Well Buddy the Nazis came back openly doing the seig hail on a global stage at the R.N.C
Multiple American Law makers and celebrities keep saying Nazi's and Hitler aren't bad people and stop being political and dramatic.
There was a Coup De tat in America.... In which the head of it became president again and pardoned everyone who took part.
There's a group called immigration and customs enforcement rounding up anyone who people think is 'Illegal.' and placing them into 'Detention centers en masse.' These detention centers are unsanitary, ignore the health needs of the detainees leading to death, give tinfoil as blankets in the winter, are holding people for unspecified amounts of time sometimes indefinitely, are over-crowded, Agents have killed people they are rounding up or 'stopping.' People die shortly after being released but they stopped counting the deaths. Children are kept here without parents they are using mandatory medical check ups and court dates including naturalization meetings where they get citizenship. The President tried to revoke Birthright Citizenship, American citizens including Veterans have been detained and held for long periods of time. I.C.E pulls people from their homes. I.C.E has waited at polling places. Those who criticize I.C.E Including on social media are getting arrested for up to 50 years. Protesters are also being arrested as domestic terrorists but White supremacists such as Patriot Front, Proud boys, Literal Neo-Nazi's are allowed to walk free and 'protest.'
Anti-Fascism,Killing Nazi's, believing people should be given Equity, and everything we fought for in world war 2 gets you labeled a domestic terrorist.
The United States Repealed the Following;
•the Voting Rights act
•Abortion Rights
•Federal Contractor Protections
•They are trying to repeal the Olmstead Act
• gender affirming care and gender Identity protections
•Diversity Equity and Inclusion and any programs that even mention it
•Disparate Impact protections and programs aiming to protect marginalized communities that are disproportionately impacted by health inequity, wealth inequity, housing inequity and education inequity.
America pulled out of;
The Paris Climate Accord
The World Health Organization
Oh and the Department of Education was abolished
Bucky: Anyway Hope Abandoning me and Screwing Peggy was worth it 😃👍
YOU KNOW THE WORST PART OF THE STEVE ENDGAME ENDING WHERE HE GOES BACK IN TIME AND LIVES WITH PEGGY??? HE HAS TO LOOK HIMSELF IN THE MIRROR EVERY DAY KNOWING THAT BUCKY IS OUT THERE BEING TORTURED AND BRAINWASHED. KILLING PEPOLE, HURTING PEPOLE, HUNTING FOR THE FUCKERS WHO DID IT TO HIM IN THE FIRST PLACE. AND STEVE CAN'T INTERVEINE OR NONE OF THE FUTURE HAPPENS IN THE RIGHT ORDER AND HIS HAPPY ENDING WITH PEGGY IS COMPROMISED. HIS BEST FRENID IS OUT THERE, BEING TORTURED ABSUED AND MAYBE EVEN WORSE. AND STEVE CAN DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT, BUT HE DOESN'T. AND MAYBE PEGGY, BLESS HER, IS HUMMING IN THE OTHER ROOM, APPLE PIE'S ON THE STOVE, AND HE'S STAREING INTO THE MIRROR ACCEPTING THAT TRUTH ABOUT REALITY. AND SHE GOES OUT ALL DAY, SETTING UP SHEILD. DOING THINGS. HELPING PEPOLE. AND STEVE STAYS IN THE HOUSE. LOOKING AT THE WALLS TO PASS THE TIME. HALUCINATING BUCKY. AND STILL CHOSING PEG. AND HATING EVERY SECOND OF IT.
AND HE CAN'T EVEN GET DRUNK.
not ONLY would stevan grant rodgers NEVER accept that, and the endgame timeline is BULLSHIT, but also even if he DOES get his "happy ending with peg" IT'S NOT A VERY KIND HAPPY ENDING.
AND YOU KNOW WHAT? I BET HE DOESN'T GET TO BE BURRIED BESIDE BUCK OR PEGGY AT THAT END. ALL THOSE YEARS OF FIGHTING FOR BUCK AND ALL THOSE EXTRA YEARS OF CHOSING PEGGY AND HE'S PROBABLY NOT BERRIED NEXT TO EITHER OF THEM IN THE END. STEVE DIES FOR NOTHING. FINN, LETS KILL THE HORSE. I'M SO TIRED. SOMEBODY SEDATE ME.
Warnings: ENDGAME SPOILERS!!! This is low key sad but it’s fine!
Description: You are on the mission with Steve and Tony when you realize the man you love is still in love with someone else, and her name is Peggy Carter.
I just started writing but I think this is really good and It took me forever to write, I think it turned out really good. Let me know if you want a part two!!!!!
You and Steve had been hosting meetings to help those that were struggling with the snap, it was something that generally made you both feel good to know you were doing something to help people, to help them grow. Listening to people’s stories and understanding that their pain was shared, and that their pain was felt by others helped, you thought. To feel misunderstood is one of the loneliest things, so this group helps people feel less alone even in a world where half of the population has reduced to ash. You get up from your seat quietly careful not to interrupt the man talking, you usher past Steve laying your hand on his shoulder squeezing it lightly before heading around the corner to the restroom.
You try and make it back quickly to hear the stories, make sure everyone felt as if they could share their personal stories with as many people as they could. The door we left open during meetings in case any stragglers wanted to come in last minute to get what they needed out in the open. When you reach that point you can hear Steve’s voice talking, ‘’I went into the ice in forty five, right after I met the love of my life,’’ He says. I put my hand over my mouth out of shock, I just didn’t know how to take what he said. ‘’You gotta move on,’’ He pauses for just a second, ‘’You gotta move on, because if not Thanos should’ve killed us all.’’ He says. Hearing him say that made me feel a bit better, but I still felt a weird about what he said.
I realize I’ve been gone for too long and the meeting was almost over, I quickly make my way back into the room taking my seat next to Steve, I look over to him giving him a smile.
‘’Everything okay?’’ He asks.
I cough, which was for sure a tell of mine when I was lying, ‘’Yeah,’’ I say smiling again at him. He knew I was lying but he chose to not say anything. ‘’We should go see Nat, I’m worried about her,’’ I say, and he nods his head in agreement. We stay for a few minutes until after everyone from the meeting has left and we head back to the compound.
●●●●
Things had quickly picked up from the time you had visited Natasha, Scott Lang who we all met a few years back came and basically told us about a time machine that could help us go back and get the stones and bring everyone back. It was a long shot and we had finally gotten everyone back Clint, Rocket, Nebula, Rhodey, Thor. We all had our missions I was set to go with Tony, Steve and Scott to help retrieve the stones.
Our mission quickly went to hell since Loki escaped with the Space Stone, I was retrieving the stones with Bruce but once he received the time stone I quickly told him to get the stone back to the compound and I would go check to make sure Steve, Tony and Scott all got the stones they needed. It was evident when I arrived to see Tony and Scott sitting in the car that they hadn’t gotten all the stones we needed. Steve arrived shortly after with the Mind Stone, of course he’d be the one to get everything done swiftly.
‘’There has to be another way!’’ I say. I can feel myself on the verge of tears, we were so close to getting everyone back. We all lost people in the snap, to think about the families, our support group, our team and how we were all affected it would mean more than anything to get everyone back.
I started to pace back and forth waiting trying to think of an idea to help us, but nothing I could think of would work not with Loki escaping we had no idea where he went. I can hear Steve calling my name in the background, trying to get me to calm down as he could tell I was panicking. I can hear Scott and Tony bantering back and forth at one another and then all of a sudden Tony swiftly gets up walking over to Steve, ‘’How vague?’’ Steve asks, I can tell he’s desperate if he’s talking about it being vague.
‘’I know they were there, and I know how I know,’’ Tony says, I see Scott raise his arms in disbelief.
‘’You realize if you’re wrong your not coming back? We have one particle each!’’ He says.
I see Tony look to Steve, ‘’Do you trust me?’’ Tony asks him.
‘’I do,’’ He answers, no hesitation in his voice.
‘’Me too,’’ I agree walking over to them, my suit appearing to match theirs. ‘’I’m going too and you can’t stop me. You guys might need help, or at least a lookout.’’ I say sounding more sure of myself then I was feeling.
Tony and Steve both glance at each other as if questioning me but to each other, Ultimately they agreed to let me go because they knew I’d find a way to make it to them and they didn’t want to risk losing anybody. ‘’Scott take that back to the compound,’’ I say sternly. He looks at us worried but agrees even though I know he’s strongly against our new mission. ‘’You’re sure about this?’’ I say giving a quick glance to Tony, he nods in agreement and I look to Steve, ‘’Let’s get it done then,’’ I say.
We all sync up heading to our location following the ways of the Quantum Realm back to S.H.I.E.L.D in 1970. Once we arrive we quickly discuss our missions and we are on our way. Steve’s job was getting more particles for our journey back, Tony’s was to find the Space Stone and mine was to mostly make sure neither of them got caught, specifically Steve since his was more public then where Tony was going. Steve makes a fake call to Hank Pym before slipping into his lab to find more particles while I kept a watch out a few doors down.
I notice a woman dressed in Blue walking up to guards so I make my way closer so I can hear her, ‘’Two men,’’ I hear her say along with the words suspicious. Shit.
I quickly make my way back down the hallway hearing her voice only a few back from mine, when we enter the hallway I speed walk as quickly as I can to Steve who’s walking down the hall toward me as well as the guards. We quickly usher into a room just as they pass us, we got lucky.
I kept myself near the door making sure everything was clear before turning around to find Steve holding a picture frame of himself before he was injected with the serum. I felt myself hold my breath as I knew the only person that would have this picture. Steve turns around just as I do to find the name Margaret Carter written on the door, this was her office. I look at Steve’s face and I can already tell by his expression he doesn’t know what to feel, or what to do. I hear voices coming close to us and then a door shut in the room that’s connected to Peggy’s office.
It was Peggy.
She was here, It made sense I didn’t even think about it before we came I’m sure Steve didn’t either as we were so focused on getting the stone as well as the particles. I try and hide afraid they would see our shadows, I turn to grab Steve to pull him closer to me but when I turn he’s standing right in front of Peggy at the window. He was staring at her as if this was the only thing in the world to him, at one time she was but I didn’t expect him to fall back so quickly, especially after him telling the group we had to move on. You had moved on Steve, I’m right here!
I see the expression on his face, I see the look he gives her how he watches her like he’s hanging on to his last breath. The only thing separating them right now was the glass, but was that enough? This is the first time he’s seen the Peggy he fell in love with. He was still in love with her when she was old and on her death bed but this was the Peggy who was with him from the beginning this was the Peggy I never wanted to meet. Not because I knew she wasn’t great I admired her and everything she did for S.H.I.E.L.D as well as what she did for Steve, but because this was the only woman I knew I could lose Steve too.
‘’Steve,’’ I say my voice breaking even though I tried my hardest to act as if it didn’t bother me.
I watch as Peggy quickly leaves the room yelling as mess at the man behind her, I watched as Steve finally let that painful expression leave his face as she left the room. He looks over to me I can see it in his eyes the sincerity realizing I just had to watch him pine over the girl he loved. ‘’Let’s go find Tony.’’ I say sternly. He didn’t speak he just followed me outside to look for Tony. I don’t know if that was because he didn’t know what to say or because he knew what he just did said it all.
I think as we are walking, I had finally met Peggy. The one Steve loves, I would say loved but I knew what that meant in there. I knew that meant he realized he could have her back if he wanted to. He could come back and he could be with her if he really wanted. I just hoped that I was enough to keep that from coming true, but then again who am I to stand in the way of Steve and his happiness even if that happiness isn’t me.
READ PART 1: Here (I’m sorry i you can’t see this on mobile the first part is on my profile like right below this I’m still new to writing and havent figured out how to do links yet! so if you all wanna give me some advice it would be much appreciated!)
Word Count 2.1k
Description: The war was over, everyone was exactly where they were suppose to be or where they? Pt 2!
It was finally over, the fight of our lives was over and we lost Natasha, and we lost Tony. Thanos was gone reduced to dust which seemed very fitting, as well as his army. It had been a few days after the fight, the compound was destroyed I don’t know how we were going to find a way to repair it, if we even could.
Everyone attended Tony’s funeral, everyone. I stood by Steve squeezing his hand tightly as a tear ran down my face. I watched as Pepper held Morgan so close to her, as if she was shielding her from the life she would have to live without her father. After the funeral when everyone had scattered and began giving their condolences to Pepper I walked over to Morgan as Steve went to Pepper. ‘’Hi Morgan,’’ I say bending down so I was at eye level with her.
‘’Hi,’’ She says taking her fingers and twirling them around in her hair.
‘’You know you’re dad was a pretty cool guy,’’ I say and I can feel the lump in my throat as I keep talking, ‘’He was the one who introduced me to juice pops you know?’’ I say.
She nods her head still twirling her fingers in her hair, ‘’Can we go get one?’’ She asks.
‘‘Of course, Let’s go!’‘ I say taking her hand in mine. I walk over to Pepper and Steve who were still talking, Steve’s face looked like he had been crying during there talk which I’m sure he did. ‘‘We’re gonna go get some juice pops, is that okay?’‘ I ask Pepper and she nods looking down at Morgan smiling. You could tell Pepper saw Tony in her, as did everyone else.
I nod at Steve smiling at him letting him know I was there if he needed me, he kept his face like a stone the entire time. I could feel him staring at us as we turned around walking back into the house to get the juice pops, I turn around just as the door was closing to find out I was correct he was still standing there watching us. I wanted to fix his sadness in that moment, looking at him you could tell he was broken he was in need of fixing, he looked like a lost child like he had lost the battle when in reality we had won it.
A few day’s later after we had built a new quantum tunnel it was time to return the stones. Bruce made it clear multiple times after we had taken the stones that we needed to return them to the exact point in time that they were taken. I volunteered to take them back because I knew Steve was in no condition, but some part of me felt as if that wasn’t the only reason. I felt guilty because apart of me felt as if I wanted to take them back because then Steve wouldn’t get the chance to stay in the past and be with Peggy, I’d come back and he’d be with me exactly how I wanted it.
Steve protested my request saying he was the one who needed to do it, not only because he felt like it was his job but because if something went wrong he didn’t want me to face the consequences. I helped Bruce set up the quantum tunnel and we get all of the stones ready in the briefcase, handing it off to Steve. I watch as he talks to Sam and then over to Bucky, ‘’Don’t do anything stupid until I get back,’’ He says.
Bucky smirks at him, ‘’How can I when your taking all the stupid with you,’’ he says. I see them hug and exchange a few more words before Steve turns around walking back over to me.
I wrap my arms around him tightly hugging him, he returns it with one just as strong, as if it were the last he would give me. I hug him for a long time, probably longer than I should have but I wanted to just in case. I let go slowly but still have my hands touching him, ‘’I wish you’d let me be the one to do this,’’ I say to him. ‘’I don’t want to be selfish, but you know how I feel about you and I don’t know if this is going to be my last chance telling you. I love you, so much. I can’t imagine losing you, but if it’s what’s going to make you happy then I will.’’ I say pausing I can feel tears running down my face. ‘’Because all I want is for you to be happy, even if it’s not with me.’’ I say sniffling. I raise my hands up to my face trying to wipe away the tears. Steve’s hand tries to wipe them away as well.
‘‘This is your chance to be selfish, and your the most selfless person I know. I’m so sorry if this seems like I’m being selfish, but I just had to let you know.’‘ I pause. ‘‘If you choose her I understand.’‘ My voice breaks when I say it. ‘‘You need to go though,’‘ I say finally pulling away from him, I can tell he want’s to say something but I quickly turn around walking back toward Bruce who’s giving me the most sympathetic look. I look around and see Bucky and Sam as well giving me almost the same exact look. Steve stood there looking at me still, he picks up the brief case standing next to him walking on the platform. He picks up Mjölnir which was laying next to him and his suit appears on him quickly.
I can feel my body growing anxious with anticipation, my heart was beating at a rapid pace I could guarantee you it was about to pop out of my chest.
‘‘How long will this take,’‘ Sam asks glancing over to me and Bruce.
‘‘For us three seconds,’‘ I pause. ‘‘For him as long as he needs,’‘ I say glancing at Steve making eye contact with him.
‘‘Starting jump in five, four, three, two, one.’‘ Bruce says counting down. And then Steve’s body disappears off of the platform leaving nothing but suspense off at least to me. ‘’And returning in three, two, one.’’ He says, we hear the clicks as if he’s suppose to return but he doesn’t.
‘‘Where the hell is he?’‘ Sam asks, I can hear Bruce yelling back at him that he missed his time jump, ‘‘Get him the hell back!’‘ Sam yells his voice panicked.
I kept staring at the blank spot where he stood before us just a few seconds ago; I really thought telling him one last time would make him stay, I was wrong. I look over and find Bucky already staring at me, giving me a nod as if he was saying, be happy for him. I was happy for him, truly. I was happy he finally chose to be selfish as he had spent so many years being altruistic. I cross my arms over my chest, nodding not to anyone in particular just kind of the nod you give when you finally understand, and I finally understood.
I look at the platform once more, hanging on to the only bit of hope I had left that I was enough, that I didn’t just lose another person I greatly admired. I stand there only for a few seconds more before turning around walking away from it all. I didn’t know where I was going, Tony and Natasha were gone, the compound was destroyed and I had nowhere to go.
I hear Bucky yell out, ‘’Y/N! Sam!’’ he says. I don’t turn around I couldn’t turn around because at this point I had accepted it but if I saw that empty slot where he stood just those few minutes ago then I would lose it. I wouldn’t be able to hold on to the only shred of virtue I had left. So I kept walking, and I didn’t look back.
I had ended up at Clint’s home, he offered me a place to stay with open arms as well as Laura. They told me I could stay for as long as I needed and I knew they meant it but I knew myself better and would probably only stay for a day or two until I felt as if my stay was too overbearing.
It was later that night after Steve had made his choice to stay with Peggy when I was sitting out on the porch talking with Clint. We had talked about how before all this we thought we would never be happy again, Clint had went through a lot when he lost his family and he tells me how he lost all hope of getting them back. We talked about Natasha and how her sacrifice saved everyone, and that we both wish we could thank her somehow, to repay her for what she had done. There would never be anything we could do to measure up to what she had given to save the billions who vanished, her life.
Laura comes down asking Clint if he was coming to bed, he looks at me raising an eyebrow, ‘’You gonna be okay kid?’’ He asks sincerely walking over to Laura wrapping his arms around her. I nod and smile at them wishing them a goodnight before the head back inside.
I sit outside for what seemed like hours just watching the stars, when I finally broke out of what felt like a trance I looked at my phone and realized it was about two in the morning. I get out of the rocking chair grabbing the blanket and wrapping it around me turning toward the door.
As soon as I reach for the door handle a voice makes me stop as if I had been frozen in that very second. ‘’You know when I told Bucky I was with him till the end of the line, that applied to you too you know?’’ I hear his voice.
I turn around dropping the blanket on the floor and run straight to him practically knocking him down in the process. I kiss him for a few seconds, his arms wrapped around me tightly, something I hadn’t felt in a while. When I pull away he’s staring at me tears in his eyes as well as mine, ‘’You came back,’’ I say as my voice cracks once again I pull my hand up to my mouth trying to hold back a sob. I reach my hand up touching the side of his face and move my hand in his hair my hand curling around the back of his neck pulling him in for a hug.
He pulls away from me still holding me close, ‘’When I left I didn't intend on coming back you need to know that,’’ he says, I knew Steve would be straight forward with me even if the truth would hurt me. ‘’When I went back I returned all the stones like I was suppose to, I did miss my time jump on purpose I went back to Peggy and we had that dance I promised her.’’ He says looking at me.
‘‘Then what made you come back?’‘ I ask him confused, he was there with her, he held her in his arms just like he was doing with me right now.
‘‘I thought about what you said before I left, how you felt selfish for wanting me to stay, but you have to understand that what you said was the most selfless thing anyone could’ve ever done. You were willing to give up your happiness in order for me to be happy.’‘ He says smiling, ‘‘If I would’ve stayed it would have made me the selfish one, to know you were here living out what I left behind and I could never live with that.’‘ He explains
‘‘I needed to have my dance with Peggy to realize that it was the past, I was in the ice for seventy years there was a reason for that, I was meant to be here in this moment fighting in this battle and being with you.’‘ He says and I smile I had tears streaming down my face at this point.
‘‘You gave that life up for me?’‘ I ask him.
‘‘I gave nothing up that hadn’t already been decided, I choose this life with you, today.’‘ He says. ‘‘I gave Sam the shield, It’s his time I’ve had mine.’‘ He says and I can see the sense of pride in his face that he made the right choice.
‘‘We can rebuild the compound, for the rest of them and then we can go be normal people, have a normal life,’‘ He says tucking a strand of hair behind my ear, ‘‘We can go home,’’ He says smiling down at me.
Description: You and Shawn have been together for a while, but the one thing he doesn’t get is what it’s like to be you. Based of his song Like To Be You (Feat. Julia Michaels)
First Appearances: Part 1 Part 2 Pt. 3 Pt. 4 Pt. 5 Pt. 6 [COMPLETED]
Description: Your attending your second Met Gala and you and your boyfriend from last year have just recently broken up after you found out he cheated on you. Your being bombarded with questions and are beginning to feel overwhelmed when Shawn comes in and saves you.
Arrangements
Description: You and Shawn are arranged to be married, it’s obvious that he wants out and your too shy to say what you feel. But what happens when Shawn realizes that he does care about you after a scary accident?
Where were you?
Description: Your attending Shawn’s concert with your friends and when Shawn get’s off stage he find that there are some tweets concerning your safety.
Arrangements To be Cont..
Description: [request] You and Shawn are in an arranged marriage what happens when an accident reveals his true feelings not only to you but to himself?
To The Park!
Description: [request] You and Shawn take your brother who has down syndrome to the park.
April Fools
Description: [request] As an April Fools prank you try and trick Shawn into thinking you’re breaking up with him and he gets a lot more upset than you anticipated.
Acoustics
Description: [request] You are a very talented guitarist and kept it hidden but one day Shawn finds out.
Friendly?
Description: [request] One of Shawn’s friends doesn’t like you, after a night out he pushes you to leave and you don’t want to tell Shawn giving him the time with his friends. So what happens when he finds out?
Shawn Blurb ( I didn’t name this one oops)
Description: [request] Shawn is always the one initiating things in your relationship he doesn’t complain ever but then you decide to give him a surprise.
Misunderstandings
Description: Shawn and you weren’t dating but you felt a pang of hurt when you see he’s spotted with another girl out at a club, what happens when he shows up at your door after you’ve been ignoring him?
Shorty! [blurb]
Description: [request] You’re shorter than Shawn by a lot but that doesn’t stop you from giving him the biggest hug you can whenever you can.
Who is she? Part 2?
Description : [request] After Shawn sees you during his night out he is completely taken by you wanting to get to know the girl that remained a beautiful mystery.
Oh baby!
Description: [request] You go into labor when Shawns on tour, he has to see if he can rush home in time to be there for the birth of your son and that includes leaving a concert mid set!
Dad!Shawn, You’re never home!
Description: [request] You’re son tells Shawn he isn’t home enough.
Marvel
Steve Rogers:
Pt.1 Pt.2 :
(PART 2 ALTERNATE ENDING! GOES ALONG WITH MOVIE)
Description: I didn’t name this lmao, but Steve finally sees Peggy again but you two have been together, so what happens when he sees her once again? Will he choose the love he lost 70 years with or you?
Bucky Barnes/SEBASTIAN STAN:
Truth or Dare
Description: You, Nat, Wanda, and Maria all head out for a girls night out and end up playing truth or dare. You get a striptease for your dare and little did you know a certain someone got a show.
Jealous ///SEBASTIAN STAN
Description: [request] Months after you had ended things with Sebastian, he sees you once again at the club with a new guy.
Description: This is the alternate ending that does go in line with how the movie actually ends. If you want to see the other version check out my masterlist! It starts off the same as the other part 2 I wrote but the ending is changed to fit the movie.
Read Pt.1 , Masterlist
Warning: ENDGAME SPOILERS IF YOU HAVEN’T SEEN IT. This is super sad but it’s one of my favorite things I’ve written!
It was finally over, the fight of our lives was over and we lost Natasha, and we lost Tony. Thanos was gone reduced to dust which seemed very fitting, as well as his army. It had been a few days after the fight, the compound was destroyed I don’t know how we were going to find a way to repair it, if we even could.
Everyone attended Tony’s funeral, everyone. I stood by Steve squeezing his hand tightly as a tear ran down my face. I watched as Pepper held Morgan so close to her, as if she was shielding her from the life she would have to live without her father. After the funeral when everyone had scattered and began giving their condolences to Pepper I walked over to Morgan as Steve went to Pepper. ‘’Hi Morgan,’’ I say bending down so I was at eye level with her.
‘’Hi,’’ She says taking her fingers and twirling them around in her hair.
‘’You know you’re dad was a pretty cool guy,’’ I say and I can feel the lump in my throat as I keep talking, ‘’He was the one who introduced me to juice pops you know?’’ I say.
She nods her head still twirling her fingers in her hair, ‘’Can we go get one?’’ She asks.
‘‘Of course, Let’s go!’‘ I say taking her hand in mine. I walk over to Pepper and Steve who were still talking, Steve’s face looked like he had been crying during there talk which I’m sure he did. ‘‘We’re gonna go get some juice pops, is that okay?’‘ I ask Pepper and she nods looking down at Morgan smiling. You could tell Pepper saw Tony in her, as did everyone else.
I nod at Steve smiling at him letting him know I was there if he needed me, he kept his face like a stone the entire time. I could feel him staring at us as we turned around walking back into the house to get the juice pops, I turn around just as the door was closing to find out I was correct he was still standing there watching us. I wanted to fix his sadness in that moment, looking at him you could tell he was broken he was in need of fixing, he looked like a lost child like he had lost the battle when in reality we had won it.
A few day’s later after we had built a new quantum tunnel it was time to return the stones. Bruce made it clear multiple times after we had taken the stones that we needed to return them to the exact point in time that they were taken. I volunteered to take them back because I knew Steve was in no condition, but some part of me felt as if that wasn’t the only reason. I felt guilty because apart of me felt as if I wanted to take them back because then Steve wouldn’t get the chance to stay in the past and be with Peggy, I’d come back and he’d be with me exactly how I wanted it.
Steve protested my request saying he was the one who needed to do it, not only because he felt like it was his job but because if something went wrong he didn’t want me to face the consequences. I helped Bruce set up the quantum tunnel and we get all of the stones ready in the briefcase, handing it off to Steve. I watch as he talks to Sam and then over to Bucky, ‘’Don’t do anything stupid until I get back,’’ He says.
Bucky smirks at him, ‘’How can I when your taking all the stupid with you,’’ he says. I see them hug and exchange a few more words before Steve turns around walking back over to me.
I wrap my arms around him tightly hugging him, he returns it with one just as strong, as if it were the last he would give me. I hug him for a long time, probably longer than I should have but I wanted to just in case. I let go slowly but still have my hands touching him, ‘’I wish you’d let me be the one to do this,’’ I say to him. ‘’I don’t want to be selfish, but you know how I feel about you and I don’t know if this is going to be my last chance telling you. I love you, so much. I can’t imagine losing you, but if it’s what’s going to make you happy then I will.’’ I say pausing I can feel tears running down my face. ‘’Because all I want is for you to be happy, even if it’s not with me.’’ I say sniffling. I raise my hands up to my face trying to wipe away the tears. Steve’s hand tries to wipe them away as well.
‘‘This is your chance to be selfish, and your the most selfless person I know. I’m so sorry if this seems like I’m being selfish, but I just had to let you know.’‘ I pause. ‘‘If you choose her I understand.’‘ My voice breaks when I say it. ‘‘You need to go though,’‘ I say finally pulling away from him, I can tell he want’s to say something but I quickly turn around walking back toward Bruce who’s giving me the most sympathetic look. I look around and see Bucky and Sam as well giving me almost the same exact look. Steve stood there looking at me still, he picks up the brief case standing next to him walking on the platform. He picks up Mjölnir which was laying next to him and his suit appears on him quickly.
I can feel my body growing anxious with anticipation, my heart was beating at a rapid pace I could guarantee you it was about to pop out of my chest.
‘‘How long will this take,’‘ Sam asks glancing over to me and Bruce.
‘‘For us three seconds,’‘ I pause. ‘‘For him as long as he needs,’‘ I say glancing at Steve making eye contact with him.
‘‘Starting jump in five, four, three, two, one.’‘ Bruce says counting down. And then Steve’s body disappears off of the platform leaving nothing but suspense off at least to me. ‘’And returning in three, two, one.’’ He says, we hear the clicks as if he’s suppose to return but he doesn’t.
‘‘Where the hell is he?’‘ Sam asks, I can hear Bruce yelling back at him that he missed his time jump, ‘‘Get him the hell back!’‘ Sam yells his voice panicked.
You look out and notice Bucky staring out at the bench a few feet away, There sat a white haired man and you knew what that had meant, ‘’Sam,’’ You say nodding over to where Bucky was standing. He looks over confused and you watch his interaction with Bucky before he heads over and receives the shield from Steve. You smile knowing that Sam will do the best he can, not a doubt in you he would. You watch them talk a few more seconds before you turn looking at Bruce who gave you a look of sympathy, you look away seeing Bucky and Sam both walking up to you their faces filled with sorrow.
‘’Y/N,’’ Bucky says to you touching your arm which you shake off.
‘‘He wants to talk to me doesn’t he?’‘ You ask your voice cold.
He sighs and you knew that the answer was yes, you take a deep breath and begin walking over to him hearing Sam mutter to Bucky about giving us privacy. Your pace slows as you near the bench and your heart begins to quicken even with him leaving you, he still had the effect to make your heart race.
You step on a leave and it crunches and that snaps his attention to you, you try and hold back a gasp at his appearance. The Steve you had known was gone, and this is what remained this is what he ended up looking life after he had stayed, you hated to think it but you wondered how life would’ve played out if it was the two of you.
‘’Y/N’’ He says.
‘’Steve,’’ you say nodding your head at him taking a seat as far away from him as you could, immediately putting your gaze on water to keep yourself from looking into his eyes.
‘’Please look at me,’’ He asks his voice strained like he was about to cry.
You scrunch your face up feeling the tears coming at his betrayal, you tear your eyes away from the water forcing yourself to look at him. To look at the face of the man that chose someone else, who basically said you weren’t enough and chose her, chose Peggy.
‘’I am sorry,’’ He says, you finally noticed how different his voice sounded not the one who had strength in warmth in it but one that was more fragile and worn down.
‘’What Peggy is to you,’’ you pause trying to swallow the lump in your throat. ‘’What she is to you, that is what you are to me Steve.’’ You clarify. You look at him, ‘’That wasn’t enough to stay?’’ You ask now letting the tears finally fall, showing him how broken he was going to leave you.
‘’Y/N...’’ He says. ‘’It wasn’t fair to you, to know I still had feelings for her after all this time.’’ He pauses, ‘’To finally see her again, and to see how broken you looked after. You would have known, you knew the second you saw my face when I realized we were in her office.’’
He was right, the look on his face said it all, the look of sadness yet hopefulness that was in his eyes as he heard her voice. The way he talked about her at the meeting when you weren’t around. ‘’What I said earlier, I truly meant it if this is what makes you happy then I’m fine with it,’’ you pause building up the courage to finally say your feelings, ‘’But I won’t lie, you’ve left me broken in the process.’’ You say to him.
He doesn’t say anything just staring out at the horizon, watching the water sway back in forth. You couldn’t stand to be with him any longer, ‘’Steve, I am happy for you.’’ You force yourself to admit. You stand up crossing your hands over your arms, ‘’Goodbye Steve,’’ You say. You see he was about to open his mouth and maybe stop you but he didn’t, you watch carefully making sure everything that needed to be said was said when he didn’t seem to have anymore to say you turn around walking away.
You walk back past Bruce who was still looking at you sympathetically, you wipe your tears seeing Sam and Bucky not too far from where they last stood. You walk past them quickly not in the mood to speak to them, you wondered if Bucky had felt the same as you did, if he was angry too.
Then you think of your last exchange with Steve, you had poured your heart out to him begging him to stay and that wasn’t enough. You weren’t one to share your feelings often but you felt everything much deeper than you let on, you knew eventually one day things would be okay again. One day you would think of Steve and be happy that he got what he wanted, his dance with Peggy.
Even if that meant you now had to dance alone.
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