#step 8

[followerofmercy]

Event from about an hour ago

1. Be me

2. Be en route to a wax appointment that I’m gonna be late for if I don’t hurry

3. Be driving 120kph/75mph on the interstate with the windows down because road sounds are awesome

4. Stare in horror as my vehicle insurance card that I keep in the sun visor pocket gets sucked out the window like an unattended infant out of a depressurized airplane cabin

5. Question what just happened

6. Panic, but like, calmly, because I am operating a multi-ton mass of metal and plastic at speeds no human was meant to go under their own power and are definitely not rated for collisions at

7. Resign self to whatever God has in store next and keep driving

[plainwaterpdf]

Just had an unbelievably connected conversation with my ex (sophie). She has just finished the last exam of her degree and has so many mixed feelings about it. I told her how proud i am of her, that she has made it, that she's still here. That she gets to live. We are both crying through facebook chat. Exchanged Mary Oliver quotes. Told her she is the first great love of my life and I never stopped caring about her. She has offered her extensive knowledge of the therapeutic system which I will definitely follow up on. We are hanging out on Monday. I feel good... sad but good... that we get to be this connected now... it is just reassuring.

[justinbthemagician]

Bardon Step 8

Spirit:

This section opens up a huge new world to the initiate with the power to project the mind or spirit outside of itself and perceive what is going on. It gives the proper training and tests for accuracy. This is not quite astral level but it should be at least a little like the experience of a hypnagogic vision. It should be clear and controlled. Your focus and control in steps 6 and 7 of the spirit will decide how well you do here. If you find it difficult the culprit will be what was done or not in those steps.

Soul:

Bardon gives a fantastic explanation of how one should live now that you have trained this far in his description of the “Great Now” the magician should be in charge of their abilities and if they are not they could cause manifold problems with the powers they have developed. We then go into the power of the electric and magnetic fluids. The Plus and minus or god and goddess forces. Every comprehensive magical training system has such a place in their system of these two powerhouse forces even if it give them a symbolic form and calls them the Lord and Lady. It is in building experience and the ability to channel these forces the magician takes a new step in wielding divine forces. It sounds like hubris to describe what is possible but for a moment imagine if you could draw in and direct into one hand the power of the divine male and in the other the divine female. That is what you begin to work with here so obviously patience and caution are required. I had trouble with this step trying to go too quickly and almost lost myself, do not let the possibility happen to you, please. Thankfully the gods must not mind me all that much so I got through it and learned to patiently work with these powers.

Once you begin getting the hang and swing of this step you are now initiated high enough to begin work with evocation in Bardon’s system as well as Kabbalah. If you are like most you have hungrily read through all of Bardon’s works to see what is ahead of you. If you have not reached this step most of what you have in mind is wrong in some way just because you have not had the experience and training to properly understand it. It would be like walking into a college course while in grade school. You may nod along but it is not designed for you in mind. I have in the past spoken to many initiates who have asked can evocation and kabbalah be done without reaching this point and the answer is yes, of course. You will even get results! The results if they come will be weak, not properly understood and the experience muddied by imbalances within your mind and soul. But, it would still be a learning experience. And, maybe like me the gods don’t mind you so much.

[waystofixrvb]

Don’t suddenly have a villian gain a heart of gold against his long time partner in crime to end a plot you can't figure out how to end naturally

[waystofixrvb]

For the love of god, say the word bisexual once and don’t make it a punchline.

[aca-serenity]

[fertility-journey]

Strengthening my comebacks

Family and friends are welcome to understand the journey I am on. There are a wide range of emotions that I will be feeling. All that I ask is that if I would like to talk about it, they will be there for me.

I am however going to set a boundary that acquaintances do not need my energy to explain. If someone asks:

‘When are you going to have children?’ - ‘When the time is right’. 

‘Why are you drinking water?’ - ‘Just getting some high quality H2O.’

[whatmesober]

Thoughts about Steps 8 and 9 In the 8th and 9th Steps we learn to see and examine our deeds without hiding behind our excuses. Am I (or was I) really ready for those steps? Did I complete them from that perspective? Do I need to take another look?