#subspace speaks

[artisticdysfunction]

be sure to work on your Mistake Tolerance!

shitty ass people may have made you feel like every single mistake you make is somehow a catastrophe

which can cause your tolerance for your own mistakes to be super super small!

and thus you have no coping skills whenever you do indeed inevitably fuck up

you need a game plan for life! mistakes will happen and the word isn't going to end over it!

so be sure to work on increasing your tolerance for your own mistakes so it's not as distressing

[snowlilysystem]

"no one who actually has this disorder would ever consider this to be friends in their head"

we have been diagnosed for 9 god damn years. we are 23. we have done our time in the trauma mines, we have moved on. like jesus christ what do you think recovery is? you can't hate yourself into a more functional version of yourself, this is true for systems too.

[artisticdysfunction]

But I'm A Unicorn

birthed out of a horse, i'm a unicorn

but the doctor disagrees

cuts off my horn, stitches the tail, forces my hooves to fuse

what are you doing to me?

aren't i a unicorn?

don't people like unicorns?

oh you're so silly, the doctor says

unicorns don't exist.

you're just a broken horse

as i go on to live

horses trying to decide what kind of horse i am

but i'm a unicorn

they argue amongst themselves

my head hurts

the stitches bleed

i go to the doctor and ask if i'm a unicorn

without a glance at my injured hooves

my bleeding head

the doctor says i'm so silly

unicorns don't exist

and no one likes a unicorn.

[artisticdysfunction]

thinking about how hard it can be to talk about fusion without a million disclaimers about it because the automatic assumption is that it's an inherently negative and harmful experience at every step. and then they wonder why no one with experience in fusion talks about their experiences a lot.

[artisticdysfunction]

i really do hate the comment about how CDDs "arent friends in your head" because of how it isolates those in later stages of recovery who have worked very hard to improve relationships between parts. and also, saying how you wished you could fuse so you can "get rid of" other alters is stigmatizing it just as much as people who hate fusion because it's "getting rid" of your alters.

[artisticdysfunction]

willomancy tip: making a new host is not inherently the solution to getting a good host, especially if you don't know how to solve the problems that made the last host not good at their role.

[artisticdysfunction]

i need people to understand that a complex dissociative disorder is not a system origin labels or a plural label, it is a disorder and a specific kind of neurodiversity that is distinct from those that do not have that specific kind of neurodiversity. it is not alienating those who are nondisordered or those who are mixed origins to say so. everyone is equally valid! and someone with a CDD is going to function differently than someone who has never had one, regardless of how recovered the person with a CDD is.

[artisticdysfunction]

you don't really have the right to dictate that willogenic plurality is self fracturing when you don't believe that endogenic plurality exists.

a solely medical CDD perspective is not going to fit on willogenic plurality, you will fundamentally misunderstand what is going on. even if you don't believe in it, you just can't understand something if you have no desire to understand the beliefs that it comes from.