#stellakin

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Something odd I don’t often mention is seeing other roblox-related kins feels oddly euphoric to me. Like meeting a cousin I never knew existed at a family gathering. One big fucked up family. It’s nice to know there’s others like me, even if nobody else is from my source (that I have yet to meet, LOL)

- Stella, Tower Heroes (🎨🐠) (no axolotl emote so I have to make due)

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[fictionkinfessions]

i miss my boat and my cat and my family and my friends. hope you guys are good! i look for you in the stars. :)

- stella, spiritfarer

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[fictionkinfessions]

I know my past lives well. I know that Darkwood isn’t here. I don’t understand how this universe works, I just know he can’t come through to this one. But that doesn’t stop the paranoia that he could be waiting somewhere for me. Waiting to steal me away again. Waiting to subject me to the same horrors.

But I have Arpegius and Baryl here to protect me here and Octave to protect us all from Darkwood on the spiritual side. There’s no way he can actually hurt us anymore. But I’m still scared he will sometimes. Especially Baryl. So naive, so trusting this time around.

Baryl, Pegi, if you see this, know I’ll do whatever to keep you safe from him. Even if it means he’s keeping me instead of you. I want you both to be safe and happy.

- Stella (Interstella 5555) 💫✨🩵

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[fictionkinfessions]

seeing people on hellaverse communities say i never cared for my daughter because i never touched my daughter in any of the family portraits. excuse me?? ex-fucking-scuse me? ARE YOU ACTUALLY KIDDING ME?? i know i shouldnt let internet dipshits get to me because they know nothing about my life but wow arent we taking a fucking leap of faith. i havent watched anything past apology tour bc ive been busy but wowie fucking wow. ill have you fucking know that i loved octavia with all my heart and yeah, i can admit that i was an ass in my canon, BUT SAYING I NEVER CARED ABOUT OCTAVIA BECAUSE I DIDNT PUT MY HAND ON HER SHOULDER IN TWO FAMILY PORTRAITS?? wild fucking take, i now sentence every dipshit saying i never cared about my daughter to a full movie of *my* canon and a media literacy class

- Stella (Helluva Boss)

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So I saw someone say that Shep and I had a parasocial relationship. That he mainly saved us because he was into me. And that I only loved him because he saved us. That is 100% not true. At least not me and my Shep. We had a form of empathy sharing, (which I can’t remember the term we used because my brain decided I only get to remember our word for drums 🙄) something that everyone in our species had.

If your connection was/was meant to be as deep as ours was, you could just feel it. You might not believe in love at first sight, but then, that was it for us. Once you saw the person, you knew. It just sucks that Shep saw me first from my music while I had to wait until he was dying to meet him. He came back, for one night, in one of my dreams, and I’ll never forget what he said.

“And when I first laid eyes on you… I felt like I had known and loved you a million lifetimes. Deep down in my soul I could feel it. And I know you can feel it between us. I couldn’t wait to meet you, and hoped that you’d feel it too. I just… wish it had been in better circumstances. The moments between us, then and now, are moments I’ll always treasure. And if it’s true, that we’ve lived and loved all those lifetimes, then I hope I at least remember this one, so that I can find you and love you all over again.”

I still sob thinking about it. I know I’ve had love at first sight with my twin flame. I’ve met him. But he hurt me this time. I’ve yet to find Shep and I know deep down it’ll be the same. That we’re meant to be this time. I just hope he remembers too.

-Stella 🩵💫

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sorry if this is weird but. uh. hi. it's nice to know that there's other people from interstella 5555 out here. and that (hopefully) you're doing ok after everything that happened

- shep

Shep!!!! It's so exciting to hear from you!!! I'm sorry it took me longer to respond but tumblr never notified me that you had messaged me in the first place :(( I'm doing... alright, if I'm honest. I could be better but I've also been worse 😅 I get some memory flashbacks at random sometimes but it's fiiiine 😅I hope you're doing well after everything as well, or at least as well as we can be after all of that 😅 you're always welcome to reach out, especially off anon if you'd ever like to talk more!!

[fictionkinfessions]

Okay. It’s already been a few hours sent that ask I sent got through, um.. this might get posted first before that one so idk.

IM FUCKING STELLA. WHY DO I HAVE TO BE A A PROBLEMATIC/BITCHY CHARACTER. This is so not far AT ALL. Anyways, gonna go on a little rant here?? I hated Stolas, and I STILL do. But at the same time I cared about him, it’s so stupid. I wasn’t really mad at the fact he cheated, I could give less fucks about that. It was for other reasons why I was so upset with him. Also I am not apologizing to ANYONE because you don’t need one from me. OH WHY WAS MY FAMILY SO WEIRD AROUND ME????? I want to GAG because of it. Especially my brother, from what I remember. I just feel so weird thinking about him and my other family members.

Also, to any Strikers out there. Hello darling!! Miss you dearly. I still very much respect you!<3 -Yours truly, Stella (Helluva Boss) #🩵👑🦢

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for canon regrets: i regret a shit ton. i regret building a toxic environment between the 3 of us (me, octavia and stolas), i regret so many of my outburts.. i even regret yelling at stolas. in my canon, my entire life led up to a marriage i never wanted to be in. all i was to the goetia family was a bride. and when my one thing that i was was taken away from me i got mad. i didnt want to lose my familys honor, but stolas didnt. that made me angry. why couldnt he care like i did? all of the years i would just yell and complain because i just couldnt understand what else i was supposed to do in my life.

i cant believe im saying this but.. to all the stolas kins out there, i'm sorry. truly. i may have even been mad at you in this life but i really am sorry.

- Stella (Helluva Boss)

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