#stupid personal things

[togetherweflyhigh]

I can't help but feel like my friendship is about to be over this year. I even wrote about a curse I feel I have. After so many years things will just stop feeling the same and then no talking happens and then just nothing.

Like, no matter how much I try to be there, I feel like I am not that person anymore and you know what it feels like to be that kind of person to someone and when that ends, it's so painful.

Also, I don't feel like I am the same I was before my depression started coming back which I mistakenly and hopefully thought it was only seasonal depression. I have accepted that it is literally back at a constant rate now. But not only that, I also have grown and went back in some ways that just aren't great personally, but we grow and such as years go on.

I definitely don't want to let go but I just know it won't be me that does.

[iamnotabard]

One of my favorite DA blogs just reblogged a picture of Grifyn and showered him with compliments. ;___; I’m so proud and excited.

[rybuca]

I've been making some improvements to my life to try to make myself better. I've started a course from home to get qualifications. I've planned a couple of events with friends so I have things to look forward to. So why do I feel more low as time goes on?

[mlmgrimreaper]

What anxiety feels like: I HAVE NO CHILL. HOW DO I HAVE CHILL. WHAT IS THE DEFINITION OF CHILL? DEFINITELY NOT ME. NO TIME TO BREATHE. JUST PANIC.

[blurr2blurr]

I just want someone to kiss. All sweet and tinder like...

[nothingeverlost]

I've been really good at not letting myself look at my ex's tumblr at all.  It's a stupid thing to do but sometimes late at night I get maudlinly sentimental.  But I't been a couple of months, since I looked at felt bad and talked to Bella about it.  And fuck it, I slipped.  

And I swear to gods her most recent posts feel like they're about me.  And there's another post that's about her current girlfriend helping her get through her breakup with her ex.  And it's fucking stupid to look on her tumblr because I always feel like shit afterwards.  And confused.  

[dattebasa]

The most beautiful moment on Tumbrl is when on your dashboard you keep seeing the same goddamned posts but you don't fuckin care because each and everyone of the blogs you follow are like family and friends and sometimes you really want to reblog the same post three times because three different blogs reblogged them and you want to add a stupid comment in the tags specifically for them (but I'm always too shy and afraid to bother to do this most of the times)

[peachthievery]

I hate seeing art 100000x better than my own every day because it reminds me of how far i have to go and it only adds to the dumb painful feelings i have in my heart and yet every time i see gorgeous art that i like even a little i follow the artist and now my dash is 90% phenomenal art Do i hate myself (ﾟoﾟ;;