#stillhurting

[mitty-bunny-blog]

"You don't hear me when I scream 'Help! Help! Is there anybody out? I'm trapped in the darkness and there's no way out. Please, please I can't breathe. I'm drowning, and my knees are weak. I'm drowning, but I'm still coming up for air, coming up for air. Coming up for air, coming up for air. Coming up for air, coming up for air.."

[rtgsweets]

still cry over her every single day.

Like clockwork grief, like muscle memory,

like a ghost that won’t stop knocking

no matter how many times I tell it to leave.

I see her in the folds of silence,

in songs she never meant to ruin,

in smiles I can’t hold for long

because they tremble under the weight of her name.

I hate that she still lives in me.

Not as warmth, not anymore..

but as a shadow behind every door I open,

as the ache I wake up with,

as the whisper that says, “You weren’t enough.”

I wish I could turn my heart to stone.

Crush the softness she once touched,

burn the memories like old letters,

reclaim the parts of me she broke.

But here I am.

Still bleeding out a love

she already forgot how to spell

[scriptedwing]

[I hate you]

I hate you.

God damn me—

I hate you

I hate you

I hate you

I hate what you did to me—

How easy it was for you.

I hate that I begged you to stay

Crying out as you abandoned me that day.

I hate that my heart betrayed me

The moment you came back.

That I opened the door

As if you hadn’t left me broken and cracked.

I hate that I believed your apologies

Though I know you meant each word.

I hate that I forgave you so easily

Burying my pain like it never occurred.

I hate how willingly I handed you

The pieces you had already broken.

Only to find my heart left empty

My words forever left unspoken.

I hate how easily you let go

Like two souls never meant to twine and grow.

I hate that I broke myself trying to forget you

Still fractured— still not healed, though.

I hate that twice you shattered me

And twice you made me bleed as I swept up the mess.

I hate that I’m back here on the floor

Like I never learned how to cope with the stress.

I hate that you’ll never read this

Never hear the tremble in each word I confess.

I hate that this is all I have left to offer

A grave of words where I lay you to rest.

I hate that I’m drowning in your absence

Sinking deeper with each breath I take.

I hate the silence you left behind

So loud it keeps me wide awake.

I hate the tears that pour

Fires burning inside my chest.

Memories clawing in

Refusing me any rest.

I hate that I smile at things you’d adore

Like a reflex I can't control.

Then I remember you're gone

And the world feels less whole.

I hate the peace that crumbles when I dream

Reopening woulds carved in too deep.

I hate that I still hope for a future now lost

Suffocating under grief too heavy to keep.

I hate that your ghost still guides my hand

That I sit with my thoughts just like you said.

I hate that I still hear your voice at dawn

Whispering softly inside my head.

I hate that you linger in my thoughts when I wake

Before breath. Before thought. Just the weight of your name.

I hate how you stay when the daylight has gone

Forever a ghost, forever the same.

I hate that you left with no warning

No reason, no trace.

Just a shadow behind

No parting embrace.

I hate that I wish I could turn back time

Erase your voice from the edges of my mind.

But sometimes, memories come creeping through…

I hate that I still think about you.

Not in anger — just in quiet moments

When I least expect to.

I hate that your name still finds its way into my prayers

That I still hope life is kind to you

That I still plead for your safety

That your heart isn’t as heavy as mine

That you find peace and light

Even as I’m consumed by the darkness you left behind.

I hate that forgiveness lives where anger should reign.

And yet—

I hate that I don’t hate you.

I hate that, after everything,

I still love you

I still love you

I still love you

God help me—

I still love you.

[kailnonymous]

I heard some lyrics tonight and thought of you. If I could put words in your mouth, they'd say, "Don't think I could forgive myself. I'm sorry for the ways I used you. And I could care less right now, but you hurt me pretty good too." If only I actually hurt you, maybe I would feel better. I guess my heart is too pure for that.

[heads-in-the-clouds-spacecadet]

Do you hide your wounds or proudly show them???

[televisionjett]

My only outlet right now is music. . . . . . #jasonrobertbrown #cover #pianocover #stillhurting #thelastfiveyears https://www.instagram.com/p/B-GPcc_JXpQ/?igshid=1d3w2y2tg8hss

[deannemunoz]

Rest in paradise Legend. My prayers go out to the Bryant family 😔💔🙏🏽 #StillHurting #RIPKobe #RIPGiGi #mambaforever https://www.instagram.com/p/B77Wkexn4LclJlowegDTk29o3RUSTMuNdp4otg0/?igshid=rjk7xewyamgs

[lakitamonique]

I don’t care how long you’ve been gone the wounds are still bleeding rest well old friend #oneyeardown #stillhurting #stillquestioning 🍀 #Lucky https://www.instagram.com/p/Bz0vj0qFNIP/?igshid=1a8p7ghvdxrs5