come to think of it because of the fucked up enmeshed us vs them family unit i was raised in i like never actually bonded with my cousins despite spending a lot of time with them growing up. they were like coworkers #tome. and because of the fucked up enmeshed us vs them family unit i was raised in when i ran away from home (and the jw church and my hometown And my home country) in the middle of the night it was a lot easier to cut ties with All Those People i knew. from clocking in at the Childhood factory. and then i spent a decade basically avoiding them every time they've reached out with love and concern in my defense they were like hey so yeah ever since you were a little kid we've all been talking about how your parents are fucking you up and we're sorry that happened. i'm not even mad about them not doing anything about it because i get how deeply ingrained the "children are the parent's property" brain worms are but there's probably a reason why my lizard brain was like ok. so. you're going to forget about this message basically as soon as it's out of your sight you're welcome kiddo. don't even worry about it kitten. anyway i am 32 and self actualized so i'm going to be so so brave and attempt contact when i'm back in mexico with my. normalpersonsona
