yeah.

Rejection fucking hurts.

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that moment when your ex who you haven't seen in two years calls you just to talk... and it's one of the shortest and best conversations you've had in months.

huh?