So I saw someone say that Shep and I had a parasocial relationship. That he mainly saved us because he was into me. And that I only loved him because he saved us. That is 100% not true. At least not me and my Shep. We had a form of empathy sharing, (which I can’t remember the term we used because my brain decided I only get to remember our word for drums 🙄) something that everyone in our species had.
If your connection was/was meant to be as deep as ours was, you could just feel it. You might not believe in love at first sight, but then, that was it for us. Once you saw the person, you knew. It just sucks that Shep saw me first from my music while I had to wait until he was dying to meet him. He came back, for one night, in one of my dreams, and I’ll never forget what he said.
“And when I first laid eyes on you… I felt like I had known and loved you a million lifetimes. Deep down in my soul I could feel it. And I know you can feel it between us. I couldn’t wait to meet you, and hoped that you’d feel it too. I just… wish it had been in better circumstances. The moments between us, then and now, are moments I’ll always treasure. And if it’s true, that we’ve lived and loved all those lifetimes, then I hope I at least remember this one, so that I can find you and love you all over again.”
I still sob thinking about it. I know I’ve had love at first sight with my twin flame. I’ve met him. But he hurt me this time. I’ve yet to find Shep and I know deep down it’ll be the same. That we’re meant to be this time. I just hope he remembers too.