Hey sweetie, I hope you have a nice winter break! Can I request for 10 things that chan doesn't want you to know about, just like the one you did for felix? Thank you whether you continue with my request or not and have a great day or night!
10 things chan doesn’t want you to know about!!
pairing: bangchan x reader
genre: fluff! domestic chan
word count: 0.3k
a/n: HELLO!!! it’s been a while, right? i haven’t been actively posting on tumblr in YEARSSSS. i’m glad to say that i am breaking that hiatus!!! i’ve been wanting to write for so long, and i saw i had some requests that had come in!! i’m so sorry i never saw them earlier … but thank you regardless for wanting ME to write this!! enjoy <3
1. he loves listening to you sing. in the shower, in the car, while cooking dinner, it doesn’t matter. he just loves hearing the sound of your voice.
2. he can just tell when you’re having an off day. he’ll make sure to send you a freshly cut, hand picked bouquet of your favorite flowers as well as some snacks to cheer you up a bit.
3. he LOVES watching you get ready before you go out. it makes him so happy to see you dressed up and feeling good about yourself.
4. he’ll never admit to it, but if he sees you’re not eating much, he’ll place a few extra pieces of his food onto your plate so you have a little bit more to eat.
5. how shaky his hands were on your first date. he was sure he was going to spill the drink in his cup from how much he was trembling.
6. whenever you cuddle at night, he makes sure you’re sound asleep before letting himself drift off too. you’re always his first priority.
7. he claims that your body wash “smells weird”, but when he comes to you after a shower, a cloud of vanilla scent will follow him.
8. he secretly takes photos of you while you’re out. he never shows you, it’s just a little keepsake for himself when he misses you.
9. even though he’s not a 5 star chef, he’s picked up on your favorite meals and is slowly learning to cook them for you, so you don’t have to spend money on it.
10. no matter where he goes, he always has a piece of you with him. a photo of you in his phone case? a necklace you bought him? a matching keychain with you? he has it all.
a/n: ITS FINALY HERE!!!! i went through a several year long writing slump,, but im finally back!!! thank you guys for the support and i hope you enjoy this as much as i did!!
Growing up with Hyunjin, you could only remember good things - if anything at all. When you were little, the two of you were practically connected at the hip. Whoever was around would quite literally have to peel you off of each other- you both cried every time. Your parents had become friends quickly, thus making you and the blonde the same way. You had played at each other’s houses all the time, watched shows while eating gummies, bathed together, and did whatever else your little imaginations would bring you. If you had baby photos, it was guaranteed that Hyunjin was in at least half of them. It was always “you and him against the world”, you remember promising him. Not much changed throughout primary school, your seemingly endless playdates at the park continued. When middle school rolled around, you got closer- sleepovers every weekend, study sessions which turned into tickle fights, and movie marathons was more than regular for you. And even with high school gnawing away at you, you still managed to pull your way through with him at your side.
Hyunjin was known well for his good looks. He’s practically a walking wet dream as a high school student. You didn’t think there was a girl who wasn’t head-over-heels for him at some point, he’s just that beautiful. Every year there were at least three girls that approached you, asking if Hyunjin was interested in a relationship, or what his ideal type was like.
Thus, at the beginning of your junior year, Hyunjin had managed to have his eye on someone.
“She’s pretty, don’t you think?” Hyunjin asked you with a tired face, the early autumn breeze swirling around your bodies as you entered the school building. “Who? That girl you like? What’s her name…” you trailed off, searching the depths of your mind to remember. Hyunjin mentioned her a lot, but you could never seem to recall it. “Minhee,” he reminded, his voice lowering so no one could hear him. “Thank you,” you nodded, hoping you’ll remember her name at some point.
She was tall; taller than you at least, with short brown hair around shoulder-length. She had gorgeous, shimmering brown eyes and a sharp nose too. Her skin was like porcelain; pale, and practically untouched. She was borderline flawless. Everyone you knew had a crush on her at some point. There was never a time where you didn’t hear Minhee’s name buzzing around the halls. She was pretty, and she was popular - everything you could want in a girl in high school.
And yet, with cold autumn breezes fading into the bitter frost of late October, Hyunjin had already devised a plan to ask Minhee out by the end of that semester. You loathed the idea wholeheartedly, never really trusting her even as she grew closer to not only Hyunjin, but to you as well. Although Minhee treated you kindly, you couldn’t help but be slightly wary of her.
He was going to take her to an ice skating rink, and then get them both coffee from her favorite shop nearby. “That’s the most important part,” he told you. You loved how observant and considerate he always was, picking up minor details that any other person would have deemed insignificant.
Hyunjin called you that night, preparing for his date with the girl. “My little baby is all grown up!” You laughed, sneering at your camera. What he wore wasn’t anything special, considering the bitter cold knocking outside your warm homes. But Hwang Hyunjin could make a potato sack look good, so it didn’t matter much. “Do I look okay?” He stressed, standing in front of his phone, looking at himself. He wore a black turtleneck with dark blue jeans, and a grey wool button down coat on top. His hair was its usual style; half of it tied into a loose ponytail with the rest of it resting above his shoulders. You stared at him for a moment, frowning. “What?” He asked, fear written all over his face. “Do I look ugly? Is the coat too much?” You couldn’t help but laugh at this, how he could even think for a moment that he, the one and only Hwang Hyunjin, could look ugly.
“I’m teasing you,” you said after calming your laughter. “You look amazing. Minhee’s gonna love it.” You smiled. “And regardless, its cold out! We can’t have our little baby getting sick!” You watched his face intently, his sweet eye-smile showing its way through the screen.
“Okay, I have to leave now.” Hyunjin announced, picking up his phone and holding it closer to his face. “I’ll tell you how it goes!”
“Have fun,” you smiled again, “Don’t get her pregnant!” You teased, before hanging up.
Hyunjin huffed, shoving his phone into his jacket before ushering himself out of his house and to the car. He flopped into the driver’s seat, typing the directions to his date’s home. He turned to look at himself in the rearview mirror once more, before shoving his keys into the ignition and driving down the street. It only took him a few wrong turns and a handful of short stops to reach her house. He smiled at the thought of being with her for such a long period of time. His phone buzzed once more, Minhee telling him that she was on her way. He smiled at his screen, quickly lifting his head to meet Minhee. She walked in an unbuttoned pink sweater over a white t-shirt with a rose bush on it, as well as light washed jeans and a pair of white boots. A pink beret sat neatly on top of her head, pulling the look together. Hyunjin exited the car quickly, meeting his date at the bottom of her stairs.
“You look wonderful,” he smiled down at her, guiding her to the opposite car door, opening it for her. She smiled, thanking him and sitting in the passenger’s seat. He joined her in the car, pulling out of the driveway and making their way down the street.
A few bruised butts and trips over the other person (and a few other skaters), their time spent at the ice skating rink was up. With shared laughter and light brushes of hands, they made their way into the dimly lit streets. Hyunjin’s body shivered, snowflakes finding their way into his hair as he sauntered down the street. “It’s so pretty like this,” Minhee spoke, her warm breath escaping her mouth and floating away with the wind. Hyunjin nodded, a smile forming on his face as he watched her. His gentle footsteps began to taper, leading him to a complete stop before he took out his phone. He pointed it towards his date, snapping a few photos of her admiring the setting. Hyunjin brought his phone down again, studying the photos he took with a small grin forming on his lips. “Hey!” Hyunjin’s head shot up, his eyes meeting a very upset Minhee. She jogged over to him with a playful smile on her face, a tinge of pink at the end of her nose from the bitter frost surrounding them. “You were just gonna leave me walking like that?” She laughed, peering over his shoulder to see what he was looking at. Her face softened, studying the candids he took of her. Hyunjin lifted his eyes slowly, drinking in Minhee’s features. He never noticed the light dusting of freckles across the apples of her cheeks, or the small beauty mark on the tip of her nose. He could feel his face heating up, the realization of the proximity of their faces finally processing. He swore his heart would’ve bursted out of his chest if it weren’t for his ribcage shielding it. “Its so cold, let’s find that coffee shop, yeah?” Hyunjin smiled, praying his voice wouldn’t falter. He began walking again, slipping his phone into his back pocket and wrapping his opposite arm around Minhee’s significantly smaller shoulders.
Minhee let out a small huff, with a cloud of steam following it as they continued walking to the coffee shop in the distance.
Hyunjin rubbed his arms vigorously, following Minhee inside. A small bell chimed, notifying the worker at the register that more customers had come in. The cashier’s head lifted above the pastry glass, a soft smile forming as the couple approached it. “Can I have a small iced americano please?” He asked, taking a step back for Minhee to see the menu, looking around. “And can I have a small matcha latte with steamed milk please?” The cashier nodded, typing in their order. Hyunjin payed for their drinks, and walked over to where Minhee sat. The walls were a soft pink, complimented by streaks of brown and white. Hyunjin watched Minhee, as she stared at the gentle white flakes whirling in the wind.
“Are you enjoying yourself at least? I hope I’m not boring you!” A sheepish smile crept onto his face. “Of course I am,” she replied, smiling directly at him. “I’m with you.” Hyunjin could feel a gentle blush crawl up his neck and onto his face. “I-I think they just called our drinks,” he said quickly, “I’ll go get them.”
Only a few hours later, you could’ve sworn someone died. Your phone was vibrating non-stop, interrupting the show you were watching. You snatched it off of your nightstand, staring at the screen for a moment. You tapped on one of the notifications, opening the continuous messages flooding your screen.
Hyunjin was telling you all about how he and Minhee were a couple now.
His excitement made you unbelievably happy. You smiled, typing a just as enthusiastic reply.
A small, melancholic smile crept onto your face.
But you knew how badly your best friend wanted this.
Just about a year had passed, and the familiar white snow was coating the ground once again. A cold shiver went down your spine as Hyunjin approached you in the bustling hallway. “Christmas is soon, what do you think I should get Minhee?” He asked you, slinging his arm around your shoulder. He was so warm. You still didn’t trust her much, but you learned to endure it. It was probably just petty drama from the year before. “Why don’t you get her some sexy lingerie? We all know you’ll get a rise out of it,” you nudged at him, snickering. You watched the way his eyes went wide, and a bright pink hue brushed across his face. The laughter bubbling in your throat only increased at his reaction. “..you’re not wrong,” he half agreed with you once your laughter calmed down a little bit. “But seriously, has she mentioned anything she’s wanted to see or something recently?” You asked, making swift strides with the boy still at your side. You and Hyunjin had made an agreement ages ago, to not get gifts for each other for Christmas, since the other always managed to get to it before it was actually time to gift them. “Actually, there was! She posted a ring she really wanted on her Instagram,” he recalled. “Isn’t it super expensive though?” You cringed, thinking of the price. It was pure diamond, nearly $1,000. Hyunjin shrugged. “It’s for Minhee though,” he reminded. He knew he could afford it. “I swear, im gonna marry her someday. I love her so much.” He was grinning like an idiot in love, which wasn’t too far off from the truth. A moment of silence passed before you spoke again. “If you’re willing to spend that much, then do it! I think she’ll love it,” you replied. He smiled at you, but more gently. There was a look of gratitude behind it. “Thank you,” he said. “For helping me.” You could hear the way his sincerity practically oozed from the way he spoke. Your heart squeezed at his words.
Hyunjin invited you back to his house after school, where you chased his chihuahua Kkami around the house for about an hour before flopping yourself onto his bed in exhaustion. Kkami followed you soon after, placing himself at the foot of his owner’s large bed. Hyunjin was sat comfortably next to you, unbothered by your stray limbs sprawled out around him. He was scrolling through the website that sold the ring Minhee wanted. “You’re really gonna buy it?” You leaned over him, looking at his screen. he shifted his position for what felt like the umpteenth time in the past five minutes. You couldn’t tell if it was from stress, or your palms digging into the mattress right next to him. “I want to, I’m just scared that she won’t like it,” he stressed, turning to you, who was now comfortably curled at his side. “Hyun, she literally said she wanted it,” you rolled your eyes at his doubt. Hyunjin smiled at the newfound nickname you’d given to him. “There’s nothing to worry about. She’s gonna love it.” He sat there, staring at his screen in thought for a few moments. Suddenly, his arms flung in the air. “Okay, I’ll buy it!” He declared loudly. Kkami’s head flew up, glaring at you and Hyunjin. “Sorry Kkami,” he reached over, patting the dog’s head to ease his poor nerves. He huffed, readjusting his position and facing away from the two of you, falling asleep as quickly as he sat up.
You were on your way to class when you heard an all too familiar voice behind you. Your head whipped around, searching the sea of people for the jogging boy’s face. He hopped his way up to you, ending with a dramatic huff and pose with his hair falling in his face. You smiled as you continued your walk to your upcoming class. The blonde brought his hand up to rake his fingers through his hair before speaking.
“Are you going to Sana’s party tonight?” He asked, watching people pass your figures as you sauntered down the hall. “Only if you will,” you shrugged, not caring much for parties unless you had familiar company. “Okay! I’ll pick you up tonight and we’ll go together, deal?” He clapped his hands together, like a child opening gifts on their birthday. “What about Minhee? Is she coming?” His head perked up at the sound of his girlfriend’s name. “She said she’d meet me there,” he stopped moving, reaching the door of your class. You gave him a confused look, waiting for him to continue. “She’s getting ready with Ryujin and Mina.” Your lips formed an o shape, nodding your head slowly in acknowledgment.
The end of your day went by smoothly. you huffed, dumping your remaining supplies into your locker, considering they’d be deemed useless during your winter break. Hyunjin greeted you right on time in front of your locker, leaning against the one next to it, watching you closely. You slammed your locker closed and slung your backpack over your shoulder before making your way out of the school with your gorgeous friend behind you. “What are you wearing?” He asked, pulling his car keys from his pocket. “To the party I mean,” he corrected himself. “I figured you meant that,” you said turning to him, plopping yourself into the passenger’s seat. “But I don’t know yet.” You sat for a moment thinking over your options. “I might just go in a sweater and some pants.” You shrugged. You were never really a party person anyway, nor did you really care enough to make yourself look over-the-top gorgeous for people you didn’t know. It’s not like you had that kind of attire anyway.
You decided on something simple to wear. It was a Christmas party after all. Downstairs, you could hear your front door close. “Y/N! I’m here!” Hyunjin called from the bottom of your stairs. You gave yourself one last look-over and decided you were ready for the party. You were greeted by Hyunjin’s lean figure at the door as you came down the stairs - looking flawless, as always. He smiled at the sight of you. “Ready?” He asked, grabbing the keys from his pocket. You nodded quietly, the two of you exiting your house together.
On your ride there, you could only think about how lucky you got with your friend. He was gorgeous, and unbelievably kind.
So why did he take such an interest in you?
The drive was short, only about five or ten minutes. You probably could’ve walked, but it was far too cold to go in what you were wearing. Different colored lights could be seen through the house’s windows, shining onto the lawn occasionally. It was huge. As you and your friend walked closer to the party, you could hear the buzz of conversations and music from inside. There were a few people littered in the yard, speaking quietly to one another.
Hyunjin swung open the front door, the smell of booze and people hitting your face like a train. It was so strong.
People greeted you and Hyunjin kindly, giving smiles and hugs. You didn’t know a lot of people there, but you at least knew the host.
The house was a maze, so you decided to take a seat on one of the empty chairs in the living room and scan the room. Most people were dancing, some were already blacked out. You grimaced, turning away. The party only started a few hours ago.
“Hey Y/N!” a girl’s voice broke through your thoughts. It was Sana. She smiled at you, pulling a chair closer to you. “How are you?” You asked, rather loudly. It was hard to hear your own thoughts when the music was so loud. “I’m pretty good, are you liking the party so far?” She shouted back. Your loud conversation continued for a while, until someone called Sana away. She smiled at you, disappearing into the crowd. More people came and went, making small talk with you before walking away again. Is this what parties are like?
You let out a sigh of near boredom. With a huff, you stood up.
You tried to make your way through the sea of people to the kitchen, where very few people lingered around the white marble counter. The music was quieter in here, easier to talk to people that way. There was a huge bowl of red liquid in the middle - presumably punch - and it reeked of alcohol.
You’re at a party, might as well get a little tipsy, right?
You reached for the stack of red cups and poured yourself a cup. Pieces of strawberries and cherries floated on the surface.
You recognized some of the people in the kitchen, looking around as you took a swig from your cup.
One of them was Hyunjin’s friend, Jisung.
“Hey Ji! How are you?” You smiled, walking over to him. He was talking with Changbin - another one of Hyunjin’s friends as well. His eyes lit up when he saw you.
“Y/N! Its been so long! It’s great to see you.” He said, wrapping you in a tight hug. “Hey, Y/N,” changbin smiled, watching you being crushed by jisung. when he let you go, you tried to catch your breath. Jisung doesn’t know how strong he is. “Jesus, you’ve gotten so much stronger since I last saw you.” you smiled, looking at his insanely large arms. “I’ve missed you guys so much!” You said, hugging changbin. The leather of his jacket made you shiver.
“Did you just get here?” Changbin asked, trying to make conversation.
“Yeah, a little while ago. I haven’t really seen anyone I know, so im glad I ran into you guys.” You smiled sheepishly. “Is everyone else here?” You were referring to the rest of their shared friend group. Changbin nodded, taking a sip from the can he held in his hand.
“Did you show up with Hyunjin?” Jisung started. You nodded, wondering about where the boy had run off to. You were only there for about an hour or two, and you’d only seen him when you entered together. “Yeah, im surprised minhee wasn’t insisting that they get ready together.” You tried to suppress your eyes rolling in annoyance.
“Maybe she wanted to surprise him with her outfit, girls do that, don’t they?” Jisung shrugged. “I guess, maybe im thinking too much into it.” Jisung and changbin nodded in agreement. “It was great seeing you guys, i’ll see you later,” you smiled, walking back into the sea of bodies.
More dancing. More booze. More laughter.
You finally ran into Hyunjin, after seeing him once since you arrived at the party. He said he’d been looking for Minhee. You didn’t know what she was wearing, making it harder to spot her in the house of people. you promised him you’d look for her. He frowned at your response, turning away to continue searching.
Many hours into the night, you found yourself a bit buzzed, mixing into conversations like it was nothing. You found yourself with Minho and Seungmin discussing who the hottest people at the party were.
You were way too drunk for this.
You reached for your phone, but its battery was dead. Of course.
You stood up, walking into the kitchen to find someone to take you home. minho called for you once, but gave up quickly. Luckily, chan was propped against the sink, staring at his phone.
“Can you take me home? Im really drunk.” Your words came out in one string of sounds. You were barely coherent. He looked at you with soft eyes. He nodded, wrapping an arm around you to keep you upright. “Where’s Hyunjin?” He asked, looking around. “my phone is dead, I don’t know.” You mumbled.
As you walked, you looked around the living room again, seeing at everyone. So happy. So carefree. Your eyes lazily scanned some faces until you finally caught a glimpse of an all too familiar one.
Minhee, in her champagne dress, giggling away. She was making her way to the stairs, sneaking away from the rest of the party.
“Wait…” you said, looking at the scene. Something wasn’t right, but you couldn’t figure out what exactly.
Chan swung open the front door, the frosty air hitting your body immediately. Goosebumps covered every inch of your skin. By the time you were in his car, your whole body was shaking from the cold.
“Here,” he said, reaching into the back seat. He draped a hoodie over your shivering body, hoping to warm you up. you smiled at his attentiveness. “Sorry it’s not much. You’ll be home soon.”
You thanked him in a whisper as he pulled onto the street.
You don’t remember much else from the night.
Hyunjin let out a sigh, closing his bedroom door and kicking his shoes off. He never found Minhee at the party. He texted her numerous times throughout the night, but all of them were left unanswered.
He was shocked when he felt his phone buzzing in his pocket. It was minhee.
“Hey,” he answered urgently, worried sick about her. “Where were you all night? Why didn’t you say anything?” He spoke again.
He was met with a sigh, and Minhee’s beautiful voice.
“Hyunie babe, can we talk?” Her voice sounding so sweet and kind. “I’m not doing this with you anymore. Can’t stand you, actually.” She sighed.
“What?” hyunjin’s voice was small and weak.
“Oh, how naive you are. You really couldn’t tell? Hyunjin, you mean nothing to me.” She smirked into the phone, her words spilled through it like poison. “But thanks for the sex and all the cash, I guess. this’ll be the last time I talk to you. So bye! Oh, and delete my number too-” The phone call ended with a click. He couldn’t listen to another word from her. he could feel a lump gather in his throat, and his eyes burn quickly.
Soon after, almost immediately, a video appeared in their messages. It was short, but more than long enough for him to realize what was happening. He heard her moaning - screaming even - another guy’s name. He could see her face so clearly.
He covered his mouth, trying so desperately to suppress his sobs. How could someone he loved so much do such an awful thing to him? Did he deserve it?
You awoke with a start, your phone buzzing incessantly on your pillow. Chan plugged it in for you when he took you home.
Not bothering to look at who was calling, you brought the phone to your ear, mumbling a lazy “hello” into it.
You were met with sniffling and choked sobs. The voice was familiar. Too familiar.
“Hyune?” You asked, sitting up. “Hyunjin, is that you?”
You were met with more sobs before a response. “Minhee..” He spoke, his voice shaking. You didn’t say anything, hoping he’d say more.
Then the four words that felt like poison filled your ears.
“She cheated on me.”
That’s when you remembered part of the party. When you were leaving, you saw Minhee going up the stairs. Is that what this was about?
“Hyunjin, I’m so sorry. That’s horrible. Should I come over?” Your words were laced with pity. Hyunjin didn’t answer. more sobs.
Without another thought, you slipped on a pair of shoes, and left the house. Hyunjin only lived up the block from you.
“Im coming, hyune,” you said promptly, throwing your phone in the passenger seat of your car. You turned the key and pulled out of the driveway with one swift move. Within a minute you were at his front door. the driveway was vacant, besides his black car in the back.
By this point, your phone was off and he wasn’t on the other end of the line.
You tried the door without thinking, knowing his house too well. It was locked. A pang of fear struck though your body. That wasn’t like him.
Being at his house constantly, you knew where the spare key was and snatched it from its hiding spot. You flung the door open, running through his house to find him.
“Hyunjin?” You called out loudly, your voice bouncing off the quiet walls.
You could hear his faint sobs across the house. “Hyunjin!” You yelled, running to his room.
He was screaming.
Not crying.
Actually screaming.
You opened the door gently, trying not to startle him. the lights were off and he was sat between his bed and the wall, curled into himself. your heart shattered at the sight.
“Hyune..” You started gently, walking over to his corner. He was still in his clothes from the party, just.. more disheveled. You sat down next to him while he held his head in his hands. he refused to look at you.
“Hyunjin,” you placed your hand on his back, rubbing slow, gentle circles into the fabric.
“What did I do wrong?” He sobbed, gripping his hair at the root. It looked like he was going to rip chunks out. You could feel his shoulders tremble with every sob that ripped itself from his lungs. The sobs turned into loud, labored gasps. He was spiraling.
“Hey, hey, look at me hyune.” You said, grabbing his hands gently. His glossy bloodshot eyes finally met yours.
“Breathe with me,” you said, taking in slow, deep breaths, trying to convince Hyunjin to follow. Eventually his breathing slowed and his sobs were reduced to quiet sniffles.
“what happened..? Can you tell me?” You spoke gently. He didn’t respond. He stared at you for a moment, before handing you his phone with a sigh. The screen displayed the final messages between him and Minhee. There, a video waited. You played it, and stopped it immediately. It was a sextape. You didn’t need to listen very long to know.
You were disgusted. How could she do something like that? Especially to someone like Hyunjin?
“You didn’t do anything wrong, Hyun. She didn’t deserve you.”
“No.. I just..I loved her so much.. why?” He choked, voice hoarse from screaming.
“It’s okay. I know it sucks right now, but things are going to get better. It’s you and me against the world, remember?” you smiled at him.
He sighed and shook his head. “No.”
You were shocked. “What do you mean?” concern laced your words.
“You shouldn’t have to put up with this…im sorry, Y/N.” He whispered, his voice unwavering.
“No, Hyunjin. I’ve been here since the start. I want to take care of you. I’m here for you.” You grabbed his hand tightly.
“It’s pointless, Y/N.”
“Not to me, Hyunjin. Not if it’s you.” Your hand made its way up his frame, playing with strands of blonde at the nape of his neck. “I’m on your side.” tears burned his eyes yet again, silently marking their trails on his cheeks. It was quiet for a moment.
“Promise?” He turned to look at you, breaking the silence. You stared at him for a moment, taking in his pure beauty. Even after crying for hours, he still looks just as perfect. Even with his puffy, disheveled hair and haphazard shirt, he was beautiful all the same.
“Of course I promise,” you smiled, hugging him tightly.
You stood up, holding out a hand to help him up. He looked at your hand and then up at you, and grabbed it tight.
“How about we just hang out for a little while? i can even start a shower for you.” You offered, brushing yourself off. he shook his head, declining the offer.
“I don’t have the energy to shower.” He said blandly, making the exhaustion evident in his voice. he slumped onto his bed, letting out a sigh.
“How about you change out of that and we watch a movie, hmm?” You looked at him. His eyes were closed as his body was sprawled out on the bed. For the first time in hours, he finally looked at peace. You walked over to his desk, covered in old sketches and poems, flicking on the lamp and watching it illuminate the room. you couldn’t help but see a familiar face sketched out in black and white on a crumpled sheet of paper. It was you. You could feel the undeniable heat creep up your neck and ears, and your heat beat just a little bit faster.
Your focus was back on Hyunjin, watching the light bounce off of his face. He was so perfect.
Now you too, were sat on the bed. You lifted his head gently to remove the hair tie holding half of the blonde heap together. Hyunjin groaned, reaching his hands up to scratch his scalp. He sat up after a moment, walking towards his dresser. He slipped off his button-down shirt and dress pants and swapped them for a t-shirt and a pair of sweats.
You were already under the blankets, preparing a movie for the both of you when he switched off the light. He joined you under the covers, just like he would have when you were little.
“We used to do this all the time,” you laughed, rolling on to your side.
“I remember,” he smiled. “My mom used to come up here and tell us to be quiet.”
Silence fell between you two for a while, your focus trained on the movie.
“It feels good to have you here, Y/N.” hyunjin broke the silence, staring at you.
You had propped your head up on your hand at this point, locking eyes with the boy in front of you.
“Im glad to be here. I wouldn’t rather be anywhere else but right here.” You spoke, genuine and sweet. He smiled, and turned back to the movie. You didn’t stop staring. He looked like he was carved out of stone by the gods. He was absolutely perfect.
“You are so beautiful, Hyunjin.” You spoke, so softly you weren’t sure he would hear you.
“So are you, Y/N.” He was now on his side, staring back at you. A blush crept its way on to your face once again, but under the blanket of darkness, he couldn’t tell. You moved your body closer to him, so you could lay on his chest. He welcomed your warmth and let you settle in before relaxing himself.
“You know I love you, right Hyunjin?” You looked up into his eyes from his chest. “More than anything.”
“I love you too, Y/N.” He whispered into your hairline. He left a gentle kiss at the crown of your head and began to play with loose strands of your hair.
“I’ll always be on your side.” You whispered to him, but he had already fallen fast asleep with you on his chest. This was peace. Not just for you, but for Hyunjin too.
a/n: this is from AGES ago but a friend and i were talking about old stories and i completely forgot about it!! i think it’s super sweet,, so enjoy!
“bye, love! i’ll see you later, okay?” you called behind you, walking out the large school doors. you smiled to yourself as you walked home, thinking back to how your boyfriend, felix, asked you to prom.
“y/n,” you heard a familiar voice whisper in your ear from behind you, as you swiftly made your way to your next period.
“come with me for a sec?” the boy said, grabbing your hand. you blinked at him for a moment confused, shutting your locker that was conveniently placed next to an exit. “lix, we have class-“
“so what? this is WAY more important. you’ll love it. besides, it’s lunch anyway,” he smiled at you, tugging on your sleeve. he looked at you with big pleading eyes, the look he knew you couldn’t resist.
“fine. where are we going?” you gave in, a smile creeping on your face.
“it’s a surprise.” he whispered, covering your eyes with one hand and guiding you with the other.
“are we almost there? my legs are tired.” you whiled, after a few minutes of walking.
“we’re here.” you could hear the smile in his voice. soon his hands were uncovering your eyes, blurred figures in front of you. you blinked at the scene a few times, your eyes adjusting to the light.
your eyes opened wide as your hands reached up to cover your mouth. felix had planned a picnic on the school rooftop for the two of you.
a small blanket decorated with dozens of his famous sweets sat there, along with your favorite ice tea, and some popcorn. not to mention the little hand-written sign that spelled out the word “PROM?”.
“felix!” you said looking at him in awe. “you didn’t have to do this,” he smiled at you, grabbing your hand and pulling you over to the blanket.
the two of you ate in peace, sharing loving glances at one another, giggling quietly.
you ran into your house frantically, searching for your dress. you burst into your room panting, your eyes darting from either side of the room. you let out a sigh of relief, seeing your shining cerulean gown, hanging from your closet door in all its glory. “you look wonderful in blue!” your mother always said to you. you smiled at the thought.
you walked into the bathroom quietly, switching on the shower. after all, you only had four hours to get ready.
you stripped off of whatever you were wearing prior, and jumped into the shower quickly.
you sat on your bed anxiety eating away at you, waiting for your phone to ding signaling felix had arrived.
you stated at yourself in the mirror from your bed, admiring the way your gown shimmered in the light.
you almost screamed, hearing your phone ding from your boyfriend’s message. your heart began thumping harder with every step you took, you were convinced it would have beat its way out of your chest, had you not been delicately wrapped in a corset.
“bye!” you called out to whoever remained in your house, shutting the door behind you.
you turned to face felix with a smile, brushing any hair off of your dress. he stood there, gawking at you from his car. a hand reached up to his mouth as he approached you.
“you look so beautiful baby,” he smiled down at you, wrapping his arms around your waist.
“don’t cry on me now, lix!” you giggled, pressing your head to his chest.
once you arrived at the school, you let out a shaky breath, turning to look at your handsome boyfriend. he was dressed in a blue suit tinted to match yours perfectly, a small flower delicately placed in his chest pocket.
“ready, love?” he smiled at you. you nodded eagerly, the music growing louder as you approached the school doors.
you danced nearly the whole night, in complete bliss with felix. he watched you dance your heart out, laughing the whole time. he never thought he could fall more in love with you until then.
once the night came to an end, felix promised to drive you home. you had planned to introduce him to your parents for the first time.
“what if they hate me?” he asked, parking in front of your house.
“lixxie, i promise you they won’t hate you. there’s nothing to hate. you’re an amazing person. and even if they do, who cares? i’m gonna love you no matter what, so what does it matter?” you smiled at him, taking his hand. “they’re gonna love you.” you kissed him gently.
you walked up your front steps, felix’s hand in yours, as he stood behind you. you knocked on the door, waiting for someone to open it. a few moments later, the door swung open to reveal a small woman, and a very tall man. you could feel your boyfriend’s grip on your hand get tighter.
“hey guys,” you smiled. “i have someone i want you to meet.” you turned to look at him.
“this,” you gestured to the tall boy next to you. “is by boyfriend, felix.”
a warm smile spread across your mother’s face, opening her arms to hug your boyfriend.
“he’s so cute, y/n!” she said to you.
“it’s wonderful to have your daughter as my girlfriend.” he smiled to your father, bowing politely.
your father even cracked a smile, calming felix’s nerves a little.
“come inside! you’re gonna get cold!” your father ushered the two of you inside. you sat in your living room, conversing with your parents.
“where are you from felix?” your mom looked at him.
“i’m actually from australia, i moved here a few years ago with my mom.” he answered warmly.
“okay okay, enough with the small talk,” your dad cut into the conversation. “y/n, go shower or something! let us talk to felix!” he waved you off. you turned to your boyfriend, and he nodded. you smiled, and walked upstairs. “don’t scare him away please!” you called from the top of the stairs, the smile evident in your voice.
“she really does mean a lot to me, i’m so grateful she came into my life. i don’t know what i would do without her. she’s my best friend, and i love her unconditionally. thank you from raising such an amazing person.” you heard felix speak. you leaned against the door frame silently, watching him smile, thinking of you.
“well we have an audience now and it’s getting late, thank you for bringing her home.” your father stood up. “you’re a good kid, felix. please treat her right.”
you smiled, seeing how much your parents liked him.
you walked him over to the door, stepping outside with him.
“thank you for tonight.” you said, wrapping your arms around his neck.
“of course. i had so much fun. i love you.” he put his forehead to yours. you smiled, pulling him into a short kiss. you pulled away smiling wide.
“is that my hoodie?” he stared down at your outfit, a pair of shorts and a hoodie way too big for you. you smiled, nodding.
“ill give you more tomorrow if you want, okay?” he offered. he smiled, watching the way your face lit up. you nodded eagerly.
“GET A MOVE ON, LOVEBIRDS!” you heard your dad call from inside. you both let out a laugh, finally letting go of eachother. you said your final goodbyes, watching felix’s car pull away from your house.
you smiled, walking back inside.
you knew he’d be coming over in the future more often.
this is a snippet of a new piece i’m working on!! hope you enjoy, and feedback is appreciated!!
pairing: bang chan x fem!reader
in your coastal college town, the name christopher bang was simply a familiar whisper in the air of the community. he knew everyone — rather, everyone knew him. he was a social butterfly to say the least, making it his mission to bring a smile to the faces of those he came across. but you? that’s a different story.
you were like a book he didn’t know how to read properly. a puzzle he couldn’t quite complete.
he saw you all over the place.
on campus, taking a stroll.
sitting in the park reading.
across the lecture hall, where you couldn’t quite see him.
but you never spoke.
like a mouse in the walls of an old home- quiet, and hardly noticed.
and then he saw you at parties.
you were a completely different person.
bubbly, and outgoing. willing to talk to anyone who would spare you the time.
absolutely bouncing off the walls with energy and passion.
it intrigued him.
He wanted to know who you really were.
You, sober and on your own, not the person you were when fueled by substances in your body.
DISCLAIMER!!!!! this is only a sneak peek of what I've been working on... I hope you enjoy!
pairing: Hyunjin x g/n!reader
genre: romance, angst, hints of fluff??
Growing up with Hyunjin, you could only remember good things - if anything at all. When you were little, the two of you were practically connected at the hip. Whoever was around would quite literally have to peel you off of each other- you both cried every time. Your parents had become friends quickly, thus making you and the blonde the same way. You had played at each other’s houses all the time, watched shows while eating gummies, bathed together, and did whatever else your little imaginations would bring you. If you had baby photos, it was guaranteed that Hyunjin was in at least half of them. It was always “you and him against the world”, you remember promising him. Not much changed throughout primary school, your seemingly endless playdates at the park continued. When middle school rolled around, you got closer- sleepovers every weekend, study sessions which turned into tickle fights, and movie marathons was more than regular for you. And even with high school gnawing away at you, you still managed to pull your way through with him at your side.
Hyunjin was known well for his good looks. He’s practically a walking wet dream as a high school student. You didn’t think there was a girl who wasn’t head-over-heels for him at some point, he’s just that beautiful. Every year there were at least three girls that approached you, asking if Hyunjin was interested in a relationship, or what his ideal type was like.
Thus, at the beginning of your junior year, Hyunjin had managed to have his eye on someone.
“She’s pretty, don’t you think?” Hyunjin asked you with a tired face, the early autumn breeze swirling around your bodies as you entered the school building. “Who? That girl you like? What’s her name…” you trailed off, searching the depths of your mind to remember. Hyunjin mentioned her a lot, but you could never seem to recall it. “Minhee,” he reminded, his voice lowering so no one could hear him. “Thank you,” you nodded, hoping you’ll remember her name at some point.
She was tall; taller than you at least, with short brown hair around shoulder-length. She had gorgeous, shimmering brown eyes and a sharp nose too. Her skin was like porcelain; pale, and practically untouched. She was borderline flawless. Everyone you knew had a crush on her at some point. There was never a time where you didn’t hear Minhee’s name buzzing around the halls. She was pretty, and she was popular - everything you could want in a girl in high school.
And yet, with cold autumn breezes fading into the bitter frost of late October, Hyunjin had already devised a plan to ask Minhee out by the end of that semester. You loathed the idea wholeheartedly, never really trusting her even as she grew closer to not only Hyunjin, but to you as well. Although Minhee treated you kindly, you couldn’t help but be slightly wary of her.
He was going to take her to an ice skating rink, and then get them both coffee from her favorite shop nearby. “That’s the most important part,” he told you. You loved how observant and considerate he always was, picking up minor details that any other person would have deemed insignificant.
Hyunjin called you that night, preparing for his date with the girl. “My little baby is all grown up!” You laughed, sneering at your camera. What he wore wasn’t anything special, considering the bitter cold knocking outside your warm homes. But Hwang Hyunjin could make a potato sack look good, so it didn’t matter much. “Do I look okay?” He stressed, standing in front of his phone, looking at himself. He wore a black turtleneck with dark blue jeans, and a grey wool button down coat on top. His hair was its usual style; half of it tied into a loose ponytail with the rest of it resting above his shoulders. You stared at him for a moment, frowning. “What?” He asked, fear written all over his face. “Do I look ugly? Is the coat too much?” You couldn’t help but laugh at this, how he could even think for a moment that he, the one and only Hwang Hyunjin, could look ugly.
“I’m teasing you,” you said after calming your laughter. “You look amazing. Minhee’s gonna love it.” You smiled. “And regardless, its cold out! We can’t have our little baby getting cold!” You watched his face intently, his sweet eye-smile showing its way through the screen.
“Okay, I have to leave now.” Hyunjin announced, picking up his phone and holding it closer to his face. “I’ll tell you how it goes!”
“Have fun,” you smiled again, “Don’t get her pregnant!” You teased, before hanging up.
Hyunjin huffed, shoving his phone into his jacket before ushering himself out of his house and to the car. He flopped into the driver’s seat, typing the directions to his date’s home. He turned to look at himself in the rearview mirror once more, before shoving his keys into the ignition and driving down the street. It only took him a few wrong turns and a handful of short stops to reach her house. He smiled at the thought of being with her for such a long period of time. His phone buzzed once more, Minhee telling him that she was on her way. He smiled at his screen, quickly lifting his head to meet Minhee. She walked in an unbuttoned pink sweater over a white t-shirt with a rose bush on it, as well as light washed jeans and a pair of white boots. A pink beret sat neatly on top of her head, pulling the look together. Hyunjin exited the car quickly, meeting his date at the bottom of her stairs.
“You look wonderful,” he smiled down at her, guiding her to the opposite car door, opening it for her. She smiled, thanking him and sitting in the passenger’s seat. He joined her in the car, pulling out of the driveway and making their way down the street.
A few bruised butts and trips over the other person (and a few other skaters), their time spent at the ice skating rink was up. With shared laughter and light brushes of hands, they made their way into the dimly lit streets. Hyunjin’s body shivered, snowflakes finding their way into his hair as he sauntered down the street. “It’s so pretty like this,” Minhee spoke, her warm breath escaping her mouth and floating away with the wind. Hyunjin nodded, a smile forming on his face as he watched her. His gentle footsteps began to taper, leading him to a complete stop before he took out his phone. He pointed it towards his date, snapping a few photos of her admiring the setting. Hyunjin brought his phone down again, studying the photos he took with a small grin forming on his lips. “Hey!” Hyunjin’s head shot up, his eyes meeting a very upset Minhee. She jogged over to him with a playful smile on her face, a tinge of pink at the end of her nose from the bitter frost surrounding them. “You were just gonna leave me walking like that?” She laughed, peering over his shoulder to see what he was looking at. Her face softened, studying the candids he took of her. Hyunjin lifted his eyes slowly, drinking in Minhee’s features. He never noticed the light dusting of freckles across the apples of her cheeks, or the small beauty mark on the tip of her nose. He could feel his face heating up, the realization of the proximity of their faces finally processing. He swore his heart would’ve bursted out of his chest if it weren’t for his ribcage shielding it. “Its so cold, let’s find that coffee shop, yeah?” Hyunjin smiled, praying his voice wouldn’t falter. He began walking again, slipping his phone into his back pocket and wrapping his opposite arm around Minhee’s significantly smaller shoulders.
Minhee let out a small huff, with a cloud of steam following it as they continued walking to the coffee shop in the distance.
Hyunjin rubbed his arms vigorously, following Minhee inside. A small bell chimed, notifying the worker at the register that more customers had come in. The cashier’s head lifted above the pastry glass, a soft smile forming as the couple approached it. “Can I have a small iced americano please?” He asked, taking a step back for Minhee to see the menu, looking around. “And can I have a small matcha latte with steamed milk please?” The cashier nodded, typing in their order. Hyunjin payed for their drinks, and walked over to where Minhee sat. The walls were a soft pink, complimented by streaks of brown and white. Hyunjin watched Minhee, as she stared at the gentle white flakes whirling in the wind.
“Are you enjoying yourself at least? I hope I’m not boring you!” A sheepish smile crept onto his face. “Of course I am,” she replied, smiling directly at him. “I’m with you.” Hyunjin could feel a gentle blush crawl up his neck and onto his face. “I-I think they just called our coffees,” he said quickly, “I’ll go get them.”
warnings: a handful of curse words, depictions of intrusive thoughts and implied suicide attempt
word count: 0.8k
a/n: this is for a friend,, its short im sorry!
ghoul, i I really hope that you feel better soon. you deserve so much better than how you're treated. you're so strong and im so lucky to have you in my life. every day that I have with you is a day I cherish forever. I love you dearly. <3
You let out a long sigh, dragging your feet through your shared apartment, throwing your limp, jaded body onto the couch. You didn’t bother closing the door, instead, letting it swing itself shut. Your feet were aching to be set free from their cage inside your shoes, convincing you to untie your laces and leaving them where you took them off. At this point, you were curled into yourself on your side letting all of you self-loathing swallow you whole. silent tears made their way out of the corner of your eye, leaving dark wet spots on the fabric of the couch. More began to join them, a loud, choked sob ripped itself from your lungs. You knew another slump was making its way to you.
You simply didn’t want to exist anymore. Nothing seemed to ever go your way, and you were tired of it. You were tired of waking up and hating what you saw staring back in the mirror. Tired of not being able to go a day without thinking of leaving the planet somehow. You just wanted it to stop. Boy, did you feel suffocated. you could never talk to anyone, in fear of making them feel guilty. your shit brain always managed to tell you that you didn’t deserve the love you received, and made you feel guilty for being sad. You hated all of it.
So what if you did something to rid yourself of pain altogether? The thought alone scared you when it first crossed your mind. And more times than you’d like to admit, you considered doing it for real. But the consequences never dawned on you until then. How your boyfriend, Chan, would react. He’d never be able to forgive himself if he lost you.
You cried harder, guilt ripping you apart like a starved lion. How could you ever even think to leave him like that? You’d ruin him forever.
As if on cue, the soft click of your apartment door made its way to your ears. A whine escaped your lips, praying to whatever was above the clouds that he didn’t see your current state. You grasped the arm of the couch to stand, but steady hands found their way into yours. you paused in front of him in panic. Chan’s hand rested on your cheek, turning your face to meet his. You couldn’t bare to look at him like this, in fear that you might break again.
“Look at me angel,” his voice was gentle and quiet. “Please.” You knew he just wanted to help you, but that didn’t make it any easier to look him in the eye when you were practically crumbling in his hands.
After a moment of his waiting, your puffy red eyes met his warm ones. And, of course, to your dismay, another cry leapt from your throat. You felt so guilty making him take care of you when he already has a plethora of other things to worry about. “What’s going on in that pretty head of yours, sweetheart?” His thumb was wiping your eyes as you tried your hardest to not hiccup as you spoke.
“‘M just so-so tired.” Your breath hitched in your throat as your shaky words fell from your lips, just above a whisper. “Its okay,” chan assured you, stroking your hair. “Take your time.” You took a few more breaths before trying to speak again. You sat there ranting for him for god knows how long, and he stayed with you the whole time. A sigh left your lungs once again, hugging the man in front of you.
Chan’s arms made their way around your form, cradling your body and bringing you to your shared bedroom. He gently placed you on your bed, turning away for a moment to grab one of his t-shirts and placing it next to you. He stood in front of your small frame on the bed, helping you undress yourself. You slipped off your shoes hours ago, leaving your top and bottoms to be removed and replaced. Chan grabbed the hem of your shirt, lifting it gently as your arms made their way above your head. He tossed the stray article of clothing into your closet, focusing back on you. He smiled at your skin reacting to the cold air, leaving a chaste kiss on your collarbone before handing you his shirt, as he unbuttoned your bottoms. he lifted your hips off of the bed slightly, sliding the clothing down your legs, leaving you in your underwear and his shirt. You laid down, curling up to create some sort of warmth within yourself. As if on cue, chan laid behind you in the now dark bedroom, bringing the covers over you both.
“You know you can tell me anything, right? I hate seeing you suffer in silence. I want to help you, baby.” He whispered, kissing the bottom of your hairline. You could feel his featherlight fingertips drawing patterns into the fabric of your shirt. A calm silence fell between you, your restless body flipping over to speak to him. “Thank you. For everything you do for me. I’m working on it, I promise,” you spoke lowly into the dark room, before pressing your lips to his, capturing them in a passionate kiss. “I love you.” you whispered after the kiss, letting him lay on your chest. soon you heard chan emitting soft snores, and you too, joined him in dreamland.